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Today is my father’s birthday and he would have been 74 years old in the way that us humans who still have bodies measure time. I know his consciousness still exists because he’s sent me signs and I had a visitation dream from him a few months ago. If I had met myself right now a year ago, I might not recognize the person I am today in many ways. But, I have accepted that to dismiss the idea that consciousness continues and that we live on this Earth for many lives is just arrogance. We cannot continue to demand proof for everything, either. That is also a form of arrogance. We have to open ourselves like a door to different possibilities. In any case, I can’t look back at the human I was. I have to move forward.
Still, it’s really hard to experience your first holidays and birthdays “without" a person you’ve known your whole life. It’s not just them that it feels like vanishes in your darkest moments but it’s also an aspect of yourself in a weird way. Everyone sees you and experiences moments with you that are unique and that helps you piece together what your identity is now and what it can become. We’re still all in this primordial mess, really, just trying to figure it all out. So it goes, as Kurt Vonnegut would say.
Also, your body knows the truth even if your heart believes consciousness still exists. In this case, my hair started falling out in long red strands. I still have a full head of hair but I feel like something is missing a little more each day.
My dad wasn’t a very easy person to be around when I was growing up, to be honest with you. He had a bad temper at times and it was best you avoided him when he was in a certain mood. There was a part of me that felt I could never live up to what he wanted me to be, especially in terms of my intelligence. I don’t think he ever realized that I felt this way, though, or maybe he didn’t understand how pervasive my thoughts about this were. I was and still am a very sensitive person. If someone is in a bad mood, I assume it’s my fault. I’ve had significant OCD symptoms since I was little and, because of this, I tend to play and replay interactions in my head, wondering what I could have done differently and perseverating on everything I did wrong. It’s hard for me to move past conflict because of this. My dad had this perception that if you didn’t do things his way, you were contradicting him on purpose or just flat out wrong without realizing fully how different brains can truly be. He didn’t seem to mind conflict (in fact, he seemed to thrive on it) and sometimes things I wasn’t even aware I was doing would set him off. Everyone has their “things” so to speak and rules they decide on in order to exist in a reality they consider reasonable and fair. That’s all I will say about that because I’ve accepted it in my own way.
My dad was also a highly intelligent, talented, progressive, and passionate person. I realized this when I actually sat down to write his Obituary in the summer. Making sense of a life-my life or another person’s life is laughable. We are just so complex. But, we still have to try. As a photographer, I was drawn to all of the photos of memories I had forgotten about with my dad I went through to put together for the service. I don’t have any brothers or sisters so I don’t have a comparison point for how my dad treated siblings. My mom just recently found this photo and it’s very much the age my dad appeared when he visited me in my dream and we were back in my first childhood home in the dining room. He was younger than I am now in the dream and I am still thinking about how absolutely absurd time seems.
What I found in these photos were moments of genuine love and acceptance, even if I wasn’t always aware of them at the time. I was always so stuck in my own head space. If I didn’t squeeze my toes every time I passed a yellow house, something bad was going to happen. If I didn’t tap my fingers every time a red truck went by, something bad was going to happen. If I told anyone why I was hysterically crying for seemingly no reason, something bad was going to happen. Must be, everyone felt like this and went through this, I thought. It was probably just a part of life anyway. I’m sure I wasn’t the easiest daughter. I always thought I was going to be poisoned or get gangrene or fall prey to some unexplained event because I didn’t do all the right things at all of the right times. That’s what having OCD is like for a child, by the way. And, keep in mind that if you know a child who seems melodramatic often, again they might not tell you why they are upset because they are too superstitious about it to do so. There’s an unexpected monster lurking around every corner. It always seems like there’s far more danger in the world than safety to us. Random and painful, life is coming for you. And as Douglas Adams said, “Life is wasted on the living.”
But what I actually just realized in the last few hours of my existence is that going through all of the photos, all of the memories, all of the things my dad wrote in his memoirs class (like when I flew out of a roller coaster at Canada’s Wonderland and he pulled me to him until the end of the ride) is a little like Kintsugi. We’re such broken beings and every day a little more cracked and aching. So, we have to do our best to piece it all back together and make sense of our life on Earth and our relationships. We can re-attach with twine or even lacquer or superglue but what we have left might transform completely from what we started with before we fell apart. I have fallen apart many times myself.
Isn’t it great that we can use Kintsugi with photos to put it all back together again? We’re going to continue to exist, no matter how hard it is. The world can feel like a bunch of noisy nonsense most days. Sometimes, we ask for more when we don’t deserve it or at least think we don’t. We are going to mend and try to make amends. We are going to make mistake after mistake after mistake and we are going to feel so sad about it in a way that feels relentless and we’re just going to keep crawling on our knees to find all of the missing pieces. It’s ok if we leave some of the pieces out when we reconstruct. Maybe we find them and maybe we don’t. Then, we look in the mirror and don’t recognize ourselves. Maybe that’s ok, too. But then we find ourselves in a photo all over again with someone we love and somehow in that moment things make sense again.
Happy Birthday, Dad!
**All photos and senseless rambles are copyrighted. So it goes**
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hunter lipstick // top1salon
lxiv eyes // shimmershop
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rima necklace (now @fameshed) // naanaa's
victoria earrings // ysoral
devil's manner pitchfork // toksik
:: hair ::
somi hair // doux
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“In the pale light of the Moon I play the game of you. Whoever I am. Whoever you are. All sense of where I am, of who I am and where I’m going, has been swallowed by the dark. And I walk through the stars and sky... a trinity of dreams beneath the moon.”
― Neil Gaiman, A Game of You
Trivia of the Day: Bambi said Tsuki means Moon in Japanese. *Smiles big* I learnt a new japanese word!
Random Exclamation of the Day: Look at the harvest moon of 8f8! It looks like the actual moon in the sky! Well it sort of was...is?
P.S. Too sleepy to write but there was initially too much emotions associated with the capture of this scene. :) I'll just drag a sleeping bag right out there and snore those thoughts away. :p
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"I had a sunflower's adoration for the sun, remaining loyal and just emitting that happy energy. I have abandoned my sun...This is my reality. The reality without you. I guess it is true that if you allow someone to get used to your absence, it becomes normal. When the sun is not shining, the sunflower bends. You begin questioning if it even happened in the first place. Memories linger and tease the mind. But luckily, I evolved instead of dying and dove into my own colorful reality, lost in my own passion and embracing this solitude in pure bliss...Can a sunflower really survive without its sun?"
P.S. You just come to a point where you accept reality. That's how it is and there is nothing you could have done different that would change the outcome. Savage reality smacks can be brutal but are necessary.
Note: Because Kintsugi needs random changes. I replaced my favorite piano (just for now) with the 8f8 Indoor DIY Spring bed which I also love. Going to put my favorite things in turn around. Also this Rose Tea set from Trea Time *Insets Big Hearts Here* Half Deer's warm and fuzzy bear cat panda (Thank you bunneh :p) xD and Foxwood's Red Panda!
Fw: P.S. Part of my series called "Abandoned" *Points to the album for other photos in the series.*
Thank you all so much for every award,comment,favs ,support ,group invites .They are all greatly appreciated .
Hugs Lynn
My favorite spot on the sim is by the beautiful painting ,cherry tree in the distance.Its a great spot to sit ,relax and look out at the beautiful scenery :D
Entry for Kintsugi; Spirited Beyond's Grand Opening Photo Competition.
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One of my favourite spots on the sim, the unearthly feel is haunting and beautiful, and reminds me of a place out of time and space. The voices of the children are like spirits in another dimension and the house seems suspended between sky and sea.
Thank you all so much for every award,comment,favs ,support ,group invites .They are all greatly appreciated .
Hugs Lynn
My favorite spot on the sim is by the beautiful painting ,cherry tree in the distance.Its a great spot to sit ,relax and look out at the beautiful scenery :D
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We are all survivors in some way or form but never forget you will always be there for you till the end
I tried a different edit - i wasn´t sure about it - coloring and drawing, but this is kinda new to me, so please be patent (hides)
I used a pose by Dope Mercy (groupgift) and the Sweater Post it. You can edit the Post Its with your own texture if you want to change (like i did) whatever you feel like.
Hair by dura - you can find them in the Mainstore.
Backround is the amazing sim Kintsugi; Spirited Beyond - a beautiful japanese themed spiritual land.
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A tidal wave swaying hearts,
Tsunami of a hopeful start,
Splashing around we go,
Keeping up with the flow,
Despite the waters depth,
Countless promises unkept,
Dual strength is formed,
A unique love born,
Hand in hand from now,
They made a silent vow,
Together like never before,
Looking forward to explore,
Hope, strength and support,
As well as each others comfort,
Tight hug in the end of the day,
Actions have a lot more to say,
Surreal endless connection,
Under each others protection,
Believing in our creative souls,
Cheering till we reach our goals,
To pull up when down,
Will never let each other drown,
Counting the passing days,
Choosing each other, always...
Poem by Me. :)
P.S. I was so inspired by this video: -
World of Dance Stars Charity and Andres CRUSH 10 Minute Photo Challenge - Jordan Matter
One of the photos totally stole my heart, there was just something about how spontaneous that picture was, the one done in the middle of the street on a dirty puddle. Somehow looked so dreamy, so uplifting and so inspirational! I couldn't think of a more better spot to have recreated this shot, in the once Kintsugi, right in the middle of Bambi's maple tunnel and even her amazing breathtaking water droplets seen so beautifully.
Special thank you to Jay, my awesome sweetest friend, for giving me the idea how to do the splashes!
Gleisberg, Jena-Kunitz, Thuringia, Germany
{25 mm: ƒ/9.0 | 1/15 s | ISO 50 | manual exposure | manual focus}
" Maple Tunnel: Follow the maple filled water path, come closer, just walk on straight ahead, discover where it will lead. Do not stop now, keep walking, allow your feet and soul to unite as one. Sweet whispers of the maple leaves brush against your ears, 'Stay awhile, stop and listen to the stillness of the water...remember the last time you smiled? What made you smile? Tell us! TELL US!' Most visitors seem to take a long time to exit the maple tunnel, it is a mystery of what kind of spirit guards it."
Kintsugi was a beautiful sim, the perfect place to rest your mind and soul.
I wrote a post about it on my destinations blog. You can find it here: mutisslworld.blogspot.com/2021/01/d008-kintsugi-spirited-...
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{25 mm: ƒ/9.0 | 0.4 s | ISO 100 | manual exposure | manual focus}
The Head is from Lelutka called Siwa 3.1
The eyes are from Tville called Geisha
and the shade is Salt lake
The applier and brow shape is from Voguel called
Cherry, shade Chantilly
Ring is from Orsini Jewelry called Maria
and it's at the new round of Access
Blush and moles are from warpaint called
woke up like this 4
Shadow is from Warpaint called Kintsugi
Lip shade is from the Kate hud from Sugarose
Hair is from Wasabi called Lucky and was for the FLF
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Dress is from Apple Blossom and it's for
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Pose is from Lyrium called Alora
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This was another interactive piece that was like the art of Kintsugi (golden joinery) in which people took broken pieces and bound them together to create different sculptures altogether.
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Blog #8
Featuring...
K9nnor - BOM&EVOX Geode Kintsugi - Amythest
Coming soon to Fantasy Faire, sold separately and exclusive for Relay for Life, all proceeds will be donated!
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Taken at the Mystic Realms!
"Can I get just one more hug? Maybe it will help sort out these lingering feelings I am trying to escape. Maybe I can forget the warmth of your embrace and the calm beating of your heart close to my ears...Why do you allow me to linger? Let me go..."
P.S. When you know something isn't going to end well anyways and yet you somehow just can't leave. Preposterous! Sometimes the heart wants what it wants and eventually the thread must be severed forever.
Note: I so love the maple tunnel in Kintsugi, it is one of Bambi's amazing designs! And looook at the puddles of water. The water and sky is the reason why this photo has a wide angle. How can I let this cute little guy gooo! I will keeep the hug lingering as long as I can :D Thank you again Adam for the Pikafennec.
Fw: P.S. Part of my series called "Abandoned" *Points to the album for other photos in the series.*
Light creeps up through the dry grass, stoney paths and surreal torii gates as the breaking dawn illuminates the sleeping town on top of the hill at Kintsugi. As time goes by, changes occur which is inevitable. Life is everchanging and never remaining constant. In the same manner, the quiet island of Kintsungi also has changes bubbling up from time to time. Beautiful corners being revealed one day and then disappearing the next. Former travelers are always surprised at the unexpected sights that behold them for the once more full city of man's creations has now been almost completely overtaken by mother nature.
A little shrine was built with little hokoras to house the multiple guardian spirits that reside within the island. Some plenty have met and were revealed, others who are yet to be discovered or prefer to remain in hiding. There are tales of good fortune, abundant success, never-ending love and a big hopeful embrace for those who take a moment to spend some time reflecting, giving gratitude for their lives and most of all, have a humble heart.
Part two of #Crystalline, blog post #8...
I really enjoyed the lighting and avatar that I created for this shoot, and in the end, I couldn't decide between this image and the one I originally posted. SO! I decided why not both? Even if it is a week later.
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“Power. If you had power, you had food. You had medicine. You had freedom. She saw those around her fall ill and die, and she equated power with life. One day, Kate thought, I’ll have power. No one will be able to do this to me again.”
― Sidney Sheldon, Master of the Game
SLURL: Kintsugi; Spirited Beyond
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[9th out of 12 Photos]
P.S. And because Freedom needs to be somewhere relatable. Just how free can one be among nature?
Plenty question the word freedom. Is it enough to just be able to do as you please a sign of freedom? We are so caught up in our mind that we do not realize we wrapped restrictive chains around our very existence and just live in an illusion of being free. No one is really 'free'.
There's this sense of excitement because you invent and control the characters. You decide whether they live or die. I find this type of creative process tremendously stimulating.
-Sidney Sheldon
SLURL: Kintsugi; Spirited Beyond
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[10th out of 12 Photos]
P.S. I took this picture a month ago but isn't it ironic on how my posting mood goes. This so fits the steampunk frenzy I am on right now and gives me more inspiration to write about this. Of course the Creativity globe was better fitted in the more 'developed' areas of Kintsugi's little town. Too much rust collecting along the metallic buildings.
There is just so much to say about creativity. I mean don't you feel a tingle every time you see pipes fuming, then turning of the wheels for results and so on and so forth. I guess that is how our brain really looks like on the inside, a multi layer of pipes over pipes with so many switches, wheels and buttons ready for us to produce what have been bubbling up and brewing for who knows how long. Sometimes some ideas get stuck in various pipes or maybe a new idea manages to flow easily along. Then you have 'muses' who tend to press buttons for you or pull down switches without your knowledge! Isn't it amazing how the mind works in such ways that sometimes you just need to give your head a tap to work properly. :p
“How can you be happy in this world? You have a hole in your heart. You have a gateway inside you to lands beyond the world you know. They will call you, as you grow.”
― neil gaiman, The Ocean at the End of the Lane
Spirited Beyond
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“I hope I didn’t wake”
― Sidney Sheldon, If Tomorrow Comes
SLURL: Kintsugi; Spirited Beyond
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[6th out of 12 Photos]
P.S. This was an unplanned and unexpected shot. You can easily tell because there are avatars in the background but it sort of fit the theme and idea anyways. It is rare when you find serenity with others.
No! You have to find serenity only in yourself! Hell no, I will find serenity in others and enjoy it while it lasts or as long as they allow me to! I will dive into the serenity of a lover, being raw, emotionally violated! I will swim in the seas of friendship and be serene with a friend, share in ideas, create ideas and inspire each other! I will float in serenity with those rare individuals who surpass being a lover, surpass being a friend... sometimes it just does not have to make sense anymore and you float together quite happy and dreamily into the unknown always holding each others hand and going back to the same bench under the maple plant to talk about all you went through together.
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When the Good meet the Evil.. We have to wait on who's gonna win that Final Battle and prepare for either the Apocalypse either the Peace.
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[7th out of 12 Photos]
P.S. This was the perfect place to back this little world. The zen garden itself holds a hint of nostalgia and blending this piece of art with it brought out a remarkable and almost haunting atmosphere. My mind found itself inspired with many ideas for a story but I would rather just share in nostalgia personally rather than in fiction.
Material things seem to be the most easiest that draw out a nostalgic sense. I wonder why it is easy to cry seeing an old camera and recalling countless photographs you have taken with them during your much younger days. Seeing a roll of film with photos yet to be developed, out of curiously, you ruin it by trying to peek through the light to get a glimpse of which photos are these and it is still so easy to remember after that one look. Why does it warm your heart easily when you turn the pages of an old book, seeing the browning at the sides, the ripple feeling of the paper and then suddenly you are reminded of a time lost when you read that book in a certain place. It takes you back to the feeling, you can almost taste the air around you. When I was younger, I had this funny perception whenever I saw 'old' or worn out objects, that if I touch them, it will be like a time machine and bring be back to where it once was. Now that I am old, I realize that it's true!