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UP SD60m #2329 leads on this Oakland to Pueblo work train as it heads East in DeBeque Canyon near Akin siding.
Right now, it feels like life is a crumbling brick wall.
Brick by brick, it's slowly falling apart.
And as hard as I try to put back the bricks that fell off, fix the grout,
keep it from crumbling more....
it just
keeps
crumbling.
Was looking through some pics I took earlier in the year and stumbled across this. Thought, yeah I like this, going to stick it on Flickr. So here it is - a rollercoaster in Brighton!
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Wake up
A single unit manifest (AC4400CW) waits for lights to enter Salt Lake City, UT.
Shot on 120 Fuji 160 H.
So much has worn me down health-wise this year & I’ve felt so far from myself because of stress.
I’ve finally been able to verbalize and admit to myself that this has been the hardest year of my life since 2010 when my mother died. I knew selling a home & buying in another state would be stressful no matter what. What I don’t think I could have anticipated was a year like 2024 where we both got Covid for the first time (which had lasting impacts) and the genocide in Gaza ravaging the world. I fundamentally changed and that year left me a different person than who I have ever been. Physically, mentally, and emotionally.
Following that with a year that started with 70 days of varying degrees of headache to all encompassing migraines (leading to an MRI and medical action plans).
Then we started in earnest to do the home dance. Allowing people into my home repeatedly with no real control turned me inside out. My agoraphobia sky rocketed and everything felt impossibly hard.
From the start of the year we’ve had to face a new type of nightmare in our news, US domestic government, and life overall. Everything feels surreal most of the time.
I’ve had such a fog in my mind while I more or less had to shut entire parts of myself down and compartmentalize until I could get through other more immediate needs on my energy and time.
The stress, the uncertainty, the discomfort lead to me more or less giving up on having a human body. I rarely drank water, I stopped moving my body entirely, I spent every moment I wasn’t actively doing The Things I Had To Do™️ (or occasionally taking photos) laying down or crying. I could barely wash my face, brush my teeth, or take a shower. I know my photo stream gives one of those picture perfect storylines of how the last year has gone because I am pretty ok at composition and framing (and admittedly take good self portraits).
The reality is I’ve struggled more overall than I had ever let on.
This week I’ve been sorting photos & found some that dusted my brain off. Photos that reminded me of how even when some years like 2017 (the photos with just my torso) when I had just bought my first house with my ex and realized the relationship may not last because my sobriety hadn’t really changed anything between us. Or 2020 (the photo of me lying down in a Skeletonwitch tshirt and the 3 photo collage) the year of Covid and the year I finally ended that relationship after giving it everything I had for 3 more years while that global pandemic was happening.
Both were unimaginably difficult I was still able to lean into reflection, listening to my body and mind, and working to find the life changes I needed to be a happier and more balanced Nix. The photos feel like a talisman or a magical catalyst to remind me of my power. My routines are returning to me and I can feel the joy they bring. I am waking up.
If you’ve read this far, thank you. This is stuff I usually keep for my online blog, but I was feeling verbose and brave and wanted to share here too. I really value the connections I’ve been making being back on Flickr and the site and the people have been one of the bright spots for me through all of this.
UP SD70AH 8875 sits on display for Diesel Days at the IRM. These things look awesome when they're fresh! No, this is not a new donation for the museum either! :)
Union, IL
UP Northbound Local Freight Train has just departed Little Rock, AR with a pair of UP GP60’s in charge with the lead 2047 still in SP paint
[23 September - 30 September]
7/52
So this concept is quite personal for me to talk about so I'll spare you the details but what I really wanted to portray is that feeling when you really need to face the facts and stop pretending. There are certain aspects in my life that are a great representation of this idea. Some things have happened that I'm not happy about, that I hate talking about and facing, but there comes a time when you need to in order to move forward. This week I've realised that and I know it'll be hard, but it needs to be done. Things are changing and often that's hard to deal with, but in the end, it needs to be faced. So, today I went outside and sprayed water in my face for a good two hours, haha. In other news I'm obsessed with Taylor Swift's new song "Begin Again" and I'm on my one week break so yay!
Also, this week I got to go to the beach with a couple of close friends which turned out to be really awesome. The weather was great and we stayed until the sun set and everything was perfect! I also got to hang out with my little cousins who are absolutely gorgeous and my family booked our American Trip, which I am beyond excited for.
P.S. I experimented with editing with this photograph too - I hope you like it :)
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Polaroid 600SE, Fuji FP3000B, Damaged Paper Negative inverted to Positive with Photoshop, Close-up+4
Model: Nathalie
MUA: Merve Kilickaya
Hairdresser: Aycha Jaiisz
Location: Koninklijke Luchtmacht Historische Vlucht
Union Pacific Yard - Cheyenne, WY
One of only three Steamliners still around !
what a beautiful Locomotive !
Drove past this yesterday about 100 yards from the main road, couldnt resist it for todays challenge. Looking 'up' through Wrawby Mill.
WP, Milwaukee, and UP power are lined up in a dead line in Council Bluffs, Iowa, in July 1984. The Western Pacific switcher is an SW9, behind that is a WP GP40 and a UP C30-7. In the middle is UP 6900, the class DDA40X which is now stuffed and mounted in Omaha. On the right is Milwaukee SD9 no. 500 and sisters.
A Tuscola & Sagniaw Bay GP35 is coupled to Global Star IV, an observation owned by Blue Water Michigan Chapter NRHS. They were teamed up on an excursion train shown at Cadillac, Michigan. (Scanned from color negative film)
Old mate's truck is "Parked up" havin a few beers at a good ol mates shack... Step back in time....
HDR Image 3 Exposures 2 stops either way, processed on Photomatix Pro, tweaked in Photoshop, captured on the Canon 7D teamed up with the Tamron 10-24mm Lens down at Tailem Town, South Australia.
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