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Waterfall in Sherriffs Walk, Windermere. Technically very difficult but good fun on a cold, dull March day in the pouring rain. Not a shot I could have taken with any sunlight at all, things would just wash out. When I climbed out of this ravine, where I'd been in my own little world for about an hour, two very respectable looking wino's slugging a bottle of vodka greeted me with a smile. Funny old world, not sure who is more bonkers! 3 mins, f/9, ISO 100 with a Big Stopper to slow down the water in the little whirlpool to the right fg and a polariser to peek into the flowing water a smidgin and give the image more depth. Not much tinkering in LR4, just applied a red filter and brought back the odd highlight a little. Mmm, this image is growing on me already
Determined Bangor grab vital win against Ballyclare
By Roger Corbett | Sunday 10th March 2013
In difficult playing conditions, it was Bangor who dominated and took their opportunities to win by 13-3, and close the gap to their rivals in this thrilling league contest.
At last the waiting was over and the two contenders for this season’s league title finally got to face up to each other in this crucial game for both sides. In difficult conditions, it was Bangor who took their opportunities to win by 13-3, and close the gap to their rivals to 3 points, with 2 games in hand.
With both sides fielding strong teams, and the internet pundits split on which way they reckoned the game would go, this was the pick of the QL2 fixtures with no clear favourite. Obviously home advantage would play its part, but the cold and wet weather coupled with a heavy pitch would add to the complexity of the situation.
Ballyclare got the game underway, playing into the breeze. From the outset, the home side were determined not to let Ballyclare get a foothold. Sensible, close quarter play saw Bangor move into the Ballyclare half and remain there for much of first half. However, Ballyclare’s defence, when called upon, was sound and withstood everything that was thrown at them. The eagerly awaited battle of the packs did not disappoint, with Ballyclare holding the normally rampant Bangor driving maul. However, the early indications were that Bangor had the upper hand in the scrums, having turned and disrupted them on Ballyclare’s put-in on a number of occasions.
The first score came mid-way through the half, when Chris Morgan converted a penalty from far out on the right hand side, making it 3-0.
Shortly afterwards, on 28 minutes, the Ballyclare hooker suffered a bad ankle injury and had to leave the field of play. Losing any player in a QL2 game is a major set-back, however it could be argued that this might have been worse for Ballyclare. With no hooker, the remainder of the game would be played with uncontested scrums, thus ensuring good possession for Ballyclare in this area – something that had been missing up to this point.
As the referee blew for half time, and with the score still at 3-0 for Bangor, there were anxious faces on the touchline, worried that this would not be enough of a lead when now playing into the wind.
Thankfully this worry appeared to be confined to the touchline, as Bangor restarted the second half in the same vein as the first. They were rewarded with another penalty after just 5 minutes, this time in front of the posts which Morgan again converted, doubling the lead to 6-0.
Just 7 minutes later, Ballyclare were awarded a penalty – in front of the posts, but quite a distance out. The well-taken kick just carried enough distance to go over, and reduce the deficit to 6-3.
Although the rain had all but stopped, and the wind eased, the players were all now suffering from the cold, resulting in many handling mistakes for both sides. However, it is testament to the fitness of both sides that the game never appeared to be running out of steam, and anything could happen before it was all over.
With just 2 minutes of normal playing time remaining, the constant harrying by the Bangor forwards finally forced the handling error in the Ballyclare line that provided the game’s decisive moment. Pouncing on a loose Ballyclare ball, Bangor prop Chris Schofield booted the ball through and set off in pursuit. The stunned Ballyclare defence was wrong footed, allowing Schofield, showing a tidy turn of speed, to touch down under the Ballyclare posts. Morgan’s simple conversion added the extras, extending Bangor’s lead to 13-3 and thus, more importantly, depriving Ballyclare of a losing bonus point which, up to this time had looked the likely outcome.
Although Ballyclare hurried back to try and add to their points tally, sensible positional play from Bangor, especially by out-half Jason Morgan, kept Ballyclare in their own half and denied them any further realistic opportunities. As the referee blew for full time, Bangor knew that their league destiny was now in their own hands.
Although this was a highly significant victory, there are still a number of testing games ahead, before playing the return away fixture against Ballyclare at the close of the league competition. Ballyclare may feel disappointed by the result, but all is not lost for them, especially as they contest the Towns Cup semi-final next week, and have fewer, more straightforward games left in their closing run in the league.
Bangor team: C Schofield, P Dornan, J Harrison, F Black, D Lyttle, N Hatton, J Clegg, C Stewart. R Armstrong (c), J Morgan, S Addy, M Aspley, M Leebody, D Charles, C Morgan
Bangor scores: C Schofield (1T), C Morgan (2P, 1C)
Difficult to find traffic lights in Kerala. Traffic is very dangerous that's why it is called 'God's own country."
It's very difficult to walk past this building without taking photos of it. It's so pretty.
Unbelievably I had never gone in it before PAD (2007).
Sometimes you have to work with whatever you have handy. Lately that's been my iPhone. It's too difficult to carry my Nikon and wrangle a toddler. Or it's too difficult to keep the expensive Nikon away from the Doodle-of-destruction.
School is almost over and summer is right around the corner.
Bella is preparing to be gone for the entire summer. She nailed a job as a camp counselor. On Friday she'll be gone for 9 weeks. Whoa.
Bubaloo has two weeks of school left, or 8 more alarm clock wake up days (I have a colleague retiring on the same day, so they keep the countdown going). He's away at camp for half of the summer, and the other half he'll be at home/traveling with us.
The big kids begged to go strawberry picking. It's something we do every year (we say we do it every year, but we went once as a family, Bubaloo and I went two years ago, Bella, Doodle and I last year, and this year all five of descended on the strawberry field early Sunday morning).
It was sunny and warm with a breeze blowing across the field. The Doodle toddled up and down the row, while the four of us managed to pick 12L of berries in 30 minutes.
Getting to the field was more of an adventure than the picking itself. Cranky kids, unmedicated kids, kids yelling at one another, toddler screeching. You know a typical family activity.
But it was nice to do something all together as a family of five. And it's the last thing we're going to do together as a family of five until September.
Ian got a new cap gun today. He has a hard time pulling the trigger. He has that look of difficulty it is so cute.
It's difficult to imagine the development of the village without energy... In Antintorona, it comes with several possibilities. The hydroelectric turbine built in 2006-2007, and the three solar panels installed in 2011: One in the school (above) one in the community garden and one in the mountain.
A list of verbs that Japanese would find difficult to explain in English, for their partner to guess.
It's difficult to sit outside a fire hydrant in NYC these days, as this car did. Because if you idle, that's illegal. And if your engine is off, then you can't (in theory) leave during a fire and thus that's illegal as well. Hmm.
Difficult lighting as it was Dusk.
Wikipedia:
Sheikh Zayed Grand Mosque (Arabic :جامع الشيخ زايد الكبير) is located in Abu Dhabi, the capital city of the United Arab Emirates.[1]
Sheikh Zayed Grand Mosque was initiated by the late President of the United Arab Emirates (UAE), HH Sheikh Zayed bin Sultan Al Nahyan. His final resting place is located on the grounds beside the same mosque.
As the country’s grand mosque, it is the key place of worship for Friday gathering and Eid prayers. It is the largest mosque in the UAE and numbers during Eid can be more than forty thousand people.[2]
Sheikh Zayed Grand Mosque Center (SZGMC) offices are located in the east minarets. SZGMC manages the day to day operations, as a place of worship and Friday gathering and also a center of learning and discovery through its educational cultural activities and visitor programs.
The library, located in the north/east minaret, serves the community with classic books and publications addressing a range of Islamic subjects: sciences, civilization, calligraphy, the arts, coins and includes some rare publications dating back more than 200 years. In reflection of the diversity of the Islamic world and the United Arab Emirates, the collection comprises material in a broad range of languages including Arabic, English, French, Italian, Spanish, German and Korean.
Pregnancy safe skincare can be super difficult and confusing. I have an entire guide devoted to what products are safe to use while pregnant including information on what ingredients to avoid while pregnant and a huge list of pregnancy safe skincare products. The list has gotten so large that I’ve decided to start listing brands in their own individual posts. Here you’ll find pregnancy safe products from St. Ives as of 7/19/2019. If it is not safe, I’ll tell you why. All of the products meet my pregnancy safe criteria. If they release a new product that is not listed here, please comment below and I will add it. Note I will link to every product directly to avoid confusion. You’ll know exactly which product I mean. Please note, it can take up to an hour to review the ingredient lists of each product. I review with my own list of pregnancy safe criteria. I obtain my ingredient lists from the brands and major retailers (typically Nordstrom and Sephora), and I review the US versions. Please do not ask me to re-review the same products over and over, I do not have the time to do so, and many people have been rude about this. For more brands, please head over to the list of pregnancy sa bit.ly/2Y08HkZPhấn nụ bà tùng
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Difficult little fellows to capture! SHot these with a Sigma 150-500mm (at 500mm) at very high ISO (1600) due to bad light. We put out a new hummingbird feeder and it's already luring in a few different birds.
Difficult lighting as it was Dusk.
Wikipedia:
Sheikh Zayed Grand Mosque (Arabic :جامع الشيخ زايد الكبير) is located in Abu Dhabi, the capital city of the United Arab Emirates.[1]
Sheikh Zayed Grand Mosque was initiated by the late President of the United Arab Emirates (UAE), HH Sheikh Zayed bin Sultan Al Nahyan. His final resting place is located on the grounds beside the same mosque.
As the country’s grand mosque, it is the key place of worship for Friday gathering and Eid prayers. It is the largest mosque in the UAE and numbers during Eid can be more than forty thousand people.[2]
Sheikh Zayed Grand Mosque Center (SZGMC) offices are located in the east minarets. SZGMC manages the day to day operations, as a place of worship and Friday gathering and also a center of learning and discovery through its educational cultural activities and visitor programs.
The library, located in the north/east minaret, serves the community with classic books and publications addressing a range of Islamic subjects: sciences, civilization, calligraphy, the arts, coins and includes some rare publications dating back more than 200 years. In reflection of the diversity of the Islamic world and the United Arab Emirates, the collection comprises material in a broad range of languages including Arabic, English, French, Italian, Spanish, German and Korean.
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With well over three million visitors to Carcassonne each year, it is difficult to think while gazing up at the striking fortress city that in 1849 there was a government decree to have La Cité demolished. Although this justifiably outraged city folk, it should also be noted that the ramparts and the towers were in such a poor state of disrepair that Napoleon had it struck off the list of official fortifications.
Now it just so happens that the Mayor of Carcassonne, Jean-Pierre Cros-Mayrevieille, was not only passionate about the history of his city he was also an inspector of historical monuments. It is not at all surprising then that he knew the writer and historian Prosper Mérimée. Mérimée was also an inspector of historical monuments, and had been involved in some high-profile, successful restoration projects, including Vézelay Abbey in Burgundy and Paris’s Notre-Dame Cathedral. Together Cros-Mayrevieille and Mérimée saved Carcassonne from being destroyed. As the Gothic- revival architect Eugène Viollet-le-Duc was already on site as it were, restoring the Basilica of Saint-Nazaire, he was tasked with the actual renovations.
In a small square just along from the entrance to the castle a memorial to Jean-Pierre Cros-Mayrevieille was erected in 1911 by ses concitoyens et ses amis (his fellow citizens and friends). What I love about this memorial is the way the ramparts and towers, created in bronze, wrap around the base of the pillar that bears a bust to Cros-Mayrevieille. And its not a bad likeness of the walls either.
If you are visiting Carcassonne, don’t miss it!
Difficult to walk through...
Onomichi, Hiroshima.
Canon PowerShot G9 X Mark II CANON ZOOM LENS 3x IS 10.2-30.6/2.0-4.9
Photo taken under difficult conditions, city center light polution and frequent clouds passing through. Ten exposures of 6 seconds aligned and stacked. No tail visible, but that may be as I was in a light poluted environment. The coma has a distinctive green colour.
Pretty difficult conditions, the colour version of this is terrible, really flat so it's a case of mono and a bit of grain to the rescue once more!
On my way back from the Big Cats I met up with some friends who were windsurfing here, so we had a beer with a nice view of Windsor Castle. You can't tell from the picture but it was pretty warm and I got sunburned again!
Difficult lighting as it was Dusk.
Wikipedia:
Sheikh Zayed Grand Mosque (Arabic :جامع الشيخ زايد الكبير) is located in Abu Dhabi, the capital city of the United Arab Emirates.[1]
Sheikh Zayed Grand Mosque was initiated by the late President of the United Arab Emirates (UAE), HH Sheikh Zayed bin Sultan Al Nahyan. His final resting place is located on the grounds beside the same mosque.
As the country’s grand mosque, it is the key place of worship for Friday gathering and Eid prayers. It is the largest mosque in the UAE and numbers during Eid can be more than forty thousand people.[2]
Sheikh Zayed Grand Mosque Center (SZGMC) offices are located in the east minarets. SZGMC manages the day to day operations, as a place of worship and Friday gathering and also a center of learning and discovery through its educational cultural activities and visitor programs.
The library, located in the north/east minaret, serves the community with classic books and publications addressing a range of Islamic subjects: sciences, civilization, calligraphy, the arts, coins and includes some rare publications dating back more than 200 years. In reflection of the diversity of the Islamic world and the United Arab Emirates, the collection comprises material in a broad range of languages including Arabic, English, French, Italian, Spanish, German and Korean.
Determined Bangor grab vital win against Ballyclare
By Roger Corbett | Sunday 10th March 2013
In difficult playing conditions, it was Bangor who dominated and took their opportunities to win by 13-3, and close the gap to their rivals in this thrilling league contest.
At last the waiting was over and the two contenders for this season’s league title finally got to face up to each other in this crucial game for both sides. In difficult conditions, it was Bangor who took their opportunities to win by 13-3, and close the gap to their rivals to 3 points, with 2 games in hand.
With both sides fielding strong teams, and the internet pundits split on which way they reckoned the game would go, this was the pick of the QL2 fixtures with no clear favourite. Obviously home advantage would play its part, but the cold and wet weather coupled with a heavy pitch would add to the complexity of the situation.
Ballyclare got the game underway, playing into the breeze. From the outset, the home side were determined not to let Ballyclare get a foothold. Sensible, close quarter play saw Bangor move into the Ballyclare half and remain there for much of first half. However, Ballyclare’s defence, when called upon, was sound and withstood everything that was thrown at them. The eagerly awaited battle of the packs did not disappoint, with Ballyclare holding the normally rampant Bangor driving maul. However, the early indications were that Bangor had the upper hand in the scrums, having turned and disrupted them on Ballyclare’s put-in on a number of occasions.
The first score came mid-way through the half, when Chris Morgan converted a penalty from far out on the right hand side, making it 3-0.
Shortly afterwards, on 28 minutes, the Ballyclare hooker suffered a bad ankle injury and had to leave the field of play. Losing any player in a QL2 game is a major set-back, however it could be argued that this might have been worse for Ballyclare. With no hooker, the remainder of the game would be played with uncontested scrums, thus ensuring good possession for Ballyclare in this area – something that had been missing up to this point.
As the referee blew for half time, and with the score still at 3-0 for Bangor, there were anxious faces on the touchline, worried that this would not be enough of a lead when now playing into the wind.
Thankfully this worry appeared to be confined to the touchline, as Bangor restarted the second half in the same vein as the first. They were rewarded with another penalty after just 5 minutes, this time in front of the posts which Morgan again converted, doubling the lead to 6-0.
Just 7 minutes later, Ballyclare were awarded a penalty – in front of the posts, but quite a distance out. The well-taken kick just carried enough distance to go over, and reduce the deficit to 6-3.
Although the rain had all but stopped, and the wind eased, the players were all now suffering from the cold, resulting in many handling mistakes for both sides. However, it is testament to the fitness of both sides that the game never appeared to be running out of steam, and anything could happen before it was all over.
With just 2 minutes of normal playing time remaining, the constant harrying by the Bangor forwards finally forced the handling error in the Ballyclare line that provided the game’s decisive moment. Pouncing on a loose Ballyclare ball, Bangor prop Chris Schofield booted the ball through and set off in pursuit. The stunned Ballyclare defence was wrong footed, allowing Schofield, showing a tidy turn of speed, to touch down under the Ballyclare posts. Morgan’s simple conversion added the extras, extending Bangor’s lead to 13-3 and thus, more importantly, depriving Ballyclare of a losing bonus point which, up to this time had looked the likely outcome.
Although Ballyclare hurried back to try and add to their points tally, sensible positional play from Bangor, especially by out-half Jason Morgan, kept Ballyclare in their own half and denied them any further realistic opportunities. As the referee blew for full time, Bangor knew that their league destiny was now in their own hands.
Although this was a highly significant victory, there are still a number of testing games ahead, before playing the return away fixture against Ballyclare at the close of the league competition. Ballyclare may feel disappointed by the result, but all is not lost for them, especially as they contest the Towns Cup semi-final next week, and have fewer, more straightforward games left in their closing run in the league.
Bangor team: C Schofield, P Dornan, J Harrison, F Black, D Lyttle, N Hatton, J Clegg, C Stewart. R Armstrong (c), J Morgan, S Addy, M Aspley, M Leebody, D Charles, C Morgan
Bangor scores: C Schofield (1T), C Morgan (2P, 1C)
from The Eklektik fanzine, issue #2 (1982)
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Difficult shooting conditions yesterday night at Down concert! Extremely small and crowded pit, cameras are everywhere!
Difficult lighting as it was Dusk.
Wikipedia:
Sheikh Zayed Grand Mosque (Arabic :جامع الشيخ زايد الكبير) is located in Abu Dhabi, the capital city of the United Arab Emirates.[1]
Sheikh Zayed Grand Mosque was initiated by the late President of the United Arab Emirates (UAE), HH Sheikh Zayed bin Sultan Al Nahyan. His final resting place is located on the grounds beside the same mosque.
As the country’s grand mosque, it is the key place of worship for Friday gathering and Eid prayers. It is the largest mosque in the UAE and numbers during Eid can be more than forty thousand people.[2]
Sheikh Zayed Grand Mosque Center (SZGMC) offices are located in the east minarets. SZGMC manages the day to day operations, as a place of worship and Friday gathering and also a center of learning and discovery through its educational cultural activities and visitor programs.
The library, located in the north/east minaret, serves the community with classic books and publications addressing a range of Islamic subjects: sciences, civilization, calligraphy, the arts, coins and includes some rare publications dating back more than 200 years. In reflection of the diversity of the Islamic world and the United Arab Emirates, the collection comprises material in a broad range of languages including Arabic, English, French, Italian, Spanish, German and Korean.
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It can be difficult to keep up with a large project especially when it gets to the steel erection phase which can proceed quickly. There are inevitable hiatuses in ones opportunities to take photographs but I was fortunate today to be able to catch up with construction of CEMAST before it progresses further. I can not undertake to capture every significant stage but this set will continue to record development to completion. For previous references to CEMAST, please see earlier pictures in the set (Daedalus Development).
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Hi,
I'm sorry I haven't updated all of you. Saturday turned out to be one of the most difficult days of our lives.
I can't remember what I've written - so I apologize if some of this is redundant. And to Tooktook (Evie Mali's Aunt who is an English teacher) I apologize for the grammar.
As you know on Friday night a small hole was found in Evie Mali's intestine. A wonderful doctor came to operate on her. At 2:14am the doctor called Rahpee's hospital room. Things seemed appeared to be going well.
Saturday morning around 7am the phone rang again in the hospital room, we were told that her blood pressure was very low. Dr Stein was called back to reevaluate her. They believed that her stomach was bleeding internally.
I believe that's where my last email ended - waiting for the doctor's evaluation.
Anyway, Rahpee spent that morning with Evie Mali, talking to her by her bedside. Shortly there after I went down and spent time with her as well. Her blood pressure was still low but she still looked strong. Her nurse Lorilee spent the day with nearly no rest counteracting her body's reaction to the surgery.
Rahpee and I returned to her room with her family standing by. I don't recall what time it was perhaps sometime after noon, but both doctors came up. Her main doctor explained to us about bleeding in the brain, of course I already knew pretty much what the four levels meant. Level 1 was minimum bleeding - level 4 represented severe bleeding - which of course means the brain has been damaged extensively.
He went through the whole process of explaining where the damage was - and that the x-rays from earlier that night showed level 3 bleeding. They were currently waiting for new x-rays. They had held off on the operation on her stomach. My mind is a little scrambled so I can't recall what happened exactly next. What I do know is that my in my heart I was going to keep pushing the doctors to continue on. Level 3 bleeding would make her life very challenging, but I wanted to see our baby girl grow up.
The doctors returned shortly there after - again explaining the bleeding in the brain. This time she was level 4.
I glanced at Rahpee and I knew at that very instant we would tell them to continue on and expect a miracle to make things ok. Not so much for her, but for us.
With the split second it took me to think that thought - he followed up that she was bleeding in the lower back of her brain. I'm not religious but I believe in God. At the point I know I was being given a sign to stop. We were being selfish.
All I can remember from that point is that I asked the doctor if her little brain was broken and he nodded. And Dr Stein who had worked on her stomach asked me if I wanted him to continue with the operation to help her stomach. And I repeated "her little brain is broken?", and he nodded and I looked at Rahpee and then had to say "no". Rahpee cried out "no!" to the answer we both knew I had to give.
Rahpee asked the doctor while crying "will she grow?" and the doctor responded with yes, but she won't be able to breath and the quality of her life would be very poor. The rest pretty much is a blur.
This is so hard to write. I can hardly see between the tears. However, I know that there were a lot of people praying for our little girl Evie Mali. And I needed to send this out to so you would know in what way you made a difference in this world and for me to acknowledge I know Evie Mali will make a difference as well.
So I'm going to finish this email, and I'm going to tell you what I know and what I believe to know and hopefully she will make a difference in your life everyday.
After much crying, I spoke to the doctor and asked him to hold on to her for another day (until Sunday) mainly because I wouldn't be able to get Rahpee discharged until then.
Saturday night we lie in her hospital bed cried and talked. As I think all people do in difficult times - I needed to know "why". Why, if all these great doctors and nurses that were placed before us did things not turn out how we so much wanted.
What I found in my heart is this... She was here to visit us - to let us know who we would be as parents - Rahpee and I had great fears of becoming mother and father. Evie Mali also taught us about life - I've so long worried about dying that sometimes I forgot about living.
In the 6 healthy days we had with her we shared with her moments we'll never forget.
I saw her eyes open when her mama spoke to her. And only that one time did I ever see her eyes open and when they did they saw only her mother. Of course I was not denied a special moment as well. I saw her make a mean little face when I spoke - I'm sure she recognized her daddy's voice - the one that used to wake her up in the middle of the night so she would kick me in the ear while in her mama's tummy.
We saw her stretch her legs, touch her ear when she slept, and hold her hands to her chest to calm herself like her daddy does. We saw her wiggle and lift her back up moving around until she was able to lay in the position she preferred, countering the nurses best intentions. We had all these wonderful moments, and she wasn't a weak sick little baby, she was just a stubborn little girl who knew exactly what she wanted and recognized her mommy and daddy.
On Sunday afternoon after the family had time time to say goodbye to her. Lorilee - Evie Mali's nurse - helped us spend that last precious moments with our daughter.
Lorilee also helped find a Father to baptize her on short notice. It didn't matter to me of what religion he was - I only knew that I wanted to give our little girl some kind of gift. Just one more way to show how much we love her. Regardless of my beliefs I needed to give all the gifts I could while we had her. Lorilee helped make that happen even after Rahpee's family were unable to find someone to do it. Just as before a person was put in her path or perhaps our path.
She stayed stable in her mother's arms. We took turns holding her and told her how much we loved her and would miss her. Rahpee sang songs to her, that I had heard so many times throughout the house during her pregnancy.
Rahpee gave Evie Mali a bath and dressed her so that she looked like a little angel. The nurses cried a little with us. And we said goodbye and kissed her on her sleeping head. I don't know how long we spent with her perhaps an hour. It was both the greatest and worst hour of our lives.
We left our baby angel with another angel - Lorilee. I know some people might prefer to have there loved ones die in their arms, but for us Lorilee became an angel, and besides our family and ourselves - I can think of no other person who could send our daughter on her way, than a woman who felt our pain and did her best to help our daughter and comfort us.
Lorilee who had worked so hard on Saturday to stabilize Evie Mali - would be the same angel who held Evie Mali in her arms until our baby girl went home. We didn't see her go to sleep, but I know that Lorilee held her ever so gently in her arms and gave her all our love.
We are so honored for the people who were placed in our path and took care of our little girl and gave us the strength we didn't know we could have.
R.N. Candace whose smile warmed us and watched over Evie Mali.
R.N. Tamrin who watched over Evie Mali
R.N. Joanne who watched over her when we couldn't.
R.N. Margarita who watched over her and called attention to Evie Mali's tummy. And no doubt felt our pain.
Dr. Pozin who quickly called in Dr. Stein for Evie Mali's tummy.
Dr. Stein who did his best to make Evie Mali's stomach all better.
Dr Vogt who did his best to help her little heart.
Dr. Gangitano who would have done all he could to help her if he could.
All the Doctors and nurses who from delivery room on Saturday April 12th 7:10 am until Sunday April 20th 7:15pm did their best to make Evie Mali's life the best possible.
R.N Olivia who was tough on rahpee but cared deeply.
R.N Alex who is an amazing nurse with two bull dogs.
R.N. Rachel, Amy, Linda, and Lope who watched over Rahpee during the first week.
R.N. and Angel Lorilee, who helped us in more ways than words can express.
All the people who prayed for Evie Mali across the country we thank you so very much.
I have a belief - be it right or wrong, that prayers do not change our paths. I dare not devalue your prayers but what I believe or at least in this case I would hold to be true:
Your prayers were not unanswered, your prayers were never really meant for Evie Mali, but her loving parents, family, and friends. In that way all of your prayers were answered, and there should be no doubt in your hearts that while we all wanted Evie Mali's path to be a bit different, I know now that she had a much larger distance to cover than we could ever imagine.
Not only was she meant to change our lives, but she was meant to change your life too.
People at the hospital asked again and again how did she get her name. And so for all your prayers for her dear family - here is Evie Mali's gift for you.
Her name "Evie" was thought of by her mother. When I looked up "Evie" it turned out to mean "Life" in Hebrew.
Her name "Mali", was a derivative of her mother's name. (Rahpee's first name is actually Malinee). When I looked up "Mali" it turned up to mean "Flower" in Thai.
We decided her first name would be Evie Mali (Life Flower).
Last night after we came home from saying goodbye to our daughter, the roses in front of our house were in bloom. I didn't know how to write this email until I went back out this morning and saw how many perfect roses were in bloom.
I love her name and the thought of it being forgotten was breaking my heart, but now I know that by sending this message out - I'm send out a gift from Evie Mali herself.
From this day on I know there will not be a day when somewhere in the world there is not a flower in bloom, and when I see a flower I won't be able to not think about my daughter and how very special life is.
Her short life meant a lot to us and I realize it meant a lot to so many other people I've never met.
Her gift to you is her name. When you see a flower in bloom think of how special life is, how beautiful it is. And maybe just remember the beautiful little girl Evie Mali, who reminded us what's important.
Thank you all again for your thoughts and prayers they helped change our lives.
-Jeremy & Rahpee
Enjoy the pictures, I think they speak for themselves.
Photographer : Greenboy a.k.a Budakijau
:: Foto lama sewaktu outing bersama Ustaz Azhar Idrus::
Exif :
HDR-3 Exposure
30 September 2011/5:11PM
Shot in Jpeg
Apacture : f8
Exposure Program : M
Matering Mode: Spot
ISO 200
Flash: No
Focal Length: 35mm
Camera: Nikon D90
Lens : Nikkor 35mm f2
White Balance : Manual
Picture Control : Greenboy Landscape
Tajuk :
Antara Sabar dan Mengeluh
Hadith :
Sabda Rasulullah SAW yang bermaksud:”Sesungguhnya orang mukmin akan menerima tekanan hidup kerana tidak ada satu bencana sama ada kerana terkena duri atau yang lebih besar, tidak juga ketakutan melainkan Allah akan mengangkat darjatnya satu darjat dan menghapuskan satu kesalahan dengan kesabarannya menghadapi bencana dan kesusahan tersebut.”
Riwayat al-Hakim
Difficult to park in these "Permit Holder Only" parking areas of Southend-On-Sea for a visitor if you don't have a smart phone with an internet connection. even with a paid for permit a parking space is not guaranteed.
There is an assumption in general these days that everyone has computers and smart phones.