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I signed myself up for 'Picture Fall' on a whim the other day, and this photo was taken for the 'little reminders' prompt from yesterday. I wasn't sure what I was going to do for this but as Tracy mentioned, it turned out to be serendipitous. I had ordered this gorgeous letterpress print on Etsy last week because the message really spoke to me, and it came in the mail yesterday. How's that for karma? :)
The deep harm that was mercilessly inflicted upon you left you withering away, barely functioning, questioning the unspeakable reality you endured and what was ok and what wasn’t ok and nearly brought your life to an end. Now, with healthy support you’re very slowly learning it’s ok to protect yourself. This certainly isn’t easy for you and you’re growing and moving forward in wonderful ways.
#NotetoSelf
[image created on 10-9-2023]
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When I noticed this leaf lying on the ground at home it reminded me of how I feel when I’m experiencing awful somatic flashbacks which take me back to the past as I re-experience awful harm from many years ago in physical and emotional form which is extremely terrorizing. As I’m shaking and panicking very intensely sometimes my body—in it’s God-given wisdom— automatically is compelled to work to protect me in various ways which often involve curling up small, shaking and leaning forward to shield myself in protection. This all seems to be [an extremely difficult] part of the healing process as my body and mind/brain work to rewire and integrate awful trauma memories. Like this leaf I feel withered, curled up, face down in order to protect myself. And, like this image shows, there is light shining on, in and through me and my heartbreaking experiences and circumstances as the healing slowly takes place over time with lots of deep, intentional work and support.
~ the extra pounds
~ the mysterious wrinkles
~ the insomnia
~ the anxiety
~ how I'm 1" shorter than I was 2 years ago
~ the aches & pains before & after jogging, swimming, biking, whatever
~ how I have to look up names of plants in my garden each spring like long-lost
friends at a high school reunion
~ pleasing people…NTS >rescue more shelter animals who love you anyway
~ housework…I'd much rather sit by the fire with a cup of tea & add destinations
to my bucket list
~ square meals…Cheers to red wine and dark chocolate!
~ walking…Dance instead!
3.9.09
So. This is one of those shots that almost didn't get taken. I wasn't here to visit the church, but some ruins out the back. This was a three-second stop which I nearly didn't make on the way out (the church having been locked on my way in).
But I'm glad I stepped in. The light streaming through this one side window onto a solitary pew was too good to pass up. The shots from the ruins I went to see really didn't quite compare...
Also for MSH's saved by the (church) bell.
Sorry I haven't been around much. I needed to step away from things for a few days. Catching up with you all right about now. :)
Created for MIXMASTER CHALLENGE #20 - Chef Beth
(Winner, 2nd Place) Tied
1 Texture, Doves & Key purchased from Renderosity.
Space texture courtesy of NASA.
Texture (a slightly different version) - Vintage Bokeh Elegance, mine.
(Replaced 11-2-17)
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Whatever might happen. Sometimes it's good to have somebody to get you a reality check and telling you to just look ahead for new or modified horizons...the only thing you need to say is "Thank You".
Location: Duivendrechtsekade, Amsterdam (city limits are strange in this area) along the Weespertrekvaart. Ahead the skyscrappers of Omval and at the right the Weesperzijde.
Coordinates: 52°20'19" N 4°55'47" E
Reason: A clear and sunny morning in Amsterdam and wanted to make a selfportrait with the message 'note to self' without any explainations.
Weather: Sunny, clear and 7" C
Self-portrait technics: Camera on a Sirui carbon tripod with selftimer on 10 seconds.
Note To Self: this is just a personal project to get better at understanding photography and the concepts of light along with composition. Don't expect every shot to be better than the last. Don't beat yourself up. If you aren't happy with a picture, move on because tomorrow is a new day.
Camera Info:
Canon 7D, Canon EF 50mm 1:1.4 USM, f/2.5, 1/250s, ISO 100
Strobist Info: See setup shot here.
Canon 430EXII Camera Left and directly facing subject, 1/32 power, @28mm zoom, White shoot through umbrella, 5 feet high & 10 feet away from subject.
Canon 430EXII Camera Right and behind subject, 1/16 power, @70mm zoom, fired bare, 5feet high & 4 feet away from subject.
Canon 430EXII Camera Right, 1/32 power, @70mm zoom, 3 feet high & 3 feet away fired bare at back of subject.
Flashes were triggered with Interfit Strobies. Camera was fired with wired remote self timer.
You’ve experienced and continue to encounter so much difficulty, decay, harm and pain in your experiences and carry the awful effects of this within your body, mind and spirit. And you are working so hard, at a pace and in a way that is appropriate for you, to keep growing through when all the extreme adversity tries to destroy you.
[image created on 3–3-2024]
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As a way to cope with circumstances beyond my control, survive and work to keep fighting for life I decided to try to take at least one photo (or more) each day. I call this “a photo (or more) a day.” Practicing this form of therapeutic photography helps me work to focus on the present moment, gives me something familiar and enjoyable to focus on as I use photography skills that have become like second-nature to me and being able to view the images I capture helps me recall what I was thinking, feeling and noticing at the moment when I created the photos. More of the photos from this series can be seen on my Instagram account
I may not always have the energy, time or capacity to share photos from this series—especially with the very challenging circumstances my family and I are experiencing—and will do my best to continue taking a photo (or more) a day even if I’m not able to share.
If you would like to support my work and my family, one way you can do so is by ordering my zines:
Many thanks for your support.
her chosen tattoo: love you, just the way you are.
she says it's her favorite song, I say...note to self.
For IP224:
1 - something to drink
2 - a note to self
3 - soft color
bonus element: divine cranberry orange rolls
I had this idea in my head for a while now. I'm not sure if I really like it... Those are some actual things I think sometimes^.^
Press 'L'
After the unspeakable evil and the harm you’ve experienced, sometimes it feels the only way you can experience freedom is to close your eyes and “disappear” to try to escape the continual, extreme overwhelm which can intensify beyond your capacity to cope. It’s not ideal, can be very complex, crippling and is understandable considering your devastating circumstances. It’s certainly not simple or easy and you are working so faithfully and diligently to find more freedom in the present moment.
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Since most of our belongings are packed up and in storage I don’t have access to much and I was able to find some (very lightweight) sewing thread and a very flimsy needle my daughter had here with her and I used our low budget home printer to create this. Normally I wouldn’t use such low quality items for something like this. I didn’t have much to work with and I was determined to not let this completely stop me from creating. I have since made a few more little photo collections like this and this practice and process has been very helpful in my coping and healing journey. I’m so thankful I gave this a try and for how I find this process to be therapeutic and how it helps me continue to grow. I included this collection of printed images with notes I took to an appointment with my therapist and am so thankful I took pictures of it as a reminder of this work since I no longer have a copy for myself.
[image created on 1-30-2024]
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As a way to cope with circumstances beyond my control, survive and work to keep fighting for life I decided to try to take at least one photo (or more) each day. I call this “a photo (or more) a day.” Practicing this form of therapeutic photography helps me work to focus on the present moment, gives me something familiar and enjoyable to focus on as I use photography skills that have become like second-nature to me and being able to view the images I capture helps me recall what I was thinking, feeling and noticing at the moment when I created the photos. More of the photos from this series can be seen on my Instagram account
I may not always have the energy, time or capacity to share photos from this series—especially with the very challenging circumstances my family and I are experiencing—and will do my best to continue taking a photo (or more) a day even if I’m not able to share.
If you would like to support my work and my family, one way you can do so is by ordering my zines:
Many thanks for your support.
-Epicurus
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Just a quick snapshot for Self-portrait Tuesday. =)
I'm embracing my tan this summer.
I'm grateful for this camera that I'm only borrowing from my dad-in-law,
and for the new dress I got on sale.
I have some pens and pencils.
A sketchbook.
And a head full of quotes, lyrics and the like.
Come and see them at www.Quoteskine.co.uk
Don't forget to buy the book!
Picture theHolidays/There's No Looking Back
It's not about looking pretty or perfect, its about moving foward with no regrets, because there's no looking back now. So long 2010. I'll remember you fondly, but I'm more than happy to leave you behind.
Apparently this shot's been picked up over in the world of Tumblr, so if you find yourself here from Tumblr, feel free to check me out over there, Soupatraveler's Tumblr
Not the best picture, but it was the best I could do in the minute before the sitter arrived.
Once a year, at a minimum, we get all dressed up for my husband's annual company dinner. I'm not a very fancy person, but my Mom was . . . and still is. My shiny vintage outfit is courtesy of her closet, and there's nary a natural fiber in the entire three-piece ensemble. Perhaps that's why its held up so well.
I had to get at a BAM shot in, great shot or no, because this is as BAM as I ever get. I can remember how glamorous my mother looked wearing this when she went off to the symphony with my Dad. I think that's a good part of why I feel like a million bucks when I dress up in her old fancy clothes.
The first page of a mini-moleskine sketch book. A note to myself.
And I'm totally digging the Pilot G2 minis!
This hit flickr's Interestingness on September 18, 2006.
Featured in Notebookism on October 6, 2006.
for August MSH: Note to Self.
this has been a message that i have been repeating to myself over and over. every year it has pretty much been my news years resolution. i will get there someday....but it certainly is taking long while. to simplify my life... in every way. yep.. that's my life challenge.
*snapped the last couple categories this morning. will be uploading them now. yay.. i finished.. with a couple days to spare. and a bit of a post & run... but i will be back this evening with a buddy mosaic, to browse streams & finish up in the voting booth*
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You live must of your life
inside your head.
Make sure it's a nice place to be 💭.
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#notetoself
For August 09 MSH - Note to self
I took this photo before seeing the August MSH list, I wasn't too keen on it so I didn't bother editing and uploading it. Once I saw the list I changed my mind.
I thought I have a Kodak Signet 40?
Can you trust your memory?
I love that camera.
Who can love a digital camera? Nice tools, but virtually disposable : (
Canon Powershot G10, ISO 400, 1/30 sec, f/4.5, handheld. Since this isn't showing me the EXIF.