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Actually she wanted permission to go further, I obliged she enjoys a dip. A very ancient ford in the River Wyre at Garstang.
Actually 'our' train was not far away, it was a tired looking class 350 which was already jam-packed with unhappy hot people.
Left to right 221116 with the, 32 minutes late, 1M34 08.40 Bournemouth to Manchester Piccadilly service, 730015 with the terminated 10.50 Rugeley Trent Valley to Birmingham International, and 221135 with 1O14, the 10.25 Manchester Piccadilly to Bournemouth service. I was hoping to get 4 trains in the shot but the Bournemouth to Manchester slunk away...even more late.
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Actually it's probably a mallard. There was a whole flock of them living in this icy creek. This guy did eventually make it all the way up the waterfall to his buddies. Corbett's Glen Nature Park, Brighton NY
Actually one of the few morning shots I managed. I never saw a sunrise in Hong Kong by the way :)
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Actually the brewery is in Baltimore County in Relay, Maryland. Named the Guinness Open Gate Brewery & Barrel House, the new brewery is the first Guinness presence on US soil since 1954, and the first ever purpose-built Guinness brewery in American history.
This is actually a full slip that is part of another dress, but when dressing I decided the "slip" on its own made a lovely dress by simply accessorising it a little..
Sssshhhh, don't tell anyone that I'm wearing my underwear as a dress...!! Oh, hold on, I may have let my secret out already..😅😅💃
Kevin Mazur / Paramount Classics © 2008 by WPC Piecemeal, Inc. All Rights Reserved.
Noe Gold: Speaking of that, after your number with Buddy Guy, Buddy carries your guitar off the stage. I don’t know how he did it but he got Buddy Guy to be your guitar carrier at the end of the shot.
Keith Richards: What happens there is that I give Buddy Guy my guitar. And you haven’t heard the overdub because I hand Buddy Guy my guitar and say, “It’s yours.” That’s the point there. (laughs) I had to do the voiceovers in Barcelona for Marty because we didn’t quite pick it up on the stage. I handed Buddy my Gibson guitar and said, “Hey Buddy, this is yours.”
I’m happy to clear that one up. No way would I ever ask Buddy Guy to carry my guitar, man!
KM-079 Photo Credit: Kevin Mazur
(Left to right) Buddy Guy, Keith Richards and Charlie Watts performing onstage at the Beacon Theater during the Rolling Stones concert film “Shine A Light.” Paramount Classics in Association with Concert Productions International and Shangri-La Entertainment Presents A Martin Scorsese Picture “Shine a Light” starring Mick Jagger, Keith Richards, Charlie Watts and Ronnie Wood. The film is directed by Martin Scorsese. The producers are Victoria Pearman, Michael Cohl, Zane Weiner and Steve Bing. The executive producers are Mick Jagger, Keith Richards, Charlie Watts and Ronnie Wood. This film has been rated PG-13 for brief strong language, drug references and smoking.
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From the movie "Shine A Light"
Noe Gold, aka Noe the G is featured for his interviews with Mick and Keith in the Mahalo Daily show’s report on the Martin Scorsese Rolling Stones movie “Shine a Light,” which opens stateside April 4, 2008.
Today we interviewed Noe Gold regarding his work on the SHINE A LIGHT film. In the episode, we are featuring interviews with Mick and Keith that were taken for the production notes (with express permission from Paramount).
Looking forward to hearing from you!
Michael Gallagher
The piece that mahalo.com ’s producer Michael is talking about was designed to be a kind of companion piece to the “About the Film” section on Paramount’s www.shinealightmovie.com/main.html website. If you navigate over there, besides art work, clips and other goodies, you may find the text for the complete Production Notes for the movie. It was supposed to be a kind of behind-the-scenes of the process of putting together an elaborate Production Notes package, which this one in particular of all the many Notes packages I worked on, turned out to be. It’s that process -- and the elaborate process of making the movie itself that the show explores. I’ll be posting some more from the interviews I did with the filmmakers to put together this Production Notes package right on my blog,
Mahalo Daily Interviews with Mick Jagger and Keith Richards by Noe Gold for Shine A Light
Noë’s blog: doctornoemedia.blogspot.com
This is what I do. I write and research Production Notes packages of movies for major studios, in this case Paramount. Also in this case, I got to talk to Mick Jagger and Keith Richards -- and some of the producers -- to get quotes and insights for the Notes.
Mahalo Daily was interested in this process, so I went down there last week and they interviewed me on-camera discussing this fascinating behind-the-scenes at the movies process. They wound up using just two of my quotes in the audio for the episode they did on me, but I plan to release more of these conversations on my blog, doctornoemedia.blogspot.com/. Check out the episode here: daily.mahalo.com/2008/04/04/md093-shine-a-light-exclusive...
I’ve just now seen the movie for the fourth time, and it keeps getting better and better. Some of the features Lon Harris and I discussed in the interview for the show: Keith’s rapport with Marty, Mick’s auteurship of the concert, Buddy Guy’s performance and that of Jack White.
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This photoshoot has got me up against a wall. The photographer actually asked me to pose for this one instead of taking random pics. It also could be that the regular photographer is out sick....lol. I think things are getting pretty close to solving this case. I have the main suspect pegged and evidence is proving that Bill the photographer along with 2 of the other models have a hand in the case of the model disappearing after the photoshoot. All I need is to get them to confess. That shouldnt be a problem with as much evidence I have. With this photoshoot, I decided to run down to Faddish and pick out an outfit from one of my favorite designers. Knowing this creator would give me the look I need. Thanks Velvetena for the awesome Cruelty Romper ensemble. I couldnt just stop there. I had to hit up the creator of KosmetiK's and see what she had to complete this outfit. Thank goodness for favors due cause she gave me her newest creation, the Diamond Encrusted Silver Tipped Nails that havent even been put out yet. Ladies if you want this look, head down to Faddish for the Velvetena Cruelty Romper. Dont forget to join the KosmetiK group for all your nail and makeup needs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. And as always........Happy shopping ladies ☺
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Actually the Santa Special. Good to spend some time with this train, love the steaam and heavy metal!
It may sound silly but my initial reasoning for ever caring about going to Disneyland was this facade at Christmastime. After actually visiting, I can say that there are a lot of reasons to visit Disneyland but this area at Christmas is worth a visit in itself. Over the course of my trip I rode It's a Small World around 12 times and on this particular evening I spent about an hour photographing and enjoying this area after the park closed. Despite spending this much time here, I still dream about going back and could spend another two hours shooting the area without being satisfied.
Pictures can't do the area justice but here's my best effort. Enjoy and thanks for the comments, favorites, and any constructive criticism.
Actually those are geraniums, but I am stuck in photo doldrums.
We are having the best Summer weather wise in my memory and I am thoroughly enjoying it. I am packing a camera around much of the time and I am taking snap shots of people and scenery passing before me. Just not taking anything that to my eye is worthy of posting on Flickr.
Eventually the weather will change and I will get time to go over my shots and maybe take some new Autumn shots that inspire me.
Meanwhile I will enjoy looking at your shots!
Actually the lot next door - being deceptively shown as a park - at least until all the condos are sold.
In pursuit of Broquards in the fields of my village in open ground (they actually make my kilometers, crawled in the mud etc lol) test nikon D750 le 15 02 2015
Someone was flying a drone around to watch the burn.
We actually made it to the burn this year! We didn't sleep through it.
flying, watching.
bonfire, drone, sky.
people.
Four Quarters Interfaith Sanctuary, Artemas, Pennsylvania.
June 11, 2016.
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BACKSTORY: Well, that was a crazy burn! So much shit I never expected to do, at WickerMan Burn 2016!
- Damaged Carolyn's car on the way in so that it permanently squeaks, except it got better by the time we left
- Ate a tequila worm (so much more chewing than you would imagine!) when naked-goddess-bartender poured me one, randomly. (I had to check that it wasn't something from the woods)
- Watched fireworks so dangerously close that I needed first aid for a burned eyeball (could this be why the vision in that eye went bad this year?)
- Learned to weave. On a loom. And wove some. Took video of weaving.
- worried about this spleen issue I have that is starting to feel less like a pain, and more like an actual tumor that you can distinctly feel on one side (still hurting as of 2017, CT Scan found nothing)
- controlled huge flamethrowers with laserbeams & buttons
- fun stuff on top of a 20-ft wooden ziggurat art installation (Carolyn was too scared to go up!)
- Watched a firework fireball zoom past Carolyn's head (she didn't even flinch) and catch the ground on fire 1 foot from her feet
- Made out with both members of a couple (beards can be soft?)
- Bounced in a moon bounce
- Saw Carolyn fall off a bounce-house ramp, tumbling in mid air, as onlookers screamed (one massage later, she's fine)
- Played with propane bubbles (cover hand, stick in fire, watch self burn) with zero regard for my safety or even knowing what they were ("other people aren't dying when they do this, so i'll do this, whatever this is. no, i won't ask anybody any questions about it or learn anything safety-related")
- Treated 2nd degree cooking burn with actual aloe leaves someone bundled up, just in case. Only had to walk 20 feet from my camp! No relation to previous bullet point.
- Tried [REDACTED]
- Used logical deduction to guide a damsel in distress to her campsite that she could not find, even though I had never been there. (If you want to flatter me, make me feel like Aragorn. I also accept pints of cherry tomatoes & great conversation)
- Received tons of compliments about my hair & badass cartoon shirt (and about my brain) (but I get that a lot... it's the others I'm not so used to)
- Worried about Andrea in rehab. Did all kinds of crazy things to maintain connectivity to check up on her. A lotta good that did. RIP, Andrea.
- Learned to always great one specific person with "Hi, Clint!" (Her name is not Clint. This is how she prefers greetings.)
- Wore My Little Pony boxer-briefs around strangers
- Sent video from the middle of the woods with a phone that only works when plugged in (tricky)
- Met the creator of games I've played for 15 yrs, & found out that the vintage set of game pieces my aunt found me in a thrift store are so rare that he was re-telling people about our set... Even when we weren't even there. So honored! To tell the man who invented Fluxx that you had the original Fluxx back when that was the only Fluxx you could get was awesome, too.
- But to make a reference to a specific episode of 2 Stupid Dogs to the creator of Fluxx, and have him know it and repeat it back... Wow.
- Chastised by Channy for not knowing how to spell my own name on facebook, becuase she wanted pictoral proof of my story that did not believe -- that the deer shit that came out of the deer when my Bonneville was totalled (while driving back from Dirk's) had splattered onto my car in the shape of Pluto the Dog's face. I totally sent her that picture!
- Lost 1 of 2 cameras, resulting in our pictures being quite incomplete (gee, real Burnery of whoever found it to not bother giving it back. If I find someone else's camera, I guess this means I'll have to keep it to break even?)
- Learned I can consistently inhale an entire nitrous oxide cartridge in one lungful
- Randomly given 2 beers by someone, only to ask to see her face, and, after introductions, us all realizing we already know each other already and are FB friends already (wtf?! what are the odds?!)
Saw a truck covered in fire driving down the mountain like nothing was going on. Overheard: "Are you seeing that? Is that real?"
Phew? Did I get everything? I don't know! One night, I never saw my camp during the night time, at all.
Actually, there wasn’t weather for taking photo that day. After hot morning with clear sky(around 30 c degree), the weather got worse rapidly in the afternoon. A cold wind sprang up and an air temperature quickly dropped. The whole surface of bay began to evaporate creating a thin layer of mist floating just above the water. It was raining and the storm WAS COMING. I saw the lightning and the downpour on the other side of bay.
To think! I was going to actually going to adopt her out!
LOL! Look at her! She was just so darned cute, there was just NO WAY I was ever going to part with her.
HA! Perhaps if I could have fast forwarded to the present, and seen what an attitude she would develop as she got older, I might have been given it more consideration...............
NAH! She's my grumpy girl, and I love her!
Actually it's the Gulf of Mexico. This shot was taken on the south jetty of the Packery Channel, about 1000' past the waterline, on a night with some pretty rough water. I had to dry the equipment off a number of times, despite how calm it may look in the photo.
I actually blurted out 'Oh, Yes!' to myself when I saw this in the car park on my way into the show. (There were people around, so they probably heard me! lol).
I've never seen it before, and I'm not convinced it's a local car (though I could be wrong. I should have looked at the tax disc - where it was last taxed is the best indication I find for determining if a car is local to where it currently is). It's presence here is a good indication for its future (and its condition of course, it looks to be regularly valeted). The original number plates were from a Nissan garage in Ely, which is in Cambridge AFAIK, so it's driven a long distance at some point in its life. I think the mileage was about 48k, I really should have spent more time looking at this as it was easily the best thing I've photo'd today and it wasnt even part of the show. Unfortunately, when I came out of the show I made a beeline for where it was parked and found a boring Meriva in its space, it had left before me. Good to see the massive steering lock, at least it wont get nicked, they are an easy target, I was lucky not to lose mine once. I really like these early pre-pre-facelift models, I was tempted to leave a note on it, but of course I've just had to scrap my own beloved K10 due to lack of space, so that was never really going to happen. Seeing this makes me want mine back :(
We were driving back from touring the ground at Woodstock Gardens southeast of of Kilkenny, when my wife spotted a little break in the trees to our right. We back up and found this gem of a shot. If you look closely, you might even see an Irish gentlemen fishing in the Nore River. This - as much as any shot - was my favorite from the trip.
This little (actually, not so little!) ball of fluff was 45 days old when I photographed it on 20 July 2014. Lol, a face that perhaps only a mother could love? I have added a previously posted close-up photo of the owl's face in a comment box below. We don't have Barn Owls in the wild in Alberta, but this was seen at an exhibit.
That day, I plucked up courage to do a drive that I’d never done before. I had been that route once before that I can think of, when I carpooled with others. A good part of the drive was in familiar territory, but I’d never driven the last part of the journey myself. I had met my youngest daughter at 9:00 a.m. and we were both eager to see a display of birds of prey that had been brought up from the Coaldale Birds of Prey Centre.
This year, there were fewer birds, but it was great to see any at all. There was a Burrowing Owl, a Barn Owl, a Great Horned Owl, and a Golden Eagle. Another real treat that was an amusing one, was seeing this baby Barn Owl that was just 45 days old! This little ball of fluff was acting as a great ambassador, letting young kids get a close view and ask questions, and fall in love with it – and to hopefully, in the future, do everything they can as adults to protect our precious wildlife. The enjoyment of seeing these birds up close reminds one that the reason these birds are not free to live in the wild, is because of some kind of interaction with humans – such as permanent injuries from being hit by a vehicle, pesticide use, or even worse, being shot by a human! This is what happened to “Spirit”, the magnificent Golden Eagle, shot and blinded by someone.
This exhibit was our first destination in the park, though on the drive from Calgary, we had stopped at the small McDougall Church at Morley (photos posted the last two days). After seeing and photographing the birds of prey, we then drove to Middle Lake that’s in a different part of the park. We walked the very short distance to the edge of the lake, but didn't walk around it. From there, we drove to Many Springs Trail and did a very slow walk around the lake, stopping to look at different wildflowers and photograph a few butterflies. Certain wildflowers were already finished, including various Orchid species, but there were still plenty of other species to see and enjoy. Even the weather cooperated, though the forecast had been for isolated showers. Not too hot, nice clouds in the sky and lovely to have my daughter’s company for the day.
Thanks so much to the people down at the Coaldale Bird of Prey Centre (near Lethbridge, down towards the Canada/US border) for bringing your gorgeous birds of prey for us to see! I have been south to the Centre three times I think, and always long to go back again, but it's not somewhere I can drive to, so this was a much-appreciated treat!
Posting really late again today - early afternoon.
Actually, for me, that is not even a question.
I HAVE to be seen. And I am by far hardly the best looking gurl on Flickr :)
Actually, it's always the season for dark chocolate chip cookies! I had to take a bite while taking some photos...yum!
I actually processed this a little while back and wasn't sure if I would share it or not but I don't have anything else ready to go so here it is. The thing that really drew me to this otherwise simple shot of C3PO were the really cool colored reflections in the gold. Enjoy and thanks for looking!
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Actually saw this truck in real life, outside Davis, CA. The city currently uses split Toters WITHOUT tipper bars, but obviously used to use recycling crates.
(truckpaper.com)
An edition of Robert Indiana's famous LOVE sculpture being installed at the Pappajohn Sculpture Park in downtown Des Moines.
Actually decided to unchain myself from the desk this afternoon and take a quick brake from the whorehouse..i mean office.
I love this little bridge..all the good Princeton rusty goodness
Gebhard actually came and introduced himself on a beach in Mexico where we were camping.
He and his wife were traveling from Germany in a truckcamper they had shipped from there.
He said that once he and his wife retired “we have nothing but time so why not travel?”
He went on to say they have driven through Morocco, Uruguay and Mexico and have plans to drive most of North America.
I asked him if he wouldn't mind being in my 100 stranger project and he smiled a large smile and agreed.
It took me a couple of minutes to grab my 70-200 mm f4 lens. It had a polarizing filter already on it but the sun was bright so I thought it would work to cut the glare.
I had Gebhard stand with the morning sun behind him while his wife held the 32 inch silver reflector to bounce back some of the light.
I didn't have much time to fuss with the setup but in retrospect the photo would've probably turned out better if I had him stand in the shade.
I wish safe and happy travels to Gebhard and his wife.
This picture is #20 in my 100 strangers project. Find out more about the project and see pictures taken by other photographers at
...Actually a different one from the one I uploaded before, there are quite a few on the island, this one sat still long enough for me to capture his tail feathers. This has been photoshopped, filters and 'what not' added.
Explored 15.08.08 - #338
Actually, I just found out they are Pacifica Gala and not Royal Galas as I wrongly remembered-----ooops.
Explore #97
Actually 102 but anyways I would just wanna thank everyone for following me. Thanks to you my followers I reached my goal. Next goal: 200 followers......
some places actually waited til thanksgiving was completed before donning christmas decorations-- kudos. btb, the thumbnail of this looks cool-- so here's a square crop too :)
Tray cheezes for the camera, Wage tries to get into the shot, Ox snuggles his teddy bear.
Target is gonna be trouble with that camera, I can just feel it.
Actually a picture im semi happy with.
If i was to take pictures last night after youth, this is what it would have looked like. I was planning on useing my old bird cage before my mom decided to give it away, but after yesterday everything just fell together. Nothing huge happened or anything, im just caught up in my own thoughts. I feel emotionally caged, like i cant get truly close to anybody that isnt my family or a childhood friend. How do people do it? Just let people in even when they might not be moving as fast as you. Im scared, im scared to reach out passed the bars, passed the glass and really know someone.
I dont know anything at all
I'm actually really, really happy with how this turned out. I wanted something simple, yet intense. I think the lighting turned out really well. I only wish my eyes (especially my left eye- photo right) wasn't quite so dark...but I can live with that.
I can't even begin to describe how amazing today has been. God is changing me...absolutely changing my heart. Why, why, WHY did I stop trusting Him? Not so much stop trusting, but just...stop...walking with Him. I stopped following Him. Belief is not the same as following...and that's being made quite clear to me right now!
While I was reading Mark Batterson's "Wild Goose Chase" the idea of genuine repentance was really impressed upon me. I realized that if I feel guilty for anything, there's a reason. He mentioned that there are two types of guilt- convicting & condemning. Convicting comes from the Holy Spirit- it's good...it kind of alerts you to problem areas. Condemning guilt, however, comes directly from Satan trying to drag you down over FORGIVEN sins.
So I decided to make a list of everything I feel guilty about. EVERYTHING. And address them. Figure out which guilts were convicting & which ones were condemning. Needless to say, it's a big list. I haven't addressed them all- but I've hit a few. And let me say...I see exactly why genuine repentance is so incredibly important.
I often glorify my depression to myself. It sounds silly- but I long for it at times. It's incredibly enticing. I mean, once I'm in it I absolutely hate it and I'm miserable...but I've thrown away God's plans quite a few times to go chase a bad mood- I always gave over to it at the slightest hint of a bad mood. I think it was a power trip sometimes. It gave me a high I can't explain.
So I asked for forgiveness. And like a ton of bricks God put the answer on me. I've been too afraid to try to "deal with it", because in the past, whenever I would try to 'deal with it', I would always get dragged through the mud. I would start out with good intentions, but man...about halfway through, the temptation was overwhelming, and I gave over to the bad mood. But God pulled the curtain back and revealed it for what it truly is.
It's a lie. An absolute attack by Satan. It's the very essence of sin. It was isolating. It was overwhelming & all engulfing...it was controlling. It was deceptive. I gave away all the promises of God, all the plans, all the love to follow some ridiculous self-serving feeling...and when I "got it"...it wasn't anything like it advertised itself to be. It was empty. It was lonely. It was painful. It was disorienting. Satan cheated me. He promised me this great feeling...and when I got it, I hated it. So I really feel like God showed me that I haven't been manufacturing my depression, so much as I've been believing a lie, and trusting those feelings more than Him. Now that I know, now that I see...so much can change.
It really makes sense. Everyone thought I was bipolar, but when I would do testing, it always came back negative. I'm not bipolar. I'm not sick. I just believed a lie. That's not the case for everyone...but for me...I'm not sure any of it was real. Looking back, I'm wondering if my depression was a result of sin- the isolation, the guilt, the distance from God, as opposed to a genuine chemical depression.
Having God shine a light on sin...there's nothing like that feeling. I don't think sin is always that "you did something wrong" thing that we make it out to be. I think sin can take the form of many things, and in this case, it was a false belief- and an eventual willingness to trade the promises of God for that false belief. I recently learned that Sin is an archery term for missing the mark...I missed the mark time and time again despite my best efforts...because I couldn't see the true issue at hand. It's hard to hit a target when you've got a massive wall blocking your view.
I haven't felt this free in 4 years. It's no longer my burden to carry. It's no longer my fight to win. It's simply my lie to call. If I call it out for what it is, and put my trust in He who deserves my trust, I'll be fine. For far too long I've said things like "I hope I can stay in a good mood long enough to go back to church" or "I don't want to go back to church until I think I can hold down a good mood"...but you know...that's not even relevant anymore. That sin- the sin of chasing a crippling depression, has been completely forgiven & God showed me what it is at it's core.
It's no longer about hurrying up and "playing Christian" as much as I can on the good days, cutting my losses on the bad ones, and starting the cycle all over again...this is my life. This is my NEW life. No more pendulum swing...just...stability. That's a word I've scoffed at for years...but it's a word that's becoming reality.
I've been walking hand in hand with God for 12 days straight now. In the past, I'd give up after less than a week. 12 days isn't a huge victory...but it's a victory nonetheless. Yesterday was a really bad day- but I didn't give over to it. Yesterday/last night/this morning...that was my crossroads. That was exactly when I normally give up...but I pushed on, and ended up having the most amazing time with God I've had this entire time. That's no accident.
You turned my way
You heard my cry
You turned my mourning into shouting
Sorrow may last for a night
But with the light I am seeing
I am singing
You lifted me out
You lifted me out
And set me dancing, dancing
Free, now I am free
Your love rescued me
Now it's the anthem I'm singing
Many will see
Many will hear
And find You strong enough to save
Many the wonders You have done
Your light has come, I am singing
I am singing
Lost is where You found me
Shattered and frail
But You love me still
Trouble may surround me
My heart may fail
But You never will
You never will
-Chris Tomlin: You Lifted Me Out
On of my favorite quotes from Wild Goose Chase:
"There's no greater moment and no greater feeling than all of our guilt meeting all of God's grace."p109
Forgiven. Redeemed. Restored. (Reborn.) & Set Free.
What is there left to say
the words, they seem to fail now
overwhelmed by the name
who paid the price for me
What if you never moved
what if you never came down
leaving Your throne in Heaven
to bring us back to You
You carried me home
You carried me home
You carried me home
when You rolled the stone away
you rolled my stone away
Searching for us You came
Binding up the broken hearted
looking for the men enslaved
to the secrets of his shame
climbing inside the pain
it was You who truly bore the heartache
rearranged the story's ending
to bring us back to life again
You carried me home
You carried me home
You carried me home
when You rolled the stone away
you rolled my stone away
You carried me home
You carried me home
You carried me home
you made me your own
when you rolled the stone away
hallelujah, hallelujah
hallelujah
hallelujah, hallelujah
hallelujah
Forgiven. Redeemed. Restored. and set free
Forgiven. Redeemed, Restored. Reborn. and set free.
You carried me home
You carried me home
You carried me home
when You rolled the stone away
you rolled my stone away
-Phil Joel: Carried Me Home