Saying goodbye to an old friend… This was the first acoustic guitar that I bought back in college. It was and is not a high-dollar guitar by any means. It has a lot of nicks and dings- even some cracks on the fretboard. I have no case to transport this to Tennessee, and I thought instead of risk getting smashed up in the move, I could giver her a new home and give someone the opportunity to learn to play.

This was a hard one to let go of, but in the end, I felt it would be a way to give it to someone who might not otherwise be able to afford an instrument to learn to play. Maybe this will be there for them as it has been there for me long ago.

Theme: Moving On

Year Ten Of My 365 Project

Bodie, California, USA

Canon EOS 5D Mark III

"And I never thought I'd feel this way

And as far as I'm concerned

I'm glad I got the chance to say

That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away

Well, then close your eyes

And try to feel the way we do today

And then if you can remember

Keep smiling, keep shining

Knowing you can always count on me, for sure

That's what friends are for

For good times and bad times

I'll be on your side forever more

That's what friends are for

Well, you came and opened me

And now there's so much more I see

And so by the way I thank you

Whoa and then for the times when we're apart

Well then close your eyes

And know these words are comin' from my heart

And then if you can remember, oh"

- From "that's What Friends Are For" by Dionne Warwick

www.youtube.com/watch?v=HyTpu6BmE88

Ms Isa Rae? We've in a short time been through some extreme good times, but also some extreme times.

We've come out the other side as the BEST of friends and we each bring out what is best about each of us.

We know what made things go wrong and that it all was never right, so we talked like adults and made it right.

You are a wonderful friend, amazing confident.

Although we are fresh in this life, we both know what friends are for from knowing we "met before we ever met up".

I love you forever Isa.

I will like you for always.

As long as we can talk and hold each other tight through the maelstroms, my friend you will always be.

I love you very much Ms Isa. I will always lift you and never tear you down. You have my word.

THAT'S what friends are for...

- Your Katherine xoxo

Cyn is a new friend and very kind and caring one :-)

I had not been to Frank's in ages. Not only did she take me there, she wore a wonderful tux and led...and boy can she lead! I swooned...

We made some wonderful new memories there.

It led to a most rewarding and romantic night. One like I haven't had in years.

It didn't end after Frank's ;-)

Thank you Cynthia for such a lovely time and I can't wait to do it again soon ;-)

Just give me...one more night...

With Love and Appreciation,

- Katherine xoxo

www.youtube.com/watch?v=zKVq-P3z5VgCyn

"One More Night" by Phil Collins

Was aimlessly scrolling youtube video thumbnails back in mid-January. That's what it's come to for me lately. An attention span too short to even watch a ten minute video, I'm reduced to scrolling the thumbnails of recommended videos. Often that's as edifying as watching the actual clip. Every once in a while I stumble upon a thumbnail tantalizing enough to open. One that caught my eye was a horoscope video for Capricorn (my birth sign). These are normally glib and way over-promise specific (generally wonderful) outcomes. But this one was not that. Quite the opposite it cautioned of an imminent and drastic change in my life. It seemed Pluto was closely conjoined with my birth sign at the time of the new moon. Pluto can often bring about a feeling of purging; sort of a creative destruction, hopefully leading to a regeneration. Great in theory but rooted in an underlying ordeal. I tried to take this with a grain of salt. But my apprehension began to grow as the date of the new moon drew near. I remember being very cautious that day trying hard not to be careless or inattentive lest I cause my own hardship. The day passed without incident and I felt relieved.

Two more care-free days and by then I had pretty much forgotten the video. But disaster struck on the third day. I was processing a photo when I noticed a dramatic slowdown in my computer. Didn't think much of it until I began hearing a clicking sound emanating from inside the machine. The hard drive had corrupted! Panic began to set in as I realized my entire photo archive was in jeopardy. I took stock of my file backup situation and it was virtually nonexistent. Some files existed in the cloud, and some on a backup computer. But I had become complacent on routine backup, and had procrastinated setting up a safety net. I'd been skating on thin ice for years and it finally caught up with me. I rebuilt the system and was able to restore a few thousand images from SD cards, and thousands more from iPhone. Yet tens of thousands of images had simply vanished. There is some hope that files from the old hard drive can be recovered. But I've resigned myself to the probability that they will not. This acceptance did not come overnight. The archives was vast and there was just no way to absorb the extent of the loss all at once. Every few hours I would recall another shoot that was lost, and these pangs kept hitting me like a series of waves, one after another. They're still coming, but less frequently. I assume this all happened for good reason. Much the way the universe guided me to take the photos in the first place, perhaps this was its way of telling me it was time to let go and head in a new direction. That's fine, I put my faith in the universe. But I now also have a 2Tb external drive backing up every pixel I create, just in case the universe decides I need another intervention.

In the midst of getting my system running again (also a huge ordeal that could have been avoided with a proper backup), I inadvertently smashed this antique doll. Something in my hatchback fell onto a box full of dolls and I heard a pop as if a lightbulb had shattered. I couldn't imagine what had caused the sound because the dolls were all cloth and plastic. But when I looked into the box I found one doll's head was made of porcelain and of course that's the one that shattered. Remarkably the face was largely intact. I carefully gathered all the fragments in hopes of gluing them back together. But much like my photo archives, I realized that neither would ever be the same.

June 5, 2011.

I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how, I've never heard silence quite this loud

I still have so many things I want to say, things I want to clarify if they were true; things I want to ask. But there's no longer any chance to do any of those. Neither of us are going to make the first move, we're just going to leave it like this. Broken; unfinished; bewildering. Walking down different paths, pretending we both don't exist, casually acting like all the memories have managed to fade away. I've never been the kind to like loose knots. I want everything to be resolute with a proper ending to it. Maybe that explains why I'm unable to forget; not just yet. Time is supposed to help whisk away whatever memories I don't want to remember, people are supposed to walk into my life and introduce new memories, growing up is supposed to give me a whole new viewpoint of the past. I can't wait for that to happen, so I can close this final chapter that has remained unwritten for so long.

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"Can I have this dance? Shall we take a chance?

Oh, to long and pine, oh, to search and find

It's a do-si-do, it's a toe to toe

Plant a money tree, grow a love so free

And if I should fall so deep and true

And if I should fall so deep

May it be with you

Golden vest judge

But we don't think much

'Bout what went or came

Only what remains

And if I should fall so deep and true

And if I should fall so deep

May it be with you

Periwinkle rose, and each day we chose

Haven't known you long, kept it sweet and strong

Write a poem or song, but you can't hold on

To what's come or gone, only what's begun

And if I should fall so deep and true

And if I should fall so deep

May it be with you

May it be with you

May it be with you"

"With You - A Sweet Little Love Song" by Valerie June

www.youtube.com/watch?v=wF5Gu4QeMZQ

Katie loves to just love and to be loved. She keeps it simple as does this Katie.

We don't need more then that.

"But we don't think much

'Bout what went or came

Only What Remains"

I simply love you for who you are Ms Parx...thank you for loving me the same...

- Katherine XOXO

direction south coast

"birds flying high" :-)

Lost when Flickr ate 124 of my 148 photos last year...they found them after three days and a team of 6 searching...but all the text...the journaling was gone...

All I have left is the images, but for this one I was thinking of a special friend who I love very much. For this one "Little Girl", I remembered the song that was in my head for you...it speaks enough for me through it's lyrics and they are as true now as they were in fall of 2022. If I told you.....oh how I want to tell you...the saddest part is you will never see this post...or know how I feel...I hope you are ok wherever you are...

I love you Little One....

- Your Katie Kat

"It's a full moon, L.A

And we're alone for the first time

On Venice beach under the palm trees

Tell me your dreams and I'll tell you mine

What would you say if I told you

You're my last thought at the end of each night?

Would you believe me

Or would you even reply?

Would you?

Would you?

Would you?

Would you?

I am a loner, I am stubborn

Can you handle this world I live in?

I know I can't change, but for you I'd compromise

I'd be on your side if you'd be on mine

Yes, you're anxious and you're stubborn too

But I'd learn to love the worst parts of you

Could be the full moon or this cheap wine

But I'm hoping you'll reply

Would you?

Would you?

Would you?

Would you?

Is it in the stars or some age old truth?

Why did the universe draw me to you?

You're so magnetic, I am hypnotized

Feels like I've known you since before this life

I hope I always see you this way

Here's to wondering if you feel the same

But I can tell when your eyes meet mine

That the truth isn't your reply

You do

You do

You do

You do"

"If I Told You" by Courtney Marie Andrews

www.youtube.com/watch?v=ttdwUr0JXe8

Step into the sunshine,

so far from the dark clouds

And pray to the new day,

'cause it's time to move on...

The good thing about road trips is that it gives you time to think… to conjure ideas and thinks… and this trip was no exception (more so on the way back home).

Today's drive took me from Massachusetts up through New Hampshire and Maine. I had scheduled a hotel just over the Canadian border in New Brunswick, but because I spent such little time crossing through customs, I pushed all the way through to Prince Edward Island. I have to day this was the longest but my favorite day of the drive.

The roads were empty and wide open; the territory was just amazing. If I had to pick one state from the drive where I'd move to it if I could: it would be Maine. It was beautiful, it was remote, and probably fewer snakes (and more moose) than Tennessee. Win, win, win!

Theme: Moving On

Year Fifteen Of My 365 Project

I set out on the long journey back home today, where a new chapter to a new story will begin for me…

I think there's kind of a joy in whatever sadness I may feel; a joy that something new is being created every day. There's that light in me that I had been trying to see for so long now, and I feel like I can begin to be myself once again.

Theme: Moving On

Year Fifteen Of My 365 Project

"I need to let go of this feeling. I shouldn't waste precious time dwelling on the past anymore. I did what I had to do. What had to happen has already happened. What remains to be done is for me to get a grip and go on with my life. The future awaits. I have to move on now." ~Raymond Carlos Abagat

January 5, 2010

Shades of Life

shadesoflife365.wordpress.com/2010/01/05/letting-go/

I don’t want to cry over 2019 & how much I miss it. I don’t want to think about everything that’s been lost. I want to enjoy today, instead of dreaming of yesterday. I want to love this holiday season, this December. What had to leave left and if health allowing it move on and enjoy now. ♥️

Relic… this was the first laptop that I purchased and believe it or not I was still able to boot it up after almost 20 years. I remember running my entire business off this laptop, I met my wife through this laptop, I lived my life by a thread through this thing- and though it had its issues, it survived and got me through when I had nothing to my name.

I held onto this laptop for mostly sentimental reasons. It was the first major purchase I made, and I still remember the day I went and purchased it after saving up and working so very hard for many months to afford it. But it is just what I said- a relic… and the version of Office on this computer was comically ancient, and I think the best way to hold onto it is through my 365…

Theme: Moving On

Year Ten Of My 365 Project

We went to Lake Ontelaunee on Easter Sunday. We wanted to do some fishing!! This poor little duckling was stranded all by itself. It was so windy and the water was so choppy.

Today........ we're going fishing again. We're going with Kaitlyn's 'non-boyfriend' boyfriend's parents. Cooking on the grilling, fishing, taking pics, shooting guns (yes, even my little Kaitlyn enjoys shooting the guns) and just having a good day outside!! Let the adventure begin.

The flow of water.

My Katie and my Chance are back in time for us to snuzzle and wuzzle our way together into 2025 :-)

Happy New Year everyone and THANK YOU for taking an interest into this little Fae Canuck's life in our amazing little digital world!

Let's go into 2025 and make it a loving adventure together!

Je t'aime! XOXO

- Ms Katherine Marie McAuley

whew... i made it.. i half can't believe it!

i am spent from the garage sale- it went well.. but not as well as expected.. but we had high hopes.. will do it again tomorrow..so i planned on writing more than i am about to-- but i think i may have to come back and write more in another post... i do plan on doing a video of the 365..so be on a look out for that

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would'nt you know it??? ..the last day landed on cliche saturday.. i have always wanted to do this cliche..and i have searched high and low for the perfect railroad track spot... and i never found one- until this weekend.. coinkidink? i say perfect sycynchronicity. this cliche symbolizes the end..new beginnings and endless possibilities!!

i must thank all the wonderful people of cliche saturday for really making me feel so encouraged, inspired and supported..

and to my many other awesome contacts... without you.. i would have quit long ago.

i really wanted to thank everyone personally.. and i did actually start typing all your names in.. and i realized how that might not be such a good idea.. ;> because my brain is fried right now and undoublty i would forget someone..so please know how much you all mean to me.. xoxoxo

so thank YOU... everyone.... who has supported me along the way... this experience has been so meaningful to me.. it has helped me in tremendous ways with confidence and has put me on a different path of what i want to do with my life.. i have found my true passion..and for that i am so incredibly grateful!!

La fin? the end? i don't know.... i did plan on at least taking a flickr vacation... but i am seriously addicted...soooooooo??? we'll just have to let true inspiration guide the way..

i do plan on uploading more.. doing less selfies.. much less.. ;-) my goodness i am so sick of myself!!!

but also i plan on really trying to turn this into a business... because i NEED to.. so there will probably be much more manipulation stuff, as well as photography of children families and couples.

by the way...anyone need an apprentice?? i'm open!

big love to you all!!

and

happy cliche saturday!!!

"I chose and my world was shaken. So what? The choice may have been mistaken; the choosing was not. You have to move on."

Stephen Sondheim

My Katie came back for a wonderfully quiet and low key night with Chance and I.

I love the Parx family so very, very much.

I love the Hazelnut family so very much

I love the Starflare family so very much

I love the BBK family very much.

I love my Cobalt family so very much

I love my Red Rum family so very much.

I love Ms Katie Parx so very, very, very much.

I love being able to love Katie as she loves to love me.

Things in this electronic world are quiet again...blessedly so. Love fills my time between the families I am around and the work I get to do.

It's been a long three years of loud and hurtful chaos. Now...now...there is just love, creativity and peace.

I get to have my special pixel world back and it is thanks to mature, caring and honest special people.

I love you all very much!

- Katie xoxo

Photo by: Me

Editing by: Vegar

Subject: my heart

Background: The past

Similar circumstances. Oh, to be here.

View On Black

How does this part always hurt so?

I hate giving up, and never with you.

Sometimes you're left with no choice in the matter. ♪♫

Your fingertips across my skin

The palm trees swaying in the wind

Images

Almost lovers always do

I found this while packing and couldn’t help but quote Shakespeare in my head…

Theme: Moving On

Year Ten Of My 365 Project

This wonderful pic is from the 124 Flickr lost pic list earlier this year, so I am forced to rewrite a narrative for it.

Kelly and I split late November 2021. I was down and out, but dressed to the nines and went to a set DJ Minka played. She's an incredible DJ. Amazing. She was the perfect tonic for me.

Minka pumped out a spectacular techno set which blew us all away but then...started dumping the club full of particles - the right kind. They filled the club and made you feel...whole.

I got release, redemption and I felt freedom. I also met future gf Tree there that night (shudders), but that's another story for another time.

Always go see Minka. She cured what my soul ailed from.

Be of peace all.

Namaste

- Katherine

"Get me out of this town." Just something different from me. The lighting was right and the locomotive looked so powerful and interesting.

"this is the last photo i take when still in love with you."

let's consider my No.1 done.

time to move on.

not that i like the idea of moving on, but sometimes, dwelling on some certain part of the past can be quite boring and pointless.

bleh...

This is one of the 124 of 148 pictures Flickr's servers ate last spring for unknown reasons. Flicker spent three days using 6 people to find all my lost pics, but the text, music links except were all gone...

My memory is problematic due to RL mental health trauma. Posting my experiences and feelings on Flickr was a good way for me to document and remember how I was feeling then. Now I have no context for many of the pictures - that memory is void other then knowing I took the picture.

This one is at least cheerful...I have a pod of Sea Otters that swim off my boat launch and they didn't mind me floating along with them. I did find the song that went with it "Float On" by Modest Mouse. It's a warm tune and this lookslike it was a warm memory, so here you go. Float on my friends...love you all.

- Katherine xoxo

The song:

www.youtube.com/watch?v=CTAud5O7Qqk

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How do I end up in the same old place,

faced again with the same mistakes,

so stubborn thinkin I know what is right,

but life proves me wrong everytime,

takin roads that lead me nowhere,

how do I expect to get there,

but when will I learn to just put you first.

I always try to do this on my own but I was wrong cause only with you can I move on. Can I move on.

♥ Move On - Bruno Mars

Beautiful song! :) Reminds me of an OPM song.

It was a nice week. :) I had a great birthday. (Well, for me. :D) It was simple, a friend unexpectedly stopped by to give me dozen of Krispy Kremes and hang out with me. Then we (My fam and I) went out for dinner and we had Japanese. :DD Then some froyo for dessert. :) (Birthday post later) The only thing that made me really happy are the people who greeted me that day. It was really special cause one of my bestfriend went here from UK (for the third time) to celebrate with me. :)

So anyway, our week's concept is "moving forward" or moving on, being free, etc. IDK if I did it right but that's the concept that run into my head when I thought of those words. :P

03/52 - To the unknown

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I will soon be leaving everything I've ever known for almost 30 years. I'm very grateful for everything I have, the family close by, the friendships I've made, the career I've built, but something tells me to move on.

I'll be moving to Arizona soon and I'm very excited for a new opportunity, but it also terrifies me. I'm not a big risk taker, but it just feels right. It's something I must see through and I don't want a life full of regrets. Now is the time...

A pictorial document (Aethergraph) from Brighton UK circa 1765 ?

Nevada, USA, 2011.

I still remember the day one of my agents passed away… I remember getting the call, I remember having to tell her team, and I remember packing her desk because her supervisor just couldn’t emotionally handle doing it. I remember taking this little trinket of a duck that I had given her for a competition I created as a way to remember her (it’s also in my 365 from a couple years ago).

The more I go through things, the more I am okay with making peace with memories and moving on with such items. It’s not like I am going to create a wall of shrined memories in my new home- so it’s better (to me) to have that brief moment of reflection, cherish and embed that memory, and then move on…

Theme: Moving On

Year Ten Of My 365 Project

youtu.be/IdcN4BRpmGI

Pour papa. Tu me manque aujourd'hui plus que d'habitude