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"C'mon junior, time to get up", after a long nap a mother polar bear wants to move on. The larger of her two cubs has already gone ahead, Hudson Bay, Churchill, Manitoba.

11/03/2022 www.allenfotowild.com

Convergence.

One month into Spring now Summer is coming up fast, North of the Equator anyway.

I see the sun,

it's first rays,

lighting up the day,

Chasing monsters away.

to keep up the fight.

My sweet baby girl being her adorable self! <3

SOOC

55mm

f/8.0

ISO: 200

Here are two pics from our horseback riding adventure yesterday. All 3 girls were naturals in the saddle. They will be taking riding lessons and hopefully it will help grow their already existing love for horses.

They were at the stables for about 2 hours and went on a trail ride through the property (even got to ride on the road for a little bit)!! It was so fun!

This is Abby riding Ringo!

More pics tomorrow! <3

I believe the children are our future

Teach them well and let them lead the way

Show them all the beauty they possess inside

Give them a sense of pride to make it easier

Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be

Everybody searching for a hero

People need someone to look up to

I never found anyone who fulfill my needs

A lonely place to be

And so I learned to depend on me

I decided long ago

Never to walk in anyone's shadows

If I fail, if I succeed

At least I'll live as I believe

No matter what they take from me

They can't take away my dignity

Because the greatest love of all

Is happening to me

I found the greatest love of all

Inside of me

The greatest love of all

Is easy to achieve

Learning to love yourself

It is the greatest love of all

I believe the children are our future

Teach them well and let them lead the way

Show them all the beauty they possess inside

Give them a sense of pride to make it easier

Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be

I decided long ago

Never to walk in anyone's shadows

If I fail, if I succeed

At least I'll live as I believe

No matter what they take from me

They can't take away my dignity

Because the greatest love of all

Is happening to me

I found the greatest love of all

Inside of me

The greatest love of all

Is easy to achieve

Learning to love yourself

Is the greatest love of all

And if, by chance, that special place

That you've been dreaming of

Leads you to a lonely place

Find your strength in love

Greatest Love of All

Song by Whitney Houston

Photo Credit: Clementine Rosca

My favourite Sim in SL was called "Wintermoon". I saw "was". because sadly, like a lot of things in SL, it couldn't retain permanence. On day it was just...gone...

I would go there to find solace for myself when I was hurting or lonely or both. I would take friends or more so to there to experience the beauty of the sims - arguably the best ones in Second Life - and also to "hear the calling".

Each time I went there, despite the hundred plus times I went, I would feel "called" to a particular area that somehow I had never seen and experienced before there. Somehow in the spot, I would find peace and easement of mind. Somehow many of those I cared about did too.

This picture is one of the 124 Flickr's servers up and "ate" out of 142 pictures I had journaled. For reasons unknown, Flickr "ate" the pictures and a team of six of their people took three days to find them again for me.

Every single one.

For that, I was eternally grateful as my health as it is means I can't always trust my brain and documenting my SL for better or worse via Flickr, helped me to preserve the experiences and memories of our digital world.

The catch was all my writing, song links etc, were still gone. the pictures remain and tell a story unto themselves, but the context is vague and cloudy without the journaling. Still, they are here again. In my hard drive and I can share once more a moment from the past - now a glance if you will.

I do know this was Wintermoon. I do know I was troubled looking for answers that day when wandering and I most especially know the sim "showed me" where to be and what do, so I sat, read by the sea and forest and settled my mind.

For that, for Wintermoon, I am forever grateful.

Be of peace all of you.

- Katherine

"We try to grab pieces of our lives as they speed past us. Photographs freeze those pieces and help us remember how we were. We don't know these lost people but if you look around, you'll find someone just like them."

Gene McSweeney

Another of the 124 lost photos after retrieval. This one was to mark a change in my Second Life when an important friend left suddenly, but I resolved I had to carry on.

“What is that feeling when you're driving away from people and they recede on the plain till you see their specks dispersing? - it's the too-huge world vaulting us, and it's good-bye. But we lean forward to the next crazy venture beneath the skies.”

-Jack Kerouac

Onward. :) Happy Monday!

Before moving on, you have to clear away your cherished beliefs.

~ Dick Raymond

"You saw through me all this time

I'd forgotten people are kind

I was hurting and you knew

So you showed me what to do

You said "I will listen, tell it all

When you're finished we'll talk more"

But I didn't know how, so we took it in turns

To my surprise we found my words"

From "Ready Now" by Dodie

www.youtube.com/watch?v=ee41m9AH58w

I am ready now...we found my words by taking it in turns...

Thank you for understanding me Shesa...

With so much love,

- Katherine Marie

xoxo

"I-I love the colorful clothes she wears

And the way the sunlight plays upon her hair

I hear the sound of a gentle word

On the wind that lifts her perfume through the air

I'm pickin' up good vibrations

She's giving me the excitations

Close my eyes, she's somehow closer now

Softly smile, I know she must be kind

When I look in her eyes

She goes with me to a blossom world

I'm pickin' up good vibrations

She's giving me excitations

Ah, ah, my my, what elation

I don't know where but she sends me there

Oh, my my, what a sensation

Oh, my my, what elation

Oh, my my, what

Gotta keep those lovin' good vibrations a-happenin' with her

She's giving me the excitations

I'm pickin' up good vibrations"

Pulled from "Good Vibrations" by The Beach Boys.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=jkPyB-g3asI

Shesa and I exploring new places and we take our relationship into new spaces...

Lawd I love the vibrations she exudes. The give me "excitations".

I love and appreciate you and our new time together Ms Shesa Quandry.

I gotta keep those love good vibrations a-happenin' with her...

- Katherine Marie

All Happy With Glee

XOXO

"come up to meet you, tell you i’m sorry,

you don’t know how lovely you are.

i had to find you, tell you i need you,

tell you i set you apart.

tell me your secrets and ask me your questions,

oh, let's go back to the start...."

~ coldplay, the scientist (acoustic version)

"Strange and beautiful

Are the stars tonight

That dance around your head

In your eyes I see that perfect world

I hope that doesn't sound too weird

And I want all the world to know

That your love's all I need

All that I need

And if we're lost

Then we are lost together

Yeah if we're lost

We are lost together"

From "Lost Together" by Blue Rodeo

www.youtube.com/watch?v=cEYdwiVAP9o

Every time I get a chance to be peaceful with Shesa, we end up getting lost with each other...the world as we know it gets left behind and we end up in one of our own - always lost in emotion, but always together.

I love how we are pushing forward softly, respectfully and lovingly bae...

I love getting lost in your arms, eyes and most importantly - your love.

Thank you for being ever caring, empathetic, and oh so very romantic hon.

I look forward to getting lost together with you again soon.

- Your Kitty Katie

xoxo

Today was a whirlwind of unpacking the truck and trailer, checking in the trailer, and getting ready for the drive back home. As emotionally charged as it was, I found moments of peace and calm to enjoy the small things in life- like coffee...

Theme: Moving On

Year Fifteen Of My 365 Project

"I wanna come over

To hell with the consequence

You told me you love me

That's all I believe

I wanna come over

It's a need I can't explain

To see you again

I wanna come over"

From "I Want to Come Over" by Melissa Etheridge

www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ckt0TuK0qv0

Shesa? You always leave your light on for me. Every night, I always just want to touch you once more.

You and I have been left behind by those who filled us with fears, some kind of sins...

We turned and stopped denying the fire. Now lover, I burn and you let me in.

I ALWAYS wanna come over.

:-)

- Katherine Marie

XOXO

View On Black

Today I did the last of the Christmas family celebrations.

I love Christmas but I am glad to be moving on......to quiet, peace and a sense of having my life back..

Ah, putting my feet up and dreaming of all I want to accomplish in 2010.

Have a great week everyone.

In her happy dreams, Hobbes and her are there....

www.youtube.com/watch?v=qNzOhyo-4g8

Chance stopped in for the night to stay with me in my cabin at Turtle Mountain. A warm duvet and a hot Chance make for a rather cozy and safe place for the night that makes the snow storm outside seem miles away :-)

- Katherine

August 2011, Dortmund

We were in the park and the birds flew over our heads.

Thanks for the favs,views and following me!

"Sixty seconds now feels more like thirty

Tick-tock, won't stop, around it goes

Sand through the glass sure falls in a hurry

And all you keep trying to do is slow it down, soak it in

Keep trying to make the good times last as long as you can

But you can't, man

It just goes too fast"

-Luke Bryan

Olympus Trip 300, 34mm f/5.6.

2020 "Bring on Tomorrow" a poster in Bracknell, pretty much how most folk feel about 2020!

"Things could be stranger but I don't know how

I'm going through changes now

I've spent a lifetime trying to figure it out

I'm going through changes now

And I've just begun

Under a purple sun

There's many reasons we are what we become

I'm going through changes, ripping out pages

I'm going through changes now

I knew it once, but I forgot

I'm going through changes now

We want everything but what we got

I'm going through changes now

Maybe it's too soon

Under a purple moon

But I'd ride off with you in a big balloon

I'm going through changes, rattling cages

I'm going through changes now

Things could be different but I don't know how

I'm going through changes, through all of the strangeness

I'm going through changes now"

"Changes" by Langhorne Slim

www.youtube.com/watch?v=jK-Tbcy66jY

We'll figure it out. We've had lifetimes to figure it out. We'll rip out pages, through all the strangeness. We're ready - together - to go through changes now even if we don;t know how :-)

- Katherine Marie to Ms. Quandry

“I dedicate this to all my friends past and present who allowed me to shine; who gave me the gift of unconditional love and understanding; who set me free to follow my own path and all those friends whom I have yet to meet. I am content to stand in your shadow so that you may also shine. I am content to let you go; to let you fly free so that one day I have the pleasure to welcome you back again with open arms and love in my heart … “ - AP

Soundtrack : www.youtube.com/watch?v=0iAzMRKFX3c

WIND BENEATH MY WINGS – BETTE MIDLER

FRIENDSHIP

Friendship to me is letting go

helping someone to find their wings

allowing them the freedom to grow

and wishing them well and all good things

standing in their shadow as they fly away

letting them shine brightly like the sun

waiting patiently for the day

that brings them home;

and I will be here to catch you if you fall

and gently mop your brow

erase all doubts you may have had

be content with all I have right now

A friend is like a precious flower

nurtured by nature; freedom from pain

swaying to and fro as life does

learning to laugh and dance in the rain

a flower does not have enemies

when nature is in balance

no matter what the wind blows in

we can survive; we can withstand

we may be battered by the storm

but we come through it all

hand in hand the promised land

awaits us; we stand strong and tall

A friend is happy to see you smile

gives thanks for all your triumphs

and puts you first before themselves

provides a safety net against imbalance

when doors are slammed shut in your face

God opens up a window

what lies beyond was not for you

look through the glass; the gentle glow

a candle flame is lit for you

a sign of love and understanding

it will not burn you as you pass through

it will not hurt; it's undemanding

just as a true friend to you should be

it is warm and it is welcoming

makes you feel loved and understood

never seeks to put you down

We know full well when something's wrong

we know we can't win them all

these battles that rage in others are

not our fight; out of our control

so it is easy to forgive them

and find the rightful path for us

for in their torment they are hurting

only themselves; so to above

I pray for them their souls to lay

to rest and ease their weary minds

but for now they have to stay

behind the door they closed on kind

and loving souls who wished them well

who bid them one last fond farewell

and try to keep our thoughts from dwelling

on their own sad and tortuous hell

We can only try our best

to help; to love; to understand

but until the recipient is willing to accept

they are cast out; they are banned

It seems to go against the teaching

of Christian love that I know

but a lesson can be hard in reaching

those who will not hear the woe

that they enforce on other's kinder

fragile, gentle, brittle hearts

until they recognise in the mirror

they are the ones who made them part

I do not like to see the suffering

of anyone if I can be of help

but sometimes all we can do is leave them

to find their way; to rid themselves

of the self-imposed angst they keep inside them

that fights to keep the whole world out

if they can break the pattern of their thinking

and let love in, then they will never be without.

- AP - Copyright © remains with and is the intellectual property of the author

Copyright © protected image please do not reproduce without permission

My artwork is a compilation of 5 of my photographs

Very kind, very smart and oh so very cuddly...a Chance encounter :-)

I'd say Chance is with me ;-)

She's a very good Chance to take...

I tweaked the aperature settings and... viola!

We had such a great time today! Just me, Kait and Amber. More to come!! <3

View On Black

"We must embrace pain and burn it as fuel for our journey." ~Kenji Miyazawa

11/04/00-11/04/09=R.I.P. Happy Anniversary???

How uncomfortable it is to have a date that should by all rights equal happiness and love..be a day of discomfort and uncertainty. Gone are the flowers...the cards...the sweet sentiments...the forget-me-nots...the gift of love and adoration. Replaced by foulness..anger..bitterness...blame...finger pointing and an incessant need to run fast in any other direction! Today shall be a tough one as I am in the throws of divorce and moving on yet still in my complacency and awaiting the loose ends to be tied up. There is no finalization yet..it is limbo at its best. How does one get uncomplicated in a complicated mess? I do not cry or hope or wish or beg...for it is not the loss of my husband that bothers me but certainly I will mourn the loss of what I thought things would be....

BUT that road ahead sure does look colorful, bright and inviting..I think I shall get on it!

I have a wonderful friend who I treasure more then my own self. I say that because despite all odds against them they have fought a helluva demon that still likes to taunt and try to drag them back into Hell. The same demon took my Dad from me...

Each time I see or talk to them, I feel blessed for I never know if I might not see them again...or used to...they fight harder now and the Demon's taunts and seductions get quieter for them...I don't worry as much as I used to.

They aren't who they were now. They are much better. They are stronger.

They will win.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=nKnTjYu4c44

Somehow though, when I talk to them, they give me the vibe that listening to Janis Joplin does. They come from the same part of the world, so you never know - maybe Janis came back.

I know my compadre came back again...

My avatar sits and ponders if she will return in this picture as at the time, she had left...quickly...

To the pretty ginger who crinkles her nose so cutely and tells me of travels far and wide...I love you in ways that words can't describe...and I hope..so hope..you heard Janis for that song the way I do and never ever will be the "Little Girl Blue" anymore...

This was part of the 124 of 148 pics Flickr ate on me...luckily I remembered the song and who it was for...

Love you all...especially Crinkle Nose;-)

- Your Katie Kat, For Always

Celebration after the walkoff win in game 4 of the ALDS. The win clinched the series! The shot isn't the best since I was standing on a chair yelling, which definitely adds to camera shake!

She walks forward carrying only a suitcase, leaving behind streets, memories, and chapters that no longer belong to her. In the quiet corners of Begur, every departure feels like the beginning of another story.

2026#171

ME. Teehee!

My usual self on a very sunny HOT humid day in Singapore. Ugh!!

No processed edit. Almost SOOC. just levels. crop a bit. Shoot by the boyfriend, concept me. LOL.

I am screwed because I missed 30 days of my Project 365 and I am kinda tired patching it up. IT DOES COME TO A POINT like that sadly to realized. And I know no one will noticed but me. Ha ha ha. But now that I have told you, throw the rotten tomatoes at me now. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

It made me sad to ponder really at some point how hell did I screw it up. I can come up with a number of life's realities' reasons (other than seeing my face all over the stream)..blah blah blah... but I kinda learned to LET GO..and no other way, but MOVE ON. =) But it doesn't mean I am stopping, NEVER. I will continue the count. Woot! So what? I am not breaking any RULES anyway ---just BENDING them! Hahaha =)

For as long as I am still sticking to my goal of being able to enjoy the whole process of LEARNING the ropes here. Teehee. And I am not ranting (I do sound a bit hahaha) but seriously, I will still continue this project for as long as I can. NO STRICT RULES but DELIRIOUSLY ENJOY. =) Right now, I am busy working on being able to expand my ideas on my Portrait collections and learn Street Photography. Yayyy!

So there. I'm done for Day 102. Maybe you'll see the 103rd next month? LOL

~~~

Tomorrow I go out in the streets to do stalker shots with the 18-200m. Ha ha. <3

239/365 -

Packing up your life is a weird experience.

Getting rid of memories is something I do well. I'm not extremely proud of this, but I can easily let go of things most people would like to keep around for one reason or another. I've always been like this, and it's weird and it kind of makes me feel like an asshole. Who knows maybe I am. I just fail to see sentimental value in things that are not practical in my everyday life. I mean, if it's been 5 years since I've thought of something, then why not get rid of it... I obviously wasn't thinking about it if it was stashed away in the depths of random junk.

I just don't know. Maybe I should change the title of this shot to "Cold Hearted Bitch" :)

Last July, right before school started, one of my sister's best friends was killed.

At a party, another friend decided to bring out what he thought was an unloaded gun.

He pointed the gun at Sophia, said it was unloaded and not to worry, and it went off.

Shooting her in the head. My sister had just left the party, and I can't even fathom if she would have been the one the gun was pointed at.

Horrible Horrible loss. Definitely makes you think about gun control.

They were in Drama together, playing orphans in Annie. They were on the dance team together, excited to be roomates at dance camp.

When the dance team released 16 white balloons at her memorial, my sister looked up, and she swears that the clouds were shaped in the form of a butterfly.

So here she is, dancing with Sophia.

(from a photoshoot with 3 others from the dance team)

parts of me.

SONG:

www.youtube.com/watch?v=IRHYazTx8uY

It was an awesome holiday weekend!!!!

One of the 124 of 148 photos that Flickr's servers mysteriously "ate" that were saved by their efforts for me.

This is from one of the happiest days of my life - when Kelly and I finally wed. She was my second wife.

Was.

We'd had a lovely life together until then.

It was a most gorgeous venue that we created ourselves and all the stops were pulled out to make it OUR own. Also to celebrate it inclusively with our friends.

It's a shame that only month's later she purposely wandered into the arms of another chasing kinks and hiding from her true self after breaking promises to me. Also our vows.

You know...I let her go after, I moved on to, but Kelly sadly never did.

She still stays obsessed with me. Even THREE YEARS LATER.

I guess I wasn't so bad after all hey? Her loss, not mine.

This day was at least a happy one. This memory will always stay untarnished. I wont let it be otherwise, so back up it goes. At least I can smile at what once was...

Tu te fais ça, tu le fais, et c'est ce qui fait vraiment mal...

Vous l'avez toujours fait à vous-même. C'est vrai. C'est ça qui fait vraiment mal...

Au revoir pour toujours...