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Day One: October 31st, 2006.
I've been following this group for some time and I knew that eventually I would participate but I just wasn't sure when I'd start. If you've browsed my photostream then you know it's not for lack of taking daily pictures of myself. I just wasn't sure what I wanted to get out of this experience.
In the past I used my blog to chronicle my feelings on any given day. That's no more. And I definitely miss it and need an outlet. I think this will end up taking its place.
So basically I'm going to try to post a picture each day that is brutally honest. That is true to the mood I'm currently feeling and I'll try to articulate that mood as best as I can.
Looking at my pictures over the past week probably gives you a very distorted image of me. Yes, there have been good things and good times and not every smile I've posted lately has been fake. But if I'm honest with you and with myself, taking and posting pictures has just been a distraction from the emotional turmoil raging within.
I refer to a matter of the heart, of course. And what compounds the hurt isn't that I've lost someone I truly love but I've also lost someone who I considered my best friend. Things changed when I returned from London and perhaps predictably so. Maybe I was naive but I had hoped that despite some personal challenges facing us both, we'd still emerge with our friendship intact. But it just doesn't appear that way anymore. It's all a mess and there's no easy fix.
And sometimes when things get that way, it's just easier to walk away. I think she walked away from me first. I certainly felt a cold shoulder and it nearly destroyed me this past week. She has that power. The power to lift me up with the warmth of her presence and then the power to crush me by yanking it away without any warning. Never knowing whether she'll choose to shine on me or choose to ignore me. It twists my stomach in knots.
It hasn't been good for me and so I've joined her in the apparent abandonment and am trying to just let go completely so she can be free of me and my feelings. So I can try to stop loving her in a way that can only serve to hurt us both. She's so easy to love. This will be hard.
I imagine this won't be the last I'll vent about it all in the course of the next 365 days but I'm sure time will also take hold and at the end of this collection perhaps I'll be a little happier than when I started. I can only hope. I hope I can find balance again and I hope she finds happiness in the choices she makes and the man she really loves.
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This is a photo of Toffee from 10 years ago. We are heartbroken. Toffee was 21 years old, and I had him for 19 of those.
He stopped eating a couple days ago and went peacefully in his sleep early this morning.
Toffee, thanks for being such a beautiful and lovable kitty.
Slater, our mini schnauzer, went up and lovingly nuzzled Toffee after he was gone, which was surprising because they were such adversaries.
Ode to Toffee:
Your golden eyes and blondest hair
You'd sneak up on me like a ghost
Return the favor of the scare
With a bounce you'd fly through the air
A wiser kitty I do not know
You opened all the closet doors
Since you were little, long ago
Trying to find what was yours
In the days that come
We'll miss the fur trails
And our hearts are sad, but that pales
To the love you gave for all those years
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Originally I did the heartbroken bride a little too graphic and it wasn't really my style (on the right). I decided to redo it but keep the veil and this is what I came up with.
More on my blog...
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Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
-A Fine Frenzy
From my favourite T-shirt...
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Heartbroken: EVERY Monday night at Studio80 on the Rembrandtplein in Amsterdam! Party: Heartbroken Venue: Studio80 Coverage by: Waking up in Amsterdam!
Heartbroken: EVERY Monday night at Studio80 on the Rembrandtplein in Amsterdam! Party: Heartbroken Venue: Studio80 Coverage by: Waking up in Amsterdam!
Yesterday our Katie girl crossed the Rainbow Bridge. We are heartbroken and overwhelmed with grief. I alternate between intense sadness and feeling that it's all surreal. I want to rewind time and take her on more camping trips, more hikes, more car rides. 14 wonderful years with her, but it's still never enough. So many things in our little family will never be the same. We'll never have another dog like her and will miss our Moose forever. We love you Katie. 2004-2019 ❤️🌈💔
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#adoptdontshop #rescuedog #rainbowbridge #fuckcancer
The first thing I did this morning was cry.
Because of you.
Because of me.
Because we both know this is best.
These are our memories behind me.
It's day one and I miss you.
Come find me.
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....that my friends and neighbors in Broome County, New York are once again enduring terrible flooding. In 2006, flooding was the worst ever seen in the area, and was called a "500 year flood" , yet five years later this one was even worse. But lessons were learned the last time and there have been no reported deaths.
The destruction of property and roadways, and lives is unimaginable.....even as we watch wildfires and, drought, and flooding all across the US. Oh how I hope we can repair Mother Nature, and on a smaller scale, the damage all around us.
#NWGA #Sheriff #NorthWestGA #NorthwestGeorgia The Georgia State Patrol & the entire DPS family are heartbroken. Last night Tpr Tyler Parker was killed in a single car accident while off-duty. He was a graduate of the 98th Trooper School. Please pray for his daughter, she is… (via Twitter twitter.com/RedneckGremlin/status/976095285813415936)
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I am just heartbroken to hear the news that one of my Flickr contacts Cat Johnson has died of breast cancer. She had a little boy who was only 5. It must have been so hard for her to think of leaving her husband and son.... She was a great person who took beautiful photos and took the time to leave sweet comments on my photos. She will be missed...
Broken Valentine's cookie.
(btw this is NOT symbolic of anything that's going on in my life right now)
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What it looks like when a little boy's heart is broken. Sorry, mister pants. We can't stay here all day. There's a line-up.
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