February 20, 2020 Subverted Selfie Project Post
February 20, 2020: In touch with the #emotional #resonance of my soul after a #sound #healing meditation led by the brilliant @theda.phoenix / @theda_phoenix - thank you Theda.
I want to describe this more deeply. I started off the meditation in a seated position, but soon let myself lay on my back on the #yoga mat I had brought, my head resting comfortably on my small yellow pillow. Eyes closed, Theda’s #music flowed over my being and vibrated to the core of my bones. At one point, I swear I felt the presence of my late Father, and I got choked up. I miss him so much, and it’s been a long deep seeded fear that I’ve let him down with the choices I’ve made (and continue to make) in my #life.
At another point, I heard a familiar voice come into my mind during my meditation, softly saying, “…I believe in you Steven Hanju. I have FAITH in your ability to do it, to do ANYTHING…” And I just started sobbing deeply, lying there, my eyes closed. And her voice kept repeating in my mind, “…I believe in you… I have faith in you…” I felt tears welling up in my eyes. I swear it felt like they formed pools over my eyelids before trickling down the sides of my face. My body shook as I started to match the words of the Angel in my mind, “…I believe in me, I have faith in me…” Those words had originally been said to me last fall, by someone I will always hold dear to my heart and what’s worse is I don’t even remember acknowledging her saying those kind sentiments, that to me felt more powerful than any “I love you.”
It took awhile before I found the strength to sit up at the end of the beautiful session. I was still shaking. Theda came over and sat with me, as she did with a few of us who had been deeply moved. She gently rubbed my back with her hand and I started to cry deeply again, and she hugged me.
Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 51/366 #breathing better tonight, finally. Feeling stronger physically, but broken emotionally.
This photo was first posted on Instagram.
#DeconstructingSelfies #SubvertedSelfies #Selfies #NotAPrettyFace #365SelfieChallenge #365daychallenge #365Selfies2020 #2020Selfies #DailySelfie #DailySelfies
February 20, 2020 Subverted Selfie Project Post
February 20, 2020: In touch with the #emotional #resonance of my soul after a #sound #healing meditation led by the brilliant @theda.phoenix / @theda_phoenix - thank you Theda.
I want to describe this more deeply. I started off the meditation in a seated position, but soon let myself lay on my back on the #yoga mat I had brought, my head resting comfortably on my small yellow pillow. Eyes closed, Theda’s #music flowed over my being and vibrated to the core of my bones. At one point, I swear I felt the presence of my late Father, and I got choked up. I miss him so much, and it’s been a long deep seeded fear that I’ve let him down with the choices I’ve made (and continue to make) in my #life.
At another point, I heard a familiar voice come into my mind during my meditation, softly saying, “…I believe in you Steven Hanju. I have FAITH in your ability to do it, to do ANYTHING…” And I just started sobbing deeply, lying there, my eyes closed. And her voice kept repeating in my mind, “…I believe in you… I have faith in you…” I felt tears welling up in my eyes. I swear it felt like they formed pools over my eyelids before trickling down the sides of my face. My body shook as I started to match the words of the Angel in my mind, “…I believe in me, I have faith in me…” Those words had originally been said to me last fall, by someone I will always hold dear to my heart and what’s worse is I don’t even remember acknowledging her saying those kind sentiments, that to me felt more powerful than any “I love you.”
It took awhile before I found the strength to sit up at the end of the beautiful session. I was still shaking. Theda came over and sat with me, as she did with a few of us who had been deeply moved. She gently rubbed my back with her hand and I started to cry deeply again, and she hugged me.
Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 51/366 #breathing better tonight, finally. Feeling stronger physically, but broken emotionally.
This photo was first posted on Instagram.
#DeconstructingSelfies #SubvertedSelfies #Selfies #NotAPrettyFace #365SelfieChallenge #365daychallenge #365Selfies2020 #2020Selfies #DailySelfie #DailySelfies