Rack never blurted; she always controlled her output. The effect was precise and Protestant, ‘I found out I am HIV positive a few days ago’

 

‘Oh Christ’, Ruin blurted, Catholic to the hilt.

 

Ruin was always an outlet for Rack, almost like a delinquent spokesperson, the stuttering utterer of the unspeakable. He had the ability to take the private into the realm of the universally available with consummate ease. She didn’t. It was something she greatly feared and something she instinctively grasped that early summer morning in 1988, in the 'Moondance Diner', on 6th Avenue and Grand. She knew she was making the personal public. She was undoing herself.

 

He possessed that strange gift, the one imposed and imprinted, like the mark of Cain, on the sexually molested child, of having no facility to recognise boundaries, no ability to be able to tell the personal and private apart from what could be made generally available. She knew that he was her surrogate broadcaster and momentarily shuddered at the stranger, whom she had spontaneously trusted, sitting opposite her. This understanding hung between them as they ordered breakfast.

 

Their opening was torturous and drove them scurrying apart. It was more than either of them could handle, Rack racked with regret for exposing this opening wound and Ruin incapable of carrying the story alone. Their rehabilitation was slow and arduous. It was a time when to speak these words was a declaration of the almost immediate dissolution of self. It was a time before the hope generated by the misnomered cocktails and the political agitation, which was to burgeon out of despair and become Act- Up. It was a time before anything could be done except grasp at straws. So, both started grasping and would occasionally find themselves in the same room drawn to the same possible panacea. Rack’s volition was desperation. Ruin’s was guilt. They acknowledged each other with some embarrassment and growing affection and more often than not turned away from each other and left separately. Ruin knew he loved Rack. Rack was not at all sure.

 

Dear Rack,

 

Just sending you back some words you once sent to me:

 

“I have often thought that writers do not write; they read what is already written and transcribe. So perhaps they are not complaining about ill health, lack of money, and rejection, but about the bondage of a calling that keeps them laboriously transcribing cryptic messages in rapidly disappearing ink, like the traces of a dream, year after year...."

 

Thinking of how romantic you are.... even if it is all so appalling to live through.

 

We seem to endure, and hopefully will continue to do so for a little while longer.

 

Love,

Ruin

"Listen to what the landscape says,

And all that it fails to say, and what the clouds say, and the light,

Inveterate stutterer." - Charles Wright

Tube indicator having a moment, King's Cross. Complete with (allegedly artistic) overexposure.

The stuttering is from my frozen fingers. it's about 5 below now, about an hour after I took the photo. Fumbling around in the dark with bare fingers on tripod, exposed metal and camera controls just about did me in. It was sort of silly anyhow. I only had an 80-200 zoom, not long enough to do a really detailed closeup of the Moon. Rather than do something half-assed at the long end of the range, I zoomed back to 80mm and went for an impressionistic image of the moon in the trees with stars, cranking up the ISO to add a bit of pointillistic noise for atmosphere. I'm not sure it works, but for me it's a visual reminder of a really beautiful moment. After partially defrosting my fingers, T and I went back out in the icy darkness, no longer messing around with hardware, but just looking up at the cold, clear panorama of a magical winter sky with our own eyes.

Read the write-up on The Brothers Brick.

TD: Up next is Regine! Tell us something about yourself Regine!

 

Regine: Uhm.. Uhm.. *stutters* I'm Regine, 20 years old, a college student taking up Mathematics. I can solve Math problems from algebra to calculus.

 

TD: Wow so you're definitely smart. Why did you join this contest even though you're already smart?

 

Regine: I.. I want to prove that I'm more than just a Math girl. I can show my other side too.

 

TD: That's nice to see you breaking out of your shell. What is your advantage from the other girls?

 

Regine: I.. I believe that in every challenge there's an solution. Hopefully I can calculate what the judges want for me to win.

 

TD: What a deep answer. Have you seen any competition so far?

 

Regine: Pa.. Paola is my competition because she's confident and has a pleasing personality.

 

TD: Thank you Regine and good luck on this!

 

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NEW YORK, NEW YORK - JUNE 12: <> attends the American Institute For Stuttering 17th Annual Gala Hosted By Emily Blunt on June 12, 2023 in New York City. (Photo by Bryan Bedder/Getty Images for American Institute for Stuttering)

Silverlake, Los Angeles, March 2011

 

The Guillotines

it was all go on the lake the other day, with swans courting and chasing each other, grebes nest building, canada geese making a right racket and coots . . . well being coots

 

i think all the distractions may have caused this swan to lose concentration, as he tried to take off with his pall - he stuttered and fell back into the water as his friend took off!

 

he was perfectly fine, and flew off after a bit, even if he did look a bit embarrassed!

 

and after yesterdays shot – see below – gull strike again!

 

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It has been fun watching her make people stutter. I can't believe she's never really modeled before. Henna by rovinghorse at Roving Horse Henna.

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Suki: *nods* "To some little Scottish chippy."

 

Chloe *visibly upset* "B-b-but, I d-d-didn't know he w-w-was--"

 

Suki (calmly): "Slow down, Chlo. You're stutter's showing. Take a deep breath and start again."

 

Chloe: *inhales deeply and says slowly* "I didn't know he was dating anyone serious."

 

Suki: "You and me both. Apparently, she's Yuri and Kumi's cousin on their dad's side. That's how he met her, hanging out at their place."

 

Chloe: "Oh."

 

Suki: "I called Yuri after Z told me the news, and she said the marriage was a shock to them all. I plan to call Kums later and get her side of it. She's less tactful, thus there will be more dirt."

 

Chloe: "Oh."

 

Suki: "I can't believe he did this! Last I checked, marriage was the farthest thing from his mind. I wonder what this Emma is like..."

 

Chloe: *rubs eyes*

 

Suki (intently): "She better pray to the surf gods I like her. That's all I'm sayin'--"

 

Chloe: *sobs*

 

Suki (surprised): "Chlo, hon, don't cry! I'm sure it'll be fine. I was just b***hin' a little. Zin usually knows what he's doin'."

 

Chloe: "N-n-not t-t-that."

 

Suki: *searches bag for Kleenex* "Then, tell me what's wrong."

 

Chloe: *shakes head and sobs harder*

   

Fashion Credits

 

Chloe

Re-root by valmaxi (love)

Bikini Top: Mattel - Beach Baby Marissa

Bikini Bottom: Momoko - Beach Rodeo

Sunglasses: MGA - America's Next Top Model

Necklace and Bracelets: Me

 

Suki

Bikini: Auntie Betty, a.k.a. watbetty

Shirt: Mattel - CaliGirl Barbie

Skirt: Momoko - Wild 'n' Sexy Tune

Bag: Cangaway (Etsy)

Earrings and Bracelets: Me

Western Rd, Penang.

Freemasonry arrived in Penang in 1786 with its founder Captain Francis Light. After a stuttering start, freemasonry picked up in 1875 with the establishment of the Royal Prince of Wales Lodge in Beach Street in George Town. By 1906, there were four Lodges in Penang including the Gottlieb Lodge, the Lodge Scotia and the Victoria Jubilee Chapter. The Scottish Lodge broke away to move into its own premises in 1917 but in the early 1920s, all Lodges agreed to pool their resources to construct a new Masonic Temple.

 

Designed by architect Howard Leicester in a rather grand and solid Art-Deco style (it reminds me of the old Hongkong & Shanghai Bank building in Hong Kong), the chief cornerstone of Langkawi marble was laid by W Bro John Gray Allan, a past Master of both Craft Lodges, on 17 December 1927. Inside, the floor of the dining hall is fitted with springs imported from England to accommodate ballroom dancing, as well as Masonic banquets.

[14:49] Caty Weezles: The sights of the man she loathed right now had her running ... away. She ducked into the first opening she saw and cowered there for a moment. Peering through the gates on occassion. Back to Elise.

 

[14:51] Elise Capalini sits in the graveyard quiet when everyone has gone, near the fresh grave that Eamon dug for the birds. One crow. a baby from the looks of it, flies down from the masoleum's roof, to sit on the grave and nose at the dirt. She watches the bird and thinks of the Mass that just was. She wonders if they will ever have a normal one again. She looks up when she hears movement, and catches sight of Caty, who appears to be running from someone. "Caty...are you all right?" she asks. She stands slowly, but doesn't yet approach.

 

[14:54] Caty Weezles: The familiar voice through the air had her turning, she shook then and backed into the wall, chocolate eyes looking to Elise as a threat too. There over her shoulder was a small bag. It didn't look full by any means. And under her arm she carried a small treasure chest music box. It chimed as she thudded against the concrete. "Go.. go..." She actually stuttered.

 

[14:57] Elise Capalini watches Caty turn and hears the faint music from her bag when she rocks against the wall. "Are -you- going?" she asks her. Judging by the running and the bag, she wonders if the girl is running away from home. She takes a couple steps forward, though slowly, and keeps her hands visible, not wanting to frighten the girl any more than she already is.

 

[15:00] Caty Weezles spread one arm across the wall, feeling it for length and how far she could creep before turning and bolting. Terror filled her eyes, the music chiming in now and then. The music was wound too tight, for too long, too many times and was now offkey of the normal soothing music it once played. She shook her head some, her voice croaked, "You go 'way. Cats are bad."

 

[15:02] Elise Capalini stays where she is and doesn't come any closer. She hates hearing those words from Caty; they feel like a physical blow. She sinks back to the ground, her shoulders slumped. "Why are cats bad, Caty?" she asks softly. "The gate there is open--if you need to run..." She doesn't want the girl to run, but understands well the need to, the need to know escape was an option.

 

[15:06] Caty Weezles: Tears already threatened to spill down her cheeks. She was ready to go wherever it was they were going to. She thought she was leaving somewhere, "You shooted my Daddy. Daddy says cats are bad! You have to go to jail and Mister Eamon too!" She shouted across the way. It was a choking shout, the kind where you can't catch your breath to get the words out in one stream. "God shouldn't miss next time!"

 

[15:09] Elise Capalini's throat tightens at the sound of Caty's voice. Oh she'd sounded like that a time or two herself. She blinks, unshed tears stinging her own eye. "I shot your daddy," she says and nods. "Because he was shooting at Eamon--because..." She draws in a breath and closes her eye for a moment. When she looks at Caty again, she says, "You're angry because we hurt someone you love. We acted the way we did because...we were hurt, too."

 

[15:13] Caty Weezles shook her head frantically as those tears dripped. She sniffed heavily and shot her arm out pointing and accusing, "You made blood! BLOOD! Blood makes people go away, you tried to make my daddy go away! Mister Eamon tried to make my daddy go away! God taked my mommy and I has to keep my daddy! YOU DONT GET TO TAKE MY DADDY! GOD CANT HAVE HIM TOO!" She screamed and shook. Clutching the music box as tightly as she could. It's sour notes somehow lifting high and matching the tension.

 

[15:16] Elise Capalini finds herself nodding, at everything Caty says. "Blood does make people go away," she says, lifting a hand to wipe the spilled tears from her cheek, "My daddy went away in blood." That night cuts across her vision and she takes a shuddering breath. "Caty, I'm so sorry...so sorry." Her voice breaks and she finds herself crying freely now, letting herself feel the fear from last week, showing Caty how it touched her too.

 

[15:19] Caty Weezles sucked in a hitched breath. Simply asking in that same choked voice, "Why Miss Elise? Why do you want to make my daddy go away from me?" Her nose stuffed, she wiped at it with the back of her hand.

 

[15:23] Elise Capalini lifts her head and wipes her cheek again. She presses her mouth into a thin line and exhales a shaky breath. "Not from you, Caty, never from you." Was Forge truly her father? She still couldn't fathom it, but -Caty- believed he was and that was all she needed to know. "He hurt...he was hurting someone I love," she whispers.

 

[15:24] Janeiro Renard walked slowly long the road infront of the cemetary, blue smoke wreathed around his head. He paused, spotting Caty through the bars of the wrought iron gate, and then spotted Elise, crying? His face remained impassive. Well. There was a lot to cry about these days.

 

[15:26] Caty Weezles: How many times had she heard this, and she repeated it. Lifting her chin to suck in a deep breath. She'd release the wall then and eyes turned narrow on Elise, "That makes it okay? To hurt cause you hurt?" How many times had her mother told her? "Not okay. Not OKAY! That's my daddy."

 

[15:29] Elise Capalini draws in another uneven breath and releases it slow. She nods at Caty, catching sight of Jan beyond her, wreathed in smoke like he's just stepped out of the underworld. "You're right, Caty--it's not right. I screwed up." She eyes the little girl, her own tears starting to subside. "I did something bad. What should my punishment be?"

 

[15:30] Janeiro Renard heard the girl's voice, and frowned deeply, as he began to trudge forward down the road. Punishment, he mused. Trying to do the right thing in this city is punishment enough.

 

[15:33] Caty Weezles blinked. Swollen eyes were red and looked as if she carried the weight of the world on her shoulders just then. Staring at Elise's form. She

settled some, her voice softened from the scream and accusatory tone, "You..." Sniff, "You has to go to jail. You and Mister Eamon has to go to jail cause you're bad. You shooted him. You made Mister Andrei go to sleep and not wake up." Confused still. "You has to say sorry to people you hurts."

 

[15:37] Elise Capalini folds her hands into her lap, but breathes easier when Caty's tone softens. "If someone hurts someone else...they have to say sorry?" she asks, trying to make sure she understands what Caty is saying. "The police are investigating the shooting, Caty, but they haven't come to arrest anyone yet."

 

[15:42] Caty Weezles: "But you shooted him. I sawed it. And Mister Lazyrus too cause he hurted me," She took a step forward. Staring down the form that was Elise, not wavering but she was tired. So tired of having to explain the world to adults. They were supposed to -know-. "You has to go there now cause you made him mad and made him bleed." She nodded though, "Yes, you have to say sorry. And you has to say that you won't do it again and /means/ it." Shoulders slumped and she ran fingers over the music box.

 

[15:45] Elise Capalini nods at Caty, wiping at her own cheek to dry more tears. She sniffles a little, very tired herself. "Does that mean your daddy has to say sorry, too? Lying is something people need to say sorry for too, right, Caty? Will he say sorry to me and Eamon?"

 

[15:48] Caty Weezles shoved at her face matching Elise' actions. Heel of her palm dragging across freckles, "Lying is little. Shooting is big." She canted her head, "Daddy doesn't lie to me. Daddy tells me whats right. Tinkerbell too. She was right too!"

 

[15:53] Elise Capalini watches Caty and exhales; she knows there will be no budging her mind on the matter of Forge and his honesty. "Everyone can only tell you what -they- think is right, and everyone will have a different opinion." She wondered if the girl would understand that. She dries her hand on her skirt , fingers tight in the fabric. "I have your picture, Caty." She would draw out the folded piece of paper and show it to her. "I found it in the pews."

 

[15:58] Caty Weezles: She would approach, hefting the bag onto her shoulder and clutching the music box. It still wasn't heavy. Something she could carry easily on a normal day. Today was in no way normal now. Everything since last week had tossed normalcy out the window for her. She peered down onto the page and shook her head when she looked onto the angel, "God taked her and Tinkerbell is going to be my mommy now and we has to go away again. Cause of blood. Cause of blood we all has to go away again. Caty didn't trip this time." She was okay with the fact that she didn't cause it. "Mister Eamon and Miss Elise made the blood. Mister Eamon and Miss Elise made us go 'way." Those brown eyes looked to Elise' and searched. She had stopped calling Eamon Father in the past week, she had stopped believing in many things. God's love - gone. Vanished with the sound of the gunshot. Her innocence, part of it, went too.

 

[16:04] Elise Capalini spreads out the drawing on the walk beside them, very careful of how she moves when Caty comes closer. Caty didn't trip this time, she thinks, and looks up at the little girl, wondering exactly what that means. "If Eamon and I go to jail, and you and daddy and Tinkerbell go away...that will make things better?" she asks. She looks into Caty's chocolate eyes, wondering how to bridge this chasm between them. "Caty...I'm sorry." Her voice is very soft, and sincere. The depth of what she's done to this girl hits her then, like a punch. "I mean it. I'm sorry for hurting you last Sunday. I never meant to do that."

 

[16:10] Caty Weezles: "No!" She stared at the picture for another moment, "You and Mister Eamon has to go to jail and WE stay then. That's how it works." She shuffled back again. Further away. A leary look given to Elise, "Maybe sometimes sorry isn't good enough. Maybe sometimes ..." She started to choke again, mouth opened and closed gasping for air, "It hurts so bad and it hurted." She shoved again at her cheek, "Your daddy went away. You know don't make blood. It hurts." Fingers found the key to the music box and she twisted it.

 

[16:15] Elise Capalini says softly, "Oh," and starts to fold the picture back up. She watches the paper, rather than Caty, feeling there is nothing to be said. Forge's hold on her is absolute. She wants to comfort the girl, hug her and calm her, but knows that touching her would be entirely the wrong thing. "The police will decide if we go to jail," she eventually says, the paper moving with a soft whisper against the stone. Her black nails gleam as she smooths a fold down. "Blood does hurt...sometimes it doesn't make sense, either."

 

[16:20] Caty Weezles: The bag shifted with her thumbs, she felt like she won something in some way. She was right. Blood hurt and Elise knew it. A huff of air blown out into a long stream and she started to back away. Her eyes were intense, pupils dialated and fixed on her. Reflecting emotions that they were both feeling in some way - somehow they shared the hurt from different sides. She tucked her chin to her chest, softly spoke, "You made Caty go away."

 

[16:25] Elise Capalini makes a final fold in the paper, and the paper slices into her finger. Blood wells bright against her pale flesh, and then soaks quickly into the paper itself. She winces at the sting of it, closing her hand into her skirt to stop the blood. She nods at Caty as the girl backs away. "I made Caty go away," she whispers, and bows her head, unable to look at the girl. "But Caty...not -all- cats are bad...don't think that. They're not." Her voice is choked with tears; there's little more she can say.

 

[16:30] Caty Weezles: She stared at folds of a memory as the blood laced Elise's white hand, one last word, "Elise has to go away now. Blood stains. And Elise goes away." Was only slightly above a whisper as she backed away. Far from the scenes others had seen her make about people bleeding. Right now, Elise -could- bleed ... it was okay.

 

[16:34] Elise Capalini swallows hard. "Elise goes away," she murmurs. She frowns and looks up, eye locking on Caty. She stands up and takes a step backward. "Goodbye, Caty." She doesn't pick up the paper; she leaves it on the walk as she heads back toward the church. Though not inside...she doesn't want to be inside just now.

A young Southern Barred Frog (Mixophyes australis) [Myobatrachidae; Mixophyinae], from Killabakh Nature Reserve, New South Wales, Australia.

 

Listed as a threatened species, as it has disppeared from about half its former distribution, fortunately it is actually one of the more common rainforest frogs of mountainous areas of Northern NSW. It is easy to encounter many of these frogs on a wet night in spring or summer in suitable habitat.

 

It is also not uncommon to encounter individuals long distances from breeding sites, particularly adult females and juveniles (like the individual pictured here). Males are however more often located closer to rocky, flowing streams where breeding occurs, with their characteristic 'stuttering' call reverberating along narrow gullies.

 

[NB: this species was described as distinct from M. balbus in 2023, the above comment was written when only a single species was recognised]

A Southern Barred Frog, Mixophyes australis, from the Watagans National Park, New South Wales, Australia.

 

Like the Giant Barred Frog, this species has also declined, however disppearances have largely been restricted to the southern-half of its distribution (which may represent a distinct species from northern areas [two species are now recognised from 2023]). However, the species remains common in the rainforests of the Watagan Ranges and adjacent areas.

 

I had actually never photographed this species in the Watagans until I came across this individual. Thinking it was posing beautifully, I had a look over my photos later to see it was in the midst of devouring a spider, with the leg still hanging out of it's mouth!

NEW YORK, NEW YORK - JULY 11: <> attends the 2022 Freeing Voices, Changing Lives Gala at Guastavino's on July 11, 2022 in New York City. (Photo by Dimitrios Kambouris/Getty Images for American Institute for Stuttering)

the horizon, and even the middle distance, really stuttering.

 

If you really want to see what I mean, view it in 'original' dimensions (10800 x 2460, under the 'download' button, then 'view all sizes'), find the horizon and scroll right-to-left.

Commissioned by Lionel Cox in about 1935, it is not known who designed the boat-shaped building, but it was built by Mark Amy Limited.

 

Occupation

The Barge Aground was requisitioned by the German occupying forces in 1941 and used as a canteen by Machine Gun Battalion 16. The building was painted with camouflage. Many of the original contents were looted and shipped to Germany.

 

After the war, Lionel Cox returned to the Barge Aground and the building was restored as a beach chalet. He left the building to the Jersey Scouts Association in his will in 1955.

 

It was leased to a William Chalmers Kerr until 1971. Mr Kerr was a research psychologist from Glasgow University who specialised in speech disorders, particularly stuttering. The property was used as a clinic, with patients visiting from all around the world.

 

The site was used in the 1970s and 80s by the Scouts as a base for camping, in connection with the Westward Ho site on the opposite side of the road. It was then sold by the Jersey Scouts Association to the Public of the Island in 1997, who then let it to the Scouts Association for a time. The building was restored and refurbished as a holiday let by Jersey Heritage in around 2005.

 

Architectural assessment

The Barge Aground is the single surviving example of the beach chalets that once lined St Ouen’s Bay and is illustrative of the inter-war fashion for building places of fun.

 

Boundary

The parish boundary between St Ouen and St Peter was the old outlet stream from St Ouen's Pond. This now runs beneath the German anti-tank wall, which was built during the Occupation and had the effect of joining together the various lengths of seawall, which had been constructed during the 19th century, to stabilise the sand dunes and make access to the beach easier for horse-drawn carts.

  

L’Ouzière Slipway (La Montée de l’Ouzière), and its associated walls, were built about 1870. During the Occupation, like many slipways, it was blocked by fortification building – in this case twin 4.7cm anti-tank gun emplacements. Following the Liberation, one of these was removed to open up the slipway again. The scars left by the German blocking can be still seen, because the original setts or cobblestones had been set at an angle to give the horses hauling carts grip. This was not needed by motor lorries and tractors fitted with rubber tyres, and the replacement setts were laid flush.

 

Another victim of the German army in this area was the Conway tower built just after the 1779 invasion attempt. Standing to the south of the slip, the tower known variously as St Ouen’s No 3, St Ouen’s D, or the High Tower, was demolished as it got in the way of their more modern weapons. The tower had been sold by the War Department in July 1922 for the princely sum of £50.

 

Today this part of the bay, between L’Ouzière and Le Braye, is better known for sunbathing and surfing, but in the past it was generally referred to as Le Port, which means the ‘haven’. This is because in the 17th century it was called Le Port de la Mare, and was described as a roadstead – somewhere vessels could lie safely at anchor.

 

Invasions

The Channel Islands Pilot, published in 1870, informed ships’ masters that the anchorage which afforded good shelter in easterly winds was ‘about half a mile square ... off La Rocco tower’. This would explain why this part of the bay was selected in October 1651 by the Parliamentary forces, headed by Admiral Blake, to invade the island.

 

Sir George de Carteret, the Royalist leader, and the Island Militia spent three days watching and tracking the Parliamentary fleet, moving between St Ouen’s Bay and St Brelade’s Bay and back again, but by the time the Parliamentarians landed, many of the militia had gone home exhausted. There was a short clash on the beach, but it was the beginning of the end for the Royalist cause in the island, and within three months the last Royalists, penned up in Elizabeth Castle, surrendered and the island was under Parliamentary control.

 

Although the States had voted to set up what was supposed to have been some sort of defensive work with a cannon here in 1602, to protect the anchorage, Admiral Blake makes no mention of it in his account of the landing.

 

Two centuries later, in May 1779, while Britain was fighting the rebel American colonists, a French force of 1,500 soldiers, accompanied by a fleet of five warships and over 50 small landing craft, under the Prince of Nassau, attempted a landing here. They were thwarted by the falling tide and Moyse Corbet, the Lieut-Governor, who had 40 mounted troopers, another 400 infantry drawn from the 78th Regiment and militia, supported by some of the militia cannon. Unable to land, the French ships returned to Brittany. The scare caused the British Government to more than double the size of the garrison on the island.

 

La Caumine a Marie Best

The only building still standing from the period of the 1779 invasion is the St Peter’s Guardhouse, also known as La Caumine à Marie Best, or, because it is whitewashed for sailors to use as a navigation mark, the White Cottage. The guardhouse and magazine, with its vaulted roof, replaced an earlier gun position, probably the one mentioned in Colonel Legge’s 1679 report, known as the Middle Boulevard, which was destroyed in an explosion in 1765.

 

The guns were placed about 15 metres in front of the building. Its association with Marie Best dates from just after the Napoleonic War, when Marie Anne Best (1790-1832), the daughter of an English soldier called Adam, and Marguerite Carrel, moved into the disused guardhouse with her children to avoid a smallpox outbreak. Over the years, deprived of its military use, it fell into disrepair and later inhabitants let more windows into the walls.

 

Along with most of the coastal defensive structures, the War Department sold the building and land after the Great War. It was bought by William Gregory in November 1925. In May 1932 he sold the building to Captain J A, Hilton but kept the associated land. Captain Hilton’s widow donated the cottage to the National Trust for Jersey in 1975. Today it is the oldest surviving defensive building in the bay.

 

La Caumine à Marie Best’ caused a bit of a stir in 2011 when it was painted a pale green as part of the National Trust’s green awareness campaign, because some people thought it was an official navigation marker. The Jersey Coastguard issued a public notice to the effect that, according to the Admiralty Chart of the bay, the white building marked as the recognised navigation mark in the area is actually Big Vern’s Diner, just to the north. Normality returned in 2012 when the building was repainted white.

 

Just to the north of the Watersplash stood another of the Conway towers, St Ouen’s No 4. It was probably built after the 1779 invasion attempt and, like the others, it was armed with an 18-pounder carronade on a traversing platform mounted on the roof. At some stage in the middle of the 19th century it was undermined by the sea and collapsed.

 

The Watersplash was originally built before the Occupation, as a private home called Idaho, by Arthur Parker. In January 1948 it was bought by Harry Swanson, who renamed it and turned it into a nightclub. The Watersplash has become something of an island institution, for it was here that Jersey’s current surfing culture started.

 

Surfing centre

In 1923 Nigel Oxenden and a few friends started what was probably Europe’s first surf club, the Island Surf Club of Jersey. These first surfers were all body boarders - lying on their boards rather than standing up - but with the Occupation and the removal of the beach huts along the shore surfing faded away.

 

Surfing restarted in 1958, when three young South Africans came to work at Parkin’s Holiday Camp at Plémont. They built their own hollow boards and took them to St Ouen’s Bay, where, recognising the potential, Harry Swanson hired them as “South African Hawaiian Board Riders” and lifeguards. Tourists and locals flocked to watch, and the following year a group of young islanders formed the Jersey Surfboard Club, which is now said to be the oldest club in Europe. In 1962 the first Surf-Riding Championship at was held at the ‘Splash and in 1966 the World Surfing Championship was held here.

 

Another beach café integral to the history of Island surfing is El Tico. Opened in 1948, in 1965 it became the site for the Jersey Life Guard Station and Centre.

 

It was not only water sports that St Ouen’s Bay was known for; it has also been the venue for sand racing since before the Occupation. Its heyday was probably in the late 1950s and '60s, when thousands of spectators watched the events.

 

Before the Watersplash and El Tico existed, in the 1920s and 1930s, the dunes between them were dotted with beach huts. All of these were cleared by the Germans to create a military no-go zone. Just beyond El Tico, and just over the parish boundary in St Brelade, stood another Conway tower, La Tour de la Pierre Buttée, or St Ouen No 5. Built after the 1779 invasion attempt, like its neighbour it collapsed around 1850 having been severely damaged by storms.

 

Le Braye Slipway (La Montée du Braye), which leads to the beach, along with its flanking walls, were built around 1869 to the designs produced by the architects Philip Le Sueur and Philip Bree, who are better known as the architects who worked on St Helier Town Hall in 1872 and the Royal Court Building in 1877.

 

Le Braye means 'passage between the rocks'. Old maps show that there was a rocky outcrop on the dunes at this point, so does the name refer to this and the track on to the beach which went through them, or does it refer to the narrow passage between the rocks to the south of Le Rocco Tower?

 

Le Pulec

The precipitous cliffs of Les Landes end at the small inlet known as Le Pulec. Although the name has come to mean ‘stinking bay’ because of the smell caused by rotting vraic that gets piled up here, it actually comes from the Old Norse word for Pool. Access to the small inlet was made easier in 1858 when an access road and slipway on to the beach were built.

 

Vraic was especially important for the light soils of this part of the island. It could be put straight on to the land to improve the soil, or it could be left in stacks to dry. In 1710 the Seigneur of Vinchelez de Haut Manor leased a field to Jean de Carteret and Jean Le Cornu for drying vraic, for which he received two cabots of wheat and two hens a year. In order to prevent erosion of the shoreline by carts going on to the beach in the 1850s and 1860s, the States built a number of granite slipways with short flanking walls. Over the years further stretches of seawall were built until, during the Occupation, the Germans forces linked them all together behind a reinforced concrete anti-tank wall, two metres thick and six metres high.

 

Dominating Le Pulec to the south is the massive rock that gives the area its name, L’Etacquerel, which comes from the old Norse word for a heap or a stack of rock – stakkr. While most buildings and the haven lie in the lee of the massive rock, a small cottage called La Voûte, because of its vaulted roof, was built on the seaward side in the 1th century. A datestone in its gable is testament to the fact that Jean Hubert and Elizabeth Le Gresley were living there in 1753.

 

The Chamber of Commerce report of 1872 noted that the fishery here involved about 12 boats and 30 fishermen, who mainly went out for crab and lobster. Slipways had been built at either end of the haven in the mid-1860s, to allow the boats to be hauled to safety off the beach, but the report also made the recommendation that a small breakwater should be built, because boats at anchor were frequently damaged because of a lack of one. From the seaward side, access was along La Bouque - a narrow, safe passage about three-quarters of a mile long through the reefs.

 

It was here at L’Etacq that in the late 1820s Philip Hacquoil built three boats – all just over 30 feet (9½ metres) and about 14 or 15 tons. These were the Friends and the Dophin in 1825, and the Hope three years later. In 1831 the Dolphin, which was owned by Philip Perree and his son, was seized and condemned for smuggling.

 

Further to the south is an area known as La Saline, which is where salt was collected by evaporating seawater from very shallow pools. This was first mentioned in 1248. Access to the beach here was improved in 1856 when the slipway - La Montée de la Brequette - was built. Near the slip, a house was built just after the Great War, to look like an early 19th century fort, complete with loopholed walls. It took its name from the field behind it - Le Petit Fort. In recent years a modern house has been built, destroying the illusion.

 

Beyond La Saline the place names give a clue as to the characteristics of the area: Les Laveurs was where the waves surged up the beach washing the shingle, La Crabiére took its name from the offshore rocks where crabs were caught and, just over the parish boundary, by the southern end of St Ouen's Pond, L’Ouzière, which took its name from the English word ‘ooze’, because before the sea wall altered the make up of the beach, this area was quite muddy.

 

For a long time this northern half of the bay was thought to have protection enough from any attempted enemy landing from the reefs running down from L’Etacq. A French map of the island dated 1757 shows the only defensive structure in the bay was a redoubt holding four cannons, in the vicinity of La Tour Cârrée, or The Square Tower. The current building, which is more of a blockhouse with loopholes for musketry than a tower, was put up in 1778. The following year, three 24-pounder cannons - referred to as the North Battery - were placed in front of it. Today it is painted white and black on the seaward side, as a navigation mark, and since 2007 it has been part of the Jersey Heritage holiday lets scheme.

 

With the growing tension following the attempted landing in the bay in 1779, and the Battle of Jersey two years later, further batteries were built. Among these, close to where Lewis’s Tower now stands, was the Du Parcq Battery. Named after Jean du Parcq, the Rector of St Ouen, who, during an attempted French landing in 1779, brought down several artillery pieces to form a battery on the beach. Originally it had three small-calibre guns and two 8-pounders, but by 1787 these had been replaced by three 24-pounders on a wooden platform behind a turf rampart.

 

During the 1830s, following a report that highlighted the threat posed by ships carrying larger calibre guns, which could hold position beyond the reefs and bombard the coast, these batteries were replaced by three of the last Martello towers to be built in Europe – Kempt Tower, Lewis Tower and L’Etacq Tower. The work on all three was supervised by Colonel G G Lewis, the Commanding Officer of the Royal Engineers in the Island, but the actual construction was carried out by local builders.

 

L’Etacq Tower was demolished by the Germans in 1942 to make way for a bunker housing a 105mm coastal gun. Since 1980 this has housed Faulkener Fisheries' vivier. As it was situated on the point at L’Etacq overlooking the small haven, it was also known as Le Havre Tower. Built by John Benest in 1833 for £840, it was armed with a single 24-pounder gun set on a traversing platform on the roof, and was garrisoned by a sergeant and twelve men.

 

Like the other towers in the island, once Britain and France became allies in the 1850s it was allowed to fall into disrepair; the War Department actively began to get rid of them after the Great War.

 

Work on Lewis’s Tower started in May 1835, but the builder Jean Gruchy, stopped work in June when Philippe du Heaume, the Seigneur of the Fief of Morville and Robilliard, raised the Clameur de Haro. His claim was upheld, and he received 600 Francs compensation. Work resumed in July that year. By spring 1837 it was nearly finished, although the ground floor magazine needed to be completed, as did the water cistern.

 

Jean Gruchy received £780 for his work, but within two years the Royal Engineers were complaining that it was not weather-tight and requested that a coating of cement be applied to reduce the problem of damp. During the Occupation a concrete extension was added to house a searchlight as it was part of Resistance Nest Lewis Tower, which also included the nearby bunker, with its 105 mm gun and 4.7 cm Pak 36(t) anti-tank gun. The bunker is now home to the Channel Islands Military Museum.

 

As the amount of leisure time increased in the years after the Great War, the dunes around the bay became dotted with beach chalets of all descriptions. Most were cleared by the Germans, although the more substantial chalet, popularly known as the Barge Aground, because of its shape, still remains. More correctly known as ‘Seagull’ it was built for Mr G L Cox by Mark Amy Ltd in 1935. During the Occupation it was used as a canteen by the Germans, and from the 1970s until 2001 it was used by the island Scout Association. Since 2006 it has been self-catering holiday accommodation.

 

Shipwrecks

The rocks and reefs of this part of the bay have seen their fair share of shipwrecks. In 1859 the 113-ton racing schooner, belonging to the Royal Yacht Squadron, Alca sank off L’Etacq. Her owner Mr Delmé-Radcliffe, his guests and crew took to the boats. All 14 people on board were saved.

 

A more recent wreck was the 76-ton ketch Hanna, of Poole, which struck the reef a quarter of a mile off L’Etacq just before midnight on Saturday 19 November 1949. She was carrying a cargo of limestone from Brixham to St Helier. Her crew of three were rescued by the Lifeboat RNLB Elizabeth Rippon but the vessel was a total loss.

 

La Rocco

About half a mile straight out from Le Braye slip lies a natural outcrop of Jersey shale La Rocco - from Rocque Hou which means ‘the rocky islet’. The northern side of this islet is called La Joue, the ‘prow’, from the way it presented itself to the incoming swell. Because of its position, guarding the approach to the beach, La Rocco was selected as the site for the last of the Conway towers to be built in the island.

 

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In addition to the usual design, this tower also had a surrounding bulwark for four guns. Work started in 1796 but was hampered by lack of funds, and because of the low wages offered, local stonemasons were not too keen to be involved in the contract either. By 1798 the project had overrun its original budget and the Lieut-Governor had to come up with more money to complete the job. In May 1799 he had to take 15 stone masons to court to get them to complete the job. Finally, at a cost of over £8,000, the work was done and in May 1801 the tower was named after the Lieut-Governor, Lieutenant General Andrew Gordon [1]. Manned by a subaltern, a sergeant, two corporals, a drummer and 18 privates, its armament consisted of five 24-pounders.

 

It continued to be manned after 1815, and by 1848 a report shows that its armament had been upgraded to 32-pounders. It was abandoned in the 1850s following the improvement in relations with the French, and by 1896 the War Department proposed selling it. The States eventually bought it in July 1922 for £100, with the intention of creating a day-mark for shipping.

 

Occupation damage

The tower suffered considerable damage during the Occupation when a landmine on the southern side of the bulwark accidentally went off. The popular story is that the damage was caused by German gunnery. Whatever the real story, it was neglect and severe weather over the next few years that caused the extensive damage. A States report in November 1962 noted the damage and, with typical governmental alacrity, in October 1968 it was proposed that the States would pay 50% of the cost of repairs, if the public would pay the other half. A La Rocco Tower Appeal Committee was formed to raise the £17,500 required and, backed by the Jersey Evening Post, raised the money in just under 15 weeks. Rebuilding work began in the late spring of 1969 and was finished in 1972.

 

In the 1920s the tower was leased to Lady Houston, who used it as her ‘beach hut’. In 1931 she gave £100,000 towards the development of what was to become the Spitfire. In January 1806 the English vessel Adventure, on passage from Malta to London, was wrecked near La Rocco. Captain Watson and all his crew were saved but the ship was lost. The fates were not so kind in March 1861 when the 250-ton French vessel La Cultivateur, sailing from Dublin to Rouen, struck rocks off La Rocco and five of the nine-man crew, despite being able to swim, were drowned. It was not only ships that came to grief on La Rocco: in November 1940 a Dornier 17 crashed here while on a training flight and all four Luftwaffe personnel were killed.

 

Once completed, La Rocco tower became part of the fortification network in the bay. Just to the south of Le Braye, towards La Carrière, stood St Ouen’s No 6, also known as la Tour du Sud. Built by 1786, the tower was severely undermined by coastal erosion following a high spring tide and violent storm on 19 March 1847. By 1851 half the tower had collapsed, and what was left was used for target practice by the Militia artillery. Today no trace of the tower remains, although there is a marvellous photograph taken just before its destruction.

 

Quarry

Where the escarpment sweeps back to the coast there was a quarry - La Carrière - and it was here that one of the early gun positions in the bay was sited. In his 1685 report William Salt indicated that two demi-culverins were here. These cannon, which fired an 8-9lb shot, had a range of about a mile, although they were only really effective at up to a third of that distance.

 

The strategic importance of this area was recognised by the Germans, too, and two massive bunkers, a heavy machine gun position, a personnel shelter and a searchlight bunker were built into La Tête du Nièr Côte behind the anti-tank wall. Known as Resistance Point La Carrière, they are maintained and opened to the public by the Channel Island Occupation Society.

 

As part of this building work, the slipway known as La Charrière du Mont du Feu was demolished and blocked, although traces can still be seen in and around the anti-tank wall. The name commemorated the du Feu family who owned the land.

 

The shore alongside La Pulente slip, more properly known as La Montée du Sud, was known as Le Grand Havre, and beyond the slip was Le Petit Havre. While they may not look like harbours to us today, they were recognised landing points in the past. In 1299 records show that duty was collected on a cargo of wine unloaded here.

 

In 1309 court records mention a wreck at La Pulente, whose cargo was 32 pieces of iron, some verdigris, two barrels of ‘roker’ fish (Thornback Rays), 12 lb of chalk, some ginger, six measures of cinnamon, six measures of pepper (these three spices were valued at 40 livres), six lengths of strong white cotton cloth (dimity), 140 yards of canvas valued at 8 livres, one mast, small logs of timber and a hand wheel.

 

The fishery survey published in 1872 noted:

 

"There is but one boat, we found here three or four fishermen from town who frequently visited this bay and told us they considered it the best bay for fish, particularly whiting, but the sea was always very rough and dangerous".

 

This survey was undertaken just after La Montée du Sud had been completed. This allowed small boats to be hauled up from the beach and more boats began to be used here by the end of the century. The slip also allowed carts easier access to the vraicing area. Marks, such as La Merq de la Charrièrre, just below the slip, were set up among the rocks, which as the tide dropped and they became visible meant vraicing could begin. Sometimes the mark was a designated rock, sometimes it was an iron spike set in the top of a rock.

 

Like Le Pulec, La Pulente is derived from the Old Norse word for pool and endi the Norse word for end – so it means the pool at the end of the bay. In the 19th century a hotel was built here to cater for the growing number of visitors to the island. In the 1880s the landlord, Thomas Gibaut, was also one of the leaders of a smuggling gang who used the beach to land contraband before distributing it in Town. In June 1889, following a tip-off, the police intercepted a van carrying 20 barrels of illicit spirits in Devonshire Place, outside the home of Gibaut’s father. Inside the house they found another barrel. Altogether over 300 gallons of spirit was recovered.

 

The hotel was evacuated during the Occupation and partly demolished, before it was gutted of anything burnable during the last winter of the war. Rebuilt in 1946, the hotel to all extents and purposes became a public house.

 

Thursday 23 April 1896 must have been a slow news day in Guernsey as their newspaper, The Star, reported a nasty incident involving two men at La Pulente the previous Sunday. While riding their tandem, a cow had kicked their machine ‘rendering it useless, owing to half a dozen spokes being broken’. The traumatised pair had to walk to La Moye Station, carrying their machine with them in order to catch the train back to Town.

 

The following February The Star also reported the sad fate of John Syvret, who had fallen ‘40ft’ over the edge of the quarry at La Pulente to his death while going fishing. The rather unsympathetic headline read ‘A Ne’er-do-Well’s Sad End’. The headland John Syvret was walking over to get to the beach was L’Oeillière, which means peep hole. This could refer to a pierced rock or more probably some form of early lookout tower.

The Compur shutter from Rolleiflex Old Standard No. 403037. With the circular black facia ring removed step (84) and the control plate ring removed step (87) we reach the insides of the shutter where all the action takes place. This shutter was 'stuttering' on the slow speeds particularly 1 sec & 1/2 sec. The cause of this is a dirty shutter speed escapement mechanism: my finger points to this speed escapement mechanism and this mechanism can be considered to be the 'heart' of a Compur shutter. This piece of clockwork controls every one of the different speeds (except the shortest one and B & T) Clean it by brushing some lighter fluid petrol very lightly across it and into it with a fine brush then blow out the solvent with a jet of air from a rubber lens blower bulb. This generally is all that is required to get it running sweet again. The main problem with all these leaf shutters is that dirt and or dried down grease has got into the clockwork to stop it working. These mechanisms are extremely reliable and quite robust. Very rarely do they fail completely or break down in my experience. IF THE SHUTTER BLADES WON'T OPEN AT ALL when you release the shutter (and it just goes 'click') it's very likely grease or dirt has dried on the shutter blades and is sticking them together.Again try cleaning them with a hydrocarbon solvent such as cigarette lighter fluid petrol applied on a cotton bud or fine brush. Work the mechanism (read the WARNING BELOW first) and clean the blades with cotton buds. Let the solvent dry out completely (the blades won't open and close if they are wet with solvent). The solvent will hold the wet blades together until it dries out. [To understand this get two pieces of wet glass such as two microscope slides then put the wet pieces together and you'll find they slide over each other only with difficulty and pulling them apart is very difficult because of surface tension (caused by hydrogen bonding in the water molecules)] BIG WARNING DON'T COCK THE SHUTTER AND TRY TO FIRE IT UNTIL THE CONTROL PLATE IS BACK ON : see step (89).

Sketches by: Alex May / DARYL_GAMMA / Davide Della Casa / Dorkbot London / Jonny Stutters / Sally Northmore / Sophie McDonald

 

Original music by: Jonny Stutters, edited by Davide Della Casa

 

You can play/modify these sketches online at: www.sketchpatch.net

Once upon a time, a long, long time ago, in a land called Tír Na Nóg there was a boy who lived in a sweet shop. He was a hapless, sweet stutterer, a nervous piebald boy, a speckled thing, pale skinned, and shy, freckled and ginger. He was a mammy’s boy, or at least one that only a mammy could love, or so he, and everyone else, thought. He was at that awkward age, although as far as he understood every age to that time, and including that present, had been awkward, in a trajectory that stammered forward, torn between the baby Jesus and Jellybean-stained rotting teeth. However, it was that particular age of burgeoning when things began to grow and nether regions sprouted rebelliously, and ginger started to assert itself around other outcrops, besides that on his crowning misery. Pubescence was raising its ugly and persistent head, dragging him away from his twin devotions to his own mother and the mother of his infant Saviour. Tumescent solace was initially found in the base of the old built-in wardrobe where he had once watched in awe as Tibbles gave birth to one of her many braces of, temporarily blind, kittens. This first solitary soiling, which occurred around midnight, as his brother’s slept in the next bed, Ruin having crept into the wardrobe to investigate strange rumblings in what he had been told (by the blessed Christian Brothers, his educators) was his 'base area'. This loaded description represented the total sum of his sex education at the time of this particular crisis. Obviously, something had snapped, something had been broken, there was a wetness. He instinctively knew that he had damaged himself and was probably bleeding to death in total darkness on that spot where Tibbles had created new life. Luckily his arsenal for such emergencies was, at that time, full, and the Blessed Virgin Mary was invoked, rudely awoken, and implored so that this cup might pass over, and that this ignominious death might not have to happen. It was Ruin Bon-Bon’s Gethsemane, and it was followed on closely by an orgy of rosaries, embracing the Joyful and the Glorious mysteries, feverishly intoned, until sleep mercifully and delicately intervened. The glowing dawn brought evidence that a miracle had truly occurred. Any ruddy stain of his brokenness had disappeared leaving just a slight stiffness in his ragged underwear. All sign of his sin had been removed by the BVM (Blessed Virgin Mary) herself. For weeks this nest at the base of the wardrobe would become a place of sanctuary and prayer, a place of devout pilgrimage and daily recitation of Hail Mary’s and Glory Be to the Fathers stuttered in gratitude for this divine intervention.

 

“I’m dying, I get to choose the video”.

 

Sitting bolt upright Jeffrey reasserted his dominance over the situation, silencing his parents. His mouth at the apex hushed the base of this inverted family triangle. That Jeffrey could sit bolt upright, at that moment, was somewhat of a miracle. His six-foot four-inch frame had been prone for weeks, reduced from its once impressive sixteen stone to a mere seven stone. ‘Singing in the Rain’ was inserted into that other gaping hole at the base of the television as Jeffrey collapsed back onto his re-adjusted pillows and his parents resettled themselves into their protracted vigil as Debbie Reynolds and her cohorts salved their shocked essences. I gasped, laughed, and loved, inwardly at Jeffrey’s delicious assertion, and made some tea to further salve and anaesthetize their whipped souls. For this was an age of soul whipping. It was a time when parents would find out, in the same week, that their only son was not only gay, but was also dying. It was a time when the usual divine-right-order of children burying their parents would be inverted repeatedly, and geriatrics would drag their weary carcasses from Virginian, or other, backwaters on invented shopping trips to the 'Big Apple', to secretly sit next to their emaciated progeny. It was a time of great shame.

 

How do I describe Rack? There is thirty-five years of evidence to sift through, but these were years that could be described as life lived ‘in extremis’. Maybe this is not true. I am not even sure of this. Perhaps dealing with your friends in their twenties and thirties dying all around you is normal. Maybe HIV was just our generation’s Vietnam. Rack owns this story with me, I think of it as ‘our’ story. It is not my story alone. It is simply a story, a fiction clinging onto a battered, and battering, ‘reality’.

 

Jeffrey didn’t die at the beginning of this tale, but I need to ‘kill’ him here. I injected morphine into his chest through a catheter, set up by his doctor in our loft in Manhattan, to help him die. There was little choice, he was about to universally hemorrhage and the only way to stop this sanguine explosion was to slow down his vital signs so that coma and release could happen, otherwise he would have bled through every orifice. His parents asked me to assist him and absented themselves to their hotel, or disappeared by going on a shopping trip to ‘Bergdorf Goodmans’. Although I was HIV negative at the time, and would remain negative for another ten years yet, his parents needed to blame me for Jeffrey’s condition. I recognize that they needed to blame someone, and I was the closest to hand. The poor maligned cuckoo in the nest is not always the culprit. These negotiations were not particularly delicate, it seemed that most accommodations were reached in a state of numbness, and we despised each other for our tacit agreements.

 

How do you describe ‘damage control’ without making it sound pathetic? How do you find the words to describe that accommodation which is an act of mutual abuse based on trust and which is an attempt to reverse that initial damage? The only way forward is to describe an inter-weaving, time strands taken from different ages and woven and plaited into a whole, which might describe the healed self in tandem with the healed and healing other, that is your abuser and object of your abuse. I am talking about a reversal, a road back from abuse but through abuse, it is the only way back. Attached to the Gordian knot of the self, blind and trusting, walking backwards to the healed and knowing self, to a point of innocence and enlightenment. This is what I want to attempt to do with this story. I am not going to judge it until it is finished. I am not going to allow her to judge it either. Otherwise, we would both turn into pillars of salt, blubbering salt licks.

 

Ok Beatrice, AKA Rack, get your blindfold on. We have some backward walking to do.

 

It seems that from the moment we met we were screaming, love me, don’t love me, at each other.

 

Time strands.

 

Memory has a renegade nature. It teases and occasionally attacks in blinding, apparently inconsequential, flashes. It is never persistent enough to demand honouring. It presents itself, skittishly. It never pretends or admits to its worth. It is like gold masquerading as fool’s gold, Dutch metal, teasing you to pick it up, downplaying its own value. We are prospectors of our own memories, we sieve diligently or allow it all to flow through our fingers unchecked, malnourished, and dishonoured. Prospecting is an art form. It demands discipline and commitment. Seams open slowly, they are teased open, until they are seduced and are capable of self-lubrication and discharge. Memory wants to be seduced. The first demand that memory makes on the seducer is that she be respected, no matter how skittish she might appear. The seducer of memory picks up on every sign, constantly moving forward, in the hope that he might deserve, or earn, the right to remember more.

 

Hail Queen of heaven, the ocean star

Guide of the wanderer here below!

Thrown on life's surge we claim thy care

Save us from peril and from woe

Mother of Christ

Star of the sea

Pray for the wanderer

Pray for me!

O gentle chaste and spotless maid

We sinners make our prayers through Thee

Remind thy Son that He has paid

The price of our iniquity

Virgin most pure

Star of the sea

Pray for the sinner

O pray for me!

 

Ruin’s mother had always claimed that we all have a book in us. His mother left school at twelve, though her affinity with words was never obviously lacking. It was this statement of hers that infected him early on, although there were no books in the house. She never much valued learning and when he told her he wanted to go to university her response was, "‘sure ‘n’ learning will never make you happy, don’t you know ignorance is bliss?". Even then he loved the way she simply inverted the cliché in an effort to back him into a civil service position and pension. As things turned out she was right (ish). For her, being the oldest of seventeen children, bliss was a gaggle of well-fed offspring contributing to the support of that communist whole. Too much education was the obvious enemy of this Pol Pottish idyll. The contradiction of having a mammy, who stood peeling the potatoes for her brood, in those heady days before ‘McCain Oven Chips’© made their ascension, singing ‘One Fine Day’ from Madame Butterfly, may have added to his confusion and later aspirations. The sins of the mother and absent father were to be visited on the son.

 

REVIEW FROM SIMON LEWIS WWW.TERRASCOPE.CO.UK

 

Greece is perhaps not the first place you would

associate with instrumental garage surf punk but the

invisible surfers aim to change that with their

collection of high-energy stompers. Played with

confidence and precision each song is a perfectly

formed tribute to the twangy guitar sounds of Dick

Dale, and the sun, surf and easy living mystique of

mid-sixties California. With a tight rhythm section

anchoring the tunes, the guitar is allowed to roam

freely creating an effective and original whole.

Special mention must go to the amazing version of

‘Runaway’ which is fantastic and is guaranteed to make

you move.(Andreas Zorbas higher_ups@yahoo.gr )

  

THE REVIEW FROM WWW.DEVOSHENROLL.FR.TC

 

It is in 1996, in Athens, after the Split of their

former(ancient)

group "

the blue jeans " that Alex Berekos (guitar), Johnny

Ted ( basses) and

Giorgos Fokas ( battery(Fokas ( drum kit)) decide to

go(take) up the

Punk

combo surfing INVISIBLE SURFERS. (Much more Surfing

which Punk I find)

In 1997, they take(bring) out a mini cd of 7 minutes "

it won t last

forever

" with some present bases in albums as well as a piece

more rock 'n'

roll!!

They then turned(shot) during some time(weather) with

groups such "Dead

Moon"; "Cramps"; …

Then it is only 5 years later, in 2002, that they

take(bring) out

finally

their album " dogs killa cat " in association with

Hith-Hyke Record!!

This

album is totally instrumental, indeed surfing and

quite nevertheless

they

say themselves " garage punk surfing with some sound

effects of the

other

planets " but me A demo also went out in 2004 …

In brief a good group Surfing, rather basic(basal),

but with well

mastered

fragments, we see that they have some

experience(experiment) in the

domain.

It is a pity there is vocal or no faster songs!!

  

THE LANCE MONTHLY REVIEW APRIL 2005

WWW.LANCERECORDS.COM

 

the Invisible Surfers "Dogs Killa Cat" (Hitch-Hyke

Records)Te

 

“They have the grooves down pat, but still operate in

a realm of their own.”

 

For a few years now, The Invisible Surfers have been

thrilling crowds with the kind of surf rock

instrumentals that never grow old. And in view of

their first album, "Dogs Killa Cat," they bring their

live expertise right into the studio. Generated by raw

and uninhibited energy, the Athens, Greece band sports

a sound that is loose, flexible and visceral.

 

Dazzling all the way through, "Dogs Killa Cat" swerves

and curves with interesting motions. Toxic yet catchy

tones pierce cuts such as "Poison Pussy,"

"Machination" and "The Hunter." Stuttering guitar

riffs, complemented by chugging bass work and stirring

drums are what The Invisible Surfers peddle. One can

imagine the band's instrumentals spinning in the

background of a grainy black-and-white monster flick

from days gone by. Every single track on "Dogs Killa

Cat" exposes how sincerely devoted The Invisible

Surfers are to the style of music they perform. They

have the grooves down pat, but still operate

in a realm of their own. h

  

PIPELINE MAGAZINE [ REVIEW DEMO INVISIBLE SURFERS]

THE INVISIBLE SURFERS HAIL FROM ATHENS,CREECE WHERE

THEY FORMED IN 1996 FOLLOWING THE DISSOLUTION OF THE

BLUE GEANS.IN 1997 THEY RELEASED THEIR FIRST SINGLE

WITH THREE UPHAET INSTUMENTAL TRACKS.IN 2002 THEY

RELAESED THEIR FIRST ALBUM,DOGS KILLA CAT ON

HITCH-HYKE RECORDS,WHICHDREW MUSICAL ELEMENTS FROM

TRADITIONAL GREEK STYLE,SCI-FI,SPAGHETTI AND

GARAGE.THEY NOW HAVE A 13 TRACK DEMO READY FOR THEIR

NEXT ALBUM WHICH THEY ARE LOOKING TO PLACE WITH A

LABEL OUTSIDE OF THEIR HOMELAND. STRONG GUITAR

THREE-PIECE VERSIONS OF DUCKPOIND [AS SURFIN'LAKE]

RUNAWAY

THE WEDGE AND SQUAUD CAR [AS THUNDER RIDE]ARE JOINED

BY NINE UPTEMPO ORIGINALS WITH INFLUENCES FROM

DUANE EDDY THROUGH TO PUNK.

[ CONTACT ANDREAS ZORBAS HIGHER_UPS@YAHOO.GR]

ALAN TAYLOR PIPELINE MAGAZINE

  

review from void&action japan

 

THE INVISIBLE SURFERS / DOGS KILLA CAT / CD /

HITCH-HYKE (2002)

 

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²“ʽŸl Masato Sato

  

THE REVIEW IS FROM SAVAGE MAGAZINE

 

THE INVISIBLE SURFERS

Dogs Killa Cat CD

Greek surf.. New surf done the tradidional way is not

really my cup of tea. There are a few bands out there

that do it okay but I don’t go out buying surf records

anymore. That was ten years ago (about).. This is

pretty heavy surf and for hardcore surf fans only.

(Thomas)

No label

 

www.garage rock radio.com review

 

The Invisible Surfers from Greece are a cool surf

instrumental band. Their recent effort, "Dogs Killa

Cat" features 14 authentic 60s-tinged guitar surf

tunes. Production is very good and there is much good

guitarwork. Tempos range from psyche-trippy to

standard 60s surf pop to speed metal (track 9 borrows

from Motorhead's "Ace of Spades"). Surf and Garage are

first cousins in the Rock family. If you like surf,

check out the great guitarwork on this CD! For more

info on this band, please write to Andreas Zorbas.

  

REWIEW FROM THE www.digginfordirt.com

 

The Invisible Surfers - Dogs Killa Cat/Demo

Written by Paul4dirt

 

Tuesday, 08 February 2005

Two cdr-discs by a Greek surf band. The Dogs Killa Cat

one being by far the best of the two. The demo has

more predictable songs on it and the dogs killa cat cd

has some great swingin' songs like nr. 5 'Restlesness'

and nr. 9 'The Hunter'. If you're a fan of surf music

be sure to check this here band out. I mean, it's not

VERY often the Greeks bring us some decent surfin

music, or is it?

    

review from bob ignizio WWW.UTTERTRASH.NET

The Invisible Surfers – ‘Demo’ (currently unreleased)

 

Although the post-‘Pulp Fiction’ boom in surf music

has largely died down, there’s still a few bands out

there playing the style. Hailing from Athens, Greece,

The Invisible Surfers are one such band. They’ve

definitely got the chops, and if you like a purist

approach to this style, you can’t do much better.

This is pretty much the classic Dick Dale/Ventures

sound with a bit of garage rock grit and intensity.

Unfortunately, there’s not much to differentiate this

band from a hundred others doing the same thing.

Without a distinctive sound, that leaves only the

tunes themselves to set this band apart. While

there’s no bad tracks on this demo, there’s no

“Miserlou” or “Walk, Don’t Run”, either. The

instrumental version of Del Shannon’s “Runaway” is the

only thing that even comes close. It’s enjoyable

background music, but doesn’t really stick with me.

(Bob Ignizio)

 

TSUNAMI SOUL

 

Hi Andreas,

 

I got the cds on Saturday and I like them a lot! I

wanted to wait until

I had listened to them a few times before sending you

my comments. I

think that these demos are all really good.

 

"Cobra Snake Neck Tie" is a good example of the

Invisible Surfers'

great rhythm. This song also has some cool changes.

"Burned Brain" displays

the adventurous guitar that is in all of these songs.

"Eyes Like The

Deep Blue Sea," which is another great song that I've

been enjoying,

shows that the Invisible Surfers have reverance for

the more "traditional"

style of instrumentals, like those of Duane Eddy and

Link Wray. Still,

this song is as unique as all of the Invisible

Surfers' songs! "O.D.

From Love" is another song with a strong and solid

rhythm. A very cool

song. I think that the fast, foot-tapping melody in

"Stabs 'N' Hugs" is

excellent and "Total Satisfied" is also very exciting.

I like this song

a lot. "Hellfire Whips" has a great melody line. The

Invisible Surfers

do a nice job on this song. The last "Untitled" song

is another

foot-stomping song. I really like the fast guitar

picking in this song. This

song deserves a title!

 

All of the Invisible Surfers' original demo songs on

this CD are very

good. They incorporate dynamic changes and they are

all very

adventurous. The covers ("Surfin' Lake," "Runaway,"

"The Wedge," and "Thunder

Ride") are also done well. I especially like the great

chords and excellent

guitar playing in "Runaway" and "The Wedge."

 

Thanks also for sending me a copy of "Dogs Killa Cat."

These songs are

all amazing! What a great CD. I'll be playing the

Invisible Surfers'

songs on my Tsunami Soul radio show and helping to

spread the word about

this great band. I know that my show's listeners will

appreciate the

Invisible Surfers as much as I do.

 

Thanks again, Andreas. I hope to hear lots of good

things about (and

from!) the Invisible Surfers.

 

All the best,

 

Tom

 

Tsunami Soul

WOBC 91.5 FM

wobc.org (Thursdays, 6:00-8:00 p.m. EST)

www.oberlin.edu/staff/thinders/

    

THE INVISIBLE SURFERS - "TOO MANY TALK"

 

What can a surf-/trash fan expect in times where

instant, electronic chartmusic is nummero uno ?!? No

idea ?

 

There could only one possible answer...raw, powerful

surf instrumentals for sure !

 

"No one plays it !" some would yell. But hey, wait a

minute and take a sharp look at the horizon. Can`t you

feel that strong choppy instrumental breaze, coming up

from the golden coast of greece ?

 

That are the sounds of "THE INVISIBLE SURFERS"

considered to be some of the wild! est rock`n`roll

instrumentals played in the new millenium ! The

formula for the "Surfers" style seems to be simple...a

fast played and rough soundin surf guitar, a bone dry

rhythm section and the seventh sense for an earcatchin

melody. But only Alex, Johnny and Giorgos can mix

these ingredients the right way. The results are

always top notch instrumentals ala "INVISIBLE

SURFERS". A good example for the SURFERS recipe is

that nifty tune called "Too many talk". It`s a

statement for the high art of entertaining rock`n`roll

instrumentals and better...it`s not just an appetizer,

it`s an beef tea for every one who`s addicted to the

power of cool instro tunes nowadays !

 

So, don`t waste your time listening to all that chart

music crap, better move over to the Surfers sound,

okay ? okay !

 

JAMAS !

  

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www.pozorvlak.de

  

Welcome to HangNine - the Instrumental, Surf and

Garage WebZine

    

From now on, the main page at HangNine will feature

recent reviews and anything else current that takes

our fancy. Reviews will eventually be added to our

extensive archive.

 

First, though, a short explanation of our new rating

system:

 

AFBOM - A guitarist friend, frequently asked, "What

did you think of the band?" felt it best to avoid

answers of the, "Not much, to be honest," variety and

always picked on something positive to say. This might

have been, "Great chorus to the last song," "Loved the

guitar sound in that first number," or even, "The

drummer's trousers are really cool." Favourite of the

lot, though, was, "Fine bunch of musicians," which

became something of a catchphrase round our way.

 

NBAA - Not bad at all.

 

PDG - Pretty damned good.

 

AB - Absolutely brilliant.

 

AFB - Better even than absolutely brilliant.

   

The Invisible Surfers

 

Who are they? Surf-punk instrumental band from Athens,

in sunny Greece. The Invisible Surfers speicalise in a

highly effective, high-octane brand of rocking

instrumental surf. This untitled demo features some 28

numbers spread over two cdr's (rather attractive, 7

inch single style cdr's, by the way); a blend of

originals and covers, including some which you might

expect to find played by a band of this ilk (Rumble,

The Wedge, Jack The Ripper) and some which you might

not (Swan Lake and Del Shannon's Runaway).

Unfortunately, it's not possible to name any of the

originals featured here, since there is no track

listing.

 

What's good? The playing, which is really lively on

all numbers. The whole demo has a pretty much live

feel and, if this is anything to go by, you can be

damn sure that The Invisible Surfers are a great live

act. Maybe they'll make it to the UK for HangNine to

check out.

 

Great choice of tunes to cover.

 

Some very good original tunes too.

 

What's bad? 28 numbers spread over around 95 minutes

is quite a lot of material to include in a demo!

 

Some numbers feature digital glitches and dropouts,

while one is unplayable, due to really unpleasant

digital distortion. This is obviously a potential

problem with self-manufactured cdr's; you really do

have to check them, which can be a real drag.

 

No track listing.

 

HangNine Rating: PDG - you can email manager Andreas

for further details

   

review from roctomber fanzine;

   

Invisible Surfers ( Unlike most

boring, clichΓ© surf music, this band stands out because , while

staying

true to the beach, they also draw from indie rock, jazz and ethnic folk

music. Of course, the latter may not be a stretch, they say Dick

Dale’s

Middle-Eastern roots helped contribute to the sounds of early surf.

These Invisibles may not be much to see, but they are really something

to hear

 

review from rock&roll prugatory

 

Invisible Surfers

2 CD-Rs

Higher_ups@yahoo.gr

 

I am not sure what the two CD-Rs I received by this Greek band represent. I think some of it is off past releases, and some is not-yet-released material. At any rate, it is pretty decent instrumental surf music worthy of mention. The recordings range in quality, and a couple songs had major glitches. I’m guessing a lot of these songs are originals, while the covers that I recognized ranged from predictable (but enjoyable), to somewhat less expected. The execution is quite good, and the moods range from heavy and dark to bright and breezy. While they don’t quite stand apart from the pack, they are certainly towards the front. I’ll be interested to see where they go from here. – BL

   

Then Garp got some hate mail of his own. He was addressed in a lively letter by someone who took offense at Second Wind of the Cuckold. It was not a blind, stuttering, spastic farter - as you might imagine - either. It was just what Garp needed to get himself out of his slump.

 

Dear Shithead,

[wrote the offended party]

 

I have read your novel. You seem to find other people's problems very funny. I have seen your pictures. With your fat head of hair I suppose you can laugh at bald persons. And in your cruel book you laugh at people who can't have orgasms, and people who aren't blessed with happy marriages, and people whose wives and husbands are unfaithful to each other. You ought to know that persons who have these problems do not think everything is so funny. Look at the world, shithead - it is a bed of pain, people suffering and nobody believing in God or bringing their children up right. You shithead, you don't have any problems so you can make fun of the poor people who do!

Yours sincerely,

(Mrs.) I. B. Poole

Findlay, Ohio

 

That letter stung Garp like a slap; rarely had he felt so importantly misunderstood. Why did people insist that if you were "comic" you couldn't also be "serious"? Garp felt most people confused being profound with being sober, being earnest with being deep. Apparently, if you sounded serious, you were. Presumably, other animals could not laugh at themselves, and Garp believed that laughter was related to sympathy, which we were always needing more of. He had been, after all, a humorless child - and never religious - so perhaps he now took comedy more seriously than others.

But for Garp to see his vision interpreted as making fun of people was painful to him; and to realize that his art had made him appear cruel gave Garp a keen sense of failure. Very carefully, as if he were speakingto a potential suicide high up in a foreign and unfamiliar hotel, Garp wrote to his reader in Findlay, Ohio

 

Dear Mrs. Poole:

 

The world is a bed of pain, people suffer terribly, few of us believe in God or bring up our children very well; you're right about that. It is also true that people who have problems do not, as a rule, think their problems are "funny".

Horace Walpole once said that the world is comic to those who think and tragic to those who feel. I hope you'll agree with me that Horace Walpole somewhat simplifies the world by saying this. Surely both of us think and feel; in regard to what's comic and what's tragic, Mrs. Poole, the world is all mixed up. For this reason I have never understood why "serious" and "funny" are thought to be opposites. It is simply a truthful contradiction to me that people's problems are often funny and that the people are often and nonetheless sad.

I am ashamed, however, that you think I am laughing at people, or making fun of them. I take people very seriously. People are all I take seriously, in fact. Therefore, I have nothing but sympathy for how people behave - and nothing but laughter to console them.

Laughter is my religion, Mrs. Poole. In the manner of most religions, I admit that my laughter is pretty desperate. I want to tell you a little story to illustrate what I mean. The story takes place in Bombay, India, where many people starve to death every day; but not all the people in Bombay are starving.

And among the nonstarving population of Bombay, India, there was a wedding, and a party was thrown in honor of the bride and groom. Some of the wedding guests brought elephants to the party. They weren't really conscious of showing off, they were just using the elephants for transportation. Although it might strike us as a big-shot way to travel around, I don't think these wedding guests saw themselves that way. Most of the were probably not directly responsible for the vast numbers of their fellow Indians who were starving all around them; most of them were just calling "time out" from their own problems, and the problems of the world, to celebrate the wedding of a friend. But if you were a member of the starving Indians, and you hobbled past that wedding party and saw all those elephants parked outside, you probably would have felt some disgruntlement.

Furthermore, some of the revelers at the wedding got drunk and began feeding beer to their elephant. They emptied an ice bucket and filled it with beer, and they went tittering out to the parking lot and fed their hot elephant the whole bucket. The elephant liked it. So the revelers gave him several more buckets of beer.

Who knows how beer will affect an elephant? These people meant no harm, they were just having fun - and chances are fairly good that the rest of their lives weren't one hundred percent fun. They probably needed this party. But the people were also being stupid and irresponsible.

If one of those many starving Indians had dragged himself through the parking lot and seen these drunken wedding guests filling up an elephant with beer, I'll bet he would have felt resentful. But I hope you see I am not making fun of anyone.

What happens next is that the drunken revelers are asked to leave the party because their behavior with their elephant is obnoxious to the other wedding guests. No one can blame the other guests for feeling this way; some of them may have actually thought they were preventing things from getting "out of hand," although people have never been very successful at preventing this.

Huffy and brave with beer, the revelers struggled up on their elephant and veered away from the parking lot - a large exhibition of happiness, surely - bumping into a few other elephants and things because the revelers' elephant plowed from side to side in a lumbering wooze, bleary and bloated with buckets of beer. His trunk lashed back and forth like a badly fastened artificial limb. The great beast was so unsteady that he struck an electric utility pole, shearing it cleanly and bringing down the live wires on his massive head - which killed him, and the wedding guests who were riding him, instantly.

Mrs. Poole, please believe me: I don't think that's "funny." But along comes one of those starving Indians. He sees all the wedding guests mourning the death of their friends, and their friends' elephant; much wailing, rending of fine clothes, spilling of good food and drink. The first thing he does is to take the opportunity to slip into the wedding while the guests are distracted and steal a little good food and drink for his starving family. The second thing he does is start to laugh himself sick about the manner in which the revelers disposed of themselves and their elephant. Alongside death by starvation, this method of enormous dying must seem very funny, or at least quick, to the undernourished Indian. But the wedding guests don't see it that way. It is already a tragedy to them; they are already talking about "this tragic event," and although they could perhaps forgive the presence of a "mangy beggar" at their party - and even have tolerated his stealing their food - they cannot forgive him for laughing at their dead friends' elephant.

The wedding guests - outraged at the beggar's behavior (at his laughter, not his thievery and not his rags) - drown him in one of the beer buckets that the late revelers used to water their elephant. They construed this to represent "justice". We see that the story is about the class struggle - and, of course, "serious", after all. But I like to consider it a comedy about a natural disaster: they are just people rather foolishly attempting to "take charge" of a situation whose complexity is beyond them - a situation compsed of eternal and trivial parts. After all, with something as large as an elephant, it could have been much worse.

I hope, Mrs. Poole, that I have made what I mean clearer to you. In any case, I thank you for taking the time to write to me, because I appreciate hearing from my audience - even critically.

Yours truly,

"Shithead"

 

Garp was an expressive man. He made everything baroque, he believed in exaggeration; his fiction was also extremist. Garp never forgot his failure with Mrs. Poole; she worried him, often, and her reply to his pompous letter must have upset him even further.

 

Dear Mr. Garp,

[Mrs. Poole replied]

 

I never thought you would take the trouble to write me a letter. You must be a sick man. I can see by your letter that you believe in yourself, and I guess that's good. But the things you say are mostly garbage and nonsense to me, and I don't want you to try to explain anything to me again, because it is boring and insulting to my intelligence.

Yours,

Irene Poole

 

Garp was, like his beliefs, self-contradictory. He was very generous with other people, but he was horribly impatient. He set his own standards for how much of his time and patience everyone deserved. He could be painstakingly sweet, until he decided he'd been sweet enough. Then he turned and came roaring back the other way.

 

Dear Irene,

[Garp wrote to Mrs. Poole]

 

You should either stop trying to read books, or you should try a lot harder.

 

Dear Shithead,

[wrote Irene Poole]

 

My husband says that if you write to me again, he'll beat your brains into pulp.

Very sincerely,

Mrs. Fitz Poole

 

Dear Fitzy and Irene,

[Garp shot right back]

 

Fuck you.

Wilderness area near Prescott, Arizona, 2017.

Taken from right-to-left, as I was sitting on the north side of the train, headed west.

 

I really like what happened when I set the camera on my phone to 'panorama' and then held it stationary against the window of the train: (from an email I wrote) "The camera accrues the image unevenly: it's looking for motion but its internal gyroscope ("accelerometer") is confused. If things aren't changing much in the foreground, the picture 'piles up' and the horizon stutters, but water or trees close-by trigger a richer capture

This was just after sunrise. Fall colours here, and lots of standing water."

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The Flamingo had his head in his hand as he said,

 

“Jason…I can’t believe you…” Jason’s eyes darted from Flamingo, to Scarlet, to Mason and Deb. Mason had a large rifle pointed at Jason’s forehead, making the latter stutter as he said,

 

“I didn’t do it. I swear.” This felt strange for Jason to say, but when he searched himself for a reason why he simply had to look to the woman holding the sniper in the windowsill. Swearing, Flamingo said,

 

“I’m sorry it’s come to this Jason but until we find out what’s going on you’re going to need to go back to the tower.” Jason was sweating as he thought of what to do next. Before he could make a decision however, a rock was thrown through the window. The rock broke the already decrepit window before hitting the ground. Jason looked at it for a note of some kind but quickly realized the rock being thrown through the window was a message in itself. Looking out the window, Jason, as well as Flamingo, Scarlet, Deb, and Mason, saw Roy Harper standing alone in the snow with his middle finger facing the group. He yelled up to them,

 

“You guys took my bow. I would like it back. Also, turn Jason Todd over to me NOW.” The Flamingo laughed as he turned in his bed to see the lone figure of Roy threatening the group. As he did, two henchmen (Jack and another that Jason did not recognize) advanced on Roy’s position. For a moment, Jason waited for the three to begin fighting, then realized that the one he did not recognize was walking towards another target. Looking around, the group saw that Roy was not alone, and had hidden the prisoners Nikki and Kyle nearby. Nikki screamed as the unknown henchman raised a hammer and a pistol. All this time, there seemed to be a winding noise building in Jason’s ears. A ringing that was driving him to do something insane. So then he did something insane: shoving Deb and Mason aside, Jason dove through the broken window. Turning his body in midair to collide with the ground on his back, he found that the snow was packed lightly and surprisingly soft. Feeling only minor scratches from catching on stray glass from the window, Jason quickly sprang into action and managed to knock the unknown goon down with a leg sweeping maneuver. Nikki and Kyle retreated from the hiding spot to a space behind where Roy had engaged Jack. Dodging the unknown goon’s hammer attacks, Jason managed to knock the weapon out of the man’s hand as all heard the Flamingo yell,

 

“SHOOT THEM! KILL THEM!” For a moment, Jason thought this referred to the unknown goon with the pistol or Jack (who was currently using Roy’s bow and arrow), however he looked up to see Scarlet aiming down at them. She trembled as she did, and Jason could see Flamingo grabbing her arm from his bed and shaking her around as he called up,

 

“Scarlet! Hold on!” In this moment of distraction, the unknown henchman managed to fire off several rounds that nearly connected with Jason’s ear. The sound made the ringing in his head even worse as Jason grabbed the man by the forehead and slammed his head into the snow below. The force of slamming the man into the snow knocked him clean out as Jason turned his attention to Roy. Jack was slicing at Roy with a small knife until the latter managed to kick the former in the hand with such force that the sound of the bones breaking were audible. Screaming for a moment, Jack stumbled, allowing Roy to grab his bow with his good hand. Placing the bow around Jack’s neck, Roy began to pull hard, using one foot to hold Jack in place while planting the other firmly in the snow. After a short period of Jack struggling, Roy moved the bow quickly, snapping the man’s neck. Jason winced at the sound, but walked over to Nikki and Kyle in order to check on them as Roy put on the quiver Jack had been wearing. Turning to Jason and the couple, Roy said,

 

“Nobody touches my bow.” The couple nodded furiously as there was the sound of struggling from above. They all looked up to see Mason knock the sniper rifle out of Scarlet’s hands before grabbing her around the neck and forcing his gun into her face. As he did this, more and more Flamingo henchmen began to walk out from various places around Park City. Roy turned to Jason and quickly said, “Jason we have to go now!” Jason looked from him to Scarlet and said,

 

“No…no no no no no we need to save Scarlet that’s the whole reason I’m here!” Roy sighed and looked around as more Flamingo henchmen began to close in on them. Thinking quickly he picked up the gun that the unknown henchman had dropped and tossed it to Kyle. Then he grabbed Jason around the stomach and began dragging him away. The group broke into a sprint all except for Jason who yelled, “NO! SCARLET! NO!” as his feet dragged through the nearly unbroken snow. Mason pulled Scarlet away from the window as the group made it a block away, but Jason continued to scream and squirm. Attempting to push Roy away and yelling insults such as ‘cripple’ at him did not help anything except to exhaust Jason who eventually passed out due to lack of oxygen. The last thing he heard was several gunshots fired off by Kyle, then Jason succumbed to his exhaustion and wounds from leaping out the window, fading into unconsciousness.

   

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A small little deer followed Wander into the room.

"Hrm...um...I uh...", Raen stuttered nervously. She hadn't spoken in weeks, and her voice felt foreign.

Wander's eyes looked poofy and red. The little deer in the floor looked up at Raen as though it was trying to speak to her. It's eyes also looked sad.

 

"Can...can I sit down?", Wander muttered quietly. "I just have to talk to someone, and so...I chose you", she finished dumbly.

The last thing he wanted to do was to pull a shuggie, or to ash, like Angela, all over the place. But there was no getting away from it. He was just going to have to drink that fecking hemlock and see if he could survive it. It was the only possible way forward, and the thing he had been avoiding for most of his life.

  

He had just, more or less, learnt how to talk, or at least seemed to be at that point of overcoming his stutter. He had managed to whisper out that he would scream, it was late at night, and the next morning, his uncle, the abuser, moved out and on, no doubt in search of greener unploughed fields. Ruin was then, perhaps, 14. The ‘perhaps’ talks more about the inconsistencies of memory than anything else, that untrustworthiness. Either way, it had taken more than a year for him to find the courage, and strength, to whisper that threat, the one that chased his lecherous uncle away. It had to be a whisper, what with his two younger brothers in a second bed in that small damp room. He could go into heart-breaking details, the torn sheet (just one), the horsehair poking out of holes in the mattress, the fact that there was no heat at all, other than body warmth, and the coats piled up on the beds, but he won’t. He wouldn’t ‘Dickins’ the story either, even though he could. This wasn’t about victimhood and redemption; he was writing something else entirely. Masha, much later, asked him if was he trying to justify himself by what he was writing. “No” he answered, “that isn’t it at all. I have nothing to justify”. He could describe the abuse too, but he wouldn’t. If this story is about abuse, he thought, it will be saying that abuse is the most ferociously creative force in the universe, a life and planet-generating, gob-smacking, phenomenon. That’s the story he wanted, and needed, to somehow tell. He had made art about it for most of his life, and now he was going to write about it.

  

Talking of gob-smacking, this introduction is a preamble to the crux of the matter, and that day when, as a fourteen year old, he slapped his mother. He had never slapped anyone before, he was way too timid, and as far as he could remember he had never slapped anyone since. He had certainly, since, psychically abused those around him, friends or those that ended up having to look at his art in galleries or museums, but he had never taken to that helter-skelter of physical violence. At the same time, he enjoyed Patrick McCabe’s pig-boy running around the boreens of West Cork, in ‘The Butcher Boy’, brandishing an axe, killing willy-nilly. He understood that rage. He understood the draw of the chainsaw and flying body-parts. Luckily, he had art, a safe-ish place to slaughter the innocents. He knew in his heart of hearts that if he hadn’t become an artist, or if he wasn’t writing this, he could have as easily been an axe-murderer. This was not about choice at all. It was just sheer luck. The story of that other young man in Austria who couldn’t get into art school, ending up unleashing his rage on the 20th century, would be a case in point as to what might have happened otherwise. No choices were made, the world and nature intervened and fashioned that rage in accordance with its own needs, as it always does.

  

Of course, there was a time when he loved her entirely. She had been the chaotic centre of his small universe, a skirt hem to hang off of, a nicotined hand to sometimes hold. He remembered thinking she was beautiful, even. The abuse put paid to that. That he had spent the 40 years that followed thinking of her as his pimp aided and abetted that ‘running away’ pattern he honed to perfection in his ensuing life. The ‘Wild Geese’ became a motif he loved and felt a deep association with.

  

He was obviously an anxious child before, evince that stutter. When he was thirteen, his father had somehow procured for him a job in ‘The Laurels’, a bar, in Clondalkin, 4 or 5 nights a week, from 7pm until midnight. That football field of a bar is still there, though it now seems to have taken on a Swiss Chalet meets American Wild West sort of theme, broken up into smaller variations on those twinned, and oddly incongruous, genre design foibles. Then it was one huge, open, smokey place. His father, being both an alcoholic and a bar-man, had connections, so accommodations were made around the law that said you couldn’t work as a ‘lounge boy’ until you were fourteen.

  

From the age of 13 he began to pay his mother 4 Irish Pounds (Irish: Punt Éireannach) to sleep in his bed, to support the up-keep of her brood. He, erroneously, thought of it as 'her' brood, his father being absent, with that bottle of 'Uisce Beatha' he kept hidden in the toilet cistern. It wasn't long after this accommodation had been reached, when his mother realised that another 4 Punt Éireannach could be generated by his scooting over, and making room for her fully-matured, young, rutting-bull of a half -brother.

  

So begins the story of the slap, and the, trussed-up-like-a-goose, running away.

  

He never thought that he would get to the point of admitting to this, that slap. It was the single source of his greatest shame, and the relief of putting it down, at last, was profound.

  

The rest was icing.

   

Stutter.....

NEW YORK, NEW YORK - JULY 11: (L-R) Mark O’Malia, Mark O’Malia, Kristel Kubart and Emily Blunt appear onstage at the 2022 Freeing Voices, Changing Lives Gala at Guastavino's on July 11, 2022 in New York City. (Photo by Jamie McCarthy/Getty Images for American Institute for Stuttering)

LIVING DIVINITY – AnanthaRaman’s Talk

 

Talk given by Prof Anantharaman in Swami's Presence on 19th October 2004

  

Respected elders, brothers and sisters and my young friends.

During a very significant speech in 1981, Swami spoke about the 'eight flowers of worship'. Out of these He said that Ahimsa, non-violence, is the most important. Swami's concept of Ahimsa is far beyond the connotations of not causing physical harm. His concept of Ahimsa is not causing harm in word, thought and deed!

I would like to commence today with an offering of such a flower at the Feet of our Lord.

Albert Einstein, the famous physicist, was once asked whether it is possible for him to explain Divinity in scientific terms. He said that it is conceivable but it would make no sense; it would be like explaining Beethoven's Ninth Symphony in the form of an air pressure curve. We have the same kind of a problem in speaking about Bhagavan's Divinity. The Living Divinity cannot be explained in metaphors or examples; the limited cannot comprehend the unlimited; no form can contain it; the wayward cannot measure the stable; or the now measure the ever. We can only repeat the words of Sir Isaac Newton who said after enunciating the principle of gravity "I feel like a little boy playing with the pebbles on the seashore while the ocean of Truth lay all undiscovered before me".

Bhagavantham tells the story of how in the early years Swami once materialised a beautiful sapphire and stuck it on the statue of Shirdi Sai next to him. Bhagavantham was not only a staunch devotee but also a renowned scientist. The scientist in him wondered how the sapphire stood there without any ostensible means of support defying all laws of gravity. He started chuckling to himself, "Here I am accepting the principle miracle of the creation of a sapphire and I am questioning the secondary miracle of the sapphire defying the laws of gravity. Surely one who creates matter can also transcend the laws of matter."

A Malaysian devotee once told me the story of how 20 miles from Prashanti Nilayam his car stopped for want of gas. This was his first visit to Prashanti Nilayam and it was late evening. He was naturally concerned; he prayed to Swami, "Swami, make this car move forward to Prashanti Nilayam this evening." He prayed, asked the driver to start, and the engine stuttered and they started moving to Prashanti Nilayam. Next day the grateful devotee told Swami at Darshan time, "Swami thank you for the Grace of moving this car to Prashanti Nilayam without gas." Swami looked at him and said, "But that was not your only problem." Puzzled he went back, filled gas in the car, started the engine and turned the wheel. The wheel just locked and a mechanic was brought who found out that there was a broken tie-rod end. There was no way this car could have travelled 20 miles with or without gas. How many of us have travelled in cars with our broken tie-rod ends fixed unbeknown to us by this cosmic welder.

On this forum, several devotees in the last few days have shared their experiences of Swami. Each one of us have received this benediction from Swami if only we know where to look for it. Some of these we know; many like the Malaysian devotee we do not know at all. Howard Murphet, whose books have brought more foreign devotees to Swami than any other writer, calls all these 'parables in action'.

Whenever Swami materialises something, blows into something and creates something else or cures an affliction, He is in fact demonstrating these 'parables in action'. Their purpose is not to make us richer, or to cure an affliction but to demonstrate to us and instruct us in the science of being and in the art of living through the demonstration of His Omniwill.

I would like to share with you one such parable, one of many that I was privileged to have. I would like to share with you not the experience but the education behind the experience - it was like learning at the Feet of Divinity.

As an international corporate citizen, I had moved from country to country and finally moved from continent to continent. As the story I am about to tell has a lot of political implications, I seek your indulgence not to name the country where this took place as some of the people involved are still alive today. This country was a totalitarian military state and had had 3 major coups. There were 3 ethnic groups in the country - Muslims with political clout; Christians with economic strength; and tribal leaders who had their own axe to grind. Because of recent struggles there was a distrust of foreigners, particularly Asians. There was no constitution in this country and there was complete anarchy. I had heard of friends who had been taken away in the middle of the night and were never heard of since. There were summary executions - this was the order of the day. You could see bodies tied to automobile tyres and set fire to at the end of the streets; the stench of burning flesh and vulcanised rubber quite often rent the air. This was the background of the country where we wanted to introduce Swami's concept of Education in Human Values. We organised a conference of secondary school teachers and in order to give a big PR event to this incident, I was given the responsibility of inviting the wife of the president of this country to inaugurate the session and preside over the first day. I went and met the president's wife, she listened patiently and ultimately said that her office would get back to us as to whether she can preside or not.

A couple of days later, as I was driving to work I found that there was a big black limousine that was following me. I was concerned because this country had a fearsome secret service system. I made some enquiries with a contact that I had in the government and I learned that an enquiry had been ordered against me. As there was a lot of religious strife in the area in which we were living probably meeting the president's wife the previous week had triggered off a suspicion that our's is might be a religious institution and therefore needs to be followed. In the meantime the wife of the president had declined our invitation. My contact in the government confirmed my suspicion that I was in fact the target of an investigation and said that people were being taken away in the middle of the night never to come back; he strongly advised and cautioned me that I must quietly leave the country. The Indian Ambassador who I consulted one day before the event confirmed this and also strongly advised me to leave the country. I was very concerned and left for home a day before the function.

The day of the conference had come; in order to protect my identity they did not announce my name - they announced me as a spokesperson. My job was to talk about EHV and introduce the speaker of the day who was Victor Kanu. But in view of the religious sensitivity I was advised that I should make no mention of Sai or of the institutions which He heads. With great trepidation I climbed the stage; as I went up I found the same secret service agents who had followed me sitting in the first row - my steps faltered. I started with a silent prayer to Swami, but very soon I threw caution to the winds. Instead of talking about EHV, I spoke about the Author of EHV; I spoke about Swami; I spoke about SanathanaDharma; I spoke about Hinduism; I spoke about everything I was advised about not to speak. I had decided that if I was to go down I would go down with the Name of the Lord on my lips.

The talk was over and I went back home. Thoughts of being picked up and being incarcerated were very much in my mind. I was at home and the phone rang at 9.05 that night. I was certain that it was someone trying to tip me off to leave the country - but it was a friend of mine. He asked me whether I was watching the television. I said, "Why would I watch the television - I am waiting to be picked up!" The television in this country was totally controlled by the government. 9pm was prime time when every single set would be turned on. I turned on the television - I could not believe my eyes. There was full coverage of the morning's programme; my whole speech was telecast; my name and occupation were mentioned; my anonymity was over. Not only that but there was a full presentation of that morning's function; nothing about EHV, but all about Swami, His Teachings, and Hinduism. Swami was presented as an Eastern Messiah. All this happened in a country that was very much opposed to religious activities. It was mind-boggling. I did not know what was happening. The entire prime time news was only about this morning's presentation and covered all that I was advised not to speak about.

Next morning my contact in the government telephoned me. He said something strange is happening here. There was a handwritten ledger on the report that said I must be investigated and this ledger was serially numbered. When he went to that ledger that morning he found that the particular instruction that said I must be investigated was completely missing, but the ledger number continuity was maintained! There was no way that anyone could have torn the paper; only this particular instruction had completely vanished.

And there was more; within a week the Secretary of Education in the country called me and asked me whether I could give a write-up on EHV so that it could be introduced to the country's secondary schools.

More wonders; the Teachers Union, normally a very militant body, invited me to talk to them and they set up a conference which became the focus for introducing EHV at secondary school level in that country. This was the first country outside India to have formally accredited EHV in the secondary school system.

What was happening here? This was not mere materialisation or curing an affliction. This is something that broke barriers. This is something that completely changed the ethos. This is something that created a new order of things. What was Swami trying to convey here? He was only trying to convey that His work will always be done and that His Will will always be supreme. As He said three days ago

"Why does the sun rise; why do the stars hide their splendour in the day and show themselves in the night? Who ordered air to be around us all time; why do these streams roar and gurgle? I created the world with one word at My pleasure; I made mountains rise and with one word I placed knowledge upon mankind."

Sir Arthur Eddington the famous physicist said that the world is a wave of thought. Every law of nature, every action and reaction, every parable and happening that you hear in these forums is a witness to the vital vibration of His Divinity in the gross, subtle and causal cosmos. Swami once wrote,

"I move in the outer space. From those lofty heights I go to the devotee, first as thought, then as fragrance and then as light."

Sai experience is a combination of that light, of that thought and of that fragrance. You have seen here the world come to Swami - I have seen Swami go to the rest of the world. At a UN conference at Osaka , Japan two years ago, I saw 10,000 delegates give a standing ovation to a group of Japanese children performing a ballet on the values of Sathya, Dharma, Shanti and Prema. In probably the most popular square in Spain every Sunday devotees sing songs of peace and harmony watched by residents and visitors.

During a skiing holiday in the Austrian Alps my wife and I attended a Bhajan session at a little hamlet of 200 people, in the middle of nowhere where 20 Austrians who had never stepped out of Europe performed Bhajans and held a workshop. When out of deference to them my wife chose to sing a German song the leader said "No, in Sanskrit please". In the forests of West Africa , I have seen native tribes commence their daily meeting singing the song " Ore Baba, OseBaba".

And at a Sai retreat that I attended a few years ago in Argentina at the time of the Kosovo crisis one young adult asked a question, "If Sai Baba is raising human consciousness why are the children of Kosovo being murdered?" Pat came the answer from another young adult, "When Hitler's hordes roamed through Germany the world kept quiet; they did not even shed a silent tear. But when the children in Kosovo were being murdered the world roared back." That is how Sai Baba is elevating human consciousness - slowly and imperceptibly the world is turning into a golden age.

Swami told Howard Murphet that the golden age was coming. Howard Murphet then asked what work would Prema Sai do? Sai said "He will have plenty of work. Prema Sai will elevate human consciousness to Divine heights. Not only will there be a lot of work but He will also need a lot of help."

What kind of help, wondered Howard Murphet; then he remembered the story of how in a time of great flooding a man stood on top of his roof to escape the waters. When the water was rising higher the man prayed to God to save him. Soon a man came in a boat and asked him to get in. The man said "No, I have prayed to God and He will come and help me." Soon the waters rose nearly to his feet. Then another man came in a helicopter and dropped a rope. The man said "No, I will not come with you; I have prayed to God and He will help me." The laws of nature soon took their course and the man drowned. He went to heaven and asked God why He did not help him in his time of need. God said "I sent you a man with a boat and later, when you refused him another man with a helicopter…but you did not accept that help." The man understood; God is in everybody and He needs a million hands to help Him.

In establishing this, Swami has been saying that His Life is His message. He has been living that message particularly in the last 15 months. Ever since the drama of His fall He has been living one particular message - that He is not the body. Over 2000 years ago at another time and in another place in distant Jerusalem another cosmic being allowed Himself to bleed on the Cross in order to establish to the children of Israel one facet of reality. Everyday, Swami has been establishing with perfect equipoise the same facet of reality to all of us that 'I am not the body'. The reality that 'I am God'; the reality that Brahma Sathyam Jagat Mithya. It is for us to accept or reject this reality.

It's rather like the search for the Holy Grail. There is a lot of wealth and fame and pain in the so-called materialistic success story that I myself tried to follow 30 years ago. But in the evening of my life, like Percival (a Knight) I have come to the Fisher's King to ask Him; "Where does the Holy Grail lie?" The Grail serves the Grail King who lives in the innermost recesses of the castle. When Percival received this answer his search was over. The Grail King is a symbol of man's inner God.

Knowing this truth, it is glorious to be alive today - not only to be alive but to be aware that God is physically here is a privilege that millions never had! The only gratitude that we can offer for this privilege is to lay down our lives as flowers at His Lotus Feet. Sai Ram.

(Prof Anantharaman worked as the CEO of a Transnational Business conglomerate based in Switzerland, as an adjunct professor in several business schools including the Harvard Business School and is currently a faculty member in the School of Business Management at Puttaparthi)

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Source: Radio Sai E-Magazine, June 2005

www.radiosai.org/Journals/Vol_03/06JUN01/living_divinity.htm

 

I'm always in that sleepy middle, between escape and destination, lost in the transition. Words without translation, I speak those mumbled stutters, the muffled humming of a man who loves alone. I will tell you what it's like, but I won't get it across – the fiery things that bring me 1,700 miles from the land of kilometers. Somewhat more direct by air, hopping from Halifax to Montréal before falling from the sky in Chicago. Here I am halfway or so, daydreaming of destination in the sinking evening. How long has it been? Nearly two years past since I brought the ends together, found the means to match up Illinois and Nova Scotia. Sort of a sighing, sleepy drunk – you know it. When telephone time tires of stretching that tightrope wire, and it finally springs back into shape. I watch the map on the back of the seat in front of me, that tiny avatar airplane drifting westward to my other home. It's a hope I'm always healing from, or heading towards. Susy, my wife, and all the love I've known.

 

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Meet Peter Joynt. Peter was performing at Hintonburg Happening on a Saturday evening. Hintonburg is a very cool community just west of Ottawa's downtown. When I arrived Peter was entertaining the audience with his rhyming, when Peter stopped performing and he spoke to the audience he had a pronounced stutter, in spite of this he was extremely confident and articulate. I took some random shots during Peter's performance but I was really hoping to get a moment with him to try and get his story.

Once Peter's set was over and he was packing away his gear I approached him. Peter was extremely polite and when I told him about the 100 Strangers Project he jumped at the chance to be included.

Peter is a graduate of Carleton University in Ottawa, he graduated with an Arts Degree in Economics. He is employed in the IT industry. In his spare time Peter devotes his time to writing music and making videos, he has worked on projects for a number of organizations including the Ottawa Senators (NHL Hockey Team), local cable TV provider Rogers TV and Ottawa Tourism. As I mentioned earlier Peter is a stutterer when he talks but it disappears when he performs. This has become a distinguishing feature of his persona and the reason he became a motivational speaker. Peter speaks regularly at schools about rapping, stuttering and bullying.

On a lighter note in 2012 Peter won a Toyota Camry Hybrid in Tim Horton's "Roll Up The Rim To Win" Contest. FYI Tim Horton's is an iconic coffee chain in Canada and parts of the US. The odds of winning this top prize were 1 in 7.2 million. Go figure!!

Thank you Peter for agreeing to be a part of my 100 Strangers Project, meeting individuals such as you is what makes this so interesting. Your enthusiasm is infectious and I wish you all the very best. I'm sure our paths will cross in the future.

 

There is more information on Peter at www.thejoynt.ca

 

This is picture #45 of my 100 Strangers Project.

 

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Christopher Vestel bangs on the doors "Medical check-up, line up maggots!" snapping a glove on.

 

Bianca Bender sits up slowly....in no big hurry...she's been here long enough.....what's a few more minutes.....looks through the bars and shows a glimmer of recognition.

 

Christopher Vestel snaps his fingers at her "To the bars prisoner, if you want to be released in good health"

 

Bianca Bender raises an eyebrow and goes to stand....momentarily forgetting about her leg...and ends up half falling to her left side as the GSW on the back of her thigh causes her leg to give out.

 

Bianca Bender cringes but stands....leaning against the end of the bunk beds for support and takes a stuttering step almost falling against the bars in front of the solider.

 

Christopher Vestel looks at her "Prisoner, I am entering the cell, don't even get an idea your going to touch my piece" referring to pistol mostly

 

Bianca Bender curls her lip...and glares through the wire holding herself up while her leg gets some feeling back into it..

 

Christopher Vestel points to the ground "Sit prisoner..."

 

Bianca Bender growls...'"make up your fucking mind...." turns around and lets herself fall into a sit on the floor flinching and her face paling as the wound on her thigh screams in pain.

 

Christopher Vestel smirks, looking at her..."Best way to know how pain your in, is see you perform a simple act of movement, Bianca"

 

Christopher Vestel kneels down near her, removing a small supplies of gauze, medical tape, and septics, looking at her repeatedly, making sure she doesn't reach for the firearm....

 

Bianca Bender sneers..."Well pretty boy let me gash the back of your thigh a quarter inch deep and have you sit your handsome ass down here with me." growls low mumbling..."and I felt sorry for your damn offspring last night..."

 

Christopher Vestel looks to her, not liking that comment, he removes the stim injector from his belt "Do you want to go to sleep, or stay awake, cause this sedative will put your fuzzy ass out"

 

Bianca Bender rolls her eyes, "Pretty boy scared of some simple words...." curls her lip, "I've got a gash in the back of my thigh and a gash in my left arm as well....I think I'll just sit here and look pretty.....I want to go home."

 

Christopher Vestel nods, he takes some quick clot foam packets out "I don't have my big kit with me today, but I will patch the holes up until you get back to your Den.." he rips open a packet, dumping it into a gauze square.

 

Bianca Bender looks up and reaching for the sleeve of the crap shirt she's wearing easily tears the sleeve away revealing an angry looking gash on her L arm...smiles..."Tell me when you're ready and I'll stand up and you can get a good look at my ass....kiss it while your back there if you'd like...." bats her eyes up at him.

Christopher Vestel reaches over the neko, with the Quick clot in hand, he pushes it into the wound, about a whole inch deep into the wound, listening to her comments "I've seen your ass before, Neko"

 

Bianca Bender snorts but hisses in a breath when the quick clot hits the soar...she'd endure his shit long as he gets her out of here in relatively one piece....looks at him..."Oh really...do tell the moment you laid eyes on my fine piece of ass? I don't seem to remember that...you must not be worth remembering." attempts to stand from her seated position having to pull up on the grating of the cell door do to so faces the door and waits for the "order" from him.

 

Christopher Vestel waves for her to stand up "Turn around" he orders "The reason you couldn't remember me, was because I was on a roof, looking at your ass through my sniper scope"

 

Bianca Bender snorts..."So you're a pervy peeping tom? Don't they teach you how to shoot w/ that extension of your cock..." drops her pants as she says the last word....the gash on the back of her left leg has started to bleed again from sitting on the floor....the scab that was forming breaking open...she clenches her free hand around the bars as the rough cloth brushes against the wound...gritting her teeth..."Take a good look....next time will cost you." prays he hurries...she's on the edge...not sure how long she can keep up her facade.

 

Christopher Vestel takes a can from his pack, he puts a nozzle on it..."I was going to kill anyone of you, if you harmed my child" he injects the nozzle deep into her GSW, thinking of the killing spree he would go on if someone harmed his Jay Jay.

 

Bianca Bender hisses as the nozzle goes into her wound...."He's a brat....you let him run around like a damn ape...shit father..." had had no intention of harming the boy....he seemed a good kid...white knuckles both hands on the jail cell bars to keep from collapsing...fuck if she put people through half this pain when she worked on them.....bites her lip hard.

 

Christopher Vestel finishes, giving her ass a slap "Then you babysit him, cause he keeps sneaking out of the bunker" he packs up his medical gear. Standing up, obviously towering over Bianca.

 

Bianca Bender grips tighter with her right hand as the left is a little weak from the GSW and pulls the bottoms back up her head wanting to drop....but she straightens her spine a fracture more..."Maybe if his father wasn't a shit head...he'd stick around...or if his father's friends weren't a bunch of pedophiles...." turns and stares at the man if he looks close he can see the pain and the hope at having him be the one to show up finally but her body language is pure defiance..."Can I leave now that you're done lookin your fill and gettin your jollys off?"

 

Christopher Vestel says "A shit head huh? Hmmm, maybe I should leave you in here, when the morning crew comes in, ask Miss Kat about that"

 

Christopher Vestel grabs her cuffs, he lifts them up high enough for him to see the keyhole, he unlocks the, throwing them to the bed.

 

Bianca Bender almost collapses but locks her knees...and winces when it shoots up her thigh...taking a deep breath...not flinching back when he grabs the cuffs or back away from him when he comes close enough to unlock them but whispers softly...he may pick it up or not.."thank you."

 

Christopher Vestel sighs at her saying that, knowing helping her, can get him landed in this cell, again.

 

Christopher Vestel grabs her arm and tries to pull her out of the cell to the out processing door.

 

Lazarus Lowenstark walks away from the counter guffawing at some ignorant joke or another he was sharing with the guards. He struts down like he owns the place, and gets closer to Bianca's cell, "BEEEYANCA!" He shouts with a Brooklyn Drawl, "Get yer ASS up. Daddy had to Bail your ASS out and it cost me a pretty Frikkin' penny - and Guess who's ASS that's comin' out of?"

Ah, the mammy, now there’s a place to start, he thought, but he hadn’t thought of her as ‘the mammy’ for years. She had been that f*cking c*nt-sow (Note. 1) for over 50 years. There’s a hill to climb, he thought, to be sure, to be sure. He didn’t talk in that mock-Irish way either, that was an affectation, an attempt to get back there, back to the point where that sorry sow was loved, and a time when he did talk like that, or tried to through his epiglottal stutter, and black first-teeth. Time, art, pretence, and disease had intervened. He recognised the monster he had become, but his excuse, to that point anyway, was that this was the only way he knew how to survive. He loved her in this image, he understood what had happened to her, her relentless choicelessness. This was a start at least.

 

He had survived in a queer sort of way, a running-away way. He had generated a life of leaving, of making an escape. He recognised this as a ‘classic’, or at least a classic story as far as his nation's gene-pool was concerned. It manifested a coping mechanism, something generations before him had honed into an over-arching description of themselves, a wistful, somewhat lyrical, travelling waterfowl. He had become, as if by instinct, one of those fabled ‘Wild Geese’. He liked the romance of that description, those coasting birds. There was that mythological cadence, that Barry Lyndon meets John McGahern of it all, those camaraderie-generating Irish bars and ‘come-all-ye’, wistful ballads about 40 shades of verdure and the sorely missed mammy, alone and pining over the wild Atlantic, or Irish, sea. Throw in Colm Wilkinson singing ‘Bring Him Home’ and you might be attaining towards a sort of gloriously mawkish, yet heart-rending, perfect storm. It would take 50 years before he could tell her that ‘home’ was, and always had been, the least safe place in the world for him.

 

Note 1: f*cking c*nt-sow: He had decided to veer towards subtlety, not to offend, to somehow make his hatred palatable, or to asterisk it to just within the bounds of decency. This was the best he could do for now, and the hope was, that with time and writing, this description would become obsolete anyway. He saw it as the beginnings of forgiveness, while recognising that the asterisks were a necessary, though transparent, cover-all. It was to be hoped that eventually a dawning softness might completely vanquish the need for this bitter descriptor.

 

But as it happened, nowhere turned out to be safe. There was no haven, in the same way that there was no heaven. He had successfully scorch-earthed London, New York, Paris, Helsinki, Stockholm, Chicago and a few other minor megapolises such as Galveston, centres of thriving settlers, places where he failed to generate the wherewithal to nurture that life-supporting instinct, and places that never even noticed his ‘scorched-earthing’ of them. These were, in essence, just ‘own goals’, self-damaging and nothing else. When it came to fight or flight there only seemed to be one option. Flight it was then. The nuns and priests had us by the maw, there was no getting away from it. But now, at least, he knew that this wasn’t the mammy’s fault, not at all, at all.

 

MAW

noun.

1. The mouth, stomach, jaws, or gullet of a voracious animal, especially a carnivore.

2. The opening into something felt to be insatiable: "I saw the opening maw of hell" (Herman Melville).

 

Some, obviously, managed it better, being born into it, and having that, perhaps inherited, temperament to survive and thrive with it. Some didn’t. It was the sort of generational abuse, seemingly eons of it, that might as easily cause you to sing as not. Some geese do sing, the best, perhaps with a trepone-mad Triestino gusto, even. The rest of us muddle along, squawking it out, flapping furiously, cutting that V formation through the sky-blue over that Joycean “snot-green”, searching for a landing-strip, Brazilian or otherwise, one that might temporarily offer some respite, some succour, in a ‘Girl from Treponema’ sort of way. The country didn’t really matter, all that mattered was the flight itself. But this was many years before they came up with that fancy word for us, that Celtic-Tiger attempt to re-embrace us, to re-teat us, to somehow makes us palatable. You were no longer the ‘Wild Geese’. You were ‘The Diaspora’, that not so blooming wandering Jew.

 

But back to that sad, lost, and sorry, abused sow.

 

He knew he was filling his head full of ideas through books, mainly books he had read before, adding back ideas he had forgotten, and would forget again if he didn’t write them down. He guessed that the idea was to follow a sort of meat-grinder progression, to tamp stuff in, hoping it might dislodge, and push out, the stuff that had become stuck, that stuff that had been forgotten or mis-remembered, either intentionally, or in that rush to survive. He knew there was meat there, he was beginning to see it already.

  

The sow, the sow, the sow, and why not the sow? He had described himself as a pig for decades, that noble beast had become his shameless badge of honour, equal to everything, and everyone else, two-footed, four-footed, on all-fours head in the trough with his rump, on offer, in the air shooting the breeze, or footless, even. He had been all of these at some stage or other. She, the mammy, didn’t get to eat him after all, but sometimes it seemed like a very close thing. Chronos would never have allowed that, he said never, but also recognised that this was debatable. Eating children was time’s purlieu, that border, that severing of the new forest from the old, and it might take Maupassant’s ‘Savage Mother’ to manage to circumnavigate that domain, with a little help. The mammy wasn’t savage, not wild enough by half, she was desperate and hurt, lost and parentless, uncontrollable, but never wantonly savage enough to set about intentionally eating her farrow. Maupassant embraced his savagery with that afore-mentioned little help, a certain spirochete driver having traversed his blood-brain barrier, to describe itself in all its glory, before discarding the vehicle that the writer was. He knew that his story was a description of those drivers, those multitudinous trillions, described, recognised, and named, and those we knew nothing about, those that hadn’t been yet named, and would probably never be. He knew that it was to be about that awesome all-consuming power of nature itself, and those who are driven to describe it, and those named or un-named ferocious drivers.

 

“Soon mercury will be my staple diet. My hair is beginning to grow again . . . the hair on my arse is sprouting. . . . I’ve got the pox! at last! the real thing! not the contemptible clap, not the ecclesiastical crystalline, not the bourgeois coxcombs or the leguminous cauliflowers—no—no, the great pox, the one which (King) Francis I died of. The majestic pox, pure and simple; the elegant syphilis . . . I’ve got the pox . . . and I am proud of it, by thunder, and to hell with the bourgeoisie. Allelujah, I’ve got the pox, so I don’t have to worry about catching it anymore, and I screw the street whores and trollops, and afterwards I say to them ‘I’ve got the pox.’ They are afraid and I just laugh.”

 

--Guy de Maupassant

 

It was a toss-up as to which would go first, in that loosened hail of bullets in his grey matter. It would be definitely one of two, he thought, either the priests or the nuns, this was sure. They would be first to go. This was certain in his head, in that blistering cacophony up there north of his gullet, perhaps the only thing that seemed carved in stone. It sat there like a ‘truth’, similar to those ten written down on that tablet, brought down from that holy mountain. There were miraculously few of those truths, but this was most assuredly one. He had quietened his howling voice-box, mostly by removing himself, but whoever that driver was, whether it was himself or something else entirely, it, or he, or she even, continued to chatter. Sometimes he wondered was it the disease itself or was it one of the by-products of the cure, those schizophrenia-inducing magic bullets, or whether these were both just stories he told himself to justify his outrages. It spoke mostly in the mornings, that waking-up period when dreams become confused with the past in a “did that really happen?” sort of way. It was becoming that now, all part of the aging process, he presumed. There was really no knowing what happened, or what was remembered as having happened, and what was dreamt. He thought to himself, that this must happen to everyone eventually, though he also thought that he could always be wrong about that too. There was consistently that

nagging voice, which might, or might not, be him. It was the only thing he could be sure of, that ‘ever-presence’, rather than what it might be telling him.

 

He was glad that he had kept a record, images and texts, emails, and immediate messages, over the years. He knew these might provide a groping way back. It was all ‘fiction’ anyway, stories he had told others, and stories he had allowed them to tell him, mutual self-justifications which, over time, generated patterns called relationships. He hoped that in the telling he might encourage them, or others, to tell their stories, even if these fables were completely mutually contradictory.

 

He had this vague idea that the sum of these stories, those we tell ourselves and others, describes our time, and that ownership is, perhaps, a moot point. We all tell the same story differently; it is impossible not to. But he would take it one step further and say we are all driven to tell the same story, even. It was those drivers he wanted to learn to know, identify, expose, and even celebrate.

 

Enter the driver, and it’s easy to say who or what the driver is. To put it simply it’s everything/non-thing and everyone else, the veritable soup itself. This, of course, leads back to that idea of universal innocence, that there is no blame to be apportioned, so that even the nuns and priests in his head must be forgiven, even the mammy who ‘pimped’ him, bartered him for sex, as a child has to be forgiven.

 

He had decided to start, but then realised he had already been at it for most of his sorry, and enjoyably sordid, life. He could remember some of it, but had forgotten most; those drugs, both life-saving and recreational, what could he say? At the same time, he also realised that he was just going to have to make it up, as he went along, in whatever time there was left. He had made extensive notes, and copious images, along the way. However, he wasn't at all sure where he had put them. He knew they were all on his voluminous external hard drives, but they would have to be retrieved and somewhat put in order, at least in such a way so that they might be fashioned into a story.

 

Sequester is a lovely word.

 

He thought, perhaps, that one of his drivers might be able to help. There was always that possibility, always that hope. He could already identify a few of those, and he was sure that more, with the welcomed unravelling, would emerge.

 

He was beyond ready to fully entertain forgetting, and to allow his memory to be something outside of him, sequestered on that steel-grey, blinking, external solid-state device. He was almost ready to begin.

 

He knew in his heart of hearts that all roads would eventually lead to ‘Rack and Ruin’.

 

You are dropped into life like you are being dropped onto an uncharted battlefield. It just happens, no time to prepare, no strategies to plan, no protective clothing or weapons, just a naked screaming you, ushered, even forced, through someone else’s protestations, into life.

 

That’s if you’re very lucky.

 

You are vaguely aware you are causing trauma even before your descent begins, you hear the noises around you echoed in the beating of your own heart. You hear the groans and screams and rallying cries from unfamiliar voices, all speaking a language utterly foreign to you.

 

You have to start somewhere, so you start with a ripping. You are both ripped out of, and you are the ripper, rending your way towards life or death, or ideally both, you are the traumatised and that bringer of trauma. Again, this would be the ideal situation, the best possible route and outcome, but there can be complications too; that once more unto that breach assault. You aren’t even aware, yet, that you have a tendency towards doing things arse-backwards, and you have no awareness of the outsize of your own head, that bringer of future trauma. You are frighteningly unaware that these red pulsating walls cannot be breached with a backwards ramming. You are unschooled, and no one ever sets out to be an inverted battering ram.

 

You have no idea during this rending, that the host, which is seemingly so violently rejecting you, is an entity called a mother, you are only aware that you are being aggressively sundered from the only safety you have ever known.

 

John: I'm still bouncing between image and extraordinary text.

 

Ruin: and I am still changing words and thinking about what another 'family' member has written to me.

 

His mother was not one for sharing the details of the birth, other than the wholesale and generous brandishing of the ‘miracle’ word around. Apparently, he was born dead, or strangled by the umbilical cord. He was also born at home, 20 Walkinstown Drive, in his parents’ bed. Then she told him that he was a ‘blue baby’, He didn’t even know if she knew what that meant, congenital heart condition and all that, or if he had just turned blue from the choking. Either way, there was no doctor there, just a midwife, and he weighed 10.5 lbs., a big-headed baby apparently. She mentioned breeched once or twice, but he never knew if it was true or not. Maybe a doctor had arrived by then, but he didn’t really know who performed that ‘miracle’, that reviving. So, he might have been breeched, and might have gotten entangled in the umbilical cord in the turning. He knew that this manoeuvre could happen and could result in this type of endangerment. Apparently, his mother was washing the floor, on her hands and knees, just as her waters broke. He was possibly enjoying some inversion at the time.

 

Ruin: I wrote the opening in the second person, for this reason. It’s obviously me, but it doesn’t have to be, the details don’t have to be true, but they might be.

 

I am saying yes to the primal and the universal. That is what I would like to head towards with the opening, and away from the particular. I would like it to resonate as a birth from the big headed, gender free, inverted, baby’s point of view. I will probably re-write as I continue, but I am pleased to have started anyway.

 

John: My Mother's legend was that I was walking and conversing by my first birthday. Many people say I've never shut up since.

 

Ruin: As Rack would always say to my Ruin, rave on John!

The second part is rough and unedited. The pronouns are not definite yet, as to which person it will be written in, but then, nowadays, do the pronouns really have to be defined?

 

Either way, he had attempted to start with something he could not possibly have remembered. He was fictionalizing himself already. This appeared to be the only way forward.

 

Giving Birth To Myself.

 

Laying that Egg, and, perhaps, taking 'Subtle (or Covert) Narcissism' to a new level.

 

Jersey Rugby Football Club is a rugby club based in Jersey that competes at the RFU Championship. In the 2009–10 season JRFC won their play-off at Twickenham and also in the 2012–13 beat their greatest rivals Guernsey to win the Siam Cup for the fifth consecutive year. Jersey gained promotion by winning National League One and are now in RFU Championship.

The team was known as Jersey R.F.C. until the start of the 2016–17 season, when they changed their name to the Jersey Reds.

Rugby has been played in Jersey since 1879 with breaks for war and the Nazi occupation but the modern era started when the club acquired the land for a permanent home in Saint Peter near Jersey Airport in 1961; the original wooden clubhouse was built in 1964, its approximate location was in the middle of the Jersey Bowl carpark. From the early 1970s, when tourism in the island was at its peak, Jersey attracted many of rugby's top clubs who could combine a break from their regular fixtures with a game against the JRFC.

This period culminated with a very successful Centenary year in 1979, teams with international players came over to play and help celebrate this event – JPR Williams being one of the most famous! This decade left the club with an unequalled collection of plaques and memorabelia; teams coming from the UK, Ireland, South Africa, Australia (the beachguard connection) and the Netherlands.

Jersey vs. Barking at St. Peter, 5 November 2011.

The current clubhouse was opened in September 1994 and corresponded approximately with the start of the leagues; by then Jersey could not rely on random visiting sides and had to join the league in Hampshire.

In the summer of 2010 the new Lord Jersey Stand was built between the 1st XV pitch and the Airport Road and the Pavilion, with kitchen and bar, to the east of the main club facilities. This was to provide amenities for the increasing number of spectators due to the further success of the 1st XV.

The last few years have seen the first team work its way up the National Leagues, winning the overall National League 3 in 2010 and progressing to National League 2 South. Most recently in 2011, Jersey were promoted to National League 1 through a play-off game at home to Loughborough Students. The clubs kit is red with black shorts and socks and the away shirts are blue with black shorts and socks.

During their first season in National League 1 Jersey suffered a narrow defeat in their first game against Fylde and also lost their first home game in two and a half years against Ealing. They were also docked 5 points for fielding too many foreign players in their defeat to Cinderford. Despite these setbacks Jersey bounced back winning 11 games in a row and ended 2011 second in the National League 1 table, only 1 point behind Ealing. In their first game of 2012 they beat top of the table Ealing 24–16, making promotion a very real possibility. This run continued with wins against Rosslyn Park, Cinderford, Wharfedale and Stourbridge giving them 19 wins in a row but stuttered against Barking but since have won all their remaining games, most notably an away win against Coventry in which over 400 Jersey fans went to Coventry, to win promotion to the Championship.

In July 2012, it was reported that the States of Jersey Economic Development Department would sponsor the club for one year at a cost of £75,000.[

 

les U12 de l'EDR du XV Corsaire accueillent leurs homologues de Jersey.

RV dès 13h pour le début des rencontres. Come on Jersey !!

 

L'école de rugby du CJF Saint-Malo Rugby est labellisée par la FFR

Donner le label FFR à une école, c’est reconnaître :

- qu’elle met tout en œuvre pour être autant une école de la Vie qu’une école de Rugby

- qu’elle s’inscrit dans un processus permanent d’amélioration de la Qualité des contenus et des pratiques.

Le label n’est pas un but. Il est une étape importante, le constat que, à un moment donné, l’école de Rugby concernée répond bien aux objectifs qui lui sont normalement fixés par sa mission.

 

L'école de rugby de Le Rheu a été parmi les premières à être labellisées FFR en 2006, renouvelée en 2014, garantissant ainsi la qualité de l'accueil, de la formation, du développement et de la communication.

Le SC LE RHEU RUGBY depuis bientôt 50 ans ne cesse d’œuvrer pour mettre en lumière son sport et sa commune en s’appuyant avec beaucoup de conviction sur les valeurs qui lui sont reconnues : le respect des autres, l’esprit d’équipe, la solidarité, la loyauté, le dépassement de soi, la convivialité. Son développement rapide associé aux résultats sportifs obtenus, des plus jeunes aux plus aux plus âgés, l’ont rapidement positionné comme l’un des tout meilleurs clubs Bretons.

Club école de rugby depuis 1972, le SC le Rheu rugby représente :

9 titres de champion de Bretagne « Honneur » - 27saisons en Fédérale 3 depuis 1981 - ½ finaliste du championnat de France 2ème série en 1980 - 16 titres de champion de Bretagne chez les jeunes.

Le point d’honneur de la saison depuis 1999 est le challenge André LEBAS réunissant plus de 1500 jeunes du Grand Ouest.

Le Sporting Club (2300 licenciés) créé en 1965 et composé de 19 sections sportives : football (1928), basket-ball, gymnastique volontaire, pétanque, billard français, haltérophilie, musculation, rugby à XV (Sporting club Le Rheu rugby), cyclotourisme, jogging, course, sports loisirs, judo, karaté, aïkido, tennis, golf, kart cross, volley-ball.