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"O pragnieniu moim odnawiającym się jak księżyc"
(Eng. Of My Desire Renewing Itself Like the Moon)
self-portrait
(May 30, 2017)
Battiest, Oklahoma, U.S.
inspired by the poetry of H. Poświatowska
English translation by Marek Lugowski
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nie wiem co kocham bardziej
ciebie czy tęsknotę za tobą
czy pocałunki czy pragnienie pocałunków
pewne zaspokojenia
myślałam że już nigdy nie będę pisać wierszy
a teraz serce moje wezbrało miłością jak rzeka
i wystąpiło z brzegów-- jak rzeka
i bystry potok porywa słowa
unosi słowa
i wszystkie mówią o mojej miłości
o mojej tęsknocie
o pragnieniu moim odnawiającym się jak księżyc
gasnącym w słońcu twojego spojrzenia
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I don't know what I love more
you or the longing after you
the kisses or the desire of kisses
certain gratifications
I thought that I would never again write poems
and now my body has swelled up like a river
and stepped out of its banks -- like a river
and a quick stream snatches away the words
carries off the words
and they all speak of my love
of my longing
of my desire renewing itself like the moon
dimming in the sun of your glance
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Nie wiem, co kocham bardziej
(Eng. I don't know what I love more)
self-portrait
(May 13, 2013)
inspired by poetry by H. Poświatowska
Polish text Copyright 1989 Wydawnictwo Literackie, Kraków, Poland
Halina Poświatowska, Polish, d. 11 oct 1967.
translation by Marek Lugowski, marek@enteract.com
twice22.org/HalinaFAQ/
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nie wiem co kocham bardziej
ciebie czy tęsknotę za tobą
czy pocałunki czy pragnienie pocałunków
pewne zaspokojenia
myślałam że już nigdy nie będę pisać wierszy
a teraz serce moje wezbrało miłością jak rzeka
i wystąpiło z brzegów-- jak rzeka
i bystry potok porywa słowa
unosi słowa
i wszystkie mówią o mojej miłości
o mojej tęsknocie
o pragnieniu moim odnawiającym się jak księżyc
gasnącym w słońcu twojego spojrzenia
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I don't know what I love more
you or the longing after you
the kisses or the desire of kisses
certain gratifications
I thought that I would never again write poems
and now my heart has swelled up like a river
and stepped out of its banks -- like a river
and a quick stream snatches away the words
carries off the words
and they all speak of my love
of my longing
of my desire renewing itself like the moon
dimming in the sun of your glance
---
My artwork may not be reproduced, copied, edited, published, transmitted or uploaded in any way without my written permission.
My photographs do not belong to the public domain.
© All rights reserved
Polaroid peel apart blue film, Hasselblad 501c/m camera. Tettegouche state park, Minnesota, June 2018
vintage polaroid SX-70 camera modified to shoot 600 series film. impossible project duochrome red film. scan: epson V750. exif tags: lenstagger.
vintage polaroid SX-70 camera electronically modified to shoot 600 series film, impossible project B&W generation 2.0 beta test film. scan: epson V750. exif tags: filmtagger.
iconic scenes along old route 66 between hackberry and truxton in western arizona.
vintage polaroid SX-70 camera electronically modified to shoot 600 series film, impossible project B&W generation 2.0 beta test film. scan: epson V750. exif tags: filmtagger.
Of late, must be flowers-crazy, caught a lot of macro shot of all types of flowers. New species is indeed instant happiness and gratification.
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The most fun sighting was of this wolf puppy out on his own. After awhile he got lonesome for the rest of the pack and sat down and began to howl. While we didn't see the other wolves we could hear the answer.
The puppy heard the answer as well and ran off in the direction of the answer in a sprint.
It's one of a few times I've gotten to hear wolves howl and each time brings a great deal of excitement/wonder/gratification/or some other positive adjective.
Of course the size of those paws gives away his status as a pup.
vintage polaroid SX-70 camera electronically modified to shoot 600 series film, impossible project B&W generation 2.0 beta test film. scan: epson V750. exif tags: filmtagger.
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Biography
Brian Hugh Warner (born January 5, 1969), better known by his stage name Marilyn Manson, is a professional musician. He is the lead singer of the industrial metal band that bears the same name. His stage name is formed from the names Marilyn Monroe and Charles Manson.
Brian Hugh Warner was born on January 5th 1969 in Canton, Ohio. He attended Heritage Christian School. After transferring to and later graduating from Canton's GlenOak High School, Warner moved to Fort Lauderdale, Florida with his family. While living in Fort Lauderdale, he studied journalism and theater at Broward Community College, and became the assistant entertainment editor of BCC's student newspaper, the Observer.
Romance
Warner's first serious relationship was with Melissa "Missi" Romero. As explained in his autobiography, during the production of "Antichrist Superstar," Missi became pregnant with Warner's child, but had an abortion during her second trimester. He has also been linked to Traci Lords and Jenna Jameson. Jameson wrote about her sexual encounter with Manson in her autobiography, How to Make Love Like a Porn Star: A Cautionary Tale in which she noted him as being "massively endowed". Manson was engaged to Rose McGowan, but their relationship ended around the time he became involved with burlesque dancer and fetish model model Dita Von Teese. Manson photographed Von Teese for the December 2002 issue of Playboy. Manson and Von Teese wed in December 2005 in the Irish home of friend Gottfried Helnwein. Von Teese filed for divorce as of December 2006. The divorce came through in January 2007. In April of 2007, Marilyn Manson's girlfriend, Evan Rachel Wood, admitted that they were actually a couple.
Marriage
Manson and Dita Von Teese started dating on Manson's 32nd birthday, and Manson proposed three years later on March 22, 2004. On December 3, 2005 (court documents say November 28), the couple was married in a non-denominational ceremony at Gurteen Castle in Kilsheelan, County Tipperary, Ireland, the home of Gottfried Helnwein. The wedding was officiated by surrealist film director and comic book writer Alejandro Jodorowsky. Dita Von Teese wore a royal purple silk taffeta gown by Vivienne Westwood, complete with train and petticoats worn over a Mr. Pearl couture corset, topped off by a tricorne hat by Stephen Jones, while Manson wore a John Galliano black silk taffeta tuxedo with velvet trim and a hat also crafted by Stephen Jones. They reportedly exchanged vows in front of approximately 60 guests, including burlesque dancer Catherine Delish, Lisa Marie Presley, Eric Szmanda, David Lynch, Jessicka and Christian Hejnal, and Sharon and Ozzy Osbourne. Vogue magazine ran a multiple-page feature on the wedding in its February 2006 issue. Just before his own wedding, Manson criticized Britney Spears' wedding to Kevin Federline, in which they celebrated by wearing personalized tracksuits: "If you're going to do something like getting married, it should have a sense of celebration to it. It should be grand and not in tracksuits!"
As of January 30, 2007 Manson and Dita Von Teese reportedly split after her filing for divorce due to "irreconcilable differences" according to Von Teese. ET.com along with People Magazine has claimed that Manson was having an extramarital affair with actress Evan Rachel Wood, which may or may not be the true cause of the split. Manson's alcohol abuse and distant behaviour have also been cited as cause for the split. It has also been claimed that Manson was not aware of Von Teese's filing for divorce and moving out of their home at the time that the story was published, conceivably due to his reported stay in Paris, France. Von Teese reportedly took their two cats and two dachshunds, Greta and Eva, with her when she left. Manson fought for custody of the two cats, but only received one of them.
Evan Rachel Wood attended the grand opening of Manson's new Celebritarian Corporation Gallery of Fine Art and among the most notable artworks were two portraits of Evan. She will also co-star in his upcoming horror film Phantasmagoria: The Visions of Lewis Carroll.
In music
Jessicka of the band Jack Off Jill was an early friend of Manson's, her band opened most of his South Florida shows. He not only produced most of the band's early recordings but also played guitar on the song "My Cat" and helped name the band. Manson later wrote the liner notes for the band's album Humid Teenage Mediocrity, a collection of early Jack Off Jill recordings.
In early 1993, after being instructed by his new label, Interscope Records, not to play any local shows, Manson formed Mrs. Scabtree. Mrs. Scabtree was a side project between he and newly hired Jeordie White. Manson played drums, while White (dressed as a black woman) shared vocal duties with then girlfriend Jessicka from Jack Off Jill who wore a blonde wig. Mrs. Scabtree only played two shows in South Florida.
Manson has helped or provided full scores for several major motion pictures, although several of his pieces have been cut, and his name dropped from the credits. Some of his more notable soundtrack score contributions include The Matrix, From Hell and Resident Evil.
Manson appeared as a guest on rapper DMX's album Flesh of My Flesh, Blood of My Blood for the track "The Omen", produced by Swizz Beats, and has performed (with the rest of the band) on stage with Eminem as background music in the song "The Way I Am".
Manson sang vocals on "Break You Down" off of the Washington, DC-based industrial rock band gODHEAD's 2000 Years of Human Error album. This album is distinguished for being the only one released on Manson's vanity label Posthuman Records.
In film and television
Manson made a cameo appearance as a doctor in the Murderdolls' music video "Dead in Hollywood", and also appears in the Nine Inch Nails music video "Starfuckers, Inc.", as well as "Gave Up", and Eminem's "The Way I Am" music video.
His first appearance in a film was in the role of a pornographic actor in David Lynch's Lost Highway, in 1997. He also had a minor role in former love interest Rose McGowan's 1998 film Jawbreaker and a supporting role in 2003's Party Monster, which is based on the events leading up to and the murder of Angel Melendez by the infamous Michael Alig of club kid fame, where Manson portrayed a psychotic drag queen named Christina . Manson made a cameo appearance in The Hire: Beat the Devil, a short film in the BMW films series (starring Clive Owen as the Driver), which featured James Brown as himself, and Gary Oldman as Satan. His most talked-about film cameo was in the Michael Moore political documentary Bowling for Columbine discussing the motivations of the perpetrators and allegations that his music was somehow a factor. He played himself, in animated form, on an episode of the television series Clone High, in which he sang a song about nutrition and the food pyramid. He is featured prominently throughout Not Another Teen Movie, and covered the song "Tainted Love" for its soundtrack.
His music is frequently featured on the show C.S.I.. The character on the show, Greg Sanders, is a big fan of Manson and the actor who plays him, Eric Szmanda, is a personal friend of Manson's.
Manson was featured in the 2004 film The Heart Is Deceitful Above All Things, and was set to appear in Abelcain, directed by Alejandro Jodorowsky, and Living Neon Dreams in 2005, although both of these projects are still unreleased as of 2007. He will also be seen as a bartender in an upcoming vampire movie starring Lucy Liu called Rise and possibly has pending roles in Abelcain, RISE and other projects.
Manson has produced 23 music videos, most of which have gone beyond the scope of a normal performance video and been well received by critics for their imagery and direction. Manson’s three most recent released videos – Personal Jesus, (s)AINT and Heart-Shaped Glasses – were voluntarily funded with his own money (to a sum of $1,500,000) and largely not that of the record company. Manson stated in June 2006 that he saw himself "as more a student of film than of music".
In July 2005, Manson told Rolling Stone that he was shifting his focus from music to filmmaking - "I just don't think the world is worth putting music into right now. I no longer want to make art that other people--particularly record companies--are turning into a product. I just want to make art."
By 2006 Manson was working on his directorial debut, Phantasmagoria: The Visions of Lewis Carroll, but has since put the project off until November 2007 to focus on recording Marilyn Manson's sixth studio album, Eat Me, Drink Me, followed by a world tour. The film is said to feature special effects using a magician rather than computer-generated imagery.
In graphic art
From the beginning Manson has been a recreational painter, the oldest of his surviving pieces dating back to 1995-1996, but it was after his 1998 Grey period that Manson began his career as a watercolour painter. In 1999 he made five-minute concept pieces and sold them to drug dealers with their knowledge that they would accumulate in value over time. Gradually Manson became more drawn to watercolors as an art form in itself, and instead of trading them, kept them and continued to paint at a proficient rate.
This manic creativity resulted in an exhibit for his art, The Golden Age of Grotesque, held at the Los Angeles Contemporary Exhibitions Centre on between September 13 and 14, 2002. The reaction to his paintings was largely positive with one critic comparing them to Egon Schele's pieces and describing them as heartfelt and sincerely painted, and Art in America went as far as to liken them to the works of a " psychiatric patient given materials to use as therapy ". Others however saw less merit in the works stating that the value was in the celebrity.
Two years later almost to the day, during September 14 and 15, 2004, Manson held his second exhibit on the first night in Paris and the second in Berlin, Trismegistus, which was also the title of the center piece of the exhibit – a large three headed Christ painted onto an antique wood panel. Again the reception to the works could be described as mixed but was largely in favour of the artist.
Manson opened his own an art gallery, The Celebritarian Corporation Gallery of Fine Art, on October 31, 2006 in Los Angeles for which his third exhibition (by invitation or appointment only after the opening night) was the inaugural show. From April 2 until April 17, 2007 Manson's recent works were be on show at the Space 39 Modern & Contemporary in Florida.
A coffee table art book is in the works, initially titled The Death of Art. The last given title was Quintif. It will be published by the makers of Flaunt magazine.
40 pieces from this show were ported to the Gallery Brigitte Schenk in Cologne, Germany to be publicly exhibited from June 28 until July 28, 2007. After this they will return to the Space39 Modern & Contemporary Gallery thus leaving Manson's own gallery in Los Angeles temporarily without his own work until 2008.
The price of Manson's works has been a somewhat controversial point for fans and critics alike, with most fans realistically unable to afford the paintings save for fine art editions and lithographs. Manson's prices though are realistic and reasonable considering the long-term value at a time when prices for contemporary art have never been higher.
During his European tour 2007 Manson has exhibited his paintings in Germany, Russia and Switzerland.
In other areas
Manson provided the voice of the alien Edgar in the 2005 first-person shooter video game Area 51, which also featured David Duchovny. Marilyn Manson also appears (as himself) as a playable character in the video game Celebrity Deathmatch. Allegedly, the artist posed nude for photos prior to his rise to fame. The pictures appeared in the March 1999 issue of Honcho.
Professional fallouts
Trent Reznor
One of Manson's high-profile relationships, the defunct friendship with Trent Reznor, has been marked with mutual bitterness and perhaps vendetta. This started in the mid-90s, when Manson was due to make a track that would appear on the soundtrack to David Lynch's Lost Highway, but instead Reznor was the one who wrote a song, "The Perfect Drug", for the film. In 1999, it seemed the two artists had patched their differences, as Manson made an appearance in the video for the Nine Inch Nails song "Starfuckers, Inc."
In 2004, Reznor was asked whether he had plans to do any covers; he sarcastically replied, "I was really hoping to do something unique and pertinent - like do an exact copy of "Personal Jesus" - but it was already taken."
In a 2005 interview, Manson said Reznor's Nothing Records had lost the master recordings of Manson's first three albums. He implied it was Reznor's intention, "Now that Nothing Records doesn't exist, I think there's only one of two people responsible for that. Out of those two people, there's only one that really has an opinion of me that is voiced very often."
Twiggy Ramirez
In May 2002 Twiggy Ramirez left the band, citing differences in perspective on the future of the band. He went on to play bass for A Perfect Circle and Nine Inch Nails. During this time, Manson claimed in interviews that he and Ramirez were still close friends, while Ramirez maintained that he rarely spoke to Manson. In an interview in February of 2006 Twiggy stated he was willing to record an album with Marilyn Manson if the right conditions were met. In Autumn 2006, Manson and Ramirez were photographed together at numerous parties in Los Angeles, in amicable poses.
In January 2008 it was announced that Ramirez had reunited with the band as live bassist for the last leg of the Rape of the World tour as well as co-writer of the band's seventh studio album. In an interview with The Heirophant on January 11, 2008, Manson revealed that the reconciliation with Ramirez was not as abrupt as it initially seemed, and that the two had been occasionally communicating with each other since speaking at the Roosevelt Hotel in Hollywood, California prior to the Winter European leg of the Rape of the World tour.
John 5
John 5's reasons for leaving Marilyn Manson were cited as being mutual, despite the mysterious nature of his sudden firing by Manson's manager in 2004.
John was quoted at the time as saying about the incident, "I don't know. . . I was nothing but nice to him," he continued. "I never screwed up onstage — well not really badly — and I did everything I could to get along with him. Maybe, just maybe, it had something to do with the fact that I don't drink or do drugs, and he's not like that at all. Maybe he held that against me. I don't know. He never said." John 5 was notorious among fans as being drug and alcohol free.
Before the incident, Manson had assaulted John on stage, notably, Manson kicked John in the face during a televised performance, leading to a brief confrontation in front of a packed and roaring audience (available on YouTube). This was during the intro to "The Beautiful People", when played at the Rock AM Ring 2003.
Also, during the tour John maintains that Manson spoke about matters other than business only once, "It was on my birthday, and he turned to me and said, "Happy birthday, faggot" — then walked away."
Despite this, John maintains he respects Manson, citing his skilled production style and his love for the band's music. John was already a fan of the band before joining in 1998. In response to a question regarding the reason for the split with Manson, John 5 was quoted by Vintage Guitar Magazine as saying, "(laughs) At the end of the last tour, I decided I really wanted to do this solo thing and that I had to devote all my time to it. The split with Manson was totally amicable. It wasn't one of those big breakups. We're friends. I wish there was some good dirt, but there's not (laughs)!"
In an interview prior to the January 19, 2008 performance in Orlando, Florida, Marilyn Manson revealed that John 5 would make a guest appearance during the show, stating: "I'll have [John] come on stage and play songs with us this first show. It would practically be the Holy Wood lineup." This guest appearance ultimately did not take place, however.
Madonna Wayne Gacy
Before leaving the band nothing was heard of Madonna Wayne Gacy for over a year. In an exclusive conference conducted by Marilyn Manson in April 2007, he revealed the upcoming album Eat Me, Drink Me was recorded in collaboration between himself and Tim Skold. Essentially this meant Gacy did not partake in the album, but not ruling out the possibility of him performing as live keyboardist on the upcoming tour. Later, Manson revealed that Chris Vrenna (who previously drummed for the band during Ginger Fish's hiatus in 2004) would be performing as live keyboardist on the tour, in Gacy's place.
On August 2, 2007, Gacy filed a lawsuit against Marilyn Manson seeking a back pay of $20 million dollars. Gacy claimed Manson has been using the band's money for personal interests, among which are his collection of Nazi paraphernalia, his drug addictions, his wedding with Dita Von Teese and the production of Phantasmagoria: The Visions of Lewis Carroll.
On December 20, 2007, Manson countersued Gacy. As a reaction to the lawsuit Gacy filed against Manson in August, Manson claims, "keyboardist Stephen Bier did not carry out obligations to take part in master recordings [of Eat Me, Drink Me], concerts [of the Rape of the World tour] and the selling of band merchandise," according to this report which states that Manson is seeking unspecified general and special damages.
Insight
Even though he is known mostly for his music, which some refer to as crude and grotesque, Manson is a very intelligent and insightful man. In interviews he is always well spoken and is calm to the people who challenge him. Most people see his music as delivering the wrong message, but Manson states that his message was to be creative.
Causes
•In 2002, Manson worked with the Make-A-Wish Foundation to make the wish of a boy with a life-threatening disease come true. 16-year-old Andrew Baines from Tennessee had a wish to sing back-up vocals for a "big" band; Manson jumped on the task and took Baines under his wing to make his dream come true. Manson invited Baines to the studio on August 27, 2002, where he let Baines perform backing vocals for the then-upcoming album, The Golden Age of Grotesque. "Yesterday, I spent the afternoon with Andrew, who reminded me the things I create are only made complete by those who enjoy them. I just want to simply say, 'thank you' to Andrew for sharing such an important wish with me," Manson said, according MarilynManson.com.
•In 2005, Manson donated a signed collector's edition mask to Music for Relief to help victims of the 2004's Boxing Day Tsunami; this auction raised $155.
•In January 2006, Manson contributed a hand-painted guitar from the Six-String Masterpieces - The Dimebag Darrell Art Tribute to the Little Kids Rock auction. For every $100 raised by the product, Little Kids Rock would provide one low-income child with an instrument and lessons – Manson's guitar raised $6,250.
•In 2006, Manson became a benefactor of Project Nightlight, an LA area foundation that uses short films, music, and apparel to grab teenagers attention and inspire them to speak out against sexual and physical abuse. Manson afforded Project Nightlight a stand at the opening of his art gallery, and in April 2007 gave the charity a print of his painting Eve of Destruction and a framed collector's edition mask.
Legal history
Marilyn Manson was first arrested in Florida on December 27, 1994 after a concert at Jacksonville's Club 5 for "violating the adult entertainment code." Manson was detained for 16 hours before been released without charge. Bizarrely police believed Manson had performed oral sex on stage with a man (when in fact it was Jack Off Jill vocalist Jessicka wearing a fake penis) and thrown either his or the man's penis into the crowd. On February 5, 2001 in Marino, Italy Manson suffered what is to date his only other post-concert arrest when he was accused of blasphemy having worn the outfit of a cardinal on stage during the song "Valentine's Day". Soon after the detention it was ascertained that Manson had not committed a crime and it appeared the legal troubles were over until the next day when Manson was arrested in Bologne on charges of public indecency relating to a 1999 show where it was alleged Manson had exposed his penis. Manson was released and the charges dropped, notably the arrests came a week after two teenagers brutally murdered an Italian nun which some less reputable sections of the Italian press blamed on Manson's music.
Sexual misconduct
In a civil battery suit, David Diaz, a security officer from a concert in Minneapolis, Minnesota on October 27, 2000, sued for $75,000 in a Minneapolis federal court. After two days deliberation the jury decided that Manson's alleged molestation had been part of the show and that he had not overstepped his boundaries as an artist, ruling in favor of Manson and against Diaz.
Manson was charged with "sexual misconduct" on August 16, 2001 after Joshua Keasler filed a complaint that as he was providing security for a July 30 concert Manson had allegedly spat on his head, wrapped his legs around him and began to gyrate his penis along his neck.
Oakland County prosecutor David Gorcyca said that "It was offensive, crude and rude. This was not something that was orchestrated or choreographed as part of the act. The security guard was an unknowing and unwilling participant and, ironically, while he was there for protection... was sexually assaulted." The charge, punishable with up to two years imprisonment, was accompanied with a charge of disorderly conduct. The complaint came with an arrest warrant but Manson thwarted this by posting a $25,000 personal bond. In a one-day December 28, 2001 trial the presiding Judge dismissed the charge of "sexual misconduct" as Manson had in his view "gained no sexual gratification from the act." Manson pleaded "no contest" to the outstanding lesser charge, which carried only up to three months imprisonment, and was ordered to pay $4,000 in fines. After the trial Keasler pursued a civil lawsuit against Manson that was dropped when the two settled out of court in February 2004.
Lawsuits
•In 1997, former Marilyn Manson guitarist Scott Mitchell Putesky filed a lawsuit against Manson seeking unpaid royalties for his contributions to the band's output up to that period, including the band's recently released second studio album Antichrist Superstar. The case was concluded in 1998, although the outcome was confidential.
•On January 4, 1999, SPIN editor Craig Marks filed an assault and battery lawsuit against Manson in the New York Supreme Court. Marks alleged that Manson, upset at not making the cover of SPIN, the lawsuit specifically alleged Manson had yelled "I can kill you, I can kill your family, I can kill everyone you know!" before two of Manson's bodyguards were said to have charged him and held him against the wall and threw him to the floor after which it was alleged Manson had said, "That's what you get when you disrespect me." The case was dropped when, weeks later, Marks was fired from SPIN over financial irregularities.
•On April 2, 2002, Maria St. John filed a wrongful death lawsuit in Los Angeles Superior Court accusing Manson of providing her adult daughter, Jennifer Syme, with cocaine and allowing her to drive while under the influence. The case was settled out of court.
•On August 2, 2007, former Marilyn Manson keyboardist Stephen Bier filed a breech of contract lawsuit against Marilyn Manson seeking $20,000,000 in damages. Bier claimed Manson has used the band's money for personal interests, among which are his collection of Nazi paraphernalia, addictions to cocaine and Valium, his $300,000 wedding with and $150,000 engagement ring given to Dita Von Teese and the production of Phantasmagoria: The Visions of Lewis Carroll as well as Lewis Carroll memorabilia, human skeletons and taxidermy. Manson's lawyers responded in January 2008 with a 101-page rebuttal of the claims, the case will be tried by jury in November 2008 in the Los Angeles Superior Court.
Major label discography
•Portrait of an American Family (1994)
•Smells Like Children (1995)
•Antichrist Superstar (1996)
•Remix and Repent (1997)
•Mechanical Animals (1998)
•The Last Tour on Earth (Live) (1999)
•Holy Wood (In the Shadow of the Valley of Death) (2000)
•The Golden Age of Grotesque (2003)
•Lest We Forget (The Best Of) (2004)
•Eat Me, Drink Me (2007)
Filmography
•Lost Highway (cameo, 1997)
•MTV Video Music Awards (commercial, 1998)
•Jawbreaker (cameo, 1999)
•Clone High (cameo, 2000)
•From Hell (score, 2001)
•Not Another Teen Movie (score, 2001)
•Resident Evil (score, 2002)
•Bowling for Columbine (interview, 2002)
•The Hire: Beat the Devil (cameo, 2003)
•Party Monster (2003)
•Doppelherz (director, 2003)
•The Heart Is Deceitful Above All Things (cameo, 2004)
•House of Wax (2005) (acting, score)
•Abelcain (2007)
•Living Neon Dreams (2007)
•Rise (cameo, 2007)
•Phantasmagoria: The Visions of Lewis Carroll (acting, directing, writing, score, 2008)
Bibliography
•The Long Hard Road out of Hell (1998)
•Holy Wood (Unreleased)
Trivia
•All Manson's tattoos were done at Tattoos By Lou in Miami, Florida over a four-year span starting in 1991, until a new tattoo emerged in early-2007.
•In the 1990s, an Internet rumor spread stating Josh Saviano (who played Paul Pfeiffer in 1980s drama The Wonder Years) grew up to become Marilyn Manson. As of 2007, Josh Saviano is a licensed attorney in New York. He has, however, commented on the rumor, and thinks it is neat people believe him to be in a "goth band".
•Contrary to what some may deem "common knowledge", Manson has not had any ribs removed for the purpose of autofellatio. "If I really got my ribs removed," he said in the The Long Hard Road out of Hell autobiography, "I would have been busy sucking my own dick on The Wonder Years instead of chasing Winnie Cooper."
•In an E! interview, Manson revealed that he owns a Nintendo DS. "My friend got me this little Japanese lawyer game; it's fucking amazing," he said in reference to Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney. He also mentioned that he was "pretty good at Mario Kart".
•In an interview with MTV in 2002 Manson revealed that for most of his paintings he uses a children's Alice in Wonderland tin. He also uses a 1920's mortician paint kit originally used for retouching cadavers.
•Manson has Wolff-Parkinson-White syndrome, an erratic, rapid heartbeat.
•Manson, who cites David Bowie as being his biggest influence, claims his favorite songs by him are "Quicksand", "Ashes to Ashes", and "We Are the Dead". He even proposed to his ex-wife, Dita Von Teese, during a David Bowie concert (at the time Bowie was performing "Be My Wife") .
•Pets Manson has had in his life include the childhood dog, an Alaskan malamute named Aleusha, an orange tabby named O.J. which he found on the steps of Christian school, four Devon Rex cats named Aleister, Edgar, Herman, and Lily, and two dachshunds named Greta and Eva. After the divorce of Manson and ex-wife Dita Von Teese, Von Teese won the custody of both dachshunds and Aleister. For Manson's 39th birthday on January 5th, 2008, girlfriend Evan Rachel Wood gave him a new cat, Charlie (Manson), as a birthday gift.
•When asked in 2007 by Rolling Stone what his current favorite playlist was, Manson chose among Radiohead's "Exit Music (For a Film)", Amy Winehouse's "Rehab" and David Bowie's classic "We Are the Dead".
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Year:2004 Instant gratification isn't always the best, especially when patience can reward you more profoundly. I've always preferred analog over digital because of the natural feeling it offers. While digital cameras produce great images, they can sometimes be too perfect, resulting in an artificial feel. At the time I took this picture, I owned a digital camera, but capturing a moment on a boat and only seeing the results months later provided a unique, special feeling. Whether on a personal or professional level, instant gratification can pull you out of the moment. It's best to photograph what you love, stay present, and focus on your relationship with your friend or client. Later, when you revisit the images, you can relive the experience. I cherish the imperfections of film because loving someone or something despite its flaws is true love. I plan to fully embrace film soon—mark my words. "Film is like trapping a dream." - Alan Flowers
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Nothing like instant gratification... unless you're a film shooter.
From 2016, Ilford Delta 3200 developed in caffenol-c-l.
what i like most about this moment is how much i relate to it: a woman walking down the street at night snacks on the cookie she just purchased from a shop...how many times have i taken a bite out of something i just bought just for the immediate gratification of it, or because waiting felt impossible? countless. to want something to the point of need, then to satiate that feeling, is a modern human feeling through and through and one that identify with intimately. everything, for us, is about the "now." heaven can wait, the cookie can't.
Nons SL660
Super-Multi-Coated Takumar 55/1.8
Fuji Instax Square
Phone scanned because my scanner has problems with too bright parts
Okay, I am generally not a fan of pet photos. Sorry, don't mean to offend anyone. The thing is, I'm sitting in my art studio and the glorious sunlight is just pouring in and my little kitten is on the table and she just looks content simply to be alive. Now, isn't that a novel approach to living? How often do you feel glad just to be alive? I'd like to think that I feel that way but truth be told, I often yearn for something, anything to give me the gratification that I so desire. I need to take a lesson from my feline friend. She is simply content just to be. I do so want to be like that. To live in the present and be satisfied with my life. After all, I have so much to be grateful for. Very likely, you do too!
vintage polaroid SX-70 camera modified to shoot 600 series film. impossible project "third man records edition" duochrome yellow film. scan: epson V750. exif tags: filmtagger.
from the archives: i have a love for all things old. cameras, buildings, barns, and yes- cars (and trucks) they'll never make them like this again. everything our society bases itself around today is fast and streamlined. we've come to be an imapatient society and we want everything RIGHT now, we want instant gratification. that want has left many beautiful things to decay along the wayside and many beautiful ideas to fade away into non existance. now don't get me wrong. i've said it before and i'll say it again. i LOVE my computer and my cell phone and my jetta, but i'm SO thankful that i can also appreciate the keystones of old architecture, and the curves of such a powerful machine as this truck... sad but true, they DON"T make them like they used to.
vintage polaroid SX-70 camera electronically modified to shoot 600 series film, impossible project B&W generation 2.0 beta test film. scan: epson V750. exif tags: filmtagger.
vintage polaroid SX-70 camera modified to shoot 600 series film. impossible project "third man records edition" duochrome yellow film. scan: epson V750. exif tags: filmtagger.
exhibition at the birmingham nec, was so awesome, seen my dream cameras and some stuff that made my mind boggle. Wish I was minted!
this is probably my favorite of all my polaroid time-zero shots. i think she looks contemplative and convalescent, as might a new, first time mother.
polaroid pronto-b!
time-zero film
This is a negative recovered from an Impossible film emulsion transfer, flipped with my iPhone. This photo was the winner in the Alternative Print Method category at the Project Instant v4.0 Retro Gratification show, currently on display at the Aurizon Atrium at Science World in Vancouver until May 7th. Go check it out.
This photo is basically a product of me listening to the Dance Gavin Dance Album (Instant Gratification). More so, this photo is aimed toward the song "Stroke God, Millionaire" which has quickly become one of my favorite songs off their album. Definitely give it a listen and maybe you will see the correlation!
A little information about this photo.. I went out to shoot this one late night in my driveway. It required a smoke bombs and some bright light.. The neighbors must have gotten pissed and called the cops because on the first take they came and I basically couldn't shoot. So, I wasted my 1 of 2 smoke bombs and time. I re-shot the next night, fuck my neighbors.
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“What I am in search of is not so much the gratification of a curiosity or a passion for worldly life, but something far less conditional. I do not wish to go out into the world with an insurance policy in my pocket guaranteeing my return in the event of a disappointment, like some cautious traveller who would be content with a brief glimpse of the world. On the contrary, I desire that there should be hazards, difficulties and dangers to face; I am hungry for reality, for tasks and deeds, and also for privation and suffering.”
~Hermann Hesse
Mountains in stormy northern Iceland.
with pleasure.
Why does a sight like this please me so much? I hope it does you too.
Pleasure from Old French plaisir
1. The state or feeling of being pleased or gratified.
2. A source of enjoyment or delight,
3. Amusement, diversion, or worldly enjoyment
4. Sensual gratification or indulgence.
5. One's preference or wish
What's your pleasure?
I'm no angel and I'm a trife bitch who is prone to fits of rage and the need for instant gratification. I like my sex violent and choreographed to some stank-ass music. I like my scars as much as my tats. I'm gorgeous in runny mascara. I'm not scared of much that can harm me but terrified of lots that can't. I am a fierce woman who carries a shiv and a gun, and I fuckin like me. It took me years to get here but now I am truly PUNK!
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Aero Ektar 178mm (7 in) f2.5
on Fujifilm Instax wide with Lomograflok back
The wide-open lens at f2.5 (f0.9 in 135 term) has put the Lomo back's focal plane accuracy to the test. Glad that the focus is largely as intended.
Technical note:
The tolerance of the focus on the film plane, known as focus spread (S), is set by the so-called circle of confusion (c). S is the range of focal plane placement within which the image could be called "in focus". It's easy to derive from geometry that S=2(m+1)Nc, where m=magnification, N=f-stop.
For the instax film, c=0.1mm as it only resolves 10 line pairs per mm(lpmm). c is just the inverse of that number. In this shot, N=2.5, and m<<1, so we have S≈0.5mm. That means the focus would be off if the free play of the film plane exceeds 0.5mm. This shot shows that the lomo back + instax film meets that requirement, a pleasant surprise as the instax is floppy and the whole design isn't intended for precision.
Phew, ok last shot of the Bay Bridge. This has been an interesting little exercise. You have seen what, 9 different images of this bridge all shot in one night now? Normally I would have edited this series down to two... maybe three images tops that I would have posted. Sure, I like a lot of the others that I put up too, but they say a picture is worth a thousand words right? Which means that it is even easier to get to rambling with pictures by posting too many. In doing so, you run the risk of diluting your message. In this case, the whole series was meant to demonstrate how different cameras can present different views of the same subject as well as how even the same camera can be used differently with the same subject, and that ultimately it is up to the photographer's imagination and creativity to find interesting images. In that regard, I think this series was a good demonstration, but also at the same time after seeing so many images of this one bridge all at once, each individual image lost a bit of its impact. It became a face in the crowd so to speak. That is why the ability to edit one's work is an underrated skill to have as a photographer. Especially in this age of instant feedback and gratification, where we post images while still so excited about the moments we created them, we sometimes have our critical eyes obscured a bit when looking at our own work. It is one of the reasons I like to take so long to post images after I have created them, to give myself time to really get used to them, to know them, to let the excitement of the moment of their creation dampen down a bit and to see if it transforms into a more permanent long term excitement. But this also ties in with my personal philosophy of a photographer being a communicator, having a message they are trying to relate, and then editing their work in a way that supports that message.
But I appear to be late for work, so I had better cut this one off for now. Speaking of rambling.... ;-)
In a world where AI feeds our desire for instant gratification as soon as we have a thought or need, it is grounding and humbling to walk in a place that is impervious to the wishes of man. Created by time and the most natural of elements, water and earth, a beauty emerges that is wondrous in its impossibility. Man's interference is not welcome or wanted here. Here patience is respected. The Navajo understood the sacredness of this space, knowing that there are things larger and greater than themselves.
. . . Love's Journey Through Trials . . .
Enduring challenges in love stories leads to the sweetest rewards.
" Love stories are a long journey and the sweetest harvests belong to those who pass through difficult trials... 💕"
______ Scarlett Sahira
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. . . Femdom Tale . . .
Stage 1
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Stage 2
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Stage 3
When did she truly commit?
Discovering the moment when the game ends and the relationship embraces peace and reaps its rewards.
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Stage 3 (6 months to years)
☑ Commitment, Long-term plan
☑ the Beginning of a 'serious relationship'
A serious commitment leads to a long-term relationship. The years ahead together will come after getting through the first and the second stage.
The first stage is the attention stage. In essence, it's a time for presenting and exchanging experiences and skills, a trial period. During this time, if the submissive can capture Miss's attention, they will receive a real collar and ownership that is more serious than just a casual call.
When Miss recognizes the value in your skills and truly accepts you, she wouldn't mind getting closer. Instead of simply using shallow approaches or seeking sexual gratification, she'd be open to deepening the connection with spiritual feelings and emotions in this second stage.
She'll accept you as her faithful sub, whether that's as a beloved pet, a lover, or a boyfriend/husband. It all depends on the chemistry that happens during this period. The exclusive commitment will be shaped by what kind of commitment she's willing to give, which hinges on how this second stage resonates with her 'feelings.'
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Stage 3: Expressing and Growing Commitment
. . . Expression . . .
Women / Dominas might not propose in the formal way as men do when they're ready to commit, they have their own unique way of showing it. They'll send three signals that indicate their true intentions. When all three signals are present, it's a clear "yes." but if you only receive one or two, it suggests that the commitment isn't quite there yet.
These signals serve as a litmus test to gauge whether your Miss is genuinely committed or still playing games.
1. Allowing physical and emotional access 'without' needing permission.
2. Providing emotional support by 'positively and gently' handling your bad moods, rough patches, and challenging moments. She's 'willing' to manage her emotions for your sake.
3. Being upfront and transparent about your relationship status, with no hiding or playing games. It's essential for 'you and others' to know where things stand, emphasizing your importance with clarity and honesty. (without excuses or avoidance reasons)
. . . Growth . . . .
☑ Commitment doesn't always start at 100% - it evolves over time, progressing from 10%, 20%, 50%, 80%, and eventually reaching 100%.
☑ Some believe that if it's not immediately at 100%, it's fake or not genuine, which can be harmful. This mindset can lead to the immediate end of a relationship or prevent relationships from flourishing because it doesn't allow 'room for growth.'
☑ Some folks hit 100% commitment right out of the gate or within the first month. Others might take three years, five years, or even seven years of being together to reach that level. Everyone's timeline is different.
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Reasons why commitment may not reach 100%:
1. They're not ready for a super serious commitment. They're kinda cautious about it. For them, 100% is way 'too heavy,' they're not ready to dive into something that intense.
2. They've been burned by full-on commitments before. Ever been let down and broken - imagine that disappointment sticking with you, becoming like a scar. After that, they're not keen on going all in with anyone else. They figure it's 'safer' to keep it below 100%.
3. They've got other priorities. They're chasing after something else, 'not really focused' on making a full commitment.
At this point, you'll notice that they haven't fully committed to 100%. This mostly occurs because of 'their own' issues or problems, not because of anything to do with you or your worth.
In a dominant or controlling woman, if you're a problem, they'll be honest and tell you to fix it. But if she is quiet and doesn't speak about it most of the time, it's likely her own problem that she doesn't want to share.
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How can you find happiness with someone who isn't looking for a 100% commitment?
☑ Acknowledge that they have 'their own' struggles.
If there's love between you, the relationship can still be fulfilling, everything can still fit perfectly, and you can be very happy together, so the commitment isn't at 100%, mostly 'not' because they don't value you, but because they're still grappling with their own issues.
☑ Don't focus so much on who they are or their problems that it causes you suffering. Understand them and realize that it's not your fault. If trying only leads to pain, hopelessness, and disappointment, it's okay to stop trying.
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. . . Stay or Break . . .
If they won't admit their own problem and instead try to blame you or make you feel bad by saying you're not trying hard enough, they're not valuing you and ignoring your feelings. They put the blame on you, making it seem like it's your fault that they can't fully commit to you.
This signals that you have a choice:
☑ You can choose to continue the relationship and overlook their actions or..
☑ You can choose to end it and walk away.
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I could be showing you Maui photos (nothing French has been scanned yet). Some might even argue that I should be showing Maui photos. But I am going to continue to wait a bit longer. Call it a habit I picked up from film. Call it delayed gratification even. Me, I prefer to give myself time to think about things so that when I finally do share them, I do so in as thoughtful a way as I can. Sometimes, in this hectic, instantly gratifying world we live in, I think we get in such a rush to deliver that gratification to our audience that we think less about what we share... or how we share it. And when the photographer thinks less about what they are doing, or saying, with their images, how can they expect their audience to do anything other than think less too? But that is sort of just a tangential thought to tonight's post, which really has nothing to do with Maui or France at all. This one is all about Oregon, where fall seems to be arriving.
I took a trip out to the Gorge today with Peter, Wendi and Owen (who is becoming quite the little hiker). We only made the one stop at Wahclella but that alone ate up about three hours of our afternoon. It looked fairly similar to this (mind you, this image is a year or two old, but the colors are right about on par... maybe give it a few more days to season up). See, this is one way to get around the pressure to show everythingrightawaythemomentithappensnotasecondlater pressure of the internet today; you just wait a year til the images are relevant again. :-p
Wahclella Falls is technically shut down right now thanks to the government being closed. The pay collection station is all bagged up so you cannot pay the parking fee even if you wanted to. But I guess if that means there are no rangers to make the rounds collecting the day use fee, there are no rangers to keep you from getting out and making the hike and enjoying a bit of Oregon fresh air too. In fact the closing didn't keep the parking lot from being full of cars. It seems that for us outdoorsy Oregonians life goes on even when things are hitched up in Washington. Good for us.
Other than that, I really don't have too much more to say tonight. It sure is getting pretty out there right now and trips like the one we took this afternoon remind me how happy I am to live in a state like this. So if you get a chance this weekend, take some time off and get out there. If you do, you may just see me, I'll be easy to spot - just look for the cameras. You'll know them when you see them. And be sure to say hi.
He who seeks truth shall find beauty.
He who seeks beauty shall find vanity.
He who seeks order shall find gratification.
He who seeks gratification shall be disappointed.
He who considers himself a servant of his fellow beings shall find the joy of self expression.
He who seeks self expression shall fall into the pit of arrogance
Arrogance is incompatible with nature.
Through nature the nature of the universe and the nature of man we shall seek truth.
If we seek truth we shall find beauty.
- Moshe Safdie
A Wicked Turn
Acte 20
Wasting Time?
He eagerly started to move towards her...
“Almost!”
She said with a giggle, her flashily ringed finger raised again, stopping him as he had started to move towards her as she admonished him…
“Not quite yet! You forgot the most important part of burgling a lady’s chamber! “
Again, he stood staring, not quite knowing what the devil this peculiarly eager to be robbed damsel in distress was going on about now!?
But quite recent experience told him it should be to his thieving benefit to take more precious time and hear her out!
So, he stood questioningly waited to hear what the most important part was?
Which she then, quite helpfully, spelled it all out to him…
“You didn't check the lingerie drawer, Gaston! Any real burglar would have done so!”
He observed her winking at him …
“Come along Gaston l, get into your role my darling…!”
He looked at her, smirking to himself…
“Indeed, lady, I will!”
Curiously He turned and looked down upon the drawer in the stand next to her bed.
“No silly, still in the drawer beneath my now pilfered jewel case!”
She was looking down mischievously at the Drawers set in the ancient oak antique Chippendale dresser.
He turned, hesitating…
Should dear Gaston know which one it was?
He decided to just start at the top and began opening them one by one and pray he did not invoke her to start having any doubts as to his true nature!
He went over and started to pull open the top drawer.
She could be heard giggling in the background…
“Moved it on you didn’t I from the last time!? “
Her most welcomed words relived a bit of his anxiety, the gig was still not up, she still hadn’t guessed that he was the real thing, and not some love lost Beau sadly burdened with the moniker of Gaston, of all things!
“Ahh, there you go my darling!”
She said as he opened the next…
The drawer was found to contain, as promised, piles of wispy thin satin and silks, in all colours of a shimmering rainbow! Curious as to what further riches he was meant to find, he greedily swirled the expensive lingerie about, soon finding a pile of glistening silver all carefully laid out on one side.
A silver brush comb and matching mirror, all studded with jewelled handles, and a pair of silver handcuffs!
He lifted the jewelled vanity pieces...
He had once drooled over a similar set discovered in a museum's case!
“Oops, she giggled, forgot those were there, just leave ‘em luv!”
But he continued to place them into the case at his feet and was surprised when she did not protest.
Instead, she said reasonably…
“But of course, they are jewelled, just be careful with ‘em please my darling?”
Buy then he was already curiously looking inside, lifting the handcuffs…
He heard his victim give out a hoarse moan behind him!
The handcuffs and keys he lifted and threw on the satin comforter of the bed, wondering how many times she and her Gaston had put them to use?
He picked up the now quite hefty leather pouch and looked over at his smirking victim.
“Come mister thief!”
She instructed lustfully …
“Finally time to do your worst!”
“With pleasure” he murmured to himself, studying most hypnotic swaying of her long jewelled earrings…
“To all my just gratification, Madam!”