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Back in 2013 this truck was part of the Wollongong fleet, now at Central Coast depot as truck 11. Was a fulltime garbage raptor and the newest truck to collect garbage. Taken just outside Wollongong town hall.
It was a lovely day. Regretfully some people are becoming more brazen as I was purposely misgendered twice today. One may say we both might be a bit ridiculous. Who is actually crazier? Me in a dress, full hair and make up, carrying a purse and proudly displaying two size 40C girls; expecting to be gendered female or the obtuse male bank teller and his smarty pants Jimmy Johns contemporary ruling their drive-through domains with hate. Ha!!!
I have learned to laugh it off after the initial sting. It is really kind of crazy. Just think, TSA get’s it right and polite every time, why can’t everyone else?
Last tuesday i had a lecture about diversity and Pride history at my work, and sins then I´ve been working fulltime as female.
Hmm…I feel like a girl, I walk like a girl, and I look like a girl. Guess I’m really a girl. What’s up that Mrs. Customer?!
Well, I just left the DMV as a scared middle aged woman. Although my present license is quite “andro-fem” I am quite anxious about making this final commitment in my transition. I’ll be back.
The facts are:
- I am a married BFF to my wife who hates this transition.
-I have been on HRT for more than 4 years.
-I live as a woman more than 75% of the time away from the office.
-I work as an andro-fem soul with my brother.
-I have traveled as a woman on almost every trip without any TSA trouble at all, sans a few standard pat downs.
-Both grown children know and still live at home.
-A few customers who know are fine with it and most all of our crew could care less as long as our company remains solvent.
This has been an incredibly long, medically supervised, deliberate journey, that regretfully has become more frightening due the climate of the times. Regardless, I remain Still Very Trans! ☮️💜
*** Don't have to fav/comment.. u can ask qs here tho & i will try to put them up here b4 next post ***
"Not another shameless wanky post from this bugger! Move on & stop showing off!" Well, that's precisely what i was thinking when i'm about to post this shot. Seriously I PROMISEI will not post this type of self-indulge promotional shot ever again unless its something you guys can benefit from. This is most probably my 5th or 6th mag publications to date so THIS IS IT (for shameless post) as Michael Jackson said :)) Quite a no of ppl have asked me qs relating to my photostream, publications etc all along therefore i thought this is the best time to consolidate similar FAQs & answer them here. Hope u can gain something out of them. cheers!
:: FAQs ::
Q. How do I get my photos published in a magazine?
A. Well, its hard to say ...luck plays a part i suppose.. esp for journalists to spot your work out of millions. One thing i know for sure is correctly tagging your photos helps in contributing to the success of others finding your shots. All my published photos were found by editors of the publishing/magazine company through Google, Yahoo search engines & Flickr. Another possible factor is perhaps being known for the sort of photography style u do helps a fair bit too. For instance, if you are into IR photography & your entire photostream is full of IR style images, very high chance when someone is lookin' for IR publication, you will be the outstanding one.
Q. How did I achieve so much attention in flickr?
A. Pretty much the same theory as above... I reckon for me, specialising in just hdr helps bring everyone who has the same interest to my photostream. Perhaps versatility in subject tend to catch ppl's attention too. One definite fact is you should have determination to keep doing what u love & passionate about (it could be flower, macro, seascape, bokeh, BW, night photography, digital manipulation etc..) just pursue this interest be it what others might have said about your images or even negative comments to bring u down along the way (Trust me.. i get those %^$ comments esp when i just started hdr.. even now!). Believe in yourself & others will eventually believe in you & your work ;) go out & make friends in flickr...what goes around comes around.
Q. Am I paid to have your photo published?
A. About 75% of my published photos were paid. Some companies asked for quote before using my photos but usually the publishers seek for publication permission before making an offer.The remaining 25% (non-profit co) either gave me full credit in print with link to my flickr website & free copies of their magazines.
Q. How much do the publishing companies pay usually?
A. I was paid all in USD or GBP... so in Aussie rates, it ranges from 150 -250 per image. Really..all depending on where & what the publisher will be using the images for.. big coverage like front cover/double pages print or just a few small prints.
Q. You have had a lot of your photos on Explore, could you give us any tips or advice on how we could get our images on Explore?
A. Explore is a funny thing. The only tip or advice I can give is if your photo can get enough visits or comments even without adding them to groups, there is a high chance you can get your images on Explore. That's my theory at least. I know its easy to get obsessed with Explore.. i do initially but its good to get over it now :) Seriously, Explore is not about how good your shots are.. being on Explore consistently really does not make one a better photographer. Explore is just a simple way to let one explore the world within a few click of a button. If one is too concern about Explore, it definitely ruins photography in a lot of ways. If you still are really keen, be really active in flickr.. i'm sure you will get your rewards eventually but rem it always take time to build your community of friends here too ;)
Q. Is photography your fulltime job?
A. Photography is not my fulltime job. I only really started photography in April 2008. I work as a computing guy in my state uni. The only time I bring my camera out with me is mostly when i go on a trip. In fact I haven't touch my cam much since April this year except for a couple snapshots here & there... now that's really sad case haha!
I am tired of being scared. Here I am. A not so glamorous trans girl and this is part of my journey. Thank you all for being so sweet and encouraging. I LOVE OUR Flickr Family! 💋💋💋This was my first time ever swimming as Steph last year at a hotel in Mississippi. It’s a long story for another day but this was a welcome dip in the pool after a long day.☮️💜
💜“So this is Trans.” Taken yesterday at our local Target, I texted this to a dear friend:
“Good morning,
This topper may be a bit pedestrian but blended with my real hair it provides a strong sense of self confidence.”
Since 2012 I have been working on trying to solve my hair confidence issues. Although some of my fears may seem driven by vanity, the price of transgender safety and self-awareness is too scary of target to miss.
Here I am, ready to update StillVeryTrans.com this weekend while still practicing safety and fortitude.
Submitted with love in a pedestrian vision, Steph☮️💜
I am working on some marketing materials. Is there any chance one of these looks more decisive than the other? If so, maybe I should take charge and drop off this old coat off at the dry cleaners! 😘☮️💜
Today’s birthday picture celebrates fifty two months of medically supervised estradiol feminization.
Although HRT is not as potent at my age, it has definitely been a wonderful game changer. Oh has the game, venue, and players changed! ☮️💜
Today’s risky adventure is a work first. It’s 7am. I just checked into the hotel and went straight to the conference center. It’s not likely our clients could be hovering around but it’s is possible. 😙 The girl at the desk was sweet and smiled, yet didn’t she even flinch at my male license and credit card. Great Bonvoy training I guess!!!
Our crew arrives at 9am and the truck docks at 8:30am. Yes, I’m going to change but damn it’s nice arriving to work as me.
Although this is exactly how most of my clients dress, 90% of the time the future me will be relegated to black slacks and a black logo’d polo. Such is the life of a TD. 😘💜☮️
'It's medevil out there'
Quote from Doomsday.... AWESOME MOVIE!
I have to be VERY honest, I really have been very very distant over the past months, started a new FULLTIME job - not sure if I have mentioned that but um.... Lucy is doing the Walkthwalk full walkathon on june the 19th and 20th AT MIDNIGHT... i shall try my hardest to manage that desreitly :D
awww man, I've felt sooo uninspired lately, SO much on my plate.... havent had time to spend much time with maisie either.... this is a shot from the Hunter shoot months ago....
I AM ALSO GOING TO AUSTRALIA in Sept - hoping...
It's keeping me going at work, the only thing keeping me going... well, maybe a certain 2 people that keep me quite amused too,
I LOVE YOU SALLY AND FIONA :D
life life life..
since when did things get so hard rockin.
running outa things to say, I feel so ill :(
THANK YOU SOO MUCH ON THE EXPLORE GUYS, in one day :O
Model : Maisie
Picking crew snacks before this morning’s rehearsals. Day 8 of back to back shows with only four hours of sleep last night. Such is the life of a “gratitude junkie” producer…My brother and I are crazy to love our clients this much, but oh how we do!!! So thankful. ☮️💜. Cheers to making a difference. 💋
Happy Holidays everyone. Heading to the airport with new hair. I love the style and color but I am a little nervous with how it may function through the gymnastics of flying. “Excuse me sir, will you please stow my bag? I’m scared as hell my hair might fall off reaching the bin!” ☮️💜
Here is my new Linked In picture.
www.linkedin.com/in/creativesteph
Since I am self-employed and almost a fully transitioning soul, it is finally time to start building a work profile for next year. Presently I am producing virtual conferences and live event webcasts that rival our pre-COVID convention center creations.
I have over 25 years of successful IT consulting and event production technology experience ready to drive new Q4 projects in 2021. Please let me know if we can help you or anyone you may know next year.
I miss our pre-pandemic lives and I miss you all so much. As a live-event producer, to say this year has been a tough transition is a severe understatement.
Today was my first “me-day” playing music in a long while. The best part is this was my first time recording live on battery power! I have been liquidating concert gear and investing in portable webcasting and streaming equipment.
Since March we have been locked in a silo rebranding our company as a vConference provider. The good news is we have now closed 7 out of 22 virtual event proposals and the team is starting become energized again.
So I guess 2020 will be known as the year of Ergonomics and Virtual Backgrounds while we ALL transition for our new futures. Who else is ready to shed your COVID-19+ pounds?!
Peace be with us all.
Love,
Steph ☮️💜😷
I just passed on this Torrid dress for a private Halloween party tonight. I so miss seeing everyone here and sharing. I am not ignoring our Flickr family, I am just exhausted from travel and some long 14-16 hour days. After today, I won’t be home again until the 22nd. Seriously thankful for all of the post Covid event work. ☮️💜
Not a great picture of our new logo’d apparel for 2022. This is the first time I have ordered women’s tops and jackets for myself. Part of me gasped a bit when I opened the boxes. At times I fear my transition may hurt some of our associate’s contract opportunities.
I truly believe we will be ok. CV19 has opened up an entirely new virtual conference vertical. Also we have gained new momentum marketing to Pride ally corporations and associations way before Covid. By Q1 of 2020 we replaced all of our church clients with new conferences and annual events. Even though we still field calls from houses of worship, we cheerfully refer them to partnering firms.
Who knows… when I am 100% full time maybe we’ll qualify as a minority owned or woman owned company! 😂 ☮️💜
This comparison depicts the changes within two years and a few months of medically supervised hormone therapy. Although the angles are slightly off, one can definitely see a softer rounder face in the recent picture. Before 2018 I was on a prescribed low 2mg of Estradiol for 36 months just to help me stay balanced and alive.
I am bit of a private sort; yet I have come out to family, close friends, and acquaintances. I pray sharing perspective may help someone with similar proclivities.
It took surviving a deadly car accident on 10/11/12 to begin advocating for my emancipation. I immediately declared my course correction and sought WPATH standard transition therapy. After 22 years of marriage one can imagine this started a war with my wife who married a gender dysphoric man who promised he would not transition. Yes, my wife knew before we tied the knot. The same is true for all of my long term girlfriends. Even on the first grade playground I would swap clothes with my girlfriends in the woods, wear their jackets, try on their shoes, and carry their purses. Ironically my main bully was a very pretty third grade girl. She went out of her way to torment me mentally and physically.
It was only a few years ago I learned how providential that car crash date has become in history. National Coming Out Day is recognized annually on October 11. The day celebrates individuals who publicly identify as bisexual, gay, lesbian, and transgender – coming out regarding their sexual orientation and/or gender identity.
As stated before, I promised to refrain from going 100% full time until our special needs son graduates high school next year. “Not transitioning, “transition limbo,” or “living full-time” are all difficult stations to embrace. When my time comes next year I plan to still enjoy golf, music, soccer, work, and sunset into my later years as a transgender woman. I am already experiencing plenty of backlash and stares that should help me brace for the future. I also have a few wonderful transitioned women blazing ahead of me who thankfully keep me grounded and share how difficult my days may become as a woman. I say, good... It will be my pleasure to share every moment with family and friends that matter. Peace be with us. Submitted with love, Steph
all this really is is a pic shot from underwater (in a videogame)
i am not likely to get into surrealism fulltime
Since I’m relegated to working “Andro in Orlando” for Halloween this weekend, I had to post another “costume” motivated shot.
Eighteen month ago I made the best decision of my life. I stopped my longlife suffering from gender dysphoria and started to be me, a woman. Fifteen months I am now living fulltime as woman, the best time I have ever had in my life.
Until today the transition was a hard way, specially the fight with the german healthcare system and german jurisdiction. However the best gift for me at the end of 2020 was that I am now official legal Awena, a woman. And in 2021 the exciting transition journey proceeds with further little steps.
Now I am 56, celebrate my first birthday as woman Awena. And my feelings and all the best wishes, your support since I started on flickr are overwhelming me. Thank you all so very much.
Have a nice weekend and week, stay healthy.
Awena 💋💋
Surprise Networking
Last night while dressed in my “andro+” work outfit, I connected with a globe trotting photographer. I was out at a late hour production shoot for a blues band music video. My new acquaintance quizzed me about audio and hired me on the spot to help his friend shoot a large scale music video for Saturday! I dearly want to consider this as my first gig hired as Stephanie, but I was not 100% fully transformed.
This is what I was wearing, sans the make up and earrings. That is my own thinning hair under the hat. What you can’t see is that I was dressed way over the androgynous scale with black leggings and I kept that jacket on to cover my small girls. He kept saying, why don’t you take your coat off, relax, and have a drink with me! I melted and countered with buying him a drink while begrudgingly keeping my jacket on to hide my bra. Clearly my weird voice and peculiar body shape didn’t detour him.
I remained professional as we exchanged Facebook business sites. We laughed at the sadness of today’s required “safe character” validation. His talent and photos on his portfolio website literally took my breathe away. All legit and watermarked with is name. I tried not to “fan-girl” too hard, but damn! (As I type this, I still can’t believe it. No matter what you want, you gotta put yourself out there and play to win!)
The shoot went great. After 11pm the club lit up with beautiful young people. Perfect to make any band look fab.
It was like every girl in the club called each other and said, “let’s wear boots, a short skirt, cute top, scarf, and a tailored coat.” Evidentially their lack of creativity didn’t fail because their amorous tactics were in full bloom. Every time I looked around the room it seemed like two or more couples were practicing big-screen kissing scenes. Yes, I was jealous as hell so I decided to take some more pictures for my OKC site this morning!
I’ll stop here and finish the story later at stillverytrans.com blog site.
Always submitted with love,
Steph 💜☮️😷
This is how crazy a selfie stick looks in public. (yes, those guys behind me walked right by when I was snapping shots.) 😂
This is a first thanks to the confidence of the new blended hair system. Been prepping and wrapping new cables all day at the warehouse, Easing a few of the guys into transition with very light makeup and a shared peer work ethic. It’s still me, just happier and less grumpy! ☮️💜. Let’s take a pulse after this weekend’s shows with me still in andro-guy mode.
Ehlena and Manny...............I really need to get a second set of female scrubs so that I can picture all 3 of the fulltime mansion medical staff together.
Please disregard the wrinkles. It’s just me and my cup is half full…thanks to two pushup pads 😂. ☮️💜
Tonight is the first time I am out doing real camera work as Steph. For some reason this hair color feels less conspicuous than being a blonde.
Eighteen month ago I made the best decision of my life. I stopped my longlife suffering from gender dysphoria and started to be me, a woman. Fifteen months I am now living fulltime as woman, the best time I have ever had in my life.
Until today the transition was a hard way, specially the fight with the german healthcare system and german jurisdiction. However the best gift for me at the end of 2020 was that I am now official legal Awena, a woman. And in 2021 the exciting transition journey proceeds with further little steps.
Now I am 56, celebrate my first birthday as woman Awena. And my feelings and all the best wishes, your support since I started on flickr are overwhelming me. Thank you all so very much.
Have a nice weekend and week, stay healthy.
Awena 💋💋
Thank you.
Life is such an amazing jorney.
On 15th september 2019 I decided to stop my longlife suffering from gender dysphoria and to start being real me, a woman.
Since 1st october 2019, means excactly 552 days, I am living fulltime as woman, the best time I have ever had in my life. I started my transition.
Exactly one year ago on 4th april 2020 I started to share my photos on flickr.
And now one year later there are over 1.180 followers, over 5.1 millions views.
Unbelievable.
I never thought, that photos of a 56 year old mature transwoman with a respectful, tasteful and classy style would have such an impact, such an interest.
This is overwhelming me.
Thank you all so very much for your best wishes, your comments, favour me and your support. Thank you therefore that I am not alone.
And in 2021 the exciting transition journey proceeds with steps like HRT, epilation, speech therapy. All these steps have changed my life in a profound way, changed my mind and body. It is so fantastic and unbelievable to see and explore the world with the eyes of a woman.
And the exciting journey of this 56 year old mature transwoman will be continued.
Thank you all from the bottom of my heart.❤️❤️
Stay safe and healthy.
Awena 💋💋