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…the darkness meets the light. When the darkness is too overwhelming I try to keep looking for light.
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This is from 1 of 2 rolls of expired film given to me. I shot this roll of Fuji Superia xtra 400 (expired in 2014) just for fun at a local state park back on 4/4/2021 with my Nikon FE and 35mm f/2. I developed this roll at home, "scanned" it with my DSLR and converted the negatives to positives using Negative Lab Pro. It was a nice and refreshing experience to just shoot this roll for fun, to notice my surroundings and try to capture whatever caught my eye (not knowing how it might turn out since it was expired and prepare myself that if it was a "complete loss" it wouldn't be the end of the world--at least I enjoyed the shooting experience). The developing and scanning process helped me to continue to grow in film photography and as a person as well. I'm thankful for what I've learned and for the many kind and gifted people in the film community who have shared their images and encouraged and inspired me to keep shooting film and learning. I can see a positive change in my view of my photos and that seems to match how I am changing as a person over time--less critical of myself and my photos, open to learning and growing as a person and a photographer, and more open to the beautiful imperfections both in myself and in my photos.
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Nikon FE
Nikon 35mm f/2
Fuji Superia xtra 400 (expired 2014)
Image taken 4/4/2021
Self developed at home in Unicolor C41
“Scanned” with my DSLR
Negative converted to positive with Negative Lab Pro
Noah laying on his kitty lounger watching me. Thankfully, we stay nice and cool during the worst days of summer. August is usually the hotter month with the temps in the mid 90's and with the humidity it's usually in the upper 90's to low 100's. These hot days are why we like snow... although that doesn't happen very often in Tennessee. :)
This picture is for the group Happy Caturday and this week the theme is "Coping with the sizzle".
No words—just trying to keep looking for light
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I find it so interesting, a metaphor—this plant that I could not manage to keep alive, that still hangs here long after the life has gone out of it because I can’t even find the energy to get rid of it, became so captivating and beautiful to me in the golden sunset light.
My son eating some leftovers he warmed up in the oven for lunch. I found it quite funny that he ate his lunch wearing an oven mitt—my children sure do keep me entertained.
Recently one morning our children made themselves some homemade hot chocolate after they were outside shoveling snow in very cold weather.
It seems impossible to explain with words, so pictures help try to express how it feels to live this experience.
[image created on 4-24-2024]
I have become very fascinated by digital pinhole photography. This image was created with a modified pinhole body cap. I think I’m drawn to this type of photography because I feel it relates to my life and it seems to teach me far beyond photography. There are strict limitations that can drastically alter how images are captured and the final outcome of the photos, there is a lack of clarity compared to how I normally capture images with a lens, it’s difficult to predict exactly how the image will look and beauty and meaning can be found in the process and the final photo. It gives me a chance to practice embracing the unfamiliar, change, finding beauty in imperfection and growing in new ways. And the look of the images reminds me of how it feels when the effects of trauma cause me to question reality and myself, feel terror, feel isolated, alone, deep sadness, dissociation, body memories and a range of other indescribably challenging experiences. When my voice is stolen and I cannot speak or find adequate words to describe what I face I am thankful I can relate my experiences to what I see in pinhole photography rather than “keeping it all inside.”
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As a way to cope with circumstances beyond my control, survive and work to keep fighting for life I decided to try to take at least one photo (or more) each day. I call this “a photo (or more) a day.” Practicing this form of therapeutic photography helps me work to focus on the present moment, gives me something familiar and enjoyable to focus on as I use photography skills that have become like second-nature to me and being able to view the images I capture helps me recall what I was thinking, feeling and noticing at the moment when I created the photos. More of the photos from this series can be seen on my Instagram account
I may not always have the energy, time or capacity to share photos from this series—especially with the very challenging circumstances my family and I are experiencing—and will do my best to continue taking a photo (or more) a day even if I’m not able to share.
If you would like to support my work and my family, one way you can do so is by ordering my zines:
Many thanks for your support.
Noob shot that I lost from the stream... ;)
🎵 Can someone tell me if it's wrong to be so mad about you?
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I took this image as I sat outside in our car while my husband who is immunosuppressed/high risk health due to heart/double lung & kidney transplants was inside an urgent care because he was sick (late that night we found out he had covid). In an effort to not miss a day of my 365 on film I brought my film and digital cameras. As I sat anxiously waiting in the car for over 2 hours I tried to keep looking for light and capture some of the light I saw. Doing this helped me to cope in a very scary situation when my anxiety level was extremely high and I had to be able to function since my husband was sick. This was my view looking into the back seat seeing the artificial light from the street lights in the parking lot shining on my notebook I write in each day. To the left my husband’s bag of clothing and belongings in case he was admitted to the hospital, my camera bag in the middle and to the right a small lunch bag with some string cheese as we left home in a hurry before having time to eat supper in order to drive an hour for medical care. These images take me back to this day back in August and I’m thankful God gave me the ability to help myself cope in this way—by looking for light and trying to capture it.
It can be worrying to see someone struggling as they get older. One of the best things you can do is talk it over together with the person you're worried about, discussing your concerns and listening to each other.
Having those conversations isn't always easy. Family and friends can be deeply unsettled by signs that suggest a loved one isn't coping. Sometimes people find it difficult to have open conversations because they don't want to cause offence, or have strong emotions of their own, not wanting to acknowledge that a loved one is getting older.
Moving Forward is a collection of abstract, ICM (intentional camera movement) images taken in moments of desperation, while trying to survive and find a healthy way to cope with the intense effects of trauma, CPTSD, anxiety and depression. The practice of therapeutic photography and healing actions of taking steps and moving forward come together in this photo project. May it be a source of hope, inspiration, peace or encouragement for you.
You can read more about this zine and photo project here: amandacreamerphotography.com/2023/02/18/photo-project-mov...
You can order the Morving Forward zine here: www.magcloud.com/browse/issue/2406230
On Explore - January 19, 2023 - Thanks to all my Flickr friends!
It was a -3 degree cold morning. In the park, Robin always appears suddenly, sometimes on the ground, sometimes on the walls and tree branches, standing and showing himself.
That's why it's hard not to press the shutter button when I see my favourite only 16 - 22g little bird.
I hope you enjoy the photographs as much as I enjoyed taking them.
Britain’s favourite bird 'European Robin' redbreast - Yes, the robin is, without doubt, one of our favourite garden birds. Robins are good at coping with cold and snow, but far northern Europe can still be a bit too much in winter. A robin's lifespan is just 13 months on average due to high mortality among robins in their first year. Once they've passed that barrier, they stand a much better chance of surviving for quite a while the record currently stands at 13-19 years. Robins are very territorial birds and will viciously attack other robins that on their patch. A dispute starts with males singing at each other, trying to get a higher perch in order to show off their breast most effectively. This usually ends the challenge, with one individual deferring to the other.
Why does a robin puff up?
On cool spring mornings and chilly days, robins puff out their feathers – called rousing – to stay warm. It fluffs air into the bird's down feathers, giving some insulation to help the robin maintain its body temperature.
Do robins puff themselves up?
Male robins will always attack any intruder into their space, occasionally – though fortunately not often – fighting to the death. Both sexes of robins have red breasts and both puff out their chests as a sign of aggression.
Here are some fun facts about Robins, the nations favourite garden bird.
Robins are very territorial and you'll usually only see 2 together when they're mating.
In fact, they're so territorial that they often fight to the death defending their area.
They are very loyal to their food sources. The Robin you see in your garden is most likely the same one each time.
Young Robins do not have red breasts. They are brown and lightly speckled, only growing their red feathers after their first moult.
Its nearly impossible to tell apart the male and female Robin by sight.
They are ground feeding, insectivorous birds; mostly feeding on worms and insects found in freshly turned soil (as well as fruit).
Females often eat the shells of their hatched young for an extra boost of calcium.
Robins (both male and female) have such driven parental instincts that they have been found to feed the chicks of other species.
Thank you so much for visiting my stream, whether you comments , favorites or just have a look.
I appreciate it very much, wishing the best of luck and good light.
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Lens - hand held or Monopod and definitely SPORT VR on. Aperture is f5.6 and full length. All my images have been converted from RAW to JPEG.
I started using Nikon Cross - Body Strap or Monopod on long walks. Here is my Carbon Monopod details : Gitzo GM2542 Series 2 4S Carbon Monopod - Really Right Stuff MH-01 Monopod Head with Standard Lever - Really Right Stuff LCF-11 Replacement Foot for Nikon AF-S 500mm /5.6E PF Lense -
Thanks for stopping and looking :)
It is either my flickr banned for "content" not suitable since last Saturday, or being stuck in SL trying to rez and figure out a computer issue so this is me just coping! As long as I can change and DJ in the end, I wont be going psychotic on anyone ;p hahahah I am going to change to that new SL flickr too or Prim soon so follow for details!
This is from the second of two rolls of expired film given to me. I shot this roll of Fuji Superia xtra 400 (expired in 2014) just for fun at a local state park back on 4/4/2021 with my Nikon FE and 35mm f/2. I developed this roll at home, "scanned" it with my DSLR and converted the negatives to positives using Negative Lab Pro. It was a nice and refreshing experience to just shoot this roll for fun, to notice my surroundings and try to capture whatever caught my eye (not knowing how it might turn out since it was expired and prepare myself that if it was a "complete loss" it wouldn't be the end of the world--at least I enjoyed the shooting experience). The developing and scanning process helped me to continue to grow in film photography and as a person as well. I'm thankful for what I've learned and for the many kind and gifted people in the film community who have shared their images and encouraged and inspired me to keep shooting film and learning. I can see a positive change in my view of my photos and that seems to match how I am changing as a person over time--less critical of myself and my photos, open to learning and growing as a person and a photographer, and more open to the beautiful imperfections both in myself and in my photos.
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Nikon FE
Nikon 35mm f/2
Fuji Superia xtra 400 (expired 2014)
Image taken 4/4/2021
Self developed at home in Unicolor C41
“Scanned” with my DSLR
Negative converted to positive with Negative Lab Pro
On a mild winter’s day
A couple of the stone copings have been forced off into the river below; leaving the bed of cement mortar showing. Some leaves have collected there.
At Towneley park
Burnley
Lancashire
It is challenging for me to believe I finally get to share this with you: my CLOUDS zine is now available for order!
You can see more images and find out more information here: amandacreamerphotography.com/2022/08/27/photo-project-clo...
Disappearing because of the darkness and desperately trying to find the light.
[image created on 2-23-2024]
Recently I became very fascinated by digital pinhole photography. This image was created with a modified pinhole body cap. I think I’m drawn to this type of photography because I feel it relates to my life and it seems to teach me far beyond photography. There are strict limitations that can drastically alter how images are captured and the final outcome of the photos, there is a lack of clarity compared to how I normally capture images with a lens, it’s difficult to predict exactly how the image will look and beauty and meaning can be found in the process and the final photo. It gives me a chance to practice embracing the unfamiliar, change, finding beauty in imperfection and growing in new ways.
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As a way to cope with circumstances beyond my control, survive and work to keep fighting for life I decided to try to take at least one photo (or more) each day. I call this “a photo (or more) a day.” Practicing this form of therapeutic photography helps me work to focus on the present moment, gives me something familiar and enjoyable to focus on as I use photography skills that have become like second-nature to me and being able to view the images I capture helps me recall what I was thinking, feeling and noticing at the moment when I created the photos. More of the photos from this series can be seen on my Instagram account
I may not always have the energy, time or capacity to share photos from this series—especially with the very challenging circumstances my family and I are experiencing—and will do my best to continue taking a photo (or more) a day even if I’m not able to share.
If you would like to support my work and my family, one way you can do so is by ordering my zines:
Many thanks for your support.
todays conversational highlights:
Me: i didn't sleep much last night, had a drink, chatted on the phone and email. I was up at dawn.
Mom: I had some wine, chatted to so and so, but I was up 2, 3, 4, etc..I should have took that tylenol pm.
Me: Why didn't you mom?
Mom: I didn't want a hangover!
- on the way home from the hospital
Mom: I have to say one thing
Me: yeah.. ..
Mom: You are going much faster than you are suppposed to
Me: yeah...
Mom: I just thought you should know that I know.
Me: okay
- my brother and i call my folks "The Seinfelds" and sometimes "The Castanza's" . We still are able to find the humor. . thats a good thing
isolating ourselves is not easy. even for loners and recluses, like many of us are. many are restricted from those things they love to do, forced to stay indoors more than they like. i feel for you. i actually like being couped up with my glass and doodads.
i love that so many of you photograph the great outdoors and others record gorgeous architecture, complex and beautiful cityscapes. others specialize in the many fabulous faces of people all over the world. it's all good.
i like glass and since joining flickr, i have a place to share that passion. i see things in glass. i love how light passes through it and how it is captured within it. if you get truly bored and
feel imprisoned, start looking around your home and try thinking like margie. it starts with my imagination and of course, my camera.
with your imagination, you can go anywhere without ever going out the door. p.s. i never use my flash. only naked bulb and natural light.
I had this tiny sketchbook and one of my favorite pens in my jacket pocket nearly 2 weeks ago [10/3/22] while anxiously sitting in the waiting area at the hospital during my husband’s bronchoscopy that was being done so doctors could diagnose what type of lung infection my husband had in order to treat it effectively. I became even more anxious and overwhelmed when my husband’s lung transplant doctor came out and talked to me and let me know that his lungs looked bad enough that he would probably need to be admitted to the hospital. As I sat there, not knowing how I would manage to survive the anxiety, stress, fear, unknown and overwhelm I was experiencing, I pulled out this tiny sketchbook and wrote some phrases that came to mind in order to help myself try my best to cope. I am thankful for the gift we each have of listening to what may be helpful for us to cope in the moment.
To be continued…
As part of a creative endeavor I'm learning about making books. It was a joy that some of my children wanted to join me in learning a new skill. Gideon—age 12–made a few small sketchbooks and gave me one. I chose this green one and was naturally inspired to title it "grow" and fill it with pen & paper doodles that illustrate growth. Intuitively filling these pages with simple doodles as I faced intense physical and emotional struggles following very overwhelming hospitalizations and health complications was helpful in coping. To me I find it amazing how doing "little" things can add up and sometimes be helpful. I faced many intense moments and was thankful I could notice some benefits in making these basic doodles.
Your experience feels as though it's beyond explanation—trapped in terror, alone, isolated, the past takes over, fuzzy details, immobilized, panic, visionless, shaking in fear, re-living overwhelming buried emotions and tormenting physical experiences, voiceless, re-experiencing the unspeakable, difficulty breathing, sometimes completely unable to breathe, awful intensity that steals a desire to survive and live. In this state it seems impossible to even imagine there could be a window of escape, like you will always be held captive by evil. And somehow, you’ve survived these moments, though you’re often not sure how you keep fighting when your strength is failing. Slowly you are gaining more insight into your experience as you work so hard to keep fighting for life.
[image created on 2-23-2024]
Recently I became very fascinated by digital pinhole photography. This image was created with a modified pinhole body cap. I think I’m drawn to this type of photography because I feel it relates to my life and it seems to teach me far beyond photography. There are strict limitations that can drastically alter how images are captured and the final outcome of the photos, there is a lack of clarity compared to how I normally capture images with a lens, it’s difficult to predict exactly how the image will look and beauty and meaning can be found in the process and the final photo. It gives me a chance to practice embracing the unfamiliar, change, finding beauty in imperfection and growing in new ways.
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As a way to cope with circumstances beyond my control, survive and work to keep fighting for life I decided to try to take at least one photo (or more) each day. I call this “a photo (or more) a day.” Practicing this form of therapeutic photography helps me work to focus on the present moment, gives me something familiar and enjoyable to focus on as I use photography skills that have become like second-nature to me and being able to view the images I capture helps me recall what I was thinking, feeling and noticing at the moment when I created the photos. More of the photos from this series can be seen on my Instagram account
I may not always have the energy, time or capacity to share photos from this series—especially with the very challenging circumstances my family and I are experiencing—and will do my best to continue taking a photo (or more) a day even if I’m not able to share.
If you would like to support my work and my family, one way you can do so is by ordering my zines:
Many thanks for your support.
Now that's a business model right there. Snacks, sweets, junk food, alcohol, cigarettes - and also newspapers, so you don't risk running out of anxiety to cope with!
Even in the unknown, even in the middle of the intense and painful moments…trying to keep watching and looking for light
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Another of many images I’ve taken from the passenger seat on a drive home from one of my neurofeedback appointments. I never know how these images will turn out as we’re driving down one of the highways or the interstate we travel. This process of making photos of my surroundings really is helpful and calming for me.