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Fat Mum Slim's Photo a Day Challenge Day 50 (!) - Feb. 19 - Fresh
Fresh breath = chewing gum!
One of my daily routines...
This isn't a Photoshop picture by the way. I really captured it like this.
Canon 100D / SL1 with Canon 100mm f.2.8 USM macro
Chewing gum on top of a glass plate with blue paper beneath it. De glass and paper had some space between them. Water was sprayed on the glass and chewing gum.
Strobist: 1x Canon 580EXII right from camera and feathered to bounce white wall behind subjects. Triggered with Cactus V6
Processed in Lightroom 5 and Alien Skin Exposure 7
My daily routine of heckling the kids to up in the morning (what parent doesn't identify with that). And this morning I discovered the magic wand - my camera. Boy, he hates my camera (when its not a shot he wants me to take)
Canon EOS 400D + 50 mm f1.8 EF II
ES Esta foto fue tomada nuestro último día en Estambul. Nos gustó mucho, pero terminamos tan cansados visitando la ciudad que de verdad me gustaba la idea de volver a la rutina diaria en Madrid. Ahora que me tengo que levantar todos los días a las 6.30 de la mañana... bueno, no sé exactamente en qué estaba pensando :P
EN This picture was taken on our last day in Istanbul. We loved it, but we ended up so tired visiting the city that I really liked the idea of going back to my daily routine here in Madrid. Now that I have to wake up at 6.30 am everyday... well, I don't know exactly what I was thinking :P
Also for the Challenge 2013 Wk 4 - 'looking up or looking down'
The title refers to many things:-
Flat out chasing my tail because of a busy week, made even busier because of having to reschedule a few things due to the snowy conditions.
Flat out capturing this quite literally i.e. on my back on the floor of my lounge looking up at the lights- not only because I have a photo challenge of 'looking up' but it's part of my daily routine to lie flat out to do my head exercises for vertigo- only once a day though and purely to keep my brain wiring in trim to keep it at bay.
Processed in Lightroom to change the tones a little, but the vignette - effect is how the image turned out because it's so dark this morning.
Dear friends, you are more than welcome to visit my flickr.
These are some pictures regarding my third Lego MOC set named Dark-Age series.
After second series, An idea hit my mind one day. Most of real Batman vehicles are matte black, which Lego doesn't produce matte black bricks. Interestingly, I paint-sprayed the first batmobile, and then another, and then another.....It did take me long time and the whole procedures are troublesome and tedious. but the result is quite satisfying.
This set includes:
(1) Chibi Batcycle. Batcycle has very simple structure that I constructed by accident. And I built several motorcycle based on its chasis. The shape and style is more preferred aomong all my chibi vehicles. I personally consider it a very good-looking one by only using some old Lego small parts.
(2) Batmobile (Fomula-1 style): Browsing vehicles' desings online and acquire ideas is one of my daily routines -from deviantART etc. And learning something new about fashion, no matter old designs or concept designs, is also very fun. I built this batmobile after I saw this while looking for some inspiration:
www.techeblog.com/if-the-batmobile-was-an-f1-car/
(3) Bat Truck: One interesting fact about this series is that I attempted to built "side vehicles" and make them loaded onto the main vehicles because some modified official vehicles have thiese kind of function initially. The Bat Truck is actually a snow truck because I hope to build a multi-function series in the first place. And it is also my favorite one among six vehicles of this series.
(4) Bat Tank: Needless to say, this is obviously just a modified version of official set Lego 70588 Titanium Ninja Tumbler, I knew exactly what I had to do with it at first sight-matte black version-, and I call it amphibious bat for Batman can drive it both on land and in shallow water.
(5) Batsub: Another modified version from official one. There are literally 3 vehicles out of 6 that are from official sets. As I mentioned above, I wanted to build a series with multifunction concept. This Batsub is able to go on land, on the sea, and of course, under the sea. Please check out the "Ultra Agents - 70162" if you would like to know more info.
(6) Batwing (AKA Bat Bomber): No doubt about it. perhaps you can tell immediately that this is just another official Marvel superhero set- Quinjet.
There is no need to explain why I had to turn it into matte black version, or maybe it just my personal preference. I think this is the best Quinjet among all Lego Quinjet by far and so far.
Thank you so much for viewing my Lego works. More photos of other sets are coming in soon. My only intention is to share. Hope you like these cute toys. peace. :)
my Youtube:
Dear friends, you are more than welcome to visit my flickr.
These are some pictures regarding my third Lego MOC set named Dark-Age series.
After second series, An idea hit my mind one day. Most of real Batman vehicles are matte black, which Lego doesn't produce matte black bricks. Interestingly, I paint-sprayed the first batmobile, and then another, and then another.....It did take me long time and the whole procedures are troublesome and tedious. but the result is quite satisfying.
This set includes:
(1) Chibi Batcycle. Batcycle has very simple structure that I constructed by accident. And I built several motorcycle based on its chasis. The shape and style is more preferred aomong all my chibi vehicles. I personally consider it a very good-looking one by only using some old Lego small parts.
(2) Batmobile (Fomula-1 style): Browsing vehicles' desings online and acquire ideas is one of my daily routines -from deviantART etc. And learning something new about fashion, no matter old designs or concept designs, is also very fun. I built this batmobile after I saw this while looking for some inspiration:
www.techeblog.com/if-the-batmobile-was-an-f1-car/
(3) Bat Truck: One interesting fact about this series is that I attempted to built "side vehicles" and make them loaded onto the main vehicles because some modified official vehicles have thiese kind of function initially. The Bat Truck is actually a snow truck because I hope to build a multi-function series in the first place. And it is also my favorite one among six vehicles of this series.
(4) Bat Tank: Needless to say, this is obviously just a modified version of official set Lego 70588 Titanium Ninja Tumbler, I knew exactly what I had to do with it at first sight-matte black version-, and I call it amphibious bat for Batman can drive it both on land and in shallow water.
(5) Batsub: Another modified version from official one. There are literally 3 vehicles out of 6 that are from official sets. As I mentioned above, I wanted to build a series with multifunction concept. This Batsub is able to go on land, on the sea, and of course, under the sea. Please check out the "Ultra Agents - 70162" if you would like to know more info.
(6) Batwing (AKA Bat Bomber): No doubt about it. perhaps you can tell immediately that this is just another official Marvel superhero set- Quinjet.
There is no need to explain why I had to turn it into matte black version, or maybe it just my personal preference. I think this is the best Quinjet among all Lego Quinjet by far and so far.
Thank you so much for viewing my Lego works. More photos of other sets are coming in soon. My only intention is to share. Hope you like these cute toys. peace. :)
my Youtube:
Dear friends, you are more than welcome to visit my flickr.
These are some pictures regarding my third Lego MOC set named Dark-Age series.
After second series, An idea hit my mind one day. Most of real Batman vehicles are matte black, which Lego doesn't produce matte black bricks. Interestingly, I paint-sprayed the first batmobile, and then another, and then another.....It did take me long time and the whole procedures are troublesome and tedious. but the result is quite satisfying.
This set includes:
(1) Chibi Batcycle. Batcycle has very simple structure that I constructed by accident. And I built several motorcycle based on its chasis. The shape and style is more preferred aomong all my chibi vehicles. I personally consider it a very good-looking one by only using some old Lego small parts.
(2) Batmobile (Fomula-1 style): Browsing vehicles' desings online and acquire ideas is one of my daily routines -from deviantART etc. And learning something new about fashion, no matter old designs or concept designs, is also very fun. I built this batmobile after I saw this while looking for some inspiration:
www.techeblog.com/if-the-batmobile-was-an-f1-car/
(3) Bat Truck: One interesting fact about this series is that I attempted to built "side vehicles" and make them loaded onto the main vehicles because some modified official vehicles have thiese kind of function initially. The Bat Truck is actually a snow truck because I hope to build a multi-function series in the first place. And it is also my favorite one among six vehicles of this series.
(4) Bat Tank: Needless to say, this is obviously just a modified version of official set Lego 70588 Titanium Ninja Tumbler, I knew exactly what I had to do with it at first sight-matte black version-, and I call it amphibious bat for Batman can drive it both on land and in shallow water.
(5) Batsub: Another modified version from official one. There are literally 3 vehicles out of 6 that are from official sets. As I mentioned above, I wanted to build a series with multifunction concept. This Batsub is able to go on land, on the sea, and of course, under the sea. Please check out the "Ultra Agents - 70162" if you would like to know more info.
(6) Batwing (AKA Bat Bomber): No doubt about it. perhaps you can tell immediately that this is just another official Marvel superhero set- Quinjet.
There is no need to explain why I had to turn it into matte black version, or maybe it just my personal preference. I think this is the best Quinjet among all Lego Quinjet by far and so far.
Thank you so much for viewing my Lego works. More photos of other sets are coming in soon. My only intention is to share. Hope you like these cute toys. peace. :)
my Youtube:
It’s a rainy morning—no empty table in the coffee shop. I share a table with a stranger (a young guy). He works on the computer; I open my book. I stared out the window; a woman had just walked by with a blue-yellow umbrella (colors of the Ukrainian flag). My espresso is bitter, but that’s how I like it. It costs $3 now, but you get unlimited drinking water for free, which is a good deal when one lives in Brooklyn. And with today’s inflation, even free water is a great deal. But 30 minutes of espresso with a book is the fav part of my daily routine. So simple, and yet it makes my day.
1. White paper - theme for Macro Monday, 2. Oma's mug, 3. cheesecake mouse, 4. fire in the background, 5. 1 nose HMM, 6. HFF, 7. big sky, 8. "My Daily Routine" HMM,
9. it's a natural light, 10. sharp knife in cheese, 11. face the sun, 12. Happy Fence Friday, 13. crowd of hearts, 14. My Wish for You, 15. a little bee hind, 16. hangover,
17. hangover, 18. flickr.com/photos/89558325@N00/5380405745/, 19. Earth Hour 2010, 20. Yippy skippy we have snow!!!, 21. wolf moon, 22. keeping a look out for ....., 23. welcome to the lakehouse, 24. after the rain......,
25. hiding, 26. hidden, 27. one rainy day, 28. Untitled, 29. Case-keh, 30. desperate for green, 31. Sadie and Grace, 32. Wet hearts,
33. snowy muzzle, 34. Basset Tracks, 35. Go Nutmeg Go, 36. cold misty fog rolling in, 37. Look into my eyes......, 38. Into the wind, 39. Great place to hide things, 40. Hush Puppy eat shoes!!!,
41. Red Dog, 42. Trouble in the Bathroom, 43. Sunny days, 44. Blue on Blue, 45. Nose cleaning, 46. Happy Spring, 47. Slurp, 48. Jail?????,
49. The Blue Petals, 50. Chesley Raft, 51. the Easter Bunny left me a...., 52. Flying along, 53. Found It!, 54. Lily of the Valley, 55. Having Fun, 56. Here I come!!!!!!!,
57. Noses, 58. So many faces, 59. Ears, 60. Our Nutmeg, 61. Welcome home little one., 62. Brownie and Nutmeg, 63. The Nose, 64. Please,
65. Wink
Created with fd's Flickr Toys
Dear friends, you are more than welcome to visit my flickr.
These are some pictures regarding my third Lego MOC set named Dark-Age series.
After second series, An idea hit my mind one day. Most of real Batman vehicles are matte black, which Lego doesn't produce matte black bricks. Interestingly, I paint-sprayed the first batmobile, and then another, and then another.....It did take me long time and the whole procedures are troublesome and tedious. but the result is quite satisfying.
This set includes:
(1) Chibi Batcycle. Batcycle has very simple structure that I constructed by accident. And I built several motorcycle based on its chasis. The shape and style is more preferred aomong all my chibi vehicles. I personally consider it a very good-looking one by only using some old Lego small parts.
(2) Batmobile (Fomula-1 style): Browsing vehicles' desings online and acquire ideas is one of my daily routines -from deviantART etc. And learning something new about fashion, no matter old designs or concept designs, is also very fun. I built this batmobile after I saw this while looking for some inspiration:
www.techeblog.com/if-the-batmobile-was-an-f1-car/
(3) Bat Truck: One interesting fact about this series is that I attempted to built "side vehicles" and make them loaded onto the main vehicles because some modified official vehicles have thiese kind of function initially. The Bat Truck is actually a snow truck because I hope to build a multi-function series in the first place. And it is also my favorite one among six vehicles of this series.
(4) Bat Tank: Needless to say, this is obviously just a modified version of official set Lego 70588 Titanium Ninja Tumbler, I knew exactly what I had to do with it at first sight-matte black version-, and I call it amphibious bat for Batman can drive it both on land and in shallow water.
(5) Batsub: Another modified version from official one. There are literally 3 vehicles out of 6 that are from official sets. As I mentioned above, I wanted to build a series with multifunction concept. This Batsub is able to go on land, on the sea, and of course, under the sea. Please check out the "Ultra Agents - 70162" if you would like to know more info.
(6) Batwing (AKA Bat Bomber): No doubt about it. perhaps you can tell immediately that this is just another official Marvel superhero set- Quinjet.
There is no need to explain why I had to turn it into matte black version, or maybe it just my personal preference. I think this is the best Quinjet among all Lego Quinjet by far and so far.
Thank you so much for viewing my Lego works. More photos of other sets are coming in soon. My only intention is to share. Hope you like these cute toys. peace. :)
my Youtube:
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Weer thuis na 3 weken kamperen in Spanje. Even in het ritme komen ;-)
Back home after 3 weeks camping in Spain. Need some time to get back in my daily routine ;-)
"This is a group that really got on. The rapport and chemical connection between all of these people was significant – unusual in my experience – and they worked together very well as a team, handing everybody their moment." Director Kenneth Branagh
Everybody, watch your back.
This remake of Agatha Christie's classic murder mystery, Murder on the Orient Express, boast an all-star cast and beautiful scenery. Detective Hercule Poirot (Kenneth Branagh) boards the glamorous train with an eye on a vacation, but he ends up leading an investigation on board after a passenger is brutally murdered overnight. When an avalanche blocks the train on the tracks in the snowy mountains, everyone is trapped with the murderer on board. Don't worry, the world's greatest detective is on the case.
I had a plan.
When this movie came out, I had a lot of unexpected things going on in my life. I just finished a rushed job search to avoid an expected layoff situation. I got a new job before that happened but struggled to adjust to everything about it. All of my daily routines were thwarted for months, and I was still struggling to create new ones. Johnny couldn't have shown up at a better time to cheer me up over Veteran's Day weekend!
"I do remember reading Agatha Christie books as a kid and loving them," Johnny Depp says. "The detail with which she approaches her books and these characters and her observations is astonishing."
I've never read any Agatha Christie books, but I know Detective Hercule Poirot is a beloved recurring character in many of them. When I saw the 1974 version of Murder on the Orient Express years ago, I didn't understand the appeal of this goofy detective with his ridiculous mustache, over-the-top quirks and accent, and odd behavior. He doesn't fit in with any of the people around him, but maybe that's the point: he views the world differently, and that makes him the world's greatest detective. I think he's starting to grow on me. I rewatched the 1974 version recently and liked it better, but I also fell asleep. In any case, in this updated version, I was more interested in Johnny's character, Edward Ratchett.
Per my usual weekend routine, I stayed up too late Friday night and got up too early Saturday morning to walk over to yoga class. I walked home to drop off my yoga mat, change my clothes, and eat a quick breakfast. Then, I walked quickly to get to the theater. I had 5 minutes to spare until the next showing, and only one seat was available – in the front row. I considered this fate, took it, and got popcorn.
About 30 seconds into the movie, an alarm went off in the theater, telling everyone to evacuate the building. We stood outside in the cold November sunshine, eating our warm popcorn until we were let back in without any explanation. When we got back in our seats, the movie resumed where it had left off – but with only the sound working and not the picture. By then, I reacted with a huff that made the person sitting next to me laugh. (I was thinking that this whole experience represented the highs and lows of my employment adventure.) A staff member came in to tell us that the movie would start over in a few minutes. By then, my popcorn was half gone.
The last time I saw Johnny at the movies was in Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Men Tell No Tales. In that movie, Captain Jack first appears more drunk than usual, and it made me sad because I immediately and irrationally thought of all the gossip I'd been reading about Johnny's real-life personal problems, and I wondered how he was really doing. This time, when Johnny showed up as Edward Rachett, a mobster arriving to board the Orient Express, hearts were shooting out of my eyeballs. He looked like a movie star! The look made me think of Humphrey Bogart in Casablanca! This role reminded me of Johnny's fantastic turn in Public Enemies. I loved the scars on his face. I loved the accent. I loved the clothes. I loved everything!!!
But I fell asleep – right at the end when they reveal the murderer!
Let's see this movie again.
Netflix sent me Murder on the Orient Express as soon as it was released on DVD. This time, I had no trouble staying awake, and I loved it for many reasons.
I was thrilled when I heard Johnny was involved with this project because it was to be directed by and star Kenneth Branagh. I couldn't wait to see them act together. They only have one scene, but I'll take it. Shooting the scene resulted in several versions full of improvised moments. "I wanted him in awe," Kenneth Branagh says. "For me, it was a master class to be had as an actor and director – watching actors of tremendous technical accomplishment, clear charisma, and fine talent. To have somebody of Johnny's stature come in and so generously play this darker character, and see him enjoying playing it. And, across a day and a half of improvisation, to really feel his freedom in front of the camera was quite intoxicating to watch and to play with. There was nothing you could do improvising that would throw him."
My favorite part of this movie isn't even fully in it. On the DVD, however, you can find the extended scene, during which all of the characters are introduced and board the train. It's one continuous shot that follows Hercule Poirot from the bazaar across the street, to the train station, to the ticket agent, onto the train, and down its slim corridor, where he meets various passengers on the way to his bunk. I loved how it was choreographed. Well done, director!
I was excited to hear about all the other great people who signed on for this movie: Judi Dench, Michelle Pfeiffer, Penelope Cruz, and Willem Dafoe had all worked with Johnny before, and I liked the idea of this reunion. Also, hearing that Derek Jacobi was in the cast made me nearly as excited as Kenneth Branagh. Everyone is fantastic, and all of these interesting characters have full backstories. The film feels like a play with this ensemble cast confined to the space of the train. Everyone seemed to work well together, and no one stole the spotlight. By all accounts, this was a happy set and it shows – except during the murder scene.
The kitties did it.
I couldn't decide on one scene to highlight from this film, so this illustration is a compilation. I loved when Edward Rachett (Johnny Depp/Gordon) opened some mirrored cabinets and stared at himself for a few seconds. I imagined he was reflecting on whatever he'd done, and I liked seeing all the angles. The threatening letter is revealed in a different scene. Also, I wanted to include a few of my other favorite people, so here Edward Masterman (Derek Jacobi/Comet) brings Mr. Rachett his coffee while Hercule Poirot (Kenneth Branagh/B.J.) and Caroline Hubbard (Michelle Pfeiffer/The Mother Kitty) lurk outside his doorway.
Johnny's also busy rocking!
These days, you can catch Johnny on tour with his band, Hollywood Vampires. I saw online that – obviously for me – he's singing David Bowie's "Heroes" during the shows! (You heard me right: he's singing it, up front!) Check out the tour schedule for a venue near you.
What's next?
In March, Johnny was in theaters lending his voice to Sherlock Gnomes, a cute sequel to Gnomeo and Juliet. The DVD will be out soon, so the kitties and I will get to work.
What is Johnny Kitties?
To see this and other original blog posts, please visit Melissa's Kitties: melissaconnolly.blogspot.com. You can find more film reviews and artwork celebrating Johnny Depp's work on Melissa's Kitties Johnny Kitties page (melissaconnolly.blogspot.com/p/johnny-kitties-celebrating...). Thanks for reading!
The morning stroll along the beach with a coffee in one hand and a camera in the other was my daily routine.
Diamond Head Crater is out to the right. The first tourists of the day were probably up on top looking down on the city below.
s a m s t a c k is here visiting me!
He was one day sitting in a bar in Cologne and sent this mail: I'd love to invite you and Joakim to a Trentemøller concert in Copenhagen - I'd love to come!
Well - there was this world-tour-ending concert with him in The Grey Hall - practically my neighbors. We went there yesterday - and it was mindblowingly good!
I tell you - it's very hard for a guy my age to become 20 years younger in a night! It'll take me a few days to get back to my daily routines :-))
We've talked a lot - about the 99% and other matters of the most upmost importance - like music, sex, how to run a business and a lot more...
Thanks to Sam for trusting me - and for a more than wonderful night with Trentemøller - it was a most intense weekend but also a weekend of great joy!
(And of course we drank too much, but Sam's Irish and I'm Danish - what would you expect?)
HU is a strong advocate of internationalization, as such it took an initiative to develop linkages with AIESEC, which is a Global Youth Organization that facilitates international student exchange and internship programs around the globe. HU male & female students were selected in a very competitive global selection system for internships in Turkey, Indonesia & Malaysia, where they worked for a period of 1-2 months in various leading organisations.
Sehar Sarwar is one of them, and we are very proud of her accomplishments. She is currently pursing BBA (Hons.) from Hajvery University, and she's written an article 'Unforgettable Indonesia' to describe her experience with AIESEC and working in Indonesia.
Nama saya sehar, saya dari Pakistan (My name is Sehar, I’m from Pakistan). Well that is just little introduction in Indonesian language (bahasa). I am studying business administration in HU and currently enrolled in my second last semester. I recently came back from Indonesia after doing 45 days internship there. This tremendous and valuable opportunity was provided by HU in collaboration with AIESEC Pakistan. AIESEC, the world’s largest student organization, is the international platform for young people to discover and develop their potential so as to have a positive impact on society. I was awarded with GCDP (global community development program) in Indonesia. I went to the capital city Jakarta, where AIESEC is run by some passionate students of UI (university of Indonesia).
It was life changing experience. I learned a lot from the Project that I worked in, BISA AIDS. In Indonesia HIV Aids rate is very high and every day people are dying of it. Being a business student, getting knowledge on HIV was absolutely new and ofcourse useful for me. Besides this I got an opportunity to work with different people from Brazil, Japan, China, Philippine, and Holland. I also learned from them on HIV Aids conditions in their countries. First we got training from an NGO and UI LC then we visited different high school students to give awareness on HIV. It was pretty interesting project, and I really enjoyed interacting with Indonesian students, they were so enthusiastic. I enjoyed the project because I was working for a good cause besides this I shared Pakistani culture, language and about myself so everybody enjoyed learning from each other. As part of a project, we raised some funds for HIV Aids patients and donated it to a NGO. It was a feeling that I just can’t describe in words. I learned basic Indonesian language as well. Overall this exposure was really good for my personal as well as professional life.
Well that was about the project and my daily routine there. As far as the country is concerned, it’s more or less like Pakistan. Indonesia is a Muslim country, Jakarta is the capital. A lot of people come here from other cities to work, so it's quite populated; weather is hot and rainy. In my opinion people are more religious there and involved in socio-economic development activities specially youth, traditional cloths are limited to special occasions only and they wear casual western cloths in daily routine. Pace of life is very fast there, people are involved in many activities besides studies and work, the roads are flooded with heavy traffic. Jakarta is a city of modern big malls, food is extremely delicious but spicy. Martabak is the traditional sweet, really delicious but its oily pancake and so not healthy, but still everybody loves it.
I observed Significant changes in language, food, business development and economical conditions, and clothes. Currently this country is facing problems in terms of heavy traffics, over population, heavy rains and corruption but on the other hand they are participating in development activities and striving for change. Literacy rate is good with 92 %. Economical conditions are good too. It’s a good country to invest in.
Most of the times I use to travel alone, using public transports but with directions provided by AIESECERS. As I mentioned above the traffic conditions are worst, it takes too much time to go from one place to another. Train is the fastest mode of travel. In the beginning it was little hard to travel alone for a girl who has never experienced in her own country, but with time I managed myself and now I consider it really good. It made me more confident and after it I actually found that I can travel the whole world alone.
I made a new best friend there, and I miss her very much. She was with me most of the times, she was not in my project, nor an AIESECER, but the love and friendship is unconditional. I really miss our hang outs, the trips in which we enjoyed together. This one time, I cooked our Pakistani food for her family and they just LOVED it. Beautiful memories!
It was an internship but for me a vacation too. In Jakarta I visited Monus, kota tua (old city), some museums, explored mouth watering Indonesian food in exotic restaurants, splash every weekend hangout for fun loving people, karaoke etc but the real beauty is the Indonesian islands and so I have been to unforgettable trips to islands and other cities like Tidung Island, Green canyon, botanical garden in bogor, Bali (a must visit if you go Indonesia, people say its heaven and after being there I really believe it specially at dream land beach and jimbaran).
I personally find the Indonesians very helping, hospitable, and friendly people with smiling faces. Every day I met different people working in different projects; while traveling they curiously asked about Pakistan and our culture. Some of my friends from Holland used to think that Pakistan is a victim of terrorism because of religion, but I gave them examples of our Prophet Muhammad (s.w.w) and told them that Islam is a religion of peace and this conversation went for quite long, I am happy that now they think otherwise. I feel proud that I represent my country, many people and my religion and left a very positive image behind. I made many friends and visited their families and this gives me a chance to know more about Indonesian people who don’t know you but still make you feel like a family.
During the internship I made friends from many countries including Brazil, Indonesia, Estonia, China, Japan, Holland, and India. It’s really good to know them, their countries, culture, our hang out, trips and everything. We are in touch and talk about the time we spent together and that brings smiles and big laughter.
From this internship the most important thing I have gained is that in the project I played my role as a team leader and so I have gain the leadership skills, a lot more confidence by traveling on my own. I was the master of ceremony for AIESEC info session 2012 at Binus university and that makes my communication skills more strong. It really makes you feel great that you are working for the betterment of mankind and global development. After this internship I found the right way for my career. I believe there are many ways open if you have a passion to stand out among millions of people.
There is a lot more to write but I can’t go for that so why don’t you be an AIESECER and experience it by yourself. I highly recommend youth to work for the betterment of your country as well as for the world and make it a better place to live. Step forward and be a true diplomat of your country.
Hajvery University, Office of Foreign Affairs & Planning cultivates and nurtures the spirit of Internationalization at HU. Our mission is to foster, support and materialize the goals of HU in becoming a competitive and global university. Which promotes tolerance of cultures and celebrates diversity, and fosters the growth of multicultural society by adding flavors of the world to the teaching and learning environment at HU.
For Further Information, Queries regarding Study Abroad opportunities at Hajvery University (HU), and Study Abroad Scholarships contact:
Office of Foreign Affairs & Planning
Hajvery University (HU)
Email : intl@hup.edu.pk
web: hup.edu.pk/offices/foriegn-affairs-a-planning
If you liked this post, you will definitely enjoy reading these posts:
Hajvery Unviersity (HU) Study Abroad Scholarship holder Wajiha Hassan talks about her experience in Istanbul, Turkey.
Orientation Seminar for HU Study Abroad Students.
HU in International Landscape.
Istanbul Technical University (ITU) and Hajvery University (HU) sign MoU of Educational Cooperation & Scientific Research
Hajvery University (HU) is one of the leading Universities in Lahore. HU is Chartered by Govt. Of Pakistan, Accredited by Higher Education Commission of Pakistan (HEC) and rated W category. HU is a progressive, Student Centric University, focused on offering rigorous, market driven courses in Business, Fashion, Engineering, Computer sciences, Textile Design, Media Studies, Economics, Commerce, Pharmacy & English For details:
UAN: 042-111-777-007
Website: www.hup.edu.pk
email: info@hup.edu.pk
School is keeping me so darn busy!!! I come home at 4pm. I always eat after school, so that takes like a few minutes. After, I usually go straight to taking my 365 photo and the computer is not always available for me to edit and upload... so that really sucks. I don't have my OWN computer :| By the time it's 6, I'm all rushing, because on some days, I have homework. Also, I have to watch TFC (The Filipino Channel), Cos I'm really into this new soap opera HAHA!!! Then I have to shower, dry my hair, straighten it.. WELL, that took up my whole evening. My afternoons/evenings are usually already crammed without this project, imagine adding this to my daily routine... :| Sooo much to do. So I apologize if I upload late! Hihi.. Better late than never!
K I T T Y is listening to . . .
Cinnamon GIrl - Lana del Rey
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- Works with adults or kids.
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The Kawaii Lil Angel Blush keychain is a delightful accessory that quickly became a favorite. The cute lil angel on the end and the 'angel' strap add a whimsical touch, bringing positivity to my daily routine. With a variety of colors, it effortlessly complements different outfits. This keychain is not just a stylish accessory but also a tiny reminder of serenity in the midst of chaos. It's a charming addition that exceeds expectations, making it a must-have for those seeking a unique and versatile keychain
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♩ Top: Hime Dream - Nikki Top
♩ Bottom: Hime Dream - Nikki Jeans
♩ Wings: Void - Angel Wings
♩ Shoes: Paparoto - Meldody Boots
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♫ Base: Enfer Sombre - Bonnie
♫ Main: Usagi Society - Mask Hair w/ Braid
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♩ Eye Socket: Enfer Sombre - Eye Socket
♩ Set: Moonwaii - Lil Kawaii
♩ Lashes: Void - Demure ( bottom ) + Ottlie - Barbie Lashes ( top )
♩ Eyeliner: Tear - Liv Eyeliner
♩ Lips: Boopy - Neac Lipstick
♩ Highlights: Tear - Vex Essentials
♩ Ouchies: Rouxs - Scratches Face + Spanks: Rouxs - Spank Me
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♫ Bellyring: Yomi - Shattered Naval Piercing
♫ Nose Right: Bloom - Bunny Piercing + Left: Fewness - Circles Nose Piercing
♫ Earrings: E.marie - Taryn Earrings
♫ Necklace: Kibitz - Luna's Necklace
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♩ Chest + Shoulders + Arms: Rotten - Sweet Love Spell Rules ( alluring ) + Rotten Flutter Magic
♩ Pelvis: Rotten - Sweet Love Spell Rules ( alluring )
♩ Hands: Rotten - Pure Hands ( black ink )
♩ Thighs: Oni'Babe - I'm Your Girl + Rotten - Flutter Magic
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♩ Body: Legacy Perky
♩ Head: Lelutka Ceylon
♩ Eyes: s0ng - Kerttu Eyes
♩ Skin: Little Foxy Beauty- Garam Skin
♩ Ears: Swallow - Pixie Gauged (s)
♩ Nails: Livia - Desi Bento Nails
♩ Body Shines - Marpesia + Arana
♩ Other: Moonwaii - Upgrade Myself vol. 2
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today is may 17th, & I should be studying for my test tomorrow.
but i needed to relieve some stress, so i decided i need to do my photo of the day,
so took out the camera, & started shooting! :)
the title of this photo is explained in Fact #1.
so I was tagged by sarah,
10 facts about me, here i go ~ (i really hope i dont repeat my facts)
1. as you see in the photo, i have a planner, that i write everything in it. it is my daily routine to write in it, about my day, my expenses and future events that i plan. :) i started this recording of my life since 2008.
2. as a college student, i dont really have much time to sit and watch TV like i use to, studying and school has taken over my life :(
3. i plan on doing a camera upgrade sometime soon, :) & i am super excited about it!
thinking.. thinking...
4. in a one-month span, i lost about 10 pounds. But my dad still tells me i'm fat. HAHA, he keeps telling me to go exercise!
5. i use to play the violin when i was in elementary school, but now i forgot everything i learned! ><
6. i want to start my own photography business, but i have no clue what i need to do. Little steps first, right??
7. Whenever I see my best friend, the both of us just end up crying together after a long heart-to-heart conversation about our life's problems.
8. I am super bummed that I can't go to Vietnam this year, BUT i am planning on going on some trips this summer, that I am super excited about! :)
9. i wish i could just go away for a long time...& just have some "me" time, to gather my thoughts.... like just take a drive somewhere, & make surprise visits!!
10. I hate to disappoint people, especially my family and my very close friends.
okaay, i am done! whew. that was hard. okay. So If i tagged you, up to you, if you want to do the ten facts.... if not, its alll gooooooood :)
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[... the following is a work of fiction ... or is it? ...]
We had met on a stormy New York winter night. I was finally getting out of the office a few minutes shy of midnight, exhausted from a long week of work and looking forward to getting out of the rain and into my soft snoopy pajamas waiting for me in my one bedroom flat. I hailed a cab coming down the dark, lonely city street and just as I was jumping over the last puddle separating me from my yellow safe heaven, she came out of no where and with the elegance of an invertebrate ballerina, stole my cab. She was a blur of beautiful gossamer jelly, her elegant tendrils floated around her like a crown and a guy could not ask for a more gorgeous yellow central nervous system. She must have been a princess sent up to me by Neptune himself.
I was standing there in the middle of the rain, completely dumbfounded and as the cab pulled away my eyes met her ocelli and she gave me a sultry smile. It took me a solid five minutes to come out of my daze and by that time I was completely drenched, but a radiating warmth was spreading from my heart. Who was this jelly beauty? How would I ever find her again?
These questions assailed my mind every day as I went through the drudgery of my daily routine and tried in vain to sleep at night. A few days passed, followed by a few weeks which turned into months and still I was not allowed to gaze upon her radiance. What terrible heartache! Why had the gods seen fit to show me such splendor only to deny me the happiness of seeing her again?
A long year had gone by and my mind had convinced me that I had imagined her, but my heart stubbornly held on to hope. One day, just as my heart too weak to go on, I caught a glimpse of a delicate tentacle rounding a corner. It was her! I ran as fast as I could, rounded the corner and there she was … even more magical than anything my imagination could conceive. She was floating in place staring directly at me with a sad knowing gaze. As I called out for her I saw a tear swell up and fall down her slick see-through epidermis as she slowly turned to climb into a large limousine. A white-gloved hand took her tendril and helped her in before a large armed guard closed the door firmly behind her as the limousine pulled out with an escort of vehicles.
I found myself standing dumbfounded yet again asking myself who she was. I must have said it out loud because a gentleman standing next to me answered, “You don’t know who that was? Why, that is Prince Stinkyfoot’s fiancee, of course. They met at a dinner party about a year ago not too far from here and were engaged to be married soon thereafter. Lucky guy, this Prince Stinkyfoot.”
It has been many years now since that incident, and I hear that she has taken well to her royal duties. I take solace in the fact that every year on the anniversary of her departure, I place this photograph of her on the street corner where we last saw each other and the next day I find the same photograph with a simple note elegantly written on the back reading, “You are my one and only vertebrate love.”
HU is a strong advocate of internationalization, as such it took an initiative to develop linkages with AIESEC, which is a Global Youth Organization that facilitates international student exchange and internship programs around the globe. HU male & female students were selected in a very competitive global selection system for internships in Turkey, Indonesia & Malaysia, where they worked for a period of 1-2 months in various leading organisations.
Sehar Sarwar is one of them, and we are very proud of her accomplishments. She is currently pursing BBA (Hons.) from Hajvery University, and she's written an article 'Unforgettable Indonesia' to describe her experience with AIESEC and working in Indonesia.
Nama saya sehar, saya dari Pakistan (My name is Sehar, I’m from Pakistan). Well that is just little introduction in Indonesian language (bahasa). I am studying business administration in HU and currently enrolled in my second last semester. I recently came back from Indonesia after doing 45 days internship there. This tremendous and valuable opportunity was provided by HU in collaboration with AIESEC Pakistan. AIESEC, the world’s largest student organization, is the international platform for young people to discover and develop their potential so as to have a positive impact on society. I was awarded with GCDP (global community development program) in Indonesia. I went to the capital city Jakarta, where AIESEC is run by some passionate students of UI (university of Indonesia).
It was life changing experience. I learned a lot from the Project that I worked in, BISA AIDS. In Indonesia HIV Aids rate is very high and every day people are dying of it. Being a business student, getting knowledge on HIV was absolutely new and ofcourse useful for me. Besides this I got an opportunity to work with different people from Brazil, Japan, China, Philippine, and Holland. I also learned from them on HIV Aids conditions in their countries. First we got training from an NGO and UI LC then we visited different high school students to give awareness on HIV. It was pretty interesting project, and I really enjoyed interacting with Indonesian students, they were so enthusiastic. I enjoyed the project because I was working for a good cause besides this I shared Pakistani culture, language and about myself so everybody enjoyed learning from each other. As part of a project, we raised some funds for HIV Aids patients and donated it to a NGO. It was a feeling that I just can’t describe in words. I learned basic Indonesian language as well. Overall this exposure was really good for my personal as well as professional life.
Well that was about the project and my daily routine there. As far as the country is concerned, it’s more or less like Pakistan. Indonesia is a Muslim country, Jakarta is the capital. A lot of people come here from other cities to work, so it's quite populated; weather is hot and rainy. In my opinion people are more religious there and involved in socio-economic development activities specially youth, traditional cloths are limited to special occasions only and they wear casual western cloths in daily routine. Pace of life is very fast there, people are involved in many activities besides studies and work, the roads are flooded with heavy traffic. Jakarta is a city of modern big malls, food is extremely delicious but spicy. Martabak is the traditional sweet, really delicious but its oily pancake and so not healthy, but still everybody loves it.
I observed Significant changes in language, food, business development and economical conditions, and clothes. Currently this country is facing problems in terms of heavy traffics, over population, heavy rains and corruption but on the other hand they are participating in development activities and striving for change. Literacy rate is good with 92 %. Economical conditions are good too. It’s a good country to invest in.
Most of the times I use to travel alone, using public transports but with directions provided by AIESECERS. As I mentioned above the traffic conditions are worst, it takes too much time to go from one place to another. Train is the fastest mode of travel. In the beginning it was little hard to travel alone for a girl who has never experienced in her own country, but with time I managed myself and now I consider it really good. It made me more confident and after it I actually found that I can travel the whole world alone.
I made a new best friend there, and I miss her very much. She was with me most of the times, she was not in my project, nor an AIESECER, but the love and friendship is unconditional. I really miss our hang outs, the trips in which we enjoyed together. This one time, I cooked our Pakistani food for her family and they just LOVED it. Beautiful memories!
It was an internship but for me a vacation too. In Jakarta I visited Monus, kota tua (old city), some museums, explored mouth watering Indonesian food in exotic restaurants, splash every weekend hangout for fun loving people, karaoke etc but the real beauty is the Indonesian islands and so I have been to unforgettable trips to islands and other cities like Tidung Island, Green canyon, botanical garden in bogor, Bali (a must visit if you go Indonesia, people say its heaven and after being there I really believe it specially at dream land beach and jimbaran).
I personally find the Indonesians very helping, hospitable, and friendly people with smiling faces. Every day I met different people working in different projects; while traveling they curiously asked about Pakistan and our culture. Some of my friends from Holland used to think that Pakistan is a victim of terrorism because of religion, but I gave them examples of our Prophet Muhammad (s.w.w) and told them that Islam is a religion of peace and this conversation went for quite long, I am happy that now they think otherwise. I feel proud that I represent my country, many people and my religion and left a very positive image behind. I made many friends and visited their families and this gives me a chance to know more about Indonesian people who don’t know you but still make you feel like a family.
During the internship I made friends from many countries including Brazil, Indonesia, Estonia, China, Japan, Holland, and India. It’s really good to know them, their countries, culture, our hang out, trips and everything. We are in touch and talk about the time we spent together and that brings smiles and big laughter.
From this internship the most important thing I have gained is that in the project I played my role as a team leader and so I have gain the leadership skills, a lot more confidence by traveling on my own. I was the master of ceremony for AIESEC info session 2012 at Binus university and that makes my communication skills more strong. It really makes you feel great that you are working for the betterment of mankind and global development. After this internship I found the right way for my career. I believe there are many ways open if you have a passion to stand out among millions of people.
There is a lot more to write but I can’t go for that so why don’t you be an AIESECER and experience it by yourself. I highly recommend youth to work for the betterment of your country as well as for the world and make it a better place to live. Step forward and be a true diplomat of your country.
Hajvery University, Office of Foreign Affairs & Planning cultivates and nurtures the spirit of Internationalization at HU. Our mission is to foster, support and materialize the goals of HU in becoming a competitive and global university. Which promotes tolerance of cultures and celebrates diversity, and fosters the growth of multicultural society by adding flavors of the world to the teaching and learning environment at HU.
For Further Information, Queries regarding Study Abroad opportunities at Hajvery University (HU), and Study Abroad Scholarships contact:
Office of Foreign Affairs & Planning
Hajvery University (HU)
Email : intl@hup.edu.pk
web: hup.edu.pk/offices/foriegn-affairs-a-planning
If you liked this post, you will definitely enjoy reading these posts:
Hajvery Unviersity (HU) Study Abroad Scholarship holder Wajiha Hassan talks about her experience in Istanbul, Turkey.
Orientation Seminar for HU Study Abroad Students.
HU in International Landscape.
Istanbul Technical University (ITU) and Hajvery University (HU) sign MoU of Educational Cooperation & Scientific Research
Hajvery University (HU) is one of the leading Universities in Lahore. HU is Chartered by Govt. Of Pakistan, Accredited by Higher Education Commission of Pakistan (HEC) and rated W category. HU is a progressive, Student Centric University, focused on offering rigorous, market driven courses in Business, Fashion, Engineering, Computer sciences, Textile Design, Media Studies, Economics, Commerce, Pharmacy & English For details:
UAN: 042-111-777-007
Website: www.hup.edu.pk
email: info@hup.edu.pk
HU is a strong advocate of internationalization, as such it took an initiative to develop linkages with AIESEC, which is a Global Youth Organization that facilitates international student exchange and internship programs around the globe. HU male & female students were selected in a very competitive global selection system for internships in Turkey, Indonesia & Malaysia, where they worked for a period of 1-2 months in various leading organisations.
Sehar Sarwar is one of them, and we are very proud of her accomplishments. She is currently pursing BBA (Hons.) from Hajvery University, and she's written an article 'Unforgettable Indonesia' to describe her experience with AIESEC and working in Indonesia.
Nama saya sehar, saya dari Pakistan (My name is Sehar, I’m from Pakistan). Well that is just little introduction in Indonesian language (bahasa). I am studying business administration in HU and currently enrolled in my second last semester. I recently came back from Indonesia after doing 45 days internship there. This tremendous and valuable opportunity was provided by HU in collaboration with AIESEC Pakistan. AIESEC, the world’s largest student organization, is the international platform for young people to discover and develop their potential so as to have a positive impact on society. I was awarded with GCDP (global community development program) in Indonesia. I went to the capital city Jakarta, where AIESEC is run by some passionate students of UI (university of Indonesia).
It was life changing experience. I learned a lot from the Project that I worked in, BISA AIDS. In Indonesia HIV Aids rate is very high and every day people are dying of it. Being a business student, getting knowledge on HIV was absolutely new and ofcourse useful for me. Besides this I got an opportunity to work with different people from Brazil, Japan, China, Philippine, and Holland. I also learned from them on HIV Aids conditions in their countries. First we got training from an NGO and UI LC then we visited different high school students to give awareness on HIV. It was pretty interesting project, and I really enjoyed interacting with Indonesian students, they were so enthusiastic. I enjoyed the project because I was working for a good cause besides this I shared Pakistani culture, language and about myself so everybody enjoyed learning from each other. As part of a project, we raised some funds for HIV Aids patients and donated it to a NGO. It was a feeling that I just can’t describe in words. I learned basic Indonesian language as well. Overall this exposure was really good for my personal as well as professional life.
Well that was about the project and my daily routine there. As far as the country is concerned, it’s more or less like Pakistan. Indonesia is a Muslim country, Jakarta is the capital. A lot of people come here from other cities to work, so it's quite populated; weather is hot and rainy. In my opinion people are more religious there and involved in socio-economic development activities specially youth, traditional cloths are limited to special occasions only and they wear casual western cloths in daily routine. Pace of life is very fast there, people are involved in many activities besides studies and work, the roads are flooded with heavy traffic. Jakarta is a city of modern big malls, food is extremely delicious but spicy. Martabak is the traditional sweet, really delicious but its oily pancake and so not healthy, but still everybody loves it.
I observed Significant changes in language, food, business development and economical conditions, and clothes. Currently this country is facing problems in terms of heavy traffics, over population, heavy rains and corruption but on the other hand they are participating in development activities and striving for change. Literacy rate is good with 92 %. Economical conditions are good too. It’s a good country to invest in.
Most of the times I use to travel alone, using public transports but with directions provided by AIESECERS. As I mentioned above the traffic conditions are worst, it takes too much time to go from one place to another. Train is the fastest mode of travel. In the beginning it was little hard to travel alone for a girl who has never experienced in her own country, but with time I managed myself and now I consider it really good. It made me more confident and after it I actually found that I can travel the whole world alone.
I made a new best friend there, and I miss her very much. She was with me most of the times, she was not in my project, nor an AIESECER, but the love and friendship is unconditional. I really miss our hang outs, the trips in which we enjoyed together. This one time, I cooked our Pakistani food for her family and they just LOVED it. Beautiful memories!
It was an internship but for me a vacation too. In Jakarta I visited Monus, kota tua (old city), some museums, explored mouth watering Indonesian food in exotic restaurants, splash every weekend hangout for fun loving people, karaoke etc but the real beauty is the Indonesian islands and so I have been to unforgettable trips to islands and other cities like Tidung Island, Green canyon, botanical garden in bogor, Bali (a must visit if you go Indonesia, people say its heaven and after being there I really believe it specially at dream land beach and jimbaran).
I personally find the Indonesians very helping, hospitable, and friendly people with smiling faces. Every day I met different people working in different projects; while traveling they curiously asked about Pakistan and our culture. Some of my friends from Holland used to think that Pakistan is a victim of terrorism because of religion, but I gave them examples of our Prophet Muhammad (s.w.w) and told them that Islam is a religion of peace and this conversation went for quite long, I am happy that now they think otherwise. I feel proud that I represent my country, many people and my religion and left a very positive image behind. I made many friends and visited their families and this gives me a chance to know more about Indonesian people who don’t know you but still make you feel like a family.
During the internship I made friends from many countries including Brazil, Indonesia, Estonia, China, Japan, Holland, and India. It’s really good to know them, their countries, culture, our hang out, trips and everything. We are in touch and talk about the time we spent together and that brings smiles and big laughter.
From this internship the most important thing I have gained is that in the project I played my role as a team leader and so I have gain the leadership skills, a lot more confidence by traveling on my own. I was the master of ceremony for AIESEC info session 2012 at Binus university and that makes my communication skills more strong. It really makes you feel great that you are working for the betterment of mankind and global development. After this internship I found the right way for my career. I believe there are many ways open if you have a passion to stand out among millions of people.
There is a lot more to write but I can’t go for that so why don’t you be an AIESECER and experience it by yourself. I highly recommend youth to work for the betterment of your country as well as for the world and make it a better place to live. Step forward and be a true diplomat of your country.
Hajvery University, Office of Foreign Affairs & Planning cultivates and nurtures the spirit of Internationalization at HU. Our mission is to foster, support and materialize the goals of HU in becoming a competitive and global university. Which promotes tolerance of cultures and celebrates diversity, and fosters the growth of multicultural society by adding flavors of the world to the teaching and learning environment at HU.
For Further Information, Queries regarding Study Abroad opportunities at Hajvery University (HU), and Study Abroad Scholarships contact:
Office of Foreign Affairs & Planning
Hajvery University (HU)
Email : intl@hup.edu.pk
web: hup.edu.pk/offices/foriegn-affairs-a-planning
If you liked this post, you will definitely enjoy reading these posts:
Hajvery Unviersity (HU) Study Abroad Scholarship holder Wajiha Hassan talks about her experience in Istanbul, Turkey.
Orientation Seminar for HU Study Abroad Students.
HU in International Landscape.
Istanbul Technical University (ITU) and Hajvery University (HU) sign MoU of Educational Cooperation & Scientific Research
Hajvery University (HU) is one of the leading Universities in Lahore. HU is Chartered by Govt. Of Pakistan, Accredited by Higher Education Commission of Pakistan (HEC) and rated W category. HU is a progressive, Student Centric University, focused on offering rigorous, market driven courses in Business, Fashion, Engineering, Computer sciences, Textile Design, Media Studies, Economics, Commerce, Pharmacy & English For details:
UAN: 042-111-777-007
Website: www.hup.edu.pk
email: info@hup.edu.pk
HU is a strong advocate of internationalization, as such it took an initiative to develop linkages with AIESEC, which is a Global Youth Organization that facilitates international student exchange and internship programs around the globe. HU male & female students were selected in a very competitive global selection system for internships in Turkey, Indonesia & Malaysia, where they worked for a period of 1-2 months in various leading organisations.
Sehar Sarwar is one of them, and we are very proud of her accomplishments. She is currently pursing BBA (Hons.) from Hajvery University, and she's written an article 'Unforgettable Indonesia' to describe her experience with AIESEC and working in Indonesia.
Nama saya sehar, saya dari Pakistan (My name is Sehar, I’m from Pakistan). Well that is just little introduction in Indonesian language (bahasa). I am studying business administration in HU and currently enrolled in my second last semester. I recently came back from Indonesia after doing 45 days internship there. This tremendous and valuable opportunity was provided by HU in collaboration with AIESEC Pakistan. AIESEC, the world’s largest student organization, is the international platform for young people to discover and develop their potential so as to have a positive impact on society. I was awarded with GCDP (global community development program) in Indonesia. I went to the capital city Jakarta, where AIESEC is run by some passionate students of UI (university of Indonesia).
It was life changing experience. I learned a lot from the Project that I worked in, BISA AIDS. In Indonesia HIV Aids rate is very high and every day people are dying of it. Being a business student, getting knowledge on HIV was absolutely new and ofcourse useful for me. Besides this I got an opportunity to work with different people from Brazil, Japan, China, Philippine, and Holland. I also learned from them on HIV Aids conditions in their countries. First we got training from an NGO and UI LC then we visited different high school students to give awareness on HIV. It was pretty interesting project, and I really enjoyed interacting with Indonesian students, they were so enthusiastic. I enjoyed the project because I was working for a good cause besides this I shared Pakistani culture, language and about myself so everybody enjoyed learning from each other. As part of a project, we raised some funds for HIV Aids patients and donated it to a NGO. It was a feeling that I just can’t describe in words. I learned basic Indonesian language as well. Overall this exposure was really good for my personal as well as professional life.
Well that was about the project and my daily routine there. As far as the country is concerned, it’s more or less like Pakistan. Indonesia is a Muslim country, Jakarta is the capital. A lot of people come here from other cities to work, so it's quite populated; weather is hot and rainy. In my opinion people are more religious there and involved in socio-economic development activities specially youth, traditional cloths are limited to special occasions only and they wear casual western cloths in daily routine. Pace of life is very fast there, people are involved in many activities besides studies and work, the roads are flooded with heavy traffic. Jakarta is a city of modern big malls, food is extremely delicious but spicy. Martabak is the traditional sweet, really delicious but its oily pancake and so not healthy, but still everybody loves it.
I observed Significant changes in language, food, business development and economical conditions, and clothes. Currently this country is facing problems in terms of heavy traffics, over population, heavy rains and corruption but on the other hand they are participating in development activities and striving for change. Literacy rate is good with 92 %. Economical conditions are good too. It’s a good country to invest in.
Most of the times I use to travel alone, using public transports but with directions provided by AIESECERS. As I mentioned above the traffic conditions are worst, it takes too much time to go from one place to another. Train is the fastest mode of travel. In the beginning it was little hard to travel alone for a girl who has never experienced in her own country, but with time I managed myself and now I consider it really good. It made me more confident and after it I actually found that I can travel the whole world alone.
I made a new best friend there, and I miss her very much. She was with me most of the times, she was not in my project, nor an AIESECER, but the love and friendship is unconditional. I really miss our hang outs, the trips in which we enjoyed together. This one time, I cooked our Pakistani food for her family and they just LOVED it. Beautiful memories!
It was an internship but for me a vacation too. In Jakarta I visited Monus, kota tua (old city), some museums, explored mouth watering Indonesian food in exotic restaurants, splash every weekend hangout for fun loving people, karaoke etc but the real beauty is the Indonesian islands and so I have been to unforgettable trips to islands and other cities like Tidung Island, Green canyon, botanical garden in bogor, Bali (a must visit if you go Indonesia, people say its heaven and after being there I really believe it specially at dream land beach and jimbaran).
I personally find the Indonesians very helping, hospitable, and friendly people with smiling faces. Every day I met different people working in different projects; while traveling they curiously asked about Pakistan and our culture. Some of my friends from Holland used to think that Pakistan is a victim of terrorism because of religion, but I gave them examples of our Prophet Muhammad (s.w.w) and told them that Islam is a religion of peace and this conversation went for quite long, I am happy that now they think otherwise. I feel proud that I represent my country, many people and my religion and left a very positive image behind. I made many friends and visited their families and this gives me a chance to know more about Indonesian people who don’t know you but still make you feel like a family.
During the internship I made friends from many countries including Brazil, Indonesia, Estonia, China, Japan, Holland, and India. It’s really good to know them, their countries, culture, our hang out, trips and everything. We are in touch and talk about the time we spent together and that brings smiles and big laughter.
From this internship the most important thing I have gained is that in the project I played my role as a team leader and so I have gain the leadership skills, a lot more confidence by traveling on my own. I was the master of ceremony for AIESEC info session 2012 at Binus university and that makes my communication skills more strong. It really makes you feel great that you are working for the betterment of mankind and global development. After this internship I found the right way for my career. I believe there are many ways open if you have a passion to stand out among millions of people.
There is a lot more to write but I can’t go for that so why don’t you be an AIESECER and experience it by yourself. I highly recommend youth to work for the betterment of your country as well as for the world and make it a better place to live. Step forward and be a true diplomat of your country.
Hajvery University, Office of Foreign Affairs & Planning cultivates and nurtures the spirit of Internationalization at HU. Our mission is to foster, support and materialize the goals of HU in becoming a competitive and global university. Which promotes tolerance of cultures and celebrates diversity, and fosters the growth of multicultural society by adding flavors of the world to the teaching and learning environment at HU.
For Further Information, Queries regarding Study Abroad opportunities at Hajvery University (HU), and Study Abroad Scholarships contact:
Office of Foreign Affairs & Planning
Hajvery University (HU)
Email : intl@hup.edu.pk
web: hup.edu.pk/offices/foriegn-affairs-a-planning
If you liked this post, you will definitely enjoy reading these posts:
Hajvery Unviersity (HU) Study Abroad Scholarship holder Wajiha Hassan talks about her experience in Istanbul, Turkey.
Orientation Seminar for HU Study Abroad Students.
HU in International Landscape.
Istanbul Technical University (ITU) and Hajvery University (HU) sign MoU of Educational Cooperation & Scientific Research
Hajvery University (HU) is one of the leading Universities in Lahore. HU is Chartered by Govt. Of Pakistan, Accredited by Higher Education Commission of Pakistan (HEC) and rated W category. HU is a progressive, Student Centric University, focused on offering rigorous, market driven courses in Business, Fashion, Engineering, Computer sciences, Textile Design, Media Studies, Economics, Commerce, Pharmacy & English For details:
UAN: 042-111-777-007
Website: www.hup.edu.pk
email: info@hup.edu.pk
HU is a strong advocate of internationalization, as such it took an initiative to develop linkages with AIESEC, which is a Global Youth Organization that facilitates international student exchange and internship programs around the globe. HU male & female students were selected in a very competitive global selection system for internships in Turkey, Indonesia & Malaysia, where they worked for a period of 1-2 months in various leading organisations.
Sehar Sarwar is one of them, and we are very proud of her accomplishments. She is currently pursing BBA (Hons.) from Hajvery University, and she's written an article 'Unforgettable Indonesia' to describe her experience with AIESEC and working in Indonesia.
Nama saya sehar, saya dari Pakistan (My name is Sehar, I’m from Pakistan). Well that is just little introduction in Indonesian language (bahasa). I am studying business administration in HU and currently enrolled in my second last semester. I recently came back from Indonesia after doing 45 days internship there. This tremendous and valuable opportunity was provided by HU in collaboration with AIESEC Pakistan. AIESEC, the world’s largest student organization, is the international platform for young people to discover and develop their potential so as to have a positive impact on society. I was awarded with GCDP (global community development program) in Indonesia. I went to the capital city Jakarta, where AIESEC is run by some passionate students of UI (university of Indonesia).
It was life changing experience. I learned a lot from the Project that I worked in, BISA AIDS. In Indonesia HIV Aids rate is very high and every day people are dying of it. Being a business student, getting knowledge on HIV was absolutely new and ofcourse useful for me. Besides this I got an opportunity to work with different people from Brazil, Japan, China, Philippine, and Holland. I also learned from them on HIV Aids conditions in their countries. First we got training from an NGO and UI LC then we visited different high school students to give awareness on HIV. It was pretty interesting project, and I really enjoyed interacting with Indonesian students, they were so enthusiastic. I enjoyed the project because I was working for a good cause besides this I shared Pakistani culture, language and about myself so everybody enjoyed learning from each other. As part of a project, we raised some funds for HIV Aids patients and donated it to a NGO. It was a feeling that I just can’t describe in words. I learned basic Indonesian language as well. Overall this exposure was really good for my personal as well as professional life.
Well that was about the project and my daily routine there. As far as the country is concerned, it’s more or less like Pakistan. Indonesia is a Muslim country, Jakarta is the capital. A lot of people come here from other cities to work, so it's quite populated; weather is hot and rainy. In my opinion people are more religious there and involved in socio-economic development activities specially youth, traditional cloths are limited to special occasions only and they wear casual western cloths in daily routine. Pace of life is very fast there, people are involved in many activities besides studies and work, the roads are flooded with heavy traffic. Jakarta is a city of modern big malls, food is extremely delicious but spicy. Martabak is the traditional sweet, really delicious but its oily pancake and so not healthy, but still everybody loves it.
I observed Significant changes in language, food, business development and economical conditions, and clothes. Currently this country is facing problems in terms of heavy traffics, over population, heavy rains and corruption but on the other hand they are participating in development activities and striving for change. Literacy rate is good with 92 %. Economical conditions are good too. It’s a good country to invest in.
Most of the times I use to travel alone, using public transports but with directions provided by AIESECERS. As I mentioned above the traffic conditions are worst, it takes too much time to go from one place to another. Train is the fastest mode of travel. In the beginning it was little hard to travel alone for a girl who has never experienced in her own country, but with time I managed myself and now I consider it really good. It made me more confident and after it I actually found that I can travel the whole world alone.
I made a new best friend there, and I miss her very much. She was with me most of the times, she was not in my project, nor an AIESECER, but the love and friendship is unconditional. I really miss our hang outs, the trips in which we enjoyed together. This one time, I cooked our Pakistani food for her family and they just LOVED it. Beautiful memories!
It was an internship but for me a vacation too. In Jakarta I visited Monus, kota tua (old city), some museums, explored mouth watering Indonesian food in exotic restaurants, splash every weekend hangout for fun loving people, karaoke etc but the real beauty is the Indonesian islands and so I have been to unforgettable trips to islands and other cities like Tidung Island, Green canyon, botanical garden in bogor, Bali (a must visit if you go Indonesia, people say its heaven and after being there I really believe it specially at dream land beach and jimbaran).
I personally find the Indonesians very helping, hospitable, and friendly people with smiling faces. Every day I met different people working in different projects; while traveling they curiously asked about Pakistan and our culture. Some of my friends from Holland used to think that Pakistan is a victim of terrorism because of religion, but I gave them examples of our Prophet Muhammad (s.w.w) and told them that Islam is a religion of peace and this conversation went for quite long, I am happy that now they think otherwise. I feel proud that I represent my country, many people and my religion and left a very positive image behind. I made many friends and visited their families and this gives me a chance to know more about Indonesian people who don’t know you but still make you feel like a family.
During the internship I made friends from many countries including Brazil, Indonesia, Estonia, China, Japan, Holland, and India. It’s really good to know them, their countries, culture, our hang out, trips and everything. We are in touch and talk about the time we spent together and that brings smiles and big laughter.
From this internship the most important thing I have gained is that in the project I played my role as a team leader and so I have gain the leadership skills, a lot more confidence by traveling on my own. I was the master of ceremony for AIESEC info session 2012 at Binus university and that makes my communication skills more strong. It really makes you feel great that you are working for the betterment of mankind and global development. After this internship I found the right way for my career. I believe there are many ways open if you have a passion to stand out among millions of people.
There is a lot more to write but I can’t go for that so why don’t you be an AIESECER and experience it by yourself. I highly recommend youth to work for the betterment of your country as well as for the world and make it a better place to live. Step forward and be a true diplomat of your country.
Hajvery University, Office of Foreign Affairs & Planning cultivates and nurtures the spirit of Internationalization at HU. Our mission is to foster, support and materialize the goals of HU in becoming a competitive and global university. Which promotes tolerance of cultures and celebrates diversity, and fosters the growth of multicultural society by adding flavors of the world to the teaching and learning environment at HU.
For Further Information, Queries regarding Study Abroad opportunities at Hajvery University (HU), and Study Abroad Scholarships contact:
Office of Foreign Affairs & Planning
Hajvery University (HU)
Email : intl@hup.edu.pk
web: hup.edu.pk/offices/foriegn-affairs-a-planning
If you liked this post, you will definitely enjoy reading these posts:
Hajvery Unviersity (HU) Study Abroad Scholarship holder Wajiha Hassan talks about her experience in Istanbul, Turkey.
Orientation Seminar for HU Study Abroad Students.
HU in International Landscape.
Istanbul Technical University (ITU) and Hajvery University (HU) sign MoU of Educational Cooperation & Scientific Research
Hajvery University (HU) is one of the leading Universities in Lahore. HU is Chartered by Govt. Of Pakistan, Accredited by Higher Education Commission of Pakistan (HEC) and rated W category. HU is a progressive, Student Centric University, focused on offering rigorous, market driven courses in Business, Fashion, Engineering, Computer sciences, Textile Design, Media Studies, Economics, Commerce, Pharmacy & English For details:
UAN: 042-111-777-007
Website: www.hup.edu.pk
email: info@hup.edu.pk
each day during the pandemic 2020 I am making a pinhole image of my daily routine. This image is of our local closed movie theater. I do hope they will be able to reopen one day....or build a drive-in movie theater in its place.
camera: zero image 2000
film: Kodak TMAX 400 speed
exposure: 3 seconds
Well... I'm quite glad that it's the weekend. I don't even really remember what happened in the past few days. My daily routine is so mundane it seems like nothing but a tedious dream.
Anyway, in photography class today I developed my film. I ended up getting chemicals all over my hands. I didn't really get to see what the negatives looked like, but I hope they turned out well. I guess I'll just have to wait and find out.
I have been asked by more than a few what make up I use. I tell those that ask, that I dont use much, here it is. See the notes to see what it is and how I use it.
Continued from: www.flickr.com/photos/42093313@N00/52652408863/in/datepos...
My Master’s Wrath and Mercy
رَبَّنَاۤ إِنَّكَ مَن تُدۡخِلِ ٱلنَّارَ فَقَدۡ أَخۡزَیۡتَهُۥۖ وَمَا لِلظَّـٰلِمِینَ مِنۡ أَنصَارࣲ
Our Lord! Indeed [You] whom You admit in the Fire then surely You (have) disgraced him, and not for the wrongdoers (are) any helpers.
Surah Aal e Imran, Verse 192
Tafseer e Jilani
Rabbana innaka man tudkhil in-naar: O my Lord! Indeed You are the one who admits into the Fire, so surely…
Akhzaytahu: you have disgraced him and made him (stuck) in the narrowness of imkaan, possibilities, imprisoned, punished, exiled (from Your Self), because they wronged themselves with their focus upon those other than You…
Wa ma lid-daalimeen: and there isn’t for the transgressors, the ones who have firmly placed themselves in the shadows of imkaan, possibilities…
Min ansaar: any helper who can help them and make them exit from those possibilities, except for the one who received permission from You to (be a helper) and make them exit from the possibilites from amongst the Prophets and the Auliya, Your Friends, after Your granting ability to them by the sending of the Messengers.
On the evening of that second day of hell, I went to the shrine near my house. I did not ask the blessed person of the shrine for anything. Not for relief, not for some understanding of how I had become so entrapped in a thought that only appeared to be nonsensical. I couldn’t even discuss it with anyone. Not that there was anyone to discuss it with! I sat there like a zombie for a while and then left. I knew in my silence, I had surrendered the matter in any case.
When I entered my bedroom, I saw a copy of Al Fath Ar Rabbani that I didn’t use for my regular reading. Qari Sahib had gifted it to me but it was much heavier and larger than my Urdu copy. This one had a side by side Arabic to Urdu translation on each page. I prayed the prayer of the istakhara and pried the book open to a random page.
Al Fath Ar Rabbani:
It started with a verse:
وَمَن یَتَّقِ ٱللَّهَ یَجۡعَل لَّهُۥ مَخۡرَجࣰا
And whoever fears Allah, He will make for him a way out,
وَیَرۡزُقۡهُ مِنۡ حَیۡثُ لَا یَحۡتَسِبُۚ
And He will provide for him from where he doesn’t think (it is possible).
Surah At Talaq, Verse 2-3
I didn’t look up the exegesis of the verse then. Qari Sahib wasn’t there anyway and I really wanted to know what the rest of the page said.
“(The above verse) closed the door of depending on means. It closed the door of the wealthy and the kings and opened the door of tawakkul, reliance. The one who was mindful, the reward for him is that He, Subhanahu, will make relief for him and a way out from what is constricted for (other) people.”
The first two lines gave me pause. Doors had been spoken about earlier. Now Ghaus Pak (ra) was closing them. Two of the people I happened to be thinking of were in fact rich. They were wealthy. That had never played into our interaction in terms of a factor. There wasn’t a remarkable difference in our life styles. But the mention was specific for a reason. That was not lost on me.
I continued to read each word, carefully going back and forth from the Arabic to the Urdu.
“What should I do with you, say to you? You would have been heard if you called the living but he is not alive, the one you call.”
From the word “alive” I knew again that I had already been told, warned, alerted by all those verses about the dead and the graves, the deaf and the blind. Not once but repeatedly. Each time gently. After translating the verses I had always felt calm. Then just like that I would forget them as if they had never even appeared.
Then in the next line, Ghaus Pak (ra) expressed his fury at my own “prolonged” state of stubborn-ness and ignorance and he didn’t mince his words.
“Your heart is empty of islam, surrender and imaan, faith and iqaan, certainty. There is no Ma’rifat, Divine Recognition, for you. There is no ilm, knowledge, for you. For you are only hawas, indulging in foolish behaviour that is dangerous, therefore speaking to you is a waste.”
That’s when my heart first felt fear. Never ever before had Ghaus Pak (ra) said anything remotely harsh to me. Speaking to me was a waste of his time? I just stared at the words in disbelief.
“O hypocrites! You were contented with words about tawakkul, reliance upon Allah, with your tongues while your hearts are mushrik, worshippers of other gods in Creation. My heart is filled with anger towards you out of ardency (of love) for Allah Azzo Jal. If you are silent and you leave your rivalry (with Him), it is better, otherwise your houses will be burned.”
My heartbeat increased. I stopped reading.
“Your houses will be burned.” “My heart is filled with anger.” I felt scared to read the next line.
But then I saw that it was a prayer. For it was addressing Subhanahu and it started with the words, “Ya Haailo…”
It was a new Name of Allah for me. The word existed in Urdu as well. I knew what it mean. Haa’il, that which comes in between. I peered at the next words closely, fearfully. And it said:
يا حائل بين الماء المالح والعذب،
“Ya Haail-u! O One who protects, stops and obstructs and causes not to happen, by coming in between the water salty and fresh.”
The appearance of the words from the verse I had just translated was uncanny.
حل بيننا وبين التسخط عليك والمنازعة لك في أقدارك،
“Come between us and between discontentment towards You and quarreling with You about fate decreed.
حل بيننا وبين معاصيك ببرزخ من رحمتك
Come between us and between resistances to Your Authority with the barzakh, the protective partition, of Your Rahma, Mercy!
آمين
Ameen…”
Each time I moved to the Urdu the words had a pounding effect on me. To be sure of the meaning, I started looking up each Arabic word.
التسخط : displeasure, irritation, anger.
المنازعة : opposition, disagreement, conflict, dispute.
معاصي : resistance to authority.
I was left dumbfounded.
He continued:
“O listener! If you were Muttaqi, the one who is mindful and conscious of your Rabb, who raised you, Azzo Jal, Dakir, in remembrance of Him, as Muwwahidan, in union only with Him, Musheeran, pointing towards Him, before the trial, then when you are dropped into the fire of the distress that causes suffering, He will order,
یَـٰنَارُ كُونِی بَرۡدࣰا وَسَلَـٰمًا
O fire! Be coolness and safety.
After that it was a crazy day.
Ghaus Pak (ra) had exactly followed the Sunnah of the Quran. First had come the admonition, then the mercy. For an hour, I stared at the page and read it over and over. My heart sank every time I came to the words of his wrath. It was the first time in my life that my Master was angry with me.
I couldn’t get over it. Obedience was woven, no, kneaded into my nature. But all my efforts that had to do with changing the fabric of my nafs were superficial. Giving charity was easy. It was the expression of gratitude. As promised it brought me a serene state of peace. Why wouldn’t I do it only sincerely, in utter obedience? Why wouldn’t I increase it? I was the recipient of all its rewards which were truly indescribable in terms of rendering me a joy.
It was the changing of the nafs that was impossible.
I decided to immediately memorize the prayer. It was about to entail for me the most perfect expression of fear and sincere need for deliverance. That was something that I had never experienced before.
First I went back to re-read the verse of the seas salty and sweet.
That was the first moment I realized, I am both a Mo’min and I am a Kafir. All I could see in the state of being a Mo’min was the ill-will in my disposition. And all I could see in my state of Kufr was my carelessness and unawareness. There was no longer an “other.” In everything it was only me!
That was first forced the question; when am I which?
وَمَا یَسۡتَوِی ٱلۡبَحۡرَانِ هَـٰذَا عَذۡبࣱ فُرَاتࣱ سَاۤىِٕغࣱ شَرَابُهُۥ وَهَـٰذَا مِلۡحٌ أُجَاجࣱۖ
And not are alike the two seas.
This (is) fresh, sweet, pleasant its drink, and this salty (and) bitter…
Surah Fatir, Verse 12
Tafseer e Jilani
Then exemplified Subhanahu both of the groups, the Mo’min, the believer and the Kafir, the denier of truth, as two seas sweet and salty, so He said:
Wa ma yastawi al bahraane: And the two seas are not alike in advantage and benefit received from them both because…
Hada: the (state of the) Mo’min, the attester to the sea of Imaan, faith and Irfaan, Divine Recognition, the one upon whom is poured water from the Sea of the Essence of One-ness…
Adb-un: is like water fresh and delightful, giving pleasure to the mind, sweet in perfect sweetness…
Furat-un: sweet, it breaks the persistent feeling of ill will (to harm and avenge people) for those burning with thirst in the mirage of the world with the coolness of Yaqeen, certainty…
Saa’ighun sharaabuhu: easy is its drinking i.e. easy is its going down, for those set up on the nature of Tauheed, Allah Subhanahu’s One-ness.
Wa hada: And this (the other sea/group) i.e. the Kafir, the denier of truth or ungrateful, malevolent, unkind, is in the sea of ghaflat, unawareness and carelessness…
Milh-un: (is like water) salty, it does not reform a person who wants to reform themselves, whoever tastes from it, instead…
Ujaaj-un: (it is) burning, bitter, corrupting for the disposition. The one who tasted from it was destroyed, devastatingly, forever such that there is no rescue for him, instead…
Wa: the sea of bitterness, in it is still an advantage, but there is no benefit for the Kafir, the denier of truth, and the one who refuses to be guided at all.
The Kufr a Muslim most often imbues is that of ingratitude.
That is why the Quran says, it is a choice.
إِنَّا هَدَيْنَهُ ٱلسَّبِيلَ إِمَّا شَاكِرًۭا وَإِمَّا كَفُورًا
Indeed, We guided him to the way, whether he be grateful and whether he be ungrateful.
Surah Al Insaan, Verse 3
Tafseer e Jilani
Allah Subhanahu made the way clear completely and perfectly. Now the human being has the choice:
Imma shakiran: Either he becomes grateful, occupied with the thankfulness of blessings and regularity upon fulfilling the rights of Divine Kindness, giving the reins of his determination and his choice to the rightful guidance and commands so that he may become of the Arbaab il Anayate wa Sadaad, the people of blessings and correct-ness and Al Mutana’imeena, the ones granted favours in the Heaven of Raza, God’s Pleasure and Tasleem, surrender.
Wa imam kafoor-an: Or he can be ungrateful for blessings (bestowed), being in denial of The One bestowing the blessings, following in the footsteps of the people of ghafalat, forgetfulness and enemity (towards Allah), disputing and being corrupt until he will become of the people of Hell.
“The people forever burning in the fire of possibilities!”
The intensity of the incident first exploded upon me once I started reciting the prayer. Each time I uttered the words, I broke down so severely, it was like someone beloved to my heart had died. Each time I heard the words in my ear that I was displeased, in opposition, resistant to my Lord, to His Authority, to His Being, I would cover my ears with my hands and almost wail.
One word entered my life like it had never done before. I had been saying a tasbeeh of it for years but my heart hadn’t felt the plea in the words even once till now.
Astaghfirullah! – I seek the forgiveness of my Lord!
I would repeat it incessantly through my tears. But the prayer had three lines and each line had in it a word that was the proof of my state of rebellion. The experience was intense and whatever I’m writing here to express it, the truth is that it is inexpressible. It cannot be related.
Only when the last line came,
ببرزخ من رحمتك
…with the barzakh, the protective partition, of Your Rahma, Mercy!
did I feel a tranquility come over me so instantly, every other feeling preceding it absolute vanished. Obviously I became hooked to the prayer.
I started saying it every single time an imkaan returned, those useless, worthless, mirages of possibilities bearing my ill-will towards others who were all absent and insignificant. I would say the prayer from the beginning till the end. Each time I spanned the cycle in the same way. I cried and cried, my tears trying to drown my self.
Then I would despise myself for being in such abominable state. How could I have the audacity to be displeased, quarreling, resistant? I would be pausing through the entire utterance with Astaghfirullah in repetition until I would reach the part of the barzakh, the partition. Then again I would be calm like nothing had happened. Instantly!
وَٱسۡتَغۡفِرُوا۟ ٱللَّهَۖ
إِنَّ ٱللَّهَ غَفُورࣱ رَّحِیمُۢ
And seek forgiveness (of) Allah. Indeed, Allah (is) Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.
Surah Al Muzzammil, Verse 20
Tafseer e Jilani
Wa: And what happened to you in your past which came from the leaving of istighfar, the seeking of forgiveness…
Astaghfirullah: (so now it is time to) keep seeking the forgiveness of Allah, Al Mufaddil, The Bestower of Bounty, Al Mukarrim, The Granter of Forgiveness for what you did and become occupied with compliance to His Commands in the rest of your life as compensation for what has elapsed.
Innallaha: Indeed Allah, Al Muta’lliu, The Only One informed of your regrets and your intentions in it (that seeking of forgiveness and being in obedience of His Orders)…
Ghafoorun: is Forgiving, He forgives your sins from the past also…
Raheem-un: is All Merciful, He accepts your tauba, repentance, which is followed by your errors by His Favour and His Generosity (of which you are undeserving).
The prayer took over my life for the next few days. I didn’t speak about it to anyone. I continued my classes with Qari Sahib. In my next class, the first thing I did was look up the verse my page had opened to:
وَمَن یَتَّقِ ٱللَّهَ یَجۡعَل لَّهُۥ مَخۡرَجࣰا
And whoever is in taqwa, conscious of Allah, He will make for him a way out,
وَیَرۡزُقۡهُ مِنۡ حَیۡثُ لَا یَحۡتَسِبُۚ
And He will provide for him from where not he thinks (it is possible).
Surah At Talaq, Verse 2-3
Tafseer Jilani
Wa: And overall…
Mayyattaqillah: the one who is mindful of Allah Subhanahu and safeguards his nafs, self, from His Qahr, Wrath, and Ghadab, Displeasure and keeps watch over himself from crossing the limits of His Boundaries which are drawn by Him, (the boundaries created) for the safeguarding of the rights of the people, especially the rights of spouses and practice mutual love for each other and (the one who) relies upon Him in all his states and entrusted his matters, all of them, to Him…
Yaj’al lahu: He, Allah Subhanahu, makes for him…
Makhrajan: a way out from the narrowness of possibilities which give result to different kinds of khudlan, humiliation and khusraan, losses.
Wa yarzaquhu: And He gives sustenance and carries towards him all of his needs that he is needful of in the subsistence of his family…
Min haysu la yahtasibu: i.e. from a place not expected and where he doesn’t have to wish for it to come from.
Narrowness of possibilities, humiliation, losses! There was a way made out, unexpected, unforeseen, “where he doesn’t have to wish it from.” With sustenance, not livelihood in currency as rizq is most often translated, but sustenance, emotional, mental, physical, spiritual, not for one individual in question but the entire family.
For whom? The one who was in a state of consciousness of Subhanahu and who was mindful of the rights of others. The one who was watchful that His Displeasure and His Wrath did not reach him because of crossing boundaries set by Him.
Like the displeasure and wrath of my Master had reached me.
There was a time I used to pride myself on a relationship with my Lord that didn’t have fear in it. But two years ago, whilst writing a piece for the Urs Mubarik of Maulana Rum (ra), I had felt intense fear. I had been translating stories from the Masnavi and one of them had been about the Day of Judgement and how each person would have to fend for themselves. I had come across one of the verses alluding to that reality recently.
وَلَا تَزِرُ وَازِرَةࣱ وِزۡرَ أُخۡرَىٰۚ وَإِن تَدۡعُ مُثۡقَلَةٌ إِلَىٰ حِمۡلِهَا لَا یُحۡمَلۡ مِنۡهُ شَیۡءࣱ وَلَوۡ كَانَ ذَا قُرۡبَىٰۤۗ
إِنَّمَا تُنذِرُ ٱلَّذِینَ یَخۡشَوۡنَ رَبَّهُم بِٱلۡغَیۡبِ وَأَقَامُوا۟ ٱلصَّلَوٰةَۚ وَمَن تَزَكَّىٰ فَإِنَّمَا یَتَزَكَّىٰ لِنَفۡسِهِۦۚ
وَإِلَى ٱللَّهِ ٱلۡمَصِیرُ
And no bearer will bear burdens (of) another.
And if a call heavily laden (soul) calls another to (carry) its load, nothing will be carried of it anything even if he be (from) near of kin.
You can only warn those who are conscious of their Lord - unseen and who establish the prayer.
And whoever purifies himself, then only he purifies for his own self.
And to Allah (is) the destination.
Surah Fatir, Verse 18
Tafseer e Jilani
Wa: And after that you recognized the Qudra, Authority, of Allah and you heard of the perfection of His Being in no need of anything, so for all of you is compulsory, the executing of His Commands and staying away from what He has forbidden because…
La taziru: no nafs, self, will, bear …
Waaziratu-n: as the bearer of burdens for being sinful, resisting authority…
Wizra: the burden (of) a wrong action of the nafs, self, that is indisciplined…
Ukhra wa in tad’u: of another and if any nafs, soul, asks…
Musqalatu-n: heavily laden by burdens and resisting authority…
Ila himliha: to share its burden i.e. someone else carry some of the burdens received by it to lessen them…
La yuhmal minhu shay-an: he will not carry any thing from another’s burden even if he consents to carry the burden because it is the demand of Allah’s Justice…
Wa lau kana: And if the person who was called to carry the burden…
Da qurba: is the family i.e. from the family of the asker, still all of the selves on that Day pledged (to carry) what they earned from their resistance. Each nafs will carry for its own self and no accountability will be for it except what it earned.
Then said Subhanahu addressing His Beloved (sending salutations and greetings upon him and his family the whole while) in the matters of His Servants:
Innama tundiru alladina yakhshauna Rabba-hum bil ghaib: only will you warn those who surrender to their Lord Unseen: meaning they are not beneficial, your warnings, which you recite O Akmal Ar Rusul, O Messenger who perfects Messenger-hood (salutations and greetings upon you and your family are sent by Him who made you the Nazeer) upon those wayward, with the exception of the group who are fearful of Allah and His Wrath and His Punishment, even though He is unseen for them, hearing Him, in submission to what has descended from Him, fearful of what can come from Him suddenly…
Wa: and along with that…
Aqaamus salata: they established prayer commanded, bringing closeness for them to His Essence, Al Mukhlisoona, sincere in it, Al Muttaharreena, purifying their selves from the inclination of everything except Allah Al Haqq, The Only Truth.
Wa man tazakka: And the one who purified himself and he cleansed his self from the leaning towards the capacity to invent a deceitful practice and whims…
Fa innama yatazakka li nafsihi: so indeed he only purified his nafs for his own self because the benefit of his purification returned to him, beneficial for him in his beginning and his end.
Wa: And after his purification from the demands of being human and the demands of animalistic desires which block from reaching of the origin of his nature…
Ilallahi: towards Allah, Al Munazza, The One Above all shortcomings, Al Mubarra’, The One Above all things lowly…
Al Maseer-u: (who is) The Destination i.e. Al Munqallab, the place returned to and the final abode i.e. everything returns towards Him and everyone’s purpose is Him, Subhanahu.
I was reminded of the exaltedness of the Chosen before Allah by the word Al Muttaharreena, the ones pure. How everyone had to purify themselves. Only one group was purified by Subhanahu Himself. That was the family of His Beloved (salutations and greetings upon him and his kin who were rendered void of any shortcoming at all).
The Name of Allah Subhanahu that Ghaus Pak (ra) used to begin the tafseer was an absolute favourite. I loved using it when calling out to Him in my prayers. It made no other words to follow the call even necessary. He was Al Musleh, The Reformer!
إِنَّمَا يُرِيدُ ٱللَّهُ لِيُذْهِبَ عَنكُمُ ٱلرِّجْسَ أَهْلَ ٱلْبَيْتِ وَيُطَهِّرَكُمْ تَطْهِيرًۭا
Indeed, Allah wishes to remove from you the impurity, (O) People (of) the House!
And to purify you (with thorough) purification.
Surah al Ahzab, Verse 33
Tafseer e Jilani
Innama yureedullahu: Indeed Allah Al Musleh, The Reformer of the states of His Worshipper, wishes for those who are chosen by Him, teaching them such advice and reminders which enter the heart and giving them warnings strange, unlike any other…
Liyudhiba ankum ar-rijsa: removing impurities from you, unattractive, loathsome by both the mind and by Jurisprudence (which can be in contradiction to one another), O…
Ahl e Bait: the people of the house of the Prophet (peace be upon him and his family), Al Majbooleen, who are raised upon honour and nobility..
Wa yutahhirakum: (and it is also His Will) to make you absolutely pure from the dirt of one’s nature and things that are hateful imperfections that exist from the beginning (from birth like the Shaitaan attached to each person), which are hurdles in the cleansing of personal nature (for e.g. menstruation or emissions)…
Tat-hirah: (to make you, O family of the Beloved, absolutely pure) in absolute purity. Such purity that nothing remains in you, any doubt of disfigurement and the disgrace of any shortcoming.
The verse of each person having to bear the consequences of their own actions had made me reflect on all the parallels I was drawing after Damascus of what I had thought was for that Day but seemed to exist and play out in our lives here. The nafs experiencing being Mutma’inna was the greatest of them all.
But no one could carry anyone’s burden in this world either.
Parents want to take on their child’s disease. Children want to give happiness to parents whose bitterness tells them that they will never come to possess it again. I have often wanted to give of the sight of one of my eyes to a cousin who lost it in both.
My nafs would ask me things like, “We won’t be able to drive again.”
I would consider it and say, “It’s ok. We don’t drive that much anyway.”
So on and so forth it goes. But it was not impossible. Each nafs had to pay the price for each decision in this world as well. Bear its consequence. Asking for forgiveness though, feeling repentant, held in it the promise of being forgiven. That existed for a relationship worldly or with Subhanahu. If it was sincere!
فَمَن تَابَ مِنۢ بَعْدِ ظُلْمِهِۦ وَأَصْلَحَ فَإِنَّ ٱللَّهَ يَتُوبُ عَلَيْهِ ۗ
إِنَّ ٱللَّهَ غَفُورٌۭ رَّحِيمٌ
But whoever repented from after his wrongdoing and reforms, then indeed,
Allah will turn in forgiveness to him. Indeed, Allah (is) Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.
Surah Al Maidah, Verse 39
Tafseer e Jilani:
Faman ta’aba: So the one who repents and returns towards Allah mukhlis-an, sincere (in heart), khai’ifan, in fear (of reckoning)…
Min ba’ada dulmihi: after he transgressed boundaries set by Him …
Wa aslaha: and reformed themselves with repentance (by returning towards Allah with sincerity) for the corruption that they have brought upon their own nafs (self) by disobeying Allah’s Orders.
Fa innallaha: Indeed, Allah is Al Musleh, The Reformer of all states of His Servant.
Yatubu alaihi: And Allah also turns towards Him and accepts his tauba, repentance, after giving him the ability for that repentance.
Innallaha: Without doubt, Allah is the One who is Al Muyassir, the One who gives ease in all matter for His Servants…
Ghafur an: He is the Forgiver of all their sins.
The identity of the one repenting, Ta’ib, was defined specifically:
Faman ta’aba: So the one who repents and returns towards Allah sincere (in heart), in fear (of reckoning)…
Fear was requisite.
The Necessity of Fear
وَءَاخَرُونَ ٱعْتَرَفُوا۟ بِذُنُوبِهِمْ خَلَطُوا۟ عَمَلًۭا صَلِحًۭا وَءَاخَرَ سَيِّئًا عَسَى ٱللَّهُ أَن يَتُوبَ عَلَيْهِمْ ۚ
إِنَّ ٱللَّهَ غَفُورٌۭ رَّحِيمٌ
And others who have acknowledged their sins.
They had mixed a deed righteous (with) other (that was) evil.
Perhaps Allah will turn (in mercy) to them.
Indeed, Allah (is) Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.
Surah At Tauba, Verse 102
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Wa: And the people of Medina…
Aakharoona: others, not from the ones who were Al
Munafiqoona, persistent upon hypocrisy, Al Muttarraneena, and who practice it, but instead…
A’tarifu bi dhunobihim: acknowledge their sins which happened from them from mukhalifa, being against (someone) and bughz, grudges, and ta’an, being accusatory and
istikhfaaf, showing disregard and gheebat, back-biting, when sitting alone with the hypocrites and the ones who practice hypocricy.
And while they have the appearance of imaan, faith, and ikhlas, sincerity, but they…
Khalatu amalan salihan: mixed good deeds from ikhlas, sincerity and raza, seeking the pleasure of Allah and tasleem, submission…
Wa: and deeds…
Aakhara sayyan: others which were bad and those deeds were done while in the community of the hypocrites in their discourse and being accusatory. For this reason they are downgraded from the rank of the Mukhliseen, Sincere, in all their circumstances.
Asallaho an yatooba alayhim: And Allah will most likely accept their repentance i.e. He gives them ability upon tauba, repentance and nidama, regret and accepts from them their repentance after they become sincere in it.
Innallaha: Indeed, Allah Al Musleh, The One who corrects the states of His Servants…
Ghafooran: is Forgiving of the one who repents and regrets from the core of the qalb, the Station of Recognition of Allah in the heart…
Rahim: is The One who accepts their repentance when they are excessive (trangressors).
In writing that piece for Maulana’s Urs Mubarik I had been crying too. That crying was out of fear for a time yet to come. It was the first time I had learnt the purpose of fear in a relationship with my Lord. It was deemed essential for a believer. In that relationship fear was an element that was necessary for it to reach completion.
Verses attesting to that had appeared again and again.
The way out with an all encompassing rizq from the Divine was promised for whom? The one who was in a state of consciousness of Subhanahu and who was mindful of the rights of others. The one who was watchful that His Displeasure and His Wrath did not reach him because of crossing boundaries set by Him.
The Message could only be received by those “who are fearful of Allah and His Wrath and His Punishment, even though He is unseen for them, hearing Him, in submission to what has descended from Him, fearful of what can come from Him suddenly…”
Suddenly I understood why all those hours and days and weeks, months and years I spent trying to tell the ones I loved what might save them from pain were a waste of time. Theirs as well as mine. At the end of the day they never really cared if I might become angry with them or not. It never mattered. When it did, they always listened. When it didn’t that’s when they took me for granted.
Like I, God forbid, had been taking my Creator and His Benevelonce for granted. Astaghfirullah!
After the tafseer I returned to the page to re-read the next part which I had couldn’t focus on before. The incident of the fire was about the Prophet Ibrahim (as). How it was ordered to change its intrinsic nature and become cool for him by Divine Command. It was an incident only about him and for him. Not anyone else and certainly not the ordinary.
“…before the trial then, when you are dropped into the fire of the distress that causes suffering, He will order,
یَـٰنَارُ كُونِی بَرۡدࣰا وَسَلَـٰمًا
O fire! Be coolness and safety.
I had done the tafseer from before so I looked it up.
Tafseer e Jilani
Ya Naaro: O Fire, created on the nature of burning and heat…
Kooni bardan: become cool and leave your burning and heat…
Wa: and don’t harm Our Friend by your coolness as well but instead become…
Salaman: safety i.e. a glad reception and peaceful for him and don’t harm him.
How did that come to happen? If
1.I was a Muttaqi, the one who is mindful and conscious of their Rabb, who raised them, Azzo Jal,
2.I was sincere in my Zikr because it came from the heart. Not the mind and not the tongue.
3.I was Muwwahidan, in union only with Him forgetting the others,
4.Musheeran, pointing towards Him, feeling that nearness because I was aware that I was always being seen by Him,
5.then BEFORE the trial, when I was dropped into the fire of the distress that causes suffering, He would order for me,
یَـٰنَارُ كُونِی بَرۡدࣰا وَسَلَـٰمًا
O fire! Be coolness and safety.
It was unbelievable!
Shaitaan has endless tactics. Ways to enter lives and ruin then. His favourite tactic though is causing ghaflat.
Forgetfulness of obeying Divine Commands, forgetfulness of crossing boundaries in the rights of others, forgetfulness of Allah’s remembrance.
Fa ansaahum dikr Allah: so he made them forget the remembrance of Allah, Al Munqad, The Only Deliverer from deviation from the straight path, Al Murshid, The Only Guide towards guidance.
Hence ghaflat was the deadliest weapon. It naturally created the absence of repentance. That show of remorse was his worst nightmare because he possesses intimate knowledge of the Essence of Subhanahu. He knew what repentance could deliver when expressed with sincerity.
The incident from the Masnavi I had translated for that piece was about the waking of Hazrat Amir Muawia (ratu) by Iblis to say his prayers:
“Hazrat Amir Muawia (ratu) was asleep one day when he was awakened by someone. When he looked around he saw no one. Then he noticed a man skulking behind the door. He asked, “Who are you?” The man replied, “The world knows me. I am unfortunate Iblis.”
Hazrat Amir Muawia (ratu) asked him sternly, “Why have you woken me?” He responded, “The time for prayer is about to pass, O Amir.”
Then he quoted the Prophet of God (salutations and greetings be upon the one most distinguished in the blessings of Allah and his beloved family),
عجلوا ألطاعات قبل الفوت
Complete your worship before it (its time) expires.
You should run to the mosque before you miss it.”
Hazrat Amir Muawia (ratu) retorted, “You can never want such a thing so as to guide someone. You came in like a thief and now you tell me you are a well-wisher? Why would I believe a thief and then one who claims he wants to benefit me?”
Here Iblis uttered the words revealing his envy:
‘Once I was ranked amongst the angels and walked the path of obedience willingly. I was the knower of Divine Secrets and a companion of the ones who lived near Allah’s Throne. As travelers roam wherever they might go, the love of the homeland never leaves them. Who has ever forgotten their first love?
I have also drunk the waters from the rivers of The Divine’s Blessings and I have also walked in the Gardens of His Pleasure. He placed His Affection upon me as well, looked upon me with Favour. When I was a child, who fed me and guided me? He did.
Once I too was a lover of His Entity and Essence. If then that mighty Ocean of His Generosity rejected me, so what? When the heart is separated from what it once loved, then it learns to value the days where there was union.’
تا دهد جان را فراقش گوشمال
جان بداند قدر ايام وصال
When the separation from Him softly offers reproach,
then one is nostalgic for days passed.
Whether it was “kufr,” refusal or whether it was “imaan,” believing, both were made by that Power and both belong to Him.”
Hazrat Amir Muawaia (ratu) remained unmoved. “What you say is true but you have no part in it anymore. You misguided countless before me. You are fire, yet you expect me to believe you will not burn me? Who has not been deceived by you? Because of your cunning, the nation of Nuh (as) is still burning in regret. You caused the destruction of the nation of A’ad, drowning them in punishment and grief. The people of Lut (as) were stoned because of you.
You have created countless trials for Mankind. Firaoun, the philosopher, scholarly, his powers to reflect were blinded by you. Abu Lahab became ignorant because of you. Abul Hikm was rendered Abu Jahal because of you. You are the ocean of deceit, people but a drop. Answer truthfully. Why would you wake me to pray?”
Iblis replied, “Oh man of despair! You do not accept the truth despite a 100 arguments. My fault is only that one bad deed has made me renowned for sinfulness. The truth is that if you had missed your prayer, nothing of the world would have remained of value before your eyes. Tears of pain and loss would have been shed. This crying, this softness of the heart, this intense pain and sadness, would have become the reward of a 100 prayers. I did not want you to let out the sigh that would gain you the deep appreciation of Allah.
Remember the man who arrived at the Mosque late and was told by the congregation leaving it that the Messenger of God (peace be upon him and his family by their Lord who gazes upon them) had already said the last “salam.”
The young man sighed so deeply, the sound of it shook the listeners’ hearts.
One of them said, ‘Give me your sigh and take the blessing of my prayer.’
The man accepted his namaz and presented his sigh to me in turn. The sigh was filled with such humility and submission, the one who traded his prayer for it attained a higher rank and more.
A voice of the Unseen said to him in a dream, ‘In your trade, you have received the best of life, so rejoice!’
Your fear, O Amir, of The Divine and my envy are the reason I woke you. I woke you from the fear that your cries of repentance would burn me with jealousy. I am the envier of Mankind. I can never want anything good for them. In this envy I did what I did. I am the enemy of humans. How can I want that any benefit comes to them?”
Hazrat Amir Muawia (ratu) listened to his words then said to Iblis, “Now you have told the truth, O thief. In reality, you do not want that I humbly plead before my Lord with sincerity, that I weep tears of regret and repentance because the rank of that sighing and distress is more dear to Allah than anything else.”
ﮐﮧ ﺑﺮﺍﺑﺮ می ﮐﻨﺪ ﺷﺎﮦ ﻣﺠﯿﺪ
ﺍﺷﮏ ﺭﺍ ﺩﺭ ﻭﺯﻥ ﺑﺎ ﺧﻮﻥ ﺷﮩﯿﺪ
In equal regard holds The Almighty,
the tears of the sinner, the repentant, and the blood of the martyr.
Subhan Allah! The story was exquisitely narrated by Maulana (ra). Was it any wonder that the Masnavi was given the honour of being called the Quran in Farsi.
Shaitaan knows what Subhanahu’s Exalted Name Al Ghafoor encompasses. That His Mercy prevails over everything else. So he’s worried that the expression of regret, if it is sincere, might yield a person instant forgiveness. Of not one sin but all of them in one go!
Bishar Haafi (ra) was the most extraordinary example of that:
Hazrat Bishr Haafi (ra) spent most of his life drinking alcohol and roaming the streets in a state of intoxication. He belonged to a very wealthy family and lived alone. Twice, sometimes thrice a day, he changed his clothes, each garment finer than the next.
One day upon reaching his house he came upon a piece of paper lying on the road. It had the words Bismillah Ar-Rahman Ar-Rahim written on it. When he saw his Lord’s Name thrown on the ground like that he started weeping. Then he picked up the paper, kissed it, put some itar (perfume) on it and placed it on a high spot.
That night he heard the voice of Allah Al-Afuww, The Supreme Pardoner, asking him, was he not tired yet of being so distant from Him. And just like that, overnight, he became a wali (saint). He left his all of his wealth and roamed the streets barefoot. That is how he got his title, Haafi, the one who walks barefoot.
He was one of the few people for whom Imam Hanbal (ra) rose from his seat to greet when he entered and one of the only he walked with out to the street when he left.
When asked why he treated a faqeer, one who had given up the world and its possessions for poverty and worship, with such honour, Imam Hanbal (ra) replied, ““Jiss Rab ko mein maanta hun, Bishr Haafi uss Rab to jaante hain – the Lord that I merely believe in, Bishr Haafi knows that Lord.”
Subhan Allah!
Shaitaan takes pride in the destruction of Man, declaring it often in the Quran. He thinks he’s fulfilling his promise, keeping his word. One of those is his announcing that he will take a share of everything a Servant of God is bestowed.
Before I read the verse, I thought that was in the context of worldly possessions. Taking control of their possessions to fulfill his general mission to destroy Mankind. The usual ways of doing it via the mechanics inherent in capitalism, endless dictatorships and such. I had written about those extensively because it played out all the time. How it guaranteed his success.
But Ghaus Pak (ra) explained it differently.
لَّعَنَهُ ٱللَّهُۘ وَقَالَ لَأَتَّخِذَنَّ مِنۡ عِبَادِكَ نَصِیبࣰا مَّفۡرُوضࣰا
Allah cursed him and he said, "I will surely take from Your Slaves a portion appointed."
Surah An Nisa, Verse 118
Tafseer e Jilani
And how can we worship him and call him and indeed…
La’anaullahu: cursed Him Allah Subhanahu and expelled him from the Honour of His Presence and made him leave from (the list) of His Sincere Worshippers for the sake of deceiving the worshippers for the purpose of shirrk, associating others with Allah, and tughyan, oppression…
Wa: and after that he became hopeless of Allah’s Clemency and in despair of His Mercy…
Qala la’attakhidanna min ibadika: he said, “I will surely take from Your Servants, the ones because of whom you expelled me and because of whom you made me distant (from You)…
Naseeban: a portion, a share complete from what You made for him…
Mafroudan: appointed for them from Your Tauheed, Your One-ness, and honouring You by deluding them and deceiving them so that they commit shirrk (hoping and expecting from others except You) and associate others with You and say about You what is inappropriate for Your Majesty till they will fall by this from the binding of Your Safekeeping and Your Guardianship and become deserving of Your Displeasure and Your Anger.
The Displeasure and Anger would be coming one way or the other. It could be felt willingly or one would be made to feel it. Either way, it was unavoidable!
In each tafseer I was noticing what caused Allah Subhanahu’s Anger and Displeasure. Shaitaan had robbed me of my share for my entire life. I would have remained in that robbed state performing rote rituals even if some of them were above what was obligatory. I would have remained a Mushrik till my dying day had my Master not intervened in the manner that he did.
Ghaus Pak (ra) was the perfect manifestation of the undeniable truth that ends Surah Fatiha. Only following in the footsteps of the ones bestowed inaam, Divine Favours, was the path of least resistance. Least humiliation. Least agony.
For as I shockingly learnt from the Quran, even the infidels of Mecca who were proud of being Mushrikeen, it was their inherited tradition, believed in Subhanahu. After Him they worshipped those self-created idols of clay that they adorned the Ka’aba with.
Even they, when asked, who made these heavens and the earth, replied, “Allah.”
وَلَىِٕن سَأَلۡتَهُم مَّنۡ خَلَقَ ٱلسَّمَـٰوَٰتِ وَٱلۡأَرۡضَ لَیَقُولُنَّ ٱللَّهُۚ
And if you ask them who created the heavens and the earth? Surely, they will say, "Allah." Say, "Then do you see what you invoke from besides Allah?
Surah Az-Zumar, Verse 38
Tafseer e Jilani
Then pointed Subhanahu towards elaborating on His Tauheed, Divine One-ness, indicating to the Mushrikeen, the ones who associate others with Him, registering their state of beguile and allurement and being foolish, so He said, addressing His Beloved (upon whom and whose family He sends greetings and salutations continuously):
Wa la’in sa’altahum: And if you ask them, O Akmal Ar Rusul, Messenger who perfects the Messengerhood (Allah sends greetings and salutations upon you and your family since always), the disbelievers of the Quresh…
Man khalaqas samawaati wal ard: who created the Heavens and the Earth i.e. the highest in creation and the lowest in creation and what is between them from their mixing and who has brought them into existence and who has constructed in them and who has made to appear what is in them from the natural wonders and peculiarities…
Layaqoolunna: so they say, for sure…
Allah: Al Muttafarrid, The Only One who creates and invents, Al Muttwaahid, The One All Alone in His being worshipped and His being The Sustainer, because they have no power to turn away from this answer with their backs.
Ghaus Pak (ra) too was displeased and angry with me. But only out of his love for His Lord. That was the way of His Friends. They only loved because of Him. They only had enemity because of Him. I was deserving of that wrath upon me. In hindsight I was fortunate that it came.
In a single page he had expressed his irritation, reprimanded me, then taught me a prayer that brought me before my Lord in utmost repentance and showed me how even suffering ordained could morph into the opposite, become a blessing.
Thus I began to see how the barzakh, that partition of the Divine’s Mercy, began to take form in my life.
In Lahore it was part of my daily routine to visit an elderly friend who had been unwell for years. There were good days and bad but as a result of ever increasing illnesses that brought with them acute pain, more and more they would be in the worst mood possible.
But they too had a Spiritual Master. So every so often, he would step in and lift them out of the bitterness they were drowning in. Like a breather to remind them of who they were and not who they had become. Then they would be let go again and sink. That was how it was playing out for now.
The Spiritual Master is the Arif. Since Ghaus Pak (ra) says that they can see destiny ordained, they decide when to step in, for how long and when to retreat to let the disciple’s journey play out. But they are always there, keeping their eye on those who are in their charge, looking into their hearts to see how rusted they have become.
Each day I entered the house not knowing what mood awaited me. Mostly I was greeted with intense sarcasm, mistrust which manifested in a poisonous tongue resulting in complete humiliation. Sometimes I was alone in the room, other times people were present who ignored the incidence. I always wondered why they were silent. I was about to find out.
I had been reciting the prayer gifted to me by Ghaus Pak (ra). Then I was uttering it as my own repentance but like all prayers, there were branches of other Divine Mercies emanating from it. A day or two later, I entered the room expecting a thrashing. We happened to be sitting right next to each other. It was early in the day. She was being served breakfast.
All I had said thus far was “How did you sleep?”
In response came a fire of reproaches. How I could not be relied upon. I was insincere. Selfish. And so on. On every other occasion, no exceptions, I would attempt to exercise patience as I had learnt it. Silent in the tongue, begrudging in the heart, angry in the mind. Even that didn’t always work. Sometimes I would lose it and say something curt, leaving earlier than I would otherwise. Only to be extremely disappointed in my failure of restraint, beating myself up about it before I even reached my car to head home.
On that day, as we sat so close to each other that our thighs almost touched, I listened to the sharpness of the words that normally sliced through my heart with a calm I had never experienced before. It was so eerie that I just sat there making sure what I was feeling was in fact real. I felt like they were speaking to someone else in the room. But there was no one else.
I focused on my heart. Did it feel a grudge, sorry for itself for being attacked without provocation? It didn’t. I honed in on my mind. Was it angry or rolling its eyes thinking, “Here we go again.” It wasn’t. There was a partition between us. The barzakh I had pleaded for with my weeping had appeared.
It was so unexpectedly crazy it felt like magic!
The truth, as it turned out, was that everyone followed Iblis. The believers, the non-believers. The grateful, the ungrateful. He turns each Mo’min into a Kafir. At some point or the other, everyone was taken in by his seduction. No one’s nafs was spared.
Except for one group!
وَلَقَدۡ صَدَّقَ عَلَیۡهِمۡ إِبۡلِیسُ ظَنَّهُۥ فَٱتَّبَعُوهُ إِلَّا فَرِیقࣰا مِّنَ ٱلۡمُؤۡمِنِینَ
And certainly, Iblis found his assumption about them to be true, so they (all) followed him except a group of the believers.
Surah As Saba, Verse 20
Tafseer e Jilani
Then said Subhanahu taking an oath…
Wa: upon Himself…
Laqad saddaqa: indeed he, Iblis, authenticated…
Alayhim: upon those, Al Haalikeen, the ones who destroy themselves in the maze of khusraan, losses and kufraan, denial and ingratitude…
Iblis: the enemy for them, persistent, permanent in enemity with them from the beginning of their creation…
Dannahu: his belief, which was what he thought to be true for them when he said to their father, the Prophet Adam (as),
لَأَحۡتَنِكَنَّ ذُرِّیَّتَهُۥۤ إِلَّا قَلِیلࣰ
I will surely destroy his offspring except a few – Al Isra, 62
Tafseer e Jilani
La ahtanikanna durriyaatahu: Iblis said: I will make them wayward and trap them with vulgarity and by alluring them to do something wrong so that I can erase their names from the book of believers. So how can they become of the Arifeen, the ones who recognize Allah and the Al Mukaashifeen, for whom everything unveils, Al Mushahideen, the witnessing ones because what they are made from and their foundation, it demands different kinds of corruption and various kinds of sin and waywardness.
And for me there are many opportunities (through these demands) to create paranoia for them and allure them till they become misguided from the straight path of guidance and the way of correctness…
Illa qaleela: except a few amongst them for indeed they are Sabitoon, steadfast on what they are set up on. I have no power to persuade them towards wrongdoing because they are Muwwayadeen, assisted by You and they are Muwwafiqeen, granted ability by Your Power.
And he said:
وَلَا تَجِدُ أَكْثَرَهُمْ شَكِرِينَ
And you will not find most of them to be grateful - Surah Al Araaf, Verse 17
Tafseer e Jilani
La tajidu: You will not find, Ya Muizzu, O You who is The Bestower of Honour to everybody else in in humiliation and The One directing the astray to the Right Path…
Aksarahim Shakireen: most of them to be grateful when they will return towards You, they will be not be the grateful ones, spending from what You bestowed them of blessings on what You commanded them not to do.
And he said:
وَلَأُضِلَّنَّهُمۡ وَلَأُمَنِّیَنَّهُمۡ
And I will surely deceive them and surely arouse desires in them – An Nisa, Verse 119
Tafseer e Jilani
Wa laudillanahum: And I will surely deceive them by different deceptions and whisperings of doubt and paranoia from the Way of Your Tauheed, One-ness…
Wa layumanniannahum: and I will arouse desires in them by their concerns with their livelihood in this place of deception (the world) with hirs, greed and tool al amal, never ending hopes and all types of desires of their nafs, their egos, which arise from lust and (seeking of) pleasure and much else apart from this. And after that he misguided them from the path of
Shukr, Gratitude and Imaan, faith…
Fattaba’uhu: they followed him, ungrateful and denying of the blessings and Al Munim, the Bestower of those Blessings, all of them…
Illa fareeqan min al Mo’mineen: except a group from the
Mo’mineen, the believers, Al Mu’qineena, possessing certainy in the Tauheed, the One-ness of Allah, Al Musaddeqeena, attesting to His Prophets, Al Muttadakkireena, taking warning that he is their enemy forever, so they turned back from him and from his persuasion by deception, thus they remained Saalimeen, secure, from his persuasion to deceive.
No wonder a connection to that group was deemed essential to receive guidance. They were in a count, set apart from everyone else in Creation. They were the ones who were “an’amta alayhim.”
The inordinate focus on the prayer from Ghaus Pak (ra) brought my attention to the verses expounding on the etiquettes of the prayer in the Quran. I looked them up:
ٱدۡعُوا۟ رَبَّكُمۡ تَضَرُّعࣰا وَخُفۡیَةًۚ
إِنَّهُۥ لَا یُحِبُّ ٱلۡمُعۡتَدِینَ
Call upon your Lord humbly and privately.
Indeed, He (does) not love the transgressors.
Surah Al Araaf, Verse 55
Tafseer e Jilani
Udu’u: Call upon Him, those who have been set up on the true nature of Tauheed, One-ness…
Rabbukum: your Rabb, Al Mutafarraq, The One who is Unique in your raising and in making you appear…
Tadarru’an: (call upon Him) humbly as the ones who beseech Him…
Wa khufiatan: and quietly, as the ones hiding and the ones scared, and the ones submissive from the depths of the heart, not unstable in the edges of the tongue like the transgressors.
Innahu la yuhibbil Mu’tadeena: Indeed, He does not like the ones who cross the boundaries of what is right, the Al Mujawizeena, the ones who exceed limits, the Al Mujahireena, the ones who ask for things loudly, Al Maalliheena, the ones who ask for wrong things in their prayer because His Knowledge of their states is enough regarding their asking.
It was new word for me. Mu’tadeena! I knew already Subhanahu did not like the Kafireen, the deniers of truth. He did not like the Zalimeen, the unjust, the ones who crossed limits. He did not like the Faisqeen, those defiant in their disobedience. The Mu’tadeen were also transgressors. Overtly they seemed the same as the Kafireen.
Except in the tafseer, everything about them seemed to be related to those of us who were on the inside of the circle of Islam. For we the ones who were praying to Subhanahu. Except we were asking for things loudly. We were asking for things wrongly. We did not deny Subhanahu. We deluded ourselves that we were aspiring to be of the Mo’mineen, the believers. We didn’t even know we had become aligned with the disbelievers. Like them we were not scared of Him.
The most exalted of prayers in the Quran are the ones Allah Subhanahu Himself taught His Beloved (salutations and greetings upon him and his blessed family and the utterance that came forth from them that lead the way to our salvation). It was as if He said to him, “Ask from me this and ask it like this.”
One of those prayers then appeared that seemed to be exactly for such a situation. For if one was being rendered a transgressor whilst in prayer, then clearly refuge was in need from Shaitaan who was prevailing in exactly that moment. A moment that one thought was intensely private and only between them and their Lord.
وَقُل رَّبِّ أَعُوذُ بِكَ مِنۡ هَمَزَتِ ٱلشَّیَـٰطِینِ
And say, "My Lord! I seek refuge in You from the suggestions (of) the evil ones,
وَأَعُوذُ بِكَ رَبِّ أَن یَحۡضُرُونِ
And I seek refuge in You, My Lord! Lest they be present with me."
Surah Al Mu’minoon, Verse 97-98
Tafseer e Jilani
Wa qul Rabbi: So say, “O Lord who raises me by Your Kunf, Safekeeping and Jawaar, Watchfulness…
Audo bika min hamazaati Shayateen: I seek refuge in You from the promptings of the evil ones and their waswase, whisperings and the different kinds of seductions and
misleading.
Wa: And especially…
Aoudo: I seek protection and come into refuge…
Bika: with You, O…
Rabbi Ayyahdiroon: my Lord, lest they come near me and let my focus be upon You and when my heart is soft in its inclination towards You and I invoke You, especially during my prayer and during my recitation and during the time I present my needs to You.
It revealed to me why the recitation of the namaz, why the recitation of the Quran, all worship was made to begin with seeking of refuge from Shaitaan and his followers.
فَإِذَا قَرَأۡتَ ٱلۡقُرۡءَانَ فَٱسۡتَعِذۡ بِٱللَّهِ مِنَ ٱلشَّیۡطَـٰنِ ٱلرَّجِیمِ
So when you recite the Quran, seek refuge in Allah from the Shaitaan, the accursed.
Surah An Nahl, Verse 98
Fasta’id: then seek refuge and invoke, first of all…
Billahi: Allah, Al Mutajalli, The One who unveils, by the attribute of speech, which makes others helpless before it, Al Hafeed, The Protector of His Sincere Servants from everything in useless sins and disobedience…
Min: (which occur) due to doubts and paranoia…
Ash Shaitaan ar rajeem: from Shaitaan the accursed one, Al Matrood, the one expelled and the one made distant from the court of the Presence of Allah Azzo Jal with the stoning of the effects of the Attributes of Allah’s Wrath and (seek refuge) from his delusions and rationalizations which are the armies of desire and forgetfulness and false imaginings and thrilling hallucinations which persuade different kinds of hopes and lust.
Basically possibilities!
Yet another revelation that came to me through the prayer Ya Haailo had to with the virtue of patience.
قُلۡ یَـٰعِبَادِ ٱلَّذِینَ ءَامَنُوا۟ ٱتَّقُوا۟ رَبَّكُمۡۚ لِلَّذِینَ أَحۡسَنُوا۟ فِی هَـٰذِهِ ٱلدُّنۡیَا حَسَنَةࣱۗ
إِنَّمَا یُوَفَّى ٱلصَّـٰبِرُونَ أَجۡرَهُم بِغَیۡرِ حِسَابࣲ
Say, "O My slaves those who believe!
Be mindful of your Lord. For those who do good in this world is good,
Only will be paid back in full the patient ones their reward without account."
Surah Az Zumar, Verse 10
Tafseer e Jilani
Qul: Say, Ya Akmal Ar Rusul (Allah sends blessings and salutations upon you since the beginning of everything), O Messenger who completes the Messenger-hood, give this message on Our Behalf, calling out to the selected sincere amongst my Servants…
Ya ibadi: O My Worshippers, by attaching them with His Essence making them special and honouring them…
Alladina aamano: those who attained to faith from amongst you in the One-ness of My Essence and My Appearance according to My Affairs and My Ever changing-ness in accordance with My Names and Attributes, the requirement of your faith is taqwa, mindfulness from the demands of your desires…
Ittaqu Rabbukum: be conscious of your Lord and stay away from what is forbidden by Him and what He has ordered prevented for you and characterize yourself with His Commands and know that He…
Lilladina ahsanu: for the ones with spiritual excellence and beautiful regard with Allah…
Fi hadihi duniya: in this world, which is the place of gaining lessons and choosing…
Hasana: there is goodness, multifold and more than a thousand times more than that in the Hereafter which is the Dar al Qarar, the abode which is forever so take heed, O people of vision, both inner and outer.
…
Innama yuwaffa as sabiroon: Only the steadfast are given in full as the Al Mutahammiloona, the ones who carry their burdens with the different kinds of difficulties and toiling with patience in the practice of Imaan, faith…
Ajrahum: their reward and in abundance upon them will be goodness and different kinds of recompenses and honours…
Bighairi hisaab: without count, for all of it and exceeding it, with no possibility of measure and enumeration and without any number, merely by His Bounty for them and His Honour upon them.
My way of practicing it was about to change.
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1/18/2014
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Today seemed like the longest day ever.
I felt super stressed at work because it was pretty busy and I'm still sick.. So now my head is pounding and I pretty much hate everyone lol.
I hate working 8 hour shifts because that just eats up my whole day.. Wake up at 9, be at work by 11, get home by 9. Then add in going to school every day, and I don't have time to do anything.
I wish I didn't have to go to school or work for a living. I want to just go on adventures and take pictures all the time and not have to worry about bills and homework. Idk, I'm just feeling super stressed at the moment, which sucks, because it affects my photography. At the end of the day I'm suuuper burned out so I can't come up with any cool ideas, and of course, I can't take any pictures while I'm at work, so.. SUCKS. I hate my daily routine right now.
Anyways, every time I'm stressed out, I like to look up at the stars. As trite and cliche as it sounds, looking up makes me feel better. There is so much more out there in the universe, it's crazy. Billions of stars, thousands of planets and universes.. and we haven't even discovered everything that's out there yet! It's just amazing, and putting all of my problems into perspective makes me feel a bit.. better I guess. For all that's out there in the universe, my problems seem so insignificant. And even in our own world.. There are so many people in worse situations, I shouldn't complain about my life. And yet here I am, complaining about my life.
Maybe I'm just having a bad day. I'll get better soon.
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Camera Info:
Canon 6D
Canon 17-40 f/4L
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Editing Info:
Layered 15 pictures together and then layered an image of me sitting on my dad's truck.
Contrast
Dodge & Burn.
For the past few weeks I have been in, what seems to be, a very long and weird slump/mood. I just feel like I wake up, do my daily routines, and then sleep. Then the process repeats itself over and over. It feels like my body is on auto-pilot and I am just a mere passenger in the plane rather than the pilot. It also feels like all the fire and excitement I have for my passions, my life, and the world have been doused with a bucket of water. I feel like I am just an observer as time speeds by and very rarely does it feel like I am actually or fully participating in this complex thing called life.
This is so odd for me given the fact that I am so far from a zombie. Usually when I open my eyes I am overwhelmed and enchanted with the wonders that are in every nook and cranny in the universe and under every rock. But at this very moment I feel like if I were able to have a conversation with Nikola Tesla and he were able to bestow upon me all of his knowledge and questions I would just stand there, gazing, and slightly nodding my head with little excitement.
This is not me. This is not the way I think or see the world. I am ready to be back in my old body/mind and I am ready to feel inspired again. I am ready to actively participate and live. This weird slump/mood needs to end because, still at this very moment, I just feel so numb.
There’s absolutely no art in Amsterdam, except that marvellous old stuff, done in 'The Golden Age’, that juncture in history for which everybody is currently apologizing. Even what we sold, in our gallery, was sometimes old stuff looted from China by that respectable body, the VOC, when we were getting them strung out on Opium. I am Dutch now, by the way, so I can use 'we'. Dreadful business really, living on the detritus from a glorious old and raped society. But we made a pretty penny, so that’s all fine then. The end justifying the means and all that Machiavellian lardy da.
Apologies to Vincent, and Theo, for the above diatribe. They will be lauded and subsumed at a suitably later date.
Of course, I have heard of that Norwegian Karl Ove Knausgaard geezer, but no, I haven’t read him. In fact, I haven’t read anything for well over 5 years. I was on some terrible drugs, with some awful ingredient called TAF in them. They did me in and basically turned me into a Zombie for those 5 years (the wages of sin, worth every penny in my humble opinion). Don’t get me wrong, I love Zombies, but it wasn’t much fun actually being one of the only ones in the village that is Amsterdam.
I have been writing a lot, well writing and editing. I have over 2 million words written, it's partly about us, partly not. Sinéad is now Sorcha; I haven't decided what your name will be. I might call on you now and then, here, to help me remember. It's not a memoir, it's more about an idea. I have been writing it for well over 20 years now, and am continuing, though I have never been so clear about it.
I will have to get to that part where we had to put the baby, Grace, up for adoption, and how you helped us. We did 'Orphans of the Storm' very well, in my humble opinion. It was easier for me, than it was for Sorcha, as I had no DNA relationship to the child, but we had been thrown together in one room through those three trimesters, and I was asleep when her waters broke. She didn't want to disturb me with the news. Sorcha just sat there, in a puddle of her own making, till I woke up at around 6 am. I got her to the hospital just 20 minutes before Grace made her loved and bellowing entrance.
It also has 16,834 images, plus some. These go with those gazillion words I already told you about, so I have a lot to get through. Of course, the words are also been added to daily as more get edited, it's ongoing, and I do just seem to keep vomiting them out.
Do you remember that day you ran out of that restaurant without paying, and I had to follow? That will be there too. It happened in those first few weeks in London, and was in a restaurant next door to where I worked, ‘The London Palladium’, no less. I was still waiting for my first paycheck, so couldn't manage the bill alone.
You got me very wrong that day. I do lots of scurrilous things, disgusting, fun, and otherwise, and I will happily innumerate them all with all sorts of salacious details, but I don’t run out of restaurants without paying. I incorporated the incident, somehow into my daily routine, and managed to find my way, by a circuitous route, to work, for a month or so, hoping by then the waiter might have moved on, or been in a terrible car accident where he lost his sight, or more ideally, the whole incident might have just been forgotten.
We often got each other wrong, but that’s what friends do until they finally reject each other, or just forgive each other everything.
I am attempting, with what I am writing, to do the latter. I suspect that I might have decided to 'go the whole hog' this time.
Yes, that's an Arabia 'Teema' coffee-cup from Finland. We never had the likes of them in Clondalkin, to be sure.
Dallo scorso settembre ho iniziato a fare la pendolare tra Roma e Napoli per ragioni di studio/lavoro. Una mattina mi è venuto in mente di provare a raccontare frammenti della mia routine attraverso gli scatti della mia Holga. Il risultato è questo set (in progress).
Since last September I began commuting from Rome, where I live, to Naples, where I work/study. One morning I thought it would be nice to try to collect fragments of my daily routine through some shots taken with my Holga. The outcome can be seen in this set (in progress).
HOLGA 120 GCFN - Kodak Portra 160 VC (ISO 160)
Scansione da stampa (Epson Perfection 3490)
It's been sunny all week -- fuckin' cold, but sunny.
I should have been spending my afternoons outside, taking pictures in the forest, going for walks, for drives... But it's the end of the semester, so instead my daily routine has been to get up early, shower, walk to school, prep, mark, teach, walk home and make dinner, walk back to school, prep, mark, plan, then walk home and go to bed. I used to wear my Bushido shirt proudly, happy to be a vassal at the service of my students. But this week my service has felt like servitude.
My Communications kids have balked these last two weeks at my attempts to ensure they're ready for their final, and I'm certain that fully half of them are going to completely blow it because they're not taking it seriously. (Guys: MULTI-fucking-paragraph composition! ONE paragraph is NOT going to cut it!) My grade eights are being pretty cool, but they're grade eights -- it's hard to fuck up an English eight exam.
But you know, it's not really the kids that have me feeling like my life is one of servitude rather than service. There have been administrative changes this year, and it's becoming clear that processes that used to be in place to help the at-risk kids (who seem to fill my classes in great numbers -- and not just my Communications classes) will not be there next year. In fact, many are gone this year! (And thanks for informing me of those changes, by the way. That's better than, oh, say, maybe my finding out about them three days before the end of the semester in a chance conversation with a colleague.) See, I used to LIKE being at my school all the time. It felt like a kind of home to me.
Benevolence, bravery, honour, justice, loyalty, veracity, politeness...
How am I to be benevolent when our leaders are cruel? How am I to be brave when I am surrounded by cowards who refuse to say to those above them, "Enough is fucking enough!"?
How can I exhibit both veracity and politeness?
And most importantly... When the fuck am I going to see daylight again?
This photo is: Edited
okay.. this is my crazy idea.. i had to edit the sizes of the photos and it gave me a hard time doing that...
i had an idea which will show my daily routine.. so here it is.. :)
Sunday - this is the family day or God's day. i usually wear dresses every mass.
Monday - it shows my school uniform and i have to wear it every Mondays, Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Thursdays. patience... this will last only for almost 5 months because soon i will be graduating, if God permits. :)
Tuesday - it is my funky, ragged style.. i feel comfortable with this.
Wednesday - this is so me... you will see me as simple as this. shirt, jeans, flip flops, messy hair, no make ups, no jewelry..
Thursday - i love sun, summer, shades, flip flops, etc etc.. this photo explains a lot.
Friday - formal.. yeah, there are times that i have to be formal, i am not that comfortable with it but at least i can handle.
Saturday - sports... i may not into sports but i adore swimming and volleyball and badminton.
Guys, this is my routine.. sorry for my crazy idea.. :|
What the ancients knew, puzzles those even today. Get Inked.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=WMq6MLo_eSM
Clap, clap, clap, drinking, drinking smoking, smoking
That's my daily routine after rocking shows and low-scoping
Focused on the wrong things like the ghosts out of your dreams
And it really truly seems that this is supposed to happen, man.
Mayan(Copy for Sell) - Uncut Tattoo House Calls.
Limited time. Selected Few.
IM: Mariano Ree - For full details.
Dear friends, you are more than welcome to visit my flickr.
These are some pictures regarding my third Lego MOC set named Dark-Age series.
After second series, An idea hit my mind one day. Most of real Batman vehicles are matte black, which Lego doesn't produce matte black bricks. Interestingly, I paint-sprayed the first batmobile, and then another, and then another.....It did take me long time and the whole procedures are troublesome and tedious. but the result is quite satisfying.
This set includes:
(1) Chibi Batcycle. Batcycle has very simple structure that I constructed by accident. And I built several motorcycle based on its chasis. The shape and style is more preferred aomong all my chibi vehicles. I personally consider it a very good-looking one by only using some old Lego small parts.
(2) Batmobile (Fomula-1 style): Browsing vehicles' desings online and acquire ideas is one of my daily routines -from deviantART etc. And learning something new about fashion, no matter old designs or concept designs, is also very fun. I built this batmobile after I saw this while looking for some inspiration:
www.techeblog.com/if-the-batmobile-was-an-f1-car/
(3) Bat Truck: One interesting fact about this series is that I attempted to built "side vehicles" and make them loaded onto the main vehicles because some modified official vehicles have thiese kind of function initially. The Bat Truck is actually a snow truck because I hope to build a multi-function series in the first place. And it is also my favorite one among six vehicles of this series.
(4) Bat Tank: Needless to say, this is obviously just a modified version of official set Lego 70588 Titanium Ninja Tumbler, I knew exactly what I had to do with it at first sight-matte black version-, and I call it amphibious bat for Batman can drive it both on land and in shallow water.
(5) Batsub: Another modified version from official one. There are literally 3 vehicles out of 6 that are from official sets. As I mentioned above, I wanted to build a series with multifunction concept. This Batsub is able to go on land, on the sea, and of course, under the sea. Please check out the "Ultra Agents - 70162" if you would like to know more info.
(6) Batwing (AKA Bat Bomber): No doubt about it. perhaps you can tell immediately that this is just another official Marvel superhero set- Quinjet.
There is no need to explain why I had to turn it into matte black version, or maybe it just my personal preference. I think this is the best Quinjet among all Lego Quinjet by far and so far.
Thank you so much for viewing my Lego works. More photos of other sets are coming in soon. My only intention is to share. Hope you like these cute toys. peace. :)
my Youtube:
Dear friends, you are more than welcome to visit my flickr.
These are some pictures regarding my third Lego MOC set named Dark-Age series.
After second series, An idea hit my mind one day. Most of real Batman vehicles are matte black, which Lego doesn't produce matte black bricks. Interestingly, I paint-sprayed the first batmobile, and then another, and then another.....It did take me long time and the whole procedures are troublesome and tedious. but the result is quite satisfying.
This set includes:
(1) Chibi Batcycle. Batcycle has very simple structure that I constructed by accident. And I built several motorcycle based on its chasis. The shape and style is more preferred aomong all my chibi vehicles. I personally consider it a very good-looking one by only using some old Lego small parts.
(2) Batmobile (Fomula-1 style): Browsing vehicles' desings online and acquire ideas is one of my daily routines -from deviantART etc. And learning something new about fashion, no matter old designs or concept designs, is also very fun. I built this batmobile after I saw this while looking for some inspiration:
www.techeblog.com/if-the-batmobile-was-an-f1-car/
(3) Bat Truck: One interesting fact about this series is that I attempted to built "side vehicles" and make them loaded onto the main vehicles because some modified official vehicles have thiese kind of function initially. The Bat Truck is actually a snow truck because I hope to build a multi-function series in the first place. And it is also my favorite one among six vehicles of this series.
(4) Bat Tank: Needless to say, this is obviously just a modified version of official set Lego 70588 Titanium Ninja Tumbler, I knew exactly what I had to do with it at first sight-matte black version-, and I call it amphibious bat for Batman can drive it both on land and in shallow water.
(5) Batsub: Another modified version from official one. There are literally 3 vehicles out of 6 that are from official sets. As I mentioned above, I wanted to build a series with multifunction concept. This Batsub is able to go on land, on the sea, and of course, under the sea. Please check out the "Ultra Agents - 70162" if you would like to know more info.
(6) Batwing (AKA Bat Bomber): No doubt about it. perhaps you can tell immediately that this is just another official Marvel superhero set- Quinjet.
There is no need to explain why I had to turn it into matte black version, or maybe it just my personal preference. I think this is the best Quinjet among all Lego Quinjet by far and so far.
Thank you so much for viewing my Lego works. More photos of other sets are coming in soon. My only intention is to share. Hope you like these cute toys. peace. :)
my Youtube:
Dear friends, you are more than welcome to visit my flickr.
These are some pictures regarding my third Lego MOC set named Dark-Age series.
After second series, An idea hit my mind one day. Most of real Batman vehicles are matte black, which Lego doesn't produce matte black bricks. Interestingly, I paint-sprayed the first batmobile, and then another, and then another.....It did take me long time and the whole procedures are troublesome and tedious. but the result is quite satisfying.
This set includes:
(1) Chibi Batcycle. Batcycle has very simple structure that I constructed by accident. And I built several motorcycle based on its chasis. The shape and style is more preferred aomong all my chibi vehicles. I personally consider it a very good-looking one by only using some old Lego small parts.
(2) Batmobile (Fomula-1 style): Browsing vehicles' desings online and acquire ideas is one of my daily routines -from deviantART etc. And learning something new about fashion, no matter old designs or concept designs, is also very fun. I built this batmobile after I saw this while looking for some inspiration:
www.techeblog.com/if-the-batmobile-was-an-f1-car/
(3) Bat Truck: One interesting fact about this series is that I attempted to built "side vehicles" and make them loaded onto the main vehicles because some modified official vehicles have thiese kind of function initially. The Bat Truck is actually a snow truck because I hope to build a multi-function series in the first place. And it is also my favorite one among six vehicles of this series.
(4) Bat Tank: Needless to say, this is obviously just a modified version of official set Lego 70588 Titanium Ninja Tumbler, I knew exactly what I had to do with it at first sight-matte black version-, and I call it amphibious bat for Batman can drive it both on land and in shallow water.
(5) Batsub: Another modified version from official one. There are literally 3 vehicles out of 6 that are from official sets. As I mentioned above, I wanted to build a series with multifunction concept. This Batsub is able to go on land, on the sea, and of course, under the sea. Please check out the "Ultra Agents - 70162" if you would like to know more info.
(6) Batwing (AKA Bat Bomber): No doubt about it. perhaps you can tell immediately that this is just another official Marvel superhero set- Quinjet.
There is no need to explain why I had to turn it into matte black version, or maybe it just my personal preference. I think this is the best Quinjet among all Lego Quinjet by far and so far.
Thank you so much for viewing my Lego works. More photos of other sets are coming in soon. My only intention is to share. Hope you like these cute toys. peace. :)
my Youtube:
Aug. 28, 2012.
Slow...that's been my pace this summer, physically and mentally, and what a rejuvenating time it's been! I've done lots, even accomplished things on my to-do list, but at a much slower tempo than usual. Photography has been a part of my daily routine, but I've felt no pressure to process and share right away. I'm letting my photographic thoughts simmer slowly on the back burner. Who knows what creations will emerge ;-)?
I have been experimenting recently with colors and lines. Usually, I use markers, but this time I wanted to use a different medium. I started this without and rough sketches. I feel comfortable improvising my work, and making mistakes helps me to find out what I want. This title, which I changed, came to me when I was half sleeping. I think that is the best time to ponder what I want to create, because I am not thinking of my daily routines.
Our Daily Challenge: Hollow
"When not deeply engaged in creative activities, or numbed out by the TV, I felt empty. My heart hurt. I often felt hollow or as if I were some sort of wispy ghost, barely existing."
-Judith Wright
SOOOO glad to be back, flickr friends. I recently started a new job and it was all consuming for a while, but I'm finally getting back into my daily routine. This was actually a shot I took to work on certain editing techniques, but I kind of like the way it came out.
This is actually better in lightbox.
Dear friends, you are more than welcome to visit my flickr.
These are some pictures regarding my third Lego MOC set named Dark-Age series.
After second series, An idea hit my mind one day. Most of real Batman vehicles are matte black, which Lego doesn't produce matte black bricks. Interestingly, I paint-sprayed the first batmobile, and then another, and then another.....It did take me long time and the whole procedures are troublesome and tedious. but the result is quite satisfying.
This set includes:
(1) Chibi Batcycle. Batcycle has very simple structure that I constructed by accident. And I built several motorcycle based on its chasis. The shape and style is more preferred aomong all my chibi vehicles. I personally consider it a very good-looking one by only using some old Lego small parts.
(2) Batmobile (Fomula-1 style): Browsing vehicles' desings online and acquire ideas is one of my daily routines -from deviantART etc. And learning something new about fashion, no matter old designs or concept designs, is also very fun. I built this batmobile after I saw this while looking for some inspiration:
www.techeblog.com/if-the-batmobile-was-an-f1-car/
(3) Bat Truck: One interesting fact about this series is that I attempted to built "side vehicles" and make them loaded onto the main vehicles because some modified official vehicles have thiese kind of function initially. The Bat Truck is actually a snow truck because I hope to build a multi-function series in the first place. And it is also my favorite one among six vehicles of this series.
(4) Bat Tank: Needless to say, this is obviously just a modified version of official set Lego 70588 Titanium Ninja Tumbler, I knew exactly what I had to do with it at first sight-matte black version-, and I call it amphibious bat for Batman can drive it both on land and in shallow water.
(5) Batsub: Another modified version from official one. There are literally 3 vehicles out of 6 that are from official sets. As I mentioned above, I wanted to build a series with multifunction concept. This Batsub is able to go on land, on the sea, and of course, under the sea. Please check out the "Ultra Agents - 70162" if you would like to know more info.
(6) Batwing (AKA Bat Bomber): No doubt about it. perhaps you can tell immediately that this is just another official Marvel superhero set- Quinjet.
There is no need to explain why I had to turn it into matte black version, or maybe it just my personal preference. I think this is the best Quinjet among all Lego Quinjet by far and so far.
Thank you so much for viewing my Lego works. More photos of other sets are coming in soon. My only intention is to share. Hope you like these cute toys. peace. :)
my Youtube:
Dear friends, you are more than welcome to visit my flickr.
These are some pictures regarding my third Lego MOC set named Dark-Age series.
After second series, An idea hit my mind one day. Most of real Batman vehicles are matte black, which Lego doesn't produce matte black bricks. Interestingly, I paint-sprayed the first batmobile, and then another, and then another.....It did take me long time and the whole procedures are troublesome and tedious. but the result is quite satisfying.
This set includes:
(1) Chibi Batcycle. Batcycle has very simple structure that I constructed by accident. And I built several motorcycle based on its chasis. The shape and style is more preferred aomong all my chibi vehicles. I personally consider it a very good-looking one by only using some old Lego small parts.
(2) Batmobile (Fomula-1 style): Browsing vehicles' desings online and acquire ideas is one of my daily routines -from deviantART etc. And learning something new about fashion, no matter old designs or concept designs, is also very fun. I built this batmobile after I saw this while looking for some inspiration:
www.techeblog.com/if-the-batmobile-was-an-f1-car/
(3) Bat Truck: One interesting fact about this series is that I attempted to built "side vehicles" and make them loaded onto the main vehicles because some modified official vehicles have thiese kind of function initially. The Bat Truck is actually a snow truck because I hope to build a multi-function series in the first place. And it is also my favorite one among six vehicles of this series.
(4) Bat Tank: Needless to say, this is obviously just a modified version of official set Lego 70588 Titanium Ninja Tumbler, I knew exactly what I had to do with it at first sight-matte black version-, and I call it amphibious bat for Batman can drive it both on land and in shallow water.
(5) Batsub: Another modified version from official one. There are literally 3 vehicles out of 6 that are from official sets. As I mentioned above, I wanted to build a series with multifunction concept. This Batsub is able to go on land, on the sea, and of course, under the sea. Please check out the "Ultra Agents - 70162" if you would like to know more info.
(6) Batwing (AKA Bat Bomber): No doubt about it. perhaps you can tell immediately that this is just another official Marvel superhero set- Quinjet.
There is no need to explain why I had to turn it into matte black version, or maybe it just my personal preference. I think this is the best Quinjet among all Lego Quinjet by far and so far.
Thank you so much for viewing my Lego works. More photos of other sets are coming in soon. My only intention is to share. Hope you like these cute toys. peace. :)
my Youtube: