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"Normal people don't understand this concept; they believe that if it ain't broke, don't fix it. Engineers believe that if it ain't broke, it doesn't have enough features yet."
"There’s nothing more humbling than seeing your best quotes in a list, and thinking they could have been written by a coma patient with a keyboard and spasms."
"Just because no one has ever gotten better from Spasmodic Dysphonia before doesn't mean I can't be the first."
– Scott Adams
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Mindset Evolution performing at the Prairie Capital Convention Center in Springfield, IL on April 26, 2016. Photographed by staff photographer Priten Vora.
Mindset Evolution
Prairie Capital Convention Center
April 26, 2016
Springfield, IL
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"There is strong shadow where there is much light."
– Johann Wolfgang von Goethe, 'Götz von Berlichingen', Act I (1773).
"Alonso of Aragon was wont to say in commendation of age, that age appears to be best in four things, — old wood best to burn, old wine to drink, old friends to trust, and old authors to read."
– Francis Bacon, 'Apothegms', No. 97
"Minds are the ultimate terra incognita, beyond the reach of all science and—in the case of languageless minds—beyond all empathetic conversation as well. So what? A little humility ought to temper our curiosity. Don't confuse ontological questions (about what exists) with epistemological questions (about how we know about it). We must grow comfortable with this wonderful fact about what is off-limits to inquiry."
– Daniel C. Dennett, 'Kinds Of Minds'
Organised by Julie Guegan and Obhi Chatterjee, the internal summer online sessions offer to European institutions colleagues conversations on topics such as navigating uncertainty, building trust, overcoming biases or emotional courage. "All of this with a view to equip ourselves and develop good strategies to cope according to research and the experience of our colleagues", as beautifully expressed by Julie. Last week's session was on What is the right mindset to thrive in challenging times?
To feed our conversations, the session hosts chose a Tedtalk by Carol Dweck on The power of believing that you can improve. Here are my visual notes, sketchnotes, where I tried to capture the essence of the points of the Tedtalk as well as those expressed by my colleagues.
Thank you Lucia Soldatova Miruna Andreea Stamate Obhi Chatterjee for hosting online so well.
Ok so it all started when I was born - literally. My parents were young when they had me, just 19 years old. My grandparents got guardianship of my brother and I when I was about three years old. My family has a history of mental illness on both sides, so I was "doomed" naturally. Schizophrenia, bipolar, manic depression, all disorders someone in my family was diagnosed with. My maternal grandmother is manic depressive, and things were very difficult growing up because it wasn't addressed. She didn't believe in therapy and thought that nothing was wrong. Therapy was only for "messed up" people, and she had an extreme stigma about it. There are so many instances of verbal and emotional abuse towards my grandfather, my brother, my mother, and myself. But if you spoke up, it was even worse, you wouldn't dare speak up against it. It was always better to endure it and hope the next day would be better. She was, and still can be, very unpredictable. You'd think everything was dandy, until it wasn't. Things could switch in a moment into a screaming, "you-don't-care-about-me-how-come-no-one-cares-for-me" mess. I never wanted someone to ever go through that, or to feel like they couldn't speak up. I was often the one to speak up, so my grandmother and I would fight often. Hence, the anxiety, people-pleasing, wanting to always keep the peace mindset that I have as an adult. She's always needed help for her mental health, but you can't make someone do something they don't want. If they won't address what's hurting, things can't progress.
My grandfather, my grandmother, my brother, and I tried going to group therapy once. It didn't go well, and was entirely unproductive in creating any change. The time was spent with my grandmother asking why she was always the bad guy and how no one ever talked about how they hurt her, and essentially made for a bad time for awhile at home. I did go to counseling in school for awhile, but it was in a group setting so it wasn't as exclusive as going to one-on-one therapy. As a teenager, I did got to therapy for a little bit, but I stopped going because my therapists kept leaving for other practices. And I felt like I was "fine". Plus, what good does it do when you live somewhere that's always stressful and you feel like you can't really talk about your feelings anyways? I didn't want that for my life, ever. I knew that I wanted to be different. I was always sad as a kid that I didn't live with my parents. I never had an answer when people asked me why I didn't live with them, honestly I still am not sure completely why I didn't and I'll be 29 this year .
My mother ended up having a drug addiction problem when I was in sixth grade. My mother is also bipolar, although I don't know exactly when this was discovered. My grandmother hated my dad, for whatever reason. So I just had no pull in my desire to want to live with a parent. My mother had always been around, and she lived with us and my grandparents at times. I saw my dad on the weekends and holidays. In the beginning of her addiction, my grandparents got emergency custody of my brother Jacob. So now they were raising three kids. When my mother made the decision to get clean from heroin, I was about 11 (I think, not sure of my exact age). I loved her so much, and I'll always remember driving down the road with her one day as she was crying and saying "I love you, you know I do, right?" I was the one sitting with her in the bathroom while she went through withdrawal. It was hard to see my mother so sick. I stayed by her side and slept in the same room as her at night because I was so happy she was back home. I also went to NA and AA meetings with her. I liked the cookies and snacks they'd have. I really had no business being around so much adult information at my age, but as I see it I was the support in my mother's recovery, because everyone else was just mad at her. Naturally, it makes sense that as an adult my mother uses me as support often. She's better now and has been clean for over 10 years.
Eventually, I did get the chance to live with my father and my step-mom the summer before seventh grade. For whatever reason, my grandmother had a moment and agreed to let me live with them. I was ecstatic! I remember hopping onto the computer and instant messaging my step-mom on AIM. I lived with them from the beginning of seventh grade to halfway through my freshman year of high school. Living there was such a change from what I was used to; more routine and structure, more "normalcy". I moved back in with my grandparents halfway through my freshman year of high school. Around that time is when my father was really starting to struggle with his mental health (that I know of). There was one night I remember he got so angry that my step-mom and I went in the basement with our dog. He'd torn off the keyboard holder from the computer desk, ripped the sliding door off the track, and threw the board into the pool. He wasn't going to hurt us and I think we knew that, but he was just SO aggressively upset. I remember he left and that night I woke up to the sound of him crying in the bathroom pleading to God. He got diagnosed bipolar around that time. I didn't leave because he was struggling, but because I felt like me being there was too stressful and I missed being with my grandparents. Things were still the same when I moved back in, it's like I never left. I think part of me is always going to feel guilty for leaving my brothers there, even though getting out made such a change in me.
I met a junior boy, C is what we will call him, when I moved back. He was my second boyfriend. I'd only dated one person when I lived in Leominster, and it wasn't for long. I didn't really know much about dating, or sex, or how any of it worked really. I feel like I just figured out a lot of it on my own, leading to many poor decisions. Part of the issue is that my grandmother believed that any talk of sex, birth control, or even asking to be on birth control would automatically lead to pregnancy. And most of what I saw growing up was not-so-healthy relationships. C broke up with me shortly after I made the decision to have sex with him, through a note, passing me in the hallway to lunch. One of my first poor decisions, and it got worse because my grandmother found out about it and threatened to bring him to court for statutory rape. For whatever reason I thought that having sex with someone meant love. I don't know where I came up with that, but it was what I thought mattered. And I also couldn't stand to be alone, I somehow put all my worth in being with someone else.
A few boyfriends later, I met P at a little music release basement party for a mutual friend. We were a hit instantly, and I completely ignored all of my friends when they told me the next morning to not get involved with him. Another poor decision. We became boyfriend and girlfriend. I was with him for 3 years almost. We smoked a lot of pot, he skipped a lot of college, he would call out of work to stay with me. My grandmother would call me out sick from school so I could spend a week with him at his dorm in Boston. He practically lived at my grandparent's house with me at one point. It was very toxic. We were very clingy to one another and I had no freedom. I couldn't even really hang out with my friends if he wasn't there too. He didn't like when I colored my hair without asking. One time, I dyed it black without asking and he screamed at me for a good hour through the phone. My friend that was with me had to answer the phone at one point and tell him to stop calling. All my worth and who I was was determined by him. I wanted to stretch my ears but didn't because he got upset and told me that I only wanted to do that so I could fuck his friends. He was extremely emotionally and verbally abusive, narcissistic if you will. And he needed help with mental health, yet another non-believer of therapy in my life, and meds would just make you a zombie so forget that.
When I got to college, P had failed out of New England Institute of Art and ended up at The Mount with me. This was problematic. We had a lot of the same classes and friends. I ended up getting very close to another guy, A, who showed interest in me being who I wanted. I remember being told by A that I was being treated like property. I wasn't happy with P anymore, but I didn't know how to leave. I ended up cheating, which is absolutely against my morals. P found out because A was angry I wouldn't leave P and told him everything. It was a nasty breakup and there was a lot of fighting. We had all the same friends and so there was some division and tension. I failed out of college because I skipped classes so I wouldn't have to see him. But even after the breakup, P found a way to always be involved in my business.
While I was dating P, I stopped talking to my father for about a year. My father was trying to look out for me in a particular circumstance and went to P's house on his lunch one day to talk with him. I was a dumb teenager so I chose my boyfriend over my father. During that year my father tried to commit suicide. I only found out because of someone anonymous on the internet. My father did not succeed and is much better these days.
After P, I had a lot of small relationships. I was trying to find myself and who I wanted to be. I stretched my ears. I went to a lot of shows, and I did get to live with my mother by the way, when I turned 18. Things were hard and she didn't exactly like who I was. A lot of criticism for my boyfriends, who I dated, who my friends were. Because I was already an adult, her trying to parent me didn't exactly mesh. I smoked a pack of cigarettes a day. I was very stressed all the time. I lost my best friend after P, but I also was so caught up in myself I didn't see how awful of a friend I was. She even ended up dating P for a few years, and that was very hard for me. I never took accountability. I was an anxious mess, that couldn't just be by herself. A lot of my relationships felt like I was a "light" for the other person who was looking to fill a void or get over someone else. And even knowing that so many times, I'd just stay sometimes because I was "needed".
Eventually, I would meet my now husband Joe a year (roughly) after P. Joe and I were best friends first. We knew each other first, and hung out as friends first. He would drive from Dracut to Athol almost every day, that's like 2 hours just to get to me, then 2 hours home. We would sit in my room and watch Friend Zone on MTV (how fitting, right?) One day we found ourselves just casually holding hands. This was new for me. I didn't see it coming. Our relationship crept up and blossomed instead of my usual just jumping into a relationship. Joe was the only one to ever stand up to P and tell him he didn't have a place in my life anymore. The only person where I never doubted if I was just filling a void from someone else. Joe cared about my interests and what I enjoyed, and has continued to throughout our 9 year relationship. He showed me what being valued as myself was like. This is love. And I am grateful, because he gives me space to figure out who I am and change if I feel like it.
The lesson from this is that I finally learned that I was enough as me. I didn't have to try to be anyone's ex, I didn't have to try to be anyone but myself. I learned that I had value as a person, and that I could be who I wanted, because I WANTED to be that person. I could be a light in someone's life, without putting out my own light. I learned that my body was not the only thing someone should want in a relationship, and that sex does not mean love. And most importantly, I learned that I didn't need to fill a void in someone, or try to have someone to fill a void in myself. Things don't work that way. You cannot fix a person, you can only be there for them. As far as mental health goes, my intention was always to break the cycle and take care of myself. I knew it from very early in my life. I mentioned that I stopped going to therapy for awhile. Two years ago I did start going to counseling again. After having our second child, I realized that I was really struggling and things were getting hard, I felt like I was falling apart inside. I couldn't cope strictly by myself. Last year I was diagnosed as bipolar 2. My counselor knew a bit sooner than when he told me, but I respect his reasoning. When he diagnosed me, he said that he did not tell me right away when he knew, because he knew that I would have been devastated, since he knew I did not want to be like my family. But I am not like my family. I love my family, and they are not bad people, they just needed help. I am the change in the cycle. I wanted better and I am creating better. I want my children to know stability and that mental health is as important as physical health. I am still working at being better every day, I will always have to, that's okay. I am open, I am accepting of myself, I know healing isn't linear. In healing, I have learned forgiveness.
Boxercise Demo.Photos taken from Blast off PE Fitness and Mindset Coaching's Exhibition Night and Master Boxing Bout. This great event was held in Dorchester Jail on Saturday 19th November 2022 to show how sport can help your mental health. Note: Dorchester Jail is no longer a working prison - it's now operated by Gloucester & Dorchester Prison Events who run regular tours and events there. Blast Off hire their Gym for their regular meetings.
Ladie
s Sparring Demo, Bout 1, with Chezz and Tezza. Photos taken from Blast off PE Fitness and Mindset Coaching's Exhibition Night and Master Boxing Bout. This great event was held in Dorchester Jail on Saturday 19th November 2022 to show how sport can help your mental health. Note: Dorchester Jail is no longer a working prison - it's now operated by Gloucester & Dorchester Prison Events who run regular tours and events there. Blast Off hire their Gym for their regular meetings.
Ladies Sparring Demo, Bout 2, with Katy and Kellie. Photos taken from Blast off PE Fitness and Mindset Coaching's Exhibition Night and Master Boxing Bout. This great event was held in Dorchester Jail on Saturday 19th November 2022 to show how sport can help your mental health. Note: Dorchester Jail is no longer a working prison - it's now operated by Gloucester & Dorchester Prison Events who run regular tours and events there. Blast Off hire their Gym for their regular meetings.
International Hapkido Demo.Photos taken from Blast off PE Fitness and Mindset Coaching's Exhibition Night and Master Boxing Bout. This great event was held in Dorchester Jail on Saturday 19th November 2022 to show how sport can help your mental health. Note: Dorchester Jail is no longer a working prison - it's now operated by Gloucester & Dorchester Prison Events who run regular tours and events there. Blast Off hire their Gym for their regular meetings.
The Junior Combat demonstration. Photos taken from Blast off PE Fitness and Mindset Coaching's Exhibition Night and Master Boxing Bout. This great event was held in Dorchester Jail on Saturday 19th November 2022 to show how sport can help your mental health. Note: Dorchester Jail is no longer a working prison - it's now operated by Gloucester & Dorchester Prison Events who run regular tours and events there. Blast Off hire their Gym for their regular meetings.
Ladie
s Sparring Demo, Bout 1, with Chezz and Tezza. Photos taken from Blast off PE Fitness and Mindset Coaching's Exhibition Night and Master Boxing Bout. This great event was held in Dorchester Jail on Saturday 19th November 2022 to show how sport can help your mental health. Note: Dorchester Jail is no longer a working prison - it's now operated by Gloucester & Dorchester Prison Events who run regular tours and events there. Blast Off hire their Gym for their regular meetings.
Boxercise Demo.Photos taken from Blast off PE Fitness and Mindset Coaching's Exhibition Night and Master Boxing Bout. This great event was held in Dorchester Jail on Saturday 19th November 2022 to show how sport can help your mental health. Note: Dorchester Jail is no longer a working prison - it's now operated by Gloucester & Dorchester Prison Events who run regular tours and events there. Blast Off hire their Gym for their regular meetings.
The 2019 Masters World Final Rematch: Richie Rock Myers (USA) V David Baird (UK). Photos taken from Blast off PE Fitness and Mindset Coaching's Exhibition Night and Master Boxing Bout. This great event was held in Dorchester Jail on Saturday 19th November 2022 to show how sport can help your mental health. Note: Dorchester Jail is no longer a working prison - it's now operated by Gloucester & Dorchester Prison Events who run regular tours and events there. Blast Off hire their Gym for their regular meetings.
Boxercise Demo.Photos taken from Blast off PE Fitness and Mindset Coaching's Exhibition Night and Master Boxing Bout. This great event was held in Dorchester Jail on Saturday 19th November 2022 to show how sport can help your mental health. Note: Dorchester Jail is no longer a working prison - it's now operated by Gloucester & Dorchester Prison Events who run regular tours and events there. Blast Off hire their Gym for their regular meetings.
Sat on the front doorstep to take this pic. I might actually start sitting here a bit more. Not a bad vibe, when the aspirational hicks in our street aren't giving it all the smiles.
The scrap iron people were driving round the bottom of the street, when I took this. For the first time ever, I saw them actually get something from this street. Amazing. Why do they do it to themselves?
Last night I posted some stuff on Twitter. Named a few names. They've already characterised me as a trouble-maker. I have to wonder what else. They'll make anything they want of anything they want, including saying something like that. They're the boss and don't question that or their legitimacy to impose that 'fact'.
The danger when communicating with some people can be that they have influences which frame how they interact with you. There's a reputation around here about me, based on a load of gossip made official over the years, which means it's almost impossible to have a straight conversation with anyone. Everything's framed on the basis of that reputation and, if you get attitude, for example, you'd better take it, or else sooner or later, you're screwed.
Whatever you say or do, though, nothing will break down the processes influenced so heavily by a false reputation because of the attitudes and mindset influenced by that reputation. There's no way around that. The danger here is that it can influence what you write and how. You can end up in a mess wondering how what you're communicating could be distorted and exploited and how easily they could pull it all off.
I decided to go out of county on Sunday afternoon, writing to the Home Office about some things I've referred to online. I'd tried contacting West Mercia Police to see if there was anything that could be done. One operator with the police from out of town was initially personable, but then he looked at some 'background' and the barriers came up and the attitude was in play. Instant lunacy I can't do anything about because of the long-standing nature of this, along with the typical behaviour of institutions that you'd expect when they've lost the plot. I've seen it all before, many times.
The Home Office is probably not the organisation to deal with this. I wonder if there is one. Most organisations would click in to the conventional idea about psychiatrists having 'expert' local knowledge. The rest writes itself. That's why, whatever happens in this area, I essentially have no access to any effective safeguards, because there are none. I was going to mention the Mayor (or his wife) from 2000/1, when I was effectively laughed out by her from a local organisation that could have done something, but I'd better not. My memory of back then, as you'd expect, isn't what it was. I won't mention the Mayor (or his wife) yet, then, anyway. They'd only distort or rubbish that, anyway. I don't think even the Home Office would get their heads around this one. Don't think anyone ever will.
A few years ago I contacted a local Community Psychiatric Nurse, Maxine. Her patient, Simon, a long time local criminal (Maxine knows this), went quite craftily crazy yet again. I think he's a psychopath or very close. He may have worked her. I wouldn't be surprised. He's good.
I told Maxine a few things back then about how he was manipulating people locally. He's a highly deceptive control freak an emotional wreckage, highly delusional but extremely personable and persuasive. It all goes with his 'job', which took him over, across the years. He was whipping up heightened emotion in people and I was concerned for my safety. People were defriending me on Facebook, for example, and cutting me hostile looks across town. Maxine did nothing.
This guy is a lunatic, who wouldn't be in public if services around here were competent in their field on the basis of their own approach. They're not. In the end I had no choice to accept that he was entirely in the right over a dispute where he was entirely in the wrong. He tolde that he'd been going around saving me from threats of violence from his contacts, seemingly without any insight that he was the one whipping people up to share his madness. The guy's highly delusional and deeply terrified about the his true self, so much so that Cilla Black should've been there.
The last time I saw Simon was at a local coffee shop, recently. He was a mess, the state he gets into when interference from reality begins to hint at what he really has become down the years. He sat there. He tried to pretend we were all cool. Not my fault, I would've still tried because he'd my pal since our teenage years.
He tried to act like a hippy, like we used to in the 80s. It was a tragic and lame betrayal of our youth, quite repulsive and horrific to witness. I saw straight through it because by then I'd regained my fairly good ability to weigh people up, something I should trust and make more use of, but something which there's people in this community will try to defeat. Some people are that crazy here.
His hippy act was faltering. He was struggling, as he occasionally does, because of the reality of what he does to and really thinks about people behind his act, when his lumacy's in full swing. He pulls off the act with most, who decently remember him before he reached even these levels, but he sort of worries that I can see through it. Well I would. He's pretty obvious to me and I think he fears that because it makes him scared of who he is, based on his attitudes of disturbing people.
It's a toughie to look at a long-standing friend and know what they've become. The eyes are sort of there and the rest of the physical presence, but he's gone and gone almost certainly beyond ever coming back. I knew we didn't have long left.
I phoned him that night or a few nights later. I pleaded with him, almost, to get a grip because it was nearly too late, pretty much knowing it already was. I knew how the call would go, too. He's a dangerous guy. He'll try to control the conversation will all manner of methods I can see coming a mile off, to come out with the best deal for him and his distorted reputation, rather than the truth that could've helped him. Well, I suppose it's good for business. Again, as he did years ago, he tried to persuade me that it was all me and that he was absolutely fine and was on top of it. The good times were back for him and I was the mad one. The call ended with disagreement, SMS messages were exchanged and there was the usual vague threat that there would be consequences. I should've have stood my ground years ago. Maxine should've done something.
A mutual friend contacted me soon after reading something I posted online, referred to about all this. We met and talked. He told me how, over the years, the evidence had mounted about the lengths this guy would go to protect himself against real and perceived threats. It was pretty disturbing stuff, but it fitted with things I'd experienced and also heard from other people who'd been close to him. Some wouldn't talk much but it was obvious that they know there's something seriously wrong about this guy, now.
Our mutual friend was very decent and kind. He said Simon had completely convinced him that I was a highly dangerous individual and had persuaded him that he had no choice but to marginalise me, deleting on Facebook, for example, and completely ignoring me in town. Divide and conquer, with no chance of a resolution because any attempt at effective, realistic communication is cut off, with a reputation, where any interaction is framed by that reputation, to keep it in place. This is a pretty common theme. I told our mutual friend not to worry, I really did understand and that I was proud of the person he'd become. And I am and that's based on reality.
I've mentioned events at the local coffee shop in town. The character behind all that, someone with all the hallmarks of a sadistic psychopath, is, I think, worse than Simon. Simon does it all out of fear; Bill does it all out of hatred and a sadistic streak. Again, someone in the community, a local businessman, a very decent man, knows a fair bit about Bill. That's comforting to know.
But I've written about much of what's happened in and around the coffee shop elsewhere in these posts. Let's just say the Officers from West Mercia Police who attended the scene didn't have the slightest idea what they were walking into that day last week, and they probably now never will.
In my last 'consultation' with a 'Consultant Psychiatrist' at Kidderminster Hospital, I took along an independent mental health advocate, the first time on all the 12 years I'd been in the mental health system, years that should never have happened.
Something happened in that consultation which was highly significant. I thought about withholding it from this post, just in case. But over the years, I've learned that it doesn't matter what evidence you have or what you unearth, nothing will ever change. It's all about the reputation and protecting against that being exposed for what it is, come what may. There's a lot of people who've become involved in all this over the years and they're always likely to almost instinctively fall back on that reputation of me to partly to protect that reputation of them.
In that 'consultation', Dr Laki, the 'Consultant' at Kidderminster Hospital, did something that most people wouldn't notice and, if so, he'd almost certainly deny. When I was saying what had really happened over the course of the past 12 years and the lead up to it (that I'd originally been detained in a mental health ward in 2000 on the basis of a 4 year vendetta, based on unchallengeable gossip that snowballed, and which had framed the intervening 12 years), he broke in, smiling at me with 'You're very persuasive, Jason.' What he also did was very briefly and quite nervously glance at my advocate, leaving me in no doubt that he wanted that idea to resonate with her. Ironically, Dr Laki's comment was a common persuasive trick, pointing to manipulation and suggesting paranoia.
In an exchange of emails with my advocate yesterday, I wrote that she probably didn't spot it or what it meant and was intended to achieve. I was quite nervous saying this even to an independent advocate, because I know how it can sound and I'm fully aware of what saying such a thing can trigger off with institutions. But said she saw it and saw through it. Like I say, though, I can include it here because it doesn't matter. These people have it in them to do pretty much anything they want to do and there'd probably be ways to get around this, as always.
My years at the coffee shop were not the first time I'd seen something of a hate campaign develop over a long time. I'd seen it all before, between 1996 and 2000. Occasionally hysterical stuff. As during those 12 years, I mainly tried to just figure it out, because what else are you supposed to do? And a big clue to the mindset, attitudes and beliefs of the people behind it usually reveals itself over time in the feelings and behaviour generated by the reputation. Look closely enough and you can not only figure out how much of it links together, but also the psychology of the key players, along with their core motivating factors. But I had to be very careful because, this time, it was even more toxic than what took place in the area between 1996 and 2000.
Here's a recording of a recent Mental Health Act Assessment: soundcloud.com/jaseanton/recording-of-a-mental-health
I'd been under quite a lot of pressure since the 20 June meeting. I hadn't pieced many things together at that point. This 'Assessment' was quite intimidating, although I was, perhaps naively, glad to be able to talk directly with these people, but the communication is heavily influenced by the power dynamic, here. There's things you just can't say or challenge these people about. I talk so much in the recording mainly because I knew from long experience that, as soon as the representatives of the local medical community started talking, they'd start positioning me on the basis of ideas framed by a reputation based on gossip that had been made official in 2000 mad had just become embedded since then.
To my senses, it's a creepy recording, more so in retrospect, especially in the context of what I now know. The 'medical' people, I think, thought they were doing the right thing on the basis of what they believed - information they never got a grip on from day one - but there's quite a lot of worrying duplicity going on in this recording, that should be evident from what I've written elsewhere.
This sort of thing could easily happen again, even of this process of writing this stuff online is partly cathartic (they'll ascribe - spin - whatever motives they like to whatever they like and I bet you they could make it stick and block scrutiny of that by me, but that's a fact of life I got used to a very long time ago). These people will almost certainly seize on or engineer any errors in these writings (and probably try to exploit the disruptive stuff). There doesn't even need to be errors or anything, really: they can put it all down to 'interpretation' or whatever other diversionary measure they'll use even other otherwise effective analytical tools to embed their viewpoint and that's that.
It all began in 1996. A mother and son from Stourport with strong links to the local Police and the local medical community misread a situation and went with it, hyped up and excited from day one, an excitement I've seen on a few occasions over the intervening years.
Apparently, and it didn't take long to figure this out, my hairstyle - get this - pointed to an idea that I thought I was possessed by a local young woman, diagnosed with schizophrenia. There's something that demolishes that idea, but, come on, what other communal madness have I got to cover here? That's essentially the piece of gossip that kicked off and changed so much from way back in 1996. The same processes established around that, by these people, remain in place - unchallengeable by me or pretty much anyone else independent - keeping things in place, to this day, 16 years later. Their influence of those people's personalities, mindsets and view of the world is still apparent in all this. Nothing I can do about that, now.
Things happened after that. I ranted to a mate about what I thought back then. I was sick of seeing the impact many people were having on my social life. I ranted about the girl diagnosed with schizophrenia. I didn't hold back. Apparently their were health consequences - she freaked or something. I don't know for sure - people, including Simon between 96 and 2000, would just make crazy, angry comments whenever I moaned or ranted about it all, once asking me if I wanted to make her jump off a building. Mental stuff. She'd been getting quite intensive treatment from the local hospital. There'd been this Hollywoodization of the whole thing. It was nuts, but there was no way of sorting anything. Effective communication was blocked off on day one because the gossip was so bizarre.
Anyway, there you go. That was the big deal gossip doing the rounds, gossip that changed so much. Not that I knew what was going on at the time, but the people from Stourport jumped through hoops to take my photo of my possessed hair. They'd lost it big time. They were incredibly creepy, but incredibly excited, a form of excitement that would be very similar in intensity when it became hysterical in people at times. Supposedly I was possessed, even though I never experienced psychosis until after taking psychiatric medication in 2000/1.
Other things happened. Loads. There'll always be something else in this story and that's what I tried to warn the hospital in 2000. Even though we got close to communicating effectively, I had to put up an exhausting attempt to make even basic points clear to these people - they were already too far gone and easily triggered. I didn't stand a chance.
Me and my Mom's relationship was characterised and reframed according to, and in the interests of, the key people involved in it all. More simplistic Hollywoodisation. There was very little reality in the interpretation of me and Mom's relationship and almost no depth, partly because that, too, was based on gossip with highly suspect motivations. I knew it was all crap, but when you're falsely medicated and then more vulnerable to being persuaded by it all, your self-concept can change, as can your behaviour, which then, in the circumstances, almost moulds into shape to fit the story, a story that never looks like it's ever going to be dealt with. All this is partly why I explain my Mom's issue with passive-aggressiveness, something that's been in play since I was a kid. I shouldn't have to say that, but it might just help us both. I doubt it, though. That gossip and the reputation it led to are too well-protected now.
I could write loads about this, but I won't. This has been good. It's good to talk. It can cathartic. The problem with this approach, as is the problem in the town of Kidderminster, is that it's highly likely that even this will be distorted, in an area often more than willing to go to pretty extreme lengths to protect what it sees as its God given rights in the abuse of information. That keeps the bullshit going and influences the benefits of my cathartic approach, but that's no reason to stop, regardless of the lengths these people have historically gone to to allow it to work. They may just leave me stranded now they know all they've got to do is carry on with their thing and maybe socially housebound Jase might get pissed off in a way they can capitalise on. Wasn't it really ever thus?
Well, I'm chilled and happy with what I've written here. It probably won't lead to anything ever, but I'll have to do something, even in the demoralising knowledge that if people in this area could've so easily screwed my time at Birmingham University way back in the 90s, nothing's essentially changed from that day in 96, to suggest they can't do it again, if they want to.
In light of that, what's really the point of bothering with the Home Office or any other supposed safeguard? There isn't one really. When I wrote to them on Sunday, I said that I wonder whether I have fewer rights than my Dad had in mainland Europe in the Second World War. Although, unlike my dad's family, mine hasn't been murdered, I still have no family, now. Apart from that, though, I'd go further. I know I've ultimately got fewer rights. That might sound strange, but it's obvious when think about it properly, however the very mention of that idea could be potentially exploited or just ignored. That can be frustrating, but I'm cool with it now. A mental health 'nurse' once said, with little insight and no irony, that I became like an 'anarchist' when I was 'relapsing'. Maybe I can a bit, verbally, but I wouldn't act on it, I hope. I suppose it's the only thing to do when you have got no effective rights. This area and the reputation attributed to me within it are heavy on 'know your place or we''ll put you there.' It's conservative, limiting and, without adequate safeguards, ultimately disabling. The only ultimate right I've really got within that, I think, is the freedom to think. It's a good right, that, but everyone should have more than that.
Anyway, practicalities. I can't realistically remain in the house, socially housebound, for the rest of my life. Looking out of the window can be good, but come on! It's looking like I'm going to have to go beyond those Client Hills on the horizon at the edge of the world, one day. But how?