There's a speed edit talk through tutorial over on my youtube, all about how I created two images (this one included) from the special day I had with mindset coach Susan Maddison 😊

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Last weekend I started a masterclass focused on photographic projects: how to work and develop them. We didn't talk about light, techniques, gear, lenses, composition, exposure, rules….We simply skipped rules. Our tutors brought us to another level. Whereas technique is a tool - as a paintbrush- you shall certainly need to transform your intuitions into something visual, you must overcome that obsession of rules, techniques, formal research…Everything is useful and important. But at the end of the day, emotions are the language you need to speak. Make your street photography, enjoy your landscape works, build up your fine art, concentrate on your portraits and develop your reportage…But don't be slave of techniques, rules, formalisms. Study, learn, analyze other people's works, but then go back to your personal mindset and think of yourself as an open book. Your works are made of emotions. If you don't feel, you are probably not communicating anything.

I don't know how much I have been able to feel and communicate feelings till today. Sometimes I feel I probably did. Sometimes I am afraid I tried to reach formal compositions to please a certain fashion or style. Other times I wanted to express my feelings, but was probably scared or not self-confident enough to go the whole hog. Sometimes I just stopped a step before revealing my feelings.

No matter what, I did what I could. My promise to myself is to do it from now on. Photography is a life-long diary, if you like this symbol. And if you are not sincere to your diary, you don't need to write it at all. Would you ?

So, let this diary be.

The ultimate form of preparation is not planning for a specific scenario, but a mindset that can handle uncertainty. - James Clear

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Got a big plan, this mindset, maybe it's right

At the right place and right time, maybe tonight

And the whisper or handshake, sending a sign

Wanna make out and kiss hard? Wait never mind

Late night in passing, mentioned it flipped

To her best friend, it's nothing, maybe it's slipped

But the slip turns to terror and a crush to like

Then she walked in, he froze up, believe it's the fright

It's cute in a way 'til you cannot speak

And you leave to have a cigarette and knees get weak

Escape was just a nod and a casual wave

Obsess about it heavy for the next two days

It's only just a crush, it'll go away

It's just like all the others, it'll go away

Or maybe this is danger, and he just don't know

You pray it all away, but it continues to grow

I want to hold you close, skin pressed against me tight

Lie still, close your eyes girl

So lovely, it feels so right

I want to hold you close, soft breath, beating heart

As I whisper in your ear, "I want to fucking tear you apart"

Then he walked up and told her, thinking maybe it's passed

And they talked and looked away a lot, doing the dance

Her hand brushed up against his, she left it there

Told him how she felt, and then they locked in a stare

They took a step back, thought about it, what should they do?

'Cause there's always repercussions when you're dating in school

But their lips met, and reservations started to pass

Whether this was just an evening or a thing that would last

Either way, he wanted her and this was bad

Wanted to do things to her, it was making him crazy

Now a little crush turned into a like

And now he wants to grab her by the hair and tell her

I want to hold you close, skin pressed against me tight

Lie still, close your eyes girl

So lovely, it feels so right

I want to hold you close, soft breath, beating heart

As I whisper in your ear, "I want to fucking tear you apart"

I want to hold you close, skin pressed against me tight

Lie still, close your eyes girl

So lovely, it feels so right

I want to hold you close, soft breath, beating heart

As I whisper in your ear, "I want to fucking tear you apart"❤️

Abandonment is a mindset in every sense, slippery memories left for dead, and fed to the hungry history. I'm the newest story told in these old and crumbling places, kept up by chance alone. They have a silence like no living buildings, no buzzing power or plumbing creaking, no noise except what shifts beneath my footfalls. Sometimes it releases the tension, stepping on floorboards not shifted for decades, settling into position. The contrast of these empty houses makes me feel more at home among people. A little peace for the daily fury.

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The developmental patterns of Africa have long been strained by inefficiency, lack of sustainability, and the physical and mental heritage of oppressive postcolonialism. Yet today transformation toward a more innovative stewardship could surface, driven by a change in the underlying mindset by Africans themselves and also by growing opportunity for women by strategic self-conception. It could also become particularly important for future African-European relations

The figures investigates the histories of our inaccurate and stereotypical words and ideas and suggests alternatives. It talks about the whole of Africa as Africa because the issues discussed in the book are relevant for the whole. The zapped Africa focuses on white occidental myths about Africa—because they have been the most dominant, the most negative, and the most in need of change. Africa is, however, very much a part of the occidental subconscious. In the first part of the twentieth century, most peoples of the Western world believed that Africans could be subjugated because they were primitives, natives. During much of American history, a large majority of western governments considered racist beliefs and exploitation of Africa acceptable. Positive myths about Africa also serve Western self-definition. Those who are dissatisfied with modern globalization life might construct Africa to present viable alternatives.

The Mind of Africa

Dr. Abraham has brought to bear on the problems and prospects of the New Africa an approach which is the fruit of a thorough grounding in the philosophy of the Western world, combined with the natural commitment of a young African intellec- tual to the cause of African freedom. The result is an analysis of the complex processes of social and political change going on in Africa, which comhines (as Dr. Abraham justly claims in the Preface) “the externality of an outsider and the sensibility of one with an inward knowledge of things.” It is this factor, apart from the value of the factual material assembled, which makes his book one of the most significant contribu-

tions in recent years to an understanding of the forces at work in molding the social structure of the independent African states.

If one seeks a central theme, it is to be found in Dr. Abraham’s assertion of thc importance of ensuring that African culture is not destroyed by the impact of Western techniques and concepts. Notwithstanding their diversity, he maintains that all African communities present a number of ideas and attitudes which are common to African society as a whole. He identifies these and states crisply the issues that face AIrican leaders: what is there in African culture that may least disruptively be dis- carded? What is there that Western culture offers which may be taken over and inte- grated with African culture?

The first chapter is devoted to a discussion of the nature of culture. Dr. Abraham emphasizes the integrative function of culture by discussing its role in forging acommon bond among people both within and outside the sphere of activity subject to inter- vention by the state.

In the second chapter he undertakes a description and analysis of African culture, taking the Akan of Ghana as his paradigm. He starts with their religious beliefs, elaborating the central concept of a world which is shared by human beings, ancestral spirits, and gods. He then deals with the theory of government. Political power is shown to have been derived from popular consensus. The power of the traditional ruler was always subject to well recognized limitations: no important decision could he taken without discussion permitting all views to be put forward; a ruler acting con- trary to the opinion of his people-as indicated by the advice of his counsellors-or neglecting affairs of state, could be removed. On the other hand, once consensus had been achieved by full and free discussion, there was no toleration of a dissenting view- point. “Such luxuriesas minority reports were ...foreign to the political arrangements of the Akans.” A short description of the legal system brings out its important features, namely the absence of separation between the executive and the judicial power in the state, and the failure to draw a clear dividing line between civil and criminal offences. The remainder of the chapter describes Akan literature and discusses the interaction of Western culture with Akan culture through the influence of formal education, the

missionary, and commercial activity.

In the third chapter Dr. Abraham turns to the contemporary scene in Africa. After

a discussion of the effects of colonial rule, he applies himself to the problem of main- taining democracy in the new states. He examines the institutions and processes re- garded as essential in the Western conception of democratic government, and shows how accepted ideas on these matters fail to take into account the special circumstances of the independent states of Africa. While he agrees on the need for “a judiciary which

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is reasonably impartial,” he rejects the proposition that democracy is impossible with- out a plurality of parties.

The fourth and final chapter puts the case for African unity within the framework of a realistic assessment of the relevant factors. Economic resources, actual and poten- tial, are surveyed, and the importance of shared history and common culture stressed; but there are warnings against the dangers of tribalism, and the risk of a mass party being in fact controlled by a small elite not animated by the ideals which brought the party to power.

Dr. Abraham concludes his book by reminding his readers that while it has been said that it took the United States 170 years to achieve unity, there are pressures operating on Africa which justify the belief that Pan-African progress is likely to be faster. The establishment last year of the Organization of African Unity is an encourag- ing endorsement by African politicians of the judgment of a young African intellectual.

Copper Town: Changing Africa. The Human Situation on the Rhodesian Copperbelt. HORTENSPEOWDERMAKNEewR.York and Evanston: Harper & Row, Publishers 1962. xxiii, 391 pp., index, 1 map, notes, plates, references, 16 tables. $7.95.

Reviewed by C . FRANTPZo,rtland State College With one month’s notice, the author went to Luanshya, the urban development surrounding the Roan Antelope Mine, intending to explore the transmission of Euro- American culture via mass media. She postulated that leisure activities, being largely voluntary, might serve as an index of individual and social change. Africans were trained to administer a questionnaire to a “sample” of Copperbelt adults and to take notes during conversations and activities in homes, at public meetings, and during movies. Selective depth interviews, casual visits and participation, and the use of topical essays written by intermediate and adult students on their values, aspirations,

and images were also used to procure information.

The data gained about African attitudes and behavior contributed sufficient insights

that Powdermaker decided to expand her study and give primary attention to the general processes of individual and social change. In her view the direction of all change, whether organic, psychological, cultural, or social, is from differentiation toward convergence. But in analyzing her own and others’ data, she borrows heavily from psychoanalytic theory, especially Erickson’s work on ego-identity.

The study explores some of the general characteristics of tribal life in Northern Rhodesia before Europeans arrived. I t is said that family life, especially, unavoidably generated both conscious and unconscious hostility and anxiety; this in turn had to be channeled through witchcraft, quarreling, alcohol consumption, or other mechanisms. Breast-feeding established relationships of trust and stability between mother and child, but an unsatisfactory resolution of the weaning crisis provoked much insecurity. Still, the breast provided a symbolic model for many adult relationships, especially those involving authority. However, the social system did not encourage individuals to become autonomous by seeking spontaneous growth or self-awareness, as the chil- dren had a nearly complete role identification with adults. Since a “developed” identity and greater autonomy of the self was atypical, .4fricans have generally been “fixated” at the oral level.

Until Europeans arrived with new values and goals the Africans had no signifi- cantly differentadult models available to them. The foreigners’ presence produced both social and personal strain, yet their missionary and educational activities “may” have produced individuals who become “more successful’’ in adult socialization.

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I've often wondered of folks who leave their hometown – how many wished they could stay stay, and how many loved to leave it behind? Most out here do move elsewhere, at least temporarily. I've spent my adult years in the Annapolis Valley as one of the very few lifers between the ages of 20-40. Now, I don't tend toward being attached to any one place. Wherever opportunity takes you, I'm all for hitting the road. Circumstance just worked things out to stay in the meantime. We all think we know our childhood surroundings well, but I was a few years out of school before I really started diving deep into exploring. A hundred thousand more esoteric adventures that I've found and shared with you, making me realize how my youth only scratched the surface.

I don't believe that there's any great virtue to generations in one place. Me and my siblings were the first raised in Bridgetown, my parents the first in Cornwall, Ontario – then it's quickly back to the Old World for many of my grandparents and great-grandparents. We left little legacy or trace at any of these stops, just enough to survive, continue the line, then pick a new place on the map. Even the mark I've chosen to make isn't tied to a location. No buildings in my name, no foundations laid, just stories. I'm itinerant in my mindset, wanderer at heart. It's the thrill of what's next that holds my attention. Aside from clothes and other essentials, everything I've purchased in the past decade wouldn't even fill a bedroom. Something in me feels compelled to travel light.

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I was organizing my sets and somehow must have deleted this! Good thing I had the description typed up and saved before I posted this!

I want to know the story behind your scars, add your picture and story to the group. It can be sad, funny or even happy. Just share :)

It's taken me a long time to do this picture. Partly because I wasn't sure how to take it and partly because I needed to be in the right place and mindset to share my story.

When I was in the 7/8th grade, I was going through one of the hardest times in my life. I had a big falling out with my mother, broke my silence about abuse I endured for over three years at a very young age, and moved in with my dad.

In January of 2008, I started cutting my wrist.

I started making bracelets to hide it but it didn't take long for people to notice and friends were constantly telling me to stop and pushing me away because they couldn't understand why I did it.

I hated myself, I hated my life and I hated not being in control of anything.

Cutting was something I could control. Something I could use to say how I felt without actually having to say it to someone.

I reconnected with my mom and she told me she was moving to Georgia, I initially said no but then her boyfriend broke up with her and she had noone to go with her. I decided to go, so she wouldn't be alone and I could have a fresh start.

The first 5 months here were unbearable. I spent all my time in bed, not eating. Always sleeping. Crying constantly and my iPod blaring. The persistently gloomy weather didn't really help either. I started cutting again. Very deep and everyday. I met someone I fell very in love with and stopped cutting with his help. I could call him when I had an anxiety attack. Text him when I couldn't muster up the energy to use my voice and hold his hand when I needed to feel like I wasn't alone. My mom and I started fighting 24/7. I started cutting again. This time uncontrollably. Up to my elbows in scars, having to wear sweaters and bracelets everyday. It was tiring and I felt trapped under my own skin. Trying to keep my secret from the world. During a visit from my sister and niece, my mom and I took my niece to the pool and she saw my arm, asked what it was, asked how long I'd been doing it and the subject never came up again.

I'd been cutting on and off, saying I would never do it again one day and slashing my skin off the next. One day, I took too many of my anxiety medications and passed out at school. I stopped breathing, they shoved this tube thingy down my nose and dragged me to the hospital. I drank charcoal and had 4 ivs sticking out of me. They said if I stayed home, I would've died. I ended up in a mental hospital for 3 days. I came home and after about a month, I started cutting again. All week, every other week. I was cutting. Now, here I am. It's only been about a month, maybe less since the last time I did it. I'm in recovery, trying to do healthier things to do deal with this shit. I am a strong person and noone can take that away from me. I get asked all the time at school if I cut myself, what happened to my arm and why I did it.

I wanted to share my story because I know there are so many people out there who do this. People like me, who are loud and outgoing and (even vulgur at times) that you would never expect this kind of thing from. and peolple who are quiet and fighting their battle silently. So many scars that don't have real faces. Well, here's the face to mine. I am proud of my scars, because they are no longer open wounds. Now they are just another reminder of a place I will never again go. Hopefully. We all have out battles and this is one I'm fighting everyday.

The was EXTREMELY hard for me to do as I am a very private person. But this is my craft, my art. This is my way of expressing myself and saying the things I cannot say and while the photograph is powerful ad says many words for itself, I wanted to reach a hand out to the people who feel alone fighting the same battle.

When will I see this again?

I'll set a goal to capture the aurora borealis, then back at this. ;)

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