Hold On Don't Let Go...

You're Gonna Be Okay

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I know your heart is heavy from those nights

But just remember that you are a fighter, you’re a fighter

You never know just what tomorrow holds

And you’re stronger than you know

You’re stronger than you know....

🎧Tune - www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ofCZObsnOo

Not even when we're old and rusty,

Weathered, frayed,

And a little worse for wear.

Whitstable's high street.

My Dad passed away last Friday, this is just a phone shot of our hands taken by me a couple of days prior, not great photography but an image that will forever be with me. Dad did not die from the virus but it prevented me from visiting him the last 7 months of his life.

I feel robbed.

The saving grace, if any, is that he went peacefully with me and his sister by his side.

I have not posted this for sympathy but to remind everyone, life is short, live it to the full and treasure every last moment.

My dad was a motorcycle racer, these are some words I found, I have tweaked them a little, they are appropriate

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Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely and quietly in one preserved piece.

It is a race on two wheels, a chance to twist the throttle, lean over, slide side-wards, look fear in the eye and with the wind in your face proclaim loudly

WOW ! What a ride !

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I will catch you later when I am in a better headspace x

and come with me.

Im uploading outtakes from my project because I cant take the shots I wanted to take because my lens broke. This is SOOC, mainly because I cant be arsed to edit it right now.

This is completely cliche.

But I'm in love with it.

I really really am.

Tell me about your day.

We all have goals in life. As hard as it may seem sometimes, Keep pushing forward.

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Swinging in the snow. Gotta love Maine winters.

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Here are 3 brand new photos of my fav Monster High couple ever <333 Invisi Billy and Rochelle!!!! I ship them since I have watched the webisode "Fright Dance" ^_^ soo cute <3

Soo...what do you guys think of these photos??? Aren't they such an adorable couple?!

This could be something beautiful

Terra Naomi

This is a version of this image with a faux lomo effect applied in Photoshop.

I like how the lomo effect brings out some more of the colors that this image lacked because of the cloudy conditions on the beach that day.

Thanks again Jessica and Katie for letting me take this pic!

See the first post of this image here:

Just Hangin

Swinging a small boy around is fun for everyone, but don't do it too much as walking in circles for a few minutes afterwards can get tedious.

I thought I'd have another go at this concept shot.... the only problem is that it's very difficult to make a GoPro take a slow-shuttter speed shot. You have to hack the software, and although I got the code, it didn't work. No doubt I will have another go at this with a either a different camera or someone with a computer science degree knocking about.

I often fantasize

The stars above are watching you

They know my heart and speak to yours

Like only lovers do

If I could wear your clothes

I'd pretend I was you and lose control

There'll be some lovemaking, heartbreaking, soul shaking

Oh lovemaking, heartbreaking, soul shaking, oh yeah

Song here.

love this song. (it's kinda sexy, right?)

loved today.

(i bought new underwear? ..made me happy too..lmao..I know...tmi...)

Anyway. Just felt like...this...

G'night. xx

"lucky no. 13 me arse"

i ended up with grass stains on my knees and the tips of my shoe's, the stupid kite dragged me across the field

"Things can fall apart, or threaten to, for many reasons, and then there's got to be a leap of faith. Ultimately, when you're at the ledge, you have to go forward or backward; if you go forward, you have to jump together." - Yo-Yo Mama

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Don't Let Go Couples Pose

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♫

and there's a heart that still can beat

with every breath that's inside me

and find the spark that's buried deep

and won't go out, so please...

we can find our way back home

- Matthew Perryman Jones, Don't Let Go

Today was better than yesterday. I've found that I have a remarkable capacity for rebounding. Which, if you follow my stream, you've probably noticed. It seems like lately I go from highs to lows on nearly a daily basis. I guess that's just reflective of the tumultuous times I'm living through right now. And that's ok. I have to give myself days like yesterday where I completely fall to pieces. I have to. If I don't, then I won't have rebound days. I won't be able to pick myself up and force some perspective. Every trouble we face provides us with opportunity for growth. And damnit, I'm doing a hell of a lot of growing right now. The beauty of challenges is that you can always get through them. Always. I mean, we have to, right? Because life isn't going to stop just because I feel like I can't cope with what's going on. Which means I just have to find a way. Keep pushing. Start looking at things in a different way. Try new paths until I find one that leads me out of this darkness and into the place I know I belong.

I have a date with my dad tonight. He's taking me out to dinner and then to see Brigadoon, which surprisingly, I have never seen before. I say surprisingly because I was heavily involved in theater (especially musical theater) for a long time and have seen far more than my fair share of musicals. My dad and I used to go to New York City together every summer to see some Broadway shows and just enjoy the atmosphere of the city. Now we go see shows locally. But not nearly enough. So tonight I'm going to soak up the atmosphere of my own town and enjoy my father's company and lose myself for a while in a dark theater. And that is totally worth missing soccer tonight.

I love to make people dance

Anytime I get the chance

All it takes is just four strings

And the people to help us sing

All I need is a little groove

A little space that I can move

Find music to sooth my soul

Hold onto me baby don’t let go…

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It's been a busy week because my friends from Maui, Kanekoa came back to California...so we had to go see them in Sacramento at the Sophia and the next night in Mill Valley at the Sweetwater...

Explored Oct. 19, 2007

Thanks to everyone who has joined our anniversary celebration this week. We felt like you were really celebrating with us. It is much appreciated. So today’s the day. At 11:00am, we were married 21 years.

Just before dusk last night, thick, fluffly, black clouds rolled into town. At first they merely spotted the sky, leaving large swaths of blue, and bright crepuscular rays. The anniversary half moon stood directly overhead in the shrinking blue. Soon, the entire sky was enshrouded in the thickness like a blanket, under which, the warm sunset shone it colors. The sun went down and the cloud curtain closed.

After dinner, there was no harvest moon to shine its nostalgia, memories and sentimental sweetness down on us. We walk from the restaurant to the car forced into the moment under the hidden moon. After 21 years, all we’ve got is now. We stand at mid-sky, and head west. At times, the sky will be clear, and everyone in our sphere will watch us traverse the firmament. Sometimes the sky will be cloudy, and we’ll be unseen, but moving along nonetheless. The sky will clear again, and we’ll be in a different location than we were, but will have moved there in secret.

You can see the expressions of our love, but you can’t see our love. You can observe the individuals and couple we’ve become, but you can’t know the intimate glories, the struggles, the construction and deconstruction that has had to happen in each of our lives to form us as one flesh. When you see a beautiful vista, it may not be evident that there was once a castle wall blocking the view. When you see a beautiful, ivy-covered fence, it may not be evident against what dangers it defends. You may not see the love and care that were needed by four hands and two hearts to build it so gently, fragile and strong.

To reach the depths of a soul, walls must be crumbled, wounds must be healed, rocky paths must be smoothed. Often, one has to tunnel through rock and dirt, to reach a secret garden that desperately needs tending. Enormous amounts of trust are required to allow someone to enter these areas. Behind our fortresses, there are scary, ugly things that we’ve hidden even from ourselves. But there are also joys and beauties unimaginable.

When this night is over, we can watch the sky clear, and stand facing east waiting for the waxing moon to rise. We can watch it climb and remember. But our moon has risen, babe. We’re high in the sky. We can even remember the clouds, for though at times they obscured our love from one another, at other times, they swaddled us, brought us together, caused us to find refuge in one another.

If we are so blessed, perhaps we look west to many years before our setting. Let’s continue to wax and shine a light to the moons rising behind us.

7/21/08 - Yesterday put a huge twist on my heart. I found myself laying with a boy's arms around me while he napped. My head lay on his chest, listening to his heartbeat while he ran his fingers through my hair. I was just soaking up the moment wishing it didn't have to end. I haven't been treated that sweet ever. My heart was racing but at the same time I felt okay. It doesn't mean there's really something starting between us, but I wouldn't mind except for the complications. It'd be worth it, though. I just know that I didn't want him to leave.

My sister wrote Dont Let Go on my arm with eyeliner because I couldn't do it right. She complained about her handwriting but I love how it looks. I had literally 5 minutes of taking pictures, took about 10 and this was the last shot. It's not too shabby for the time I had.

"Well, it seems like things are only getting better. Well, it seems like we can never catch a break. Just keep a hold on me, don't let go." - The Starting Line.

The funky divas of soul, En Vogue.

"....and again

we're coming apart

but we pull it together

pull it together, together again.

don't let me go."

--"Never Say Never." The Fray.

I've been getting a lot of inspiration from The Fray Lately. I've always meant to take a picture like this, but never got around to it.. so here it is haha. I think it turned out perfect :)

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This took me like 3 hours to make. Isn't that sad or what? I hate being a perfectionist ;P

VIEW ON BLACK BIGGIE SIZED!!!

This is the longest I've ever spent on something in Photoshop, but it was worth it!

However, I almost murdered the computer because Photoshop froze not once, but twice! That has never happened before. The first time I lost all my work, but it was only ten minutes in so no harm was done. Then I saved every second after and it happened again, but right after I saved it! PHEW!

Just a question for you Photoshop geeks, is there a way to turn on some auto-save feature, cause I hate saving it constantly for fear of it crashing. My movie editing program has this feature, so I never save unless I turn off the computer, because it will come back up if it crashes.

Photo based on:

A-Ha - Take On Me ---> www.youtube.com/watch?v=dIzUD7FKcBk

I thought it was a really neat video, even if it's a little retro! :)

Wouldn't that be cool if we could go to the cartoon world?

inspired by this

this was from when i went to spain in the summer (day 41) and i only just finished editing it this week. i kept giving up on it because i didnt like it but i went and finished it this weekend.

still not sure about it though.

it was pretty fun to do though!

cake?

Never let go of yourself, what you want out of life, who you are, or what you believe in, your hopes or your dreams. And never try to become something you're not just to appease someone else. What's the point.

G didn't like this one, he said it reminded him of the shining too much. ;D I like it, it is creepy and I think it's awesome! I've had this idea for a while and finally decided I had to try to get it done and I'm happy with the way it turned out. These push my creativity and my photoshop skills. I just hope my creativity keeps coming!

I really love how this is cropped! =) I also really like up-side down pictures.. :D

2018

Incredible choreography and artistry with just a piece of cloth #dontletgo #thatsallittakes

Meryl Davis & Charlie White @Stars on Ice tour

So I'm sure all of you know by now that I am getting divorced. I wanted it to go as smoothly as possible and keep it simple. I got the papers and have filled out what I need to, leaving the visitation/custody open so that Tyler could come over and we could agree on what it could say. He decided he didn't want to do it that way because he doesn't want to "get screwed", which makes no sense to me because if he doesn't do it with me I'll do it myself and then he won't have a say in anything. So I was able to talk to a lawyer for a second on the phone. He said most judges will grant joint custody of the child unless there is a reasonale cause to give one parent primary custody, and I can't move to a different state unless I have primary custody. I honestly don't trust Tyler, or anyone around him to have my daughter for more then a few hours. There is no way I would be comfortable with her being there for half the time. And I can't imgine that could be healthy for her emotionaly, it would be such an unstable enviroment. I am so scared that I won't get primary custody of my baby. I wouldn't be able to move to a place that would be better for her and me. I have a friend who could get me a great job, the school systems are really good there, the people are nice, and I just feel that we could make a great life for ourselves there. But if I'm forced to stay here, I don't know what will happen. But I will do everything I possibly can to keep her with me. I wish I could afford a lawyer, I wish I could just finish this and be done with it.

Yes, I am on the verge of tears in this picture, and getting ready to burst into tears now just thinking about how scared I am.

there's times I love Brighton. For every Chavvy experience just walking down the high street that makes you want to kill yourself there's one of those moments that you'd only see in Brighton.

This. This was painted on the side of a trailer. I never found out why or who or what I managed to get the snap off when it was at a red light.

Made my day really..

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This particular work of mine is very personal to me.. This is one of the piece in my "Women & Aids" Series. I'm sharing this bit by bit.. The whole 20++ pieces were for me, my best thoughtful ideas.. Every pieces were sketches and planned.. thinking of the messages I would like to send to the people who see my work.. oh I just loved it..

My muse have been my source of inspirations in coming up with fantastic images like this (at least for me.. :)).. Thank you dear.

Combining creative energy is so powerful, its scary at times..

Note to myself:

Things to improve: One more strobe to highlight the model on the right... either from the right or from the back.. Hairlight would be yummy...

and ... keep on experimenting on CLS!

Joe and Hannah.

TK-687: "Didn't you realize the top of that thing was curved?"

TK-1024: "I guess that was pretty stupid."

TK-687: "Crap, I think my grip is slipping...."

TK-1024: "...help?..."

Now how do you suppose our little friends got into this hair-raising situation?

The story goes, as it was told around a campfire on Lok one night, that TK-687 first forgot to mention that he was afraid of heights. TK-1024 dared him to climb to the top of the local tissue dispenser. As it turned out, 687 slipped and 1024 went after him, thus both ended up holding on to a strand of pulp.

Not too so after this image did the napkin lower just enough that 1024 and 687 were able to escape via the beaker tube and slide down to safety.

It might be a while until 687 attempts another dare from 1024 like that again. The guys on Lok won't let him off the leash any time soon though.

Part of the Clones and Stormies Playing Nicely set.

#25, up from #33 in Most Interesting

Can you feel it?

Can you feel it?

Can you feeeeel it?