One Hundred Forty.
and there's a heart that still can beat
with every breath that's inside me
and find the spark that's buried deep
and won't go out, so please...
don't let go, don't let go
we can crawl out, out of the shadows
don't let go, don't let go
we can find our way back home
- Matthew Perryman Jones, Don't Let Go
Today was better than yesterday. I've found that I have a remarkable capacity for rebounding. Which, if you follow my stream, you've probably noticed. It seems like lately I go from highs to lows on nearly a daily basis. I guess that's just reflective of the tumultuous times I'm living through right now. And that's ok. I have to give myself days like yesterday where I completely fall to pieces. I have to. If I don't, then I won't have rebound days. I won't be able to pick myself up and force some perspective. Every trouble we face provides us with opportunity for growth. And damnit, I'm doing a hell of a lot of growing right now. The beauty of challenges is that you can always get through them. Always. I mean, we have to, right? Because life isn't going to stop just because I feel like I can't cope with what's going on. Which means I just have to find a way. Keep pushing. Start looking at things in a different way. Try new paths until I find one that leads me out of this darkness and into the place I know I belong.
I have a date with my dad tonight. He's taking me out to dinner and then to see Brigadoon, which surprisingly, I have never seen before. I say surprisingly because I was heavily involved in theater (especially musical theater) for a long time and have seen far more than my fair share of musicals. My dad and I used to go to New York City together every summer to see some Broadway shows and just enjoy the atmosphere of the city. Now we go see shows locally. But not nearly enough. So tonight I'm going to soak up the atmosphere of my own town and enjoy my father's company and lose myself for a while in a dark theater. And that is totally worth missing soccer tonight.
One Hundred Forty.
and there's a heart that still can beat
with every breath that's inside me
and find the spark that's buried deep
and won't go out, so please...
don't let go, don't let go
we can crawl out, out of the shadows
don't let go, don't let go
we can find our way back home
- Matthew Perryman Jones, Don't Let Go
Today was better than yesterday. I've found that I have a remarkable capacity for rebounding. Which, if you follow my stream, you've probably noticed. It seems like lately I go from highs to lows on nearly a daily basis. I guess that's just reflective of the tumultuous times I'm living through right now. And that's ok. I have to give myself days like yesterday where I completely fall to pieces. I have to. If I don't, then I won't have rebound days. I won't be able to pick myself up and force some perspective. Every trouble we face provides us with opportunity for growth. And damnit, I'm doing a hell of a lot of growing right now. The beauty of challenges is that you can always get through them. Always. I mean, we have to, right? Because life isn't going to stop just because I feel like I can't cope with what's going on. Which means I just have to find a way. Keep pushing. Start looking at things in a different way. Try new paths until I find one that leads me out of this darkness and into the place I know I belong.
I have a date with my dad tonight. He's taking me out to dinner and then to see Brigadoon, which surprisingly, I have never seen before. I say surprisingly because I was heavily involved in theater (especially musical theater) for a long time and have seen far more than my fair share of musicals. My dad and I used to go to New York City together every summer to see some Broadway shows and just enjoy the atmosphere of the city. Now we go see shows locally. But not nearly enough. So tonight I'm going to soak up the atmosphere of my own town and enjoy my father's company and lose myself for a while in a dark theater. And that is totally worth missing soccer tonight.