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I couldn't help putting on the fearsome fiddy for a second. The river front had too many lights for me not to. Bokeh like this always reminds me of that movie production firm..can't remember the name at the moment. Rogue something?
Learning about this thing called "BOKEH" & I think I'm gonna like it. :D Especially around this time of the year!! "Happy Bokeh-mas" LOL
yesterday was a great day, or least I thought so.
for a few seconds I thought my dad had died, until I heard his voice.
but still, that wasn't the worst thing.
the worst thing was wishing that someone else would've been me, for just one night. i wish that someone else would have to hear the things I heard, but directed to them, (i don't even want to repeat the shit, i jotted it down in a journal and just read it when i need a little push). i wish the love they wished or thought they had crushed the very last shit of your self-esteem. even worse than what you do to yourself. imagine being your own worst fucking enemy who hates your guts and mostly tells you how much you suck at life, but having the one you thought you'd spend your life together with taking on that role, except ten times worse. and upon that, explaining how much your only family should be fucking dead by now if it wasn't for him. go you, hero.
yeah, I just wish someone else was me last night. or that I'd feel some fucking regret about this, because this relationship has not only killed my hope for this life, i've just lost the ability to smile.
now I'm supposed to smile and hug it out. omg ILY. fuck life, if this is how it's supposed to be then wtf am i doing here...