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“I know that, I was put here, to fight Vikings in a Cold War, with my arms out in front singing...”
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This was a great trip. Full of perspective. Necessary perspective. The kind of perspective that you only get when getting out of your comfort zone, head, space, etc.
Important moments from a leisurely vacation:
• Quiet moments by the river in the sun with a giant piece of bread.
• Humbled mornings with commuters. This is their every day, and it’s your one day.
• The blank stare that must come across our faces when someone feels like you speak German, and then the sigh of relief after they realize and exclaim, “ah! English!”
• Sunrises. Sunsets. The same, but so different.
• Kiddo meltdowns. Parents are still parents, and face the same struggles. But for some reason, they seem to deal with it a lot more-gracefully in Europe.
• A passing smile with a stranger who’s probably also traveling.
• Getting lost. Finding your way. In more ways than one.
• Watching the world go by. Cafes. Coffee. Wine. It all has a soul of its own in Europe.
• Dancing. Slow dancing. Outside. In front of the theater. I could have hung out there all night.
• Seeing a city on holiday. The night before, included. It was SO awesome.
• Giant rainstorms. No matter your race, if you don’t have an umbrella, there’s an immediate want to duck for cover. What if we...didn’t?
Unrelated, but...is it possible to know someone long before you’ve met them? For your soul to recognize something in the universe that pulls you towards them? Of course, it sounds crazy. But maybe a lot of people just dismiss it because they think it’s impossible?
What happens to those that are bold enough to have the courage to pursue it? Does it become something that’s built up in your head, so by the time it happens, it’s just a made up feeling because they’re so much build up behind it? Or do you know if it’s real? Or is it straight up impossible, and those feelings are only built upon a strong foundation?
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“I am watching your chest rise and fall...”
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Ok, now that I have 2 airplane glasses of wine in me - and Ani DiFranco - I’m in full blown babbling mode.
I want to fall in love with this random person from the internet. But...not. I want him to be taller, have different hair, and live in Chicago. So like, some other version of him? Which is terrible to say, I know. But I want someone who has a feeling about me. Who thinks we’re destined to be together, regardless of the challenges. Clearly I’ve never met him, but he’s going to be in Chicago in about a month, and we *might* get coffee (or might chicken out).
Which is kind of terrifying. What if I DO feel something? What if this whole thing is just a bad idea? What if he isn’t who he says he is? What if he’s just weirdly obsessed with me and isn’t just a normal dude and thinks I’m someone totally different?
I guess I know a few things here:
• I’m saying yes to everything, right?
• Again: saying yes, lol. Worthy of two bullets.
• You never know, right? Going to stop posting each bullet in the form of a question.
• You. Never. know.
• I need to stop overthinking things and just let them happen.
• What if this guy is really good in bed? Similarly to TK, who I’ve been talking to, who’s in a complicated relationship situation, who is a kind of nerdy lawyer and I’m kinda super into the idea of sleeping with him? Especially since he seems to be very up front about his situation. And we kind of started innocent dirty texting yesterday? Harmless, but maybe I can just sleep with him to remember that someone can be attracted to me. I mean, it’s kind of perfect for right now - I can’t let myself get too close, because...complicated...but this is the arrangement that he has, and if I sign up for this, I need to respect that. But...I need some confidence in the sex department. Sooooo...yep. I just hope he’s normal when/if we meet up. So! Yes? And uh, it could be fun?
I also know, that this was a great trip. A new kind of trip, but a great trip.
And I'm not sure sure what life holds in the next few months, or foreseeable future, but...here we are. And I'm trying to be ok with that for right now...
I put the colors I'm using for my Babette in an excel spreadsheet, to chart what I've made so far and help with the color choices.
I'm overthinking this, I know. I just have a terrible time with colors and getting them to work together happily.
22 August 2017
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Siha, Tanzania
Sayumi's story is kinda like that game "Bigger and Better."
Year One: She joins her savings group and starts getting entrepreneurship training. She doesn't take out any loan and just uses the group to save money and learn.
Year Two: She attends a Farmer Field School and starts helping a friend take care of her cow. Her kids' tuition is too high for her husband's income so she takes out her first loan. Thankfully, her new farm skills pay off right away and abundant crops let her pay off that loan the same year.
Year Three: Her friend talks about selling the cow and Sayumi comes up with the idea to take out a loan to buy it. Between the cow giving birth and producing milk, she again paid off that loan in under a year.
Now: Sayumi and her husband just took out an entire 1.5 million shilling loan to buy a nearby farm. After seeing what they did with farm skills and a cow, things look promising.
Sayumi's story is helpful when I start to overthink finances and projects and goals. Start where you are, bank up knowledge, be strategic when the time comes, and go one step at a time, yeah?
Life QUOTE :
I overthink. I over love. I over feel. I am the sea or I am nothing.
- #Life
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This is my little set up that represents Santa getting home after delivering all those gifts. You can't see, but he has no shoes on, the naughty goat is eating one of his boots, and Mrs Clause is bringing him his slippers, while his litttle dog mistletoe sits nicely on the rug next to the mouse using santa's hat as a sleeping bag. His 2 top helper mouse elves are taking advantage of some down time, one warming his tush by the potbellied stove and the other passed out with a good book. I really overthink my Christmas decorations a bit. LOL!
This was a day to be remembered because insanity ensued and out came a bud.
Life is short. Life is hard, and choosing people that can take the burden off your shoulders, heart and mind because there is nothing but trust that your back will be covered by them is so important these days. To find those that share the burden may be the singular most important thing in this overwhelming world.
To not overthink what you said, what they meant. To know you can say all the crazy things under the sun, asking for correction or being corrected, without moving backwards on their thermometers because they know the intentions of your heart is what we are all looking for.
Even though everything almost fell off my desk, the equivalent of tomato guts in my face, my selected family grew by 1 today.
Everyone needs a @mtallen102 and @ak41 in their life. Go out and get one, if you’re so lucky to find one.
#thisiswhatabackcoveredlookslike
“No, I don't play folk rock”
(No labels)
“What's my appeal? I have no idea...”
(Don't overthink it)
“I'm more of a song-and-dance man”
(You define yourself)
“This seems to happen to my songs - 3 years later people pick them up and find meaning in them”
(You can't control how people attach meaning)
“They boo-ed us everywhere except Texas... I like the fans, but I don't feel I owe them anything”
(Focus on the music, not the fans)
“I always tell the truth”
(Tell it as you see it - that's your job)
Be more Bob… by visualthinkery.com is licenced under CC-BY-ND
I'm tired of acting like everything's alright while I know that it's getting bad again.
"Ça va pas ces derniers temps. J'essaye de penser à autre chose et de me dire que ça va passer, que ça va vite aller mieux mais j'ai l'impression de me forcer, de faire semblant que tout va bien alors que je sais très bien que c'est la déprime ces derniers temps. Je suis pas conne, je me connais, et ces jours ci ça va pas et j'arrive pas à penser calmement et à me ressaisir. Ça m'énerve, je m'énerve et j'arrive pas à me calmer, je suis constamment sur les nerfs et j'ai l'impression que de tout faire de travers. Et je jure que si mon copain était pas là j'aurai l'impression d'avoir avancée sur aucuns aspects de ma putain de vie. Et j'arrêtes pas de me dire que je devrais juste faire, ce que j'ai envie, sur le moment et arrêter de penser comme ça tout le temps mais j'y arrive pas, ça me tanne, j'avance pas, j'suis coincée et je me sens toute petite."
"I don't feel fine lately.I try to change my mind and to tell myself that it's going to be okay, that everything going to quickly get better but it feels like I force the happiness, I act like everything's perfectly okay while I pertinently know that I'm more depressed than anything else lately.I'm not dumb, I know myself and these days I feel shit and I can't think calmly, I can't pull myself together. It annoys me, I annoy myself and I can't seem calm down. I'm constantly on edge and it feels like I do everything wrong. And I swear that if my boyfriend wasn't by my side I would feel like nothing has changed in my fucking life. And I can't stop telling myself that maybe I should do, what I want, at the moment, and stop overthinking, but I can't, it pisses me off, I don't move forward. I'm stuck and I feel so small."
POV: The dark intrusive thoughts whisper loudly into your ear, pushing away your moral compass. You are once again conflicted and at your lowest point in life, slowly being taken advantage of by your depression. You ask yourself, “am I really okay?” The more you overthink, the more you feed the hungry monster. It grows stronger each day. As the stress and anxiety consume you, there’s a strange rise in the desire to hurt others, although deep down you know it’s not the real you.
Making Totem Quilt blocks (Carolyn Friedlander pattern) and not overthinking my choices too much. I hope this one fits in with the rest when it all comes together!
For this portrait of Roland from Turbostaat I sneaked into the backstage catering area of a festival in Dortmund with a friend of mine to get a couple of free beers after we photographed the last band of the day.
While we were sitting at a table 'Rotze' walked by and asked us if he could sit with us to grab some food. Of course we wanted him to hang around with us. While my buddy Daniel already knew him I never met 'Rotze' before. But I realized immediately that he had tattooed hands. So I asked him if I could take some pictures after he finished dinner.
After we found an empty backstage tent which had nice light in it I took some shots. Some time after that festival I saw that he got new tattoos while I was on stage when they played another festival but I wasn’t able to meet him that day. In the end it took me several years to take a new photo when I met him backstage last year.
Will share this photo later as well and this time I didn’t sneaked in. ;)
But back then when I took the first picture I still was trying out the pose I would need for a good picture and wasn’t really overthinking everything. And his pose is so damn smart. I guess this is why I still like this picture so much.
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Sum 41 - Crazy Amanda Bunkface. Una de mis canciones preferidas de Sum. Yep.
Esta semana ha estado muy desequilibrada emocionalmente. Madre mía.
Por una parte, la felicidad de saber que he conseguido una maldita matrícula de honor ^u^
Por la otra, la ¿tristeza? de saber que la verdad duele mucho y lo difícil que es intentar cambiar. Pero bueno, aquí estoy, intentándolo aunque me vaya a explotar la puta cabeza. ¿Por qué tiene que ser todo tan complicado, joder?
En fin, que ya es veraaaaaaaaaano y hoy es la noche de San Juan, y es una de las poquitas veces que "el grupo" se reúne casi enterito y, y, y mola bastante. Jé :D
Pasadlo bien, no penséis, que es malo y nos vemos la semana que viene :)
There are so many things that I need to stop doing/being. One is oversleeping, another is overthinking, third is doing useless stuff over the internet, fourth is being too lazy to exercise, fifth is watching tv too much... And the list goes on... Yiii!
This coming week will be a better more productive week for me. I promise. :-)
Texture from flickr.com/skeletalmess
Sad Love Quotes :
QUOTATION – Image :
Quotes Of the day – Life Quote
Overthinking
Sharing is Caring
- #Love
Gen-Z - thinks - overthinks - develops - imagines - everyday life is hard to manage - disappears into the world of old books - it is hard to be 'the last generation' - the responsibility is exhausting - Part 2
It’s a strange feeling going into houses that at one point had been beautiful and happy and full of life, now they sit, unoccupied and left to rot by nature and squatters. Maybe I’m overthinking it all.
Jakki's Round One for Life is PINK!
This picture is really pink :O Haha! Look at that I made a funny!
Anywho. It didn't really take long at all which suprised me because usually I overthink my shots and they end up taking days to finish and looking like it took minutes. But I am pleased with this :D I've seen a few of the others and they're way more amazing but I think I did good *big grin*
Hey! Can anyone tell me if I'm completely screwed if I lost the pen to my tablet? Does anyone know where I can buy just the pen or am I going to have to get a whole new tablet? Stupid moving...
But yessssss, thank bunches foor the comments on my last photo. Love you guys! <3
EDIT: So I looked at it more and hated it more sooooooo
After final edits haha: i57.photobucket.com/albums/g239/kiki_2_4/Cool/JakkiR1-1.png
1. Others Disappeared Entirely, 2. While Some Diminished Greatly, 3. gribou0066, 4. gribou0067, 5. ., 6. ., 7. ., 8. Untitled, 9. starting the drawing finishing the drawing, 10. Language Collage No. 2, 11. Language Collage No. 1, 12. nuevos corazones, 13. humanidad, 14. counting cuts in my hands, 15. I make it rain, 16. RE(a)D my lips, 17. waterlily, 18. waterlily, 19. "Chicken Slut", 20. Red Muck 2007, 21. Untitled, 22. a note on the text, 23. the very thing (detail), 24. Knobbles by Jillian Moore, 25. Upbringing, 26. Bad Slippers, 27. Overthinking, 28. Odette, 29. p o r d o n d e s e m i r e, 30. g r a n h u m a n a
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Artist Statement
Throughout this semester, I have learned a lot about myself as a photographer. I have learned that it is not as “easy” as it seems to be creative and abstract. There is a great deal of work, thought, and planning that goes into creating intriguing and meaningful images. In reflecting upon myself, I have learned that I have a great deal of work to do, to improve my own photography skills. Thinking outside the box doesn’t come naturally for me, as I tend to be more of an analytical thinker who enjoys a good set of instructions. That is something I need to learn to let go of, and do what comes naturally. I am very intrigued by becoming a better photographer, and learning how to use the equipment I have more effectively. I need to stop overthinking every aspect, and let the images take shape on their own.
With my final project, I was determined to capture this time in my life in photographs. This is my first pregnancy, and let me say it has definitely been an adventure. At the beginning of the semester I was on top of taking a self-portrait once every 2 weeks, in hopes of capturing the gradual changes that were taking place on scale that I could then compare and measure. The further I have gotten into my pregnancy, the less diligent I have become of making sure I take my self-portraits. While I think that overall I have a good representation of how my body has changed and the development of my baby, my photos were less professional looking and lean more towards snapshots. While I tend to prefer photography that is less staged, and more natural, the mix of the 2 styles for this final project made it challenging. While I had wonderful intentions for this project, after I started the editing process, I quickly learned how challenging it was, because if an image I had was not working quite right, there was no way to go back and try to reshoot the image. Therefore my final project, and the quality of the images when they are meshed together, is not as high as I had hoped it would be. I am also slightly disappointed in my lack of skills in Photoshop. While I can complete rudimentary tasks, when it came to a final project of this magnitude, I was truly wishing I had more training and skills. It would have done the images I had more justice, and made seem like less of a collage, and more of a single merged image. This gives me something to work on for the future. Overall, while I truly liked the idea and the process of getting to my final project, I had hoped that the finished product would have turned out differently.
In the future, I plan on continuing to work on my photography skills, because I truly feel that the more practice you have the better you are going to get. I love black and white photography and portraits, and plan on having some more focus on this area. I am sure in the upcoming months and years, I will have many moments to capture in photographs. I plan on continuing to work on my technical technique, but also learning how to let go and let things happen naturally. Overall, I feel satisfied with how far I have come this semester, and look forward to growing as an artist.
"I've got desperate desires and unadmirable plans."
Do I look like a senior? Because I am one.
Been working and cleaning my room all day. It's about time I took a photo for the past week.
I'm sorry I've been a terrible contact.
I love the colours in this.
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I'm a senior, and this fact is crashing through the paper thin walls to my brain and the section that makes me overthink everything.
Do you think Bio 30 will tell me where exactly that is?
In addition to all my doctors are doing, I decided to give acupuncture a try to cure my ills. As my expert practitioner listented to the voices of the ancients tell him which points to use, I relaxed in the dim light of the room, breathing deeply and enjoying the soothing background music. For now, I'm trying not to overthink every little thing, but I do feel pretty good this afternoon. Not 100% or even 75% better, and it could just be time of day, but I do feel not horrible. We'll have to wait and see how it goes. Next appointment is set for Tuesday - providing nothing goes awry with my less relaxing lung needle biopsy on Monday. #cy365 #Indistinct
in every sense of the word.
was walking back from the St Paul Ruins and passed by this mirror that reflected this amazing image of the structure. too high up hence the weird composition but i like it this way.
sorry if i haven't been commenting a lot lately... I have been very much putting all my life into the internship... can't screw up... i'm starting to overthink and everything, it's driving me crazy and i haven't even officially started. Just went through two days of training. :o
k, i hope you enjoy the weeks ahead more than i do.
PS: go listen to SHINee's Hello, it's on my replay list right now hahaha. To think I would actually love KPop.... Only SHINee though, especially JongHyun.
<3
Last night I decided to get back into painting again. It had been a few years since I went through a brief but inspired landscape phase, and I’ve been itching to break out the acrylics once more. I’ve had some ideas brewing for a while now, and wanted to try them. One thing I found myself doing was thinking too much. Making art definitely requires a fair amount of thinking, but overthinking can lead to a lot of frustration and doubt - something I experienced for several hours into the piece. Then something happened. After trying this approach and that approach, and not being remotely happy with the results, and frankly wanting to throw the painting into the trash, with nothing to lose, I tried a different method of applying the paint. I also tried abandoning how I initially wanted things to be, and go with a more intuitive, almost stream-of-consciousness approach. In a very short period, things seemed to flip 180 degrees, going from complete disappointment, to pure joy. I’ve been wanting to explore abstraction for quite some time, but never seemed to figure out how -it’s not as easy as most people may think. Last night however, felt like a breakthrough, and I couldn’t wait to wake up and see the painting in natural sunlight. Who knows what will become of this, but it was definitely a positive experience. I always say the path of art is not for the faint of heart - there are always a multitude of trials and tribulations that most people never see, whether it’s composing a painting, setting up an exhibit, or selling your work, it’s no walk in the park. Yet, we continue on this path to create, sometimes with no solid explanation. I’m thankful to Kris for her honest and constructive criticism - it can make a world of difference in my own artistic choices. As for the piece, it’s still not completely finished, needing a clear coat of gloss varnish. For now, here’s a sneak peek. #art #artwork #artisticprocess #painting #acrylicpainting #abstractpainting #abstractart #artistsoninstagram
today was one of those days where i overthink everything and get paranoid and scared
and my heart starts to beat really fast
and i get nervous about the way things will turn out
and i try to be perfect for everyone but it doesn't work the way i want it to
and i am left with just my thoughts and fears..
cool me rambling about nothing.
i think i'm in love with this even though the light on my face is funny looking.
New and improved model now features a larger mouth for quicker uptake of tax dollars,
dual core digestive tracks allowing for unequalled production of campaign promises and
yet remains true to its original form.
Available for export, expect fall delivery.
I can’t overthink things.
Thoughts need to flow, organic.
I cannot design things as contrived.
I work best last-ditch, seat-of-the-pants, circumstancial.
No plan, never never a rough draft.
Simmering down of every thought, idea, dream, lyric, punctum, crashing together in momentous inspiration.
Hard to market.
But visible, once it’s in front of me.
When I open my eyes to see it.
Lucid.
Lucid, my pet.
Know you’re creating.
Awake.
Alive, and in the moment.
Not planned, contrived, no, but carefully constructed of something pure. Impatient, careless, but passionate. Can it all be?
Want to keep this mindset, the one that pushes me forward, spurs me on. Though theoretically. What of action? Oh please God, can the two work together? Let my mind set itself up to be motivated while it produces, to wax poetic while it works, to philosophize while it brings its questions and emotions to tangible fruition. Let it ignore the fabricated negativity of the ‘other’ that strangles its unborn ideas with their own umbilical cord. Let it ignore the real negativity that may come when those idea-children are carried to term and thrown coldly into the world to be consumed.
There is no you, there is only me.
There is no fucking you, there is only me.
In my art. Of course there is only me. Gather inspiration, gather techniques, gather conceptual seeds but never be buried by the creation of others. Plant your own tree in that soil.
Even now, belittling your creation with thoughts of reaction, of profit, of criticism. Fame, fortune, rejection, failure – cannot be sole motivating or hindering factors. By-products, nothing more. Know this, feel this, move far beyond it.
WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU IN THIS FOR?
You’re diving in, headfirst. In the deepest end. You’ve already made that decision, you already know you’ll never settle for less. Now, why, really, ask yourself, why why why?
“Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?”
“That depends a good deal on where you want to get to,” said the Cat.
“I don’t much care where—” said Alice.
“Then it doesn’t matter which way you go,” said the Cat.
“—so long as I get somewhere,” Alice added as an explanation.
“Oh, you’re sure to do that,” said the Cat, “if you only walk long enough.” —
Credits:
Rendered in Daz 4.12 w/Iray
Daz Genesis 8 Female
Emrys Nicolette
Miranda Hair for G3F & G8F by AprilYSH
Follow the White Rabbit LIE by Mysticartdesign
Dforce Furry Tail by AprilYSH
G8F Catsuit 3 & G8F Long Gloves by AdamThwaites - MostDigitalCreations
Lost Path by lilflame & Sveva - @ DAZ
What are you suffering with?
I have an anxiety disorder and depression
How long have you been suffering from this?
I have been anxious since I was about 7 but it wasn’t diagnosed until about 2 years ago, and at the same time, they psychoanalyzed me and it showed I had symptoms of depression.
Can you describe a panic attack for me?
With a panic attack, it kind of, no one really knows what trigger mine, but what it is is that if I’m worried about something instead of being able to dismiss it, my body doesn’t know how to deal with it, it will instead build into a panic attack. This will lead to me having heart palpitations and not being able to hear properly and blink, I mean I will be blinking a lot. I dunno, just general panic anxiety ensues destruction in the mind.
How did you find out you were suffering, what happened to make you visit a doctor?
Well when I was younger I kind of, I used to like, blink a lot, and kind of, they took me to doctors they didn’t really know what was going on. I used to blink quite a lot, and they thought I was doing it for attention. I used to stutter over words and even now, if I’m trying to get something out, I kind of stutter over it, if it hasn’t formed in my mind yet. But, uh, the moment I can pin point was I was walking to school with my sister and my then boyfriend, and I had been having these kind of heart palpitations, and I had felt so shaky and spaced out, and generally anxious. I didn’t really combine the physical symptoms with the mental ones. And I just sort of collapsed, and I was panicking, I didn’t know how to deal with it. My heart palpitations were making me breathe uneasily, which then meant I fainted. I got taken to the doctors um and they said that I had all the symptoms of an anxiety disorder.
Are there any people you’ve relied on constantly throughout this period of recovery?
I’ve relied a lot on you
I know
It’s mostly, I, I struggle to talk to people about the issues I’m going through, because I feel like I’m burdening them, I don’t do it for pity, like I don’t want to talk to people, sometimes it’s a physical thing, like I can’t actually get the words out. I have to feel completely comfortable with someone to completely offload. Mostly it’s close friends, rather than family members.
Okay, so when you’re feeling bad, is there a place you feel safest?
There are 2 places, used to be on Denne Hill, sounds really morbid but there’s this grave yard, St Mary’s church, and there’s a peace garden, I used to go there with Sammy (close friend), now I go alone, I dunno, it’s just so peaceful. And then there’s the library in Brighton (near her dad’s house), and that’s just chill.
Is there anything that triggers your anxiety, something specific?
It’s random things, I haven’t come across something that I do or see that I know will trigger it. I dunno, there are certain rooms, at Collyers (college), that I couldn’t go in to, because I had had feelings of anxiety there, like mild feelings, they just like, increased into this exponential crisis that I was having every day about not being able to go in to college. And then basically by the end of it I couldn’t physically go to a classroom without someone pushing me in.
How do you handle that?
Well, I, sounds really up myself, but you have to be really strong willed and so I’ve just had to just build up that strength. This is why I had to drop out of Collyers and move to Haywards Heath (college), I was just doing 2 a levels, and it was affecting me so much, this is what I anted to do in the future so I didn’t want it to hold me back, I needed that change. I dunno, I experienced the same thing a bit with Haywards Heath, I couldn’t even get through the gates, but, instead of leaving it too late, like (at Collyers) I left it so long before I talked to someone, and by then it was exam time. But with this, my mum found out within a week and I’ve been talking to my family, and my mums closest friend, Tash, and for all the last week, she was messaging m and my GPS was on so she could see where I was, and she’d encourage me “you’re right outside the gate, you can do it”. Then over time her voice was replaced by my own. So yeah, just being open with people at the beginning, instead of keeping it away.
How do you describe yourself?
Um I would say, I’m quite happy, like when people find out I’ve got anxiety or depression, they are shocked not because I’m a massively cheerful person, but because I am not self pitying or like just depressed, I won’t go to parties and get drunk and cry, or look all forlorn in public with people. I don’t like to dwell on things, I guess I am quite upbeat, um, yeah.
What do you do to calm yourself? Keep you calm/happy?
If I’m at home, I’ll just finger pick the guitar, nothing special. When you have something, it doesn’t have to be that, that takes all your concentration, it makes you mind go blank, like reading a book, or watching a film. Because when I overthink, I panic. Some people like being alone to deal with it, but I need someone there to coach me through, looking me in the eyes, telling me, bringing me out of that anxiety. So yeah.