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Odelll Brewing Isolation Ale. Since it is now spring I thought I should finish up the winter ale. This is a good ale from Odell Brewing Co. in Fort Collins, Colorado.
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DNA isolation with Dr. Beck at the Pryer Lab, Duke University, ground plant material in CTAB buffer after addition of chloroform/isoamyl alcohol, 4 Mar 2010.
Leica M4-P
Voigtländer Nokton 35mm f/1.4 VM II MC
Ilford HP5 PLUS EI250
HC-110B 5m @20° in Job1520 UniTank
Essential Film Holder
DSLR Scan
Negative Lab Pro
I have not uploaded any thing for quite a while. Partly because I'd been busy on other things but mainly because I'd become a little disillusioned with photography and some of the 'hidden' egos and politics, which I kinda hoped were less evident in this world ... (yeah pretty naive eh? 😊) - Anyway I started reviewing some images I'd taken and thought this one was pretty appropriate (or prophetic!) - I'd called it simply "Isolation"
I'm continuing a series I started on Insta where I've been sharing my own personal struggles with Isolation and lack of access to quality medical care.
Once again I have a new medical team and once again this means my referrals are no longer available to me because once again it's been suggested that I also change medical insurance.
There's a big part of me that feels like I've once again allowed people to influence me into making bad choices for my overall health, wellbeing and existence.
I say this because I was scan away from starting chemotherapy that I've not had access to for well over a year. While the cancer is fully treatable and curable, it was stage three when it was finally diagnosed properly. I went nearly two years being told it was nothing, then to being told it was fat pockets or dislodged fat. That's not a thing. Fat doesn't just hang out in the body. it could become blood clots resulting in death. Lipodystrophy was once a common side effect of first generation drugs to treat what was once called "the gay cancer" or "GRID" Gay Retro Immune Disease. However today's medications is far more advanced and things like this are very very rare. She telling me it was this as well was simply incorrect. When the blood test cane back normal for cancer, I was ordered to forget it and let it go. March 10, 2021, two years after feeling the lumps grown larger and larger in my neck, under my arms and other areas and after two hospital stays and an AIDS diagnosis that came on February 3, 2021, after 12 years of controlled undetected HIV, but 41 days without access to the one pill I took daily only missing when I couldn't get them prescribed. It was like a 1 to 2 punch right to my face.
Friends who started this journey with me, went with me to every single medical appointment and saw what was happening are pretty much no longer available. Isolating me even more and left with feelings of my decline becoming too much for them and the burden of my being so sick, not with mental illness issues which have affected all of them, but my best friend the most, no work, bills mounting, eating cat and dog food and at times from garbage bins just so not to feel like this massive burden to them or this huge failure to myself.
I'm also not fighting for housing and thought of homelessness in my state creates more mental stress, anxiety, panic attacks. I no longer feel safe expressing how I feel or what I am dealing with 24 hours a day 7 days a week with no breaks. To know that threats of homelessness come from the very places I must turn to for support who hold my housing in their hands and can end it at anytime is very crippling.
It's come to my attention that the people I love, the people I consider my friends, the people I've trusted are saying things that have worked and are working against me completely devastates me.
from one pill a day and occasionally having to take a pain medication to help me control Sickle Cell is now these pills in the pictures.
1 pill twice a day
1 pill once a day
1 pill four times a day
1 pill 3 times a day
3 pills once a day
1 5ml dose every 6 hours
I have to set alarms in order not to forget.
I still have no idea if the cancer has spread any further. I've not had my colonoscopy
All of these pills come with hefty side effects, including heart and breathing problems, drastic mood swings, skin problems, brain issues, drowsiness, irritability, inability to function and death.
I must monitor my blood pressure and oxygen constantly.
I was already struggling to hold me camera and tonight I couldn't hold it still with a 50mm lens. I had to place it on a tripod.
95% of the time I am alone. My friend Andrew comes by on Sundays to take me and the dogs to Santa Monica, my hometown. Besides doctors appointments this is my only outing. He is the only contact I have with a human being in person. Imagine what this feels like.
This is my life........fading away
This particular image is published in Landscape Photographer Of The Year Book 02
We were around at midpoint of out ascent up Ingleborough clambering over limestone crags, loose scree & limestone walls which made things very difficult. This was definitely not the tourist trail as we had took a wrong turning & knew the direction we had to go, it was just getting back on the track . We manged to get over the worst of it & then completely by accident came across this beauty. It was quite windy at this point & wish i had brought the tripod but we had to travel lightly. The light wasnt all that good & i have vowed to return to this very spot again on a better day. The rocks you can see is Limestone which through erosion creates a Limestone pavement which we had to cross. The crevaces gouged out between these rocks were quite deep up to 3ft in parts. Whilst steadily making our way across we came upon a skeleton of a sheep which had obviously fallen in between the rocks & couldnt get back out again & died where it fell.
The tree you can see was the only one around which really made this a special place for me.It made me wonder why was this tree was here & no others .How long had it been here?
Upon reaching the summit of Ingleborough around an hour later we could look down & see this lonely tree.......Isolated against all the elements, yet surviving in its own very special unique way.
Well done boys (my two young sons) for getting up there without any complaints whatsoever !
Shot this from my place at night with the lights off in my apartment and a foggy mist outside. This is exactly how it looks to the naked eye.
Isolation
My second try at clone photography after this one.
The peculiarity is that in this second one you can only see my face (completely) with the clone in bed, which is also the only one wearing glasses (but this only I can know:)
On April 14 2007 I was diagnosed with Acute Promyelocitic Leukemia. I have been fighting it for 8 months, surviving a one month coma and a cardiac arrest. In December 2007 I was finally released from the hospital. In June 2008, a bone marrow test showed that my cancer had relapsed and I had to enter the hospital again. I have been in isolation for 5 weeks now, and the new therapy seems to be working. Thanks God.
Isolation is necessary for leukemia patients, as the treatments used to fight it cause temporary immuno-deficiency with high risks for infection.
This image intends to describe that state of isolation by showing what one might end up doing to accelerate time a bit: like reading, exercising, meditating, or working on clones with Photoshop :)
It is estimated that 44,270 men and women will be diagnosed with and 21,710 men and women will die of Leukaemia in 2008 in the U.S. only (respectively 138,530 and 52,910 including Lymphoma and Myeloma figures ->1). Leukaemia is children’s world top killer. (source)
Although research has brought to great achievements, many forms of leukaemia are still not curable or entail therapies that are painful and risky for the patient. Moreover, most of the world’s countries cannot afford the highly expensive drugs needed to beat leukaemia.
We cannot change the past, but we can definitely make a difference in our future. Those who are unconvinced of the benefits of research can look back and acknowledge that until not long ago people died of diseases as innocuous as flu.
More info here.
PICTURE INFO
Multiple self- portrait taken with a Nikon D700 with timer on improvised stand (a pile of books:)
Lens/Focal length: Nikkor 18-135 on 18mm
Exposure: 1/60s - f/3.5
WB: Cool-white fluorescent
ISO: 1250
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Alien Isolation
Reshade
Cheat Engine table for FoV, DoF & Freecam
XML Tweaks for shadow and particle resolution & surface reflectiveness.
Turned off in-game grain
1440p (cropped)
On our drive through Indian Canyons, we encountered this small home (no longer inhabited) off the main road.
a part of my next upcoming project (named isolation). Main aspect is the metonymy of certain objects in landscapes.
You really have to view it on black and please check out my updated 500px site and a nice new year everyone!