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An overcast sky but worth recording the second visit of GBRf 69008 on the empty gypsum to Southampton Docks.
( 4Y19) 12:24 Mountfield to Southampton Western Docks
Trevelyan House
Denys Lasdun
(Fry, Drew, Drake and Lasdun)
Morpeth Road,
Hackney, London
Built 1955-8
Grade II Listed
Nikon D750 | Nikkor 18/35 f3.5/4.5
20904 'Janis' with the Hunslet Barclay weed killing train at St Denys, 20901 was on the other end.
PN028-16
Freightliner 66415 with the 12.41 Chichester to Merehead Quarry stone empties passes through St Denys station (7V07)
If we do not step forward, then we step back. If we do not protect a right, then we deny it.
Paul Martin
66954 works 4O09 11:52 Crewe Basford Hall to Southampton Maritime at St Denys. Thursday 9th July 2015.
The Doctor and Leela are cornered by the vile Muton and his dread subforms - the Amulak, the Torg and the X-Arkon!
A modern take on an encounter played out many times in my childhood - back then it was with the 9" Denys Fisher Doctor Who and Cyborg/Muton figures.
Decades later it was a delight to lay my hands on the 'original' 12" Japanese Cyborg/Muton (aka King Walder) and Android figures... and with Big Chief's Doctor Who range the circle is complete :)
I am continuing my browse through my photo archives and I have noticed a theme that regularly emerges at some stage in my cross-dressing sessions. Part of me is thrilled by that and part of me is embarrassed and part of me questions the motivation behind it. If my narratives irritate then I suggest stop reading now as I have another scenario I am musing over and intrigued by.
In this photo I am clearly trying to be sexy and alluring and attractive to men. I am an heterosexual male so why am I doing this?
Since my early cross-dressing days, I started to cross-dress at the age of 41 nearly fifteen years ago, I have seen a very definite theme in that I have dressed in certain clothing and posed in a way that can only be described as sexual. In my early days there was a period when I was dressing in a way that looking back now resembles ones expectations of how a prostitute may appear. I also recall I was highly aroused by my cross-dressing back then and had some very intense pleasurable moments. I see no point in denying any of this as the reality is I did it, it happened.
I have noticed on browsing through transvestite pictures that I am far from alone in having at some point dressed in the provocative sexual style of a prostitute. I fact I cannot help but note that such pictures are very popular receiving high viewing numbers on transvestite photo pages. It seems a lot of cross-dressers are captivated by others cross-dressing in such a way.
I won’t deny that I find it rather exciting to dress in a sexy style and enjoyed the erotic nature of doing so and posing for a photo. I can acknowledge now I did want men to be attracted to me and excited by my female appearance. I loved the idea I may be able to do this.
This brings me back to one of my recurring themes in my narratives regarding sexuality. On the face of it dressing up like a prostitute and posing in a picture and hopefully stirring excitement in men is surely the act of an homosexual man? I say no, it is I believe the act of an heterosexual man.
My view is that what lies behind transvestites going for this look and provocative posing is our own male sexual fantasies. Most transvestites deny any kind of sexual arousal is involved in their cross-dressing. At some stage in one’s years of cross-dressing I feel fairly certain there was a definite sexual element and masturbation involved. This can cause dismay and guilt and self loathing after it has occurred, I definitely experienced such feelings. However, as one evolves with their transvestism and grows older it is easier to be more accepting of oneself and start to enjoy the experience with the sexual aspect and some of the earlier style choices diminishing.
I do feel that our male fantasies about the ideal woman affects our approach to how we cross-dress. We may be men dressing up as women but for the majority of us we are most definitely heterosexual men; as is fairly accepted now most transvestites are not homosexual. That is not a definitive statement as there can be other factors behind ones desire to dress and look female. In my case I am an heterosexual male but I do have a definite transsexual aspect to me but not strong enough to dominate. I will admit I enjoy the dressing up and the illusion and the knowledge I am really a man. The transsexual side I feel puts in me in the ball park so to speak of why I desire to spend time as a woman now and again.
I think cross-dressing has a lot of the male fantasy about women involved in it. We often wear outfits and make style choices real women would not choose themselves, We frequently dress to suit our inner fantasies rather than real world female appearances. Let me be clear I am not condemning this, I will admit I like to indulge in my fantasies now and again despite knowing I am being unrealistic, it’s fun and yes, can be pleasurable.
I conducted an experiment with some female friends and showed them a few pictures that were hugely popular with transvestites, often with comments such as ‘totally convincing’, you get the idea. Interestingly they found them anything but convincing. The pictures they preferred were ones that indeed looked more realistic and real world but it was noted were not being viewed much. It seems that utterly convincing, passing one hundred percent in the outside world as a woman in a totally realistic way is not what most of us aspire to even if we think we do. Only a minority pursue this and do well . The majority go in for overtly feminine, more towards glamorous looks and often with a high degree of sexual fantasy such as mini skirts, very high heels, heavy make-up, long hair styles, long painted nails, posing in lingerie, adopting provocative expressions and poses. I see this all the time and I have even done this myself quite a lot over the years. Still don’t believe it’s motivated by sexual fantasy? I rather think it is, I rather do.
I fully expect this post to be unpopular and draw a high degree of negative responses but I like to talk openly about my transvestism when I can so please bear in mind this is my own view I do not expect agreement. I do feel though we can be less than honest with ourselves about why we engage in cross-dressing and I think the whole taboo around the sexual aspects, which many deny vehemently, does exist for a lot of cross-dressers and it would be a lot easier for many to accept if they admitted this and enjoyed it instead of the angst that can be felt.
What I’m saying is dressing up in sexy way and looking like a prostitute does seem to be a stage many of us go through and may well retain. Don’t feel bad about it just get on with it and enjoy it. It may be a stage that passes or always be something one goes in for. Whatever, don’t feel too bad about it, don’t question your sexuality, it is I believe an heterosexual act and one can derive a lot of pleasure from it. Have fun, have a lot of fun!
I had a pleasant day down in Delaware yesterday and returned at a decent hour with the intention of heading straight home. After departing Leesport in the Audi, wonder kicked in and I found myself traveling around on roads I haven’t driven down in months. I meandered about, made a few stops here and there, looked at stuff and whatnot. Eventually I found myself waterside, with a friendly tree leaning hard west, and we watched the sun go down together. Although it was a good day, moments like this are what’s known in the grocery business as a “bonus buy.” To find deals like this it’s sometimes necessary to disobey intention and just go where the wind (or the Audi) takes you.
Got the idea of this while lying in my bed with my legs in the air. And after some shooting and editing this is the final result, very proud of it.
This glorious village church is a symbol of the sturdy men of Sussex who built it long ago. The whole pageant of English history for 1200 years is bound up with this church; the forest men, the Norman soldiers, the hunted fugitives, peasants and farmers, the iron workers and the service men and women who prayed in this church in the dark days of two world wars.
40145 top and tail with 47815 seen passing Bevois yard.
(1Z40) 07:01 Burton-on-Trent to Weymouth via Didcot
57009 'Freightliner Venturer' works a delayed 4O24 09.38 Crewe Basford Hall-Southampton, with 47370 'Andrew A Hodgkinson' + 57004 'Freightliner Quality' dead in tow, past St.Denys on 20/08/01.
After a week of rain and bad weather, I wanted to get in one last shot from the Embarcadero before the New Year. The city had other ideas for the location and surrounded it with chain link fencing in preparation for the festivities. This was about as close as I could get. Its a shame too since the weather, clouds and moon were ideal this night.
(2 minute exposure)
SWR Class 450 No. 450003 departs St Denys in Southampton working 2E32, the 11:46 Portsmouth & Southsea – Southampton Central service on 23 October 2025.
Rekha Basu Seattle Times
When is an apology a heartfelt effort to make things right, and when is it motivated by self-interest, a formality necessary to complete a deal? And how much difference should that make to the wronged party?
These questions are being appropriately raised since Japanese Prime Minister Shinzo Abe on Monday apologized to the government of South Korea for the Japanese military’s use of South Korean “comfort women” during Japan’s occupation from 1932 to 1945. As further restitution, Japan will pay $8.3 million to a foundation to be established by South Korea for services to surviving victims. There are reported to be between 46 and 53 in that country.
“Comfort women” is a feel-good term used for the as many as 200,000 Asian and Dutch women and girls who befell various terrors during World War II. Some as young as 12 were captured or lured with false promises of factory work or other employment in their homelands of China, Indonesia (then a Dutch colony), the Philippines and North and South Korea. They were sent to brothels to provide sexual services to Japanese soldiers and held for months or even years.
The practice only became public in 1991, when a Korean survivor disclosed her experience. At first the Japanese government denied it. Then, in 1993, it apologized and paid some donated money to South Korea. It said an investigation had confirmed Japan’s military had recruited Asian and European women to work in army brothels during World War II and kept them captive. It said private recruiters had often been used, but in some cases “administrative personnel directly took part in the recruitment.”
But that apology didn’t satisfy survivors, who have staged weekly protests for 22 years in front of the Japanese embassy in South Korea’s capital, Seoul. Later, Abe was pressured by Japan’s conservatives, who suggested there was no forcible recruitment, to review the evidence and rescind the apology. During a visit to the United States in April, Abe disappointed survivors by not mentioning the topic in a speech to Congress. He was confronted by protesters. South Korean President Park Geun-hye urged Japan to address the matter and refused to meet with Abe on regional issues.
Some Japanese nationals continue to deny “comfort women” were forced or coerced, saying they were prostitutes. It took pressure from the United States to bring about this week’s announcement. President Obama urged Japan and South Korea — its closest allies in the region — to resolve the dispute so the countries can put up a united front against China and North Korea.
In Seoul on Monday, Japanese Foreign Minister Fumio Kishida said Abe “expresses anew sincere apologies and remorse from the bottom of his heart to all those who suffered immeasurable pain and incurable physical and psychological wounds as ‘comfort women.’” Abe later called Park to apologize, and she called for a new era of trust between the countries.
But some critics still don’t consider the apology enough. Mira Yusef, who founded and runs Monsoon: United Asian Women of Iowa, a sexual assault and domestic violence prevention organization, said, “The ones on top (government leaders) are making those decisions. Survivors didn’t even have a say in it.”
Yusef says it’s not even clear South Korea’s survivors will get the money. Most did not marry; they were too stigmatized, she says. Many suffered from post-traumatic stress disorder and many could never have sex or bear children because of physical abuses. Some committed suicide.
In a project called Comfort Women Wanted, Korean-born artist Chang-Jin Lee interviewed survivors and witnesses on camera.
In the interviews, a former Japanese soldier said women were required to have sex with 50 to 100 soldiers a day. A Korean woman spoke of being kidnapped at 15 and taken to a brothel. A Dutch woman in Indonesia recalled being lined up with other girls 18 and older, loaded onto trucks as their watching mothers screamed, and taken to a brothel. A Filipina woman said she was kidnapped by Japanese soldiers at a market with her grandmother at 14, and both were forced into sexual slavery. An 81-year-old Indonesian woman described how it went: “The soldiers came in one by one. This was not work, this was an assault. It hurt me inside. Some of the men beat me. It hurt my heart. I hated being treated like that.”
There are 70 former “comfort women” in the Philippines, but to date, they’ve received no compensation or apology, according to Yusef, who is from that country. Neither have survivors in other countries.
Monday’s agreement calls for South Korea and Japan to no longer criticize each other over the issue. It has South Korea agreeing to remove a statue in front of the Japanese embassy in tribute to the “comfort women.” Abe told reporters the agreement was made to stop future generations from having to keep apologizing.
Yusef believes in forgiveness, but not this way. She wants Japan’s treatment of “comfort women” to be remembered and taught as a stain on Japan’s history — not whitewashed or buried.
Nothing can make up for the women’s lost years, or the humiliation, brutality and fear they suffered. But since perpetrators will never be brought to justice, Japan could show its sincerity by erecting its own monuments to those wronged, by refuting the deniers, and by repeating George Santayana’s famous line: Those who cannot learn from the past are condemned to repeat it.
She loves to be outside and would stay out there all day if I allowed her to be. But, there are times when we must be indoors. I loved her pose, so graceful yet you can feel her longing.
"I must go down to the seas again, for the call of the running tide
Is a wild call and a clear call that may not be denied;
And all I ask is a windy day with the white clouds flying,
And the flung spray and the blown spume, and the sea-gulls crying." (excerpt from Sea Fever by John Masefield )
I saw this small boy coming down the dusty and rocky path, with a bowl on his head, barefooted. He was going to the river to fetch some water.
The subjects in the background were also very young boys and girls.
My Miniportrait camera is BROKEN :((((
Somehow it wont take up to four shots anymore. It either takes one or two, randomly.
I don't know whether the problem is with the release cable or the camera. As i bought the cable very recently, i'd say it's the camera. If anybody has any suggestion as to what the problem might be...
Anyway as the two left shots were fucked, i decided to paint them white and stick some rubbish on it. This was only done out of frustration and boredom :( i'd have preferred to have the usual four shots...
Keeling House
Denys Lasdun
Grade II* listed 1957-9
My Photo Zines on Etsy: Etsy: 100 Real People
Original Postcard art on Etsy: Etsy: 100 Real People
Keeling House - by Denys Lasdun (who also designed the NT)
Nikon D750 | Nikkor 18-35 f3.5/4.5
GWR 166215 still in First Great Western livery and logos.
15.23 Portsmouth Harbour to Cardiff Central.