graaaaaaaaaaainy!

Go on pandora.com and make a station from Atlas Sound.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=TqUzTUbKRUc <3

Do not add any of my photos to tumblr, etc. without my permission.

---------------------

For all zoo animals who get Haldol, Valium, Klonopin, Zoloft, Paxil, Xanax, Buspar, Prozac, Ativan, Versed, Mellaril, and Beta-Blockers ...

cigs ativan & a sweaty stroll over to the lower east side

nyc august 2014

fujifilm instax wide shot on instax 210

Never go nowhere, man

I never go nowhere

Traffic's bad out there, man

I'm savin' wear and tear

I like conditioned air, man

I never go nowhere

I go upstairs, downstairs,

backyard, lawn chairs

Living room, bathroom,

bedroom, furnace room

Hot tub, cedar deck,

build a fire, washer/dryer

Pantry, patio,

Bartiromo video

Cold cellar, rec room,

ping pong, mahjong

Beer count wearin' thin,

speed dial, order in

I ain't goin' nowhere, man

I ain't goin' nowhere

It's dangerous out there, man

Might 'a been a big bomb scare

Hard to get off of this easy chair

I ain't goin' nowhere

I go online, DSL,

Amazon, buy and sell

EBay, layaway,

last bid noon today

Plasma, Judy Judge,

broadband, Matt Drudge

JCrew, B & N,

dot com, CNN

Jpeg, e-mail,

pop-up she-male

Shower cam, filter spam,

slam bam, I think it's ma'am

I ain't goin' nowhere, man

Never gonna go nowhere

It's a bungled jungle out there, man

Some kid got mauled by a bear

Surround sound in my own lair

I ain't goin' nowhere

I got perimeter, motion,

doggy door, mail call

Peep hole, Avon,

wireless, strobes on

PIN code, keypad,

relay, pepper spray

Home base, interface,

three-zone, plug 'n play

Infrared, photocell,

squad car, decibel

Choppers up, sonic boom,

activate the panic room

I'm on Ritalin, Coumadin,

Zantac, Lipitor

Diazepam, Nexium,

Prevacid, Percocet

Levitra, Levaquin,

Elavil, Fosamax

Plavix, Keflex,

next day FedEx

Zithromax, Avelox,

Flexeril, Topamax

Prozac, Ativan, Adderall,

I take 'em all

I ain't goin' nowhere, man

Never gonna go nowhere

I'm cuttin' my own hair, man

Nothin' I need out there

Outside sunny, but inside Cher

I ain't goin' nowhere

-Rick Moranis "Ain't Goin' Nowhere"

www.youtube.com/watch?v=8OeCacs5oqM

In this picture: Prozac 20mg, Ativan .5mg, Seroquel 25mg, Seroquel 300mg

Medicine and drugs, the solution to Americas problems. Not.

Don't get me wrong, these are actually "some" of my medications I take. And they help me for various things. But overall, it seems like this is all we are about these days. Poor healthcare in America, even if you (like I) have insurance.

Stress, anxiety and love/hate relationships make it hard to pull-through.

It'd be nice to get a break.

C15H10Cl2N2O2

This shot is taken from the winter "parking" space of the Spanish Aero Car. I've taken this little trip a few times. That was before the head injury, of course, for those who know me. Today, I'm sure it would require an Ativan to get me on there. Following, is the official description of the attraction.

Soar the Great Gorge, high above the racing Niagara River. You'll be transported through the air in an antique cable car, while far below the torrent of water abruptly changes direction and creates one of the world’s most mesmerizing natural phenomena – the Niagara Whirlpool. Sometimes frightening and always unforgettable!

Please note that this attraction is NOT wheelchair accessible.

The Aero Car was designed by a Spanish engineer, Leonardo Torres Quevedo and has been in operation since 1916. The cable car is suspended from six sturdy cables and offers a wonderful view of the Niagara Whirlpool which is formed at the end of the rapids where the gorge turns abruptly counterclockwise, and the river escapes through the narrowest channel in the gorge.

"The aerial cable car travels safely between two different points of the Canadian shore of the Niagara River over the spectacular Whirlpool. A round trip is about one kilometre (3,600 feet), carrying its capacity of 35 standing passengers."

In the photo, the red you see, is actually the roof of the passenger car. By, the way, it does NOT operate when it gets too windy. Not for the squeamish.

My patient coded.

Got a call from telemetry that his rate was 20.

I walked into the room and he was not breathing, and had no pulse.

I shook him forcefully and called out to him in a very loud voice.

He gasped agonally.

His appearance was dusky, and his body was quite clammy.

I called a code blue.

I dropped the bed, and started depressing his chest to a depth of at least 2 inches, and at a rapid rate (100+bpm).

I heard and felt his ribs and sternum break beneath my hands.

If you don't break them, you're not doing it right.

Within moments, the room began to fill with the Code Team and others.

I shared his history and what had transpired moments before he coded.

We hooked the defibrillator pads up to his chest, and continued compressions.

The respiratory folks bagged him.

We injected an amp of epinephrine.

We continued rapid and deep compressions.

We used Narcan (naloxone) to bind with and neutralize the morphine. He'd also had diphenhydramine HCl (Benadryl©) & Ativan (lorazepam), a benzodiazepine. He had become increasingly and extremely agitated, and was quite possibly in pain.

We paused, and allowed the machine to analyze his rhythm.

He had a pulse.

We continued to bag him.

His O2 saturation was 90+%.

We attempted to intubate him, and the CRNA gave him propofol.

He was a difficult intubation, and experienced several thwarted attempts, and neither the Miller blade, nor the standard blade with cricoid pressure were successful.

The doc unsuccessfully attempted intubation.

The CRNA used the GlideScope (a video laryngoscope) and finally achieved intubation.

We then shipped him up to SICU, where I reported off on him to the receiving RN.

I've never lost a patient, and didn't intend on starting that day.

This all happened shortly before shift change.

It was all in a day's work.

I signed up for this.

So, what's the moral of this story?

No matter how shitty your life, no matter how lousy your life, no matter how fucked up, no matter how worthless...

your LIFE IS WORTH SAVING.

Jama Mashid ( largest mosque in the largest Democracy in this hostile world ) Old Delhi, INDIA

The serenity, quietude and peacefulness of prayer.

We fight wars, we are bellicose with those who disagree with our religions, thoughts, opinions or dogma.

Many never find inner peace. They do all the " right " things, they follow all the rules, but they cannot find it. Believing in a god does not guarantee it either. Praying 5 times a day or attending SYNAGOGUES on Shabbos or Marching the Crucifux up and down valleys and hills does not guarantee inner peace. Memorizing the Koran, the old testament, the haggodah, the apostles sermons, the sayings of JESUS all do not guarantee a second of inner peace. Making millions does not guarantee inner peace. Giving your children everything they want or what you think they need will not give you inner peace. It is not a commodity or a thing. It is not something sold or bought or bargained for or mortgaged.

Xanax, Valium, Ativan, Prozac, Paxil, Effexor, Lexapro will not give you inner peace.

The road to inner peace is long and winding. Most never have it!

Many who have it , give it away, let it slip away, do not hold onto it or do not respect it or acknowledge it or are afraid of it. Many murder it within themselves.

Inner peace is a journey. We all have different ways of getting there.

Good luck finding it...............................

Photography’s new conscience

linktr.ee/GlennLosack

linktr.ee/GlennLosack

glosack.wixsite.com/tbws

Benzos: Is This the World's Deadliest Pill?

Some say it's not opiate painkillers like Oxy, Norco and Vicodin, but drugs like Ativan, Xanax and Klonopin. And doctors are doling it out like candy, causing a surge of hellish withdrawals, overdoses and deaths.

You could argue that the most dangerous “drug” in the world is the venom from a jellyfish known as the Sea Wasp, whose sting can kill a human being in four minutes—up to 100 humans at a time. Potassium chloride, which is used to trigger cardiac arrest and death in the 38 states of the U.S. that enforce the death penalty is also pretty deadly . But when it comes to prescription drugs that are not only able to kill you but can drag out the final reckoning for years on end, with worsening misery at every step of the way, it is hard to top the benzodiazepines. And no "benzo" has been more lethal to millions of Americans than a popular prescription drug called Klonopin.

Klonopin is the brand name for the pill known as clonazepam, which was originally brought to market in 1975 as a medication for epileptic seizures.

When benzodiazepines first came to market in the 1950s and 1960s, they were prescribed for a range of neurological disorders such as epilepsy as well as anxiety related disorders such as insomnia. But over time, a loophole in federal drug-control laws known as the “practice of medicine exception” has permitted psychiatrists and other physicians to prescribe the drugs for any perceived disorder or symptom imaginable, from panic attacks to weight control problems.

Unlike antidepressants, which can take several weeks to take full effect, benzodiazepines go to work right away. That makes them a valuable tool to help people who have severe, crippling anxiety. But their downsides appear rapidly as well.

Prescription numbers have been falling, but it’s a slow process.

The fact that a sudden and precipitous drop hasn't been there is possibly due to the fact that doctors know that people can die from benzodiazepine withdrawal if they’re abruptly discontinued.

Patients should always ask a doctors how to manage a condition like anxiety without drugs first.

As with every medicine, they should be used at the lowest dose for only as long as they’re needed. For chronic conditions, one should talk to their doctors about what’s the long-term goal and ask questions such as: What’s the point of taking the medication? What are the risks and benefits? What else could the patient use other than that medication?

my daily savior.

Pete came for a visit over Christmas, in fact he left early Christmas morning. It was kind of inconvenient having him here and we disagreed about a lot of things. He thought the end of the world was going to happen on the 21st and gave me the gold coin to take him to Mount Lemmon. I let him use my tent, a sleeping pad. Next the cold weather came. New Years Jen & Tom left early, I cranked the stereo up real loud and never knew when it was midnight, I only drank a little but smoked some hash from Amsterdam . . . don't remember going to bed or when. Jen wondered why she hadn't heard from a friend over Thanksgiving . . . I did Google search and found his obituary, he was 61 or 3. I always thought they would be a good couple but he married a woman who got Alzheimer's in her 40's yet outlived him. Now I have the head of the HOA and majority lot owner in the Sycamore Vista Unit 5 subdivision trying to steal some of my vacant lots saying I owe him $295,000 for improvements I never asked for. The HOA lien for the improvements is over six-years old . . . contracts expire (statute of limitations) in six years and HOA assessments expire in three. The actual amount is more like $600,000 but he's being nice. When he found out I was quieting title against the person the lien was assigned to, he allegedly paid the lienholder $125,000. I really doubt any $$$ changed hands. Every so often I get these dreadful feelings like I'm on the edge of death, sad, faint dreadful, sick. I take a tranquilizer and cry. I worry about Pete, he called saying he caught nasty flu on the airplane going home, he has had some other mysterious emergency hospitial visits -- finds himself waking up in hospital! and never asks why!? My problem, the doctors say is panic attacks. I did pass out from smoking (it was the nicotine) and then quit smoking . . . feels much better but occasionally I feel a little "rush" like I'm going to pass out again, panic and take a tranquilizer. Silver dime is worth $2.3061.

My 41yo M pt was so extremely agitated to the point where he was interfering with treatment, and a danger to himself, thus requiring a doubling up on the dosage of his scheduled meds.

Seen here, 6mg Ativan, 50mg Benadryl & 10mg Haldol - all for IM injection.

Do you ever feel like your taking too many pills? Even in most of them are natural supplements? These are all mine :/

In case your counting there are 19 bottles there. That I take almost every day. Several times a day for most of them. In all fairness, 3 of the red prescription bottles I don't necessarily take every day. One I just don't want to unless I need to, and the other two are as needed. And one of the natural ones in the back I don't take every day either... it's meant to be only on certain days of the month. That still leaves 15 I take everyday, and I don't feel adding up how many per day.

If your jealous of my pretty red prescription bottles they are the cool bottles that Target Pharmacy dispenses their scripts in. My band color is yellow. My sons is green. They put different bands on for each member of the household. Pretty smart of them.

Wondering what's all there? I think I need to list it so if I am every hospitalized the nurse can look up this picture online and get the list, because I certainly can't remember them all. I am too busy taking them...

They are prescribed / used for many reasons. I am tagging more then what is wrong with me. The supplements came from a holistic doctor that is trying to fix my deficiencies and sensitivities / allergies.

In due time hopefully bottles prescription and supplements will be taken away.....

Ok the list:

Kavinase

Life Guard Multi-vitamin

Mega Fish Oil

Potent C (nasty to drink)

Bio D Forte

MSM (supposed to help my chronic pain)

VSL #3 (I like this one.. it has 225 BILLION live bacteria in each pill. Thats aways a good thing to know the little critters are there fixin your insides)

Selenium (This and Bio D Forte are drops, and they don't taste like candy anymore then the Potent C does)

GABA

Iodoral

Natures Throid 1 Gram

Progon B

Beta TCP

Oxcabazepin (Trileptal)

Seroquel 25 and 300

Fluoxetine (Prozac)

Lorazapam (Ativan)

Adderall (this is the one I don't take everyday thought I am supposed to)

他們愛裝憂鬱，凡是一切帶有憂鬱氣質的事物，他們總愛攀些關係。

有時他們也會和人談談「小史」跟「ＡＴＩＶＡＮ」的優缺點，明明就沒怎 樣，他們也在說他們為失眠所苦。

不過這些人之所以或覺得憂鬱，大部份的原因就都是因為他們苦惱於自己太草包了，可偏偏又不去改變現況。

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lorazepam

My first complete collaboration with my beautiful roommate, Nicole.

(Other substances used as inspiration as well: Lorazepam, Marijuana, Lager, Yerba Mate, and Catnip)

Mixed Media on Poster Board.

This is not an illicit drug. (Best viewed large, your results may vary.)

"As I was walking through a life one morning

the sun was out, the air was warm, but

Oh, I was cold

And though I must have looked half a person,

to tell the tale, in my own version,

It was only then that I felt whole

Do you believe in something beautiful?

Then get up and be it

Fighting for the smallest goal: to get a little self-control

I know how hard you try. I see it in your eyes

But call your friends, 'cause we've forgotten what it's like to eat what's rotten

And what's eating you alive might help you to survive.

We went on as we were on a mission, latest in a Grand Tradition

And oh, what did we find?

It was Ego who was flying the banner, and me and Mia, Ann and Ana

Oh, we'd been unkind

But do you believe in something beautiful?

Then get up and be it

Fighting for the smallest goal: to get a little self-control

I see it in your eyes, I see it in your spine.

But call your friends,

'cause we've forgotten what it's like to eat what's rotten

And what's eating you alive, might help you to survive.

And even the nights, they could get better

And even the days ain't all that bad

And after a week of fighting, as more and more it seems the right thing

But do you believe in something beautiful?

Then get up and be it

Fighting for the smallest goal: to gain a little self-control

Won't anybody here just let you disappear?

Not doctors, nor your mom and dad, but me and Mia, Ann and Ana

Know how hard you try. Don't you see it in my eyes?

Sick to death of my dependence, fighting food to find transcendence

Fighting to survive, more dead but more alive

Cigarettes and speed for livin', and sleeping pills to feel forgiven

All that you contrive, and all that you're deprived

All the bourgeois social angels telling you you've got to change

Don't have any idea. They'll never see so clear.

But don't forget what it really means to hunger strike

when you don't really need to

Some are dying for a cause, but that don't make it yours.

And even the nights, they could get better."

-Me & Mia

----------

Ted Leo and The Pharmacists Set List 03.12.10

1. Heart Problems

2. Mourning in America

3. The Mighty Sparrow

4. Me and Mia

5. The One Who Got Us Out

6. Ativan Eyes

7. Even Heroes Have to Die

8. The Stick

9. Where Have All the Rude Boys Gone

10. Counting Down

11. Little Dawn

12. Colleen

13. Bottled in Cork

14. The High Party

15. Dirty Deeds (AC/DC Cover with fan on vocals)

16. Where Was My Brain

17. Last Days

Encore:

18. Keep on Pushing (Curtis Mayfield and The Impressions Cover) (Ted Leo solo electric)

19. Timorous Me

20. Some Beginner’s Mind

21. Angelf*ck (Misfits cover)

My story begins in the year 1978. I woke up and could not get out of bed as I cannot move my legs or left arm. “I am only 18 yrs old. I went to the hospital, was admitted for a week, but only to discharged by the hospital, with no diagnosis.

A week goes by and I’m getting worse, I have red raised nodules on the shins of my legs below my knees. They are warm to the touch and very painful. The doctor’s are baffled and again send me home with no diagnosis.

After 2 weeks of horrific pain, I’m finally carried in by my father and again admitted to a different hospital. The doctors tell my parents that they think there may be fluid in my ankles and if they pull any fluid out then I will never walk again. But there was no fluid. I spent a week in the hospital only to have them discharge me with a diagnosis of Sarcoidosis or Erythema Nodosum. I spent 6 months in a wheelchair, was receiving steroid injections in my ankles and taking liquid painkillers just to be able to walk. Then, one day, it all just seemed to just vanish.

It’s now May in the year of 1995. I am giving birth to my second son by C-section. During this 3 day experience the only symptom that I had was severe tremors. The nurse said it was normal after a C-section. I didn’t agree, as it was uncontrollable.

Finally my husband and I left the Hospital and took our baby home. Two nights later I had to go back to the E.R. as I had a severe headache and my blood pressure was up. The doctors gave me a CT and a shot of Demerol, and sent me home.

The next day, I literally woke up feeling like I only had a head in the bed!! I could not feel my body parts and I had no control of their movements. Today, I have learned that what I had experienced has a name and that is “PROPRIOCEPTION”

At this point my speech started to slur. My vision was fading fast. My husband drove me back to the hospital. By the time I entered the emergency room I had no vision, I was blind and paralyzed and I could not respond to any of the doctor’s commands. I simply did not know how to respond. After being admitted and having many tests, and procedures, and having had Nitroglycerin put under my tongue every few hours,

the only diagnosis that I received was that I had Post Partum Psychosis and that I needed to see a Psychiatrist. I remember a Neurologist checking my balance, and because I had a slight responding reflex, he said I was fine, yet I still could not see correctly.

My vision finally did come back as tunnel and “mirror like” vision. I was discharged with 1mg of prescription Ativan 3x as it calmed the tremors.

I did go to see a Psychiatrist and had a Neuropsychological evaluation. It was my Psychiatrist who said I had every symptom of Multiple Sclerosis and suggested that I see an MS specialist. So I made an appointment to see an MS specialist who finally diagnosed me with Multiple Sclerosis and he was also very upset as I brought in my past MRI’s only for him to read as they all stated that I had MS on 4 different MRI’s. In June of 2001, I was told I had a secondary disease diagnosis called Multiple Sclerosis. I had to go to speech and cognitive therapy for almost 3 years and I had to be detoxed from a medication that I was now addicted too. The Ativan 1mg a day that I was taking, later.. turned into 18 mg of Ativan a day because no one knew about the Multiple Sclerosis and or what I should be taking for the Tremors and Spastic limbs.

So, I was finally diagnosed with having Sarcoidosis and Erythema Nodosum and Optic Neuritis, and Lupus as well as Multiple Sclerosis along with other Autoimmune Related Diseases,

One doctor wrote a letter to my Psychiatrist that he spent over an hour counseling me on my complaints.

I hope that I could help contribute to the Rare Diseases Media, to be able to tell my story as being a patient and an example, as well as a testimonial to all of the above experiences, that 'no patient" should ever have to go through any of the above mentioned.

I now am a leader of a support group for “Scleroderma and other Autoimmune Related Diseases Forum” via; face book. I post the meetings each month on this site and research updates for people to read about. I am an advocate for Scleroderma Michigan Chapter and for AARDA.ORG and Lewy body dementia as well.

What I really hope to accomplish by telling my story is that this proves to say that their was a lot of unnecessary healthcare spending on all of the procedures that I had to endure and that we.. as patients can come together, and teach doctors and healthcare providers (Insurance Companys) as well as Pharmacist's to work together as a team to getting the correct diagnosis.

Thank you.

Warm Regards,

Mrs. Kimberly Radomski

Clinton Twp., Mi 48038

Snugs1@wowway.com

Sur le dos d'un papillon

Vole, vole, vole un baiser

Sur une joue

Dans un cou

Où va-t-il se poser?

Vole, vole, papillon doux

Viens par ici

Va par là

Le baiser-papillon doux

C'est toi qui l'auras!

Spring has arrived! It's sunny and mild outside! I need vacation, I need a raise, I need a new home, I need Ativan, I'm sooo needy!

Alright, I slept amazing after being on Q104 this morning-for the record my ears are still ringing from this show last night.

Anyways I got tickets to go see Ted Leo & The Pharmacists at the Grog Shop in Coventry. I had a spot right at the stage next to the band, and I could've literally sat down next to them and watched that's how awesome the Grog Shop is...no barrier dividing the crowd and the band.

After the show, the band left and we helped them off the stage and they went backstage and I decided to knock on the door to see if I could get a picture with Ted. The guitarist opens the door and says, 'yeah he'll be out in five minutes.' Couldn't have been a nicer guy, Ted, we talked for a minute and then he went to hang out with whoever had decided to stay after the show. This is why I'll continually love music like TL/RX; they connect with their fans and they're all about the music. I'd put them in the musical company of The Clash and Thin Lizzy and that's saying something.

Thanks Ted.

And thanks to Pharmacists' guitarist James Canty for being the guest photographer for this 365 entry!

Song of the Day: "Colleen" by Ted Leo & The Pharmacists

-------

Ted Leo and The Pharmacists Set List 03.12.10

1. Heart Problems

2. Mourning in America

3. The Mighty Sparrow

4. Me and Mia

5. The One Who Got Us Out

6. Ativan Eyes

7. Even Heroes Have to Die

8. The Stick

9. Where Have All the Rude Boys Gone

10. Counting Down

11. Little Dawn

12. Colleen

13. Bottled in Cork

14. The High Party

15. Dirty Deeds (AC/DC Cover with fan on vocals)

16. Where Was My Brain

17. Last Days

Encore:

18. Keep on Pushing (Curtis Mayfield and The Impressions Cover) (Ted Leo solo electric)

19. Timorous Me

20. Some Beginner’s Mind

21. Angelf*ck (Misfits cover)

If I'm going to do this project, there was only one place to start - with my musical obsession du jour, Alice Ripley.

This is the number that got me hooked on Next to Normal, and it's just everything I love in a big Act I number - bold, complex, wordy and excellent exposition.

YOUTUBE LINK

WHO'S CRAZY/MY PSYCHOPHARMACOLOGIST AND I

I just had a lumbar puncture done in order to help with the diagnoses of an ongoing eye problem. Due to a slight scoliosis in my lower back the neurology resident had to try it a couple times (I count ~9), each attempt of which I have drawn arrows to in this photograph.

I wouldn't have much sympathy for me either, if I didn't know that a failed attempt means that the needle either went right in up to the hilt, or else it was stopped by bone.

I was slightly sedated with ativan and then a local anaesthetic (lidocaine) was injected, so I had no problem with the rest of the process. I wish to emphasize that the freezing and sedation made this a - if not comfortable, at least a not unpleasant procedure. All but the last attempt was made with me curled up on my right side. The one that worked was done with me sitting and leaning forward onto a table. Once the needle was placed correctly, and under the resident's direction, I tilted sideways till I was laying down again, and also stretched out my legs. It was a that point that the "opening pressure" was measured and then some CSF was collected into little vials.

Few after effects: a slightly sore back which went away after a day or so, a headache which was very position dependent and lasted longer...and this slightly scary picture, just in time for Halloween.

On June 3, 2017 I injured myself hiking. Not sure how it happened, all I know I was slipping and then fell backwards into the water. As I fell I could see the injury on my shin and said to myself, "you're OK Raquel." Hand was also injured, still have hematoma on my cheekbone. Was treating it with Neosporin but later a wound specialist gave me medicinal honey made with special pollen from New Zealand. The same doctor who stitched me up misdiagnosed skin infection (Cellulitis, note the purple marker on my leg) and gave me nasty antibiotics (Clindamycin), which made me feel sick. Had to hike a mile by myself to the car in 103-degree weather. I soaked my dress in the water, ate an Ativan and drove to the hospital. Doctor asked if anything hurt, I said "no." Endorphins are powerful painkillers, I kept telling them, "I'm lucky to be alive"! Took about 5 weeks to heal. Canyon is where it happened, over on the left, out of the picture. It was the last pic I took that day.

Uploaded the pic to Wikipedia: en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wound_healing

I found a nice, large distribution of Valerian!

The root of the valerian plant contains many important plant chemicals and may be helpful in treating opiate addiction. Valerian root possesses a calming effect, and that when it is used in combination with the amino acid tyrosine, it may be helpful for people battling drug addiction and withdrawal symptoms. Valerian root has sedative action and may help reduce your anxiety, insomnia and nervousness. Valerian root can be found in southern Alberta near the B.C. border. I have helped friends get off Benzo’s and addictive sleeping pills. Why not try it in conjunction with opioid addiction? AND. . . you can wildcraft it free.

To ensure survival of this plant, wildcraft responsibly. Always leave part of the plant, such as the runners, so they can survive. This area was thick with the plant, but that does not always happen.

Some plants should never be wildcrafted. You should become familiar with the list of endangered (Alberta) plants and leave them alone.

Last day of this stuff!!!!

Hope For Holly

it's times like these when a neck looks for a knife,

a wrist for a razor, a heart is longing for bullets.

tension is high under sea and over sky.

pressure drop, people are acting foolish.

ooh - but it's easy to see!

ooh - we could dance and be free.

ooh - to that 2-tone beat!

but it looks like it's gone...

gangsters and clowns with a stereotyped sound

it's coming like a ghosst town - someone always knew it.

hatred and shame, a racialist game

cycles of blame - someone sang me through it.

who? well it's easy to see.

ooh - we could dance to be free.

ooh - to that 2-tone beat!

but it looks like it's gone...

i asked jerry, he told terry, terry sang a song just for me,

lynvall gave a message to me,

rhoda screamed and then she asked me,

"where have all the rude boys gone?"

--------

Ted Leo and The Pharmacists Set List 03.12.10

1. Heart Problems

2. Mourning in America

3. The Mighty Sparrow

4. Me and Mia

5. The One Who Got Us Out

6. Ativan Eyes

7. Even Heroes Have to Die

8. The Stick

9. Where Have All the Rude Boys Gone

10. Counting Down

11. Little Dawn

12. Colleen

13. Bottled in Cork

14. The High Party

15. Dirty Deeds (AC/DC Cover with fan on vocals)

16. Where Was My Brain

17. Last Days

Encore:

18. Keep on Pushing (Curtis Mayfield and The Impressions Cover) (Ted Leo solo electric)

19. Timorous Me

20. Some Beginner’s Mind

21. Angelf*ck (Misfits cover)

Colleen – never to be crowned queen, never an evergreen

Floating above the scene as still as a figurine

Expressionless, so serene, but I know what makes you scream

So don’t you run out of steam – I know you, Colleen

It’s been all messed up since the very beginning

But you act so tough, people think that you’re winning

And everyone wants something from Colleen

Colleen - perpetually between what is and what could have been

Floating through your routine every day since you were fifteen

And as rosy as you make it seem, I know life for you ain’t been a dream

To have to deal with the things you’ve seen while they work you like you’re a machine

Machines break down, but you can’t break with them

It’s too late now, so don’t break the rhythm

And everyone wants something form Colleen

Colleen, if ever you walk into a dead-end street, come clean –

Don’t say that it’s all in your mind because I know what you mean – Colleen

It’s been all messed up since the very beginning

It’s too late now, ‘cause we’re already in it

And everyone wants something from Colleen

(and no one gets ‘cause she’s no one’s Colleen)

---------

Ted Leo and The Pharmacists Set List 03.12.10

1. Heart Problems

2. Mourning in America

3. The Mighty Sparrow

4. Me and Mia

5. The One Who Got Us Out

6. Ativan Eyes

7. Even Heroes Have to Die

8. The Stick

9. Where Have All the Rude Boys Gone

10. Counting Down

11. Little Dawn

12. Colleen

13. Bottled in Cork

14. The High Party

15. Dirty Deeds (AC/DC Cover with fan on vocals)

16. Where Was My Brain

17. Last Days

Encore:

18. Keep on Pushing (Curtis Mayfield and The Impressions Cover) (Ted Leo solo electric)

19. Timorous Me

20. Some Beginner’s Mind

21. Angelf*ck (Misfits cover)

Washing the valerian I gathered this summer was interesting-the process attracted every cat in the neighborhood.

The root of the valerian plant contains many important plant chemicals and may be helpful in treating opiate addiction. Valerian root possesses a calming effect- when used in combination with the amino acid tyrosine, may be helpful for those battling drug addiction and uncomfoetable withdrawal symptoms. Valerian root has a sedating action and may help reduce anxiety, insomnia and nervousness. Valerian root can be found in southern Alberta near the B.C. border. I have helped friends get off Benzo’s and addictive sleeping pills using this herb.

♡♡♡우선 클릭해 주셔셔 정말 감사합니다 ♡♡♡

신용과 신뢰의 거래로 많은VIP고객님들 모시고 싶은것이저희쪽 경영 목표입니다

믿음과 신뢰의 거래로 신용성있는 비즈니스 진행하고있습니다

비즈니스는 첫째로 신용,신뢰 입니다

믿고 주문하시는것만큼 저희는 확실한제품으로 모시겠습니다

카톡【AKR331】라인【SPR331】위커【SPR705】텔레【GEM705】

믿고 주문해주세요~저희는 제품판매를 고객님들과 신용과신뢰의 거래로 하고있습니다.

24시간 문의상담과 서울 경기지방은 퀵으로도 가능합니다

믿고 주문하시면좋은인연으로 vip고객님으로 모시겠습니다.

원하시는제품있으시면 추천상으로 구입문의 도와드릴수있습니다

┏一一一一一一一一一一一一一一一一一一一一一一一┓

수면제는 무엇입니까?

대부분의 수면제는 "진정제 수면제"로 분류됩니다. 이는 수면 을 유도 및 / 또는 유지하는 데 사용되는 특정 종류의 약물 입니다. 진정제 수면제는 벤조디아제핀, 바르비 투르 산염 및 다양한 수면제를 포함합니다.

Xanax , Valium , Ativan , Librium 과 같은 벤조디아제핀 은 항불안제입니다 . 그들은 또한 졸음을 증가시키고 사람들의 수면을 돕습니다. Halcion 은 기존의 벤조디아제핀 진정제-최면 치료제로 대체로 최신 의약품으로 대체되었습니다. 이러한 약물은 단기적으로 유용 할 수 있지만 모든 벤조디아제핀은 잠재적으로 중독성이 있으며 기억력과 주의력에 문제를 일으킬 수 있습니다. 일반적으로 수면 문제의 장기 치료에는 권장되지 않습니다.

이 진정제-최면 계열의 또 다른 약물 인 바르비 투르 산염은 중추 신경계를 저하시키고 진정을 유발할 수 있습니다. 단기 또는 장기 작용 바르비 투르 산염은 진정제 또는 수면제로 처방됩니다. 그러나 더 일반적으로 이러한 수면제는 마취제로만 사용되며 과다 복용시 치명적일 수 있습니다.

최신 약물 은 잠드는 데 걸리는 시간을 줄이는 데 도움이됩니다. 벤조디아제핀과 마찬가지로 뇌의 동일한 수용체에 결합하는 이러한 수면 유도 약물 중 일부에는 Lunesta , Sonata , Ambien이 있습니다. 그들은 벤조디아제핀보다 습관성을 형성 할 가능성이 다소 적지 만 시간이 지남에 따라 여전히 때때로 신체적 의존을 유발할 수 있습니다. 그들은 졸음과 수면을 증가시키기 위해 빠르게 일할 수 있습니다. Rozerem 이라는 또 다른 수면 보조제 는 멜라토닌이라는 뇌 호르몬에 영향을 주어 다른 수면제와 다르게 작용하며 습관을 형성하지 않습니다. Belsomra는 오렉신 이라는 뇌 화학 물질에 영향을 미치는 또 다른 독특한 수면 보조제입니다., 중독성 또는 습관성이 아닙니다. 습관을 형성하지 않는 또 다른 수면제 인 Silenor는 삼환계 항우울제 독 세핀의 저용량 형태입니다.

┗一一一一一一一一一一一一一一一一一一一一一一一┛

졸피뎀,졸피뎀 구입,졸피뎀 구매,졸피뎀 판매,졸피뎀 효과,졸피뎀 가격,졸피뎀 성분,졸피뎀 팝니다,졸피뎀 구입방법,졸피뎀 구매방법,졸피뎀 효능,졸피뎀 부작용,졸피뎀 재료,졸피뎀 후기,졸피뎀 처방전,졸피뎀 직거래,졸피뎀 사용법,졸피뎀 이용방법,졸피뎀 복용법,졸피뎀 정품판매,졸피뎀 판매처,졸피뎀 구입처,졸피뎀 파는곳,졸피뎀 구매처,졸피뎀 종류,졸피뎀 판매사이트,졸피뎀 구매대행

We've had a couple of interesting weeks in case you haven't heard. To make a very long story short....here are the basics: Tim biking Sunday before last, runs head-on into a coyote and goes flying through the air, helmet on and head splits open, ER, concussion and 8 staples in head - missing 8 hours of that day......on to this past week, he felt dizzy at work, thought it was too much coffee, by Friday night thought it might be flu, Saturday AM threw up, speech slurred, shaking started......got in car to head back to ER and smashed the mailman's car that just happened to be parked up by our door (wasn't there when we walked to the car - bad timing!), admitted to ER, CAT scan and blood work, sodium/potassium are way out of balance, they tell Tim to go home and eat salty pretzels (terrible advice!), he said he wasn't comfortable with that, they admitted him for observation.....he then has a grand mal seizure, now we're in CCU where they tell me a person with that low sodium may have permanent brain damage. He is then restrained and given valium and Ativan to calm the mind so the high dose sodium can take effect, no visitors are allowed, they want to send him to GR, GR says keep him in place and continue what they've been doing. Numbers start coming up and the "real" Tim starts to come back................................ he was released this morning, but is not 100%. Have to let the big drugs get out of his system and he's missing many big chunks of time (all last Sunday and most of this past Saturday and Sunday................thinking it would make a good movie, with hopefully a happy ending....think we're just about there. www.andiesisle.com/GoD_and_DoG.html

According to Nurse Mary, he had a hard time falling asleep today. So they gave him ativan to help him get some much needed rest.

I found this intriguing note taped to the interior of a cabinet door in the dental area of Michael Reese Hospital. Is this the cocktail that the doctors needed before beginning work every morning? I can hear it now, "Okay, Karen - when you get in in the morning, you'll need to prepare the doctor's medication. Dr. Zager needs one bottle of Ativan, 8 milligrams of Dexam, 20 cc of Brevital, and sometimes he likes to wash it down with some valium, so have that ready too."

Benzos: Is This the World's Deadliest Pill?

Some say it's not opiate painkillers like Oxy, Norco and Vicodin, but drugs like Ativan, Xanax and Klonopin. And doctors are doling it out like candy, causing a surge of hellish withdrawals, overdoses and deaths.

You could argue that the most dangerous “drug” in the world is the venom from a jellyfish known as the Sea Wasp, whose sting can kill a human being in four minutes—up to 100 humans at a time. Potassium chloride, which is used to trigger cardiac arrest and death in the 38 states of the U.S. that enforce the death penalty is also pretty deadly . But when it comes to prescription drugs that are not only able to kill you but can drag out the final reckoning for years on end, with worsening misery at every step of the way, it is hard to top the benzodiazepines. And no "benzo" has been more lethal to millions of Americans than a popular prescription drug called Klonopin.

Klonopin is the brand name for the pill known as clonazepam, which was originally brought to market in 1975 as a medication for epileptic seizures.

When benzodiazepines first came to market in the 1950s and 1960s, they were prescribed for a range of neurological disorders such as epilepsy as well as anxiety related disorders such as insomnia. But over time, a loophole in federal drug-control laws known as the “practice of medicine exception” has permitted psychiatrists and other physicians to prescribe the drugs for any perceived disorder or symptom imaginable, from panic attacks to weight control problems.

Unlike antidepressants, which can take several weeks to take full effect, benzodiazepines go to work right away. That makes them a valuable tool to help people who have severe, crippling anxiety. But their downsides appear rapidly as well.

Prescription numbers have been falling, but it’s a slow process.

The fact that a sudden and precipitous drop hasn't been there is possibly due to the fact that doctors know that people can die from benzodiazepine withdrawal if they’re abruptly discontinued.

Patients should always ask a doctors how to manage a condition like anxiety without drugs first.

As with every medicine, they should be used at the lowest dose for only as long as they’re needed. For chronic conditions, one should talk to their doctors about what’s the long-term goal and ask questions such as: What’s the point of taking the medication? What are the risks and benefits? What else could the patient use other than that medication?

Benzos: Is This the World's Deadliest Pill?

Some say it's not opiate painkillers like Oxy, Norco and Vicodin, but drugs like Ativan, Xanax and Klonopin. And doctors are doling it out like candy, causing a surge of hellish withdrawals, overdoses and deaths.

You could argue that the most dangerous “drug” in the world is the venom from a jellyfish known as the Sea Wasp, whose sting can kill a human being in four minutes—up to 100 humans at a time. Potassium chloride, which is used to trigger cardiac arrest and death in the 38 states of the U.S. that enforce the death penalty is also pretty deadly . But when it comes to prescription drugs that are not only able to kill you but can drag out the final reckoning for years on end, with worsening misery at every step of the way, it is hard to top the benzodiazepines. And no "benzo" has been more lethal to millions of Americans than a popular prescription drug called Klonopin.

Klonopin is the brand name for the pill known as clonazepam, which was originally brought to market in 1975 as a medication for epileptic seizures.

When benzodiazepines first came to market in the 1950s and 1960s, they were prescribed for a range of neurological disorders such as epilepsy as well as anxiety related disorders such as insomnia. But over time, a loophole in federal drug-control laws known as the “practice of medicine exception” has permitted psychiatrists and other physicians to prescribe the drugs for any perceived disorder or symptom imaginable, from panic attacks to weight control problems.

Unlike antidepressants, which can take several weeks to take full effect, benzodiazepines go to work right away. That makes them a valuable tool to help people who have severe, crippling anxiety. But their downsides appear rapidly as well.

Prescription numbers have been falling, but it’s a slow process.

The fact that a sudden and precipitous drop hasn't been there is possibly due to the fact that doctors know that people can die from benzodiazepine withdrawal if they’re abruptly discontinued.

Patients should always ask a doctors how to manage a condition like anxiety without drugs first.

As with every medicine, they should be used at the lowest dose for only as long as they’re needed. For chronic conditions, one should talk to their doctors about what’s the long-term goal and ask questions such as: What’s the point of taking the medication? What are the risks and benefits? What else could the patient use other than that medication?

Ted Leo & The Pharmacists, live at the Grog Shop, Cleveland, Ohio

Ted Leo and The Pharmacists Set List 03.12.10

1. Heart Problems

2. Mourning in America

3. The Mighty Sparrow

4. Me and Mia

5. The One Who Got Us Out

6. Ativan Eyes

7. Even Heroes Have to Die

8. The Stick

9. Where Have All the Rude Boys Gone

10. Counting Down

11. Little Dawn

12. Colleen

13. Bottled in Cork

14. The High Party

15. Dirty Deeds (AC/DC Cover with fan on vocals)

16. Where Was My Brain

17. Last Days

Encore:

18. Keep on Pushing (Curtis Mayfield and The Impressions Cover) (Ted Leo solo electric)

19. Timorous Me

20. Some Beginner’s Mind

21. Angelf*ck (Misfits cover)

(View All Sizes)

7/16/10 Just got the call that my little platelets have cheered up - they're above 100,000 - so chemo on Monday 7/19. Seriously mixed emotions - the chemo is for my own good & seems to help, but I f*king hate it. Actually the chemo itself isn't bad, once they get the IV in, it's the following week of after-effects. Time to start the Ativan again to subdue the anxiety.

***************************************************************************************

7/12/10 My legs look like they're covered with flea bites or a rash, but they don't itch or sting. It's just another fun side effect, besides the hair thinning and numb finger tips & toes, called petechiae (pa-TEE-kee-eye).

PETECHIAE: Small red spots on the skin caused by the breakage of small blood vessels (capillaries) beneath the skin.... With lung cancer, petechiae may be a sign of a low platelet count (thrombocytopenia) due to chemotherapy

From: lungcancer.about.com

That's the low platelets that put off my next chemo till maybe next week, if my platelets cheer up. (Cheer up, because they’re low, get it?)

I was having some yucky thought and feelings when I sat down to do some of my work for school. I am in the state of mind where no matter what the task, it seems so extremely large and overwhelming that I can't possibly even look at it... never mind do it.

So, at that, I got some ativan so I didn't freak out, tried to chill out and then realized I should paint. I haven't done it in a while and I know I need to because I've been craving it. I feel like whatever issues I'm dealing with at any given moment, my unconscious lets me know what type of art to use in order to get through it all. Does that make sense?

It was relaxing and it was interesting, as the finish product came out of no where. Usually when I start a painting I'll at least have something in mind, but not this time. I think it came out pretty cool, but I'll have to take a look at it tomorrow to really see what I feel about it.

With that, I need to pass out and avoid my schoolwork for yet another day.

XO

T

sedatives + intubation = frustration

Wellbutrin XL 300mg and Ativan .5mg

I insisted that my primary oncologist do this one--I discovered that he's much faster than the office's nurse practitioner.

**To those who know me, don't worry (but pity is always welcome)--this is just a routine check done every few months to make sure all is well.**

The slide smears are from the bone marrow aspirate and the small jar contains the marrow core in formalin. If you hold the slides just so, you can make out minute, shimmering bone shards.

Note the torn pillow in the background. If they want to keep those in one piece, they should revert to leather straps or sticks between the teeth.

**To those who know me, don't worry (but pity is always welcome)--this is just a routine check done every few months to make sure all is well.**

this bm finds us back at the hospital again, since last Thursday, for a second emergency surgery, a complication that arose from the first one three weeks ago.

all i can really say is

thank you for the surgeon who saved his life, now twice.

thank you to the nurses who are truly on the front lines on a daily basis.

thank you to the acupuncturists who have come in to help ease the side effects.

thank you to the hospital for having a policy that allows them to do so.

thank you for the Ativan that has allowed him to sleep so DEEPLY for the past hour, for the first time (hopefull) totally hiccup-free in what....3 days?

thank you for the friend who drove the boys down here to be with us for a little while today, taking me away with them for awhile to get lunch.

taking a few moments to myself to soak in the first truly warm, breezy, evening sunshine since we've been back down here.

outtake here.