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western nevada
autumn 1975
manzanitas
part of an archival project, featuring the photographs of nick dewolf
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cambridge, massachusetts
fall 1975
dance rehearsal
part of an archival project, featuring the photographs of nick dewolf
© the Nick DeWolf Foundation
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LOLA Day 74
October 19, 2014
Little dude and I had a great day! Confession time. I was terrified of being a single parent. Doing everything by myself and not sure if I had what it takes. Based on advice from my doctor I've tried my best to maintain my composure and emotions around E. In the beginning (funny that I'm calling it the beginning when really it was the end of my marriage) in June it was hard not to ugly cry. I only did it a few times in front of him and he would look at me with so much love and concern and hug me, which of course made me cry more. The last few months have been much better for this. But I know I was in a fog, the world drained of color and as much as I was fully functioning I was not fully present. Suddenly the sun is breaking through and the color is retuning and my baby is a little boy. Suddenly he seems so much older, his vocabulary larger, his understanding of the world expanded. Did this happen over the last few months? When did it happen? All I know is that I am much more present now. I'm aware of how amazing he is and is growing physically and mentally by leaps and bounds. I used to worry about weekends and how I would handle it, but this weekend was great. I'm starting to see the world of possibility and opportunity that is waiting for us. We just need to hold hands, step forward and go for it.
I also believing the passing of time has allowed him to get used to Daddy not always being here like he used and that he has his own house. It's no big deal, just the way things are.
Another confession is that even though I try to stay positive and focus on letting go, forgiving and moving forward I have my days where I wonder what went wrong. Why did this happen? Did he ever love me? Why did we get married? How come we weren't enough for him? Then I quickly send those thoughts packing. Today though I realized no matter what, we will both be E's parents. he doesn't care what happened or why, he just wants to know he is loved. This we can do. People wonder why I am being as amicable as I have been. 1. I'm miss nice girl 2. I don't do angry well 3. this is our life now I may as well embrace it rather than fight it. I want E to never feel awkward about his parents being in the same room together, know that we can do things together and have fun and it is okay. I know this in itself will have its own emotional rollercoaster, but its what I hope for.
Photo - E's blanket all nice and warm, right out of the dryer. Right after I snapped this pic I got, "No Mom, Eatie's blankie."
aspen, colorado
fall 1975
"amateur night" at the aspen inn club
part of an archival project, featuring the photographs of nick dewolf
© the Nick DeWolf Foundation
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from the airplane window
autumn 1975
over the rocky mountains
DEN to ASE
part of an archival project, featuring the photographs of nick dewolf
© the Nick DeWolf Foundation
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I don't have time today because I'm going to work in 2 hours and I still have some work to do at home. So I'm gonna post these two silly faces playing around when I was shooting a day ago, I believe haha.
aspen, colorado
october 1975
halloween costume party
part of an archival project, featuring the photographs of nick dewolf
© the Nick DeWolf Foundation
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san diego, california
fall 1975
crowned crane
san diego zoo
part of an archival project, featuring the photographs of nick dewolf
© the Nick DeWolf Foundation
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There seems to be only light snow on the hills over Larne and ice on the causeway as 74 "River Lagan" approaches Magheramourne with the 12.15 Larne Harbour - Belfast York Road. There look to be two containers on the back - probably with parcels off the Stranraer steamer.
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cambridge, massachusetts
fall 1975
dance rehearsal
part of an archival project, featuring the photographs of nick dewolf
© the Nick DeWolf Foundation
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irvine, california
fall 1975
ostrich
lion country safari
african wildlife preserve
part of an archival project, featuring the photographs of nick dewolf
© the Nick DeWolf Foundation
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cambridge, massachusetts
fall 1975
dance rehearsal
part of an archival project, featuring the photographs of nick dewolf
© the Nick DeWolf Foundation
Image-use requests are welcome via flickrmail or nickdewolfphotoarchive [at] gmail [dot] com
san diego, california
fall 1975
peacock
san diego zoo
part of an archival project, featuring the photographs of nick dewolf
© the Nick DeWolf Foundation
Image-use requests are welcome via flickrmail or nickdewolfphotoarchive [at] gmail [dot] com
Estoy muy triste y me siento más desgraciado de lo que puedo decir, y no sé hasta dónde he llegado. No sé qué hacer ni qué pensar, pero deseo vehementemente dejar esta situación atras. . . Siento tanta tristeza.
Vincent Van Gogh y yo!