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Selfreflection on a car in Amsterdam. Taken with my HTC Desire using the Camera360 Android app.
I've spent the last 2 months working way too much, using up all my energy and positive thoughts, now I'm just an empty shell that does nothing else but wake up, bike to the office, spend a harsh day filled with activities that require my full attention and focus, even though they don't deserve them, and that force me to erase any and all traces of a (social) life. All I get in return is more harshness, unreasonable demands, expectations as high as the freakin' Twin Towers (when they were still standing, obviously :) and little 'mistakes' at the accounting department that ensure that I'm not even getting paid a cent for having worked every freakin' Friday, my usual day off, since the beginning of February.
This is not a situation that I would wish on anybody, least of all myself, but that's what I wake up to every day, and every day I need to muster all my spirit and positivity just to make it out of bed and to work without crying like a wee little baby, needless to say that there is nothing left to put into taking pictures or spending quality time with my (Interwebs) friends, so as of now I will only post one picture a day, instead of the usual 3, until I won't even have the resources left to achieve that, hopefully that's not gonna happen, I am addicted to this shizzle :)
The good part is that soon I won't have enough energy to complain about my situation anymore, so you should not see too many of these cry-baby posts in the future, lol :D
Have a relaxed weekend!
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Selfreflection in a bar in Amsterdam last night. Taken with my HTC Desire using the Camera360 Android app.
Last night I went to a bar with some colleagues after work and as almost always when I go out, I ended up drinking too much and spend a great evening with lots of laughter, beer, smokes and a delirious madman bike-ride through the seemingly ever-shifting and itself rearranging landscape of an Amsterdam night, oh what fun! Now my head hurts, my stomache is grumbling and I'm even too tired and hungover to drag my limp body into the shower for a refreshing wake-up wash, so if you are in the area, maybe you could climb up to my Penthouse and give me a push and a shove in the general direction of the bathroom, thank you very much :D
Have an wicked weekend, the sun is shining!
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...a mirror in her hand
like the half full moon
but,
not the full moon
look inside the mirror,
it reflects
the viewer
SHE`s near,
but
not the mirror
Photo captured via Minolta MD Zoom Rokkor-X 75-200mm f4.5 lens at Garrapata State Park in Big Sur. Monterey County. Late October 2013.
Photo captured alongside U.S. Highway 101, the Redwood Highway, at post-mile marker 8.15. Mendocino County. Late May 2013.
Photo captured on U.S. Highway 395--the portion of U.S. 395 co-signed with California Highway 299--in the city of Alturas. Modoc County. "State of Jefferson." Late March 2013.
There are many times we need to simply just get away; we need to separate ourselves from whatever situation takes place during that particular moment in time. Doing such allows ourselves to the achievements of following methods: appreciating, reflecting, visualizing, improving and staying committed to life. I am no stranger to hard times, on a mental and fiscal level, but through the storm, there shines a rainbow on the other side of the clouds that shall and will grant us infinite moments of pure bliss. Photo captured via ND-8 Filter from Trinidad State Beach in the city of Trinidad. Humboldt County. Early October 2013.
What a wacky special edition, and by "wacky" I mean a bit dull really. Nice shade of green, though. It turns out that there were also Pink Floyd and Bon Jovi special editions as well. The logo is from the Voodoo Lounge album and tour of 1995. So this car has lasted 14 years and is still in fair nick.
Photo of Luffenholtz Beach, looking toward Trinidad and Trinidad Head captured via Nikon 50mm f/1.8 D AF Nikkor lens and in the census-designated place of Westhaven-Moonstone via Scenic Drive, County Road 4M310. Humboldt County. Mid October 2013.
Photo captured via the HDR method of photography along the North Coast in Humboldt County in Trinidad. Late November 2012.
Photo captured via Minolta MD Zoom Rokkor-X 75-200mm f/4.5 lens at a sheep ranch in the town of Orick. Humboldt County. Early December 2013.
Selfreflection, shot in Amsterdam. Taken with my HTC Desire using the Camera360 Android app.
One more week, and I'm back to working 4 days instead of 5, after 3 1/2 harsh, superbusy and extremely stressful months, pheeeeeeew! I've been looking forward to this more and more desperately over the weeks, telling myself 'Hang in there some, just a few more weeks, you can do it!', but it was getting harder and harder to believe myself, all the energy burned up, the futile attempts to keep myself positively motivated by reminding myself of the good things going on in my life often failing, resulting in a tired blur of images of me at work instead of me out there shooting puddles, or just chillaxing on my beloved balcony. Now all I have to do is to somehow finish this horrible week of late shifts, and finally I will regain some much needed rest, relaxation and quality of life, I feel lucky, blessed and grateful that I can afford laziness back into my world :)
Have a nice, relaxed weekend, take it easy :)
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Everybody enjoys to see their reflection, including this jumping spider! Note the thin strand protruding from the abdomen and sticking to the wooden frame of the mirror. This is the strand that jumpers use for safety... Should they fall down or miss without reaching their jumping target, they can always retrace their path in reverse gear by pulling this strand!
Sit back, relax and allow the inner workings of life to ease all your tensions. Life is indeed a wonderful entity--an entity often most times receive under-appreciated. Photo of Lagoon Creek captured off U.S. Highway 101, the Redwood Highway, in the town of Klamath. Del Norte County. Redwood National Park. "State of Jefferson." Early August 2013.
There are many times we need to simply just get away; we need to separate ourselves from whatever situation takes place during that particular moment in time. Doing such allows ourselves to the achievements of following methods: appreciating, reflecting, visualizing, improving and staying committed to life. I am no stranger to hard times, on a mental and fiscal level, but through the storm, there shines a rainbow on the other side of the clouds that shall and will grant us infinite moments of pure bliss. Photo captured from Trinidad State Beach in the city of Trinidad. Humboldt County. Early October 2013.
Photo looking toward Arcata Bay, the northern portion of Humboldt Bay, captured via Minolta MD Celtic 28mm f/2.8 Lens near the census-designated place of Samoa. Humboldt County. Early November 2013.
Slightly edited shot of myself reflected in Amsterdam. Taken with my HTC Desire.
Thank God it's Friday!!! I'm so freakin' tired but also extremely happy, it's been a tough week and I feel privileged that I can already enjoy the sweet fruits of my favorite time, the weekend, the magic time where all work is forgotten and all the fun comes out of its hiding place. I know, I sound like a lazy slob, but that's only because I am! I can't help it, I'm suffering from a severe case of a genetically inferior structure, that forces me to stay home whenever possible, filling the Interwebs with things nobody needs, just so that I don't have to go to the office and make some anonymous rich fat cat somewhere on the planet even fatter and richer, because let's be honest, it's bad for your Karma to accumulate material things for no obvious reason, so I'm really just doing my share to assist the aforementioned anonymous rich bastard dude/dudette in avoiding having to go through endless cycles of death, rebirth, death, rebirth, etc, which makes me a good guy, and my own Karma shine like a polished diamond, lol ;D
Photo looking towards Trinidad Head and the Trinidad Lighthouse active captured via ND-8 Filter from Clam Beach County Park. Humboldt County. Late March 2013.
Photo captured via Minolta MD Zoom Rokkor-X 75-200mm f/4.5 lens from Samoa Beach in the census-designated place of Samoa. Humboldt County. Late December 2013.
Selfreflection in a bar in Amsterdam last night. Taken with my HTC Desire using the Camera360 Android app.
Last night I went to a bar with some colleagues after work and as almost always when I go out, I ended up drinking too much and spend a great evening with lots of laughter, beer, smokes and a delirious madman bike-ride through the seemingly ever-shifting and itself rearranging landscape of an Amsterdam night, oh what fun! Now my head hurts, my stomache is grumbling and I'm even too tired and hungover to drag my limp body into the shower for a refreshing wake-up wash, so if you are in the area, maybe you could climb up to my Penthouse and give me a push and a shove in the general direction of the bathroom, thank you very much :D
Have an wicked weekend, the sun is shining!
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Photo captured via Minolta MD Zoom Rokkor-X 75-200mm f/4.5 lens at Mattole River Beach on the Lost Coast. Humboldt County. Late November 2013.
Photo of the Eel River Railroad Bridge and Eel River captured from Dyerville Bar off of Avenue of the Giants. Humboldt County. Late May 2013.
Photo captured alongside the El Sur Ranch on the Old Coast Road looking towards the Pacific Ocean and Highway 1 in Big Sur. Monterey County. Mid April 2013.
June 5, 2022: If I actually complete this #post, it will mark the 1st #time in a long time since I’ve done this 5 days in a row. Right now, I’m #struggling with completing even the simplest of things, & outside of these daily #selfies, I’ve steered away from moments of #SelfReflection. For example, I can’t remember the last time I did #MorningPages #journaling, & I’ve also avoided moments where I’d have to see myself in a #mirror. My #relationship with myself has always had a tension of #distrust, of not liking who I see in the mirror.
In 2020, I made a post about purchasing a handheld mirror that I planned to use for #EyeGazing #exercises related to #HoOponopono, as well as repeating #affirmations & other #mantras to reframe how I view myself. My desire to do that ran parallel with my desire to do this #selfie project everyday. It was supposed to #help, not #hinder my progress. But like so many things in my life, I start, but don’t follow through.
My distrust hasn’t just impacted seeing myself in a mirror, or taking selfies; it’s also spilled into a fear of being in photos with family & friends. When I should embrace chances to #capture happy #memories I get stuck worrying about whether or not I look good, or wondering when this amateur photo session would be over. I’d suck in my gut & hold my breath while faking a #smile… & let’s not talk about how anxious I get when these photos get uploaded to #SocialMedia.
I’ve said this before but I’d like to improve my #relationship with myself. I’d love to be able to see myself & say, “hey, you’re pretty cool.” A few days ago I lamented about losing people because they choose to cut me out of their lives & I don’t know why. But I do know that their desire to avoid me mirrors my own desire to avoid me. If I want to break this cycle, I need to cultivate an #unconditional sense of #compassion, #curiosity, #foregiveness, gratitude, love, & reverence for all life STARTING WITH MYSELF.
My friend @ahhlanna96 reminded me Friday about the self-portrait I created last month with all the positive things others said about who I am. She told me to look at that more often so I can start believing in who I am.
156/365.