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We can all count ourselves "the lucky ones...." to have experienced love at sometime in our lives. It fit like a perfectly tailored suit knowing what to emphasize and more importantly what NOT to. It was everything. It brought joy, those warm contented feelings of a comfortable love where as we wake each day we knew someone is there to walk with us, care about us, and share with us. It created and played out those Hallmark moments we grew up with. It even transformed some of us. We became full of pride, of place and how we fit into the larger scheme of things as expressed by our media and genetics. Love brought with it the amazing adventures and self exploration of our lustfull side. That secret taboo tucked away part we rarely share with anyone we knew. It was easier to explore it with a one night fling or fuck buddy because who cared what they thought. It was about you. Yet love allowed us to share that part of us and explore it and not worry about what the other thought. Ahhh, Love is Great! But love has a much more darker side that is rarely discussed. That part of it provided by the mere physics of nature and balance; what goes up must come down; to have happiness you have to have experienced ............. you know what Im saying. Love also brings with it a total bewilderment, a loss, devastation and ache like no other when it bids you adieu. One so big and overwhelming you just want to die because you cant imagine going on. No one ........... and I mean NO ONE .... prepares you for that part. Its kept like some dirty little family secret tucked away and never discussed. Is it some f@*ked up crazy form of initiation that society allows us to fall in love but will not tell you that the fall out of love could possibly drive you mad or kill you? Come on.........me, Mr Conservative would have thought at least twice before I jumped in with both feet. I would have jumped in anyway who am I kidding Lol ! But if youre one of the lucky ones to have survived the fall into AND out of love ....... when you least expected it to .............. and the passage of time has eased the pain, hurt, and loss and erased the resentment you once seethed with then count yourself lucky.......thats right Lucky! Call me a fool for love but I would do it all over again and again and again. My love was Paul and when I rose each day with him by my side I ruled my world. Kindness was not a virtue but mandatory in all aspects of life and I honestly was a better person not because of him but because I was with him. Will I find that again? Not a chance! I'll find other loves Im sure of it. But Paul had a special quality ...... an aura of almost magic ...........that I still cant name or put my finger on. Yet, when it illuminated my life, even after the parting of ways, through that whole messy wonderful experience called Love ........it made me find me and who I was in this journey called Life. Thank you Paul.
Slightly edited selfreflection on my sunglasses in Amsterdam. Taken with my HTC Desire using the Camera360 Android app.
I like sunny days, I think most of us do, but unlike most of us, I don't really like staying in the direct sunlight, I prefer a shady spot from where I can see the fearless sunbathers, offering their medium-rare bodies to the yellow, burning Overlord in the sky, that lately only graces us so seldom with its presence, and I think to myself 'Hmmm, I wonder if those people are made out of Teflon', because I could never do that, even if it wasn't seriously bad for your health, I just overheat too easily. So if you see a bald dude sitting in the shadow, smiling at you while sipping on his cold drink, that's probably me, studying your molecular structur for any visible traces of (C2F4)n (yes, that's the molecular formula of Teflon, hehe) shining through your skin-layers...or you're just a hot chick and I'm checking you out...sorry about that, lol ;D
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Selfreflection on a car in Amsterdam. Taken with my HTC Desire using the Camera360 Android app.
I've spent the last 2 months working way too much, using up all my energy and positive thoughts, now I'm just an empty shell that does nothing else but wake up, bike to the office, spend a harsh day filled with activities that require my full attention and focus, even though they don't deserve them, and that force me to erase any and all traces of a (social) life. All I get in return is more harshness, unreasonable demands, expectations as high as the freakin' Twin Towers (when they were still standing, obviously :) and little 'mistakes' at the accounting department that ensure that I'm not even getting paid a cent for having worked every freakin' Friday, my usual day off, since the beginning of February.
This is not a situation that I would wish on anybody, least of all myself, but that's what I wake up to every day, and every day I need to muster all my spirit and positivity just to make it out of bed and to work without crying like a wee little baby, needless to say that there is nothing left to put into taking pictures or spending quality time with my (Interwebs) friends, so as of now I will only post one picture a day, instead of the usual 3, until I won't even have the resources left to achieve that, hopefully that's not gonna happen, I am addicted to this shizzle :)
The good part is that soon I won't have enough energy to complain about my situation anymore, so you should not see too many of these cry-baby posts in the future, lol :D
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Photo captured at a cattle ranch alongside Old Samoa Road. City of Arcata. Humboldt County. Late August 2013.
Photo captured via Minolta MD Celtic 28mm f/2.8 Lens from Samoa Beach in the census-designated place of Samoa. Humboldt County. Late November 2013.
Photo of the Santa Lucia Mountains Range taken on the Old Coast Road, more or less parallel to Highway 1 (the Cabrillo Highway), on the vast El Sur Ranch property in Big Sur. Monterey County. Early July 2012.
Jopenkerk Haarlem
Fotografie: Sitan van Sluis
Model: Hiske Eriks
Licht: Martijn Laarhoven
Make-up: Susan
Photo captured via Nikon 50mm f/1.8 D AF Nikkor lens (~f/22) from Trinidad State Beach in the city of Trinidad. Humboldt County. Mid September 2013.
Photo captured a few miles east of the city of Arcata on California Highway 299. Humboldt County. Late November 2012.
a webcam pic of me from 2003 after i performed in the woods with butoh dancers near seattle. my cam here: www.shannonkringen.com/kringcam.htm
Wide manual lenses are crazy hard to focus in the dark, with no focusing screen, on a meek weak 550D Canon. Have I done the S-M-C Takumar 28mm f/3.5 injustice (rhetoric answer is yes)?
Photo looking towards Trinidad Head captured via the HDR method of photography from the Vista Point on U.S. Highway 101 in McKinleyville. Humboldt County. Late January 2013.
Photo of the South Fork Eel River captured alongside U.S. 101, the Redwood Highway, just north of the Richardson Redwood Grove at Richardson Grove State Park via Nikon 50mm f/1.8 D AF Nikkor lens. Humboldt County. Early November 2013.
There are many times we need to simply just get away; we need to separate ourselves from whatever situation takes place during that particular moment in time. Doing such allows ourselves to the achievements of following methods: appreciating, reflecting, visualizing, improving and staying committed to life. I am no stranger to hard times, on a mental and fiscal level, but through the storm, there shines a rainbow on the other side of the clouds that shall and will grant us infinite moments of pure bliss. Photo captured from Trinidad State Beach in the city of Trinidad. Humboldt County. Early October 2013.
Today I am 40 years old. A milestone like that brings out a lot of feelings. Who am I? How the hell did I get to where I am today? Where do I go from here? My new project will attempt to answer that. This series, Childhood Memories, will consist of the places, people, and events from my life that have made me who I am. I am doing this for self discovery. I hope other people enjoy it too, but it will be fine if they don't. I decided to make this photo the first one in the series. From there I will post with no set schedule and in no particular order. More like "stream of consciousness" as things come to me.
So this is where it all began for me. My grandparent's home. My home from the time I was 2 years old until I finally got my own place with friends at 23. Even then, this was still home. I haven't lived here for nearly 20 years, but it is still home. We lost grandpa back in 2003, but his presence is still here.
Grandma is alone now in this house full of memories. After 63 years here, she says she must leave. My aunt (her daughter) and uncle have made her an offer she can't refuse, to live with them. She will be cared for, close to family, life simplified. A house is just a material thing. I understand. Still letting go is so hard. The two most important people in my life, giants in my eyes, my heroes, the greatest of the greatest generation - my grandparents took this house, this mere material thing and turned it into the greatest home anyone could ever hope to live in. My father, aunt, and uncles were all raised here. Then I came along. Barely two years old, given a second chance to have a normal childhood by grandparents nearing retirement who had already raised four children. My childhood was epic, the stuff of legend because of them.
I have told my family that I will never set foot in my hometown again. They say "aww, you don't mean that". I do. I cannot bear to see another family living in our home. Grandma says, "don't you want to see what the new owners do with the place?" No! I want to remember it just how it is. Nothing anyone can do to it could make it better. They can only mess it up. I am so lucky to still have my grandmother and I will be glad to have her near me and well taken care of, but I just want this painful transitional period over with. I guess I'm just too sentimental.
Photo captured via Nikon 50mm f/1.8 D AF Nikkor lens from Samoa Beach in the census-designated place of Samoa. Humboldt County. Early October 2013.
Photo captured at a sheep ranch, with a hint of Redwood National Park in the background, in the town of Orick. Humboldt County. Early May 2013.
Photo of drift wood and an old rusted buoy captured near the decommissioned Punta Gorda Lighthouse via Minolta MD Celtic 28mm f/2.8 Lens at Mattole River Beach on the Lost Coast. Humboldt County. Late November 2013.
Photo of Steamboat Rock captured along the Lost Coast via Mattole Road. Humboldt County. Late May 2013.
Photo of Big Lagoon, looking east, captured on the Big Lagoon Bridge on U.S. Highway 101, the Redwood Highway, in the census-designated place of Big Lagoon. Humboldt County. Early September 2013.
Photo of a redwood grove at Rockefeller Forest: Lower Bull Creek Flat, captured via Minolta MD Celtic 28mm f/2.8 Lens within Humboldt Redwoods State Park. Humboldt County. Late December 2013.
As former president Teddy Roosevelt puts it...behold it is the "Eighth Wonder of the World." The water originates from underground springs above and at the falls. Even during the dry summer months and at 129 feet in height, the water provides an almost constant flow rate of 100 million U.S. gallons / day. Photo of Burney Falls captured via the HDR method of photography from McArthur-Burney Falls Memorial State Park in Shasta County. Northern California. On the last day of 2012.
the tee shirt i made that says ShannonKringen.com ~model~photographer~painter. if you want one let me know! i sell my work
Photo captured via Minolta MD Celtic 28mm f/2.8 Lens at Mattole River Beach on the Lost Coast. Humboldt County. Late November 2013.
The water is wide, I cannot cross o'er
And neither have I wings to fly
Give me a boat that can carry two
And both shall row, my love and I
~traditional folk song
I used to sing that with my vocal group in high school. Loved it ever since. Perhaps the most beautiful version here by Hayley Westenra.
Yes that is snow in my hair. Very cold and moody day at the beach overlooking Lake Michigan.
Day 50
Best seen Large!
For the FGR 'Self Reflection' Challenge (for group of same name).
I guess this is a photo about fear and about the things 'that are out to get you'. And seeing as I built this dark fantasy, I re-conclude the biggest enemy lies within your mind's ability to create things imagined that make you tremble fearfully (but most of which never come to pass - knock on wood!).
Texture by ghostbones. Blood from dark dragon. Many thanks to you both.
A note on shooting it: Man, was it hard to twist so that you got my reflection in that metal ring but did't see the camera (in my other hand). Bathercise!
Edit: Just saw the film 'What lies beneath' - had no idea how much of a homage to that film this could be!
#84 of the 365day challenge. prepping 4 www.burningman.com mentally...with some free form face paint...