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From November 2, 2021: Feeling #high as a #kite, lighter than air. All because of one amazing #person who, if they see this, knows who they are.

I know #true #happiness has to come from within though, but another person can always compliment that, and even help it maintain #altitude or fly even #higher.

306/365.

This post was first published on Instagram.

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Quote by Mary Katherine Backstrom

"I love when somebody says about a woman, 'Oh, she's too much. She's too much for me." Too much of what? Too much of an opinion? She laughs too loudly? Stands too tall? Takes up too much space? What would be the right amount and not too much? She'd have to be less. That's what you are saying. You're saying BE LESS, if she's too much. You know what I think? I think she should not give a f*ck about what you think about her." ~ Quote by Mary Katherine Backstrom

All the Feels

Oh....does this give me all the feels inside. I have been told a lot of things over my life. That I am too loud, too opinionated, can't Biblically submit to my husband because I'm too "Type A." I have been told that no one will ever take me seriously because I ask questions or because my hair is pink (currently purple).

Over the course of the last 2 years, I have been told that because of those above traits that I am not a good mom and that I shouldn't raise my children. I should quiet down, conform, be SMALL, be LESS THAN, fit in, don't make waves, SHUT UP.

Shrinking

So, that is what I have done. I've stayed home. I have shrunk back, slept alot, eaten alot, cried alot, hid, allowed people to walk all over me, speak to me in ways I would never let them before, and so many other things.

I think when it truly hit me was when I was getting ready to go on a little day trip to see some family.

barefootfaithjourney.com/2021/12/07/quote-by-mary-katheri...

Chocolate Truffle Torte. YUMMY!

Embracing those stretch marks, a reminder of my second pregnancy <3

DAY 1: TAKING THE FIRST STEP

As we begin this month of opening up to seeing ourselves with kindness through our cameras, what are you hoping for?

I went to sleep last night with an optimism that was crushed when I went to White Rock U-Lock to catch up on my storage locker payments. Grey fingerprint like swooshes on my black cane matched the cloudy sky above as I hobbled into their front office. Buried in my pocket, my left hand clenched my debit card & 10 $100 dollar bills. That cash, alongside a debit payment should have settled the debt, unlocking my online access so I could pay for my through year’s end. I greeted a lady at the front desk, explaining why I was there. She looked up my account, but it wasn’t there. Eventually she found 2 closed accounts: 1 for a small locker I had from 2008-‘13; & a larger one I’d had since ‘13.

“What do you mean closed?” I asked, my body beginning to shake with a trembling that flowed from my brain down along my spine & into my body like water being released from a damn. She said that my unit had been emptied on May 30, having been auctioned off earlier in the month. With that, my knees gave way as the soft wail of “No, no, no, no…” escaped my lips, melting into a sobbing as I hit the floor, curling into a kind of fetal position, aching all over, eventually hitting my face with my fists for how stupid I was. Tears stained my face when I realized my glasses had fallen off. As I picked them and myself off the floor I saw the left lens had popped out of the now broken frame. I desperately scanned the floor for the lens & soon found it. I then grabbed my debit card from the counter & pushed the cash towards the people on the other side, each piece taking flight & gently falling towards their desk & floor as I walked out. Fighting back more tears, I shouted out how I’d sue them all as I cobbled back to my SUV.

The last few weeks have been a struggle as I continue to battle my high blood sugar. My right arm has also been so stiff that I’ve had trouble picking things up, with pain trying to even grasp a pen to write. Yesterday, I took my blood sugar readings with a regularity my ADHD would be proud of: 17.6 mmol/L at 7am; 25.2 before lunch; 21.8 after it; 26.6 at 5pm; 13.7 at 8pm when I had dinner; then 18.4 at 10pm; & it’s hovered at 18 all day today. As I sit here looking at my phone, staring down at my legs, I wonder why I keep messing up.

I had been in touch over email with the location’s manager, an Abraham (Abe) Escobar, who for some reason I’ve always pictured as being a portly older gentleman with a big smile, a grey moustache, glasses, slightly balding with grey hair left on the sides & back of his head like a young Patrick Stewart. He was aware of my health issues that have had me at the hospital almost daily since mid-January. My account with them fell into trouble when I was tight on funds earlier this year. So, after 2 missed payments, White Rock U-Lock puts a hold on your access to their website payment portal. When I received funds again in April, I pleaded with them to release my online access, which they refused to do (what’s weirder is a demand letter from them sent to me by e-mail said payment could be made online). I clearly noted I was prepared to pay the entire outstanding amount, plus an amount that would carry me forward into next year. My last email to them was in May, the night I was in the hospital after collapsing in front of the police officers due to my blood sugar being over 25 mmol/L. I never got any final notification about my account being closed & my locker being sold. U-Lock has my cell number, my email, and my mailing address. I had received texts from them about paying, but never received any notification or calls that they were going to sell. My last text message from them was February 19, 2024.

I drove to Southpoint Exchange Mall, where I parked & broke down crying. I sent a few short video messages about the situation to a few friends. And I recalled everything I had in the locker: 4 steel shelves full of blank sketchbooks; boxes of unopened Star Wars Lego sets including a Millennium Falcon (which I was saving to build one day with my kid, should I ever be lucky enough to have one); dozens of new canvases of various sizes; an assortment of wood, plastic, and metal pieces saved for future sculptures; some old window frames I intended to use as the surface for future artworks; a tree sculpture made out of metal which I had made in Kent Anderson’s sculpture course (along with my ex-girlfriend’s large metal bird she had made in the same course); an old chair & table I’d used in an art installation; a few dozen election signs from various past elections which I had used in a series of installations in different parks and wanted to play with again one day; various costumes I’d used in performance art; a large Halloween skull; computer parts; tarps; framed photos I’d printed and used in different local art shows; several vintage typewriters I’d used in several installations; several slide projectors; several small monitors for displaying videos in exhibits; as well as styrofoam pieces I’d used in past sculptures (like the giant donut I made one year). I’m probably forgetting a lot, but there was easily over $10,000 worth of items in the locker: the basis for starting & maintaining a studio art career once I finished my degree. All pissed away because of my stroke, my depression, diabetes, and fucked up feet.

What would you love to feel in this experience?

I am desperate to feel positive again. It feels like whenever I get going again something knocks me back down. And having lost so many things this week, things that took me 16 years to collect, feels like I’ve taken a huge punch to my gut. It feels like some vulture swooped in a stole a huge part of my life, a huge part of who I want to be.

Are there certain types of selfies you hope to capture?

I want to continue experimenting with how I look at myself. I find I often get stuck in a sea of negativity. A sea of persistent negative thinking. And that’s reflected in how my selfies and written reflections I end up posting. I keep thinking of all I’ve lost, what was kept? What’s been trashed? Can I get it back?

IT CAN BE POWERFUL TO GIVE VOICE TO WHAT WE'RE NERVOUS OR FEARFUL OF TOO. WHAT FEARS OR WORRIES ARE ON YOUR MIND? By giving them space to be heard and knowing that they might come up again, it can help us begin to diffuse their power over us!

If I drank, I’d probably be doing that right now. But I don’t. All day since leaving the storage office my mind has desired to stuff my face with donuts from Hillcrest Bakery, chocolate bars from Thrifty Foods and London Drugs reached out towards me calling my name: “Steven, Steven - just one bite! Come on dude!” The image of myself in the front seat of my SUV tearing into a Reese Peanut Butter Cup and devouring all three so quickly passed through my mind, alongside the reading on my blood glucose meter ticking up higher and higher. But I resisted.

I don’t know what to do about the locker. A quick Google search revealed that the White Rock U-Lock earned over $4,000 from its auction, for a debt that would have been no more than $1,500. I’m terribly heartbroken, knowing I have to fight this somehow, but also having so much work to do at my place, my Mom’s and for the last few weeks of my condensed art history course. I’m terrified I’m going to fall into flight mode again, a slippery slope into depression that will probably result in me losing everything if I’m not careful.

(274/365).

This was originally posted on my Instagram.

#anxiety #depressed #depression #mentalhealth

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#sick #stroke #strokesurvivor #heartdisease #highbloodpressure #diabetes

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#selflove #selflovejourney #selflove #selfloveisnotselfish

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#feet #heels #scars

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#finearts #student #photography #selfie #subvertedselfies #writing #nonfiction #visualdiary #memoir #beyourownbeloved

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#WhiteRockULock #storage

Jihad!!!

It's okay, I can say that. My dad is Iranian.

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I always opt for Niconi BRAZILIAN WAX. Wby?

Stress, a curse or a boon? Discussing Eustress, Distress, Acute Stress, and Chronic Stress…

Everybody has to deal with stress in everyday situations in today's world. However, we ought to know the basics about stress, its different kinds to be able to deal with them a little better.

What exactly is Stress?

The physical response of the body to a real or imagined threat or danger is known as stress. When you are threatened, your body produces stress hormones that prepare you to react, called a "fight or flight" response. This response is intended to be beneficial. To deal with the threat, our heart rate rises, providing blood and oxygen to our muscles while also increasing our adrenaline levels. It might also take a serious face if the stressor keeps troubling us for a longer time, leading this response to repeat itself. This article dwells on the problematic and beneficial factors of various types of stress.

Eustress

More often than not, the "threat" We discussed above will be viewed as a task to complete in a shorter period. This sort of stress, known as eustress, is neither unpleasant nor harmful to our health. It is the type of stress we feel when starting a new career, getting prepared for a child's birth, or relocating. Our bodies' stress hormones can aid us by motivating us and encouraging us to be more productive and excited. It can benefit our mental health by promoting us to create a positive impact through our successful attempts.

Acute Stress

Acute stress has recurrent impacts on practically everyone at some point or the other in their lives. It has to do with current events and pressures, such as being late for work or forgetting an essential appointment. A small amount of this form of stress might be beneficial, inspiring you to keep going and complete tasks. These small pressures can mount up over time, but by better organizing, your time, taking care of your health, and practising relaxation techniques, you can handle acute stress effectively.

Chronic Stress

Chronic stress is a long-term, persistent state of stress that, if left untreated, can have a significant impact on your health.

Chronic stress has a negative impact on both the mind and the body. It causes both physical and psychological symptoms, which can make it difficult for a person to function regularly in their daily lives. Chronic stress is not always easy to spot. People become so acclimated to it since it is so prevalent and long-lasting that it comes to feel normal.

Distress

Any of these sorts of stress might cause distress if you are unable to cope with it. When you have a lot of acute stress elements, chronic stress from events that you can't change for a long time, or habitual behaviours that cause you to have unpleasant emotional tension regularly, you're in distress. Internal factors, such as stress that is caused by our repetitive thoughts and emotions rather than external factors, have the large potential of producing distress. Internal patterns of fears, phobias, compulsive thought habits, and high demand for perfectionism can all cause us pain.

Concluding Words

Get professional help if your stress is out of control, causing panic attacks, depression, or health difficulties. Therapy can be an essential and beneficial technique in learning to cope with chronic stress sources and prevent being in a distressed condition.

circleofhope.co.in/Blog/Types-of-Stress

feel the soft yummy scent of my hair,hahaha!

Found this in Pinterest today. Just what i needed. #cantstopwontstop #DontgiveUp #fitfam #fitspo #fitness #fitwomen #fitnessquotes #fitnessjourney #fitnessinspiration #gethealthy #healthylifestyle #heathylife #inspire #inspiration #LifestyleChange #motivation #myfitnessjourney #quotes #qotd #success #selflove #successquotes #weightlossquotes #weightlossjourney #weightlossmotivation #weightwatchers #ww - erin_gets_fit

Here I am as an adult engaging in a happy, funny conversation. I like this role

I have a tripod! Who knows how I lived without one for so long? Also, for the next few weeks I have my dad's glorious Canon Rebel DSLR! I hope to do some fun stuff being able to manually expose everything!!

Seraphic Dreams is a therapeutic visual, capturing femininity and the beauty of solivina ~ the radiant essence of self-love. Floating between the realm of dreams and reality, each image drifts on clouds, holding space for the most intimate and vulnerable parts of the self.

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I made these pajama pants years ago, and I still wear them once warm weather starts to creep in.

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Getting a little happy and crazy in between trying on wedding dresses.