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Tears of anguish streaked her face as she gazed into the fractured mirror, her reflection splintered into a mosaic of despair. Each jagged shard captured a fragment of her tormented expression, amplifying the loathing she felt for herself. The cracks in the glass seemed to echo the fissures in her heart, every line a testament to her self-directed hate. Her sobs, raw and unrestrained, filled the room with a palpable sense of desolation. She reached out with trembling hands, touching the sharp edges, as if seeking to connect with the broken image before her. The mirror's cruel distortion reflected not just her face, but the deep-seated contempt and sorrow that had taken root in her soul, turning her own reflection into a haunting reminder of her inner turmoil.
For trishlet
www.flickr.com/photos/trishlet/
I was having a really really rough day today - everybody wants to fight with me: life, photography, ex-friends, even my own chemistry.
I had a huge panic attack on my way to work. I felt overwhelmed with all that had been happening over the past few days - my crippling manic episodes and the impending doom of an inevitable crash.
I got home and was still feeling horrible, but turned the camera onto myself, and I thought of Trishlet and how she inspires me...
This is for you Trish
she a flickr friend who I am going to meet when in Detorit. Her courage in her exploration of her many selves spark the creative motor in me to create and am grateful that she came into my life
52WEEKPROJECT: Week 10
I finally caught up! I think I am getting better. At least I am more happy with my results. This is a self-portrait taken in the garden of my college. Thank you Harry for your help!
I had this image in mind for my A2 Project because I am working on the concept of growing up. However, I think this image goes further this idea. Is about self-hate, repression, inner conflict... I would love to hear your opinion!
Handmade paper on black canvas (60x80 cm).
The paper was more like straw fibers pressed loosely together than any other handmade paper I worked with before.
man vs hanbanero chilli pepper and pepper wins
man this to be one of the worst ideas i've ever had
to give you some idea of how bad it was a jalepeno chilli pepper is 3500-4000 on the Scoville heat scale
but the Hanbanero chilli pepper is 200,000-350,000 on the Scoville heat scale
and man it hurt like a mother #*&$#"!
it burned for about 30 mins and took me about 15 mins before i could even speak
please do not try this at home
just press "L" on your keyboards to share in my pain :(
By the way, that apple was delicious.
I'm thinking i could've taken this with a different angle. dammit.
why do i always think my photos are plain after i upload them?
Do not publish my photos without my permission.
What is the Mother flame? The Mother flame (Kundalini) has been described as coiled energy, white fire or light located at the base-of-the-spine chakra. This white light has to be awakened and raised through each of the chakras. Chakras are spiritual centers of light and energy located along the spinal column that are "gateways" to the "spiritual self."
Raising the Mother flame brings healing and as we heal, we magnetize the light of the Father and experience the divine interchange of energy that occurs between the Father (masculine polarity) and the Mother (feminine polarity). We start to integrate the two polarities.”Energy always follows consciousness…" Because of the purifying action of the Mother flame, care has to be taken in how it is raised. The safest way is through prayer and devotion. The goal is to reunite the light of the Mother with the light of the Father in the heart chakra. When this happens, we give birth to the Christ consciousness. The Divine Mother is our great teacher and guru. As the Mother flame rises, we begin to see the things we need to do and work on. Memories will surface and some will be painful. Healing our psychology is a fundamental step on the spiritual path and it is important to take hold of the hand of the Mother during this time as she gives us the inner guidance and strength to press onward. The blessings we receive from the Mother are endless. One of her primary attributes is to awaken us. As the Mother light rises, our consciousness begins to undergo a profound change. We become illumined. The wisdom of the Mother teaches us better ways of doing things. She helps us to fine-tune our communication skills and to improve our interactions with people. She teaches us to build healthy relationships and to open our eyes to see the needs of others. From her we learn to be more responsible and efficient. She brings harmony and order. All of this is the result of the Mother's energy flowing through us.
What is the ascension? Simply put, the ascension is a spiritual ritual whereby we "victoriously" return to God after passing our spiritual tests and meeting certain requirements. Author Annice Booth says:
Through the flame of the ascension, we become one with our own Higher Self and then with God the Father, our own I AM Presence… The ascended masters say we "ascend daily" and every good work, deed and thought aligns us closer to our Higher Self. Raising the Mother flame must be accompanied by spiritual devotion. If this is not done, the rising flame will activate all kinds of inordinate desires instead of the God qualities and virtues we are seeking.
The Mother flame and the ascension flame are one and the same. The ascension flame is the consciousness of the Mother and the Mother is the white light of the ascension flame. As we raise the Mother flame we begin to weave our spiritual garment of light called the seamless garment. Our seamless garment is woven by our thoughts and feelings and the threads represent our,consciousness. We have to replace our old garment with a new one. If we are prone towards being selfish, then we have to start giving to others. If we are filled with self-hate, then we must replace this with self-love. As we pass our initiations and start to heal we begin to add virtues to our garment of light. Sages and saints are often described as having one or more special virtues. Perhaps it is grace, honor or integrity. Some are called truth bearers and others are praised for being noble and just. Virtues are one of the gifts that come from the Mother. As we weave them into our seamless garment we can truthfully say we are walking the path of Beauty, the path of the Divine Mother and the ascension.
Whether male or female, we each have a masculine and feminine side. Everything in the spiritual and material world dances in a rhythmic flow of male and female energy. The Chinese call this yin (feminine) and yang (masculine). Wholeness requires the balancing of our masculine and feminine sides. The Mother shows us the way to do this. Our feminine side is nurturing, creative, intuitive, sensitive, comforting, caring and patient. She is the healer as well as the teacher. Our masculine side is associated more so with the "law" and as being analytical. He is power, strength, protection and discipline. When we are out of balance we feel chaotic and lack harmony. We are out of sync with the universe and our energy is scattered. We become uncaring and insensitive, abusive, aggressive or passive, indecisive and weak-willed. We become spiritually bankrupt. The Mother (Teacher-Guru) provides the nurturing, guidance and wisdom we need to successfully balance our polarities. One of the ways she does this is by explaining the laws of Father. Sometimes she is required to become the disciplinarian dispensing the discipline that is necessary for balancing to occur. Her overall desire is to liberate and restore us to wholeness. The soul of both man and woman is feminine and Spirit is the masculine side. We have to raise the feminine ray to magnetize the masculine. Until we do this, we will not manifest the fullness of our wholeness.
When we are in deep prayer and communion with God we enter into our inner altar and our "heart of hearts." This sacred place is called the secret chamber of the heart. Mystics speak of seeing a blazing flame, a divine spark within the secret chamber. This spark is also called the threefold flame or the Holy Christ flame and represents the sacred Trinity of Father, Son and Holy Spirit. It has three rays or plumes coming forth from it. The blue ray represents the Father (Power), the yellow ray represents the Son (Wisdom), and the pink ray represents the Holy Spirit (Love). There is a white sphere of the Trinity located at the base of the threefold flame that is a "veritable fount of the Mother Flame." The Ascended Masters have taught us to be sensitive to these plumes and to take notice when one or more are out of balance. Are you throwing your power around? Then the blue plume is out of alignment. If you are not exercising your God given wisdom to the fullest, then the yellow plume needs improvement and if you feel hardness of heart or are unable to give love then it is the pink plume that needs healing. Ideally, all three plumes should be equal in height. A balanced threefold flame is one of the requirements for the ascension.
The Aquarian Age is also the age of the Holy Spirit, the Third Person of the Trinity. The Holy Spirit "conveys the essence of God" throughout our being. This is done through the seven rays. Many of the world religions talk about the seven levels of being or the seven heavens that connect us to the spiritual world. The seven rays come forth from the white light of the Holy Spirit. Each ray contains an aspect of the Christ consciousness and certain healing qualities. Most of us have heard about the gifts of the Holy Spirit. Basically these are: the word of wisdom, the word of knowledge, faith, healing, working of miracles, prophecy, discernment of spirits, diverse kinds of tongues and interpretation of tongues. The Holy Spirit is very mystical and the action of the Holy Spirit manifests in a variety of ways. Mystics say our prayers and thoughts flow in the Holy Spirit. The dove is one of the more well known symbols used to represent the Holy Spirit. The flame of the Holy Spirit is a joyous flame, the soundless sound. It is the music of the spheres, the gentle rain, the foam that moves with the crest of the wave and mingles with the sand. The flame of the Holy Spirit is the fresh, cool air that comes from the mountains at eventide. The flame of the Holy Spirit is the love that burns within your heart when you meet a kindred soul along life's way and when you see the beauty of a child or a devotee kneeling in prayer. It is flame of Christ-illumination that fires the mind – that sparks creative thought and gives will to the imagination. The Holy Spirit is the presence of the Father adorned by the love of the Mother nourishing Life in the newborn child. Known also as the Holy Ghost, Holy Comforter or Heavenly Comforter, the Holy Spirit can be gentle or mighty depending on the occasion and to encounter the Holy Spirit is not only purifying but also a spiritually transforming experience. According to the Ascended Masters, when we unlock the energy of the Mother it opens the door for the Holy Spirit to release the flow of light through us. The Mother helps us to pass our initiations and teaches us not only how to cultivate the gifts of the Holy Spirit but also how to be a just steward of these gifts.
Mystics and seers have always known about the violet flame. The violet flame is the seventh-ray aspect of the Holy Spirit and contains the God qualities of mercy, forgiveness and compassion. It is called the flame of transmutation and freedom as it can transmute the cause, effect, record and memory of negative karma. Karma is energy-consciousness. It is every action, thought, feeling, word, and deed. It is the "law of cause and effect" or the "law of the circle." Whatever we say or do comes full circle. We've all heard the expression, "You reap what you sow." This is karma. Everything we send out into the universe returns back to us. Karma can be good or bad. The Mother teaches us to transmute and balance our karma so that we can return back to Spirit. We are entering into a new Age, the Aquarian Age. Ages,last,approximately 2,150 years and each new cycle begins under one of the seven rays of the Holy Spirit. Each age has a sponsor. Saint Germain is the Chohan (Lord) of the Seventh Ray. He, along with his twin flame Portia (Goddess of Justice), are the hierarchs for the age of Aquarius. Portia is also known as the Mother of Aquarius. On May 1, 1954, Saint Germain and Portia were crowned as directors for the coming cycle of the seventh ray. Freedom and justice are the yin and the yang of the seventh ray of Aquarius, and together with mercy, they provide the foundation for all other attributes of God to be outpictured in this seventh dispensation. Saint Germain, whose name means "holy brother" is the seventh angel prophesied in the Book of Revelation. His gift to the earth and to all mankind is the spiritual fire of the violet flame. The violet flame is called the flame of freedom because of its alchemical ability to transmute karma. As the Chohan of the Seventh Ray, Saint Germain focuses the flame of freedom to the earth. The violet flame is the flame of the Aquarian Age.
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We can invoke the violet flame through prayer and mantra. One very simple mantra taught by the Summit Lighthouse † is:
I AM a being a violet fire!
I AM the purity God desires!
The healing benefits that come from giving the violet flame are as vast as the stars in the cosmos. The violet flame can melt hardness of heart, balance old karma and free us from the baggage we've carried around not only in this lifetime but also from past lifetimes. It can transmute negative thoughts and painful memories as well as heal old hurts and wounds.
The transforming power of the Mother will be more effective if we use it in conjunction with the violet flame. It is recommended that we give at least fifteen minutes of the violet flame each day.
Self-harm (SH) or deliberate self-harm (DSH) includes self-injury (SI) and self-poisoning and is defined as the intentional, direct injuring of body tissue most often done without suicidal intentions. These terms are used in the more recent literature in an attempt to reach a more neutral terminology. The older literature, especially that which predates the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-IV-TR), almost exclusively refers to self-mutilation. The term is synonymous with "self-injury".
The most common form of self-harm is skin-cutting but self-harm also covers a wide range of behaviors including, but not limited to, burning, scratching, banging or hitting body parts, interfering with wound healing, hair-pulling (trichotillomania) and the ingestion of toxic substances or objects. Behaviours associated with substance abuse and eating disorders are usually not considered self-harm because the resulting tissue damage is ordinarily an unintentional side effect. However, the boundaries are not always clearly defined and in some cases behaviours that usually fall outside the boundaries of self-harm may indeed represent self-harm if performed with explicit intent to cause tissue damage. Although suicide is not the intention of self-harm, the relationship between self-harm and suicide is complex, as self-harming behaviour may be potentially life-threatening. There is also an increased risk of suicide in individuals who self-harm to the extent that self-harm is found in 40–60% of suicides. However, generalising self-harmers to be suicidal is, in the majority of cases, inaccurate.
Self-harm is listed in the DSM-IV-TR as a symptom of borderline personality disorder. However patients with other diagnoses may also self-harm, including those with depression, anxiety disorders, substance abuse, eating disorders, post-traumatic stress disorder, schizophrenia, and several personality disorders. Self-harm is also apparent in high-functioning individuals who have no underlying clinical diagnosis. The motivations for self-harm vary and it may be used to fulfill a number of different functions. These functions include self-harm being used as a coping mechanism which provides temporary relief of intense feelings such as anxiety, depression, stress, emotional numbness or a sense of failure or self-loathing and other mental traits including low self-esteem or perfectionism. Self-harm is often associated with a history of trauma and abuse, including emotional and sexual abuse. There are a number of different methods that can be used to treat self-harm and which concentrate on either treating the underlying causes or on treating the behaviour itself. When self-harm is associated with depression, antidepressant drugs and treatments may be effective. Other approaches involve avoidance techniques, which focus on keeping the individual occupied with other activities, or replacing the act of self-harm with safer methods that do not lead to permanent damage.
Self-harm is most common in adolescence and young adulthood, usually first appearing between the ages of 12 and 24. Self-harm in childhood is relatively rare but the rate has been increasing since the 1980s. However, self-harm behaviour can nevertheless occur at any age, including in the elderly population. The risk of serious injury and suicide is higher in older people who self-harm
More playing around with cloning. I tried to go for a firey background, but... meh... it isn't quite there.
I know this is a subject that we are "not allowed" to talk about, as it is taboo for most people. If this is you please do not read further as it will just upset you. I know I have never been allowed to talk about this, those close to me forbid me to broach the subject. This is why I have decided to be free here - I can make this decision to have a voice.
I’ve lived for about 20 years under abuse (in my mid-twenties now). I was abused as a child by two different men, they were not aware of each other. I finally broke free from that when I was 17 and spent 2 years being “free” in denial. I met a boy who saw the signs of abuse in me and purposefully chose me to date (he told me this). He was cruel and abusive to me in every way that you can imagine for 5 (almost 6) years. I didn’t know I could get away. I was used to being stuck, I was conditioned to react this way while I was a toddler.
I didn’t even know I was in trouble or needed help until it was too late.
I never reached out for help even though I knew I was suffering mentally and had PTSD by the time I was 15. I didn't know I had an eating disorder for a long time, until people started noticing my ribs sticking out and I was forced into an eating disorder program. I didn't know I was depressed and suicidal until I decided to kill myself a few months ago. I was very effectively living in denial.
But now I am trying to get better - I am going to therapy and working on my mental health. I really want to erase the past. I want a fresh start, one that doesn't include me, an innocent child, on the sexual menu for grown men.
I'm a realist though and I know I have to accept my past and try to live in a world full of people who I do not trust.
It is my hope that other people might see this image and hear my story and gain strength to tell their own - or flee from the people who are hurting them. It is possible to get help. There are good people out there, you just have to look really hard to find them - it is worth the effort.
The statement that is pictured was said to me by the second man to sexually abuse me.
Photographs are © Copyright Galactic Dreams (or others when indicated) and are not in the public domain and may not be used on blogs, websites, or in other media without advance written permission from Galactic Dreams.
-- Will Not Be (Tamed) --
Helping IuliPhotography this week, and I was inspired by the atmosphere of this abandoned insane asylum. I am happy to have been able to get a chance to make some photos and collaborate. More will come. A big thanks Iuli !
Artist Statement:
Women are constantly objectified for their bodies in photographs.
I know that being apart of "this" world, I have to accept that objectification is sometimes glorified. Some women would even argue that it is empowering. But whether you agree or disagree, the significance behind my pose with this chain is to exhibit how we are sometimes our own worst enemy. It is not meant to be seen as pornographic, but artful.
One of the main messages I represent is that: We are the keepers of our own freedom, from labels, stereotypes, and other judgments. And yet, at times it can be a struggle.
I’ve incorporated a long chain that wraps around my neck and ankle, to show the inner struggle I personally feel. The ends of the chain are not held by anyone, and although I’m not physically holding either end, this represents how these specific negative point of views are only thoughts and opinions that I confine myself to. If only I choose to give little importance to these thoughts, then may I be truly free to accept the fact that I am beautiful the way I am, despite all the ways one person can say otherwise.
I wanted to keep a gentle face without any sexual tension in body language or eyes. In my mind I was thinking of all the things that I am disgusted and saddened by when it comes to the media, the modeling world, etc, which can have us thinking negatively about ourselves and even, each other. This pose could be taken as suggestive, but I hope you will be able to see the innocence and strength of the composition of my body. And in a way, it is meant to be hypocritical, to evoke you to think all of those nasty thoughts that make me cringe and hate myself for.
Will Not Be (Tamed) :: The title is written like this because to me, I tell myself I can't be swayed one way or the other, however it may be just that--that I allow myself to become apart of the phenomenon which I resent. Which is why "Tamed" is within its own restraint, because it is a muted secret but boldly noticeable.
Self-harm (SH) or deliberate self-harm (DSH) includes self-injury (SI) and self-poisoning and is defined as the intentional, direct injuring of body tissue most often done without suicidal intentions. These terms are used in the more recent literature in an attempt to reach a more neutral terminology. The older literature, especially that which predates the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-IV-TR), almost exclusively refers to self-mutilation. The term is synonymous with "self-injury". The most common form of self-harm is skin-cutting but self-harm also covers a wide range of behaviors including, but not limited to, burning, scratching, banging or hitting body parts, interfering with wound healing, hair-pulling (trichotillomania) and the ingestion of toxic substances or objects. Behaviours associated with substance abuse and eating disorders are usually not considered self-harm because the resulting tissue damage is ordinarily an unintentional side effect. However, the boundaries are not always clearly defined and in some cases behaviours that usually fall outside the boundaries of self-harm may indeed represent self-harm if performed with explicit intent to cause tissue damage. Although suicide is not the intention of self-harm, the relationship between self-harm and suicide is complex, as self-harming behaviour may be potentially life-threatening. There is also an increased risk of suicide in individuals who self-harm to the extent that self-harm is found in 40–60% of suicides. However, generalising self-harmers to be suicidal is, in the majority of cases, inaccurate. Self-harm is listed in the DSM-IV-TR as a symptom of borderline personality disorder. However patients with other diagnoses may also self-harm, including those with depression, anxiety disorders, substance abuse, eating disorders, post-traumatic stress disorder, schizophrenia, and several personality disorders. Self-harm is also apparent in high-functioning individuals who have no underlying clinical diagnosis. The motivations for self-harm vary and it may be used to fulfill a number of different functions. These functions include self-harm being used as a coping mechanism which provides temporary relief of intense feelings such as anxiety, depression, stress, emotional numbness or a sense of failure or self-loathing and other mental traits including low self-esteem or perfectionism. Self-harm is often associated with a history of trauma and abuse, including emotional and sexual abuse. There are a number of different methods that can be used to treat self-harm and which concentrate on either treating the underlying causes or on treating the behaviour itself. When self-harm is associated with depression, antidepressant drugs and treatments may be effective. Other approaches involve avoidance techniques, which focus on keeping the individual occupied with other activities, or replacing the act of self-harm with safer methods that do not lead to permanent damage.
Self-harm (SH) or deliberate self-harm (DSH) includes self-injury (SI) and self-poisoning and is defined as the intentional, direct injuring of body tissue most often done without suicidal intentions. These terms are used in the more recent literature in an attempt to reach a more neutral terminology. The older literature, especially that which predates the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-IV-TR), almost exclusively refers to self-mutilation. The term is synonymous with "self-injury". The most common form of self-harm is skin-cutting but self-harm also covers a wide range of behaviors including, but not limited to, burning, scratching, banging or hitting body parts, interfering with wound healing, hair-pulling (trichotillomania) and the ingestion of toxic substances or objects. Behaviours associated with substance abuse and eating disorders are usually not considered self-harm because the resulting tissue damage is ordinarily an unintentional side effect. However, the boundaries are not always clearly defined and in some cases behaviours that usually fall outside the boundaries of self-harm may indeed represent self-harm if performed with explicit intent to cause tissue damage. Although suicide is not the intention of self-harm, the relationship between self-harm and suicide is complex, as self-harming behaviour may be potentially life-threatening. There is also an increased risk of suicide in individuals who self-harm to the extent that self-harm is found in 40–60% of suicides. However, generalising self-harmers to be suicidal is, in the majority of cases, inaccurate. Self-harm is listed in the DSM-IV-TR as a symptom of borderline personality disorder. However patients with other diagnoses may also self-harm, including those with depression, anxiety disorders, substance abuse, eating disorders, post-traumatic stress disorder, schizophrenia, and several personality disorders. Self-harm is also apparent in high-functioning individuals who have no underlying clinical diagnosis. The motivations for self-harm vary and it may be used to fulfill a number of different functions. These functions include self-harm being used as a coping mechanism which provides temporary relief of intense feelings such as anxiety, depression, stress, emotional numbness or a sense of failure or self-loathing and other mental traits including low self-esteem or perfectionism. Self-harm is often associated with a history of trauma and abuse, including emotional and sexual abuse. There are a number of different methods that can be used to treat self-harm and which concentrate on either treating the underlying causes or on treating the behaviour itself. When self-harm is associated with depression, antidepressant drugs and treatments may be effective. Other approaches involve avoidance techniques, which focus on keeping the individual occupied with other activities, or replacing the act of self-harm with safer methods that do not lead to permanent damage.
Self-harm (SH) or deliberate self-harm (DSH) includes self-injury (SI) and self-poisoning and is defined as the intentional, direct injuring of body tissue most often done without suicidal intentions. These terms are used in the more recent literature in an attempt to reach a more neutral terminology. The older literature, especially that which predates the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-IV-TR), almost exclusively refers to self-mutilation. The term is synonymous with "self-injury". The most common form of self-harm is skin-cutting but self-harm also covers a wide range of behaviors including, but not limited to, burning, scratching, banging or hitting body parts, interfering with wound healing, hair-pulling (trichotillomania) and the ingestion of toxic substances or objects. Behaviours associated with substance abuse and eating disorders are usually not considered self-harm because the resulting tissue damage is ordinarily an unintentional side effect. However, the boundaries are not always clearly defined and in some cases behaviours that usually fall outside the boundaries of self-harm may indeed represent self-harm if performed with explicit intent to cause tissue damage. Although suicide is not the intention of self-harm, the relationship between self-harm and suicide is complex, as self-harming behaviour may be potentially life-threatening. There is also an increased risk of suicide in individuals who self-harm to the extent that self-harm is found in 40–60% of suicides. However, generalising self-harmers to be suicidal is, in the majority of cases, inaccurate. Self-harm is listed in the DSM-IV-TR as a symptom of borderline personality disorder. However patients with other diagnoses may also self-harm, including those with depression, anxiety disorders, substance abuse, eating disorders, post-traumatic stress disorder, schizophrenia, and several personality disorders. Self-harm is also apparent in high-functioning individuals who have no underlying clinical diagnosis. The motivations for self-harm vary and it may be used to fulfill a number of different functions. These functions include self-harm being used as a coping mechanism which provides temporary relief of intense feelings such as anxiety, depression, stress, emotional numbness or a sense of failure or self-loathing and other mental traits including low self-esteem or perfectionism. Self-harm is often associated with a history of trauma and abuse, including emotional and sexual abuse. There are a number of different methods that can be used to treat self-harm and which concentrate on either treating the underlying causes or on treating the behaviour itself. When self-harm is associated with depression, antidepressant drugs and treatments may be effective. Other approaches involve avoidance techniques, which focus on keeping the individual occupied with other activities, or replacing the act of self-harm with safer methods that do not lead to permanent damage.
I hate me when I’m doing this to me.
Me (Zeus) is hitten by myself (me as Hephaistos) to get my wisdom (me as Athene) out of chaos (me as Erinyes, vengeance, ignorance and hate), that means dark thinking and feeling (unconsciously).
If I don’t hate myself other will do so. If I don’t love myself other have to do so. It’s not easy to love my self destructive side. Took a long time… sad times… Don’t worry. Love will take over. Finally it has to. One day everybody will not only be loved by a God but loved by himself!
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Ok, how about starting today – sorry - NOW?
Forget this scary image. It belongs to the past…
Dedicated to the genius of Hephaistos and his catharic fire of creativity
HKD
La naissance de l`Athèna
Je détestes de me faire subir cela.
Moi (Zeus), je suis battu par moi-même (comme Hephaistos) afin de tirer ma sagesse (moi comme Athèna) du chaos (moi comme les Erinyes, la vengeance, l`ignorance, la haine), c`est-à-dire les pensées et sentiments sombres (inconscients).
Si ce n`est pas moi qui se déteste, c`est quelqu`un d`autre. Si je ne m`aime pas moi- même, des autres le doivent. Ce n`est pas facile d`aimer ce part autodestructif de mon personnage. Cela m`a pris très longtemps… temps tristes… Ne te tracasse pas. L`amour se charge de ça. Finalement il doit.
Un jour, chacun ne sera seulement aimé par un Dieu mais aussi par soi- même!
… ?
Alors, et si on commence aujourd`hui – pardon – maintenant?
Oublie cet image sinistre. Il appartient au passé…
Dédié au génie de Hephaistos et son feu cathartique de créativité.
HKD
For Our Daily Challenge: Vivid
The word hate is written in very vivid colors, giving my legs a bold feel. Creds to Ariel for writing on me! Anyways, today was 65 degrees, so I got home, did my homework, and had a photoshoot. I was trying to recreate this with a different look.
Confession 8: So yet another disappearance on my part, Friday to Sunday were rough. The actual confession? I think I needed that break from flickr. I still took pictures, but those are for my own pleasure.
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Going through a transition has a way of bringing negative energy and vibes to your front door from both expected and unexpected sources. Doesn't help when some of that energy is produced by yourself. Moments like these, music helps. Whether it's to fall into past memories, spark creativity or draw inspiration. Anything from video game music like Mass Effect 2 & Metal Gear Solid to movie scores like Hanz Zimmer, Two Steps from Hell, Explosions in the Sky & Disney. Even artists like Regina Spektor, Childish Gambino, JayZ, Damien Rice, Kid Cudi, Brett Dennen and a few others can help to keep you from that abyss.
Currently Listening to:
"Nuclear" - Mike Oldfield
"My Name is Lincoln" - The Island
"Everybody's gotta learn sometime" - Beck
"Talking To Myself" - Chiddy Bang
"Protectors of the Earth" - Two Steps from Hell
"Hyperion" - Celldweller
"Battle Scars" - Lupe Fiasco ft. Guy Sebastian
"Mass Effect 2 Main Theme"
"0 - 100" - Drake
"Erase Me" - Kid Cudi
"Let it Go" - Frozen
"Thinkin Bout You" - Frank Ocean
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For Lu
I was having a really really rough day today - everybody wants to fight with me: life, photography, ex-friends, even my own chemistry.
I got home after a horrible day, only to find a registered letter from those evil women who stole my play. They are now saying that they hold the copyright and all the rights to put it on anytime they want - and owe me nothing.
I felt bruised to the core - betrayed and hurt, bleeding from the insides.
AS the evening progressed, turning the camera onto myself, and I thought of Lu and how she inspires me...
This is for you Lu
She is a flickr friend who I am going to meet in Toronto as we make our road trip to Detorit. Her honesty and beauty make me understand how I need to love myself more, and look to the warrior woman inside for strength and and my own voice.
2048 x 2048 pixel image for the iPad’s 2048 x 1536 pixel retina display.
image via: www.pexels.com/photo/3351/
Typeface: Didot
Today I was told how bad I suck by three people on two different matters.
The stars were just aligned and it was my turn to know how bad I suck.
So what's a girl to do? Time to get out the vacuum cleaner and demonstrate how bad I suck.
Sucking on the outside. Laughing on the inside.
"If you look in the mirror and don't like what you see. You can find out first hand what it's like to be me."
- My Chemical Romance
#PCOS #pcoshair #hirsutism another day, another collection of new growth, I'm only showing You what I pluck in the morning, at night it's the same volume of hair, it's massively depressing and I hold a lot of self hatred, I can't look at myself without feeling like a freak of nature, but it's a vicious cycle, the more I hate myself the more I self harm by eating the wrong foods, it's a habit I know I need to break, but I take comfort in food and that's where I need a new outlet