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this is very dark, i know. i like it that way.
high on arrival by mackenzie phillips is my favourite book. ever. hands down.
controversial, yes, but there's one certain passage in there that gets to me every time i read it. it's on the second page that's highlighted.
"incest is an abuse of privilege. it is an abuse of trust. it is abject manipulation. by making it consensual, i turned my anger and confusion inward and made it my fault. i thought, this is a bad thing. why am i letting this happen? maybe aunt rosie was right. there must be something inherently wrong with me. i felt dirty, i felt shameful, i felt completely and utterly alone. it brought out many fears—fear that people would find out, fear of my own thoughts. i felt like i couldn't trust myself. i knew it was wrong, but i didn't put a stop to it. i felt powerless to do so, and i blamed myself for that too. what i never wondered, never, not once, was, how could he do this to me? i couldn't question him. i couldn't hate him. so i hated myself. this kind of blame is classic, textbook in incestuous abuse. but i didn't know that at the time.
but this is important. my father abused me, but he wasn't a monster. he was a tortured man who led a tortured existence. i waited until he died to talk about this because i didn't want to put him through it. i had and have profound love and respect for him. this is hard for me to talk about, not so much because of how personal it is to me as because of what i'm doing to his memory—to the way other people remember him—his friends, his fans, his family and other children. my first instinct is to preserve his great legacy. he wasn't a good father, but he was a musical genius, and the truth about our relationship doesn't change that. but these are the reasons that people are silent about incest: conflicted but deep love for the perpetrator. the desire to protect the family. the fear of what the revelation will do to one's own reputation. if nobody ever rocks the boat, if real stories of love and incest and survival are kept behind the closed doors of therapists' offices and judges' chambers, then current and future victims are destined to do what i did, to weather it alone, to blame themselves, to hide behind drugs or whatever other lies and oblivion they can find. it happens, it happened to me, and the desire to preserve my father's legacy is not reason enough for silence."
- p. 187-188
that part gets me every time. if you like reading about substance abuse & aren't squeamish, i highly recommend this book. it's one of my personal favourites.
+2 outtakes in comments, completetly sooc.
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