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I had my B12 levels checked again and they have doubled and are well within the recommended levels. Now it's just waiting to see if it will make any difference.
Random Fact: Maple syrup and chocolate sauce really tastes pretty good...heh.
Dear elementary crush, I was seven when my uncle asked me to name my new baby cousin. I named him after you.
this is a (possible) new set/project that i'll be starting on called things i'll never say (im not too sure about the title and that could probably change but right now it's called that) and this is the first one of this series.
basically it was inspired by postsecret and sixbillionsecrets (both websites) but another variation of it. i'll be asking people (who are willing, of course) to write a secret on a post-it and hopefully at the end it'll become a huge series.
oh and the secret does NOT have to be deep/intensely personal, it could be anything really and no faces will be shown so privacy is noted.
Even if your voice shakes, even if your voice shakes, even if your voice shakes...
Our untold stories, Part 8, scene four: The release
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in lightbox or here
Model; Renee and myself
The thing is, I don't. Sometimes I do, but it's like my feelings are a little numb. Like I don't feel anything. I can't cry, I can't scream, I can't laugh like I want to laugh, with pain in my stomach. That makes me wanna scream. While taking this photo I almost started crying, for real. But I didn't 'cause I don't want Emiel to see me like that. I cry the best when I'm alone.
And for a couple of days I've a terrible headache, 'cause there's too much in it.
At the Trafford Centre we sat down and had a lovely chat with Joe. It was all part of a Kleenex promotion that's running (see the advert here), where people are encouraged to chat to the Kleenex guy and 'let it all out'.
So, as his last clients of the day, we took it upon ourselves to amuse Joe and spent 20 minutes chatting to him about random stuff! Joe, as it turns out, is actually a nice actor from London, hired in to talk to people. He was really quite sweet.
At the end of our chat he gave us a pressie (which you'll be able to see in tomorrow's 365 shot!)
A painting I gave to bro-in-law posterized it , mixed it, tweaked it...and here it is.
You can put your own interpretations as to why he is screaming. This is mine.
"embrace the horror"- to release those feelings of darkness, to not dwell, to not be ashamed, but to rise from whatever it is that may eat at you or keep you up at night, dont let it feed off of you, but feed off of it, show the monster through creativity, grow stronger from what might have happened, if something irritates you or bothers you, let it out, dont hold it in, show the creature inside n the human behind you will follow, not fighting but as one....
the scream:
a quick re-cap of the last 2 days: leakage from a/c ruining a bunch of books and magazines, the security alarm going off b/c a painting fell off the wall and its frame completely broken, me on my period and PMSing like there was no tomorrow, delays on the metro, my bike acting up, my boss blowing off steam on what he thinks is my lack of performance level (and asking me to do things that i'm definitely not paid enough to do) and the possibility of having an interview for this position that is opening up ASAP at an italian-american foundation for restoring the ancient roman ruins on monday... probably ALL in italian! ahhhhhh! not sure what to think b/c if i get this job by some miracle of God, provided that its a good salary and has benefits, then i'll kind of have to drop everything here. i SO need to kick ass on this interview!
i had a super strong pomogranite martini with joanne and robin at an cool bar on U street afterwards, and felt TONS better.
My new kids album, releasing August 23 on CDBaby, iTunes and Amazon! You can listen and pre-order now at mikeschmid.bandcamp.com
Day 264 - Mon, Sept, 21
I don't usually freak out when unexpected things happen, but sometimes I wish I could scream and let it all out. I tend to internalize things and eventually the stress manifests itself physically.
I laugh when I see this photo because I don't know what I look like when I go loca.. lol
www.youtube.com/watch?v=CPBf19MEKJc
does that make me crazy?
probably
Such a fantastically fun day today at HonFest 2013! So much to see and do, and everyone dresses up and wants to be noticed, so taking pics of folks is expected.
Had a great meet-up with Lea, Peter and son, Toshio, and Ant. Just a blast!
This hon was a hoot! She had terrific energy, and very twinkly eyes. And, she was gracious about letting folks shoot her (though I think she quite enjoyed herself).
1. create, 2. Colourful Portrait, 3. A dream of Cherry Blossom !, 4. Mr Britches, 5. Illustration Friday - Poem, 6. Bird Collage , 7. Holding on., 8. GreenTurtleneck, 9. More Fun with Bird in Flight, 10. The seldom-used door., 11. Blue Creative Bird, 12. i'll never let you go I 12x24, 13. Circus Zetti 2, 14. TGL 4, 15. Fiona, 16. in progress [detail], 17. Big Eyed Bird Close up, 18. 4-11-08; Stress Test, 19. preparefor life, 20. Butterfies- illustration, 21. Illustration Friday - Visitors, 22. paul at breakfast, 23. zen-eye , 24. magick, 25. circulargeometry1, 26. Birds for Mom, 27. Mermie, 28. Zetti postcard , 29. Let Your Heart Sing, 30. LetItOut-Gocco, 31. secretspaces, 32. Street Doodle detail, 33. doodle flowers, 34. Blue Butterfly, 35. birds2, 36. divinity...
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This is my son.
Over my life I have lost many many friends to variety of causes from airplane accidents to drugs to cancer to suicide to aids. Those experiences have left me bereft in ways I still struggle to get over so I can reach out to others.
With him I have no choice. He is the door and the destination of my happiness.
I don't struggle to reach out to him. I embrace him easily.
I work every day to show him a world where he can embrace others as easily as I embrace him.
This is for the Just Let It Out group. www.flickr.com/groups/letitout/
PS The reason I mention this here is that I rarely if ever talk to people in my every day life about the large number of great friends I've lost because...well...it's depressing crap and who wants to hear that? So, it's not like a secret but it is definitely something I rarely share for both social acceptance reasons and for my son's outlook on life.
My losses have given me even more reasons to cherish my gifts. My son is my truest and greatest gift.
A little fun with watercolor pencils and Sharpie pens. was really difficult to write on and do the tangles, but still fun!