Best. Valentine's. Day. Ever. We went to dinner and then we went on a walk and he gave me a necklace. Then we went back to my house and watched the office and kissed alot and im so goddamn happy right now oh my god. ~Kay #love #lovequotes #lifequotes #ed #mia #ana #missyou #needyou #loveyou #depressedquotes #sadquotes #mentaldisorder #wantyou #landofthebrokenhearts #beauty #sad#secretsociety #secretsociety123 #depression #cutting #selfharmmm #helpme #notokay #iloveyou #trying #recovery #crying #lifesucks #anxiety #suicide - x.x.recovery.x.x

[second deepest cut] I went shopping for a dress for the valentines dance next week. It took 3 different malls and 30 some stores to even find one. The dress I got is pretty. It's a size 3 {fat ass} and it's almost knee length. I got some shoes and some jeans and sweaters because I can't wear shorts or short sleeves. My dress is sleeveless {shit} so scars will show. But my boyfriend knows about it so I guess I don't care much. I'm one day clean. I am so tired but sleeping means dreaming and dreaming means nightmares and nightmares mean waking up and waking up means sitting and thinking about my problems and thinking about my problems means crying and crying means messy makeup and messy makeup means bathroom and bathroom means razors and razors means cutting and cutting means tiredness and tiredness means sleeping and sleeping means dreaming and it means a never ending circle. I am tired of life. I need to loose weight before the dance so I can be pretty. Starving like all week. Ugh probably gonna be bullied on Monday because I moved lesbians away from each other on the riser in choir {long story} so they're pissy now and my friends are all really sick so fuck. I need to fucking die. ~Kay #love #lovequotes #lifequotes #lifesucks #loveyou #landofthebrokenhearts #iloveyou #trying #relapse #recovery #ed #wantyou #helpme #secretsociety123 #secretsociety #selfharmmm #sadquotes #suicide #sad #ana #mia #anxiety #cutting #crying #mentaldisorder #missyou #depressed #depressionquotes #depression #heartbroken - x.x.recovery.x.x

Ugg today in pe I had a really bad bloody nose and this girl I hate named Lauren was in the bathroom and there was blood on my shirt so I was taking it off and puttin my jacket back on when I realized that my wrist has cuts all down it and she saw them but didn't say anything so now she knows and is telling people and looking at me weird and I hate it. I want to leave ugh. And next week I have to go to lomalenda to a psychiatrist and I'm afraid I'm gonna have to be medicated and crap and people keep making fun of me and my anxiety is getting worse. UUUGGGGGHHHH ~Kay #love #lovequotes #lifequotes #lifesucks #loveyou #landofthebrokenhearts #iloveyou #trying #relapse #recovery #ed #wantyou #helpme #secretsociety123 #secretsociety #selfharmmm #sadquotes #suicide #sad #ana #mia #anxiety #cutting #crying #mentaldisorder #missyou #depressed #depressionquotes #depression - x.x.recovery.x.x

It hurts. It hurts so bad. He told me it was because he couldn't handle having a girlfriend. I understand. I'm a lot to deal with. I don't want to find someone better, I love him. And he left me alone again. It feels like every part of me is being torn apart. I can't sleep, I can't eat. He said he's stressed out. HES stressed out. But he was what was keeping me sane, he was my security blanket. And now I'm lost and alone and I know I'm unloved. He left when I needed him most. This is to much for me to take. New medication, I'm single again, I have no friends. I can't take it. It's overwhelming and he left. I was feeling a little better, he made me feel better but now I just want to kill myself. I can't stop crying. He left, he tore my heart to shreds. And I know I deserve it... ~Kay #love #lovequotes #lifequotes #lifesucks #loveyou #landofthebrokenhearts #iloveyou #trying #relapse #recovery #ed #wantyou #helpme #secretsociety123 #secretsociety #selfharmmm #sadquotes #suicide #sad #ana #mia #anxiety #cutting #crying #mentaldisorder #missyou #depressed #depressionquotes #depression #heartbroken - x.x.recovery.x.x

Someone kik me I need to talk to someone but I have no friends. I literally looked through my contacts and the two people that I would be able to talk to are either the problem or aren't talking to me... Kik is ________rawr________ and it's eight underscores. #love #lovequotes #lifequotes #lifesucks #loveyou #landofthebrokenhearts #iloveyou #trying #relapse #recovery #ed #wantyou #helpme #secretsociety123 #secretsociety #selfharmmm #sadquotes #suicide #sad #ana #mia #anxiety #cutting #crying #mentaldisorder #missyou #depressed #depressionquotes #depression #heartbroken - x.x.x.recovery.x.x.x

Lol well I guess I'm sorta suicidal... #love #lovequotes #lifequotes #lifesucks #loveyou #landofthebrokenhearts #iloveyou #trying #relapse #recovery #ed #wantyou #helpme #secretsociety123 #secretsociety #selfharmmm #sadquotes #suicide #sad #ana #mia #anxiety #cutting #crying #mentaldisorder #missyou #depressed #depressionquotes #depression #heartbroken - x.x.x.recovery.x.x.x

This is what Logan gave me yesterday. It's pretty. Is it just me or is it really hard to cut deep on your stomach. It makes my stomach itch and get red. It's weird does that happen to you guys?? ~Kay #love #lovequotes #lifequotes #lifesucks #loveyou #landofthebrokenhearts #iloveyou #trying #relapse #recovery #ed #wantyou #helpme #secretsociety123 #secretsociety #selfharmmm #sadquotes #suicide #sad #ana #mia #anxiety #cutting #crying #mentaldisorder #missyou #depressed #depressionquotes #depression #heartbroken - x.x.recovery.x.x

I guess he would. I feel so lonely. I don't know why. I just want to cry. I stood in front of a mirror and put on a dress and a tiara and told myself I was a fucking princess then looked at my roses. Then I broke down and put on sweats and his hoodie and curled up because there's a loneliness eating away at my insides and its an agonizing pain I know all too well. ~ Kay #love #lovequotes #lifequotes #lifesucks #loveyou #landofthebrokenhearts #iloveyou #trying #relapse #recovery #ed #wantyou #helpme #secretsociety123 #secretsociety #selfharmmm #sadquotes #suicide #sad #ana #mia #anxiety #cutting #crying #mentaldisorder #missyou #depressed #depressionquotes #depression #heartbroken - x.x.recovery.x.x

I feel so lonely. I don't even have any friends... #love #lovequotes #lifequotes #lifesucks #loveyou #landofthebrokenhearts #iloveyou #trying #relapse #recovery #ed #wantyou #helpme #secretsociety123 #secretsociety #selfharmmm #sadquotes #suicide #sad #ana #mia #anxiety #cutting #crying #mentaldisorder #missyou #depressed #depressionquotes #depression #heartbroken - x.x.x.recovery.x.x.x

He left. Now, two weeks later, the love of my life, my reason to live, loves my best friend. They're complete opposites. I loved him so much and I feel so hurt by what he said and did, saying I messed it all up. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry. #love #lovequotes #lifequotes #lifesucks #loveyou #landofthebrokenhearts #iloveyou #trying #relapse #recovery #ed #wantyou #helpme #secretsociety123 #secretsociety #selfharmmm #sadquotes #suicide #sad #ana #mia #anxiety #cutting #crying #mentaldisorder #missyou #depressed #depressionquotes #depression #heartbroken - x.x.x.recovery.x.x.x

~I ate nothing but 100 calories worth of salad today. Good day.~ Ugh I'm tired of people telling me to kill myself and crap. F my life. But my boyfriend is sooooo cute god he's amazing. ~Kay #love #lovequotes #lifequotes #lifesucks #loveyou #landofthebrokenhearts #iloveyou #trying #relapse #recovery #ed #wantyou #helpme #secretsociety123 #secretsociety #selfharmmm #sadquotes #suicide #sad #ana #mia #anxiety #cutting #crying #mentaldisorder #missyou #depressed #depressionquotes #depression #heartbroken - x.x.recovery.x.x

But its bad. Really bad. ~Kay #love #lovequotes #lifequotes #ed #mia #ana #missyou #needyou #loveyou #depressedquotes #sadquotes #mentaldisorder #wantyou #landofthebrokenhearts #beauty #sad#secretsociety #secretsociety123 #depression #cutting #selfharmmm #helpme #notokay #iloveyou #trying #recovery #crying #lifesucks #anxiety #suicide - x.x.recovery.x.x