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This is the place where my insecurities start and end. There are days when I will cry as I rummage my closet trying to find something to wear. I gained nearly 30 pounds since moving to Belgium and most of it is in my belly. It has made the last few years really hard. I have refused to buy bigger pants because I feel like I am giving in to my weight problem. But I refuse to do whatever it takes to make myself lose the weight. I know what I have to do, but I love food and I hate the gym.
I'm not here fishing for comments. I am here to face my fears. To get out of my comfort zone. To look at everything I hate about myself and either learn to love it, or fix what I hate. Those are my only fucking options.
P.S. I bit all my nails off tonight.
9/365
The Vent - Outside of my comfort zone
This will be my picture for week 1 for this amazing new group that is going to be a BIG inspiration and help for me. :)
sorry friends, my 365 is kind of going downhill at a rapid rate ahah.
I have been taking pictures, but my photoshop trial has just expired :(:(
I guess im going to have to buy the real thing... erg
we all have insecurities. i don't deny that i do. and yet, i'm not insecure. does this make sense?
i want things to be the way they were. i'm sorry.
testimonials, thank you so so so much you three :) these girls are incredibly inspiring, i love their photos. please check them out!
I really hate how my belly looks now, it looks horrible, you know it does too! Dont try feed me bull shit!
Hey guys so this is part 2 to my new Flickr(probably soon to be on youtube)series "Scars" starring the one and only "Heidi Bominable" & I hope you like it!:D
WARNING:This chapter/part is pretty longer than the first one,so I hope your up for a lot of reading!;)
~divaray522
This is the story of a girl named Heidi Bominable & her freaky flaw is insecurity about her and her sexuality of being bisexual.
PAST:
When Heidi was a young little yeti she didn't always get what she wanted,times was hard for this ghoul during her past & childhood.Heidi's parents were poor and unable to give Heidi the care & support every parent would give to their child.She also happen to have grown up with Abbey Bominable and was always jealous of her and her life.Heidi would always blame Abbey for everything that has happened to her,since she had a better life that Heidi always wanted.Years later when Heidi was 10 years old,her and her family moved away from the Himalayas to Salem,Oregon for a better life than they had before.One day Heidi was asked to become a young model for a modeling agency,this was an opportunity of a lifetime for both Heidi and her family so she took it.As time went on Heidi and her family were becoming richer and richer,because of her modeling and they were able to buy better clothes,food,shelter, and all the things Heidi couldn't have when she was younger.Life had officially finally got better for Heidi Bominable.
After years of modeling,Heidi was finally able to afford and attend school at Monster High.When she arrived to Monster High she hoped to have start a new chapter of her life fresh,new,and out of the box,but then all of the sudden she had later found out that Abbey Bominable goes to Monster High too,which caused the past to blow up right back in her face again.Heidi wanted Abbey out of her life and gone for good,since she thinks that she would be in the way of her success.So Heidi would always stalk Abbey day and night to try and scare her away from town,she would even try to manipulate and use her friends against her,& she even at one point tried to murder the lovable yeti.Sadly none of that worked or got her what she wanted,but instead it got her what she never wanted negative attention from her peers.
Heidi never wanted to be known as the bad guy or the neglected reject,she wanted to be loves,admired,adored, and the center of attention.Everyone would ignore Heidi and tell her that "she's always up to no good","You'll never be like Abbey",& that "Nobody likes You!".All of this had made Heidi so upset,that it caused her to hang with Toralei & the Werecat twins(who were always into trouble).She was known to be one of them until she befriended a girl named Erica(known as the cousin of Monster High's heartbreaker Valentine) who changed her and her world and is now her best friend and secret crush.When Heidi became friends with Erica,she did everything with her and even shared secrets with her about her life.Later on during their friendship,Heidi began to adapt different feelings for Erica and saw her to be more than justa friend,but a girlfriend and that's when Heidi then realized that she was bisexual.Erica has caused Heidi to change from head to toe,she made her forget about the past and move on to the future.This change made her forget about everything she was ever insecure about,such as her past life all except for her sexuality and major crush on Erica.
PRESENT:
Now whenever Heidi haunts the halls of MH,she feels insecure and afraid to have the courage to tell Erica how she really feels about her.She's also afraid of the secret of her sexuality being told around the school,by none other than Spectra Vondergiest the queen of stories & gossip.Why just last week she told everyone about Rochelle & her Scarisian boyfriend Garrot having a one night stand in Scaris and the fact that she could possibly be expecting.Now everyone in school calls her a scarisian whore,slut,& cunt which ruined her reputation as the non-rule breaking hall monitor of monster high to now the gargoyle who sleeps around in Scaris.Heidi hopes to not have her reputation go downhill like it did before.
Part 3 will be "Abandoned" starring Count Samantha!
Well I hoped you all enjoyed part 2 and to all Rochelle fans trust me I have nothing against her(she's lovely)all those things that were said about her in the story aren't true,I just needed a victim of Spectra so I used her.Erica is actually one of my customs who are a work in progress(so she really won't be shown in any pics just mentioned in the story).Oh and this whole story is PG due to use of some mild language(like the ones I used in this chapter).Anywho again I hope u enjoyed part 2 and sorry for it being too long I got creative while writing this!:D
With this picture I start a new series called Story of my life. I want to document different events, feelings etc. of my life, because I always enjoy looking back at my pictures to see how I changed and what happened so far. So with these pictures I try to tell a story or show something which is important to me. I will write little texts down here to make sure I will remember what this picture was all about. Here we go:
We all have insecurities. If it's the way we look or situations that we aren't used to. In the last few weeks I had to step out of my comfort zone to find a job next to my study. (You have to know that I've never had a real job before, so that was pretty exciting for me.) I now got a job at a gas station not far from home.
Moreover, it's a current struggle for me to keep everything together as I try to get back in track with photograph, as well as change my nutrition and sports routine. In addition to that there is my study, the job, the household, my relationship, friends and so on. But we have to accept changes and make the best out of it. Even if they scare us, they make us to a better and stronger version of ourselves.
I used textures from Pareeerica.
And I used a texture called Vintage Tinted Lense, by SkeletalMess (which I can't find anymore, so it's not linked).
.At sunset, Algiers takes on a different look: the bartenders serve their first glasses, the waiters start to set up cutlery for dinner, the youngsters make their last calls to their friends to decide which nightclub to spend the evening in. Algiers has always had a sulphurous reputation of intense nightlife..Insecurity? all the clubs are safe and cool, if you want to get away from the hustle and bustle and keep quiet, the Algerians who are cool and warm especially towards foreigners, as he said Fellag with us it is every day the carnival if you grasp the meaning of it. For people who know how to live and above all, take life on the right side? Tourists can know the real life of Algiers, to live with the locals. A tourist who travels without frequenting local life only travels to stay in his hotel room.LUXURY ROOM: Sea view, king size bed (200x200) or 2 beds (160x200)54 m2. Very spacious room with a splendid view on the bay d?Alger, entirely renovated in 2011 with air conditioning. Dressing room, safe, bathroom with bathtub, bidet and hairdryer, separate WC, sitting area with desk and flat-screen TV (satellite channels), broadband cable Internet, large balcony. The hotel EL Aurassi includes 414 rooms entirely renovated and refurbished in 2011...Algiers (Arabic: الجزائر, al-Jazā’er; Algerian Arabic pronunciation: دزاير Dzayer, Berber: Dzayer tamaneɣt, French: Alger) is the capital and largest city of Algeria. In 2011, the city's population was estimated to be around 3,500,000. An estimate puts the population of the larger metropolitan city to be around 5,000,000. Algiers is located on the Mediterranean Sea and in the north-central portion of Algeria.
Sometimes nicknamed El-Behdja (البهجة) or alternatively Alger la Blanche ("Algiers the White") for the glistening white of its buildings as seen rising up from the sea, Algiers is situated on the west side of a bay of the Mediterranean Sea. The modern part of the city is built on the level ground by the seashore; the old part, the ancient city of the deys, climbs the steep hill behind the modern town and is crowned by the casbah or citadel, 122 metres (400 ft) above the sea. The casbah and the two quays form a triangle. The city name is derived (via French Alger and Catalan Alger from the Arabic name الجزائر al-Jazā’ir, which translates as "The Islands", referring to the four islands which used to lie off the city's coast until becoming part of the mainland in 1525. Al-Jazā’ir is itself a truncated form of the city's older name جزائر بني مزغانة Jaza'ir Bani Mazghana, "The Islands of the Sons of Mazghana", used by early medieval geographers such as al-Idrisi and Yaqut al-Hamawi. A Phoenician commercial outpost called Ikosim which later developed into a small Roman town called Icosium existed on what is now the marine quarter of the city. The rue de la Marine follows the lines of what used to be a Roman street. Roman cemeteries existed near Bab-el-Oued and Bab Azoun. The city was given Latin rights by Emperor Vespasian. The bishops of Icosium are mentioned as late as the 5th century. The present-day city was founded in 944 by Bologhine ibn Ziri, the founder of the Berber Zirid–Sanhaja dynasty. He had earlier (935) built his own house and a Sanhaja center at Ashir, just south of Algiers. Although his Zirid dynasty was overthrown by Roger II of Sicily in 1148, the Zirids had already lost control of Algiers to their cousins the Hammadids in 1014.[6] The city was wrested from the Hammadids by the Almohads in 1159, and in the 13th century came under the dominion of the Ziyanid sultans of Tlemcen. Nominally part of the sultanate of Tlemcen, Algiers had a large measure of independence under amirs of its own due to Oran being the chief seaport of the Ziyanids.
As early as 1302 the islet of Peñón in front of Algiers harbour had been occupied by Spaniards. Thereafter, a considerable amount of trade began to flow between Algiers and Spain. However, Algiers continued to be of comparatively little importance until after the expulsion of the Moors from Spain, many of whom sought asylum in the city. In 1510, following their occupation of Oran and other towns on the coast of Africa, the Spaniards fortified the islet of Peñon and imposed a levy intended to suppress corsair activity.,
Abraham Duquesne delivering Christian captives in Algiers after the bombing in 1683.
In 1516, the amir of Algiers, Selim b. Teumi, invited the corsair brothers Aruj and Hayreddin Barbarossa to expel the Spaniards. Aruj came to Algiers, ordered the assassination of Selim, and seized the town and ousted the Spanish in the Capture of Algiers (1516). Hayreddin, succeeding Aruj after the latter was killed in battle against the Spaniards in the Fall of Tlemcen (1517), was the founder of the pashaluk, which subsequently became the beylik, of Algeria. Barbarossa lost Algiers in 1524 but regained it with the Capture of Algiers (1529), and then formally invited the Sultan Suleiman the Magnificent to accept sovereignty over the territory and to annex Algiers to the Ottoman Empire..Hayreddin Barbarossa (Arabic: Khayr ad-Din Barbarus خير الدين بربروس), (Latin: Ariadenus Barbarussa), or Barbarossa Hayreddin Pasha (Turkish: Barbaros Hayreddin (Hayrettin) Paşa or Hızır Hayreddin (Hayrettin) Paşa; also Hızır Reis before being promoted to the rank of Pasha and becoming the Kapudan Pasha), born Khizr or Khidr (Turkish: Hızır; c. 1478 – 4 July 1546), was an Ottoman admiral of the fleet who was born on the island of Lesbos and died in Constantinople, the Ottoman capital. Barbarossa's naval victories secured Ottoman dominance over the Mediterranean during the mid 16th century, from the Battle of Preveza in 1538 until the Battle of Lepanto in 1571..Hayreddin (Arabic: Khayr ad-Din خيرالدين, which literally means "goodness" or "best of the religion" of Islam) was an honorary name given to him by Sultan Suleiman the Magnificent. He became known as "Barbarossa" ("Redbeard" in Italian) in Europe, a name he inherited from his elder brother Oruç Reis after he was killed in a battle with the Spanish in Algeria. Oruç was also known as "Baba Oruç", which sounded like "Barbarossa" (Italian for "Redbeard") to the Europeans, and since Oruç did have a red beard, the nickname stuck. In a process of linguistic reborrowing, the nickname then stuck back to Hayreddin's native Turkish name, in the form Barbaros.Khizr was born in 1466[1] or around 1478[citation needed] in the village Palaiokipos on the Ottoman island of Midilli (Lesbos) (now Greece), the son of Yakup Ağa, a converted Turk sipahi[2] of Albanian origin. from Giannitsa (Greece), and an Orthodox Christian, Greek woman from Mytilene (Lesbos).His mother was a widow of a Greek Orthodox priest. His parents were married and had two daughters and four sons: Ishak, Oruç, Khizr and Ilyas. Yakup took part in the Ottoman conquest of Lesbos in 1462 from the Genoese Gattilusio dynasty (who held the hereditary title of Lord of Lesbos between 1355 and 1462) and as a reward, was granted the fief of the Bonova village in the island. He became an established potter and purchased a boat to trade his products. The four sons helped their father with his business, but not much is known about the daughters. At first Oruç helped with the boat, while Khizr helped with pottery.All four brothers became seamen, engaged in marine affairs and international sea trade. The first brother to become involved in seamanship was Oruç, who was joined by his brother Ilyas. Later, obtaining his own ship, Khizr also began his career at sea. The brothers initially worked as sailors, but then turned privateers in the Mediterranean to counteract the privateering of the Knights Hospitaller (Knights of St. John) who were based in the island of Rhodes (until 1522). Oruç and Ilyas operated in the Levant, between Anatolia, Syria, and Egypt. Khizr operated in the Aegean Sea and based his operations mostly in Thessaloniki. Ishak, the eldest, remained on Mytilene and was involved with the financial affairs of the family business.Oruç was a very successful seaman. He also learned to speak Italian, Spanish, French, Greek and Arabic in the early years of his career. While returning from a trading expedition in Tripoli, Lebanon, with his younger brother Ilyas, they were attacked by the Knights of St. John. Ilyas was killed in the fight, and Oruç was wounded. Their father's boat was captured, and Oruç was taken as a prisoner and detained in the Knights' castle at Bodrum for nearly three years. Upon learning the location of his brother, Khizr went to Bodrum and managed to help Oruç escape.Oruç later went to Antalya, where he was given 18 galleys by the Şehzade Korkut, an Ottoman prince and governor of the city, and charged with fighting against the Knights of St. John, who were inflicting serious damage on Ottoman shipping and trade. In the following years, when Korkut became governor of Manisa, he gave Oruç a larger fleet of 24 galleys at the port of İzmir and ordered him to participate in the Ottoman naval expedition to Apulia in Italy, where Oruç bombarded several coastal castles and captured two ships. On his way back to Lesbos, he stopped at Euboea and captured three galleons and another ship. Reaching Mytilene with these captured vessels, Oruç learned that Korkut, who was the brother of the new Ottoman sultan Selim I, had fled to Egypt in order to avoid being killed because of succession disputes – a common practice at that time. Fearing trouble due to his well-known association with the exiled Ottoman prince, Oruç sailed to Egypt, where he met Korkut in Cairo and managed to get an audience with the Mamluk Sultan Qansuh al-Ghawri, who gave him another ship and appointed him with the task of raiding the coasts of Italy and the islands of the Mediterranean that were controlled by Christians. After passing the winter in Cairo, he set sail from Alexandria and frequently operated along the coasts of Liguria and Sicily.In 1503, Oruç managed to seize three more ships and made the island of Djerba his new base, thus moving his operations to the Western Mediterranean. Khizr joined Oruç at Djerba. In 1504, the brothers contacted Abu Abdullah Mohammed Hamis, Sultan of Tunisia from the Beni Hafs dynasty, and asked permission to use the strategically located port of La Goulette for their operations. They were granted this right with the condition of leaving one-third of their gains to the sultan. Oruç, in command of small galliots, captured two much larger Papal galleys near the island of Elba. Later, near Lipari, the two brothers captured a Sicilian warship, the Cavalleria, with 380 Spanish soldiers and 60 Spanish knights from Aragon on board, who were on their way from Spain to Naples. In 1505, they raided the coasts of Calabria. These accomplishments increased their fame, and they were joined by several other well-known Muslim corsairs, including Kurtoğlu (known in the West as Curtogoli). In 1508, they raided the coasts of Liguria, particularly Diano Marina.
Western depiction of Hayreddin Barbarossa
In 1509, Ishak also left Mytilene and joined his brothers at La Goulette. The fame of Oruç increased when, between 1504 and 1510, he transported Muslim Mudéjars from Christian Spain to North Africa. His efforts of helping the Muslims of Spain in need and transporting them to safer lands earned him the honorific name Baba Oruç (Father Oruç), which eventually – due the similarity in sound – evolved in Spain, France and Italy into Barbarossa (meaning "Redbeard" in Italian).
In 1510, the three brothers raided Cape Passero in Sicily and repulsed a Spanish attack on Bougie, Oran and Algiers. In August 1511, they raided the areas around Reggio Calabria in southern Italy. In August 1512, the exiled ruler of Bougie invited the brothers to drive out the Spaniards, and during the battle, Oruç lost his left arm. This incident earned him the nickname Gümüş Kol ("Silver Arm" in Turkish), in reference to the silver prosthetic device that he used in place of his missing limb. Later that year, the three brothers raided the coasts of Andalusia in Spain, capturing a galliot of the Lomellini family of Genoa, who owned the Tabarca island in that area. They subsequently landed on Minorca and captured a coastal castle and then headed towards Liguria, where they captured four Genoese galleys near Genoa. The Genoese sent a fleet to liberate their ships, but the brothers captured their flagship as well. After capturing a total of 23 ships in less than a month, the brothers sailed back to La Goulette.
There, they built three more galliots and a gunpowder production facility. In 1513, they captured four English ships on their way to France, raided Valencia, where they captured four more ships, and then headed for Alicante and captured a Spanish galley near Málaga. In 1513 and 1514, the three brothers engaged the Spanish fleet on several other occasions and moved to their new base in Cherchell, east of Algiers. In 1514, with 12 galliots and 1,000 Turks, they destroyed two Spanish fortresses at Bougie, and when the Spanish fleet under the command of Miguel de Gurrea, viceroy of Majorca, arrived for assistance, they headed towards Ceuta and raided that city before capturing Jijel in Algeria, which was under Genoese control. They later captured Mahdiya in Tunisia. Afterwards, they raided the coasts of Sicily, Sardinia, the Balearic Islands and the Spanish mainland, capturing three large ships there. In 1515, they captured several galleons, a galley and three barques at Majorca. Still in 1515, Oruç sent precious gifts to the Ottoman Sultan Selim I, who, in return, sent him two galleys and two swords embellished with diamonds. In 1516, joined by Kurtoğlu (Curtogoli), the brothers besieged the Castle of Elba, before heading once more towards Liguria, where they captured 12 ships and damaged 28 others.In 1516, the three brothers succeeded in capturing Jijel and Algiers from the Spaniards but eventually assumed control over the city and surrounding region, forcing the previous ruler, Abu Hamo Musa III of the Beni Ziyad dynasty, to flee.[citation needed] The Spaniards in Algiers sought refuge on the island of Peñón off the Moroccan coast and asked Charles V, King of Spain and Holy Roman Emperor, to intervene, but the Spanish fleet failed to force the brothers out of Algiers.After consolidating his power and declaring himself Sultan of Algiers, Oruç sought to enhance his territory inland and took Miliana, Medea and Ténès. He became known for attaching sails to cannons for transport through the deserts of North Africa. In 1517, the brothers raided Capo Limiti and later, the Island of Capo Rizzuto in Calabria. For Oruç, the best protection against Spain was to join the Ottoman Empire, his homeland and Spain's main rival. For this, he had to relinquish his title of Sultan of Algiers to the Ottomans. He did this in 1517 and offered Algiers to the Ottoman Sultan Selim I. The Sultan accepted Algiers as an Ottoman sanjak ("province"), appointed Oruç as the Governor of Algiers and Chief Sea Governor of the West Mediterranean, and promised to support him with janissaries, galleys and cannons.
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Algiers from this time became the chief seat of the Barbary pirates. In October 1541 in the Algiers expedition, the King of Spain and Holy Roman Emperor Charles V sought to capture the city, but a storm destroyed a great number of his ships, and his army of some 30,000, chiefly made up of Spaniards, was defeated by the Algerians under their Pasha, Hassan.
Ornate Ottoman cannon found in Algiers on 8 October 1581 by Ca'fer el-Mu'allim. Length: 385 cm, cal:178 mm, weight: 2910 kg, stone projectile. Seized by France during the invasion of Algiers in 1830. Musée de l'Armée, Paris.
Formally part of the Ottoman Empire but essentially free from Ottoman control, starting in the 16th century Algiers turned to piracy and ransoming. Due to its location on the periphery of both the Ottoman and European economic spheres, and depending for its existence on a Mediterranean that was increasingly controlled by European shipping, backed by European navies, piracy became the primary economic activity. Repeated attempts were made by various nations to subdue the pirates that disturbed shipping in the western Mediterranean and engaged in slave raids as far north as Iceland.[8] The United States fought two wars (the First and Second Barbary Wars) over Algiers' attacks on shipping.
Among the notable people held for ransom was the future Spanish novelist Miguel de Cervantes, who was captive in Algiers almost five years, and who wrote two plays set in Algiers of the period. The primary source for knowledge of Algiers of this period, since there are no contemporary local sources, is the Topografía e historia general de Argel (1612, but written earlier), published by Diego de Haedo, but whose authorship is disputed. This work describes in detail the city, the behavior of its inhabitants, and its military defenses, with the unsuccessful hope of facilitating an attack by Spain so as to end the piracy.
A significant number of renegades lived in Algiers at the time, Christians converted voluntarily to Islam, many fleeing the law or other problems at home. Once converted to Islam, they were safe in Algiers. Many occupied positions of authority, such as Samson Rowlie, an Englishman who became Treasurer of Algiers.
The city under Ottoman control was enclosed by a wall on all sides, including along the seafront. In this wall, five gates allowed access to the city, with five roads from each gate dividing the city and meeting in front of the Ketchaoua Mosque. In 1556, a citadel was constructed at the highest point in the wall. A major road running north to south divided the city in two: The upper city (al-Gabal, or 'the mountain') which consisted of about fifty small quarters of Andalusian, Jewish, Moorish and Kabyle communities, and the lower city (al-Wata, or 'the plains') which was the administrative, military and commercial centre of the city, mostly inhabited by Turkish dignitaries and other upper-class families.
In August 1816, the city was bombarded by a British squadron under Lord Exmouth (a descendant of Thomas Pellew, taken in an Algerian slave raid in 1715, assisted by Dutch men-of-war, destroying the corsair fleet harboured in Algiers.
Algiers depot and station grounds of Algerian Railway, 1894
The history of Algiers from 1830 to 1962 is bound to the larger history of Algeria and its relationship to France. On July 4, 1830, under the pretext of an affront to the French consul—whom the dey had hit with a fly-whisk when the consul said the French government was not prepared to pay its large outstanding debts to two Algerian merchants—a French army under General de Bourmont attacked the city in the 1830 invasion of Algiers. The city capitulated the following day. Algiers became the capital of French Algeria.
Many Europeans settled in Algiers, and by the early 20th century they formed a majority of the city's population.
During the 1930s, the architect Le Corbusier drew up plans for a complete redesign of the colonial city. Le Corbusier was highly critical of the urban style of Algiers, describing the European district as "nothing but crumbling walls and devastated nature, the whole a sullied blot". He also criticised the difference in living standards he perceived between the European and African residents of the city, describing a situation in which "the 'civilised' live like rats in holes" whereas "the 'barbarians' live in solitude, in well-being". However, these plans were ultimately ignored by the French administration.Le Corbusier was ignorant of the way cities work, he only made dormitory cities to humiliate nightlife with buildings on pillars that ignore the beauty of a street. in his plan any meeting is only possible by appointment.
During World War II, Algiers was the last city to be seized from the Germans by the Allies during Operation Torch.
In 1962, after a bloody independence struggle in which hundreds of thousands (estimates range between 350,000 and 1,500,000) died (mostly Algerians but also French and Pieds-Noirs) during fighting between the French Army and the Algerian Front de Libération Nationale, Algeria gained its independence, with Algiers as its capital. Since then, despite losing its entire pied-noir population, the city has expanded massively. It now has about five million inhabitants, or 10 percent of Algeria's population—and its suburbs now cover most of the surrounding Mitidja plain.
Algiers also played a pivotal role in the Algerian War (1954–1962), particularly during the Battle of Algiers when the 10th Parachute Division of the French Army, starting on January 7, 1957, and on the orders of then French Minister of Justice François Mitterrand (who authorized any means "to eliminate the insurrectionists"[citation needed]), led attacks against the Algerian fighters for independence. Algiers remains marked by this battle, which was characterized by merciless fighting between FLN forces which carried out a guerrilla campaign against the French military and police and pro-French Algerian soldiers, and the French Army which responded with a bloody repression, torture and blanket terrorism against the native population. The demonstrations of May 13 during the crisis of 1958 provoked the fall of the Fourth Republic in France, as well as the return of General de Gaulle to power.
Algeria achieved independence on July 5, 1962. Run by the FLN that had secured independence, Algiers became a member of Non-Aligned Movement during the Cold War. In October 1988, one year before the fall of the Berlin Wall, Algiers was the site of demonstrations demanding the end of the single party system and the creation of a real democracy baptized the "Spring of Algier". The demonstrators were repressed by the authorities (more than 300 dead), but the movement constituted a turning point in the political history of modern Algeria. In 1989, a new constitution was adopted that put an end to the one-party rule and saw the creation of more than fifty political parties, as well as official freedom of the press.
The city became the theatre of many political demonstrations of all descriptions until 1992. In 1991, a political entity dominated by religious conservatives called the Islamic Salvation Front engaged in a political test of wills with the authorities. In the 1992 elections for the Algerian National Assembly, the Islamists garnered a large amount of support in the first round, helped by a massive abstention from disillusioned Algerian voters by the turn of events. Fearing an eventual win by the Islamists, the army cancelled the election process, setting off a civil war between the State and armed religious conservatives which would last for a decade.
Rai, the folk music that put Algeria on the international map, originated in 1930 in a small Bedouin Shepherds village in the city of Oran. Rai is a musical genre mixed with Spanish, French, African and Arab music that is listened to by the Algerian population. At the beginning its rise, men were the only singers, but later women joined in on the act. Rai songs usually highlight social and economic issues, along with the French colonial policies that had an impact on the rest of the Algerian population. When it comes to male Rai singers, they are referred to as “Cheb,” which translates to youth or “Cheikh for an older singer. Female Rai singers are called either “Chebba” or “Cheikha.”During the 16th century, Oran was divided by Spanish troops, who inhabited the city, into four factions: Jewish, French, Spanish and Arab. Each community was known by their own musical style. The Arabs were known for their unique ‘Al-Andaluz’ style, one that was brought by many Arab migrants from southern Spain in 1492. Another type of music played during this era by the Arabs was ‘Gharbi’, which is traditionally Bedouin. The most famous singers of that era were Cheikha Tetma, Fadila D’zirya and Myriam Fekkai. Melhun poetry, chanted by male Sheikhs accompanied by flute and drums was also popular in the 16th century. Melhun singers such as Cheikh Mohammed Senoussi, Cheikh Madani, and Cheikh Hachemi Bensmir were well known. With the different cultures and various types of musical styles there is no doubt that Oran during was a little paradise for artists.However, the social and cultural structure changed during French colonialism. In Oran by 1920, most Bedouin singers were collaborating with the French, meaning singers were only allowed to sing at traditional Arab events such as weddings. As women were put under a strict social code, there were only a few female singers. Different female outcast groups were the only artists allowed to perform during French colonialism. One of these artists was the famous Cheikha Remitti. By 1930, most musicians began to join Socialist and Marxist revolutionary organizations as a form of rebellion against colonialism. This rebellion was the root of Rai.In the Algier's cabaret, it's the fiesta. Imagine the cramped space, full of people, all coming to celebrate birthdays, and set the mood. The raï is on the rise, tequila shoots are crackling. Some customers have even brought bottles of champagne that they cut for the occasion.
Never insecure until I met you
Now I'm bein' stupid..
I used to be so cute to me
Just a little bit skinny
Why do I look to all these things ?
To keep you happy
Maybe get rid of you
And then I'll get back to me ;
My outsides look cool
My insides are blue
Everytime I think I'm through
It's because of you
I've tried different ways
But it's all the same
At the end of the day
I have myself to blame...
You can buy your hair if it won't grow
You can fix your nose if he says so
You can buy all the make up
That M.A.C. can make
But if you can't look inside you
Find out who am I too
Be in the position to make me feel
So damn unpretty
I'll make you feel unpretty too....
-TLC
for TOTW "insecurities" and WTL " fears"
I used to be very afraid of death, of the unknown. the possibility that
there is more after this life, and the wonderment of things like
heaven and hell , even reincarnation.
However i am no longer afraid of death. it is simply a part of this life
and i have no worries about it anymore. I know i dont want to die
an old man. and i dont want to die in my sleep.
as strange as this sounds, i dont want a peaceful death.
i want to die the same way i lived, fighting .
The one thing that does make me full of fear is being forgotten.
i used to hope if i became a famous musician, or celebrity of some
kind, then i would live on thru that.
I want to be remembered. I want to be missed.
I want the things i have done and said to have such an impact that
hundreds of years passing ,cant wash it away.
June 12, 2008
I just ooze self-esteem, don't I?
I've been feeling kind of down lately, but I chose a time when I felt more secure with myself and my body to do this. Plus, this (by Devon Omundsen) served for really great inspiration.
It was really hard to do this as I shut myself in a tiny bathroom. I didn't have enough room to move and my camera (which is really, really bad) was balanced precariously on the trashcan and kept spinning around (UGH!). I actually had to crop out the sink and the door as they showed up in the picture, ha. And the ridiculous crease took forever to make less obvious and it's still there! Plus, the eyeliner was ridiculously hard to remove.
Despite this, I'm really proud of this picture. I have no photoshop so I combined the pictures solely on paint and used picnik briefly. Ha.
I guess it's another part in my fairytales series--it's the Queen's mirror gone wrong. Either that, or it's something different completely.
Thank you so much to Abby who helped me edit this. It's great. I'm really insecure about the way I look in it-I'm not attractive at all... but I guess that also wasn't the point, lol. I'm not supposed to be attractive in it.
Hmm... sorry for the ridiculous ramble. Much love to all.
This may be replaced with another version.
Week 41 out of 52 Weeks for Dogs for my Benni
With five males dogs currently in the house, Bubba and Benni are more insecure than ever. Benni is great with people but has always been insecure around dogs, especially energetic dogs. Bubba is just insecure in general. He's always been skittish and that's only gotten worse since Clay arrived with all his anxiety in tow. We also have Jett, our sweet foster boy in the mix.
With all the dog commotion going on, it's nice to see that Benni and Bubba still enjoy their "togetherness".
In the last decades the Italian families' life has been characterized by radical and deep changes which have modified the contemporary society where to the increase of the family's units corresponds a different structural system. First of all births' decrease and consequently less families with many children, the increase of the number of couples with no children, the more marked choice of the children to live alone or with their life-companion, the scarce tendency to marriages and the rise in the divorce rate are the reasons of such a situation.
To understand the importance of this matter several aspects must be considered: infancy, adolescence, youth, adult and old age have progressively expanded. Compared to the past the experience of the generations today presents very different characteristics as to the role of a child, parent and life-companion or single in the different stages of their existence.
In the last decades the prolonged permanence of the grown-up children inside the family has been favoured by the extension of the education processing and by relationships between the generations more supportive and less hierarchic. More recently you add also the difficulty to find a job or make it stable and to find a house at an affordable price. In the last years the difficulties to reconcile job with family and the requirements of the new life style have brought the couples to squeeze the time dedicated to the family.
The social worry of the families is more evident when you consider that in our Country the welfare model is still based on the availability of the family and in particular of the women to support those in need of help. A situation where the public social services can hardly answer the growing needs of the families with children can condition the mothers very much in their job opportunities or choice to give birth to a child. In this context family policy is weak or absent, to have a family becomes the most significative factor to enter poverty because of the iniquity of the tax treatment, scarce opportunities to reconcile family with job, scarce communication of the social legislation. In Italy those who marry and have children are damaged.
Project by:
Laura Cantadori
Veronica Clarin
Giorgio Mozzorecchia
Tommaso Renzini
Benedetta Signaroldi
Shuzhen Xia
www.densitydesign.org/course_projects/insecurity_systemdi...
Ali Addeh refugee camp, Djibouti. The priority of EU humanitarian aid in Djibouti is to provide life-saving assistance to refugees and look for durable solutions to their plight.
Djibouti hosts over 18 000 long-term refugees and asylum seekers mainly from Somalia whose basic needs such as shelter, water and protection need to be catered for.
Since the start of the Yemen crisis in March 2015, close to 80 000 people have fled to countries in the Horn of Africa including nearly 40 000 to Djibouti. This new influx is putting pressure on the country’s limited natural resources and services.
Djibouti imports 95% of its food. The number of people at risk of hunger has increased since the 2011 drought, accelerating the rural exodus to urban areas. A combination of high food prices, water scarcity, climate change and reduced pasture has increased food insecurity. This year’s El Niño has led to even dryer weather.
Humanitarian funding from the European Commission provides refugees with access to clean water and sanitation as well as shelter, protection, nutrition and health care. Food assistance is given in the form of cash transfers as a way of promoting refugees’ self-reliance. ©European Union/ECHO
THE CASTLE OF ST JOHN WAS BUILT AROUND 1510 IN WHAT WAS LATER TO BECOME THE TOWN OF STRANRAER. THE CASTLE IS SOMETIMES CALLED STRANRAER CASTLE. THIS SMALL TOWN OVERLOOKS LOCH RYAN ON THE WEST OF DUMFRIES AND GALLOWAY.
THE LAND ON WHICH IT WAS BUILT WAS OWNED BY A FAMILY CALLED ADAIR. THEY WERE PROBABLY OF IRISH ORIGIN (NORTHERN IRELAND IS ONLY 40 MILES AWAY AS THE CROW FLIES) AND THEY HELD LANDS AROUND PORTPATRICK TO THE WEST IN THE EARLY 1300S. THERE IS EVEN A LEGEND THAT THEY WERE ALLOCATED THE AREA BY KING ROBERT THE BRUCE FOR GETTING RID OF THE PREVIOUS OCCUPANTS - THE CURRIES - WHO WERE NOTORIOUS PIRATES. LIKE ALL SUCCESSFUL FAMILIES IN THOSE DAYS, THEY EXPANDED THEIR TERRITORY AND ACQUIRED THE LANDS ON WHICH THE CASTLE OF ST JOHN NOW STANDS BY 1484. INITIALLY, THEY BUILT A CHAPEL DEDICATED TO ST JOHN AND IT WAS NOT UNTIL AROUND 1510 THAT THEY BUILT A CASTLE WHICH WAS KNOWN VARIOUSLY AS THE PLACE OF ST JOHN AND CASTLE OF CHAPEL.
TOWARDS THE END OF THE 17TH CENTURY, THE CASTLE OF ST JOHN WAS USED BY THE GOVERNMENT TO GARRISON TROOPS WHO WERE TRYING TO SUPPRESS THE COVENANTERS, A RELIGIOUS MOVEMENT THAT WANTED TO MAINTAIN THE PRESBYTERIAN FORM OF WORSHIP, WHERE CONTROL WAS DEVOLVED TO THE INDIVIDUAL CHURCH PARISHES. ALTHOUGH THE GOVERNMENT AT THAT TIME WAS STILL IN EDINBURGH (THE UNION OF THE PARLIAMENTS OF SCOTLAND AND ENGLAND DID NOT OCCUR UNTIL 1707), KING CHARLES I IN LONDON WAS TRYING TO IMPOSE AN EPISCOPAL SYSTEM ON BOTH COUNTRIES - WITH HIMSELF AT ITS HEAD AND GOVERNING FROM THE TOP DOWN. CHARLES I LOST HIS HEAD IN THE CIVIL WAR AND HIS SON, KING CHARLES II, WAS DEFEATED AT THE BATTLE OF WORCESTER IN 1651 AND HAD TO FLEE. BUT KING CHARLES II WAS RESTORED IN 1660 AND SOON RESUMED THE EFFORTS TO IMPOSE AN EPISCOPAL FORM OF WORSHIP WHICH THE COVENANTERS RESISTED. IN 1678, JOHN GRAHAM OF CLAVERHOUSE (KNOWN AS "BONNIE DUNDEE" OR "BLOODY CLAVERS" DEPENDING ON WHICH SIDE YOU WERE ON) WAS BASED AT THE CASTLE OF ST JOHN WHILE IN COMMAND OF TROOPS IN THE SOUTH WEST, SAVAGELY SUPPRESSING THE LOCAL COVENANTERS.
IN THE 18TH CENTURY THE CASTLE WAS LITTLE USED AND IN 1815 IT WAS PURCHASED WITH A VIEW TO IT BECOMING THE JAIL FOR THE AREA. IN THE FOLLOWING YEARS IT SERVED THAT PURPOSE - BUT GAINED A REPUTATION FOR ALLOWING TOO MANY PRISONERS TO ESCAPE. NOT THAT THE BUILDING WAS INSECURE - BUT THE JAILERS WERE OFTEN DRUNK AND LEFT THE DOORS OPEN!
IT CONTINUED IN THE ROLE OF PRISON UNTIL 1907. BY THAT TIME IT WAS SURROUNDED BY THE SHOPS AND OFFICES OF A MODERN SMALL TOWN. IN THE 1960S, BUILDINGS SURROUNDING THE CASTLE OF ST JOHN WERE DEMOLISHED, LEAVING ONLY THE MAIN TOWER - WHICH WAS RESTORED AND BECAME A MUSEUM AND VISITOR ATTRACTION IN 1988/89. THE ILLUSTRATIONS OF COVENANTERS AND THEIR FLAGS WERE TAKEN INSIDE THE CASTLE.
Walking on the Western walls of Lincoln Castle, a Grade I Listed Building constructed by William the Conqueror in the 11th Century towards Ellis Windmill and the Cottam power station & West Burton power station in the distant Trent Valley. In Lincoln, Lincolnshire.
Lincoln Castle was during the late 11th century by William the Conqueror on the site of a pre-existing Roman fortress. The castle is unusual in that it has two mottes. It is only one of two such castles in the country, the other being at Lewes in Sussex.
When William the Conqueror defeated Harold Godwinson and the English at The Battle of Hastings on 14 October 1066, he continued to face resistance to his rule in the north of England. For a number of years, William's position was very insecure. In order to project his influence northwards to control the people of the Danelaw (an area traditionally under the control of Scandinavian settlers), he constructed a number of major castles in the north and midlands of England. It was at this time that the new king built major castles at Warwick, Nottingham and York. After gaining control of York, the Conqueror turned southwards and arrived at the Roman and Viking city of Lincoln.
When William reached Lincoln (one of the country's major settlements), he found a Viking commercial and trading centre with a population of 6,000 to 8,000. The remains of the old Roman walled fortress located 60 metres (200 ft) above the countryside to the south and west, proved an ideal strategic position to construct a new castle. Also, Lincoln represented a vital strategic crossroads of the following routes (largely the same routes which influenced the siting of the Roman fort):
Ermine Street - a major Roman road and the Kingdom's principal north-south route connecting London and York.
Fosse Way - another important Roman route connecting Lincoln with the city of Leicester and the south-west of England
The Valley of the River Trent (to the west and southwest) - a major river affording access to the River Ouse, and thus the major city of York.
The River Witham - a waterway that afforded access to both the Rivers Trent (via the Fossdyke Roman canal at Torksey) and the North Sea via The Wash.
The Lincolnshire Wolds - an upland area to the northeast of Lincoln, which overlooks the Lincolnshire Marsh beyond.
A castle here could guard several of the main strategic routes and form part of a network of strongholds of the Norman kingdom, in Danish Mercia, roughly the area of the country that is today referred to as the East Midlands, to control the country internally. Also (in the case of the Wolds) it could form a center from which troops could be sent to repel Scandinavian landings anywhere on the coast from the Trent to the Welland, to a large extent, by using the roads which the Romans had constructed for the same purpose.
The Domesday Survey of 1086 directly records 48 castles in England, with two in Lincolnshire including one in the county town. Building a castle within an existing settlement sometimes meant existing structures had to be removed, and of the castles noted in the Domesday Book, thirteen included references to property being destroyed to make way for the castle. In Lincoln's case 166 "unoccupied residences" were pulled down to clear the area on which the castle would be built.
Work on the new fortification was completed in 1068. It is probable that at first a wooden keep was constructed which was later replaced with a much stronger stone one. Lincoln Castle is very unusual in having two mottes, the only other surviving example of such a design being at Lewes. To the south, where the Roman wall stands on the edge of a steep slope, it was retained partially as a curtain wall and partially as a revetment retaining the mottes. In the west, where the ground is more level, the Roman wall was buried within an earth rampart and extended upward to form the Norman castle wall. The Roman west gate (on the same site as the castle's westgate) was excavated in the 19th century but began to collapse on exposure, and so was re-buried.
The castle was the focus of attention during the First Battle of Lincoln which occurred on 2 February 1141, during the struggle between King Stephen and Empress Matilda over who should be monarch in England. It was held but damaged, and a new tower, called the Lucy Tower, was built.
Lincoln Castle was again the site of a siege followed by the Second Battle of Lincoln, on 20 May 1217, during the reign of King John in the course of the First Barons' War. This was the period of political struggle which led to the signing of Magna Carta on 15 June 1215. After this, a new barbican was built onto the west and east gates.
As in Norwich and other places, the castle was used as a secure site in which to establish a prison. At Lincoln, the prison Gaol was built in 1787 and extended in 1847. Imprisoned debtors were allowed some social contact but the regime for criminals was designed to be one of isolation, according to the separate system. Consequently, the seating in the prison chapel is designed to enclose each prisoner individually so that the preacher could see everyone but each could see only him. By 1878 the system was discredited and the inmates were transferred to the new jail in the eastern outskirts of Lincoln. The prison in the castle was left without a use until the Lincolnshire Archives were housed in its cells.
The castle is now owned by Lincolnshire County Council and is a scheduled ancient monument. In 2012, a three-year programme of renovation began at the castle. Work involved creating a new exhibition centre in which to display Magna Carta, building visitor facilities, and opening sections of the prison within the castle to the public. The scheme was completed in April 2015, to coincide with the 800th anniversary of the signing of Magna Carta.
Wut ?!
Small climbing one .
Jah to make this photo I 'm on one of the Fallen Trees " who , incidentally, inspired by another tree " climbed .
Was not that easy to squeeze as high.
And what strikes me , it looks like I was right at the top in a " tree levels " are photographing and Down ?!
" Wirsch "
Water provision in Ali Addeh camp in Djibouti. The priority of EU humanitarian aid in Djibouti is to provide life-saving assistance to refugees and look for durable solutions to their plight.
Djibouti hosts over 18 000 long-term refugees and asylum seekers mainly from Somalia whose basic needs such as shelter, water and protection need to be catered for.
Since the start of the Yemen crisis in March 2015, close to 80 000 people have fled to countries in the Horn of Africa including nearly 40 000 to Djibouti. This new influx is putting pressure on the country’s limited natural resources and services.
Djibouti imports 95% of its food. The number of people at risk of hunger has increased since the 2011 drought, accelerating the rural exodus to urban areas. A combination of high food prices, water scarcity, climate change and reduced pasture has increased food insecurity. This year’s El Niño has led to even dryer weather.
Humanitarian funding from the European Commission provides refugees with access to clean water and sanitation as well as shelter, protection, nutrition and health care. Food assistance is given in the form of cash transfers as a way of promoting refugees’ self-reliance. ©EU/ECHO/Massimo La Rosa
I can promise you, I will never be secure. No one will ever be able to look at me and see nails all the way through. There is always something floating, always something misplaced. I do not know what to call this other than awareness. Awareness is not seeing all the way through but seeing where you stop and something else carries on; it is to be in a relation with that which goes on past yourself.
Journal, late January
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I've been training my mind. I do not know how long my art will suffer.
En tagg möts ni av, men den uppmärksamma genomskådar den mjuka sidan som ligger under ytan.
Detta är ett bidrag till Fotosöndag tema: Genomskinlig
Each one of us requires the 'spur of insecurity' to force us to do our best...
Quite true. Our 'best', which we often neglect and forget to put forth - be it a relation or a vision or a cherished dream. So long as we reconcile and encash it, that spur must be a part of our lives.
I clicked this picture in Kusumpur - for a project called 'Apertures of Hope". I am not sure if I finally sent this picture in the final pack - needless to say - I cherish it beyond obviosity.
I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle.But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." ~ Marilyn Monroe