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Second (and probably last) shot from the other night when I went shooting with my favourite Samoan out at the lighthouse on the peninsula round the corner from here. As I mentioned in passing before, it was really an excuse to talk crap whilst taking a few pictures, and was very nice because of it.
I don't know about any of you guys reading this, but I often have an inner battle when it comes to photos like this. If I take a landscape I take an angry one, because a pretty one is far too predictable and twee. If I take a photo of someone, I feel an inner need somewhere to not do it 100% as you'd expect. My dad reckons both myself and my sister are non-conformists, but I've never really been sure if that's not him trying to be proud of bringing up two rebels, or if it's actually true.
So I sat there looking at the lighthouse, marveling at Dave and how he's just wandering around finding angles to shoot it from that would have never occured to me as I'm too bloody stupid, and I'm battling in my head with the desire to take a photo whilst I was out there, but not to take one that looks pretty. Pretty landscapes suck as far as I'm concerned, there needs to be something else going off. There's no way you'll ever photograph the scene in a method which truly conveys the sheer beauty you'd be seeing if you were actually there anyway, so I see the chasing of the ideal, picture postcard photo as pointless. And not a little sacharin sweet. It's like Paris Hilton, she might be cute, but you'd never wanna marry the girl, you'd cringe every time you introduced her to your friends. (Though the ability to never work again would be a nice offshoot...) I feel the same about pretty landscapes, I'd cringe with embarassment if I showed someone something too coy and sweet. I admire Ansel Adams for the work he did pushing forward photographic ideas, but I hate his pictures. I really didn't like being seen out in Scotland with the tripod as everyone instantly assumed you were trying to be Colin Prior, and I sincerely was not. (I know all the landscape photographers of the world wish they were in NZ to shoot the scenery here, and I remain afraid of what I'll do with what I see when I get the chance to really see the sights of NZ.)
So with all that crap above in mind, I post this whilst hiding behind the back of the sofa, waiting to see if I haven't cocked it up. It's got star trails, blurry sea and a lighthouse in it for crying out loud, it's getting pretty close to being a bit coy and sweet. So the idea of shooting Dave's camera shooting the scene is me trying to break the 'pretty' and add the 'something else.' Seriously, do let me know if it's working, I never profess to be much good at landscapes...
And no, it isn't a digital back on the Mamiya, it's the reflection off the film holder bit, but that is Dave's bag and an empty beer bottle! :-D
Anger is something I've never really been prone to, but the past few years I've become an angry person. I sometimes don't recognize myself. At least now I'm exploring my emotions instead of hiding them as I used to have to.
Texture by Skeletal Mess
Contemplating starting a 365. I'll call this day one. I bet I'd fail. Its like when you say you're going to go to the gym every day and do really well for about... three days. I hate the gym.
I really love this song.....and it can be interpretated many ways.
For myself, I find that I am my own worst enemy. I have a hard time forgiving myself of things in my past....or even though I may have forgiven somebody else for things done to me....there is a scar that remains. Sometimes I feel like the"old" me has a grip on the "present" me...and I just want her to LET GO, so that I don't lost myself.
"Let Go" - RED
Hey you, look what you do to me
You bend and you bruise me
Why you try to control me?
But you don't know me
How come you just want to hurt me?
How come you just want to push me?
I can't ignore you anymore
Cause everywhere I turn you
You burn me, you break me
You always want to take me down with you
What do you want from me?
I don't wanna be afraid, I don't wanna run away
I don't want to be here fading it's more that I can take
I'm never gonna be the same
I threw it all away
I don't want to be here fading
Just let go! (look what you do to me)
Let go! (look what you do to me)
Hey you, look what you do to me
You burnt and you scared me
With all that you tell me (but I don't listen!)
You love me, you hate me
You always want to take me down with you
What do you want from me?
I don't wanna be afraid I don't wanna run away
I don't want to be here fading it's more that I can take
I'm never gonna be the same
I threw it all away
I don't want to be here fading
Just let
You kept pushing me
You keep using me
You keep twisting me
You keep breaking me
You can't have me anymore [x3]
You can't have me, let go!
I don't wanna be afraid, I don't wanna run away
I don't want to be here fading it's more that I can take
I'm never gonna be the same
I threw it all away
I don't want to be here fading
Just let go! Let go! Just let go!
I don't wanna be afraid
Let go! (I don't wanna run away!)
Just let go! Let go! Let go!
**I used two textures, one each from
Haeretik and Ghostbones.
Thank you both for sharing these great textures!!!
***Listen to the song here!
283/365 -
Well, Jesus Christ I’m not scared to die
But I’m a little bit scared of what comes after
Do I get the gold chariot
Or do I float through the ceiling
Or do I divide and pull apart
Cause my bright is too slight to hold back all my dark
This ship went down in sight of land
And at the gates does Thomas ask to see my hands?
I know you're coming in the night like a thief
But I’ve had some time to hone my lying technique
I know you think that I’m someone you can trust
But I’m scared I’ll get scared and I swear I’ll try to nail you back up
So do you think that we could work out a sign
So I’ll know it's you and that it's over so I won't even try
I know you're coming for the people like me
But we all got wood and nails
And we turn out hate in factories
Photograph by: J. Rae Chipera all rights reserved
Photograph taken in Gila Bend, Arizona at sunrise - double-exposure self portrait
Like everyone (hopefully), I often fight myself when it comes to life decisions, emotions, ethics, and just to cause conflict. I decided to make this piece one day to make light of a situation that was not that light. It is made to resemble spray paint art.
'You become subject to evil entrapment only when your heart is weak in enlightenment.' - His Holiness Younus AlGohar
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