It's becoming more and more rare with age, but still happens once a year or so. I'm sure you all know the feeling, when everything looks dark, people disappoint you, small things make you furious and so on and so on and so on. I hate it, but that "once in the year" is today. So don't get near me in the next couple of hours! :-)

Sorry, feeling like an adolescent in crisis today, shame on me...

Explore #177

I friggin' hate flying ant day when queen ants emerge from the nest to begin their nuptial flight. Queens will fly for a distance, mate, then drop to the ground where they lose their wings and attempt to start a new colony. This particular ant does not eat wood and does not pose a threat to structures, but they are a nuisance.

emma excuse me your 365 is motherfuckin ridiculous. trying to stop myself turning off the comments. genwgkhnerkhnrr.

happy birthday, korinne <3

this is for you

I hate this f’ing weather. So bored of it now. Cornwall may be beautiful but it is mostly wet. We will be moving within the next few years and the weather is part of the reason for that. I am a girl that needs more dry days and sunshine (I prefer warm, but will take cold and sunny), not never ending rain, mizzle and drabness.

In contrast to yesterday, We're Here are visiting sad portraits.

We walked to get a paper and take out coffee from the nearest place, which is a 2 mile walk, in the howling gale. We also had a slice of lemon and lime loaf with our flat whites, standing in the pouring rain. Then we walked back. Even the dog looked sad (see comments)

This afternoon I went to my flickr photostream and found that it had changed in ways that were appalling and very disturbing. With no warning the flickr that has been my second home and the source of endless hours of pleasure and education had become incredibly ugly and impossible to use. I HATE it and am considering if I can continue to post here. My email asking that my phootstream be restored to the older format was met with a reply of happy talk and no understanding of my concern. I will never love it. I am not even sure that I can tolerate it. The item page with a great hulking black slab puts all the comments (the thing I like best) off the first screen. The huge images on the first page and sets make scrolling seem endless. I even resent the generic cover picture that they slapped on my home page. I can replace it but am not sure I will. I will give it some time before I decide if I am finished with flickr and pull everything but I have no desire to post the new things that I had ready to put up tonight.

~ Turkish proverb ~

Highest position: #425 on Monday, March 15, 2010

Thank youuu!!!!

I like this even though its really old.

so, im being so lazy, ive got 7 pieces of homework, and 1 project in this week. ive done none of it this weekend. im actually screwed its just i cant focus, and i know being on here wont help, but its the only thing i can do! my life feels like its going downhill atm, i hate it so much!

im feeling so crap about not having a decent camera when all my friends have one and are advancing so much with photography, i feel so left behind. i want to be out there and i want to be good at it...what i really need is change, but i cant do that! I just cant wait until summer when i can get on with my life without worrying about anything, so i can just get on and be fully happy!

Pic is the CD Cover "The Collection"....Alanis Morissette

Fuck you....

I don't mean anything to you

I never have and never will

I don't know why I waste my time

Waste my fucking time on earth

You only care about YOU and what you need

What the fuck about me?!?!

You have your fucking life and I wait here for you

Waiting like the stupid bitch I am

Like a fucking fool

I gave my heart to you

And you fucking stomp it on the ground?

Throw it in the fucking trash, rip it to pieces?

Squish it with your bare hands?

Just because you can!!

WTF was I thinking!?!?!?!

I sit here in grief.....heart broken

And you can't take the time out of your

Fucking day!!!!

You want me to hate you!?!

Cuz you can't be man enough to tell me!?!?!

Well here ya fucking go....

Fuck it! Fuck you! Fuck it All!

Fuck the world...and FUCK YOU AGAIN!

I don't need this shit or want it....

I'm threw

Hello spring! #snow #winter #ihateit #fuckwinter #whereisspring #march #view #street #now #poznan #poland #season #weather #whatthefuck #wtf #rirstdayofspring #21march

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Piazza del Popolo, Rome

"But tonight I miss my girl mister tonight I miss my home

if you die in your dreams you really die in your bed"

Bruce Springsteen, Valentine's Day

down to the last bomb

I really kind of hate this, but there's not much I can do to change it right now because I reaalllly need to go and might not be back home until tomorrow, haha. Anyway, I figured I'd just settle for what I had, even though it's kind of awful.

I'm pretty sure the colors look terrible because of flickr's way of compressing files (unless you've done the firefox mod?) and I'm starting to really yearn for a camera that handles low lighting well. I checked it on Kevin's computer and I guess the overall contrast on my screen is just set lower, because on his it looks kind of terrible.

God Forbid Americans live in the dark! When the sun goes down it should be dark! If this were a sunset I would be happy with the results however....Light pollution is more of a problem this year then last, we have more street lights, hotels and chain stores here in Fairbanks, Alaska...I moved to Alaska to get away from the Lower 48. .

Africa is looking better and better these days

Why in the world would they screw up a good thing!? I did the *sneak peek* thing and didn't like it, so I opted out. Now it seems the new homepage has been forced upon us. I hope that Flickr staff listens to us folks who despise the new page and give us the option to switch back.

There's always madness in love. But there's always some reason in madness.

- Friederich Nietzsche

Liiiight painting!

Learnt how do to it correctly the day i won the new camera. I'll abuse it.

.ten.

Anyone who knows me well, or perhaps even better- those who don't-

know that I'm not very good at the emotional parts of life.

I'm terribly awkward.

I had a good day.

Two people who mean a lot to me- didn't.

Days like today make me realize....

How much I loathe the ones I love being in pain.

I would rather be.

Cos at least when I'm in pain, I can swallow it; Know that I'll be okay, see myself on the other side.

Worrying about the ones you love?

It's not okay.

And all you can do is hope and pray; dig in your fingernails and try to push them along and regret that you can't steal that burden away from them.

But you can't.

I hate when people I love are in pain. It kills me.

Picture on Left :

I wanted to see if I could shade a male.

So I picked Jaime to test on, cause..

Even if I fucked it up he'd be hot.

But I fucked it up. Had no idea what I was doing, and was too lazy to find a reference pic.

BUT HIS FACE.

Fuck. <3

Expression : i31.tinypic.com/2yyv504.jpg

Cool, huh? YEYLIQUIFY.

Picture on Right :

I HAVENOFUCKINGIDEA. DDDDD:

I dont like it.

Only its what he'd look like 'everyday'. xD

That or in jeans and a button down shirt, yo.

.. Gah.

Ihateit. D;

SOTHEREYAGO.

I edited Jaime for yeh. xD

Edit ; Rofl.

I showed my mum, and she goes "... Uhhm. Hes.. Cute?"

And I just stared at her.

And he goes "ALYSSA. HES A SIM." -snirk-

This is how I find the seat when I come.

gynecologist

I hate washing the the kids p.e. kits, I had let the three full sports bags marinade nicely over Christmas in the cloakroom but they're due back at school on Tuesday so I put on my big girl bloomers this morning and set to - three sports vests, white shorts, blue shorts, rugby shirts, white socks, blue socks, tracksuits and polo shirts later I spread them on the floor and sorted them out and obviously now only have 5 blue socks .... grrrrrrr !

school is killing me. :(

So, I have been having problems with this camera. I think I may have finally figured out what is going on with the thing and I think I may be able to fix it myself.

My 1939 Ikoflex III (853/16) with back open.

Problem #1 can be seen here:

www.flickr.com/photos/vintagestitches/3676788842/in/set-7...

here:

www.flickr.com/photos/vintagestitches/3661422554/in/set-7...

and especially here:

www.flickr.com/photos/vintagestitches/2665988513/in/set-7...

I think it is a light leak due to the film door being slightly off kilter and the deterioration of the light seal at the top of the door.

Problem #2:

The shots run together and overlap.

Fix:

www.flickr.com/groups/ikoflex/discuss/72157604864313095/

This is a common problem with old cameras with automatic frame counters and it's caused by a very slight, but noticeable to the frame counter, difference in the thickness of contemporary rollfilm emulsion and paper backing versus the thickness of emulsion and paper backing of rollfilm from 60+ years ago. Old metal spools have a thicker core than contemporary spool.

Second, find one of the old metal spools and use that as your take-up spool. You can find these prety cheaply and plentifully on eBay. I add a piece of 21/4 by 3 inch piece of paper to compensate for the thin contemporary rollfilm emulsion and paper backing.

Problem #3:

When winding on, the film advance does not stop at 1, sometimes it stops at 2, sometimes 3, sometimes it keeps going and going and going. Like the Energizer bunny. Extremely frustrating.

I am hoping the fix for #2 above will also fix this.

Update: www.flickr.com/photos/vintagestitches/3762042457/

Getting over a three leaf clover, that I thought was four.

It's just the same as before.

-The Starting Line

You know I wouldn't have even known it was Saint Patrick's day if I hadn't seen in on Flickr. Last year i skipped it completely because I just didn't know. Haha.

Anyway, this is my attempt at a green themed photo for today.

Had another tornado watch today. It was SO nice outside, the sun wasn't really shining and it was kind of grey but it was so humid, so much moisture in the air and it felt wonderful. I closed my eyes a few times to pretend like I was on the East Coast but I couldn't smell any salt in the air. It's just not the same. Anyway, I had to run some money over to Patty for my mom and then I took Patty to the grocery store. As soon as I picked her up at her house she goes "We have to hurry because there's a tornado watch."

Oh. My. God.

I was SO sure I was going to die today. Driving around while there's tornadoes swirling all over the state. Are you fucking kidding me?!

Ugh, so I drove her to the store as fast as I could and took her home and then freaked out on the way back to my house. I felt it coming on, my heart was beating in my throat and I could hardly breathe or see straight. I was so happy to get home and find out that the watch was over.

I can't wait to leave here.

I'm SO tired, my brain is fried. I can't think of anything else to write.

Goodnight. <3

stop looking at me schwans!

I hate the feelings that overcome me when i see someone that looks like you.

This happened to me yesterday. I actually was introduced to this person. So I stared mostly at the ground, but when this person asked me questions, I stuttered and I am sure i looked foolish, but only if they knew. How similar they look. The memories kill me.

Fuck.

My mum is getting on my back about revising even though she's been slack about it for the past month. Suddenly she's going to confiscate, and I quote, "everything good in my life." Phone, camera, computer etc.

My finger on the right really isn't that much shorter than my middle finger, I guess I was bending it back a little. I always get told I have the hands of a pianist... I just never got round to learning how to play.

Nirvana - Smells Like Teen Spirit

And then the doctor wants to have a regular conversation...

submission for Survivor flickr island.

oh man im going against the amazing Surrounded by light's submission im doomed. its over.

well im off to photography class my only class for the day YIPPEE!!!! my psych class canceled so i'll be freeeeeeee after 2pm :D

i'll be back heading to class now....

there was a story behind this. i tried to get it but i fell in sand and almost killed my camera. :(

project 365: day 132

TOTW: Bucket List: Travel old paths throughout the world

my mind is broken at times and an evil scary place to have to be in. Depression and insecurities can take over and make me think horrible things that I know are not true...but seem so real. It sucks to be stuck in there some times.

As in "ALMOST" straight out of the camera. Had WB set to ridiculous warm and every time I shoot from this vantage, I regret it.

This shot shouldn't have been taken because I was late (but as on time as I could be) for the sun's set, but with the clouds rolling from where I parked, I said "Just go there first, shoot a few, then run down the hill."

I should know better. Always go straight to where you intend to shoot from and don't mess around. Clouds overtook the nice little sun-gap by the time I could get down the hill (and believe me, I ran). I coulda had something special but I blew it. Oh well.

Not pressing the shutter again until at least the 23rd. Taking a little photo phast (fast) that can only do good for my life.

LST_41ra

06/07/08

...and it's 11pm and I haven't finished yet. >_< Glad the flight tomorrow is at 6pm...

Anyway, I don't think I'm posting until June 20th because I'm not bringing my laptop and I don't know if I'll have access to a computer or internet connection. I'll take lots of photos, I promise.

London, here I come! :)

Over and over again

Light with a sharpened edge

Cuts through the black empty space we call sky

Beginning the cycle that stays

And I know in my heart we all die

Like the day and the night

Like the sun in the sky

All this I'm giving up

It's not me

Bury wreckage my soul

It's not me

So who am I now?

It's not me

Bury wreckage my soul

It's not me

So who am I now?

Is there another side

Beyond the black and white?

A place I could meet you by

A place on the other side

I'll let you know when I go

I'll let you know when I go

When I'm gone

It's not me

Buried wreckage my soul

It's not me

So who am I now?

View On Black

Before you advertise

All the fame is implied

With no fortune unseen

Sell the rights

To your blight

Time-machine

While I'm dulled by excess

And a cynic at best

My art imitates crime

Paid for by

The allies

So invest

Now I'm finding truth is a ruin

Nauseous end that nobody is pursuing

Staring into glassy eyes

Mesmerized

There's a vintage thirst returning

But I'm sheltered by my channel-surfing

Every famine virtual

Retrovertigo

A tribute to false memories

With conviction

Cheap imitation

Is it fashion or disease?

Post-ironic

Remains a mouth to feed

Sell the rights

To your blight

And you'll eat

Now I'm finding truth is a ruin

Nauseous end that nobody is pursuing

Staring into glassy eyes

Mesmerized

See the vintage robot wearied

Then awakened by revision theories

Every famine virtual

Retrovertigo

Mr. Bungle - Retrovertigo

blip.fm/~crtkw

(sucky, I know , I know. )

blogged

My 1939 Ikoflex III (853/16)

That top light seal is really worn and needs to be replaced. It appears similar to a longer pile cotton velveteen and it is as flat as a pancake up top there.

-odio el fucking windows

-odio el helado de menta granizada

-odio perder cosas

-odio los tuppers sin tapa

-odio a la gente "perfecta"

-odio las baldozas flojas

-odio el mal gusto

-odio ese perfume con olor a yerbeado (mate cocido) que no sé cómo se llama

-odio la injusticia

-odio los zoos

-odio los circos

-odio a los perros pequinés por cascarrabias

-odio a los perros salchicas por tener la autoestima tan infundamentadamente alta

-odio que me digan lo que tengo que hacer

-odio a la gente pecho frío

-odio la mitad de la cama vacía

My 1939 Ikoflex III (853/16)

Film door is off kilter, that tiny little silver spring loaded button on the right (inside the camera) is also wearing a groove into the top of the film door.

My 1939 Ikoflex III (853/16)

Tiny little silver spring loaded button on the right (inside the camera) is also wearing a groove into the top of the film door. I don't know what function this little thing serves; perhaps it has something to do with my messed up film advance / counter. It is definitely pushing that top right side of the film door out slightly.

What's the point of wearing a cute top when you have such a *blip* head with a bike helmet ;)