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Title / Titre :
Her Personal Car. Perhaps the chief luxury of owning one’s personal car is the realization of complete personal independence /
Voiture personnelle. Le principal avantage d’une voiture personnelle est peut-être la grande indépendance qu’elle procure.
Creator(s) / Créateur(s) : Franklin Carmichael
Date(s) : 1927
Reference No. / Numéro de référence : ITEM 2962472
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Location / Lieu : Unknown / Inconnu
Credit / Mention de source :
Franklin Carmichael. Franklin Carmichael Fonds. Library and Archives Canada, e011309080 /
Franklin Carmichael. Fonds Franklin Carmichael. Bibliothèque et Archives Canada, e011309080
this is more of who i really am-
no makeup
no editing
of course i never wear makeup but still
just me :)
Art house Leidse Rijn Utrecht Netherlands - 2004-2010
Stanley Brouwn - artist - idea
Bertus Mulder - architect - realization
Project IIX - De Fantasie, Almere -
Behind the somewhat mysterious name 'Project IIX', hides the design of René van Zuuk and his family's own residence. The villa with a small office space is located right next to the architect's former residence Psyche (1989-1992) in Almere's The Fantasy district, an area for experimental housing. Because the old house serves as his architect's office since 2004, it occurred that the two plots could be consolidated into one garden. The garden area is optimized by leaving only the width of a parking space between Project X and its neighboring house. From an urban point of view three major considerations were important: the box-shaped appearance of all the Fantasy dwellings, the fixed building line and the pattern of alternating building heights. Placing the lower storey half below ground level resulted in House IIX being lower than the adjacent dwellings, thus fitting in the height sequence. The distance from the living room to the water is reduced to half a meter, creating a sense of living along the waterfront despite the rather modest size of the canal. This feeling is being intensified by the large expanse of glass in the living room offering a panoramic view on the canal. Only the exceptionally high entrance door infringes the closed appearance of the box-shaped upper storey enclosing the bedrooms. Its façade is cladded with large thin cement tiles with a continuing branch-like pattern of grooves softening and reviving the rigid box shape. The scanting daylight entering the bedrooms comes through roof lights and a few subtle 'eyelets' in the façade. Because of the small dimensions of the façade openings the main volume remains intact. The upper volume is separated from the lower storey by means of a glass strip. On the garden side the strip is storey high.
The basic design is largely defined by the latitude enabled by the Dutch Building Decree. The maximum volume allowed on the particular location is 500 m³, while the residence plus office required 750 m³. Nowadays the Building Decree creates the opportunity to build up to 2.5 meters outside an external wall, without submitting a planning application under the condition that it does not border a public street or public park. Therefore the building part perpendicular to the street is maximized in length to create as much extra building volume as possible. According to another provision in the Decree the extension can only start one meter from the front façade. To provide the ground-floor level with a uniform width, the upper floor protrudes one meter in the direction of the street. For the office section the rule that allows an annex up to thirty square meters without a planning permission is utilized. This extra part is constructed as a basement to make it secondary to the living area, despite its street side location. To emphasize its commercial and subordinate character the exterior concrete surface is left exposed. Inventive interpretation of these loopholes in the legislation has resulted not just in the space required, but also in unprecedented restrained and rich architecture.
Architect: René van Zuuk, De Fantasie 8, Almere, NL
Design 2003-2004; realization 2004-2006; GFS 215 m²; volume 780 m³
Stress is the cause of death
whereas self realization is the key to eternal life.
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His Holiness Shri Ashutosh Maharaj Ji is a visionary saint, whose motto is to establish World Peace by uniting all the inhabitants of the world into one ‘Global Family’ practising Universal brotherhood & human values. His Holiness’s approach transcends the utmost differences of caste, creed, race, class, gender, faith & nationality. Inspired by His Holiness’s appeal, millions of people revere Him as their Spiritual Guru, and experience inner peace, Bliss and harmony.
Divya Jyoti Jagrati Sansthan Founded and headed by Shri Ashutosh Maharaj Ji is a global network, a mission committed to establishing peace in human mind & actions. Ultimately translating the concept of World Peace into a tangible reality and creating universal culture of peace
Vision:
“From Self Awakening to Global Peace.”
Mission:
“To usher into a world wherein every individual becomes an embodiment of truth, fraternity, and justice through the eternal science of self-realization – ‘Brahm Gyan’, uprooting in its wake all social evils and threat.”
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Guru Siyag's Siddha Yoga method of meditation is a meditation technique or meditation method which is giving on the spot results just like a modern science experiment. Surprisingly in contrast to the fact that majority of Spiritual Guru's are minting money in the name of Yoga, Guru Siyag offers Siddha Yoga Shaktipaat Diksha to every interested Human Being absolutely FREE OF COST. Another Big misrepresentation about the Yoga is that it has been presented as a process which is learned, practiced and carried out by a practitioner with his or her mental and physical effort, where as the reality is that the Yoga is INDUCED AND CONTROLLED BY THE AWAKENED KUNDALINI SHAKTI, WITHOUT ANY MENTAL OR PHYSICAL EFFORT FROM PRACTITIONERS SIDE, YES, OUR BODY UNDERGOES AUTOMATIC YOGIC KRIYAS, MUDRASA, AASANAS OR PRANAYAM WITHOUT ANY EFFORT FROM OUR SIDE. This fact can be verified in just 15 minutes by following simple "Method of Meditation" available for Free Download on
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The method of meditation is as follows-
To start the real automatic spiritual ancient Indian Vedic Science based method of meditation, Just concentrate on Guru Siyag's Photo for minute, close eyes and imagine guru siyag's photo on the forehead between the eyebrows, simultaneously chant any one sacred word of your choice without moving lips or tongue, in mind. Before starting this, make a mental prayer to Guru Siyag for being induced by spiritual meditation for 15 or 20 mins. You may also see unlimited past and future during the state of spiritual meditation while following the method of meditation.
The systematic Method of Meditation -
Method of meditation step-1
Sit in a comfortable posture on the ground with crossed legs.
Method of meditation step-2.
Close the eyes and concentrate on the Forehead between the Eyebrows.
Method of meditation step-3
Make a Mental Prayer to that Supramental Force, saying that if the Supramental Force, Supreme Power, Comforter, Prophet or Kalki is Present on Earth, then I must get the proof, if the Supramental Force is Present on Earth, then I must go into automatic (Kundalini controlled) Spiritual Meditation for 15 or 20 minutes.
Method of meditation step-4
After this mental prayer start continuous mental repetition(Chanting) of any one sacred word of your choice(God, Jesus, Allah, Rama, Krishna, Buddha, etc.,) in the mind without moving lips or tongue, simultaneously keep concentrating on the forehead between the eyebrows.
Method of meditation step-5
Continue this process and within a few minutes you will be induced by automatic spiritual meditation, may even hear and see visualizations during this state of meditation.
Method of meditation step-6
Don’t panic if your body starts moving automatically during this process, these are the Yogic body movements (Real Yoga is induced automatically by inner spiritual power Kundalini), required to free the body from physical, mental and spiritual diseases of all kinds, these will stop automatically after 15 or 20 minutes, and you will come out of spiritual meditation into normal state.
Method of meditation step-7
To get complete results and benefits, it has to be practiced regularly in the morning and evening at any convenient time, empty stomach, before having food.
Method of meditation step-8
The time taken to get the results is very dependent on our Positive approach and curiosity to realize the truth.
Method of meditation step-9
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In the early 1950s, air forces around the world came to the realization that it made little sense to train pilots on older piston-engined trainers, then expect them to go from those aircraft to high-performance jets without a high accident rate. Most nations with an aviation industry then embarked on designing jet trainers and a training syllabus entirely with jets.
For the Soviet Union, it would not only need a jet trainer, it would need thousands of them, to equip not only its own air force, but those of the Warsaw Pact and client states. The Khrushchev regime learned that two of the Pact nations were working on their own trainers--Aero of Czechoslovakia was designing the L-29 Delfin (Dolphin), while PZL of Poland was working on the TS-11 Iskra (Spark). Surprisingly for the Soviet Union, it issued a requirement for the jet trainer and opened it up to a competition between the two aircraft.
Aero's L-29 was designed to be everything a trainer should be: easy to fly, easy to maintain, forgiving of mistakes, and capable of simple aerobatics. As Soviet doctrine called for aircraft capable of operating from austere airstrips, the L-29 was given a strengthened landing gear, and for either weapons training or in emergencies, could be equipped with four underwing hardpoints for bombs, rockets or gunpods. It was not particularly fast and considered underpowered, but that was less important in a trainer.
The L-29 would first fly in 1959, and went up against the TS-11 in 1961. To the surprise of many, considering the TS-11 was faster, the L-29 was declared the winner. Suspecting politics and wishing to keep some independence, the Polish Air Force would never use the Delfin, and would make the Iskra its primary jet trainer. For the rest of the Warsaw Pact and the Soviet Union, the L-29 would go into production. NATO would give it the reporting name of Maya.
Some 27 nations would eventually fly L-29s, as trainers, but occasionally in combat as well: Egyptian L-29s were pressed into service during the 1973 Yom Kippur (October) War as ground attack aircraft, and they were also used in the Biafran War of 1967-1970 and the First Nagorno-Karabakh War of 1988-1994 between Azerbaijan and Armenia. In these cases, the Delfin did not do well, but it was never intended to fight against modern air defenses. Saddam Hussein reportedly converted a number of his L-29s to drones, intended to carry poison gas towards Coalition forces in 2003, though they never flew.
While the L-29 was adequate, as aircraft got faster and more manueverable, the Delfin was becoming obsolete. In response, Aero designed the L-39 Albatros, a more advanced trainer, and L-29 production ended in 1974 after 3665 had been produced. Though most L-29 users replaced it with the L-39, some continued with the Delfin, and Angola and Georgia would use it as late as 2016. After the end of the Cold War, many Delfins became available on the open market, and while not as common as its Western equivalent--the T-33 Shooting Star--or its successor the L-39, L-29s are found in small numbers in the warbird community, and a few have raced in the Reno Air Races.
This L-29 is a former Soviet Air Force aircraft, serial number 591734, Bort 523. It was probably retired in the 1980s, and was acquired by an American warbird collector in 1997. When the owner was tragically killed in a helicopter crash in 2013, Bort 523 was donated to the Inde Motorsports Ranch, where it had been stored. While most Soviet L-29s were bare metal, the former owner painted it in this nice-looking gray and blue camouflage.
"Yogananda, who established the fellowship in 1920 spread his philosophy of yoga and meditation, is best known for his Autobiography of a Yogi. ... Ravi Shankar had met the Self-Realization Fellowship founder Yogananda in the 1930s and gave his first U.S. concert at the SRF Encinitas Retreat, Encinitas, California in 1957."
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Linda Lewis’s surreal digital composition, “Miscalculation Realization,” confronts the viewer with an apocalyptic vision that merges classical symbolism with contemporary existential dread—most pointedly, the catastrophic consequences of climate change.
The digital photomontage shows a nude man, with a white cloth draped over his shoulder. He is kneeling on the ground, his hands are open, and his face is lifted towards the sky. This posture indicates deference, and is a primal behavior. This man is clearly beyond saving from the inferno of burning sand and violent fire he is engulfed by. It could also be interpreted as seeking deliverance from the current situation.
Next to the figure rests an abacus—a powerful metaphor for the failure of humans to pay heed to climate change predictions. The man finally realizes that the predictions were correct, and he submits to this knowledge. In this reading, the image becomes a stark allegory for the hubris of modern civilization, that ignored decades of scientific warnings and now kneels, too late, before the flames it helped ignite.
The environmental message is blisteringly clear. The landscape is not simply infernal—it resembles a climate-ravaged Earth, stripped bare by wildfires, drought, and ecological devastation. The man, perhaps a stand-in for humanity itself, is caught at the moment of horrifying clarity: that civilization has miscalculated the fragility of its own ecosystem.
Miscalculation Realization is a haunting indictment of our failure (refusal) to heed the warnings of climate science, wrapped in the fire-and-ash aesthetic of mythic reckoning. Linda Lewis holds up a mirror to our collective delusion—that we could endlessly calculate, consume, and control nature without consequence. This is not just an image of the end—it is the moment after the final calculation, when the answer has arrived, and it is burning.
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University of the Future
Internationalism, innovation, diversity – the new Campus WU is the concrete realization of WU’s vision for a modern university. The fundamental principles of the new architecture reflect the values and ideas we cherish at WU.
As a public institution, WU has lived up to its responsibility of building its new campus in an economical, ecological, and socially sustainable manner. WU’s decision to locate the new campus in Vienna’s second district will redefine this area and transform it into an educational hub. We have not only constructed new buildings, but in the process we have also given concrete realization to our ideas of what the university of the future should look like. The new campus is more than just a place for academic research and teaching and learning practical skills; it is also designed to create a new space for social, cultural, and political life.
The imposing Library & Learning Center (LC), designed by the Iraqi-British architect Zaha Hadid, is a testament to the central importance of research and teaching at WU. The Library & Learning Center is surrounded by five building complexes, including the Teaching Center, which houses most of WU’s auditoriums. The Teaching Center is intended mainly for bachelor degree students, while the master degree programs are taught primarily in the individual Department buildings. The Executive Academy building is the home of continuing education and life-long learning programs. In this way, the various buildings and their functions reflect the three tiers of teaching and learning represented by the Bologna Process.
WU’s Department-based organizational structure was also a contributing factor. In the past, the various Institutes that make up the Departments were scattered across different locations. Now they have been brought together in four Department buildings, which will make life much easier for both students and faculty.
These are not the only improvements the new campus has to offer: All rooms have natural light, and the auditoriums feature state-of-the-art teaching equipment, including digital whiteboards. There are 3,000 student workplaces, three times as many as in the old buildings in Vienna’s ninth district. These workplaces are located not only in the dedicated self-study areas, but also in project rooms that can be booked by teaching staff and students alike. They cater to different needs by providing quiet spots for focused academic work as well as opportunities for work on group projects in communicationfriendly study areas.
The top priority in planning the new campus was to create an environment for WU students and staff that is conducive to productive work and communication.
Not only the buildings themselves, but also the surrounding grounds offer plenty of opportunities for communication and meeting people. 55,000 m² of Campus WU’s total 100,000 m² of floor and surface area is open, publicly accessible space. Fences or barriers would contradict our vision of an open campus.
Visitors and area residents are more than welcome at Campus WU. The campus offers not only food for thought, but also restaurants, cafés, and shops, all in a stimulating architectural environment.
As different as they may look, however, the buildings are all based on the same overall technical concept: the building infrastructure is standardized in terms of construction, energy supply, ventilation, and sanitary facilities. The entire campus has been designed in accordance with “green building” principles. Much of the required energy is obtained using geothermal energy from groundwater.
Another key feature of Campus WU is barrier-free accessibility. All auditoriums are specially equipped for people with disabilities, all areas are designed to be wheelchair accessible, and the campus also features a tactile guidance system for the visually impaired.
We have not only made sure to comply with all relevant legal guidelines, but we have also drawn on experience gained from best practice examples. WU aims to play a pioneering role – in all respects.
Plein air gouache piece at the Los Angeles Self Realization Fellowship Headquarters on Mt. Washington.
What would become the largest air cargo airline in history was begun by entrepreneur Fred Smith. While Smith’s realization of the explosion in air cargo services that would occur in the 1970s was by no means unique, his approach to it was. Smith decided that air cargo carriers of the time were too dependent on cooperation between themselves and airlines (which frequently did not happen), were too slow, and in any case completely dependent on ground carriers to carry goods from the airport to the end consumer. Smith wanted to found a company that would own everything from delivery trucks to services to its own airline, which would keep both operating costs and customer costs low, not to mention simplifying the entire process. Smith founded his new company as Federal Express in 1971 and began flights in April 1973. Because of restrictions on all-cargo routes and a lack of capital, Smith started small, with a fleet of 25 Dassault Falcon 20s. The Falcon was originally intended as a business jet; Federal Express used them as high-speed couriers.
Federal Express struggled, flirting with bankruptcy on several occasions, until the airline industry was deregulated in the late 1970s. This applied to cargo airlines as well, and loosened the restrictions on them. Federal Express was then able to purchase larger Boeing 727s, which allowed the company to move both larger packages and more of them. Added to the company becoming the first to computerized parcel tracking and management, and Federal Express was poised for huge growth during the 1980s. By 1989, it was the largest air cargo airline in the United States, and when it acquired Flying Tigers in the same year, it could expand its influence to Asia as well; European destinations were already being served.
Federal Express—which in 1994 adopted the common FedEx abbreviation as its name—had largely achieved Smith’s dream by the early 1990s, owning a gigantic number of ground trucks, stores, customs companies, and other services in addition to its growing air fleet. It continued to expand and prosper, becoming the first air cargo company to have a presence on the internet. In 2000, the air system became known as FedEx Express to differentiate itself from other branches of the Federal Express company (such as FedEx Ground). It partnered with the US Postal Service in 2001, adding yet more mail and cargo to its system.
Increasing operating costs have caused some cutbacks beginning in 2009 and the retirement of older aircraft, but FedEx Express is, by far, still the largest air cargo carrier in the world. In addition to its worldwide network, FedEx contracts with smaller, independent airlines to carry small cargo packages in regional areas, known as FedEx Feeder. As such, it is the largest operator of several aircraft types, including the McDonnell Douglas MD-11, and its Feeder system relies on no less than 250 Cessna Caravan 208s.
FedEx is one of the airlines that operates into Great Falls, which is a regional hub for it, regularly operating Airbus A310s, Boeing 757s, and Caravans. As such, it is well represented in the Poletto Collection! This Boeing 727 is finished in FedEx's 1970s-1980s colors, a very attractive purple over white.
A sad realization has come to me over the last few months, with NS starting to pull the 9400 and 9500 series Dash 9's out of service for conversion to AC44C6M's, it's only a matter of time before the thoroughbred painted Dash 9's (without the white stripe on the roof) will be nothing but a memory. I'm starting to now go out of my way to shoot these things, most of them well worn with parts of their paint melted, filthy and rusty. But it provides a look back to NS' better days, before all of the PSR and corporate shenanigans took place within the last few years.
With that being said, here we see thoroughbred Dash 9 #9709 heading east by Millbury with intermodal train 264 (formerly 22K) in tow.
The realization hit me I never took an individual pic of Bedlam, my Unoa Lusis, with her faceup, eyes, and hair. So here she is! First pic of 2014 goes to her. :D
Self Realization….
Sometimes I find it hard Being me…I work to realize my worth….
I know who I am….what makes me tick….
I have had a great desire for others to find it worth delving just beneath the surface…to see what I usually keep hidden.
Recently I have come to a strong realization. My desire for others to seek out what is underneath is not important….If I remain true to myself….to who I am…it will be seen….by ones that have the heart to see it…That is all that is important……
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Hindu Salvation is known as SELF REALIZATION ....meaning realizing one is indeed the immortal soul (Atman ) within the body and relinguishing the false belief that one is the perishable material body.
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What is Hindu Salvation?
Hindu Salvation is the process by which a person realizes that he/she is NOT the perishable body but the Atman-the immortal soul within.
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That is the reason why Hindu Salvation is known as Self Realization or Moksha (means emancipation, liberation or release from the cycles of birth, death and rebirth). realizing one is indeed the Atman (the immortal soul within the body) and giving up the false belief that one is the perishable body.
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Unlike scriptures of other religions, Hindu scriptures state Salvation is for all.
How can one achieve Salvation ?
Through one of the four paths
1 ----Jnana Yoga –path of knowledge
2---Karma Yoga -- path of selfless actions.
3 ---Bhakti Yoga -- Path of Devotion
4 – Raja Yoga – path of breath control and Pranayama.
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Unlike scriptures of other religions, Hindu scriptures state Salvation is for all.
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Unlike scriptures of other religions, Hindu scriptures state
Salvation is for the BEST among us as well as for the WORST among us.
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Unlike scriptures of other religions, Hindu scriptures state
You don't have to be a Hindu to attain Salvation.
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Unlike scriptures of other religions, Hindu scriptures state
Nobody irrespective of someone is Hindu or not is not denied SALVATION.
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Unlike scriptures of other religions, Hindu scriptures state
There is no such thing someone will rot in hell for eternity in Hinduism.
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I look like I'm waitin' for someone to just make my day here, but really...I'm trying to just be at peace with my situation, the path I'm taking, the friends I'm making. My dad said some things to me today that really made me stop. think. cry.
I'm ok, I do know that much.
There's nothing spectacular about it, but it gives me warm fuzzies. This store is probably the coolest place in Ocean Springs. It's all Walter Anderson branded items; purses, jewelry, paintings, clothing, cards, home furnishings and it's all in the L&N Train Depot downtown. I just like the warm, toned down colors in this shot. I wish I shot further up to get the top of the clothesline as a leading line, but I can always go back.
I was only thinking of shooting reflection of flash in this photo but during processing when I increases the brightness it shows me a "Path of Karma", i.e.. 'Geeta' at the right corner.
There's nothing as earth-shaking as the shocking realization that, unlike some of you out there, I am utterly and completely on my own... I can't tell my family what I'm going through, what I've been dealing with, and am still dealing with, for over 25 years so far.
I've worked so hard at hiding it from my parents and sister, in order to avoid any embarassing situations, but as I get older, and as long as I don't have plans set to finally get out on my own, it's suffocating me. I will work to get out on my own sooner or later. It will happen, it will just take a while, and a lot of personal (read as "financial") sacrifice to do so, but, mark my words, days like today (Tuesday June 15, 2010) just strengthen my resolve to make it happen.
Remember where I mentioned letting down my guard? It doesn't even have to entail having someone come in and catch you dressed up. It can be even something as subtle as maybe subconsciously calling attention to your nails, holding them out, and even the clear base coat being noticeable.
Well, Mom noticed, and gave me the marching orders to clip them. (I did, though not as short as she preferred. I am an adult, and I should be able to live as I wish, but ultimately, I will have to get out on my own. I can't do anything about not having any sort of plans that I should have had about 20 years earlier, but I can work hard to make up for lost time.) She also emphasized that I shouldn't put nail polish on.
I will not give up, I will not purge. I will just work harder to hide it. I shouldn't have to do this. I will not give up. The door was opened, I will not be forced back into a closet I've been trying to get out of. I have to find the answer for myself. I have to find out who I am.
But, it sucks... It hurts... I love my parents and my sister, but it hurts terribly to know that a handful of friends online and offline can understand and accept, but my own family can't...
What the hell do I do? I can't give up. I won't accept defeat. I will not fade away. I will make my mark upon this world somehow... I will overcome my fears. I have to conquer my fears and become stronger, for both sides of myself.
I will work harder...
(A faint ray of hope... She didn't notice that I went through another cycle of Nair on the arms (and chest), and that I slightly redefined my eyebrows... As long as I don't make drastic changes... I guess... I won't give up... regardless...)