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Every time I post a photo I question myself why do I continue posting photos and depending on the mood come up with different answers. My original intention was to make the feminine persona I portray visible while showing those who took the time to view the photos my approach to crossdressing. It did not take long for me to realize that the audience we reach in social networks, though limited to the gender identity realm, is quite diverse in interests and purposes.
Over the years, the comments that I have treasured the most had to do with an appreciation for how I performed the art of feminine illusion or, even more so, with how my images and thoughts had helped them in accepting themselves and finding a guidance on how to approach their crossdressing. In my early years on the Internet, along with a few likeminded friends, there were not many of us posting photos and therefore our posts were more meaningful and helpful. Today we can easily get lost in an ever-growing virtual community, as we gain acceptance in society and people realize the need to bring their feminine persona to life.
Why, then, do I continue to post when I get to dress so little and there are so many younger and more proficient girls leading the way? I have come up with a few answers that range from not loosing touch with a community that has given me treasured friendships and understanding; to, yes, see if I can age with grace and still measure up :) In conclusion, for as long as I get to dress even if it is once a year and I have the time to take photos and share them, I will keep a presence both here and on Facebook. Being here has always provided the means to be there for anyone who needs help or advice and, on the selfish side, feel useful in a field that I only those who know it can fully understand.
Often I have been approached, via message or in person, by sisters who mention not daring to contact me before because they thought I was some sort of celebrity that would never respond. Nothing could be farthest from the truth as can be confirmed by anyone who has ever written. I am here to share my life experience and will always respond to a message and even more so if it is asking fro help. I used to comment on friends posts on a regular basis but as our community grew, I had to stop doing that due to time constraints and my inability to keep track of everyone's posts. I have always hoped that my friends have understood that since, after all, for most of us, we have complex male lives to lead.
Love you all!
The text in Spanish will appear in the following post since duty calls :)
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El texto en español lo pondré en la siguiente foto ya que, por el momento, el deber llama :)
Me doing the household chores dressed in my new housekeeping dress from Simon Jersey (www.simonjersey.com/de/housekeeping-kleid-kragen-und-sch%...).
Hier mache ich die Hausarbeiten, erstmalig in meinem neuen Zimmermädchen-Kleid von Simon Jersey.
Despite the lifelong questioning, angst and confusion over my motivations I have about my transvestism I do know one thing, I truly love doing it! Increasingly, I find myself withdrawing and though I was never actually socialising as a transvestite, I feel in the current climate I should be more cautious and ensure I keep my activities very private and avoid any form of risk that may cause me to be outed.
I’ve noticed increasing hostility in both peoples attitudes and the media awards transgender people and to my dismay, publicly views are becoming polarised on both sides of the argument. I have in the past encountered negative and hostile experiences from within the rans community to my own personal feelings on my cross-dressing which has only made me feel in order to gain the most enjoyment I should avoid contact with others.
The current political situations are feeling more militant in general and I feel things are going backwards just now. I find the whole thing unnerving and I fear if I were to be discovered as a transvestite it would hurt my family. This is a prospect I cannot bear to even imagine so I think for me keeping things as private as possible is the safest choice.
You may ask then why am I posting here on Flickr? Despite my concerns and fears I still find I need some emotional outlet for my transgendered self and so, for now, I am using Flickr. It has not always been a comfortable place for me but cannot escape my need to have some existence as a woman. My Flickr photo stream is where the female aspect of me can feel alive. I do fear being undermined but I find writing alongside my pictures is a great hep to me in not being to contained about my transvestism. It is a risk and I feel certain one day it will be my undoing as I continue to post but it as an outlet that is helping me express my thoughts and the memories of actually cross-dressing as a woman.
My cross-dressing activities are limited, very rare and undeniably precious. Most men have no desire to dress amp and try to look like women so think we are weird for doing it. I don’t really understand why I desire to do it. I have at times thought I knew but my thoughts are never consistent. I do know I love it and feel amazing so that is good, a lovely reward for me. I do fear though what others would say if they found out. I have heard some very anti-transgender conversations recently in the workplace, many between women. It made me aware that attitudes with some people are not positive towards trans people. A few years ago I was rather hopeful as acceptance seemed to be improving in a positive direction. Political changes in the last few years seem to have set things back and made me wary.
I was considering my use of Flickr as I only visit fleetingly. I literally dip in and out of it about once a week. The act of posting a picture or video is the thing I need to do so the female she of me feels alone in some way. After that, I bide my time for the next, what I feel to be reckless posting as past history has proven to me that expressing one’s feelings can lead to derision.
As I mentioned though, I need an outlet so I go ahead and post. I’ll admit I dare not even look at anything I post once it is on Flickr. It is the actually act of posting that is fulfilling a need. If anyone were to comment on my postings I’m not sure I have the nerve to read them. I have never been confident about my cross-dressing abilities, I never have been and I’m unlikely to be in the future, it’s simply how I always feel about it. I actually feel less confident of my efforts as I get older. I think it's an ability you either have or you haven't. I've never believed I ever had the skills to look female but I definitely have the aspiration! I understand now that my expression of my female side is an activity that is always going to be one I do alone. I’m not depressed by that, so don’t think I seek sympathy as I do not. I actually feel safe with that scenario and more at ease as I am minimising the risks I fear that could undo me.
I accept others will hold different views to my own and have different experiences relating to their cross-dressing ll I am seeking is a scenario that I can feel comfortably and safe with and avoid any potential negative experiences. i do adore easing up as a woman and will admit to having worked on my physicality to favour looking more male than male. I don’t mean I have undergone any medical treatments or surgery, it’s more simple than that. I have worked keeping my weight down to have a better feminine looking figure and I have maintained shaped and groomed eyebrows for many years now as well as shaving my legs, chest and arms regularly. I also try to avoid developing a muscular look as I want my legs and arms to look more feminine than masculine.
All these little efforts are things that are worthwhile when I get an opportunity to apply make-up and wear a dress and high heel shoes and enter a more feminine world in my head. This picture is a still frame from a recent video (February 2019) which I felt captured my sheer joy at appearing as my female self, I was full of euphoria that night. Such moments are o powerful and the memory burns within me fora very long time.
In einem schönen 50er Jahre-Kleid meiner Freundin Conny.
Me in a lovely 50´s dress from my friend Conny.
I guess I need a new PRO-account. Is there any generous admirer out there...
Merci à toutes et à tous, pour vos sympathiques visites. Je reviendrai vers vous, dés que possible. Sincères amitiés.
Me in different leather skirts while visiting my friend Birgit. It was so nice to try on all these lovely skirts.
Hier sehr ihr mich in verschiedenen Lederröcken bei meinem Besuch bei Birgit. Es war einfach herrlich, diese verschiedenen Röcke zu probieren.
Me on the Lange Brücke in Erfurt while going out with my friend Conny.
Hier bin ich auf der langen Brücke in Erfurt während eines Spaziergenges mit meiner freundin Conny.
Lismore NSW 2017
you look down and i am
earth ground in sorrow
for the sky above that
may never know itself
I had no plan to post these pics as they were an experiment which is why the framing is a bit off. But I quite like the different feel they give and they show off what was under my lovely coat, for my shopping trip, in my earlier pic.
Me trying on a nice summer hat at the department store "Breuninger" in Erfurt.
Hier probiere ich einen schönen Sommerhut bei "Breuninger" in Erfurt an.
She wears the ballgown of her dreams in her beloved pastel pink color. She loves to be super feminine, chic and elegant and is truly having a blast, hence the cheerful happy smile on her beautiful youthful face. What a dream princess she is!
Being a lady in a pretty dress is my passion in life; it truly makes me totally happy. This photo shows that very well: this is not acted, this is not fake, this is authentic and 100% genuine. Pure feminine joy radiated into the world by a very happy lady in red.
At Keystone I got my "My Feminine Heart" pin from the amazing Cassandra Storm; founder of this club that helps so many in the Trans Community. Cass is an outstanding photographer and a great supporter of our community in different venues, including being part of the organization of The Keystone Conference.
Thank you Cass for all you have done for us, God will reward your efforts and kindness!
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En Keystone recibí mi pin que me identifica como miembro de "My Feminine Heart" de parte da la fundadora, Cassandra Storm. Este es un club que proporciona mucha ayuda a la comunidad Trans. Cass es también una fotógrafa excepcional que apoya en muchas áreas en nuestra comunidad, incluyendo como miembro de la organización de Keystone.
¡Gracias Cass por todo lo que haces por nosotras yDios recompensará tus esfuerzos y cariño!
This lovely RPPC portrait of Maude Fealy was postmarked Crewe Station, England on 6 November, 1904 and addressed to Miss F. Martin, Institution St. Joseph, 17 Rue de Monceau, Paris, Seine, France. No sender's name or message.
Face App is my new toy and it’s impressed this simple mind most well. Lots to keep you entertained and laughing too at what it reveals. You choose all the various choices you have, and there’s lots of them, especially in the upgrade/pro version.
I'm sure most will agree better with a wig, and this one is nice. It's so hard to decide which one to wear though. Maybe it's good that I don't have my own hair, it would cost me a fortune at the salon as I kept changing my mind. Not good for the hair either no doubt,.