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Daiko's face when the cat Lucy is sweet, this is a hdr try in CinemaScope and a textured sky,thanks for the visit have a wonderful day.

Happy Windmill Wednesday!

Fading old out buildings and equally losing windmill remind me of the great Depression of the 30's that plagued the Plains. Today large farms flourish but still can find pockets that look like the past.

Sony a7rII | Sony 24-240mm F3.5-6.3 OSS

portrait

So I found this snail on my walkway today. Figured a photo op was in order as it was in decent lighting conditions. I used manual settings and manual focus with a wide aperture hence just the line of shadow from the snail. (Very thin focal plane). No editing, SOOC. As I was photographing it, I thought of living inside of a shell like this and how it connects to depression. I think the two are closely related. All darkness with a wall around you wondering if one should venture out of their security.

Depression is nourished by a lifetime of ungrieved and unforgiven hurts

Variations of a Theme of Split Media. Images created in Deep Dream Generator (AI software). Image blending done in Photoshop CC.

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I'm human, and mistakes happen. I will wait though. I will wait so long. Are we that patient? I know I am stubborn. And I messed up.

Posting pt. 2 tonight

Chinatown Alleyway in Philadelphia

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Depression is difficult to live with when it raises it ugly head and digs into your soul, but when it does - for me - I find food is an issue and I go through many stages until I come out of the fog. Sugar, then cutting out the sugar means I get super hungry for other none or less sugary food, which eventually subsides and then the health habit kicks in for - well - for as long as it takes until the darkness falls again. Its a path without meds, but a path of these isolated pockets of addictions that somehow pretend to bring comfort but only really complicate the whole process. For me, anyway that is how it is.

I've been feeling something close to lonely and rejected, but I'm far from. Depression is peeking through again....

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"A dream is not reality...…." (Alice)

"Who is to say which is which?" (Hatter)

2019 coloured pencils. gel ink pen, acrylics on paper

I've never understood the name depression glass - the beauty of it makes me quite happy 8-) Or is it Mercury glass - as another friend has suggested... time to research this.

Depression in the ground, possibly caused by tin mining subsidence; John Wesley, leader of the Methodist movement, preached here on 18 occasions between 1762 and 1789. Remodelled in memory of Wesley into today's terraced 'amphitheatre' in 1806.

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*Injectable Generic Camera System

Depression

I took this three months ago when I felt like my world was falling apart. I was dealing with a lot of personal issues that were dragging me so far down. I honestly felt so hopeless and stuck and like I would feel like that forever despite anything. I felt every one of these emotions in this photo. I've been dealing with these feelings since I was very young, but the last five years or so have been the worst.

Just doing the most simple things were the hardest. Every morning I woke up feeling really afraid to get out of bed and live life. Like I was a failure and that nothing I did would change that. I started a new job which was very stressful for me, (just like any new job is) and was crying heavily every day before leaving for work because I just knew I was going to fail. I had never felt more weak in my life.

My loved ones were trying so hard to be there and support me, but nothing they did seemed to help. I was just so depressed and stuck it was awful. And I kept feeling even worse because I knew I was making their lives hard as well.

My boyfriend who has been amazingly supportive, reached out to me and asked me to consider seeking help. I really, really did not want to. The thought of talking to anyone about what I'd been dealing with was terrifying but I really was getting tired of being so sad all of the time.

So finally I got the nerve to find some help. I can't say that I'm 100% better and that everything is peachy perfect, but I am most definitely a lot happier with my life. Things have been so much better for me. I have a loving family, amazing boyfriend, and the greatest best friends anyone could ask for. So why shouldn't I be happy, right? I still have my hard days every now and then, but not as bad as it was by far.

Anyway, I had this idea for awhile. I was inspired by a random image I saw online. I wish I could remember where I saw it. I sat down to edit this right after I took it, and remember feeling so discouraged because I couldn't get it to come together like I pictured in my head. I cried for awhile about it but I couldn't bring myself to delete it off my computer. So I sat down last week and it finally came together like I wanted. This is honestly exactly how I pictured this image in my head and am super happy it came out the way I wanted.

Thanks guys.

Also I wrote this and I think that anyone dealing with these kinds of things should always remember this.

“Remember that no matter what you’re going through, everything is not always about you. And you have to remember to care for those, who spend most of their time caring for you.”

It does look like the shape of a big slice of toast

depression

Sculpture by George Segal in Bronze

Grounds for Sculpture, Princeton NJ

Leica M240

Canon 50mm f/1.4 LTM Lens at f/1.4

Postcard lyrics by Stephen Wilson

I think it's time that I got off the kitchen floor

But is there really any point at all?

Waking up this morning felt the same

Better sleep while life is so mundane

It could have been yesterday that I locked the door

I blocked the windows up so I can't be sure

Now I haven't even got the will to eat

I'm lame and self-obsessed, that I will concede

I'd like to light a cigarette but I cannot

The lighter's dead and the gas has been cut off

I'm the one you always seem to read about

The fire inside my eyes has long gone out

There's nothing left for me to say or do

'Cause all that matters disappeared when I lost you

Music: Steven Wilson - Postcard

www.youtube.com/watch?v=hVng38pfXd4

Taken @ Backdrop City

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George Segal - cast bronze 108" x 148" x 36"

Her feelings she hides

Her dreams she can't find

She's losing her mind

She's falling behind

She can't find her place

She's losing her faith

She's falling from grace

She's all over the place, yeah

www.youtube.com/watch?v=NGFSNE18Ywc

An homage. During the great depression of 1930's America, this farm tucked in the woods of Harshaw, Wisconsin was a place where poor families could go and work, grow crops, farm and survive till they could get back on their feet financially.

- Expressionism - Topaz (NOWM)

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Fotografas de John B

John Edward Bankson

Here is an update of some of my best photos from April of 2018.

depression

Benni is just tired