January 19, 2020: Today #took my Mum out for an #appointment she had. Then we went #grocery #shopping. Whatever #illness I’ve had this month I’m sure I got it from her, as she was very sick in December. But today she went downhill as whatever she had came back to bite her hard. I’m taking her to the #clinic in the morning. Something she wouldn’t do last #month. Stocked up on #veggies with the intent of making a #roast #chicken for #dinner but the fridge froze said #meat. So it was #takeout instead.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 19/366 still with #bronchitis (although my breathing has improved #dramatically).

These photos were initially posted on Instagram.

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January 15, 2020: #Sleeping has been my #default today.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 15/365 still with #bronchitis.

This photo was originally posted on Instagram.

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January 12, 2020: #Fever below 102 for #first #time in #days. The #dogs seem to love having me #home, it’s been nice to #snuggle Kira (my girl, the #white #maltipoo) and Tiffany (one of Mom’s two #miniature #poodles, the #brown one). This is post 12 of my subverted selfie project. 12/366.

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February 14, 2020: Searching for #balance and #peace through meditation during the #midnight hour.

Yesterday afternoon, I was in downtown Vancouver, #searching for a #dog #friendly #cake or other treats. I #parked and accidentally paid for parking but for way too long. Honestly, I felt horrible, like nothing in my life has been going well. From being sick, to falling behind in #school for the first time in a long time. Anyway, next to the dog bakery was a #fortune teller’s shop. Given I had time to kill, I decided to go in.

I’d never had a reading before, and was worried it would be like the Matthew Good song, SYMBOLISTIC WHITE WALLS, where Good sings how “…Well, I have a psychic and she says I'm lonely / She says my destiny is turning out all wrong…” Inside, there was an older woman and a younger one, who explained how their readings worked. I decided to go for a full life reading which started with a palm reading, followed by a tarot reading.

Overall, the reading was really good, even hopeful. Some highlights: I should live a relatively long life provided I address some health issues; I’ll have one kid; and a young woman I met last year is always thinking about me and cares for me deeply. And I was given homework, to help deal with my depression - #meditate, which is what I started to do tonight. I still have a long road ahead, but it’s a start.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 45/366 still coughing (when will it ever end?!).

This photo collage was originally posted on Instagram.

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January 5, 2020: Today’s #selfie is a #macro #composition highlighting 3 #necklaces I’m #wearing again. I had stopped wearing them when I studied #ceramics and #sculpture @kwantlenu, as it’s just easier to work in those areas without #pendants and rings on.

But last fall I noticed how an amazing young woman, Bianca, proudly wears her cross pendant on a necklace, which I believe she said had been a gift from her #father. I had my #cross since I was a #teenager but I stopped wearing it because I felt conflicted about it.

I was #baptized as a young man, but I have had trouble with the idea of the church itself in terms of it’s history of #abuse (be it how they ran Canadian #residential schools to the #crusades and countless #missions which, in most cases, utterly destroyed the rich culture, beliefs and histories of those they were trying to reform; or the sexual abuse #scandals and coverups have also been troublingly #atrocious as has been their treatment of the #LGBTQ community and a woman’s right to chose). Ultimately though, I chose to wear it not because of what the church has done in the past, but as an acceptance that there was a Jesus, a man who has been written about in both the Bible and the Quran - whose teachings highlight how #accepting he was of everyone. In a weird way it’s also impacted decisions I’ve made about what I’ve done and how I’ve acted toward others in the last few days. I’m more conscious about how my words and actions and decisions impact others.

The chain bellow it was a more recent gift from my #Mother. Finally, I bought the jade Maori Koru pounamu carving in April 2010. The round wave like koru symbol is said to represent new beginnings, growth and regeneration. And that’s why I’m wearing these again.

This photo is a part of my own #personal #photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 5/366.

This photo was originally posted on Instagram.

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February 21, 2020: The #wait to get my #blood drawn for #bloodwork.

Saw Dr. Sasi, who took over the #practice of my long time family #physician, Dr. Ivo David. The last time I had a complete #physical was just before Dr David sold his practice back in 2017 and the results scared me. Possibly #diabetic, #blood #pressure that was too #high, #overweight.

Flash forward to now and I’m in a place where I’m trying to finish the push I started to improve myself on all fronts where I know I had been #failing. And part of that includes taking care of my #health.

Next Friday I go in to find out the results and get a complete #physical.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 52/366 #breathing better tonight finally.

This photo was originally posted on Instagram.

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January 22, 2020: Driver’s #legs.

Part of my personal #photo #selfie project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 22/365 still with #bronchitis but pulling through.

This photo was originally posted on Instagram.

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February 20, 2020: In touch with the #emotional #resonance of my soul after a #sound #healing meditation led by the brilliant @theda.phoenix / @theda_phoenix - thank you Theda.

I want to describe this more deeply. I started off the meditation in a seated position, but soon let myself lay on my back on the #yoga mat I had brought, my head resting comfortably on my small yellow pillow. Eyes closed, Theda’s #music flowed over my being and vibrated to the core of my bones. At one point, I swear I felt the presence of my late Father, and I got choked up. I miss him so much, and it’s been a long deep seeded fear that I’ve let him down with the choices I’ve made (and continue to make) in my #life.

At another point, I heard a familiar voice come into my mind during my meditation, softly saying, “…I believe in you Steven Hanju. I have FAITH in your ability to do it, to do ANYTHING…” And I just started sobbing deeply, lying there, my eyes closed. And her voice kept repeating in my mind, “…I believe in you… I have faith in you…” I felt tears welling up in my eyes. I swear it felt like they formed pools over my eyelids before trickling down the sides of my face. My body shook as I started to match the words of the Angel in my mind, “…I believe in me, I have faith in me…” Those words had originally been said to me last fall, by someone I will always hold dear to my heart and what’s worse is I don’t even remember acknowledging her saying those kind sentiments, that to me felt more powerful than any “I love you.”

It took awhile before I found the strength to sit up at the end of the beautiful session. I was still shaking. Theda came over and sat with me, as she did with a few of us who had been deeply moved. She gently rubbed my back with her hand and I started to cry deeply again, and she hugged me.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 51/366 #breathing better tonight, finally. Feeling stronger physically, but broken emotionally.

This photo was first posted on Instagram.

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January 13, 2020: A #long #day that saw me get around a bit. Went to the #doctor, and he put me on stronger #antibiotics.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 13/365, today with a head #cold (or #flu or #bronchitis?).

This photo collection was originally posted on Instagram.

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January 20, 2020: Today I #woke up feeling #energized but soon after doing some #laundry I #crashed. Just no #energy. Mum said I looked #white as a #ghost and wouldn’t let me go out. So I #slept. Then I saw the #scale at my Mom’s place and climbed on, expecting to still be stuck at 230 lbs which is about the lowest weight I’ve been for twenty years now. So my surprise to see I’ve lost about fifteen pounds since last summer. I checked it twice and even checked it on an old manual scale.

Ideally I’d like to get to around 175 pounds which is my ideal weight. I need to tone up too. But for the first time in ever it feels manageable and within reach. Can I get to 190 by end of summer? 180 by December?

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 20/366 still with #bronchitis (although my breathing has improved #dramatically).

This photo collage was originally posted on Instagram.

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February 12, 2020: Capturing the #banal: getting my #hair #cut for the second time in 2020.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 43/366 still coughing (when will it ever end?!).

This post was originally posted on Instagram.

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February 7, 2020: Travelogue: From @thecityofsurrey to @audainartmuseum in Whistler.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 38/366, still coughing a bit.

These photos were originally posted on Instagram.

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January 21, 2020: Mum had a bad #fall last night around 2am. It wasn’t easy helping her up. Made her soup. Got her back to bed and she woke up feeling better. She’s also had bronchitis, for over a month now, although her doctor didn’t give her #antibiotics. I’m on my third different #antibiotic now as the first two didn’t seem to work. And when I first got sick, she thought she was better, but it came back hard again over the last few days.

So this morning, I decided to make us #waffles, which I haven’t done in awhile. They turned out good.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 21/366 still with #bronchitis but slowly pulling through.

This collection of photos were originally posted on Instagram.

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February 23, 2020: Man with dog. After a few strong weeks, I’ve found its true what they say - what goes up must come down. I woke up feeling great, ready to face the day. I had breakfast at Starbucks, did some work on my #laptop then went to get some groceries and it seemed to all #collapse inside. I think it was cause yesterday I was inundated on Twitter with #scammers, around a dozen different ones. I’ve been getting a lot since I’ve been posting daily on social media. I usually toy with them before reporting them to Instagram, but then I attacked someone who wasn’t a scammer and I offended them greatly. And I did genuinely feel bad about that. I think the inundation was eating away at my insecurities, it felt like no one was interested in me, just what they thought they could take from me.

It made me question my worth again, which I’ve done countless time before. It made me question why I seem to just push people away. So I slept a lot today, after having a really good talk with a friend. But I got next to nothing done, again. But I know I needed the sleep. Overall, I know I’m making strides with my mental well being and the direction for my soul. But today reminded me it’s not always gonna be easy.

My dog Kira stayed close today. She’s very sweet and loves me so much. I’m very grateful to have her in my life. She turns ten this year. There are times during her life when I thought of doing what I had tried to do in 2007. But I just couldn’t bear to leave her alone in this world. I love her so much.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 54/366.

This photo was initially posted on Instagram.

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January 24, 2020: In front of a gigantic Anselm Kiefer, at the @seattleartmuseum.

Part of my #personal #art #photo #project of 2020, to get a different #selfie shot of me everyday, photo 24/366 still with #bronchitis but pulling through. Definitely felt strong enough to make the drive south today 😃!

This photo was originally posted to Instagram.

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January 3, 2020: Flash #waters the #eyes when you take half a dozen #selfies with your #camera inches from your #face.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 3/366 with a head #cold (or #flu?). I feel like shit.

This photo originally appeared on Instagram.

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January 7, 2020: I’m thinking maybe I’ve ended up with Mum’s #bronchitis as I feel it’s moved into my chest. Can’t sleep. #Sweating. Chest smeared with @vicks_us #vaporub.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 7/366, today with a head #cold (or #flu or bronchitis?).

This photo was originally posted to Instagram.

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January 12, 2020: #Fever below 102 for #first #time in #days. The #dogs seem to love having me #home, it’s been nice to #snuggle Kira (my girl, the #white #maltipoo) and Tiffany (one of Mom’s two #miniature #poodles, the #brown one). This is post 12 of my subverted selfie project. 12/366.

This image was originally posted to Instagram.

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January 11, 2020: #Fever is #up and #down like a yo-yo. Coughing #badly, and my #lungs feel like two very full #hot #water #bags.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 11/366, today with #bronchitis.

These images were originally posted on Instagram.

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January 28, 2020: Before, during & after my #beard #wax today at the @thepxssyshop.

When my #aesthetician left to get more wax I quickly grabbed my iPhone and took a selfie. I’d never seen how the wax looked applied to my face. So thick! But it didn’t hurt, honest! Also had the honour of meeting @annikpaprika, owner, guru, proprietor and wise sage of the Pxssy Shop, the best place for waxing in Metro Vancouver.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 28/366 still with #bronchitis but pulling through.

The photos in this collage were originally posted on Instagram.

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January 10, 2020: #Snowfall. Thankfully with me being so #sick, I don’t have to #venture out in it. Was #coughing so hard today. Not fun.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 10/366, today with #bronchitis.

This image was originally posted on Instagram.

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February 9, 2020: Sometimes even the #dog has had enough of my #bullshit.

Part of my personal #photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 40/366, still coughing.

This photo was originally posted to Instagram.

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February 1, 2020: No selfie taken here. Today I got to meet #KungFu #Grandmaster and #actor Stephen Chang at an event where he discussed his career #practicing and #teaching Kung Fu & #TaiChi, #acting and #working in #film. A very #inspirational individual.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 32/366 still coughing a bit from my battle with #bronchitis.

This photo was originally posted on Instagram.

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February 24, 2020: Six in One Times Two.

Today was a much better day for me on an emotional and spiritual level. After some 4am-8am housework I decided to have a nap but then I slept in way too late. But I feel very #rested and #giddy. Which is a good thing I think.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 55/366 #breathing better tonight finally.

This was originally posted on Instagram.

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January 6, 2020: #Drive #photo still from video shot on iPhone mounted to #dash.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 6/366 still with a head #cold (or #flu?).

This photo was originally posted to Instagram.

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January 26, 2020: Was so tempted to load up on #chocolate and #chips today. I wanted to stuff my face even though two weeks ago I posted on @instagram how even the thought of junk food was making me sick. I had a @Pepsi in Seattle Friday. Then two Cokes and a Sprite yesterday and one Coke today. These are my first pops of 2020. Why couldn’t I drink water? I feel like I’m going to descend into eating shit again and put back on all the weight I lost.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different #selfie shot of me everyday, photo 26/366 still with #bronchitis but pulling through.

The photos in this collage originally appeared on my Instagram.

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January 4, 2020: Applying the #vaporub @vicks_us.

Part of my #personal #photo #project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 4/365, today with a head #cold (or #flu?).

This image was originally posted on Instagram.

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February 17, 2020: feeling more positive this morning after my fifth time #meditating since last Thursday night - and it was my first real morning session that I started about 20m before sunrise. I did something new here too, including an audio meditation on my playlist that had me concentrate on an aspect of my life where I’d like positive change and I focussed on a relationship that’s caused me a lot of #stress, one that I value and would love to have become much stronger. It felt good to concentrate on that. It’s definitely a meditation I will do again. Maybe not daily but every few days or weekly. Wanting to live my best life.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 48/366 not sure if I’ll be coughing today as I’ve found I wake up ok but worsen as the day moves on. My fever has been back, and I’ve been so tired. I just want to feel better!

This photo was originally posted on Instagram.

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January 8, 2020: Waiting for the #miracle to #come. Seeing #doctor. I’m thinking maybe I’ve ended up with Mum’s #bronchitis as I feel it’s moved into my chest. #Slept all day. Haven’t been this #sick in years.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 8/366, today with a head #cold (or #flu or bronchitis?).

This image was originally posted on Instagram.

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January 4, 2020: Applying the #vaporub @vicks_us.

Part of my #personal #photo #project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 4/365, today with a head #cold (or #flu?).

This image was originally posted on Instagram.

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January 4, 2020: Applying the #vaporub @vicks_us.

Part of my #personal #photo #project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 4/365, today with a head #cold (or #flu?).

This image was originally posted on Instagram.

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January 17, 2020: Tried #catching a nap waiting for Mum to get ready for an appointment. I really don’t want to drive anywhere today to be honest though. Still sick .

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 17/366 still with #bronchitis.

This was originally posted on my Instagram.

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From February 13, 2020: Felt truly giddy for the first time in 2020 but forgot to post yesterday.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 44/366 still coughing (when will it ever end?!).

This photo was originally posted on Instagram.

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February 5, 2020: Getting ready for the #day. #Brushing #teeth.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 36/366 still coughing.

This photo was originally posted on Instagram.

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February 6, 2020: Playing around in the deli with a new @ProCamera_APP for my #iPhone ... iso25, f2.2 @ 1s (manual mode - moved my iPhone a bit to purposefully introduce shake).

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 37/366 still coughing.

This post was originally posted Instagram.

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January 4, 2020: Applying the #vaporub @vicks_us.

Part of my #personal #photo #project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 4/365, today with a head #cold (or #flu?).

This image is a #collage of five separate images that made up an original post on Instagram.

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February 22, 2020: #Man in #red.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 53/366 #breathing better finally, but still tired a lot.

This photo was originally posted on Instagram.

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February 3, 2020: When you think #life is going well but then you get #punched in the #gut and don’t have the energy to even #cry.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 34/366 still #coughing a hell of a lot.

This photo was originally posted on Instagram.

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January 4, 2020: Applying the #vaporub @vicks_us.

Part of my #personal #photo #project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 4/365, today with a head #cold (or #flu?).

This image was originally posted on Instagram.

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February 15, 2020: Low #energy Steve, trying to #work but fell #asleep at the table for half the day. #Fever is back. Not cool. Major project due in a few days. I’m really starting to #hate myself again.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 46/366 still coughing, feverish (when will it ever end?!).

This photo was originally posted on Instagram.

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February 25, 2020: Getting down to work.

Came downtown to get some work done at @vancouverpubliclibrary. It’s been hit and miss. Okay, more miss. I’ve been terribly unproductive today, like I’m living in a fog.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 56/366 finally feeling good.

This photo was originally posted on Instagram.

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January 16, 2020: Tried #cleaning today. Wasn’t very successful other than #dusting a #nightstand and changing my #bedsheets. Fever is still high, coughing hasn’t subsided.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 16/366 still with #bronchitis.

These photos were originally posted on Instagram.

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January 14, 2020: Feeling a bit #better, but it’s undoubtedly because I’m highly #medicated.

One of two #inhalers my doctor gave me. They help me not #cough every second and have actually let me get some much needed sleep.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 14/366 with #bronchitis.

This photo was originally posted on Instagram.

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January 31, 2020: The red eye #allergic reaction of an #insomniac.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 31/366 still slightly with #bronchitis in the lower left lung but pulling through.

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February 19, 2020: Collage of 3 #photos taken at the end of my #meditation at around 12:20am.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 50/365 #breathing better tonight finally (haven’t been able to say that in two months now - January was so awful, and then the last few days were too).

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February 18, 2020: Collage of 4 or 5 photos. I’m feeling way more cantered today, but there have been times this week when I’ve still felt so fragmented and even broken, but in those moments I know I just have to remember how to #breathe.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 49/366, not sure if I’ll be coughing today as I’ve found I wake up ok but worsen as the day moves on. I’m sweating a lot, and my body can feel so lethargic at times.

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February 16, 2020: Back #home, way too much to #organize, especially when I feel like shit. But I know I’ll get it done. I have faith and confidence I can tackle this.

Slept a lot today, still slight fever of 101.4. Just very low #energy, like hard to move. #Coughing still, but not as bad as I have been. Trying to finish an assignment though so I can get on with other things that need attention.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 47/366 still coughing, feverish (when will it ever end?!).

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January 23, 2020: Waiting for the doctor. Fever seems finally broken, haven’t had one in a few days. Still coughing a lot though.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 23/366 still with #bronchitis but pulling through.

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January 18, 2020: Made it out to get #car #serviced. The #windshield wipers had also stopped working, and those are probably important. And I had forgot my #antibiotics at home. I walked up to White Spot and had breakfast, and I’m now gonna find a place to sit and wait, it would be nice to sleep 😴 .

Part of my #personal #photo #project of 2020, to get a different #selfie shot of me everyday, photo 18/366 still with #bronchitis, fever, sore throat, congested chest.

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January 9, 2020: #Fever has come #down a bit. Was 103.6 when I got home. #Chest is #gurgley when I #breathe. Start #antibiotics with #breakfast.

Part of my personal photo project of 2020, to get a different selfie shot of me everyday, photo 9/3656, today with #bronchitis.

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