March 8, 2020 Subverted Selfie Project Post
March 8, 2020: WARNING - THIS POST COULD BE TRIGGERING.
Not sure I should venture into this. My last post, “...if we could spread love as quickly & easily as we spread hate & negativity, what an amazing world we would live in...” was partly intended to be my last social media post, ever.
I felt really good yesterday. Got my haircut, took Mom shopping & had a late lunch with her. Took my friend @_arjundhillon_ to see the amazing @paulwongprojects give a talk about an important art project Paul tackled in the 1980s, at the @griffinartprojects in North Van.
I went for dinner with Arjun @oldspaghettifactory in Gastown. I felt genuine happiness as we drove there, I let out a few squeals & woo’s in the parking lot. With joy I shouted the name of the girl who’s had my eye ever since she showed amazing reverence to me last year. I had a skip in my step, I wished strangers MERRY CHRISTMAS & most laughed & wished it back. I greeted the staff at the restaurant with reverence & explained how I’d had a crappy few weeks but felt alive. Our waitress was so cute, and seemed to leave the table with a big goofy smile on her face after talking with us. I felt charming & confident as she seemed to genuinely enjoy my corny goofiness. The interaction came naturally which it rarely has for me & yeah, I felt great.
After dinner we met 2 friends to give them a ride home & I shared some of the negative crap I’ve been going through & one situation in particular that’s been all consuming.
After I dropped everyone off I felt an incredible sadness and loneliness move in like black clouds, feelings I haven’t felt in forever. I went home and looked for a hose - my intention being to drive to a country lane somewhere & just go to sleep one last time. But I couldn’t find a hose & one outside was frozen. The universe was not cooperating. I called a hotline in tears, falling asleep an hour later. I woke up relieved, tears in my eyes.
So I’m still here & not planning on leaving yet.
Part of my personal art project of 2020, to shoot a selfie everyday, photo 68/366.
This photo was originally posted on Instagram.
#selfies #SubvertedSelfies #365SelfieChallenge
March 8, 2020 Subverted Selfie Project Post
March 8, 2020: WARNING - THIS POST COULD BE TRIGGERING.
Not sure I should venture into this. My last post, “...if we could spread love as quickly & easily as we spread hate & negativity, what an amazing world we would live in...” was partly intended to be my last social media post, ever.
I felt really good yesterday. Got my haircut, took Mom shopping & had a late lunch with her. Took my friend @_arjundhillon_ to see the amazing @paulwongprojects give a talk about an important art project Paul tackled in the 1980s, at the @griffinartprojects in North Van.
I went for dinner with Arjun @oldspaghettifactory in Gastown. I felt genuine happiness as we drove there, I let out a few squeals & woo’s in the parking lot. With joy I shouted the name of the girl who’s had my eye ever since she showed amazing reverence to me last year. I had a skip in my step, I wished strangers MERRY CHRISTMAS & most laughed & wished it back. I greeted the staff at the restaurant with reverence & explained how I’d had a crappy few weeks but felt alive. Our waitress was so cute, and seemed to leave the table with a big goofy smile on her face after talking with us. I felt charming & confident as she seemed to genuinely enjoy my corny goofiness. The interaction came naturally which it rarely has for me & yeah, I felt great.
After dinner we met 2 friends to give them a ride home & I shared some of the negative crap I’ve been going through & one situation in particular that’s been all consuming.
After I dropped everyone off I felt an incredible sadness and loneliness move in like black clouds, feelings I haven’t felt in forever. I went home and looked for a hose - my intention being to drive to a country lane somewhere & just go to sleep one last time. But I couldn’t find a hose & one outside was frozen. The universe was not cooperating. I called a hotline in tears, falling asleep an hour later. I woke up relieved, tears in my eyes.
So I’m still here & not planning on leaving yet.
Part of my personal art project of 2020, to shoot a selfie everyday, photo 68/366.
This photo was originally posted on Instagram.
#selfies #SubvertedSelfies #365SelfieChallenge