yusuf_alioglu
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My Interplanetary Memories
Interplanetary Travel
Every day that I wake up on other planets meant the beginning of a new unknown for me. Every sunset meant the start of a new sky feast. I felt very lucky sometimes. It was indeed a great chance for me to witness these unique space landscapes. It took my breath away from these magnificent sights. I began to look forward to the sunsets. On some planets, the day could last quite long. It took me a long time to get used to these conditions. In fact, I can't say that I'm still fully used to this situation. The solstice time of each planet was different, after all. Considering the time I've spent in dark space, I can't say I worry much about the long solstices on the planets I've visited. I miss the geographies illuminated by sunlight and stepping on the ground during the time I spend in the vacuum of space. Therefore, the different solstice times of the planets I visited were not such a problem for me to worry about. It's just that long time spent in the sun can sometimes damage my skin. I could have devices that break down due to overheating. Sleeping under a bright sky was a very different experience for me. This challenged me at first, as human biology is accustomed to sleeping in the dark. While I was in the world, I did not see much benefit, even though I practiced sleeping during the day. This situation caused my sleep pattern to be disrupted. I was awake when I needed to sleep, and sleeping when I needed to be awake. I was trying to establish an order for myself in the cosmic life. And I had more than enough time for that. However, in all my time spent in space, I have never been able to form an order. Each new planet meant a new order. It was necessary to establish that order, and then to keep up with that order. And I was starting to feel quite overwhelmed by this situation. I realized that I was overwhelmed by this situation when I started doing a lot of new and unnecessary research in order not to leave the planet I last visited. I was constantly traveling around the planet collecting rock, soil, and biological samples from different parts of the planet. However, I had already completed my work on the planet. I was wasting my time in vain collecting the same pieces of rock and earth. In fact, all I wanted was not to visit another planet. So I wouldn't have to make a new start. I would feel as if I had entered a settled life. That would have made me happy. At least I thought I would be happy. I just wanted a place I could call home. But the extra time I've spent on the planet has made me realize how lonely I am. The realization of my loneliness has caused the mental depression I have been experiencing lately. While I was on planet Earth, maybe I should never have deviated from the plan prepared for me. Then maybe I would never have realized my loneliness. I do not know. I don't know anything about myself right now. And this obscurity pushes me into even deeper spiritual problems. I can feel this. I have so many maybe in my head. I don't want to add another sentence that starts with maybe.
I just want to end. So.
Camera: Canon EOS Kiss X7i
Photograph by Yusuf Alioglu
Location: Outer space (space)
Disappear
Disappear
My Interplanetary Memories
Interplanetary Travel
Every day that I wake up on other planets meant the beginning of a new unknown for me. Every sunset meant the start of a new sky feast. I felt very lucky sometimes. It was indeed a great chance for me to witness these unique space landscapes. It took my breath away from these magnificent sights. I began to look forward to the sunsets. On some planets, the day could last quite long. It took me a long time to get used to these conditions. In fact, I can't say that I'm still fully used to this situation. The solstice time of each planet was different, after all. Considering the time I've spent in dark space, I can't say I worry much about the long solstices on the planets I've visited. I miss the geographies illuminated by sunlight and stepping on the ground during the time I spend in the vacuum of space. Therefore, the different solstice times of the planets I visited were not such a problem for me to worry about. It's just that long time spent in the sun can sometimes damage my skin. I could have devices that break down due to overheating. Sleeping under a bright sky was a very different experience for me. This challenged me at first, as human biology is accustomed to sleeping in the dark. While I was in the world, I did not see much benefit, even though I practiced sleeping during the day. This situation caused my sleep pattern to be disrupted. I was awake when I needed to sleep, and sleeping when I needed to be awake. I was trying to establish an order for myself in the cosmic life. And I had more than enough time for that. However, in all my time spent in space, I have never been able to form an order. Each new planet meant a new order. It was necessary to establish that order, and then to keep up with that order. And I was starting to feel quite overwhelmed by this situation. I realized that I was overwhelmed by this situation when I started doing a lot of new and unnecessary research in order not to leave the planet I last visited. I was constantly traveling around the planet collecting rock, soil, and biological samples from different parts of the planet. However, I had already completed my work on the planet. I was wasting my time in vain collecting the same pieces of rock and earth. In fact, all I wanted was not to visit another planet. So I wouldn't have to make a new start. I would feel as if I had entered a settled life. That would have made me happy. At least I thought I would be happy. I just wanted a place I could call home. But the extra time I've spent on the planet has made me realize how lonely I am. The realization of my loneliness has caused the mental depression I have been experiencing lately. While I was on planet Earth, maybe I should never have deviated from the plan prepared for me. Then maybe I would never have realized my loneliness. I do not know. I don't know anything about myself right now. And this obscurity pushes me into even deeper spiritual problems. I can feel this. I have so many maybe in my head. I don't want to add another sentence that starts with maybe.
I just want to end. So.
Camera: Canon EOS Kiss X7i
Photograph by Yusuf Alioglu
Location: Outer space (space)