When Is It Time?

When is it time to say goodbye,

To all the love I've known,

When is it time to end your pain,

And leave me all alone?

 

I've watched you on your good days when

I feel your strength renewed;

But shortly after little ups,

The down days then ensue.

 

We ride this roller-coaster of

Emotions as we try,

To make it through another day,

And yet, I can't deny ...

 

That as I look into your face

On days that have been bad,

I see a look that beckons me

It's tired, and hurt, and sad.

 

The little spark I used to see

Behind those loving eyes,

Is growing ever clouded

By life's cruel inhumane side.

 

I try to see beyond the pain

You feel with every step;

And softly whisper to myself

This may get better yet.

 

If I can bear to watch you

Just another day or two;

I justify my reasons to

Ensure I cling to you.

 

For letting go is harder for

The person left behind;

It means that if I let you go,

I cannot turn back time.

 

Back to the days I long for now,

When you were full of life;

And every day held promise,

And our futures, clear and bright.

 

But now the lights are darkening ...

We take it daily now;

I cannot see our futures clear

Or think beyond this cloud.

 

I think the hardest part in this

Is never knowing why,

I have to be courageous

And I have to say goodbye.

 

For if I let myself admit

It's time to let you go;

I'd have to face reality

Without you ... but I know ...

 

That soon I have to face the

Final outcome that I dread,

And holding on will only serve

To hurt you in the end.

 

You've given such unselfish love

For all our time in life,

But if I hold too tightly,

You'll not move t'ward the light ...

 

On to a better life, where you

Can once again be free,

Of all the pain and discomfort

That holds you here to me.

 

So if I find the courage just to say

This last farewell,

I hope you will forgive me for

The time it took me; still ...

 

I'll hold with me, the memories

That in my heart remain,

Pray one day, down the road a'ways

... They'll lesson my own pain.

(by Kit McCallum)

 

 

Today January 5th 2010, i make decision to put to rest my beloved Kintamani Dog, Basil. He was suffered by cancer. Now part of my life has gone...the tears seemed never-ending...

3 years together seemed to be very short..but i thank you for all the time we spend.....till we meet again my Little Angel...i'll always love you!

Done