Tom Kondrat
waterfall
Agfa Box 44 from 1930s
expired Kodak Portra 160, pushed two stops
Inspired by the movie 'Wings of desire' and its remake 'City of angels', I wanted to do this project for a long time. I even started it some time ago as self-portraits wearing long, leather, black jacket:
www.flickr.com/photos/toguko/4741327405/
But this time, I thought I would do something different. I think the use of the traditional, red, Chinese dress was more for the visual reasons in the beginning. Then I started to think what I wanted to show in this project. And the word 'nostalgia' came to my mind in a natural way - the use of an old camera, expired films, dress from another era, showing longing for the past. But when I developed the films, I was disappointed with the results. I was hoping they would look like old photographs. The colours came out more vivid than when using normal kodak portra 160 (perhaps because mine was expired and pushed two stops when developed). I felt that this is not what I wanted and also that it is not really my style. I guess I had some expectations about the whole thing.
And then I thought that I did the best I could, given the tools I have at the moment (I had to sell all my equipment for personal reasons and only kept my grandfather's camera for sentimental reasons and was left with few boxes of kodak portra 160 that I didn't sell) and that the final results were actually not up to me. I felt that this was a great lesson of humility, letting go, diminishing my ego and expectations, trying to deal with my 'control freak' and perfectionist side. So my new idea for the name of this project is 'humility', for the reasons above but also because of the small figure in the vastness of the landscapes (universe) as I am trying to show how small and insignificant we all are.
The other thing I thought about is what does the model feel/experience. What is her perspective.
Changed the name of the project to 'h&n' (for humility&nostalgia but also here&now).
I wonder what you think.
waterfall
Agfa Box 44 from 1930s
expired Kodak Portra 160, pushed two stops
Inspired by the movie 'Wings of desire' and its remake 'City of angels', I wanted to do this project for a long time. I even started it some time ago as self-portraits wearing long, leather, black jacket:
www.flickr.com/photos/toguko/4741327405/
But this time, I thought I would do something different. I think the use of the traditional, red, Chinese dress was more for the visual reasons in the beginning. Then I started to think what I wanted to show in this project. And the word 'nostalgia' came to my mind in a natural way - the use of an old camera, expired films, dress from another era, showing longing for the past. But when I developed the films, I was disappointed with the results. I was hoping they would look like old photographs. The colours came out more vivid than when using normal kodak portra 160 (perhaps because mine was expired and pushed two stops when developed). I felt that this is not what I wanted and also that it is not really my style. I guess I had some expectations about the whole thing.
And then I thought that I did the best I could, given the tools I have at the moment (I had to sell all my equipment for personal reasons and only kept my grandfather's camera for sentimental reasons and was left with few boxes of kodak portra 160 that I didn't sell) and that the final results were actually not up to me. I felt that this was a great lesson of humility, letting go, diminishing my ego and expectations, trying to deal with my 'control freak' and perfectionist side. So my new idea for the name of this project is 'humility', for the reasons above but also because of the small figure in the vastness of the landscapes (universe) as I am trying to show how small and insignificant we all are.
The other thing I thought about is what does the model feel/experience. What is her perspective.
Changed the name of the project to 'h&n' (for humility&nostalgia but also here&now).
I wonder what you think.