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342/365: Tutu #2
I finished it today! Although, for a more accurate representation of its color, please see it here.
Perfect timing, because I still feel like crap and this way I can STILL get away with not showing my makeup-less face, as I have been doing since Tuesday ;-)
50 Random Facts About Me
#27: The reason I had to have my gallbladder removed is because I had so LITTLE fat in my diet, all the bile sat there and did not do its job breaking down fat and it turned into stones. I have always been on the average to a little chubby side, and have went up and down as I think all women have...but I was always convinced I was totally fat.
But I was so obsessed with looking 'perfect' and people in my own family would always give me a hard time to lose a few pounds so I made up my own diet which was basically no more then 500 calories a day and as little to no fat as possible. I ate rice and steamed veggies and not much else. Yes I am aware how unhealthy it was so I really don't want lectures on it. It has truly fucked up my body ever since. I lost too much weight very quickly and I was bony and gross for about a year and now besides losing my gallbladder my weight fluctuates very easily and my whole system is out of whack and may very well be forever.
It was drilled into my head by the media and by FAMILY that if I was not stick-thin I was not beautiful and would never get a husband or whatever and I believed it. I know it is not true but there is a part of me that still feels like I will never be thin enough or pretty enough or perfect enough.
(NOTE: these Random Facts are not to get reaction, but it was my choice on finding an interesting way to end out my Year 1 and maybe share some things about me that make me who I am. If you don't like it, don't read it. But I am not looking for sympathy or compliments or anything else. I chose on purpose to have some funny ones, some weird ones, etc...and I had reasons for it.)
342/365: Tutu #2
I finished it today! Although, for a more accurate representation of its color, please see it here.
Perfect timing, because I still feel like crap and this way I can STILL get away with not showing my makeup-less face, as I have been doing since Tuesday ;-)
50 Random Facts About Me
#27: The reason I had to have my gallbladder removed is because I had so LITTLE fat in my diet, all the bile sat there and did not do its job breaking down fat and it turned into stones. I have always been on the average to a little chubby side, and have went up and down as I think all women have...but I was always convinced I was totally fat.
But I was so obsessed with looking 'perfect' and people in my own family would always give me a hard time to lose a few pounds so I made up my own diet which was basically no more then 500 calories a day and as little to no fat as possible. I ate rice and steamed veggies and not much else. Yes I am aware how unhealthy it was so I really don't want lectures on it. It has truly fucked up my body ever since. I lost too much weight very quickly and I was bony and gross for about a year and now besides losing my gallbladder my weight fluctuates very easily and my whole system is out of whack and may very well be forever.
It was drilled into my head by the media and by FAMILY that if I was not stick-thin I was not beautiful and would never get a husband or whatever and I believed it. I know it is not true but there is a part of me that still feels like I will never be thin enough or pretty enough or perfect enough.
(NOTE: these Random Facts are not to get reaction, but it was my choice on finding an interesting way to end out my Year 1 and maybe share some things about me that make me who I am. If you don't like it, don't read it. But I am not looking for sympathy or compliments or anything else. I chose on purpose to have some funny ones, some weird ones, etc...and I had reasons for it.)