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*Thank you to one of the few Aussies in here that you can tap into for your daily take of %#ts and giggles.
Mr Clown you are a gentleman.
Watch out sl the Australian population is growing.
For details.
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Bolero and Dress - Absence "Belle" @ Kinky Event
LM: Kinky Event
LM: Absence
Other items:
Skin - Guapa
Hair - Magika
Eyes - Sucidal Unborn @ Anthem
Brows - Maena
Eyeshadow and lipstick - Maena @ Anthem
Nails - Suicidal Unborn
Earrings - Suicidal Unborn
Legs tattoo - Arana
Rings - Yummy
Pose - Tsuki
✞ＨＥＡＤ ✞
✘ LeL // VELA Head
✘ LEX // miHD TrueShape ears
✘ TRUTH // Solstice + Braids Hair
✘ Just Magnetized // Mara Eyebrows
✘ Suicidal Unborn // Incantation Eyes [R] & Solacium Eyes [L]
✘ MILA // Burnout Eye Bags
✘ Suicidal Unborn // Maledicta Lower Lashes
✘ Suicidal Unborn // Coven Lip Gloss [Occulet]@ Crowdemic
✘ Suicidal Unborn // Ophelia's Mourning Contour
✘ MAENA // Blair Scar [Eye/cheek 20%]
✘ MAENA // SYBIL Skin [Crystal 1]
✞ ＰＩＥＲＣＩＮＧＳ ✞
ᴀꜱᴄᴇɴᴛ Samhain Piercing [Forehead] @ SABBATH
✘ Suicidal Unborn // Spikora Piercing Set
✘ Suicidal Unborn // Profana Earrings
✘ ᴀꜱᴄᴇɴᴛ // First Earrings [Lex True Shape 4 F]
✘ ᴀꜱᴄᴇɴᴛ // Lust Piercings [Medusa]
✘ ᴀꜱᴄᴇɴᴛ // Nexus Mid Lip Piercing
✘ ʙᴏʀᴅᴇʀʟɪɴᴇ // bound necklace
✘ ɪᴍᴘᴇʀɪᴀ // Devoted Touch [Fingers V1 & V2]
✞ ＢＯＤＹ / ＴＡＴＴＯＯＳ ✞
✘ REBORN by eBODY
✘ Sucidal Unborn // Sacrilegium Nails & Crosses
✘ xᴛᴄ // Oblivion Tattoo - RAW [65%]
✘ MAENA // VESPER BODY VEINS [100%]
✘ SAXO // Cold Body [Soft]
✘ SAXO // Deformed Body [Soft]
✘ VUDU TATTOO // Thigh Scratches/Scars [40%]
✘ BoatAom // body/Prncess [Crystal 01]
✞ ＡＣＣＥＳＳＯＲＩＥＳ ✞
✘ WabiSabi // Morgana Crystal [White] @ Crowdemic
✞ ＯＵＴＦＩＴ ✞
✘ ꜱᴛɪꜰꜰ // Maya Top
✘ ꜱᴛɪꜰꜰ // Maya Shorts
✘ ardor // wool socks
✘ GRABZ // MORA SLIPPERS
I'm on ᴘʀɪᴍꜰᴇᴇᴅ , follow me or don't its whatever. lol
I also use ꜰᴀᴄᴇʙᴏᴏᴋ, follow me there if you aren't already.
✞ＨＥＡＤ ✞
✘ LeL // VELA Head
✘ LEX // miHD TrueShape ears
✘ TRUTH // Collective Chrome *NEW*
✘ Just Magnetized // Mara Eyebrows
✘ Suicidal Unborn // ISolacium Eyes
✘ MILA // Burnout Eye Bags
✘ Suicidal Unborn // Maledicta Lower Lashes
✘ Suicidal Unborn // Coven Lip Gloss [Occulet]@ Crowdemic
✘ Suicidal Unborn // Ophelia's Mourning Contour
✘ MAENA // Blair Scar [Eye/cheek 20%]
✘ MAENA // SYBIL Skin [Crystal 1]
✞ ＰＩＥＲＣＩＮＧＳ ✞
✘ ᴀꜱᴄᴇɴᴛ Samhain Piercing [Forehead] @ SABBATH
✘ Suicidal Unborn // Spikora Piercing Set
✘ Suicidal Unborn // Profana Earrings
✘ ᴀꜱᴄᴇɴᴛ // First Earrings [Lex True Shape 4 F]
✘ ᴀꜱᴄᴇɴᴛ // Lust Piercings [Medusa]
✘ ᴀꜱᴄᴇɴᴛ // Nexus Mid Lip Piercing
✘ ʙᴏʀᴅᴇʀʟɪɴᴇ // bound necklace
✘ ɪᴍᴘᴇʀɪᴀ // Devoted Touch [Fingers V1 & V2]
✞ ＢＯＤＹ / ＴＡＴＴＯＯＳ ✞
✘ REBORN by eBODY
✘ Sucidal Unborn // Sacrilegium Nails & Crosses
✘ MAENA // MOTH TATTOO [FADED]
✘ MAENA // VESPER BODY VEINS [100%]
✘ SAXO // Cold Body [Soft]
✘ SAXO // Deformed Body [Soft]
✘ BoatAom // body/Prncess [Crystal 01]
✞ ＡＣＣＥＳＳＯＲＩＥＳ ✞
✘ Fatal Lament // Narcissus Shades
✘ ʙᴏʀᴅᴇʀʟɪɴᴇ // Reminiscent Necklace
✘ ᴡʀᴀɪᴛʜ // Jelly Bracelets
✞ ＯＵＴＦＩＴ ✞
✘ ɪᴍᴘᴇʀɪᴀ // Soto Tank [FATPACK] @ Anthem
✘ ɪᴍᴘᴇʀɪᴀ // Soto Trousers [FATPACK] @ Anthem
✞ ＰＯＳＥ✞
✘ STUN Poses // Endsinger 3
I'm on ᴘʀɪᴍꜰᴇᴇᴅ , follow me or don't its whatever. lol
I also use ꜰᴀᴄᴇʙᴏᴏᴋ, follow me there if you aren't already.
ＡＤ ✞
✘ LeL // VELA Head
✘ LEX // miHD TrueShape ears
✘ nova // Lilac
✘ Just Magnetized // Mara Eyebrows
✘ Suicidal Unborn // Beatrice Contact Lenses
✘ MILA // Burnout Eye Bags
✘ Suicidal Unborn // Maledicta Lower Lashes
✘ Suicidal Unborn // Coven Lip Gloss [Occulet]@ Crowdemic
✘ Suicidal Unborn // Ophelia's Mourning Contour
✘ MAENA // Blair Scar [Eye/cheek 20%]
✘ MAENA // SYBIL Skin [Crystal 1]
✞ ＰＩＥＲＣＩＮＧＳ ✞
✘ Suicidal Unborn // Spikora Piercing Set
✘ ᴀꜱᴄᴇɴᴛ // First Earrings [Lex True Shape 4 F]
✘ ᴀꜱᴄᴇɴᴛ // Lust Piercings [Medusa]
✘ ᴀꜱᴄᴇɴᴛ // Nexus Mid Lip Piercing
✘ ʙᴏʀᴅᴇʀʟɪɴᴇ // bound necklace
✘ ɪᴍᴘᴇʀɪᴀ // Devoted Touch [Fingers V1 & V2]
✞ ＢＯＤＹ / ＴＡＴＴＯＯＳ ✞
✘ REBORN by eBODY
✘ Sucidal Unborn // Sacrilegium Nails & Crosses
✘ WIHK // Consecratus Tattoo [Faded]
✘ MAENA // VESPER BODY VEINS [100%]
✘ SAXO // Cold Body [Soft]
✘ SAXO // Deformed Body [Soft]
✘ VUDU TATTOO // Thigh Scratches/Scars [40%]
✘ BoatAom // body/Prncess [Crystal 01]
✞ ＡＣＣＥＳＳＯＲＩＥＳ ✞
✘ ᴇQᴜᴀʟ // Vortex Shades[Piercing Ed] @ FaMESHed
✘ aYa // Collar Ironmaw
✞ ＯＵＴＦＩＴ ✞
✘ ɪᴍᴘᴇʀɪᴀ // Dounia Tube [Squish] @ ᴀꜱᴛʀᴏᴘʜᴇ
✘ angelguts // immoralist skirt@ DisturbeD
✘ violxnce // Acid Tights [V2] @ DisturbeD
✘ 718 // FAFO Stompers [Pudge] @ Crowdemic
I'm on ᴘʀɪᴍꜰᴇᴇᴅ , follow me or don't its whatever. lol
I also use ꜰᴀᴄᴇʙᴏᴏᴋ, follow me there if you aren't already.
::Body::
[Skin]: Insol - Seo - Peach
[Body]: Maitreya – Lara
[Hair]: Doux - Sorcha @ Equal10
[Hair Base]: SIIX// Arabian Hairbase
[Eyes]: Sucidal Unborn - Astrid
[Ears]: Swallow - Magic Pixie Ears
[Shape] Custom Made by me.
::Clothing::
[Outfit]: Aleutia - Vasilisa @ Enchantment
::Accessories::
[Necklace]: BEO - Liona
[Crown]: The Mystic - WoodFairy Flowers Crown @ Enchantment
[Umbrella]: Nani - Dreamy Pond - Lilypad Umbrella
[Rings]: SpotCat - Night Life @ Liaison Collaborative
[Wings]: Moon Amore: Crystal Queen - Serenity Dress *Rare* - Serenity Wings
[Glitter]: Kathleen's - Soft Mesh Body Shimmer
[Pose]: La Baguette - Fiona 10 Mirror
::Body::
[Skin]: Insol - Seo - Peach
[Body]: Maitreya – Lara
[Hair]: Doux - Charlie @ Fetish Fair
[Hair Base]: L'Etre - Allyson
[Eyes]: Sucidal Unborn - Astrid
[Ears]: Swallow - Princess
[Shape] Custom Made by me.
::Clothing::
[Bodysuit]: Vanilla Bae - Farrah @ Fetish Fair
[Socks]: Empire - Ren
::Accessories::
[Collar]: Avanti - Katia Collar @ Fetish Fair
[Pasties]: Moon Elixir - Flower Child - Pasties
[Bindi]: Swallow - Indira Bindi
[Corset]: Moon Elixir - Flower Child - Corset *Rare*
[Rings]: SpotCat - Night Life @ Liaison Collaborative
[Pose]: La Baguette - Fiona 2
Today I have these gorgeous nails from 1990 called Gold Flame Nails to show you. These bento nails are rigged for Ebody Reborn, Kupra, Maitreya, Legacy, BBL and Peach mesh bodies. They come in a Long Square shape. Grab them @ the CakeDay Event from 9.13 - maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/CAKEDAY/164/132/27
Mainstore afterwards: maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Redwood/101/70/23
What else I'm wearing:
shape - my own
mesh head - Lelutka - Zora 3.1
skin - Nar Mattaru - Lilianna / Ghoul
eyes - Sucidal Unborn - Bruja Eyes
eyebrows - AntiSocial - Nitidus Eyebrows. maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Avandar/13/16/474
eyeshadow - Suicidal Unborn - Bruja / Eye Makeup Orange
teeth - The DeadBoy - Roedor Teeth
glasses - Arts&Gear - Round Glasses
jaw - Val'More - Prototype Jaw *older Engine Room Group Gift
hair - Camo - Yvonne Dreads
rings - Rawr - Chronos Nails
veins and scars - Tristan Flinders - Mort
I'm doing a close up shot so you can see these gorgeous new nails from 1990 called Ritual Set. These bento nails are rigged for Ebody Reborn, Kupra/Khara, Maitreya, Legacy M + F, BBL and Peach mesh bodies. They come in a Long Stiletto shape. Grab them @ the CakeDay Event from 9.13 - maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/CAKEDAY/164/132/27
Mainstore afterwards: maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Redwood/101/70/23
What else I'm wearing:
shape - Skoll - Pixi
mesh head - Lelutka - Ryn 3.1
skin - LeRonso - Niko / Porcelain
eyes - Sucidal Unborn - Bruja Eyes
eyeshadow and lipstick - Suicidal Unborn - Vampira
veins - Eerie - Veins. These are bom layer tattoos for Evox heads, eye and mouth veins. You can choose between blue and red veins, and there are 9 options, and 3 opacities and mirrored versions available. @ the mainstore : maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Badwater/225/110/2252
septum - Rich B. - Taipan Septum
ears - Swallow - XL Gauged Ears *new in mainstore
ear gauges - Miss Black - Bael - DARK&GOTH [FIX]. These come for Male and Female Ears. You get 13 colours for the plug and 7 glass designs to choose from. You can grab these @ the mainstore: maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Rosemist%20Isle/43/160/22
hair - Yomi - Haru
necklace - PFC - Trapped Soul
rings - Real Evil Industries - Raven Rings
pose - PiXit Poses - Muse
Crxdits:
Basic Jeans FULLPACK (Gianni)
BAMSE : Jawdropper - Raven
Modulus - Rafael Hair - Lelutka Size
PUNCH / Cross Earring R
RAVEN [HIEMAL COCO FLEECE SWEATER] GIANNI
[VALE KOER] CHAMPIONS SNEAKERS GIANNI M
mental illness
'another suicide attempt, why would you do that'
my family concerned, why they didn't knew that
all you have is talk with us, that's what we're here for
no one knows it isn't easy, when you're sucidal
feeling like a burden, do you know the feeling
Won't talk with nobody, rather stare at the ceiling
Don't want to be a problem, that's what I'm thinking
try to change my point of view with "just get a grip kid"
shape - Skoll - Pixi
mesh head - Lelutka - Ryn 3.1
skin - LeRonso - Niko / Porcelain
eyebrows - Ruda *now She Said Destroy* - Succubus
eyes - Sucidal Unborn - Bruja Eyes
eyeshadow and lipstick - Heron - Diablo
gold glitter on face - The Skinnery - Gold Glitter Set
veins - Eerie - Veins. These are bom layer tattoos for Evox heads, eye and mouth veins. You can choose between blue and red veins, and there are 9 options, and 3 opacities and mirrored versions available. @ the mainstore : maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Badwater/225/110/2252
septum - Rich B. - Taipan Septum
ears - Swallow - XL Gauged Ears *new in mainstore
ear gauges - Miss Black - Bael - DARK&GOTH [FIX]. These come for Male and Female Ears. You get 13 colours for the plug and 7 glass designs to choose from. You can grab these @ the mainstore: maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Rosemist%20Isle/43/160/22
hair - Doux - Hanni
crown - Antisocial - Obscurum Aureus. This is a unisex head dress item. Grab this magnificient piece at the mainstore: maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Avandar/13/16/474
claws - Codex - Xeno Claws set. They are not new, but they *are* new to me. These unisex claws are rigged for these male bodies: Legacy Jake, Kario, and Signature, and these female bodies: Ebody Reborn, Maitreya, Legacy, BellGenX, Kupra and Erika. The control hud gives you 7 HD Ring Metals, 4 HD Blade Metals, and you can hide/show each claw/ring. Grab this @ the mainstore: maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Watercolor/71/211/1369
shirt - Pseudo - Mika tank / Demons *older item
boots - 718 - Wrath Stompers - Excl. LoveSick
tattoo - Corazon - Diabla
pose - PiXit Poses - Muse (includes pedestal)
Took a break from all the chaos of Thanksgiving and Black Friday to make this little edit. I'm beyond obsessed with this outfit.
♥ᴄʀᴇᴅɪᴛꜱ♥
Head:Ryn-Lelutka
Shape:Ryo-Wren's Nest
Skin:Song-The Skinnery
♥ᴄʟᴏᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴄʀᴇᴅɪᴛꜱ♥
HAIR:-Mirage-Stealthic
Sweater:Overdose Bondage-Demon Doll
Nails:Almond Nails(texture Sorrow)-Sucidal Unborn
Mask:Binge Eater-Ghoul
Necklase:Tattoo Cross Choker-Demon Doll
[♐︎] Lεxїcα εlαn Λяcαδiαη - ꜰᴜʟʟ ᴄʀᴇᴅɪᴛꜱ
[♐︎] ꜱᴘᴏɴꜱᴏʀꜱ: [♐︎]
[♐︎] GENUS Project
[♐︎] Pumec
[♐︎] Monso
[♐︎] Sucidal Unborn
[♐︎] Psycho Barbie
✞ＨＥＡＤ ✞
✘ LeL // VELA Head
✘ LEX // miHD TrueShape ears
✘ nova // kiwi Hair
✘ Just Magnetized // Mara Eyebrows
✘ Suicidal Unborn // Beatrice Contact Lenses
✘ MILA // Burnout Eye Bags
✘ Suicidal Unborn // Maledicta Lower Lashes
✘ Suicidal Unborn // Ophelia's Mourning Contour
✘ MAENA // Blair Scar [Eye/cheek 20%]
✘ MAENA // SYBIL Skin [Crystal 1]
✞ ＰＩＥＲＣＩＮＧＳ ✞
✘ Suicidal Unborn // Spikora Piercing Set
✘ ᴀꜱᴄᴇɴᴛ // First Earrings [Lex True Shape 4 F]
✘ ᴀꜱᴄᴇɴᴛ // Lust Piercings [Medusa]
✘ ᴀꜱᴄᴇɴᴛ // Nexus Mid Lip Piercing
✘ ɪᴍᴘᴇʀɪᴀ // Devoted Touch [Fingers V1 & V2]
✞ ＢＯＤＹ / ＴＡＴＴＯＯＳ ✞
✘ REBORN by eBODY
✘ Sucidal Unborn // Sacrilegium Nails & Crosses
✘ Devinity // Jawbreaker w/ boobline [Fresh] @ ᴀꜱᴛʀᴏᴘʜᴇ
✘ MAENA // VESPER BODY VEINS [100%]
✘ SAXO // Cold Body [Soft]
✘ SAXO // Deformed Body [Soft]
✘ VUDU TATTOO // Thigh Scratches/Scars [40%]
✘ BoatAom // body/Prncess [Crystal 01]
✞ ＡＣＣＥＳＳＯＲＩＥＳ ✞
✘ Rancid // Maim Me Razor Necklace @
✞ ＯＵＴＦＩＴ ✞
+ Corset
+ Sleeves
+ Skirt
✘ ʙᴏʀᴅᴇʀʟɪɴᴇ // Thessa Fishnets [Black]
✘ ᴏᴅᴅ ᴅᴏʟʟ // Nina boots [Squish] @ Tres Chic
I'm on ᴘʀɪᴍꜰᴇᴇᴅ , follow me or don't its whatever. lol
I also use ꜰᴀᴄᴇʙᴏᴏᴋ, follow me there if you aren't already.
♰☽∘₊✧ sᴘᴏɴsᴏʀᴇᴅ ʙʟᴏɢ ᴘᴏsᴛ ✧₊∘☾♰
✞sᴘᴏɴsᴏʀ: : CULT :
♰☽∘₊✧──────────────────✧₊∘☾♰
꙳ : CULT : Sinzerella Fatpack
▸ Rigged for Ebody, Kupra, Legacy, Maitreya Lara-og, Maitreya Lara-x, and Nhuma
▸ HUD includes 21 colors for heels/shoes/straps (all with 2 latex options), 3 colors for soles, and 3 colors for metals.
▸ Released for Dubai Event (opens 20th of every month), in mainstore after event is over
♰☽∘₊✧──────────────────✧₊∘☾♰
♰☽∘₊✧ Other Credits ✧₊∘☾♰
▸ Hair: Carly - Angelic
▸ Makeup: Christmas Eyeshadow (Chimney Ash) - Martyr
▸ Outfit: Teva Fatpack - Rokins
▸ Piercings: Nexus Piercings - ASCENT
▸ Nails: Sacrilegium Nails - Sucidal Unborn
✞☽ Mainstore & Event LMs
Dubai Event - maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Horizon%20Beach/128/128/22
: CULT : - maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Cult%20Coven/155/67/33
Interno del Grattacielo Jin Mao, il ristorante che si intravede sul fondo è a un terzo dell'altezza complessiva dell'edificio.
Il treppiedi visibile nell'angolo in basso a sinistra è il mio grande cruccio su questa foto... ma non potete nemmeno immaginare la posa plastica ed acrobatica che ho dovuto assumere per fare la foto. Il bordo del "pozzo" alla sommità è più alto di una persona (io sono alta 1,74), e chiuso da uno spesso vetro (si intravede il riflesso), il tutto per prevenire tendenze suicide presumo... quindi mi sono dovuta allungare per poggiare il mini-treppiedi sul bordo e reggerlo con la mano, il tutto ovviamente alla cieca! Questo è il risultato migliore di una serie di scatti fatti con l'autoscatto.
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Inside Jin Mao Skyscraper... on the bottom you can see a restaurant, that's only at 1/3 rd of building total height.
The tripod on the corner is my biggest regret... but you can't imagine my "plastic and acrobatic" pose trying to take this picture (the edge was very high, and covered with a thick glass... against sucidal tendencies I suppose.... so I had to iper stretch me, my hand, my mini tripod and camera above it, and try different blind-shots before taking a good one....)
Jin Mao Tower (Height: 421 m) by Skidmore, Owings & Merrill LLP (Construction end: 1998) is in Shanghai (China). It has an observatory (with a floor space of 1,520 square metres) on the 88th floor, at a height of 340,1 metres. It's the largest and highest observation deck in China.
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VENI VIDI VISIT:
The BEST not-so touristy FREE WALKING TOUR of ROME www.venividivisit.org
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♰☽∘₊✧ sᴘᴏɴsᴏʀᴇᴅ ʙʟᴏɢ ᴘᴏsᴛ ✧₊∘☾♰
✞sᴘᴏɴsᴏʀ: : CULT :
♰☽∘₊✧──────────────────✧₊∘☾♰
꙳ : CULT : Sinzerella Fatpack
▸ Rigged for Ebody, Kupra, Legacy, Maitreya Lara-og, Maitreya Lara-x, and Nhuma
▸ HUD includes 21 colors for heels/shoes/straps (all with 2 latex options), 3 colors for soles, and 3 colors for metals.
▸ Released for Dubai Event (opens 20th of every month), in mainstore after event is over
♰☽∘₊✧──────────────────✧₊∘☾♰
♰☽∘₊✧ Other Credits ✧₊∘☾♰
▸ Hair: Carly - Angelic
▸ Makeup: Christmas Eyeshadow (Chimney Ash) - Martyr
▸ Outfit: Teva Fatpack - Rokins
▸ Piercings: Nexus Piercings - ASCENT
▸ Nails: Sacrilegium Nails - Sucidal Unborn
✞☽ Mainstore & Event LMs
Dubai Event - maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Horizon%20Beach/128/128/22
: CULT : - maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Cult%20Coven/155/67/33
Tattoo done by Sparta (Hollywood Rejects)
marketplace.secondlife.com/p/HollyWood-Rejects-Sucidal-Mi...
London-Edinburgh-London ‘Fixedwheelnut’s’ story
Saturday
I set of in the 8.30am group Saturday morning from Lea Valley youth hostel riding along with Ivo Miesen the crazy dutch guy of five languages fame it was only a few miles before we were shouting to the Italians “right, destra” to bring them back on course, some surprisingly steep hills around Broxbourne soon had me out of the saddle and surrounding people gasping “you mad ba**tard on a fixie!”. The course soon changed to rolling hills and I was away in a rhythm at a good pace and the first control at Gamlingay community centre was soon upon us.
I started to get a routine going early to lower the ‘Faff Factor’ get card stamped write down mileage and reset computer, wash and apply cream, eat drink and away.
On the second stage weather improved and became much warmer but also led to swarms of kamikazie black fly, >:( no sooner had I wiped my arms and face when another cloud of the little bu**ers hit me like a handful of sand, more rolling hills saw small groups forming as riders settled to their own pace to Thurlby Church Primary School, the display of pictures by the schools children was excellent including pics of bikes, peleton, groups and a selection of international flags lets hope they carry their love of cycling into their later years. 8)
The third stage was going well until I went of course for 10km, what are the two golden rules of Audax;
1/ Don’t follow someone else >:(
2/ Never ever forget rule number one >:( >:(
Bu$$er, ar5e, ba115, fuming at my own stupidity I stormed off on the flat roads to Lincoln youth hostel where Rob Bullyment was awaiting to stamp our cards, feeding up here I met up with Paul Welch, Mark Brooking, Lynn Francoli and the Japanese Willsden group we all set off towards Thorne but it wasn’t long before the ‘papyrus map scrolls’ or torn out pages of my atlas came into play to querie the route, luckily this put us back on track and we rode as a group as it got dark to Thorne rugby club, this might not sound like much but after 70km of pan flat long straight boring roads it is like an oasis in a desert, whats more the bar was still open “slight change to routine pint of real ale :P before bar shuts then get card stamped” nearing midnight we all opted for sleep and I grabbed 4 hours kip on the bar floor.
Total 233.33km @25.8km/h average, max 61km/h @ 191rpm
Sunday
Four am I got up really not wanting to but needs must stuffed my face with their finest cereals, toast and pasta meals and set off along more pan flat roads and soon caught up with the Willsden bunch again who set off slightly before me, we were treated to a beautiful sunrise at Howden just south of York but by now the flat roads were revealing their discomfort and riders were all twitching around on their saddles looking forward to a hill to get off them :-X, the Howardian Hills soon obliged and a rolling set of surprisingly steep hills had us climbing up past the Obelisk this is where I began meeting Patrick Field on his ‘Ratcatcher’ recumbent much of the day I spent passing him uphill and he passed me going down, “sometimes”, he suggested I should get some footrests fitted for the downhill sections, "but that would take half the fun out of it" I replied. We were soon at Hovingham for more food and drink.
Stage 6 had us rolling through more and occaisionally steeper hills to Eppleby but as the banter of PBP tales and previous LEL tales transpired the kilometres clicked by unnoticed and via the very picturesque ‘Wooden Bridge’ at Whorlton, we were through and out to Langdon Beck, my nervousness about this stage was unfounded, whilst the climb was long it was a reasonable gradient and I soon found a rythym and flew along passing people on gears, much to their disgust,.
Langdon Beck youth hostel [the highest in England] was a fantastic stop helpers practically fighting to serve you with great wit and banter such that you almost didn’t want to leave “and they did bacon sarnies” my favourite fuel second to jelly babies.
The route sheet said it was 10.9 km to the summit of Yad Moss from here but it actually looked more like 14km before I actually started descending, the climb itself was great fun I felt really good “bacon sarnie you see” and overtook others that had left before me I stopped at the top to take pics of the view and the last Belgian rider [ Toon Tanghe] I had passed as he came up, he kindly stopped and offered to take one of me at the top aswell, when I say the top this was about 11km but as I went round the next corner the road continued upwards before I began the frenzied 12km descent into Alston I had to keep using the brakes to control my cadence to avoid melting my thighs which were feeling much tighter by now, the steep cobbled road down through Alston was very dodgy and I was glad it was dry, I didn’t have to stop at Alston having been to Langdon Beck but popped in for a quick cuppa and bowl of rice pudding and fruit before setting off alone for the stage to Canonbie I sometimes feel better alone on a fixed with rolling hills just going at my own pace, staying at a slower pace on the hills can actually be harder work, so I kept a comfortable pace and rolled into Scotland at a 25.6km/h average, here I saw Phil(Mal Volio) along with Peter Marshall and other groups including John Radford all heading South with a cheery wave.
Canonbie was my second favourite control great support and food but rumours were abounding that if the next stage to Dalkeith and back were a stand alone ride it would be worth 3 AAA points I asked one of the helpers about the hills awaiting who just happened to be another fixie rider, “it must be a subconscious mind link”, he agreed they are tough but more in length than steepness so we swapped fixed tips on hubs and such, then stuffed and showered I found a comfortable space on the wooden floor and had 4 hours kip.
Total 341.3km @ 23.5km/h, max 57km/h @ 179 rpm
Monday D-day
Alone again I set off in the dark at a steady pace so as not to make any mistakes with the route and I was soon on the B709 valley road towards Eskdalmuir site of a small Tibetan monastery, the hills were spectacular and around every corner they just seemed to get bigger, the only dodgy thing here was the large Logging Lorries that stormed through the narrow road hitting verges and skipping around the tight bends , they reminded me of that old black & white movie ‘Hell Driver’s’. I met up with Bob McDowall and Mark Heffer who I know along here and we arrived in the early hours at Ettrick village hall, a small village in the middle of nowhere this proved to be the more surreal of controls, for as I piled biscuits onto my plate the chap behind the table said ;
[Scottish accent] “Nooooh, yer cannae have them biskits, their na’e my biskits” [Scottish accent],
me;”Can you not give him the money when he comes back”?
[Scottish accent] “NNOOOOHH!! Their na’e my biskits I canna’e take the money for them” [Scottish accent]
me; “OK then I’ll have a bacon roll please”
[Scottish accent] “Ahh, nooh the chefs asleep” [Scottish accent]
So I took what he could sell me and sat down and enjoyed it but this carried on and everyone who came in was heading for the biscuits eventually he covered them up.
This became the phrase of the ride and at every control from there on if we saw someone pick up biscuits there was a chorus of “NOOOHH!! Yer canna’e have them their na’e my biskits” ;)
From here the lower false flats out of Innerleithen proved hard work into a headwind and only served to make the next steeper part all the harder, we had our first light drizzly rain here and kept stopping to cape on and off and on and off in the end I opted for the boil in a bag look and left it on, this climb seemed to go on and on for several miles and had me alternating my climbing style to ease the back ache I was getting this eased as did the hills up to Dalkeith at Edinburgh.
Half way 11 am
Dalkeith Rugby Club proved to be an anti-climax to look at but still well controlled with good food and energy drinks glad to be halfway I felt more relaxed and at ease with the ride, as I eat my pudding Mark and Bob strolled in so again we left together, as my jelly baby stash was getting low I opted to stop at a garage and stock up and have a chocolate mars drink whilst they rolled on, after the return blast along the A7 I returned to the steep long Moorfoot hills and rolled past Bob and Mark, the loose sheep on the road kept everyones speed down on the descents so even with my controlled braking nobody passed me, on the next climb I passed Mark Brooking and Lynn Francoli on their way to Edinburgh and a few others the camararderie of cheery waves lifting our spirits on route.
The Ettrick control appeared much more normal in the afternoon and the beautiful Sue behind the counter happily sold us anything on the table, when Mark Heffer strolled in he was smitten and Sue became the topic of conversation for many a mile South. ;)
Heading from here back to Canonbie the climbs appeared much harder and steeper and soon had me tacking from side to side on the road “were they steeper or was it the miles in my legs?” well I wasn’t walking so just kept plugging away.
Back to Canonbie for tea and Rissotto and anything else I could stuff my face with without being sick. :P
Stage 11 from here to Alston proved to be the hardest for me, the hills as we reached the Pennines were steeper South than North but just rideable , the sun had set by the time we entered Alston and the temperature had dropped considerably, we all opted to continue to Langdon Beck and climb with warmed up legs rather than struggle over in the morning, so it was as we hit the cobbled wall of Alston, determined “or is that stubborn” I had to try and ride it I got half way up as far as the ‘Albion’ pub and could see the end of the cobbles but came to a halt and couldn’t budge the pedals so unclipped before falling and walked the next 50 yards until it levelled out , unknown to me Mark and Bob had got off at the bottom so I didn’t feel too bad.
We sat on a wall and stuffed an energy bar each into our faces before commencing the climb, this was the highest altitude but lowest point in the ride for me I was cold and tired climbing a steep long hill in pitch black hugging the white line in the middle of the road to avoid the drop off the edge, thankfully the sheep were asleep but a flurry of nocturnal rodents and rabbits were darting back and forth more of a problem on the descent than the climb which lasted forever in the dark, the rabbits in particular had a sucidal tendency to run to the pool of light in front of your wheel a bit like dolphins at the hull of a ship, the descent was just as bad if not worse as I felt so cold to be shaking and braking hard as the white line veered off in a different direction, so long was this descent I began to wonder if I had passed the hostel already but convinced myself they would mark it well and so they had eventually a red flashing LED light marked the entrance 11.55pm I had sanctuary,
Inside and warm, Heather and her band of merry helpers swarmed around providing soup, pasta, chilli con-carne on jacket spuds, excellent stuff to warm up a cold randonneur “but not ideal for atmospherics in a hostel bedroom” ;D ;) .
Once Bob and Mark turned up and we had all fed it was bed for three hours. Some of us snored slept more than others, "sorry lads". :-[
Total 327.56km @ 20.3km/h max 59km/h @184rpm
Tuesday
Nobody really wanted to get up it was so cold but “a mans gotta do what a mans gotta do” so grub up again and out to the cold as I got on my bike I realise my front tyre is flat so a quick tube change and we are off joined by Phil Magnus who is soon ahead again, 5 miles up the road I feel the front going squidgy again this time it proves to be a previously dodgy repair “oops only myself to blame for that”, repaired again we follow the rolling roads to Barnard Castle and arrive back at Eppleby village hall to see a large pile of bin bags where Mark throws his bike on the pile and falls next to it, cue a bunch of Belgians and Italians and myself taking his picture, inside the familiar face of Roger Philo was there to greet us and stamp our cards, inside we caught up with Phil Magnus again and a guy called Karl who knows Felix from C+ forum and had been told to look out for me Karl had left home midnight Friday night to ride 100 miles to the start at London only having breakfast and a catnap before starting off that’s dedication for you.
Between here and the next stop Hovingham we met up with the Italian group again still going strong but often the wrong way, at Hovingham I felt tired again and opted for a short sleep and let Bob and Mark roll on as we would only ride at different pace over the Howardian hills anyway, 30 minutes sleep and I felt like a new man and flew up and down past the Castle Howard Obelisk and not long into the flat stuff caught up with my compatriots again along with a Welshman Gwyn Roberts we all worked together into the wind towards Thorne here the discussion of PBP food comparisons came up and Mark retold how he was given a plate of veg and rice with a piece of chicken on top, he explained to the guy he was vegetarian could he do a veggie meal, he replied “Oui” and took the piece of chicken off the top ;D
Mark then added he didn’t eat anything with a face on it so I added “Oh dear Sue in Ettrick will be disappointed” ;D it was constant banter like this that kept us all in good spirits and the ride began to feel more like a tour than randonne`. ;D
The flat bit into Thorne had taken its toll on all of us and I opted for the prevention is better than cure method after slapping on my cream I put on my clean shorts with the other two pairs on top and adjusted my saddle slightly down this worked a treat and although at times uncomfortable I was never in pain.
The next stage into Lincoln at night was very hard going and just seemed to take much longer than it should have but get there we did just at midnight here we all had a good feed and slept 6 hours although my shower water ran cold just as I had soaped up not the ideal time for a cold shower but I just made it as quick as possible. “Brrrr"
Total 286.8km @ 23.3km/h, max 59km/h @ 181 rpm
Wednesday final leg
We awoke to a lovely day and after numerous bowls of porridge set of in bright but cool sunshine as we moved South it got warmer and de-layered I stopped for a hedge stop and set off to catch them up and found myself struggling into a headwind as I turned left towards Caythorpe a tractor overtook me and I just thought “that will do lovely” and sprinted up to its slip stream and sat there at 38 km/h dragging me back up to my mates shame he wasn’t going to Lea Valley ;) On this section here is where we left the flat stuff and were back in rolling hills where I saw Phil Chadwick[Mal Volio] and Peter Marshall going towards their finish at Thorne, ahead of me by time as they were closer to Thorne than I was to London, soon at Thurlby school here I met more of those heading North such as John Radcliffe, gingerly sitting down after suffering the Southern flatlands sudocream shorts abounded down here.
It reminded me of the old 'Colgate' toothpaste advert quote 'the ring of confidence' seeing this ring of white around the padding on riders shorts, "the ring of comfort" it could be a new ad for 'Sudocream' ;D
I phoned my youngest sister from here who does distance healing and she said she would work on energy, bums and knees, sceptically I said "yeah ok then".
We all set off together again into black skies and were happy about being nearly home but the rain started, fine at first and progressively heavier, settling into my pace I left Bob and Mark picking up geared riders as I went to Gamlingay our last control on the road. I left here with Peter Turnbull who had actually ridden 100 miles extra going off course poor lad and we set a good pace on our home stretch the steeper hills around Broxbourne soon had me on my own again, was this good feeling euphoria of nearly finishing or my sisters good work “who cares I was going well", soaking wet but feeling good I grouped up with several other riders in the final miles using my pidgeon French to help them navigate the final stretch and we all made it in at 7.20pm. to a round of applause .
Our own forums big Gavin Gilbert came up and shook my hand, the euphoria of finishing made it slip my mind of being soaking wet and I hereby apologise for the cold soggy handshake as all the water ran out of my track mitts., I chatted for a while and sought out the showers and dry clothes, then food and a few beers, Bob and Mark finished together and we all ate, eventually Peter turned up after getting lost again but still in good time.
Total 230.5km @ 21.7km/h, max 61km/h @191 rpm
A great ride in great company and terrific support from the helpers at all controls, and a big thanks to the organisers for coping with a logistical nightmare.
Cheers Steve
Total ride 1419.49km that includes my off route bits
Total time taken ; 106h 50m
Ride time 61h 58m = average riding speed 22.9km/h @ 70 rpm = approx 260260 turns of the pedals.
Sleep time 17h 30m
That leaves the remaining 27 hours faffing and eating and cleaning etc
Model/modelo:Gloria . 2008
.Maquillaje, estilismo, foto y edicion : por mi
.Make up, stylist,shot and edition: me
Today I went to a live show with these amazing artists. And it was so inspiring. Live music reminds me to keep going and inspires me and in so many different ways. This week I've been very lazy, and I didn't want to take any pictures. But that show tonight put me in the mood to go out and be creative. I'm not putting a picture for yesterday even though it was Halloween. It's going to be my reminder to always keep going foreward no matter how badly I feel like giving up. I have a lot to write tonight so, bear with me please.
There's a lot of things I'd like to say so I'm going to list them.
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I believe war has reason and that world peace will have it's day.
I believe love is love no matter what.
I believe music is the world's greatest inspiration
I believe in everyone
I believe this world will survive somehow
I believe that your choices make you
I believe all art is important
I believe I have an undiagnosed mental illness
I believe everyone is capable of spreading there wings and flying. Others have just forgotton how.
I believe that those who can't wait to get married are extremly pathetic
I believe in magic
I believe my wants are like a coin in a wishing well
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I want to live in a flat my whole life in a big city.
I want to grow up, I want to grow young, I want to stay at home my whole life, I want to leave and live my own life.
I want to surrond myself in beauty
I want to be beautiful
I want you to reach out to me instead of pushing me away
I want you to be sincerly happy
I want love
I want to learn all forms of art
I want someone to call and talk with me for hours
I want to go to your house and play guitar hero with you
I want to run through a car wash
I want to recieve letters, and notes, and doodles more often. They're the sweetest gift in the world.
I want everyone to see how beautiful the world really is
I want to experince advenutres
I want to scream all my secrets to the world
I want my father to see things through my eyes
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I don't ever want drugs coursing through my veins
I don't think I'm worthy of anyone special
I don't feel sorry for soilders that die at war or their families.
I don't want to live my life strapped to one place, one person, or one job
I don't believe in god
I don't like the idea of my body rotting away in the ground
I don't want to be the girl that will pick you up when you fall, no matter how many times you don't do it for me anymore.
I don't think there is a significant other for everyone
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I used to think about killing myself
I used to want to swim out to sea until I was too tired swim back in
I used to feel sorry for you
I used to love you
I used to think you were everything to me
I used to feel miserable
I used to cut
I used to wonder about what people would do if I was no longer breathing
I used to be sucidal. I don't think I am anymore
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Big huge spaces are beautiful, but they make me feel so small I can't breathe
I stopped because of you. Your the biggest jerk ever. You make me feel ugly, horrible, stupid, and unworthy of everything. But I will love you no matter what.
I know my sister will be more successful than me. So does my mother.
Parents who expect great things from their children often forget to tell them it's okay if they screw up. I feel sorry for you for this reason.
You are the greatest and sweetest boy I know. Whoever you fall in love with will be the luckiest girl in the world.
My scars are my own, and the fact that I am okay with it now, makes me feel happy.
I stayed in a relationship with you to proove everyone else wrong about you. I was wrong. Very very wrong.
I love the conversations we had over the summer, I don't understand what I did that made you hate me.
I miss kissing you, but I never want to kiss you again
Abostions don't bother me. At all.
I wish I could fly.
Ants are the grossiest things ever.
Feathers remind me that one day I'll be free from all of this.
It's not that I like girls more than guys. It's just I'd rather have a more emotional based relationship with a guy, and a more physical based relationship with girl. :/
Everybody talks about everybody
I wasn't mad that you got her, I was mad she got you
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I think about love
I think about my friends
I think about the "what if's"
I think about the past
I think about the future
I think about things that are important
I think about my actions
I think that if I grow up by just getting by, and going a community college just so I can go to college I will be absoutly miserable
I think about my family
I think about death
I think that you hiding something much bigger than yourself
I think too much
I think about being alive
I think life is easier for men and that makes me try harder
I think about the strange and the werid
I think education is a waste of time
I think about all the apolgies you owe me
I think about school
I imagine.
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I like kisses
I like hugs
I like Hello Kitty
I like my family
I like old and twisted trees. I feel connected to them.
I like music
I like listening to songs that were recorded live becuase everyone is happy and it reminds to keep smiling
I like my friends
I like memories
I like sitting cross-legged
I like polaroids
I like photography
I like sending letters. You know the ones with stamps?
I like being proud of who I am
I like being happy with myself
I like the stary night sky
I like the blue sky full of clouds
I like you
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I love life
For the record, this is purely fictional and i have NOT used ketchup. It's acryllic paint. This photograph was taken under great impulse! i was very fascinated with all the bottles of paint around me!!
Thanks for approving me to join this group ^_^
AK-69 (Avtomat Kangsanada 69)
Just a ridiculous weapon for confident sucidal or just use the weapon flipped :v
Can be only used properly by Gambut people :v
(at least it has some shapes there :v . Just for fun
What if you dont like it because that is so preset? No problem, I can delete it :v)
Sandhoppers obviously have the same problem as moths - flinging themselves at the light - or in this case, a campfire...
Not one of my usual posts. The cliff is 162m high. Lily thoroughly enjoyed the place, she was dancing and running around.
The vendor who screwed me over on the spraypaint the day prior hooked me up for a $1 on each of these tapes. For some reason tapes that were once .50 are now going up to $2. I don't know why but I'm not going to pay that much for them. Ended up scoring the paint as well for a dollar each as well as a couple other things. Might of made a mistake on a Motorhead '84-'85 Tour shirt I passed up on. He wanted $3 and I said $2. He took it out of my hands. The only reason I passed up on it is because as it was cut in half(yep, just like heshens wore them back in the day), it had holes in it and the sleeve was sewed back up. Unfortunatly, that shirt was scooped up no questions asked by somebody else in less that a minute. Oh well. Just check out those tapes. A hell of a score. Early thrash and speed, and some punk and hxc.
No I'm not sucidal!
I got this idea while I was at work, playing with a broken rubber band and thinking of making a noose out of it. For the "ring bell for service" bell, but of course, the rubber band was too small but I realized it would be perfect for a mini figure! Thats when the idea started. I intended to make it a guy at first,(So I'd get less "Are you ok?" emails.) but I couldn't find my girl picture tile fast enough and I felt like making a gay statement would over shadow the suicide itself.
. . . to a temporary problem.
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This video is not here for fun.
In the past two weeks two people in the small town where I grew up committed suicide.
One was a boy, only 16 years old. I was unacquainted with him, but that makes it no less a tragedy. In a town where the high school has only about 400 students such a needless death hits hard.
The other was a man I didn't know well. We were what I refer to as friendly acquaintances. We were connected first because he provided a service to my business when I was self employed and also because we worked for the same company although at different locations. He was the sort who always seemed happy and was a friend to everybody. He had touched many people in a positive way in a small Midwestern town of about 4500. I have no clue what may have brought him to such desperate measures.
The world can be a harsh place, but there are resources to help.
If you are contemplating taking your own life, please be aware you are not hurting only yourself. Please seek assistance.
If you know someone you suspect may have sucidal thoughts, act now to assist them in getting help. Don't wait to see if they are really serious. By the time you know it may be too late.
Call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline
* * * * * 1-800-273-TALK (8255) * * * * * *
For more information visit their website at www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org