Finding Alice (again)
Sorry for being so MIA on here, flickr! I've had a rotten few weeks, bottom of the barrel type stuff. I could feel the depression dog nipping at my ankles, and for someone who has never experienced truly unrelenting lethargy, hopelessness and constant lack of energy it really has thrown me off guard!!
Luckily my inner self-awareness meerkat has pricked it's ears up and I'm taking care of it, and of myself. I was doing some research on Self Love last night, and had a think and wrote this up:
Last night I realised that
"Self love" isn't blocking pain from entering you
It isn't hissing at the enemy, or drowning in self pity
Or promising yourself to love less, next time
To care less, to allow less to hurt you
Self love is not becoming hard, strong
Self love is allowing yourself to stay soft
Self love is allowing things to come and go as they will
And being peaceful in the knowledge that you will want to restore yourself
Should you become damaged in the process.
Self love is not self protection.
It is self preservation, it is the commitment of gardening and nourishing your own soul, even through the winter
Learning the ability to hold yourself at your weakest
And acknowledging that this is very hard to do.
So, next time your self love involves building a wall
Look at the wall, brick by brick, and take it down with care, not because you don't need walls
but because you owe yourself the view behind it.
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Finding Alice (again)
Sorry for being so MIA on here, flickr! I've had a rotten few weeks, bottom of the barrel type stuff. I could feel the depression dog nipping at my ankles, and for someone who has never experienced truly unrelenting lethargy, hopelessness and constant lack of energy it really has thrown me off guard!!
Luckily my inner self-awareness meerkat has pricked it's ears up and I'm taking care of it, and of myself. I was doing some research on Self Love last night, and had a think and wrote this up:
Last night I realised that
"Self love" isn't blocking pain from entering you
It isn't hissing at the enemy, or drowning in self pity
Or promising yourself to love less, next time
To care less, to allow less to hurt you
Self love is not becoming hard, strong
Self love is allowing yourself to stay soft
Self love is allowing things to come and go as they will
And being peaceful in the knowledge that you will want to restore yourself
Should you become damaged in the process.
Self love is not self protection.
It is self preservation, it is the commitment of gardening and nourishing your own soul, even through the winter
Learning the ability to hold yourself at your weakest
And acknowledging that this is very hard to do.
So, next time your self love involves building a wall
Look at the wall, brick by brick, and take it down with care, not because you don't need walls
but because you owe yourself the view behind it.
177/365