Spi-V
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I've really been having the urge to shoot naked lately and most of my pics have been with skin I've finally figured it out today. I've been feeling very vulnerable lately I feel like I've been putting my self out there in all aspects of my life and its very scary.
But I've done it knowingly and on purpose and I'm not gonna run scared into my hole again! I'm staying out there and letting people in letting people see me and whatever happens because of it will happen and I'm not gonna run away!
A really good example is this "person" (hey you) some of you asked about since I wrote what I wrote on day 141 and after ive replied "NO" to your question "do you have a boy friend?" the response was the same " be careful!! You might get hurt" but that’s exactly the point. No I don’t want to get hurt, nobody does, but Its about putting myself out there I have to be in those situations that make me FEEL!! In those situations that make me vulnerable I've been staying away from that for years! And if I want to learn how to open my heart I have to start doing things that are scary! And I have to go on roads I don’t know where they will lead me but I have to go !! I have to be there
Besides my old and wise soul knows that no one can ever hurt me only I can … and my heart is by far the strongest most balanced and wise organ in my body! It is time though to let people in to have a look around…
The pics the curator chose for august are also making me feel very very very vulnerable and very OUT THERE very naked!! That’s also been throwing me off abit im starting to get really scared. People are starting to notice me and look at me I walk in the street and people are looking (well men mostly) but it never use to be like that! I was always in the back round never in the front! but i think Im in the front now ...of my own life!
And it’s a weird place to be when your use to the dark alleys of your anxieties! And i think that’s why I feel so naked… I feel raw!!
And now is when it gets tough! Staying in this rawness and not running away and putting all my guards up again! thats the hard part.
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I hope I don’t sound arrogant and conceited!!
(see that me juging my self !!)
144/365
I've really been having the urge to shoot naked lately and most of my pics have been with skin I've finally figured it out today. I've been feeling very vulnerable lately I feel like I've been putting my self out there in all aspects of my life and its very scary.
But I've done it knowingly and on purpose and I'm not gonna run scared into my hole again! I'm staying out there and letting people in letting people see me and whatever happens because of it will happen and I'm not gonna run away!
A really good example is this "person" (hey you) some of you asked about since I wrote what I wrote on day 141 and after ive replied "NO" to your question "do you have a boy friend?" the response was the same " be careful!! You might get hurt" but that’s exactly the point. No I don’t want to get hurt, nobody does, but Its about putting myself out there I have to be in those situations that make me FEEL!! In those situations that make me vulnerable I've been staying away from that for years! And if I want to learn how to open my heart I have to start doing things that are scary! And I have to go on roads I don’t know where they will lead me but I have to go !! I have to be there
Besides my old and wise soul knows that no one can ever hurt me only I can … and my heart is by far the strongest most balanced and wise organ in my body! It is time though to let people in to have a look around…
The pics the curator chose for august are also making me feel very very very vulnerable and very OUT THERE very naked!! That’s also been throwing me off abit im starting to get really scared. People are starting to notice me and look at me I walk in the street and people are looking (well men mostly) but it never use to be like that! I was always in the back round never in the front! but i think Im in the front now ...of my own life!
And it’s a weird place to be when your use to the dark alleys of your anxieties! And i think that’s why I feel so naked… I feel raw!!
And now is when it gets tough! Staying in this rawness and not running away and putting all my guards up again! thats the hard part.
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I hope I don’t sound arrogant and conceited!!
(see that me juging my self !!)