week thirteen

this is what you get from trying to be disciplined.

even more work.

 

last night I wrote down everything that is bothering me right now. I made paper cranes out of the sheets.

 

school is taking over my life. all I've been doing is studying. on monday and tuesday for my spanish exam on wednesday. on wednesday, thursday, friday, saturday and today for the four exams I have next week. four exams. and I feel so unprepared.

 

I made a list of things I wanted to do/not do this week.

1. not be on the computer till 7:30pm (except for checking my mails and looking up information for school work).

2. do sports.

3. study in time.

4. do my homework.

5. stop biting my nails.

 

1. I only broke this rule two times. I'm proud of myself for staying away from the computer and not getting distracted. I will probably do the same thing next week.

2. I did.

3. almost. I feel like it isn't even possible to study in time.

4. yes. there hasn't been much, but I did it. except for the things I had to take care of over the weekend. I do not have time for that.

5. I did. I hope I finally stopped perennially.

 

I don’t have any free time. I feel guilty when I take pictures, because concerning school it is wasted time. I think it isn’t, but I can’t help myself. there are 9 days left until I have a break from school. 9 days and 6 exams. I wonder what I have done to deserve this. I am exhausted. I may say this often, but it’s the truth. I want this to end.

 

my hair is not as dark as it looks like in these pictures.

 

 

[december 7 – 13, 2009]

 

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