Crushing

Jealous, envious, angry, mean-spirited, unfriendly, cold hearted, guilty, run over, crushed. All things that I am feeling. All for stupid reasons. All because I want to "win" a competition that isn't even a competition. It shouldn't be this way. I should be happy to see good people succeed, but I'm not. I'm so fucking self-absorbed that I am angry because it is not me that is succeeding. I never succeed. I always fail. I always end up where I don't want to be.

 

Fuck you people that put my mind in this place. Fuck you people that made me insane. Fuck you people that turned me into this person I don't want to be. I know. I know you don't care, but I do. I'm the one that has to fight my way out. Instead, I am hurtling toward failure...

Done