Orange You Glad?

orange you glad that,

tho' I contain multitudes,

I smile like this?

 

*responses in haiku-form will be generously rewarded*

 

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Apparently, in my last photo, I looked sad / lonely / scared / et al. I do appreciate the concern and sincerely apologize if my retort came off as rude (it wasn't intended as such, as I imagine your comments were those of concern - not criticism). I am 'alone' on my vacation, but I have always sought solitude and time away from people so I can occasionally clear my head and heart. You may have seen feelings in my eyes and/or demeanor that I'm in denial or unaware of. I'm in a transitional moment -- finding a new home, new job (hopefully), new lots of things. I also am also deeply saddened by my father's condition and the rapid degeneration of his mind and life. I feel this every second, every minute, every hour, every day. I cannot run away from it and have stopped trying to. I love my father as much as anything in the world, so I feel incredibly guilty and angry at my own fear to spend time with him. I do see him and help him often. And it hurts. And I carry this burden daily and it clearly shines through, despite my best attempts to conceal it. I care about you all very much and know that the feelings are mutual. So, contrary to my short-lived comment in earlier response to you, I thank you for your attentiveness and concern, and am happy that you picked something out that I ought not to deny the existence of.

Done