crashed....

i crashed the other day.

i was feeling good, just havin' a regular eventless day, happy knowing that i finally have money coming in and that Tuesday i'd be able to go to the hospital and get back on my meds................and then it happened; i started to rapidly fall into a state of depression so bad that i fell into a catatonic state, which is usually what happens when i crash. all i could feel was this pain and deep despair and hopelessness; i kinda felt like my heart was collapsing. i sat leaned up against the wall motionless probably for about an hour; then when i came out of it, sort of, i went upstairs and sat in my bathroom, in the dark.

This is one of three photos displaying me after i crashed, trying to pick up the pieces in my mind.

Done